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The concert is over and I miss them already, Cuarteto de nos, mis papĂĄs ay ay
Also!! They said they were gonna put out a surprise before the year ends. The new album is probably gonna release next year aw
#!!! crying Roberto Musso... robertooooo come back soon i love you robertooo !!!#i will have to wait till Cuarteto de nos 2025 :( but ill wait#also crying bc will wood is on tour and I'll nevwr get to see him live#he should come to Argentina we make such a great audience believe me#actually I don't know !!! but !! i wanna jump and cheer and cry and i feel sad i didn't get to give roberto a hug#he did however throw kisses and hugs and waved to the whole audience but still#i wanna tell him i love him aughhhh i love him so much#i am really happy i got to see them i was like !!! wow I can't believe Roberto Musso and the whole gang is like. right over there !!!#for a second time#this time the people were really more tame than last year. almost too tame lol#good because i saw a lot of children in the show
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dont get me lit. this fic has me squirming and crying DONT PLAY.
FIRST OF ALL AUFGHFFHF UR TELLING ME THEYRE FRENEMIES?? ALREADY BUSTED. the way the reader was like âi want you bothâ WHAT A WHOREEEE⊠(me too, girl, me too)
âyoâ came. tojis voice?? saying yo??? DROOLING FUCK ME SILLY. âgirl, byeâ sassy ass bitch.. âinspiration, she saysâ âspit it outâ STOPPTPYOTOTOTOR THEYRE SO FINEEEE.
the banter⊠him calling him a bum with the shut up.. ugh i need to get team tagged by frenemies irl. SUKUNA BITING THE PANTIES IM INTO THAT IM GONNA ACC SCREAM RN AUSGDGDHEUSHE THEN TOJI FUCKS MY THROAT IM LITERALLY GEEKING
toji has a happy trail. im walking through the trail to the destination of his tip. âspit the fuck on itâ MDGGGFHFFFH YESSIR đ» sukuna and cunt slapping DONT GET ME LIT. âeyes up here, eyes on meâ im on fire.
AUGHHHH DID THEY JS LAUGH WHILE FUCKING ME IM GONNA START SQUIRTING THATS THE HOTTEST SHIT EVER I LOVE WHEN GUYS ACT LIKE BROS IN SMUT IM SO HAPPY RN đ»đ»đ»đ»đ»đ»
âyou coachin me how to fuck?â please. PLSPLSPLSPLPLSPLSPLSPSLPLSPSLS idk why im saying pls but PLEAASEEE âčïžâčïž
âdont ya big guy?â i know you cant hear me, but i just moaned. BIG GUY?? BIG GUY????? im so lit call me mars im actually LIT ON FIREEE, SZA WAS RIGHT LIFES BETTER ON SATURN BC IM CURRENTLY BURNING IT DOWN.
A HEADLOCK???? HEALDOCK??/?1?1?2? IM ACC CRYING NOW I CANT DO THIS MY FINGERS ARE STUCK IN A CERTAIN MOTION IM PARALYSE DRNBEJSNENRBHEJE âupsie daisyâ SRARATATWTWFEFEGEG AUGGHH MFFGGGHH IM GONNA ACC TOUCH MYSELF IM DONE.
âlet her suck on your tits, big guy.â âwanna make toji a whiny little bitch?â can they make out đ im hoping they do can they make out đ BOAFFFFF???????????? YESSIREE THATS WHAT I LIKE TO HEAR. oh?? âact like i wont k.o you right nowâ DROP DOWN STRIP AND FUCK FIGHT ON THE RING ILL BE THE REFEREE, FIRST TO MAN SQUIRT IN MY MOUTH LOSES đŁïžâŒïž no? okay. lets see what they do next đ»
âdonr play, yk it isâ EEEEEEEEE IM GEEKED. BEND OVER??? ITS ACC YHAT KIND OF PARTY?? đ§ wait idk what to say.. the girl was too stunnned to speak?? wait. what? WHAT??
you fucking ended it when it was gonna get oily. đ but its okay i forgive you bc you made this divine ass fic i WILL be getting permanent finger cramps bc of you and thank you for such, im literally crying and kicking my feet :P
â PEARL ANONNN <3
UR SO SWEEEEEET THANK YOU SM FOR READING đđđđđđđđ«¶đœ i always appreciate ur commentary sm u dunno how much this means :,)
iâm glad u liked the banter đââïžđââïž tehe the best part for that fic was the dialogue between them bc aaaaaa. I NEEDTHEM SOOOO BADDDD hehe the ending i knowww right, it came to me last minute n i was like wait this is kinda đđđđ
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So I just got out of the dentist and I was thinking of something random after getting my cavities filled
How would all the characters in the au react to getting a procedure done at the dentist (it feels weird IM SORRY ABOUT THE QUESTIONS ONCE MORE THIS AU IS TOP TIER FAVORITE AU)
AAAHHH THANK U SO MUCH >.<!!! AND DW SEND ME WHATEVER IDC!
OK LETS DO THIS!! HOW WOULD THEY REACT TO THE DENTIST!?!?
This sort of turned into more of a rant about their teeth then how they act at the dentist..
(Obligatory AU masterpost link)
Eddie - simple. Eddie doesnât go to the dentist. Mf does not take care of himself, he doesnât wanna hear some guy tell him to brush his teeth dont tell him what to do >:(
Frank - terrified of the dentist. Crying n shaking he doesnât wanna be there :( theres no dentist related/teeth trauma with him??? If thats a category, so theres no like trauma related reason for him to be scared if you were curious.
Julie - shes perfect in every way she doesnât care. She does have monster sharp teeth, so if the dentist makes a comment sheâll bite their hand off. She is a perfect girlboss.
Sally - also doesnt go to the dentist. Lets be real, her teeth are fucked. Cocaine literally causes so much teeth grinding and jaw clenching it has its own term. Itâs called Coke Jaw.
Poppy - poppy does not have teeth.. is there a beak specialist? Do you have to brush ur beak..?
Barnaby - perfect dog toothers :D he knows its all standard stuff and knows what theyâre doing, brushes twice a day n flosses hes got perfect toothers heheheh
Howdy - i love drawing Howdyâs teeth. Thats weird probably but ohmygod hes got little fangs and bottom ones n heheheh >:D anyway hed probably complain about going to the dentist, heâs like aughhhh i dont wanna spend money on this shiiitittttttt
Wally also doesnt have teeth
#welcome home#welcome home opposite au#welcome home au#eddie dear#frank frankly#sally starlet#howdy pillar#julie joyful#barnaby b beagle#poppy partridge#poppy âmaâ partridge#Wally darling#thanks for the serotonin!
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ANYWAY...
last night, violet finally told me about the vacation he took last weekend đ„° the only problem was that we were on the phone for two and a half hours and i didn't get to sleep until midnight. i didn't mind that, though â he sounded happy when i told him i was going to be home in about two weeks. it won't be for long, but i'm definitely going to be spending quite a bit of time with him if i can.
it's kinda embarrassing though bc for the first three-ish minutes of the call, i was kinda just staring at my phone like đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„° like i was NOT listening to a single word he was saying, i just genuinely missed his voice so much, and the fact that he was giving me a legit play-by-play of his entire vacation was so unserious đ like okay, whatever you say gorgeous
but once again, i nearly said those three words. like as i was saying my good nights, i paused for like two seconds bc i was THIS đ€đŒ CLOSE to telling him that i love him. i don't really.. know how to gauge when a good time to tell him would be. hell, i don't even know if he feels the same. but considering the fact that we've been so.. idk, dedicated? i just...UGHHHHHH I WANNA SAY IT BUT I DONT BUT AUGHHHH
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Bro I'm so pleased that you love this silly little au I thought of it makes my heart so full and I've been happy stimming from all your responses like I'm so touched also that little idea you had about sick Nikki is sending me dude, like how can I not make it canon to the au now! ( Also to clarify they can get sick in purgatory, they just can't die from illness) Thank you so much for being so kind to me and entertaining my silly ideađ„ș. <3 I have a few more things figured out about the lore if your still willing to read.
When all is forgiven between them, Nikki notices that Mick's hair would always get in the way of his eyes, so he starts braiding Mick's hair for him(he sometimes weaves flowers into them)
The first night Nikki is dead, obviously him and Mick aren't on the best of grounds but when nighttime rolls around and they both crawl into their own beds in their own rooms in the middle of the night Mick hears his door creak open, he freezes and fears for the worst, that somehow some skinwalker has come into their home only to feel a pare of very familiar strong arms wrap around his waist and a familiar face to be pressed into the side of his neck. Nikki had crawled his way into Mick's bed, unsure and unstable in his new reality and in the safety of his bandmates bed, Nikki cries himself to sleep, thinking that Mick was uncontious and unaware of him. The next morning Mick wakes up alone.
When all the Motley guys show up and they all start living in the house Mick almost never gets to shower in hot water anymore as some people (read: Vince) use all the hot water and when he complains Vince is just like well if you wanna take a steamy shower why don't you jump in with me one day.
Tommy becomes the resident cook because out of all of the guys he's the one that can make something that's the most edible.
Nikki and Mick make out infront of the barn once before the others show up and when little fucker walks out and sees them Mick instantly stops kissing Nikki and when he's like, hey wtf? Mick is just like, I can't she's watching, cause he thinks she's gonna come seek revenge from him when he's vunrable đ
so sorry, you can totally tell me if I should stop or if I'm being annoying, hope you have a great night!
ahhhhh I'm always so happy to receive your asks <33333 and I'm so glad you like my idea so much, I feel so honoured you're including it into canon đ đ
the hair braiding omg!!!! so sweet <333
and I can totally picture Nikki's first night on the farm aughhhh and the next morning he'll just act like nothing happened but Mick knows lmao
brb gonna be thinking about Vince/Mick shower sharing for the foreseeable future đłđđ
I totally support moderately competent cook Tommy đȘ
LITTLE FUCKER YESSS always keeping Mick on his toes xD
Once again I cannot wait to read this <333333
#anonymous#ask robin#so sorry for the super late response. life is tough right now and i am very tired orz#NONETHELESS your asks and this au always make me SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!!!#afterlife au
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omniscient reader's viewpoint liveblog day 3 đȘ (chs. 7-11: ep. 2 - protagonist)
reading this on the subway train as the author intended. YJH INTRO TIME LET'S GOOOOOOO
the korean government must have scrambled those jets quickly!!!!! too bad it's monster food now
'It was my turn to be a clown.' - it's always your turn to be a clown, kdj
i genuinely don't think anyone else survived the train other than kdj's group and yjh. between culling everyone who made a fuss at first and the difficulty of deciding to take a life and acting on that decision.......1/30-50 probably isn't an unrealisitic number of survivors
lgy is truly the 10yo kdj stand in ........i feel so bad for the kid. i hope kdj can learn to love him as much as sys
i know there's at least two sponsorship selections....possibly a third one after the 7th scenario to account for the new incarnations, and maybe a fourth after the 10th scenario to account for the new incarnations that showed promise later? that makes the most sense to me
WHO WAS YSA'S SECOND POTENTIAL SPONSOR??? aughhhh i wanna knooooow
'I felt uncomfortable and excluded this guy.' - LOOOOOOOL oh god damn that's harsh. i'm sure kdj was nicer about it in the webtoon
does.....does uriel sponsor evil incarnations so she can force them to be nice? that is. so fucking funny. i love her.
the star stream trolling sp by giving him weak modifiers is also hilarious
i gotta say, kdj is great at dropping foreshadowing...takes like 100 chapters for the way of being strong without a constellation hint to come to fruition
if twsa had a fandom, there would 1000% be diehard yjh/lhs shippers by the way kdj describes lhs
it's actually Mino Soft in the novel???? nope. rejected. bad vibes, not as funny. not changing this now
lhs is also a reader......i love him...........also i need to take this into account in the future and contrast him with the other mentioned readers (kdj, ysa, hsy)
'Indeed, Confucianism was still strong in South Korea.' - KDJ AND HIS THOUGHT PROCESS IS INFURIATING AND HEARTBREAKING AUUUUGH. he can't understand why people would want to check up on his parents other than confucianism......
yjh doing his best to recreate the shining is never not funny. does he do this every turn????
i'd be curious to know the percentage of incarantions that survived the 1st scenario without killing a human. 1/100 maybe?
kdj is surprised by yjh's high strength this early...i wonder if that's FORESHADOWING.......
3 or 4 skills per beginner attribute is probably average, judging by lhs' profile and kdj's own attribute to skill ratio
kdj has a good way of describing the scene in as few words as possible (specifically, this description of the broken bridge). broad brushstrokes, as it were. i need to remember that.
'I was a bit surprised.' - also noting that kdj has started minimizing the description of his own emotions....he's probably feeling less overall tbh, with the 4th wall
...i guess demonic heads get reformed since i distinctly remember kdj describing knw's corpse as 'just a torso' earlier in this episode. pretty sure that was reflected in the webtoon too
'This couldn't be the exclusive skill of Han Myungoh, who had a big belly.' - this guy is as skinny as a rake in the webtoon WHERE IS HIS BELLYYYY
kdj is controlling his breathing again....but also telling himself to calm down .........it really is a habit
it took less than 5 minutes for kdj to get epically betrayed and abandoned lol
bookmark!!!! i wonder what the max level of understanding is.....
'Despite him being a hated figure, I couldn't help feeling strange emotions.' - đđđđ interesting kdj states this when knw's last words were 'Don't want to die'
yjh just destroying zombies barehanded is. so great.
'The man destroyed all the demonic people threatening me and appeared in front of me. An overwhelming force without any weapons. He beat the demonic people with only two fists.' - YJH LITERALLY DESTROYED ALL THE ZOMBIES ON THE BRIDGE BAREHANDED I'M SIMPING SO HARD *swoons*
'His personality had worn out after going through regression three times. His principles were cut away in order to maintain his sense of self. The current Yoo Joonghyuk would never hesitate for the sake of his purpose.' - see, this is a much more nuanced and empathetic description than 'lost his humanity' in the webtoon translation. like killing people for your own purposes is not just as human a thing to do as choosing to save other people. it always struck me as a particularly harsh way to word yjh's personality change, esp. when yjh is kdj's blorbo and kdj knows how yjh got to this point.....i think the webtoon in general tries to flatten kdj's low and high points to make him more plateable for a wider audience, which i noticed when comparing scenes side by side for my fic. which is exactly why i prefer reading the source material of stories over any adaptation - things get lost in the medium translation even with the best adaptations.
kdj specifically calls yjh a professional gamer. which is good because i literally can't see yjh streaming to any audience pre-scenarios except maybe for contract-mandated team streams. he can't perform on command and doesn't give a shit about entertaining anyone except maybe his family. bad karoke aside lol
'I liked, hated, grumbled, and cheered Yoo Joonghyuk on. That's why I stuck with Yoo Joonghyuk for over 3,000 chapters.' - translation of this line in the webtoon is a bit more flowery, but i like this barebones description. it's charming how utiltarian kdj is with everything he describes, truly a reader to the core
'Yet Kim Namwoon died and the others survived.' - huh. i guess yjh saw them through the window....but shouldn't they have seen him through the window when he was kicking down the door? maybe he shattered the window after his first kick and made it hard to see through, especially if the window has wire mesh
'I started telling the story. I told the story using as much concise, short, and accurate vocabulary as possible.' - yup, that's how kdj tells stories. at least he's honest about this.
'His eyes changed and memories that seemed to belong to Yoo Joonghyuk crossed my mind.' - kdj get images along with people's thoughts if they're remembering something??? that's fascinating. tho it would be absolutely hilarious if this was a mousou telepathy situation (fic idea??)
'Due to the impact of Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint, I could feel Yoo Joonghyuk's mental pain and suffering.' - kdj gets feelings too ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and yjh is feeling bad about killing everyone in his car even on his 3rd turn AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
'I have never seen a protagonist as careful as Yoo Joonghyuk.' - i'm simping too, kdj
augh reminder to myself to backtrack in proofreader and standardize the lie detection messages - the epub isn't consistent with the format of them. gonna have to check if the webtoon is consistent or not
like how kdj never says he's a seer and lets yjh completely misunderstand. peak trickster behaviour
yjh.... bringing himself to allow another seer to be his companion after the 2nd scenario.........repeating the word in his head...................i'm tearing up, i'm not even kidding rn
'Now Yoo Joonghyuk's face was as difficult as a philosophy book with no commentary written.' - i see kdj failed philosophy, just like me
'Yoo Joonghyuk was smiling brightly like something made him happy. Son of a bitch.' - W E E P I N G YJH IS HAPPY HE HAS A COMPANION THAT UNDERSTANDS HIM AND CAN HELP HIM i'm i'm đđđđđ
'âŠDamn, I have to use that method after all.' - such a good cliffhanger ahhhhhh
#orvblogging#readblogging#literally just me simping and crying over yjh for half of this post#i am weak to sad pretty men that are fucked in the head
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mtmte liveblog issue 35
ooooh baby functionist universe time
the cover with the neon âeverything is fineâ sign is rlly good but also the pile of dead data stick bots makes me so sad omg noooo they're so cute leave them alone :(Â
minimus and rewind...! its so cool seeing them interact
also I just love the crowd shot, and you can immediately see that there are a ton of data stick bots like rewind around - which isn't what weâre used to at all
also some good ole totalitarian govt stuff like the âyou are our eyesâ sign (which, in retrospect, is fucking evil damnnnn)
also I'm so [eyezoom] on this functionist universe stuff bc like, this is basically the only time we ever see dominus be a character (rather than hearing abt him thru other characters), and even so he remains pretty ambiguousÂ
like, minimus clearly isn't thrilled that dominus didn't show up to see him at the space airport or w/e when they've been apart for two million years - and even tho we later see why he didn't show up, it still shows that there's some tension there
the amount of crowd shots in this issue is insaneÂ
oooof, the fact that they sold luna 2 - and to the black box consortia, who we just heard about last chapter when they previously got into a space battle w/the galactic council and the djd
fu!minimus being part of the primal vanguard is interesting, I wanna see more about that. what was he doing w/them for 2 million years?
rewind just casually saying this completely fucked stuff, like that the govt âoutlawed the intellectual classâ and âdeported the knock-offsâ (which I'm assuming is cold constructed bots?)
I really like the sense we get thru minimus and rewindâs convo that all of this fucked up stuff has happened slowly enough that its become almost normal - like, they talk about it casually, even though its clear they don't necessarily agree with any of itÂ
plus the sense of âeven if things get really bad ill be okayâ that both rewind and minimus seem to adhere to - rewind having been upgraded from being in the disposable class due to his connection w/dominus, and minimus saying âI like to think that obsolescence is something that happens to other peopleâÂ
I love all the fucked up signage this issue. âtake pride in being a means to an end,â yikes
god and the fact that there isn't MORE data sticks, there's just LESS of other alt modes bc of how many alt modes the govt has wiped out completely...
oof, and continuing the whole âslow changeâ thing - minimus saying that âthe council never touches the astro class,â and maybe that used to be true, but the govt will keep pushing that line, clearly...
and we get to see minimusâs alt mode! altho we the readers know that this isn't minimusâs true form...
âamazing, the lengths some people will go to cross class boundaries,â minimus says, as if he isn't doing exactly what rewinds describing, but even moreso as a loadbearer wearing an entire suit of armor
and then the casual public execution of the last lunabot...oof.
love the âcybertron. the present dayâ text overlay...I was so confused about this when I first read it lmao. I figured it had to be some sort of au/quantum nonsense but STILL
back on the lost light, chromedome is going full kool-aid man on rewinds door
mannnnn I absolutely love the plotline of rewind 2 and chromedome 1...im so glad the story acknowledges that they ARE different, they did experience different stuff on their own lost lights, and rewind 2 being a quantum duplicate doesn't mean he had the same experiences as rewind 1...
and I love so much that chromedome just Doesn't Get It, bc of course he wouldn't - heâs too relieved that rewind is back to even consider that its not quite the same, that the rewind he was forced to blow up is still dead (which is a fucked up thought, so of course chromedome, the master of pushing the past away and moving right along, would want to avoid thinking about that in favor of continuing his relationship w/rewind 2)
it also makes a lot of sense that rewind, who records everything and puts a huge emphasis on history/the past, would be hyperaware of all the differences between him and rewind 1, and his chromedome and this chromedome
AUGHHHH and chromedome referring to an offer he made to rewind that was pretty clearly âif your memories of the djd slaughter are too much, I can remove them for youâ ooooof...I love these two so much, like...their absolute opposite approaches to trauma is fascinating
oooh mannnnn and then rewind starts ârememberingâ stuff from the functionist universe...the plot thickens...!
I really like how one of the main âthingsâ in a lot of tf universes is energon/energy shortages, its interesting when the angle is kinda like, âenergon is a finite resource and the methods to obtain more often involve destroying other planets,â that's a pretty unique, alien problem for the tfs to have
it also makes sense that the functionists would form partially in response to that (perceived) shortage, and any sort of scarcity would push them further into their extremist views
I like how expressive the characters with visors are...its cute...
poor rewind has to go thru So Much
WHY can just anyone go into the morgue and touch the dead bodies. I mean I guess megatron being one of the captains explains why heâs in there, but that still shouldn't be allowedÂ
âmegatron mountainâ vhbjdkshfbjskfbhhk that's so fucking funnyyyyy I love rodimus....I quote that line a lot, especially when watching g1 lmao
the fact that swerve diluting his engex bc heâs a cheapskate saved everyone's s lives is amazing lmao
also like...damn brainstorm sure tried to murder Literally Everyone huh. like I guess the logic would be that if he succeeded in changing the past it wouldn't matter that they had died there cause the timeline wouldn't exist, but STILL. I guess that shows how confident brainstorm was in his plan
it makes so much sense somehow that rung doesn't drink. and weâve seen firsthand why magnus doesn't lol
mannnn that panel of brainstorm shooting magnus with some wacky beam and causing the magnus armor to fall off in vehicle mode...Super Cool, just peak mad scientist vibes there
ok but if minimus switches to alt mode when ultra magnus does - as we see here, where minesweeper-minimus is inside big-ole-car-magnus - does that mean that inside the minesweeper is turbofox-minimus?? I want to seeeee
ghsdufjkbvksadfbhjs the panels of rodimus telling megatron that brainstorm time travelled are so fucking funny
and megatrons rant about how absolutely bonkers the lost light is....hvbhjdskfbasjh that's so funny oh my god. like yeah dude you're right and you gotta roll w/it sorryÂ
'on this ship, a minor breakdown is practically a rite of passageâ vbjdsnfbkasdfn its true and I love it
goddddddd it kills me how at this point in the story its So Obvious to everyone that brainstorm travelled back in time to do evil decepticon double agent stuff - and we as the reader can even buy that bc brainstorm has been so sketchy until now, and nothing heâs done contradicts what rodimus suggests - but it turns out in the end, it was all just for love. AUGHHHHHHHH its about the LOVE!!!! that's why I love this arc so much.
back in the functionist universe - god I cant believe rewind waited until Now to reveal to minimus that dominus has a tv face...like I get that that's a difficult topic to bring up in conversation but like, a little sooner might've been good hbvhjkdhnfbjaksl
oh man it hurts...rewind saying that they're in a âblind spot...â oh man :(
rebel rewind, tho!! I love it sm
oh man and rewind never even broke the news about dominus to minimus oof. that's a tough revealÂ
MANNN I really like the whole âflatheadâ thing, its so awful and brutal. its such a logical extension of empurata, and as dominus says, once people get used to seeing empurataâd bots, it loses its punch...and the flatheads thing is even more invasiveÂ
and writing wise, both empurata and the tv-heads are such good devices to show evil govt bs. I talk abt it a lot but I like all the ways jro gets creative with the âalien robotsâ thing; a lot of these concepts wouldn't work at all with humans or other organic aliens
GODDD and dominusâs chilling speech being interrupted by the functionist propaganda....fucking horrifying I love it
also seeing dominus here is fascinating - clearly the council managed to pin him down enough to turn him into a flathead, but they never discovered his true alt mode...same with minimus, actuallyÂ
the cog is so fucking ominous. just floating there...
and the council is scary too! their names, and the fact that they all look the same...seems about right for an evil alien governing body
mannnnnnn and then the reveal that the data slug alt-modes will be ârecalledâ next...rewind noooooo...and the one council guy even admitted that they still served some purpose in society, BUT that their ability to mass store data made them dangerous to the goverment...evil!!
meanwhile, rodimus doesn't know enough about science to be appropriately frightened about their timeline being wiped from existence, so heâs having a grand ole time
âno oneâs nodding, perceptorâ bvhjdbfasdfhbk their expressions....the lost light command crew are all clearly team âleave the science to the scientistsâ lmao
I do love the paradox stuff, and brainstormâs way around it allÂ
âso I'm not allowed to take an interest in magic?â hvbjhsdkfbjhkdf ily sm rodimus
but also like....rodimus suggests a parallel universe could've formed and perceptor is like âno way, that's not scientifically possible,â as if brainstorm didn't basically defy science by time travelling at all...and more to the point, functionist cybertron DID get created, so rodimus was actually RIGHT this time
love that weâre already seeing perceptorâs admiration for brainstorm and his invention even here....sapiosexual mfer
a time travel chase....so beautiful...I love sci-fi so much
seriously time travel is one of my favorite tropes ever, this arc was inevitably gonna be my favÂ
âheâs going to kill orion pax.â DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNN
meanwhile, on functionist cybertron...aw, is that bulkhead? great cameo! oh wait what's going on with all the data sticks...? uh oh!
the fact that their heads just EXPLODE....soooo fucked!!Â
god and then the council picks up their dead bodies, for...probably something evil, Iâd assume
god and then dominus got even more fucked....
âthere are certain words you cant afford to loseâ ;_; REWIND....GODDD IM SADÂ
GOD GOD GOD the reveal that minimus has CAMERAS in his EYES GODDDDDDDDDDDD that's so FUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and rewinds reaction...ME TOO BITCH TF!!!!!!
all the âyou are our eyesâ messages are even worse now huh!!
they did it while minimus was asleep...that's so fuckedddd
FUCKKKK and then rewindâs impassioned rebel speech, which I adore.....rewind ily sm...heâs such a good revolutionary, I wish we could've seen him leading an anti-funtionist rebellion....BUT THEN âoh? what about the back up?â and its just like HHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and then his head starts smoking and we see another billboard, but this time it says âWE are your eyesâ - is the implication that everyone is now a surveilling spy, whether they like it or now, so now itâs âwe?â like, weâre all in it together, spying on each other! ooooof
also. this is like the third time rewind has died on-screen in this series lmao (well, if you count the fake-out death where he thought heâd be cancelled out during slaughterhouse)...he ALMOST died in issue 12 too....poor rewind
âthe custom-made nowâ is such a great title. jro always killin it w/the titles
plus âelegant chaosâ is such a cool arc name. fucking epicÂ
M A N NNNNNNNN THIS ISSUE WAS BALLER...this ARC is baller....I talked a lot hvbhdjkhfndsak lmao but there's so much to talk abt!!! I love the look into the functionist universe, I love seeing alternate versions of characters and settings so much, and I love time travel, so this issue is basically made for me
plus I fuckign love alien robot politics and seeing the absolute control the govt has over cybertronian society in the functionist universe is fascinating - plus from a storytelling standpoint, I think it was brilliant to show the âother side,â aka what things would've been like without the war...which is something ill talk about later when its more directly addressed in the story but man do I enjoy thatÂ
basically I love this arccccc I cant wait to read more hhhhhhh
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[Course Events] Leo Tsukinaga [Checkmate]
(Checkmate Course Events for Leo. From breaking him arm and being hospitalized, to making âKnightsâ with Izumi, it was a very eventful time.)
Iâve Been Waiting (1/ 3)
âHe will come to visit me~ He wonât come to visit me~ He will~ He wonât~ He will~ .... Ugh, itâs hard doing this with just one hand. Eek! Eh? AhâŠ. Sena? Ooh, oh wow! You really came!â
A. (1) âYou were waiting for me?â
âWahahah! Too bad for you, Sena! I was waiting for Ruka-tan~ â Well, Iâm pretty happy to see you came too, Sena! âȘ Wait, whyâre you leaving? You just got here~!â
A. (2) âYou were waiting for me?â
âYeah! I was waiting for you, Sena~ âȘ I was so bored, I thought I was gonna dieâŠ. I even started doing flower divination. But itâs alright now! Because now youâre here, Sena! Wahahaha ââ
B. (1) âFlower divination? That so doesnât suit you.â
âHmph! Well, sorry! That it so doesnât suit me! This is your fault, Sena. You never come visit me, and you hang up whenever I call youâŠ. Yeah, thatâs right, I was lonely! I was really lonely, Sena~!â
B. (2) âFlower divination? That so doesnât suit you.â
âWahahaha! Oba-chan taught me how to do it earlier~! Which Oba-chanâŠ.? You know, Oba-chan is Oba-chan! Someoneâs mom? Youâre not making any sense, Sena~â
Iâve Been Waiting (2/ 3)
âHey, whatâs with the name âBackgammonâ? Backgammonbackgammonbackgammonbackgammonbaâ Aughhhh! Iâm losing my mind hereeeeâŠ.! Whoâs the guy who came up with this?! âChessâ was cooler by a long shot, huh, Sena!â
A. (1) âDoesnât matter either way.â
âHmph. Whatâre you acting so cool for, Sena? I know youâre more spirited than that. Itâs harbored deep within you, a burning passionâŠ.! âYeah, yeahâ....? Hey, donât just brush me off like that! Pay more attention to me~!â
A. (2) âDoesnât matter either way.â
âYeah, I guess it doesnât! Uuu~ But that harsh tone of yours is pissing me off! At this rate, Iâm only gonna be able to write harsh-sounding songs! Are you fine with that, Sena~?!â
B. (1) âYeah, guess youâre right.â
âWahahaha! A big victory for me~ â If Sena says so, itâs gotta be right! After all, youâre really good with words, right? That just goes to show how much I rely on you, okay~? Iâm still counting on you from now on, Sena!â
B. (2) âYeah, guess youâre right.â
âSee, I knew it~ âȘ Hey, donât say it while playing with your phone! You didnât hear a single word I said, did you~?! Damn you~! Sena, you idiot! Stupid! Blockhead! Probably a pervert! A big pervert~!â
Iâve Been Waiting (3/ 3)
âAh-choo! Ah~ âŠ.Itâs getting a little chilly, huh? Hm? Whatâs that, Sena? Go back to my room? No way! Iâm not going back~! To hell with the hospital~!â
A. (1) âThatâs embarrassing, cut it out.â
âUgh~ Nuh-uh! Quit telling me what to do! Iâm gonna yell! I hate doctors! Hospitals can just burn to the ground~! Wahaha! Isnât that hardcore? Not a bad idea now and then, huh? Iâve been struck by inspiration!â
A. (2) âThatâs embarrassing, cut it out.â
âWhat do you mean itâs embarrassing~?! Arenât I your son, the apple of your eye?! Yep! Itâs âcause you act like my mom, Sena! Wahaha â I know you worry about me, even if you complain the whole time~! Thanks for everything, Sena~ âȘâ
B. (1) âQuit being so immature.â
âUu~âŠ. But itâs not my fault I donât like it. Ah! But if Sena will stay by my side, and take care of me the whole time, then Iâll go back! That way, I wonât be lonely at all, and Iâll sleep better at night, tooâŠ. â
B. (2) âQuit being so immature.â
âFine. Iâll go back to my roomâŠ. Bwaha! Wahahaha! You shouldâve seen the look on your face just now, Sena~! Heheh. It looks like Sena doesnât like it when I actually behaveâŠ. Iâll just act immature forever, then âȘâ
Me and Sena (1/ 3)
âSena~! Heeey, whereâs Sena~?! Oh, there you are! Found you~ â Thereâs hardly anyone that hangs out by themselves during break time, so that actually made you easier to find! Wahahaha ââ
A. (1) âCould you not yell for me so loud?â
âBut you wouldnât hear me if I wasnât loud, right~? Ah! But if itâs you, I bet youâd still notice me âȘ How do I know? Hmm, dunno! If itâs Sena, I just feel like youâd notice even if I didnât call for youâŠ. Dunno why, but I just do!â
A. (2) âCould you not yell for me so loud?â
âWahahaha â Donât worry! Nobody minds! Anyway, Sena, you really donât have any friends, do you~? Guess Iâll just have to hang out with you, then! Heheh, Iâm such a nice guy~ âȘ
B. (1) âYou actually came to school.â
âYeah! Havenât been going to class, though~ I was playing the piano this whole time âȘ I could only use one hand while I was hospitalized, so I really wanted to play with both hands again! I wrote a new song while I was at it, too, and I wanted Sena to hear it, so I came to get you! Come on, letâs go, Sena~!â
B. (2) âYou actually came to school.â
âItâs âcause I finally got discharged from the hospital! Iâve been released from my oppressors! Wahahah! So I wanted to spend the day as a normal highschool boy, just for today! With that said, Sena! Weâre headed to the co-op store now to fight over bread! Letâs go~ ââ
Me and Sena (2/ 3)
ââȘ~ âȘ~ âȘ~ Oh yeah, I wonder how Tenshiâs doing~ I heard heâs in the hospital again. Maybe Iâll go see him. Ah, Sena, you wanna come too? You know who TenshiâŠ. I mean, Tenshouin is, right?â
A. (1) âIâll pass.â
âHm? Do you have something else planned? If you donât, then why not~? I dunno about Tenshi, but I was super lonely! Yeah, I was! So thatâs why I was super happy when Sena came to visit me~!â
A. (2) âIâll pass.â
âHow come, Sena~?! Ah, is it because you hate hospitals? I can understand that, yep yep. Then, how about coming to my place? I can feel a new song coming onâŠ. âȘ Ah! But youâre not allowed to leave me behind to go chat with Ruka-tan!â
B. (1) âWhat about lessons?â
âYou really like lessons, donât you, Sena? Youâre always so persistent, going âone more time, one more time~â Well, thatâs fine, though! Iâll just be off to the side writing songs, so you can do lessons as much as you want. I actually really like watching Sena sing and danceâŠ. âȘâ
B. (2) âWhat about lessons?â
âEh~? We can skip for just this one day. Is it because you and Tenshi arenât that close? Heâs a good guy. He gave me food, and let me play the piano. I think that even you could become friendsâŠ. You donât need friends? Ah, hey, wait! Donât just leave! Donât leave me behind~!â
Me and Sena (3/ 3)
âHm? Where did Little John go? Ah, there you are âȘ Listen to this, Little John! Starting today, weâre gonna be called âKnightsâ~ Well, I said âwe,â but right now itâs just me and Sena! Wahahaha ââ
A. (1) âStop, that makes us sound pathetic.â
âHmm~? Pathetic? I donât think so at all! I feel super reassured with you here, SenaâŠ. Kinda like, I donât need anything else? âDonât exaggerateâŠ.? I wasnât trying to. I was telling the truth, you know?â
A. (2) âStop, that makes us sound pathetic.â
âAh! Senaâs in a bad mood today! Doesnât that mean we can make a comedian duo? Iâm Leo~! And Iâm Sena~! Together, we are âKnightsâ~! How about something like that? Oh! Little John just meowed! I feel like this could be our big breakâŠ. ââ
B. (1) âLooks like weâll need more members, huh?â
âHmm? That seems like a pain, but Iâll try asking around first! Iâll have to work hard, since Sena doesnât have any friends! Wahahaha â Hm? You might know someone? Since when did you make some friends?â
B. (2) âLooks like weâll need more members, huh?â
âMembers, huhâŠ. Alright, then I vote for Little John! Wahaha! Iâm kidding, Iâm kidding! Iâm just kidding, but I kinda meant it, too! Because personally, I think thatâd be the best members to have! I love Little John, and I love Sena, too! Weâd be the best âunitâ ever! Wahahaha ââ
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okay ari, i know that you said that i didn't have to respond to what you said, but how could i possibly!! stay silent after you wrote me that entire essay!!!! i read through it all but i'll be responding bit by bit plz bear with meeeee.
I FEEL LIKE CALLING THIS FIC ONE OF YOUR FAVORITE GOJO FICS EVER IS!!! SUCH A NICE THING TO SAY I WANNA CRY AUGHHHH.
actually when i was starting out i wasn't quite sure which poem i wanted to use, there were a couple that i was considering (and if i had split the fic up i would have used them all), but i ended up choosing this one because throughout the entire fic, due to their looping reader is constantly in a state of being both alive and dead. not just physically i think, but mentally as well. i guess the loop itself serves as a kind of box when you think about it.
i'm glad that reading the loops was enjoyable! i felt like i was really straddling the line between being repetitive enough to convey the loops and being too much LMAO. i was afraid the repetition would be a turn off. especially since it was repetition of canon events, albeit through reader's eyes.
AND I SEE U TOO ARE A PERSON OF CULTURE. i wouldn't say that i seek out time loop media⊠it finds me. LMAO. and this is low-key a love letter to those series very low key though.
aND YES THE ARC WORDS. it's october 31, 2018!! halloween in shibuya!! i actually did a live reading of the fic after i finished and someone said when they were reading it later that they could hear my voice when they read it LMAOOO. in normal circumstances i love my thematic repetition and it felt even more appropriate here to hammer in that time loop.
reader in this fic is⊠they're such a trooper. like honestly, as i was writing i was actually a bit worried like!! maybe they are too calm!! but i've rationalized it as⊠they are very focused on getting out their situation and. i think there were probably some loops where they were just losing their shit and. it ended the same. doesn't help so might as well try and be productive.
AND YEAH FIXATING ON GOJO. you're right, reader is so real for that. because like, you're stuck in a time loop where you keep dying but at least there's something nice to look at. even if it's a hot guy committing violent acts. beggars can't be choosers LMAOO.
'a very twisted one sided slow burnâŠ' omg i guess it is huh. though at the same time it doesn't feel like one⊠LMAO. but wrt to romance⊠i've said before that i would have done it if i thought it was possible, but it just⊠wasn't. hilariously enough, there wasn't enough time for that kind of development. i think ultimately, it would have detracted from the narrative too LMAO. all of reader's oogling of gojo was me in disguise wishing that i could smooch him LMAOOO.
I AM SO FLATTERED THAT YOU THINK I DID HIM WELL. characterization is always my top concern and EVERY SINGLE TIME i write him in a new scenario a new au it's like staring all over again, worrying that i'm doing it right. and in this fic in particular⊠it was all about balance. with the time loops and then gojo's behavior. unserious but serious enough. YOU CALL HIM CHARMING BUT ISN'T HE JUST BEING INSUFFERABLE??? though i guess that IS his charm. the mochi receipt⊠he's so⊠AUGHHH i need to punch something.
MAN IF I WERE GEGE THEN SUKUNA WOULD BE DOWN RIGHT NOW but alas. he's so⊠gojo is so GOOD. or he tries to be. bUT THE DID YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH ME LINE. it's just so funny to me. because he's sOâŠ. AUGHHH. like OF COURSE SOMEONE WOULD AFTER U TELL THEM IN THAT NICE VOICE THAT YOU'D PROTECT THEM!!!! and thank god. i love kaiji tang's voice so much and as gojo!! this is an aside, for one of my mobile games he plays a character and. i didn't care for them before until gojo and i went back and listened to their voice lines and it was like 'oh hell yeah.'
honestly, once i got to the parts where reader started interacting with gojo was just. the best. LMAOO i hate him but he's so fun to write. (not true i don't hate him but i hate him).
i'm always so!! wahhhh everytime someone tells me they like my writing style. i think it's rather plain and barebones, like i don't⊠think it's particular poetic most of the time so i'm just⊠wahhhhh. BUT BRINGING UP DIALOGUE. if there is one thing i think i'm good at, it's THAT. and it KILLED me in that there is SO LITTLE OF IT in this fic (at least compared to the word count) because i am a dialogue writing kinda girl. i like doing a bunch of back and forth sO WHEN GOJO STARTED YAPPING I WAS JUST LIKE YES GOOD THANK YOU. the save scumming line was semi-thanks to my beta reader because that's how he described reader's CT.
i apologize for sealing your fate with him. if it makes you feel better i am also in gojo hell too LMAOOOO. but HE'S!! he's a good guy! a nice guy!! even if he's cocky and annoying. he probably recognized that reader was in a really rough spot since⊠they did do some crazy stuff to try and get him to just listen to them. AND LIKE. you say that he was believing in themâŠ. but, gojo WAS thinking that⊠if it turned out that reader was his enemy he could definitely take them LMAO. a lot of his 'it'll be fine' things really translate to 'if this becomes a problem i can deal with it' this also extends to when he unseals them LMAO. with regards to reader⊠and reader does mention it at some point, but while he is being legitimately nice to reader because he's a good guy, he does have some sort of ulterior motive (that sounds so ominous LMAOOO).
A KENNY STAN THO!!! omg i'm FLOORED. but not like because you're a kenny stan, but because you feel like i did him well!! when i asked my beta for his opinion he was like 'i didn't read jjk to characterize that guy' so i had to rely on instinct (i actually re-read the chapters where he fights choso, yuki and takeba to try and figure out how to write him). but YEAH. he's oddly polite. and it is nice of him to make it painless. i think it's because reader did entertain him for the little bit that they talk and they're relatively respectful toward him (or maybe it's that their behavior makes it clear that they 'know their place' because they know they couldn't take him in a fight and they're obedient enough to not run away⊠well in the loops we see anyway).
AND THE I APPRECIATE IT LINE. when i was reading someone mentioned how that line is just so sad. because it really does sdhow their resignation. but you're RIGHT. reader is very used to death. and like. this is a secret, but that is something that i'm thinking will come up post unsealing for reader.
like i said earlier i love my thematic repetition and! time doesn't flow in the box!! i wanted it to start as early as i could so that when the reader got boxed it would seem like a natural conclusion, because from the get go my intent was for reader to be boxed LMAO.
sO. yes!! the name!! i mentioned elsewhere that i wanted to have their exchange of names feel like the completion of a bond. like. when you establish a social link in persona. like that LMAOOOO. contextually you'd think that would be a rank ten butâŠ. remember how i said he does have some sort of ulterior motiveâŠâŠ it's not JUST so that reader's not just some person who gets lost in the carange of the shibuya incident heh heh heh⊠BUT YES READER'S FINAL THANK YOU. i really wanted that to be the last thing they say to him because. he really did save them. and it did mean something to him!! like!! we don't see it from gojo's perspective but just like how reader burns the glow of his eyes into their mind, the expression reader makes is also burned into gojo's mind.
actually, this is a tangent, but talking about how often people thank gojo reminds me of um⊠that one fic the witches brew which is COMPLETELY DIFFERENT than this fic, but there's a line about how people don't really thank him ask how he's doing and stuff. and like. i think earnest people like reader and yuji and yuta thank him⊠earnestly, but his whole personality⊠probably makes it hard for people LMAOOO.
AND YES. i did think of leaving it off before that scene, but i ultimately decided to write the cliffhanger. i'm actually surprised it's being as well received as it is LMAOO. well some people are asking what happens bUT it really is fun to leave it open ended to let you guys come up with your own conclusions (in case i decide/don't have time to continue because i definitely do have ideas on what i wanna do with this lmaooo).
AHHH BUTTT IN LOVE WITH GOJO I CAN GET⊠the reader i understand, the fic maybe⊠BUT MEEEEE????? i'm just a little nikuâŠ.
THANK YOU!! I!! I'm so glad that you enjoyed the fic so much!!! AND like i definitely have been where you are- going absolutely insane over a fic where i won't shut up about it (ao3 bonking me at LEAST three times for exceeding comment character limit). reading your comments was really such a joy like!! seriously!! i do hope my secret reveals over what was going on in gojo's mind⊠aRE NOT TOO SURPRISING LMAOOO or disappointing? i feel while he did believe in reader he also⊠believed that he would be able to take things into his own hands if there were problems. BUT YES. dont't apologize for your comments or throwing it all at me!! i slurped it all up LMAOOO. i'll⊠i'll pat him i suppose⊠i guess he deserves it a little. but realy thank you so much for taking the time to read my fic and leave this treasure of a comment⊠i actually need to print it out and hang it on my wall. LMAO put it in my little gojoâŠ.corner. i hope you also have a wonderful week!!!!!
beyond the unending night (reader + satoru gojo)
notes: it's finally here. the long awaited halloween fic. yes, i know it's march, but i did start working on it in september. haha. there's so much i could say, but i will leave it at that this fic is, in every sense, a fic that i would not normally write. and yet here we are.
contains: f!reader (no physical description or gendered language is used), no explicit romantic pairing (though you don't have to look hard to find the reader x gojo implications), major character death (played with), semi-graphic depictions of death, blood and violence, minor suicide ideation, canon retelling (lines of dialogue are pulled from the jjk english dub because i'm a dirty dub watcher). opening poem is from higurashi no naku koro ni (minagoroshi-hen). fic title is from giga's beyond the way.
please note that this is a time loop fic and, by nature contains repeating scenes (particularly from canon). please do not read this fic if you do not like that sort of thing.
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Please tell me what happened in this night. It's like the cat inside the box.
Please tell me what happened in this night. You don't know if the cat in the box is dead or alive. Please tell me what happened in this night. The cat in the box was dead.
The first time, it is instantâ you donât even know whatâs happening.
The second, it is by flame, but you barely realize it, barely feel itâ a second of mind numbing heat before nothing.
The third time, it is something slicing across your throat; you see the blood spilling everywhere, then the pain followsâ a moment of pure agony before nothing.
The fourth time you realize whatâs going on; whatâs really going on.
You realize youâve been dying.
You think your head is going to explode.
At first, you think itâs because the subway platform is crowded, insanely soâ there are hundreds of people shoved into this space alongside you, packed like sardines in a can. Youâve never been one for crowds, but itâs the reality of things when you live in Tokyo. For the most part, youâve learned to accept it, but even this crowd is a little much and you wish you hadnât listened to your friends when they said you should go party in Shibuya for Halloween; you donât even like partying.
Thereâs a sharp pain in your temple followed by a thought so loud that it feels like someone is screaming it at you through a megaphone positioned right next to your ear.
Itâs the night of October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
For the eighth time.
Before you can even question the thought, images flash in your mindâs eye, blurry at first before they come into focus. The platform gates open. Chaos ensues. People dropping onto the subway tracksâ spontaneously bursting into flameâ their heads, necks sliced off, stomachs cut openâ
Bile rapidly builds up in your throat, and you clamp your jaw shut, trying to force it down. Not here. Not now. You try to focus on something else, anything else happening outside of your brain. Thereâs a pair next to you musing about the people standing on the subway tracks, wondering what the two (the four?) of them are talking about. You blink back tears as you look. You can only see two: a freakishly tall man with white hair dressed in all black, and another man, dressed in strange, yet more traditional looking garb. Are those costumes too? You donât have a lot of time to think about it as another image forces its way into your brain.
Your corpseâ lifeless on the ground.
Your corpseâ burning to ash.
Your corpseâ bleeding out.
You canât hold it in any more. Every fiber in your being screams at you to get away from the subway tracks, but instead you rush toward them, shoving people left and right as your hands desperately reach the stability of the gate. You grip it like a lifeline as you retch over the side of it, the contents of your stomach spilling all over the subway tracks.
Thereâs a quiet murmur of disgust behind you but you canât be bothered to respond. You need to get out of here. You need to leave. You need to do it beforeâ
The gates open and the crowd starts to move like a tidal wave, pushing and shoving their way through the gate. Youâre swept away, vomit long forgotten as you and a few dozen others tumble onto the railway.
Alarm bells go off in your brain, loud and deafening. A voice in the back of your head screams for you to get off the track! Get off the track now beforeâ
The platform erupts into a cacophony of screams, drenched in horror, saturated in fear. You are surrounded by people, by corpsesâ beheaded, sliced open, bursting into flames.
Your terror roots you to the ground as the carnage ensues around you. Itâs only when another person, another corpse, dressed in a magical girl costume collides with your body that you can finally move. But itâs too late, you realize, despaired and helpless, as your bodies fall to the ground.
Itâs too late.
You die an eighth time.
You think your chest is going to explode.
At first, you think itâs because itâs so hard to breathe, frustratingly soâ there are hundreds of people squeezed into this space alongside you, packed like cattle for slaughter. You've never been one for crowds, but itâs the reality of things when youâre in Shibuya. For the most part, youâve come to accept it, but this crowd is way too much and you wish you had just stayed home and ordered a pizza; though honestly, the thought of pizza kind of makes you sick.
Thereâs a dull throbbing in your forehead, followed by a thought so loud that it feels like someoneâs hollering at you from a loudspeaker thatâs been installed in your brain.
Itâs the night of October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
You think it's the ninth time now.
Behind you, you hear a woman screaming, her voice crazed and terrified. You turn your head automatically to look at her and when you see her you realize you recognize her yellow and white magical girl costume. You can say with certainty that youâve never seen her before and yetâ
Before you can ruminate more on it, imagesâ memories assault your mindâs eye with a clarity that is absolutely sickening. That woman colliding into you, your bodies slamming into the subway tracks before you bothâ Your stomach churns violently,
and you feel like youâre going to puke, but you force it downâ can't afford to right now. Instead, you make your way over to the woman.
Her head is in her hands as she mutters over and over again about how everyone is going to die. People around her figure that being stuck in here with the crowd has probably gotten to her. You, however, know better.
â...hey,â you say softly.
Her muttering comes to an abrupt halt and slowly she raises her head to look at you. Thereâs a flash of recognition in her eyes and she grabs you violently by the shoulders. âYou! You know, donât you? That weâre going to die?â
If it werenât for the fact that you have indeed experienced death here eight times already, then you would have thought sheâs lost her mind. Slowly, you nod and she seems relieved by it, her grip on you loosening.
You canât help but feel a little relieved tooâ glad to know that youâre not the only one experiencing this nightmare. Thereâs a voice in the back of your mind thatâs confused though. Why is she only remembering now? But then again, it took you a few times before you realized yourself.
Around you people start to gasp, and you glance back toward the railway to see an abnormally tall man with white hair and dressed in all black jump down from the atrium onto the railway. He lands rather gracefully for someone who jumped at least one floor and starts to converse with the other three people (you think they're peopleâ two of them are in some pretty wild costumes) on the track.
Wait. Isnât it supposed to be just two people: the tall man and the one in the traditional clothes? Where did the other two come from?
âWe have to get out of here,â the woman says. âBefore they kill us.â
Her grip shifts from your shoulders to your arms and she starts to shove at everyone around you, trying to force her way through. She seems to know, just as well as you do, that any second now the gates will open and the crowd will start spilling onto the railway, littering the tracks with bodies and ash. Neither of you can let yourselves get swept up with the rest. If you do and you end up on those tracks, youâre as good as dead.
People move aside at a snail's pace, many of them too focused on trying to see what is going on on the subway tracks. This isn't good. You need to move faster or elseâ
The collective sound of the gates opening echoes in your head, a metallic hiss that makes your stomach fold into itself. Before either of you can stop yourselves, you both whip your heads back to look, to confirm, but itâs a mistake.
The briefest lapse in attention is enough to pull you both into the current of people, and try as you might to fight against it, the crowd splits you and the woman apart as it swallows you both whole. Youâre both spat onto the tracks at the edge of the platform and your head collides with the metal rails of the track. It feels like your skull is about to crack in two, and it takes every fiber in your being to scramble to your feet. You're close enough to the platform that if you can just climb up it, then you'll beâ
âHelp! Help!â
Itâs the womanâs voice. You turn to see that she ended up a couple meters away from you. Sheâs staring at you, eyes brimming with fear filled tears as she extends her hand in your direction. You take a step toward her, reaching out.
And then, her entire body is engulfed in flames, the skirt of her magical girl costume a ring of fiery death around her.
Her blood curdling scream is the only thing you can hear, her burning flesh, the only thing you can see. You donât know what to do.
You canât save her.
There's something touching your back. You can barely feel the pressure, but it's hot, scorching hot, mind numbingly hot, painfully hothothot.
You know this sensation. You have felt it before. The scent of burning cloth, burning hair, burning flesh clogs your nostrils. It's too late, you realize, helpless, despaired as the flames eat at your bodyâ your soon to be corpse.
It's too late.
You die a ninth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the tenth time.
Your head hurts, but you ignore it. Thereâs something more important that you need to attend to. You immediately make your way to the woman you met during your last round, the one you watched burn to death. Her costume is still pristine, unmarred by fire and death.
For now.
Sheâs not screaming this time and while thereâs a little voice in the back of your mind thatâs concerned by this, you try to ignore it.
âUm, excuse me?â you say when she doesnât acknowledge you as you approach.
The woman turns to look at you. Youâre taken aback by the distinct lack of recognition and it feels almost as if the woman you encountered previously and the one before you now are two separate people. In a way, they technically are.
âDo I⊠know you?â she finally asks when you donât say anything.
Your mouth is dry. How do you even answer that? You donât know her. You just watched her die twice. You know her. She begged you for help. You couldnât save her.
If you explain all of this you know sheâs just going to think youâve lost your mind. Maybe you already haveâ youâve died nine times after all.
You give her a weak smile. âI⊠just wanted to tell you that you think your costume looks great.â
She blinks, taken aback by your words. Thereâs no doubt that she wasnât expecting you to say that. Itâs the truth though, her costume is nice; sheâs dressed up as a character from a magical girl anime that was popular a couple years ago.
âThank you! I made it myself!â The woman breaks out into a genuine smile and your heart hurts. In a few moments sheâll die and the costume she worked so hard to make will be nothing but ash on the subway tracks.
âSorry,â you blurt out before you can stop yourself.
âFor?â
For watching her die. For not being able to save her.â...I just kind of came up to you all of a suddenâŠâ
She laughs. âItâs okay.â
Itâs not.
You consider telling her that she should try to move. That if she stays here she will die. You donât want her to die. Again. You can still hear her screaming in your ears as she burned to death. You want to tell her.
You donât.
âStay safe, okay?â you say. It almost sounds like youâre begging.
She gives you another smile, kind and gentle and you think youâre far too undeserving of it for not telling her what fate will soon befall her. âYou too.â
âIâll try,â you say and move away from the woman just as the gates open and the crowd surges toward the railway. You do not fight it as you are swept up into the crowd and despite what you said, you do not try, this time, to stay safe.
You die for the tenth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the fourteenth time.
Thereâs a slight ache in your head, but itâs subtle enough that you can ignore it. The pain you feel lessens with each round and you think itâs a sign that your body no longer feels the need to remind you of the precarious situation that youâre in.
Or maybe you are just becoming numb to everything: your death, the death of the people around you, the death of the woman in the magical girl costumeâ
You try not to think about it too much as you reach into your bag to check the time on your phone: 8:37PM. Thereâs not a lot of time: you need to move.
At the very end of your last attempt to escape this nightmare you realized something. You need to know exactly what is going on around you so you can plan accordingly: where to not stand, where to not go. Up until now, youâve relied almost solely on the knowledge gained from your previous failures to try and survive, but obviously itâs not enough to keep you alive. Youâre not sure why you didnât realize this earlier. The panic, maybe? The fear?
Maybe you really are becoming numb to all this.
Unlike previous iterations, this time you elect to move closer to the gate, positioning yourself somewhere against it where youâre unlikely to be pushed off the platform in a couple minutes when they open. You take great care to place yourself where you can see the ones responsible for the slaughter very clearly. At the beginning, you could only see one, the one who looks the most human, but with each repetition, the other two have become more and more clear. You wonder why. You donât have time to think about it.
Murmurs nearby alert you to the arrival of the fourth major player involved in the nightâs events. You look up and see the white haired man dressed in all black descending upon the platform like an angel from the heavens. This is your first time really looking at him and you realize thereâs something almost inhumanly attractive about him. You canât quite put your finger on it, but it occurs to you that you shouldnât even try; you donât have the time to be drooling over some handsome stranger.
Youâve naturally never taken the time to try and listen to whatever the conversation the man and his opponents have before all hell breaks loose on the platform, but you try and lean closer to listen. Itâs hard to hear over the dozens of conversations going on behind you, but you try anyway. There might be a clue to whatâs actually going onâ or better yet, a clue on how to get out of it.
Itâs obvious that youâre missing context from what bits of the conversation you do manage to hear, but honestly it all sounds like stuff out of a shounen battle manga. There is one part of the exchange that you manage to hear with a startling sort of clarity. It feels almost as if your heart stops beating as your blood turns ice cold in your veins.
âIf I run away, youâre just gonna kill everyone here, right?â the man in black asks.
Thereâs a pause, and if your heart was still beating itâd be long enough for just four heartbeats.
âIf you run away?â The monster with cane repeats, the sadistic grin spreading wide across its features, displaying its charcoal black teeth. The gravelly sound of its voice sets fire to the blood in your veins, your stilled heart thumping wildly, in fear, in anticipation. Soon. Itâs happening soon. You brace yourself. âWeâre going to do that even if you donât!â
You die a fourteenth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the seventeenth time now.
Things are going surprisingly well, even as the people around you tumble onto the tracks. You manage to hold on, desperation keeping you from falling into the abyss. This is good, you tell yourself, despite the fact that itâs not the first time youâve achieved this. Every little victory is worth celebrating, but you have to remain vigilant. This is yet another information gathering loop, and while you know that maybe this time youâll be lucky and live, thereâs still a chance, a big one, at that, that you will die again.
You have to make the most of each and every death.
Itâs such a morbid thought, but the ends justify the means, or so you tell yourself. If you have to die a few times to make it out of this unending nightmare, then so be it.
The spot youâre in is a good vantage point; itâs easier to see everything happening below you. Itâs so good that itâs actually sickening. You watch as the monster with the cane and one with what looks like branches for eyes slaughter the people on the track, mowing them down, setting them aflame. In another life, in another many lives, that was you down there, and for what feels like the first time in forever, you feel like youâre going to be sick. You feel like, at some point, you likened the scene before you to some kind of shounen battle manga, but you think that was wrong.
This is borderline horror.
Everything plays out before you like a scene out of an action horror flick. If you didnât know better, youâd think you were just an extra on set, but you know the reality is that youâre just an extra to whatever phantasmal battle is taking place in front of you. The monsters and the strangely dressed man all try to attack the man in black, but he manages to block every hit effortlessly, as if he is protected by some sort of invisible barrier. When it seems the two monsters are about to hit him, he merely jumps out of the way and the two monsters seem to collide, the force of their combined strength sending a gust of air throughout the crowd. The man in black neatly lands on a nearby platform half wall and says something about curse users, whatever those are, to the monsters, before he starts to mock them, pulling down his strange blindfold in the process.
And this, youâve found, is where you start to get in trouble.
You clearly remember thinking, at some point, previously, that there was something attractive about this man. You still donât know what it is. You havenât had the time to try and figure it out, but there is one thing that you do know: you canât keep your eyes off of him.
He drops back down onto the tracks, antagonizing his opponents in an arrogant tone as he approaches. When he comes to a stop between the two monsters, the second round of their fight begins. They try to hit him, but he dodges still, gracefully, fluidly, like the three of them are embroiled in some sort of passionate, yet violent dance.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he cruelly rips off one of the arms of the one-eyed monster.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he brutally kicks the branch-eyed monster in the abdomen, sending them flying to the other side of the platform.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he effortlessly hurls the one-eyed, now one-armed monster in the same direction, sending them smashing into the wall.
Only when the man in black seems to fly to the other side is the spell over you seemingly broken. Still, your eyes give chase, and your body too, rushing from one side of the platform to the other. You canât lose sight of this fight, you tell yourself, settling in a spot you recall being safe during your last round. Doing so could mean another death, another loop, another October 31.
You watch as the man in black acrobatically dodges what looks to be vines or roots that the monster with branches for eyes seems to have summoned from the depths of the Tokyo metro. He lands on the monsterâs shoulders, balancing on them as he uses its branch-eyes for leverage. The look in the manâs eyes is so crazed that you can see it from where youâre standing. He says something to it and thenâ
With a feral and sadistic smile, he rips their eyes straight out of their skull.
Your heart is pounding wildly in your chest as you watch the fight unfold. It is horrifyingly, disgustingly violent, yet still you watch as people on the track are killed by the human-like person, blood raining down as their freshly beheaded skulls go flying into the air. He and the one-eyed monster launch their counter attacks against the man in black and the blowback is so intense the power goes out causing everyone to scream.
Thereâs a faint glow where the man in black is standing that starts to grow brighter and brighter. You can make out his form turning to face the wall, and it seems almost like heâs slammed the monster that had branches for eyes against it with some sort of telekinetic power. Despite the panic from the people around you, you manage to hear him, chuckling like a mad man as he draws closer and closer to the monster.
The one-eyed monster yells out a name, a name you think must belong to the man, but he doesnât hear it. He doesnât hear the one-eyed monster as he extends his hands out toward the eyeless monster, exerting some kind of force that you canât really see. He doesnât hear the one-eyed monster as the eyeless monsterâs entire body is vaporized in a flash of blue light. He doesnât hear the one-eyed monster, as the lights flicker back on revealing a smoking crater stained with purple blood where the eyeless monster once stood.
But you do.
Satoru Gojo.
You make sure to remember that.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
And this is the eighteenth time.
You watch as the man called Satoru Gojo stalks through the crowd of people on the subway tracks, chasing after the one-eyed fire monster. It throws people at him, in a clear attempt to slow him down.
It does not work.
Satoru Gojo climbs back onto the platform in a way that you can only describe as inhuman, and the people nearby shriek and move away from him, out of terror, out of fear. You, on the other hand, draw closer, refusing to lose sight of him.
He is relentless in his pursuit of the one-eyed monster. It continues to throw person after person at him, but he does not stop and the people float there, suspended in midair before they are gently lowered to the ground by some unseen force and scramble away.
No one dares get close to Satoru Gojo, everyone on the platform seems to know that doing so means certain death, yourself included. But you still feel the need to keep an eye on him. The monster and the strangely dressed man are focusing more on him than the crowdâ anyone in between is just collateral damage.
But not you.
Especially since youâve made it this farâ youâve never made it this far before.
A voice echoes throughout the platform; you realize itâs the automated announcement.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
You can hear everyoneâs relief coming from all sides. The train is coming! The train is coming! A ripple of hope makes its way throughout the crowd. With the train comes the chance to get off the platform and the senseless violence thatâs been happening here. Some of the people around you are talking excitedly and others are running toward the gates, toeing the yellow line theyâve been instructed to wait behind. And you, you should be excited, you should be hopeful.
All you feel is dread.
It eats at your stomach, at your chest, at your mind. Clawing and gnawing at you in a way that leaves you paralyzed on the platform. Thereâs something wrong here. You canât be sure because youâve never made it this far, never survived long enough for the train to come, but something is just not right.
No.
You must be paranoid. The train coming is a good thing. It has to be a good thing. You are just paranoid. Itâs normal. Itâs natural. Dying seventeen times would do that to anyoneâ rob them of hope, condemn them to an existence full of fear.
It is not lost on you that the thought of dying more than once, much less, dying seventeen times is not normal or natural in the very slightest.
But you need hope, you crave it, wildly, desperately. The hope of freedom, of escape is the only thing getting you through this unending nightmare. Every time you die, every time you wake, it is with the hope that maybe, just maybe this iteration will be different, maybe this one will be the one where you make it out, make it back to your friends who must be waiting for you, make it back home where you can be safe and sound. You need the hope to keep going. Because without hope, what will you have left?
The train screeches as it pulls into the station and the people around you laugh in both disbelief and relief. They start to push and shove toward it, fighting to be able to board because thereâs no way everyone here will be able to get on an eight car train and being left behind at this point is practically synonymous with death. Unable to decide if you believe in the train as a symbol of hope or a new layer of fear, you are pushed along with the crowd toward it.
The doors of the train cars slide open and the current passengers all rush off as they disembark. You as well as everyone else on the platform can see with a horrifying clarity that the train is filled to the brim with monsters. Monsters that reach out and grab anyone their hands can reach. The woman to your left. The person to your right.
You.
Hope is gone.
What do you have left?
You die for the eighteenth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This is probably the twenty-sixth time now.
If there is anything this entire ordeal has taught you, it is that you are resilient. Whether it is some innate trait that you never had any reason to uncover before or just a byproduct of being trapped in an unending cycle of being dead and not dead, you don't know. What you do know, though, is that even if you no longer have hope, you at least have your resilience.
Whether you want it or not.
You check the time. Itâs 8:35PM. Something flickers in your chest, like a faint light in a sea of darkness, but you ignore it. You donât have time right now.
With a nimbleness born from your previous failures, you weave your way through the crowd. Youâve done this enough times to know where the gaps areâ who will yield and who wonât. Your destination is the escalator that leads off the platform and up to a higher part of the station. Youâd noticed previously that the escalator along with every other entrance onto the platform will eventually be blocked by vines or roots of some sort (the work of the branch-eyed monster probably). Itâs not a perfect plan because you donât know what happens on the other side, but whatever it is has to be better than whatever is happening on the side that youâve been on.
Youâd tried to get to the stairs during your last two rounds, but youâd just missed it. You hadnât been fast enough and had gotten caged and slaughtered along with the rest. But this time, this time you have more time. Itâs just one minute, but itâs enough. You know it is.
The flickering in your heart grows stronger. Hope. You try not to pay attention to itâ you donât want to be disappointed yet again. But you want to so badly. A voice in the back of your mind tells you to focus on the good, tells you that if there was truly no way out of this endless nightmare, then why would you get more and more time with each round to escape your fate?
With that thought in mind, you break out into a run, recklessly rushing through the crowd, shoving anyone who will not yield to the side. Out of the corner of your eye you can see the stark white of Satoru Gojoâs hair as he descends upon the platform.
You need to get up those stairs.
Now.
If you remember correctly, the roots and vines donât close off the area the moment he touches down, but a little after they start talking, so you think there is probably some time, but you canât leave it to chance.
The stairs are packed, and for some reason no one is moving. The escalator right next to it is just as full and the power doesnât seem to be working. You donât have time for this. You clamber onto the escalatorâs rubber handrail, ignoring the weird feeling that passes through your body as you do so. You donât have the time to worry about whatever that is. The people around you start exclaiming around you, but you donât care, you donât listen. You wobble as you try to balance yourself and when you think youâre steady you try to run.
But you trip.
And you die for the twenty-sixth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This marks the thirtieth time.
And you have, finally, finally made it up the escalator, up the stairs with barely a second to spare. You pause, glancing back as the roots or vines or whatever the hell they are seal off the entrance to the platform. You notice that the area where the plants come down is actually fairly clear, despite the crowd. It seems weird, but you donât dwell on it.
A strange feeling envelops your entire body and your legs turn into jelly. As you sink to the floor, you realize what youâre feeling is relief as all the tension, maybe thirty iterations of Halloween 2018 worth, seeps from your being. You don't remember the last time you felt anything other than fear and dread; itâs weird, but not unwelcome.
That voice in the back of your mind tells you that you can't relax just yet: October 31st isnât over. Even though you have repeated this night again and again, burning the events that play out on the platform into your memory, you do not know a single thing that happens over here. It would be smart to scope everything out.
Legs still shaky, you rise to your feet and start walking. You think itâs probably for the best to try and head up to the surface and you make your way up to the next floor.
Itâs packed with people here too, but relatively peaceful, especially when you compare it to the pandemonium taking place beneath your feet. Still, you can make out the undeniable hum of displeasure resonating throughout the crowd. People complaining about how uncomfortable their costumes are, people complaining about how much they want to go home, people complaining about how much their nights have been ruined because they couldnât meet up with their friends andâ
A thought hits you like an eight car train.
You were supposed to meet up with your friends.
Thatâs why you were on the platform in the first placeâ you were waiting for them to arrive, but then the trains stopped working, and people just started pouring into the station out of seemingly nowhere (you think you heard some people say theyâd come from the crossing?). Soon after that is when everything went to shit.
You check your phone, though, for once itâs not to look at the time (8:56PM). Instead, you open LINE to check your friendsâ group chat. Thereâs no signal here, for whatever reason, so if there are any new messages, you havenât received them. The last one was from Kei, mentioning he was enroute, but as far as you know, youâre the only one who made it to Shibuya before the trains stopped.
Did one of them maybe make it here though? Surely, you would have run into them ifâ
The image of a woman in a magical girl costume fills your vision, burning to death before your very eyes as her screams echo in your ears. It is the first time in what feels like forever that youâve thought about her and your stomach churns violently. You couldnât help her, you canât even help yourself, so how could you even expect to do the same for your friends if they were here? The mere thought of having to watch them die over and over is almost enough to send you over the edge. You donât know if you could do it.
Would you even have a choice?
No. You can't think like that. You have choices. You've had choices. If you didnât then, you would still be down below, among the fire and brimstone. Dying, if not dead already. However, instead, you are up here, where, for the moment, it is quiet and peaceful.
That thought, in of itself, is enough to give you a shred of solace, a glimmer of hope.
You take a deep breath and fiddle with your phone a little more, changing your lock screen to a picture you and your friends took at a photo booth not too long ago. The four of you are huddled together, faces squished as if you're all struggling to fit in the frame, despite there being plenty of room. You're mid-laugh because it's the first time you've been in a photo booth in years, Mio and Shin are grinning mischievously and finally, Kei is smiling, but only just slightly, the embarrassment clear on his face. It's probably only been a few months since you all took this picture, but the fact that it feels like it's been years makes your heart ache.
You press your forehead to the screen, like a prayer, like a promise.
You will make it out of this nightmare.
No matter what.
A shrill scream yanks you from your thoughts and you are instantly on your feet, alert as your eyes flit around frantically to identify the source. It doesn't take long for you to find it and when you do, you think you might have stumbled upon a new layer of horror to this nightmare.
Itâs not the corpse, dangling by a noose, that terrifies youâ by now youâve seen dozens upon dozens of dead bodies that the sight of just one more doesnât faze you in the slightest. The thing thatâs the most mortifying, thatâs the most disturbing is that right next to where the body is tied are two girls, two teenage girls still dressed in their school uniforms.
You can accept monsters and weirdly dressed men being responsible for the carnage tonight, but children too? Both girls look like theyâre barely in high school and try as you might to rationalize things, to chalk it up to coincidence, you cannot ignore the ominous energy radiating from them.
The very notion that these two children could have killed someone here is a hard pill to swallow, but so is the fact that youâve died.
And youâve had to swallow that pill thirty times now, so whatâs once more?
âListen up!â one of the girls yells over the crowd, but she is mostly ignored; you donât think everyone here has noticed her and the corpse dangling from the rafters. She scowls and turns to the other girl and says something quietly to her. The other girl nods and almost instantly sheâs stringing up another person, another example. You want to look away so badly, and yet you cannot bring yourself to and you watch the poor soul choke to death.
âI said listen, you dumb monkeys!â the girl shouts, and this time sheâs caught most of the crowdâs attention. âIf you donât want to end up like these two, youâll listen to what we have to say!â
There is clear dissent among the crowd, people dismissive as they utter their disbelief. Some seem to think itâs a prank, but you know better. It takes two more examples before the crowd goes silent before the two high schoolers.
âAbout damn time!â The girl roars and then points toward the atrium, which is currently covered by roots and branches. âAll of you move over there!â
You have a bad feeling about this.
Still, you comply; the girls have made it abundantly clear that failure to do so will result in death, though, at this point, you're almost certain this iteration is a bust and death is all but imminent. You try to keep positiveâ thinking you can at least gather information or, who knows, maybe there's a chance that this one is the one.
Yet when you step onto the mound of vines and branches that cover the atrium it feels as if you've crossed the threshold into hell. Your footing is stable⊠but for how long?
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
It's faint, but you can hear the announcement from below. The liquid in your stomach curdles at the sound as you recall the train and, in particular, what is on board. Soon enough, those monsters will be swarming the platform, massacring everyone in reach, guzzling down their blood, feasting on their fleshâ
It dawns on you that the people on the platform are the monsters' first course.
And you, and those around you here in the shrubbery, are the second.
As you realize this, the branches and vines disintegrate beneath your very feet and suddenly you are mid airâ falling, falling into the abyss below.
You die for the thirtieth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
You've done this nearly sixty times now.
After countless failures, you've decided that you're just not going to go upstairs any more. No matter where you try to go, you still end up herded onto the death trap above the platform where you ultimately fall to your death. You've tried positioning yourself in the same spot, tried bracing yourself for the dropâ but nothing seems to work: upon landing, assuming you manage to land without hurting yourself or dying in midair (which has happened a couple times) you get grabbed and killed by one of the monsters from the train. It's probably not impossible, you just don't have the physical prowess or reflexes for it.
If anything, you can try again later, but you sincerely hope you don't have to.
It's 8:32PM, and you have plenty of time to get to your chosen spot for this loopâ it's close to the stairs, in the very center of the platform. Here, there's little risk of getting pushed off onto the tracks when the gates open. You'll probably have to move when the train comes, or even before (assuming you survive) to avoid the monsters, but you'll get to that when it's time.
You can't really see the fight once it breaks out after Satoru Gojo arrives, but you still try to keep track of it as best as you can. You see when he hurls both monsters across the platform and you're not sure if it's muscle memory or what but you have to fight the urge to move to the side and watch. It's been a while, yes, but you've seen the fight countless times beforeâ it doesn't change. Satoru Gojo will give chase. He will rip the branches from the branch eyed monster's skull. He will use some kind of power to eviscerate them.
You don't need to watch, but there's something in you that wants to.
It doesn't make sense, you've seen it all before; if you're unlucky you'll see it all again.
The lights go out and people start screaming; Satoru Gojo is ending the life of that one monster. Soon enough he'll be back on the platform, in pursuit of the other. You think at that point it would be good to move, reposition yourself as far from the incoming train as possible.
When he rises from the tracks like a demon straight from hell, you realize it's the first time this loop that you've actually gotten a good look at him. You remind yourself, again, that this isn't the first time you've seen this man, this scene. You can't help but watch, but stare at Satoru Gojo as he stalks through the crowd in pursuit of his prey. His expression is an eerie sort of calm that's at odds with the acts of violence you've seen him commitâ his eyes an unnaturally bright blue.
He's a terrifying sort of beauty and you can't help but be captivated by him.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
The sound of the announcement sends your heartbeat into a frenzy, snapping you out of your little trance. The train is coming and you need to get moving. As you dart to the edge of the platform, the thought occurs to you that even if you avoid the initial wave of monsters, it's likely you will inevitably be caught by them and killed. It wouldn't be impossible for Satoru Gojo to turn his attention to them instead of the two he's currently facing, but he's just one manâ can he truly defeat all those monsters?
You can see the train pulling in and you brace yourself, praying that it'll work out somehow.
The doors hiss open and the screaming starts again as the monsters come bursting out of the train, biting and mauling anyone they can get their hands on. Those who were lucky enough to not be at the front start to scramble away and the monsters give chase. Your body is taut, ready to try and dodge any that come your way.
Out of the corner of your eye you notice something moving through the air. A person? With blue hair? You take the risk to lookâ they're attacking Satoru Gojo. He tries to punch them but they fly away from him to dodgeâ disappearing into the crowd.
You hear a loud cracking sound over the cacophony of the crowd and your stomach twists; you know what that sound is. The roots above the atrium disintegrate and bodies from above start to rain down onto the platform.
And then, you're not sure what happensâ it's so quick that you only manage to see what looks like an explosion of blood surrounding Satoru Gojo. Corpses litter the ground around him and even from here you can tell he is shaken by the carnage.
The monsters have finally reached where you're standing, and you duck under one as it lunges at you. Although it's big and scary, you realize it's moving kind of slow. Right after it another one comes at you and you take a side step to avoid it; this monster is kind of slow too.
Maybe you can do this.
As soon as you think that a strange feeling courses through you. Every hair on your body feels like it's standing on edge and the voice in your head is telling you to look at Satoru Gojo. You don't understand why because you think he's the least of your worries right now, but you do it anyway.
He's in some sort of stance, one hand raised to his face, fingers bent in some kind of gesture. There's some sort of aura, oppressive and frightening emanating from his form.
Satoru Gojo is doing something.
You just can't tell what.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
And you are utterly confused.
Barring your first few loops when you weren't fully aware of what was happening, you have very distinct memories of how each of your previous iterations of this night have goneâ of each and every one of your deaths. But for your last round, the last thing you remember was feeling the immense power radiating from Satoru Gojo's body, but that's it.
You do not remember dying.
In fact, you don't think you did.
And yet, here you are again, back at the start: it's 8:32PM and the monsters and strangely dressed man are standing on the subway tracks waiting for the arrival of Satoru Gojo.
You don't understand what's going on; you didn't die but you're still stuck in this damn loop. Up until now, your death has served as the trigger to restart the loop. It's not impossible that maybe you suffered a quick and painless death but you're almost certain that isn't the case.
Something else must have happened.
Something having to do with Satoru Gojo.
You have to find out what. If you don't, you won't know how to avoid it, and if you can't do that, then you really might spend an eternity stuck in this nightmare. And so you take great care to repeat the steps of your last round. You need to make sure to survive to the same point you made it to last time.
Miraculously, you do.
The moment you feel that sensation again, a prickling sort of feeling that envelops your entire body, your eyes are on Satoru Gojoâ trying to figure out what the hell he's doing. His eyes are crazed with a desperate kind of focus. You see his mouth moveâ he's saying something. A spell? A prayer? A curse?
You don't know.
You do know.
Your brain feels like it's going to explode.
Again.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
Again.
You do not know how many times it's been the night of Halloween in Shibuya: you stopped counting around the hundredth loop. It feels like it's been a while since then. Or maybe it hasn't? You don't know any more.
What you do know is that this night ends up going one of two ways before you are forced to repeat it. Either you die, in some way, shape or form or something happens just after nine that forces you to reset. You still don't know what it is exactly; you only know that Satoru Gojo is responsible for it.
You do prefer it to dyingâ it's far less painful.
But if anything, you wish you could just die permanently and never have to repeat this night ever again.
Unfortunately, you know better.
The only good thing youâve noticed about all of this is that you really do seem to keep waking up earlier and earlier. The last time you checked, it was at around 8:30. It might take hundreds of thousands of loops, but eventually youâll certainly wake up early enough to avoid this damn entire mess.
But by the time that happens⊠will your sanity still be intact? Will you really be able to go back to a normal day to day life after living the equivalent of hundreds of years, repeating the same night over and over again? You donât even know how youâve managed to stay sane all this time and as much as you want to believe you could do itâŠ
There has to be a breaking point.
For both your mind and this time loop.
If youâre lucky, youâll reach the latter first.
Thereâs a dull ache in your head that feels foreign yet familiar. Your mind is foggy, all your thoughts hazy as you try to recall what the word for this feeling is.
Groggy.
It feels as if youâve woken up from a nap and you blink the sleepiness away from your eyes. When was the last time you took a nap? Itâs been a while⊠You think you maybe tried once or twice, but you were too nervous, too on edge. Awake or asleep, it didnât matter because, either way, you were doomed to repeat this nightmare.
As you think this, you realize that something is different.
Youâre used to how the start of each loop feels like waking up suddenly and abruptly and it becomes clear to you that you havenât looped. This is completely uncharted territory.
You need to find out whatâs going on.
The first thing you notice is that itâs quiet. Almost eerily so, especially when the last thing you remember was screaming and chaos. You glance around you and find that it looks like all the monsters from the train are dead, the ground littered in their bloodstains and corpses. There were so many of them, you donât know how someone could have wiped them out so quickly⊠Could it possibly have been Satoru Gojoâs doing?
More concerning than the complete eradication of the monsters is the fact that nearly everyone else on the platform is standing stock still, their mouths ajar with blank expressions on their faces. Itâs almost as if their souls have completely vacated their bodiesâŠ
Were you like that too before you woke up?
You hear voices, and your body immediately goes tense as you turn your head in their direction. A little ways ahead of you, you see a man dressed as a monk conversing with the blue haired person from earlier and before them isâ
Your heart nearly stops: itâs Satoru Gojo, restrained and on his knees.
Honestly, you canât make heads or tails of the conversation theyâre having; itâs more shounen battle manga nonsense. Satoru Gojo doesnât seem to be enjoying their conversation either, and he interrupts them, clearly annoyed.
âAre we gonna do this or what?â he asks. âThe view sucks and Iâm just kinda bored.â
âI wanted to enjoy this sight for a little bit longer, but you are right,â the monk says. âI wouldnât want anything to happenâ gate, close.â
When he says that, Satoru Gojoâs restraints move, the weirdly shaped cubes at the ends of them closing in around him, trapping him in a giant red cube. It starts to shrink until itâs small enough to fit in the monkâs hand.
You gulp and hope they donât notice that youâre awake. The fact that they havenât slaughtered the rest of the people standing around you is a good sign, but you donât want to find out what happens if they know youâre cognizant.
Itâs not hard to play the part of a living statue, especially when you compare it to everything else youâve had to suffer through on this night. You watch as the monkâs allies, the ones who had attacked everyone on the platform, wake up, but before they can do or say anything, the box holding Satoru Gojo slips through the monkâs fingers and makes a dent in the concrete. The look on the monkâs face makes it clear that itâs a problem he wasnât expecting.
You donât know a damn thing about Satoru Gojo, but you feel like this kind of thing is the norm for him.
The blue haired person suddenly looks in your direction and you nearly stop breathing. Have they noticed you? It takes everything in you to keep perfectly still, in hopes that maybe they didn't, that maybe theyâre looking at something else. They raise their arm and it extends, their hand acting like some kind of projectile. You almost shut your eyes and brace yourself for impact, but their hand flies upwards and hits something on the ceiling, destroying it.
Inwardly, you breathe a sigh of reliefâ youâre still safe.
For now.
You listen to their following conversation and while you still donât fully understand everything, itâs clear theyâre talking about what to do next since theyâve taken care of Satoru Gojo. Something having to do with someone named Yuji Itadori? The group seems split on what to do about him but itâs clear heâs their next target.
Eventually, everyone but the monk (you heard the blue haired person, who is apparently named Mahito, call him Geto?) runs off, probably to find this Yuji Itadori person. Once theyâre gone, Geto speaks and, at first, you think heâs talking to you, but it becomes clear heâs addressing someone else. âThose cursed spirits are actually smarter than the two of you.â
âGive him back!â a voice hidden among the crowd hisses. Your blood runs cold at the sound. You recognize it; itâs one of the high school girls from the upper floor.
âWe cooperated with you fully and kept dropping monkeys for you,â says another voice; it must be the other girl that was with her, the one who hung all those people.
âNow give us back Master Getoâs body like you promised!â
âDonât toy with Master Geto any further than you have!â
You blink in confusion. Isnât the monk named Geto? The way the girls are talking it sounds like theyâre talking about someone else⊠Is it possible that the body is âGetoâ but the person theyâre talking to is someone else possessing it? It sounds kind of crazy, but then again, so is every single thing youâve experienced tonight.
Your suspicions concerning this âGetoâ are confirmed only seconds later as he says, âNow begone, or is it your desire to be killed by this body?â
One of the girls vows her revenge and you hear shuffling somewhere else in the crowd as they scurry away. Now you think itâs just you and whoever it is thatâs puppeting Getoâs body. You see him plop down in front of the box (the prison realm, you think heâd called it) thatâs holding Satoru Gojo.
âYou can come out, you know,â he says after a while.
You freeze. The rest of the platform is completely silent. This time you think he might actually be talking to you.
âI know youâre there,â âGetoâ adds, his voice casual. âIf youâre insistent on hiding, you should know that Iâm not afraid of using whatever means necessary to smoke you out.â
Given everything his allies have done, thereâs no doubt in your mind that heâs serious. You were hoping to hide out among the crowd until he decided to leave, but it looks like you wonât be able to now.
Looks like this loop is a bust after all.
Your heart starts to race as you weave your way through the crowd. In every single one of your loops, you were always treated like a bit character, never noticed or singled out by any of the major players of the night. Although this is your first time encountering this âGetoâ itâs clear to you that heâs involved with everything thatâs happened here and honestly, you get the feeling he might actually be the mastermind behind the massacre.
That makes you even more nervous.
You come to a stop in the place where Satoru Gojo was once kneeling before he was put in that box. Now that youâre out in the open, âGetoâ looks you over with some sort of nonchalant curiosity.
âYouâreâŠâ he starts, sounding thoughtful, "not a sorcerer, are you?â
Sorcerer. You heard that term thrown around by him and his group a few times. Itâs what theyâve been referring to their enemies as. It probably wouldnât be smart to lie and say you are one; you get the feeling heâd see through your lie anyway. âIâm not.â
He hums. âHow interesting.â
â...what do you mean?â you ask before you can help yourself.
âItâs just you have an abnormally large amount of cursed energy for a non-sorcerer,â he explains. âThough, I suppose that all just sounds like gibberish to you."
You nod and look down at the box lodged in the floor. It has eyes, big creepy looking eyes. "...are you going to do the same thing to me as you did to that man?"
He laughs, "...fortunately for you, the prison realm only holds one person at a time and I need him sealed away more than you."
"...does that mean you're going to leave him in there forever?"
"If I'm feeling nice, I might unseal him in a hundred years or so."
One hundred years? At this point, you've probably lived roughly that amount of time through your loops alone, but for Satoru Gojo⊠"Won't he die first?"
"Only if he decides to," 'Geto' says, looking completely and wholly unbothered. "Time doesn't doesn't flow in the box, so when I unseal him, he'll be the same as he was just now. Physically anyway. Who knows how deteriorated his mind will be after all that."
Time doesn't flow in the box.
The words echo in your mind over and over. Time doesn't flow in the box. In other words, that means time has stopped in the box, and if that's the case thenâ
"Anyway, rather than worry about him, shouldn't you be more worried about yourself?"
You look at 'Geto' and he's smiling at you, it's friendly, but ominous. There's no doubt what is going to happen next, though you had already resigned yourself to this iteration being a bust; it was only a matter of time.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
"I was thinking I might keep you around, even if you arenât a sorcerer, your wealth of cursed energy would serve my plans well," he muses. "But⊠it would be too much trouble trying to teach you how to use it in time."
As he talks, you realize this is probably the first time your death is intentionalâ every other death you've suffered has just been a byproduct of the ongoing slaughter. You were just another casualty, a victim, never a target.
You're scared.
Even though you know that once he kills you, once you die, you'll just loop back to around 8:30 again. You'll be on the platform again. And you'll play out some sequence of events before you eventually die again. And again and again.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
"I'll be nice, though," 'Geto' says, raising a hand and another monster appears out of nowhere. You donât even bother trying to figure out from where. It doesnât matter, especially since this monster will surely be the one to end your life. "I'll make it painless."
"...I appreciate it," you say and close your eyes hoping that he's not lying about it.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
He didn't lie.
You die again.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
And you're trapped.
You don't know how and you don't know why, but you are stuck in a time loopâ forced to suffer through the horrific events of the night before you die and begin it all again. It's been a long time since you stopped counting how many loops you've gone through, but if you had to guess, it's probably somewhere in the hundreds now.
You are so very tired.
But it doesn't stop. It won't stop no matter what you seem to do. You are stuck. You are trapped. You are doomed.
âTime doesn't flow in the box.â
Ever since that first loop where you heard whoever is possessing Geto's body say that, the words have been stuck in your head, playing on loop.
You finally realize why.
âTime doesn't flow in the box.â
It's 8:25PM when you wake up; that should be plenty of time.
You need to find Satoru Gojo.
After hundreds of loops you've come to a singular conclusion: you need to prevent him being sealed in the prison realm. You've witnessed it enough to know that you won't be able to do it alone; you'll need his cooperation.
You rush upstairs as fast as you can, ignoring the shiver that runs down your spine as you step onto the stairwell. According to your previous loops, Satoru Gojo arrives on the subway tracks at 8:40PM. With how crowded the upper floor is, you donât know if youâll have the time to intercept him and talk to him, but if you can at least figure out where to find him, then you can try and talk to him during a subsequent loop.
When you reach the fourth basement floor, however, you donât know where you should even start. Heâs pretty tall so you think you could spot him in the crowd, but⊠there are still so many people. It occurs to you that maybe it would be better to try and look from a higher vantage point so you head to the stairs that lead up to the third basement floor. You check your phone again. Itâs 8:35PM; you need to hurry.
Luckily for you, you find him very easily on the third basement floor.
The only problem is that heâs in a hard to reach spotâ squatting above a sign hanging over the crowd.
You check your phone again. Itâs 8:38PM and heâs starting to move, presumably to meet with those waiting for him on the subway tracks. Itâs good that you found him, but thereâs no doubt about it.
Youâre going to need more time.
The moment you wake up, you immediately bolt toward the stairs. It's taken many, many more loops, but you've finally brought the time you wake down to around 8:15. You're still not sure if it's enough time, but there's only one way to find out.
You barrel your way up to the next floor and zig zag through the crowd to get to the next flight of stairs. By the time you get to your destination, you're completely out of breath, your chest heaving as your lungs clamor for air. Youâve done this so many times, yet your body acts like itâs always the first. It sucks, but thereâs nothing you can do about it. You slow to a brisk pace to catch your breath and check the time. Itâs 8:27â a new record. Hopefully itâll be enough.
The goal is to catch Satoru Gojo before he moves to his lookout point above the crowd. While not impossible, it would be difficult for you to follow him there. You eye the safety barricade that blocks off the area where heâll be moving in just a few minutes warily.
Yes, getting over there would be extremely difficult.
You donât want to think about it right now; youâll deal with it when the time comes.
Especially since Satoru Gojo has now entered your field of vision.
Your heart starts to race at the sight of him and it feels like itâs beating a million times a second. There isnât a lot of time. You need to talk to him, but your legs only wobble, your feet planted firmly to the ground. This is not good. You need to move. You need to move.
Finally, after what feels like both an instant and an eternity, your feet finally budge, propelling you in Satoru Gojoâs direction. The beating of your heart only grows louder as you make your way toward him, mingling with the single thought thatâs echoing throughout your mind right now: will he even hear you out?
You need to make him.
âExcuse me!â The words nearly come out in a stutter as you realize that you are actually talking to Satoru Gojo. You have watched this man at a distance for so long that it almost felt like he wasnât real, like he was just another fixture in this nightmare that youâve been living for far too long. And yet, here he is, right in front of you, in the flesh.
And his attention is on you.
All sound stops: the crowd around you, the thoughts in your head, the beat of your heart. Even though you cannot see them through that blindfold of his, you know that Satoru Gojoâs eyes are on you and the thought of that, the knowledge of it is actually a little overwhelming. Your mouth is dry and suddenly you donât know what to say, but you need to say something. You need to say something before he thinks maybe you bumped into him by accident and just walks away without a word.
âI need to talk to you!â The words just burst out from your mouth and something about it is just absolutely embarrassing. Youâre not sure if it's desperation or the fact that you havenât really talked to anyone other than the existence occupying Suguru Getoâs body in nearly forever.
Satoru Gojoâs lips slowly start to form a smile, âOh, yeah?â
The sound of his voice makes your mind go blank. Thereâs something different about it right now; more playful, amused even. Maybe itâs because heâs talking to you, a harmless human being and not a monster trying to kill him. Itâs almost kind of jarring, but you know, with certainty, what Satoru Gojoâs voice sounds like. And the fact that heâs actually talking to you right now has you kind of excited. You nod, doing your best to not show how thrilled you are that heâs not ignoring you.
He hums thoughtfully, âSorry⊠but unfortunately I kind of have some business to attend to right now.â
âIââ You start to say that you know that heâs headed down to the platform below to fight withâŠChoso and Jogo, you think their names areâ you donât know the name of the monster with the branches for eyes. âItâsâ itâs really important!â
Gojo tilts his head a little, clearly thinking. You should probably say something else, something to try and convince him to stay a little longer and hear you out, but your mind is both full and blank. Where do you start? From the beginning? Or do you start with what is most important? Maybe you should say what you think will get his attention. Youâre not sure, and you realize you really should have thought about this earlier because youâre running out of time right now.
â...mind handing me your phone?â
You stare at Gojo, completely and wholly confused, but he just holds out his hand expectantly. When you donât move, he wiggles his fingers a little, a silent gesture telling you to hurry it up. Without thinking, you reach into your bag and unlock your phone before handing it to him.
âKind of sucks that cell service isnât working right now,â he remarks as he types something into your phone before handing it back. âBut! Here's my number.â
You look down at your phone and, sure enough, Satoru Gojo has added himself as one of your contacts. Heâs even added a little star to the end of his name. Thatâs⊠a little unexpected. Why his number though?
âAre you⊠hitting on me?â you mutter in your confusion.
He laughs, âWell, you said you had something really important to talk to me about, right? So just give me a call when you get home or some time tomorrow and we can talk then!â
Youâre not going to make it home, or even to tomorrow, and neither will Satoru Gojo. As you start to tell him this, he steps past you. Desperate, you try to grab him, but somehow, for some reason, you canât. You remember he did this with Jogo and the other monster, made himself untouchable.
This is not good.
He gives you a little wave, cheery as he says, âIâll talk to you later!â
You watch, helpless as he hops over the barricade beyond your reach.
Gripping your phone tightly, you take a deep breath. It's fine, it's not like you didnât expect things to go well anyway.
You'll just have to try again.
Every time youâve tried to solicit help from Satoru Gojo, it has gone the same way. He just wonât give you the time of day, and in some ways you canât blame him; heâs clearly here to deal with the monsters down on the platform. Youâre fairly certain that he probably thinks that whatever is going on with you is a much lesser issue in comparison.
Plus, it probably doesnât help that in the times that youâve approached him, you havenât been able to articulate yourself particularly well. Once you start talking to him, you just get hit with something akin to stage fright and the connection between your mind and your mouth just stops working. Itâs gotten better with each attempt, butâŠ
Itâs just so frustrating.
It is interesting that Gojo has given you his number every time, star symbol and all. Youâre not sure what kind of person you were expecting him to be, but after witnessing him literally and viciously rip monsters apart, youâd figured heâd be a little more somber. However, in the fragmented conversations youâve had with him heâs come off as far more friendly and playful than you would have thought. Is he the type of person to get more serious when the situation calls for it? You canât help but wonder, but ultimately, it doesnât really matter.
What really matters is that youâre able to convince him to help you.
You have to convince him.
âExcuse me!â you say, stepping in Satoru Gojoâs path. You donât stutter this time, and your voice is more sure. This is good.
âYes?â
His head turns in your direction and you gulp. Gojoâs gaze, despite that blindfold of his, still feels just as overwhelming as it did the very first time you approached him. You have no doubt that heâs sizing you up, but thereâs just something about it that makes you feel like youâre being picked apart.
You take a deep breath and step closer to him, hoping your voice sounds firm enough as you say, âI need your help. Iâm trapped.â
He chuckles a little, âI know, but yours truly is on his way to go beat up the bad guys keeping you all trapped here, so soon enough youâll be all free to go on your merry little way.â
Right. You were so caught up in your own plight that you nearly forgot that technically youâre not the only one âtrapped.â Satoru Gojo obviously knows that everyone else is confined to this station, but you doubt he knows that youâre confined to this night alone.
âThatâs not what I mean!â you sputter.
âThen what do you mean?â Gojo asks. Should you tell him that you mean that youâre trapped in a time loop? Youâre honestly not sureâ in the movies and manga youâve read about time travel, revealing that sort of thing risks creating a time paradox which seems to be a bad thing. If you have to tell him, you will, butâ âOh, I get it.â
You stare, bewildered. Did you maybe just spew all of that aloud?
Gojo gives you a mischievous smile. âYouâre hitting on me, arenât you?â
âNo!â The word comes flying out of your mouth. You canât deny heâs attractiveâ youâve thought it all this time, but that is not whatâs happening here.
âNo need to be embarrassed,â he continues, ignoring you. âI totally get it, so if you want, Iâd be happy to give you my number!â
Again? Youâve received Satoru Gojoâs contact details in every loop youâve talked to him, star symbol and allâ you even have his number memorized. Thereâs something kind of odd about how he keeps giving you his number. Part of you wonders if heâs got some sort of ulterior motive, but you havenât thought too deeply about it. There are way more important things going on.
âI donât need your phone number,â you say. âI need to talk.â
Your response seems to give Gojo pause. Did you somehow manage to get through to him? No way. Your suspicions are all but confirmed when he gives you that familiar apologetic smile.
âLike, I said, Iâm sort of in the middle of something, butâŠâ Gojo reaches into his pockets and rummages around until one hand fishes out a folded up piece of paper. The other hand keeps digging around in his pocket and when Gojo seems to give up on whatever heâs looking for, he turns his attention back to you. âGot a pen?â
What?
Gojo tilts his head. âWell?â
âI do, butâŠâ You trail off, unsure why heâs asking.
He holds out his hand waiting for you to just hand him the pen. You still donât get it, but you reach into your bagâs front pocket and pull out the pen and hand it to him. Gojo looks almost like an excited child when he takes it from you, quickly scribbling something onto his paper before shoving it and your pen back into your hand.
You look at the paper; it looks like a receipt. For a disturbing amount of mochi that Gojo bought earlier today. The amount of money he spent is almost sickening; way too much to be paying for mochi. More importantly, you notice something juxtaposed over the receiptâs print.
Itâs Satoru Gojoâs name and number.
He even drew a little star next to his name.
âIf you change your mind later, just give me a call!â he tells you cheerily. âI promise Iâll make it worth your while!â
You gawk at him. He cannot be serious. You literally just told him that you didnât need it and yet he still gave it to you. He must want you to contact him later, but you canât even begin to understand why. It canât have been something you said or did, right? Unless, heâs actuallyâ
âLater!â Gojoâs voice cuts through your thoughts and you notice him walking off with a wave.
You canât let him get away.
Again.
You crush the receipt in your hand and rush after him. Despite the crowd, Gojo seems to move through the people with ease and it almost seems like they are yielding to him naturally. Itâs good for you. Makes him easier to chase.
âWait!â you yell, but Gojo doesnât even look back. Bastard. Your muscles strain as you try to run faster. You know you wonât be able to grab him if you get to him, but there has to still be something you can do to stop him. Circle around him? Cut him off before heâ
Satoru Gojo reaches the barricade.
âWait!â you yell again. âSatoru Gojo, wait!â
He does not even acknowledge you.
Youâre almost there though. Almost. If you reach out your hand, then maybe, maybe you can grab him. Something in your head tells you that itâs useless; youâve never been able to touch him. But, you donât care, you donât care because you have to try. You stretch out your hand, desperate and hoping, but just as you do, Gojo effortlessly jumps over the barricade, moving to survey the crowd.
Due to your momentum, you almost collide into the barricade, but you manage to stop yourself. You stare at Satoru Gojo through the glass. He watches the crowd for at most three minutes. Is this just another bust? Is there really nothing you can do? There must be a way you can get his attention. Is it possible to climb over the barricade? No, itâs too high. Thereâs nothing you can grasp onto or use as footing either.
This fucking sucks.
Another minute or two and Gojo will be on the move again, and there will be no way you can follow, no way you can get his attention. You press your hands against the glass, pushing against it. Naturally, it doesnât budge. Why would it? If only you could get it out of the way. If only you could break it. This stupid barricade is the only thing between you and Satoru Gojo and thereâs no way you can climb it, but if only you could break it.
If only you could fucking break it.
Suddenly, the glass feels warm. Satoru Gojoâs image starts to look a little distorted as the warmth beneath your fingers grows. Something is happening. The glass starts to vibrate and shake. Violently. The tremors grow stronger and stronger. You should stop. You should back away.
You donât.
The barricade starts to crack and fracture and soon the sound of shattering glass resounds throughout the entire room. Everyone starts screaming. No one knows whatâs going onâ not even you. But you donât care. Itâs gone. The barricade is gone.
You take a step forward, toward Satoru Gojo. Heâs on a beam thatâs about a two meter drop from where youâre standing. Thatâs fine. Thatâs okay. You can make it. You have to. Without a second thought, you jumpâ
And you land on the beam. You look up and Satoru Gojoâs attention is back on you. Heâs finally, finally turned toward you, face twisted into an expression you canât decipher or even comprehend, butâ
Somethingâs wrong; your world is turning on its axis, butâ
Satoru Gojo is looking at you, andâ
Up is very quickly becoming down, andâ
Satoru Gojo is coming closer, butâ
Youâre slippingâ
But heâs right there, andâ
Youâre falling, butâ
Heâs trying to catch you, butâ
Itâs too late. Itâs too late.
The last thing you think you feelâ
âis Satoru Gojoâs arms around you.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
And you are causing a commotion.
âShit! Fuck!â you curse loudly. The people near you start to shift away but you barely notice; you donât really care.
You were so close, so fucking close and yet⊠yet here you are again. Itâs quarter past eight and you are back on the goddamn platform. You donât know what happened; you remember falling and thinking you were going to die, but you are absolutely certain that, once again, this time, you didnât die.
Is Satoru Gojo at fault again? Did he do something? Like he did all those other times you looped without dying? When you think about it more, you donât think so. You donât know what happened; all you know is that you tried to get to him, but you slipped.
And he caught you, you definitely remember that.
You still donât understand why you looped, but thereâs not much you can do about it now; itâs not like you can go back anymore. It just sucks, because you think he might have actually listened if youâd talked to him.
Or he would have come after you for⊠whatever happened with the barricade. It could have been taken as an attack on the crowd⊠But if he thought you were doing that, then why would he catch you?
You donât know.
All you know is that you have to try again.
The only problem is that you donât know how you managed to shatter the barricade. You think about it as you make your way up to where youâll find Satoru Gojo. There is the possibility that it wasnât you and something else happened to it instead, but that feels way too coincidental. It had to be you. Thatâs the only thing that makes sense. You just canât figure out how you did it outside of wanting, wishing, praying for the barricade to break. Itâs not like you have supernatural powers like Satoru Gojo and his enemies.
Despite your mind being completely and wholly occupied by trying to figure out how in the world you managed to break through that barricade, you still manage to make it to the second basement floor of Shibuya Hikarie by 8:25PMâ a brand new record. Satoru Gojo doesnât show up until around 8:34PM, so that gives you almost ten minutes to try and figure out what you need to do to try and replicate shattering the glass barricade again.
Exceptâ
Except Satoru Gojo is already here.
The thought that maybe youâre mistaken flashes in your mind before itâs quickly dismissed; thereâs no way youâd mistake anyone else for him. There is absolutely no denying it: that is Satoru Gojo. Bewildered, you double check the time on your phone. Maybe you misread it and youâre actually late but sure enough you read it rightâ Satoru Gojo is here early.
What the hell is going on?
Of the thousands of times you have experienced this night, this hell, this sort of thing has never happened before. Everything happens at a specific time, as if adhering to an unseen schedule. Itâs likely that what happened in your last iteration did delay Satoru Gojoâs arrival onto the platform, but other than that there has never been a deviation to the time table.
And yet, here Satoru Gojo is, nine minutes early now.
You realize that thatâs not the only thing thatâs strange: heâs not moving. In previous rounds, when you encounter Gojo here, heâs walking to the lookout spot beyond the barricade. But, right now, heâs just standing there, hands stuffed in the pockets of his jacket. It almost looks like he's waiting for something.
Or someone.
This unexpected turn of events has you rooted to the spot. Youâre not sure what you should do. No. This shouldnât change anything. You need to talk to him. As concerning as a change like this is, the extra time it gives you should be a good thing. Despite knowing that, your feet are still firmly planted to the ground.
The crowd shifts and you see Satoru Gojo start to move. Toward the barricade? No. Heâs not heading in his usual direction, rather heâsâ
You stop breathing.
Heâs headed toward you.
All sound stops: the crowd around you, the thoughts in your head, the beat of your heart. Even though you cannot see them through that blindfold of his, you know that Satoru Gojoâs eyes are on you and the thought of that, the knowledge of it is absolutely mind numbing.
He comes to a stop before you, lips curled up to form an amused sort of smile as he says, âSoooo, you needed to talk to me?â
You try to answer but no words come out of your mouth. Are you dreaming? You have to be, right? There's no way that this is actually happening. Could it be that, after thousands of loops, youâve finally lost it? Your mind shattering along with the glass of the barricade at the end of the last one?
Gojo tilts his head, indicating that he's still waiting for an answer. When you open your mouth, at first, nothing comes out, the words stuck in your throat. You force them out, your voice cracking, â...how did you know?â
He smiles, looking almost mischievous as he reaches up and lightly taps the side of his head. âI remembered, of course!â
All you can do is stare at Satoru Gojo. He remembered? How is that possible? From his perspective, this is the first time youâve met and while it shouldnât be possible for him to remember thereâs something in your mind thatâs keeping you from completely dismissing the possibility.
Gojo laughs, âI take it from the look on your face that youâre not used to this sort of thing happening. Is this the first time?â
âNo.â The fact that the word is out of your mouth before you can even really think about it surprises you and you really have to think. Your face scrunches together as you try to remember. Is this really not the first time? Then, the memories assault you, overlapping as they replay simultaneously in your headâ a woman in a yellow and white magical girl costumeâ begging you for help as she burns to deathâ smiling as she tells you she made her costume herself. â...it happened just once a long time ago.â
ââA long time ago,â huh. Sounds like you've been at this for a while now.â
â...unfortunately.â
Gojo hums. âSo when you said you didnât need my phone numberâŠâ
âYouâd already given it to me a few times,â you say, figuring thatâs where this conversation is going.
âReally now?â
Does he not believe you? Or is he just being an ass? Youâre not sure, but since you had taken the liberty of memorizing Satoru Gojoâs phone number you recite it back to him to prove your point.
Just when you think you may have stunned Gojo into silence he starts to laugh, obviously finding something funny about the fact that you know his cell phone number. âSeems like you've got quite the fascinating technique there.â
Technique? What is he talking about? Your confusion must be plain on your face because he adds, elaborating, âThe time travel.â
You continue to stare at him. You don't think you'd consider what you've been going through time travel, because traveling implies moving from point A to point B, but you've been stuck walking in circles at point A for a long time. What really gets you is⊠âWhat do you mean by âtechnique?ââ
âYou mean you donâtâ oh. I get it; no wonder youâre trapped.â
That does not answer your question in the slightest. âCan you please explain what you're talking about? What do you mean by âtechnique?ââ
âRight, right⊠So basically, a technique is like a special sort of power,â he finally explains. âLike I said, your technique seems to be a kind of time travel. Whenever you activate it, your mind is sent back in time.â
What he's saying makes sense, but⊠âHow come you were sent back too?â
He laughs again. âIsn't it obvious? Think back to beforeâ do you remember that I caught you as you were falling?â
You nod slowly. The memory of his arms around you is almost embarrassingly vivid. â...is it because we were touching?â
âDing, ding, ding! That's correct! Anyone you happen to be touching when you activate your technique gets affected by it too!â
Something about his tone annoys you, but you try to ignore it. He could have just told you rather than make you guess. âHow do you know that for sure?â
âWell,â he continues. âYouâve done your little time loop a bunch of times, right? If your technique affected everyone, or even a few people in a select range you would have noticed for sure. And if it affected only just you then we wouldnât be having this conversation right now, now would we?â
When you think about it, you do think that the woman in the magical girl costume might have bumped into you before the loop where she remembered.
âThatâs honestly just conjecture, but I've got pretty good eyes, so Iâm hardly ever wrong.â
Gojo gives you a grin and while you do think that his reasoning is sound enough his confidence is a little grating. More than that, though, youâre glad that this conversation is actually going really well.
âEither way,â he says thoughtfully. âIt doesnât look like you can control your technique. Usually a personâs technique manifests when theyâre a kid, but you seem to be a special case⊠in fact, I bet your technique activated for the very first time tonightâ probably under some pretty extreme circumstances, too.â
â...dying counts as an âextreme circumstance,â right?â
âOh, absolutely. Or legitimately thinking that youâre gonna die, but it seems like your body has been unconsciously activating your technique as a sort of defense mechanism. Which is why youâre trapped.â
âSo, if I could control it Iâd be able to make it out of this time loop.â
âYeah, but in this case it probably wouldnât end very well for you,â he points out with a chuckle. âItâs not like you actually want to die, right? I mean, if you did, then your technique wouldnât even activate in the first place.â
You donât; what you want is for this night to finally end. To be free from the endless cycle of dying over and over again and again. You donât think death is quite the answer; even if you were to learn how to control this supposed technique of yours, thereâs no guarantee that you would just unconsciously activate it when the grim reaper comes knocking on your door. No, the answer isâŠ
âAnyway!â Gojoâs cheery voice cuts through your thoughts. âI highly doubt that youâre the type that makes a habit of jumping off ledges for the funsies, so the fact that youâve been dying tells me that some pretty gruesome stuff is about to go down, so, tell me what happens tonight.â
The sudden drop of his voice sends a shiver running down your spine. If it werenât for the fact that youâve seen how serious Gojo can get, the sudden shift in demeanor would probably freak you out a bit, but it doesnât. This is the Satoru Gojo youâre familiar with.
You do have one concern though. âThat⊠wonât create a time paradox or anything, will it?â
âNah,â Gojo shrugs. âYou wouldnât cause one with the way your technique works, besides, if youâve only been going back at most an hour or two in time itâs hard to believe youâd be making a really big impact⊠unless you really believe in the butterfly effect.â
Youâre still not quite sure.
âTrust me, itâll be fine.â
His voice sounds strange. Gentle. Kind. It's the most soothing thing you've heard in a long time and it makes you want to believe him.
â...okay.â
Anxiety is still gripping at you, but you try to dispel it, taking a deep breath before beginning your explanation. For the sake of brevity, itâs probably best that youâre as concise as possible. There isnât much need to really get into the nitty gritty of things unless he asks specifically.
Naturally, you begin with his arrival onto the platform and how soon after a fight breaks out and how the crowd is unfortunate enough to be involved. Gojoâs expression is passive for the most part, but he does crack the faintest hint of a smile when you mention how he manages to eviscerate one of the monsters.
It disappears once you tell him about the arrival of the train. Between the dozens upon dozens of people being dropped onto the platform by those two high school girls and the hoard of monsters disembarking from the train, everything devolves into pandemonium.
âWait,â Gojo holds a hand up and you pause. This is his first interruption since you started recounting the nightâs events for him. âEveryone is able to see the monsters?â
You stare at him. What a weird question. â...yeah?â
His mouth twists and it looks like heâs thinking about something. You canât even begin to imagine what. Finally, he comments, âMakes sense.â
It does not, but you donât ask him to elaborate. Surely if it was important he would have just done so.
âAnyway, in the middle of all that, you⊠you do something.â Your brows bunch together as you remember the stance Gojo took, the crazed and desperate look in his eyes, the feeling of your head about to explode. âI donât know how to describe it. At first, it would just force me to⊠activate my technique, I guess. But now, it just knocks me out for a few minutes.â
Gojo frowns and he rubs at his chin, obviously thinking about what youâve said. Eventually, he raises a hand and bends his fingers into a familiar gesture. Itâs the one that preludes whatever he does on the platform. âDo I do this?â
âYeah.â
He hums. âInteresting.â
You wait to see if heâll explain. He doesnât. Great. Even if he doesnât think you need to know, it certainly would be nice to. Itâs annoying otherwise, but you ignore the feeling and continue. âI canât tell you what happens when Iâm knocked out, but when I come to everyone is basically a zombie and all the monsters from the train are gone. I think you kill them.â
âI probably do,â he says casually. âBut what about Volcano Head?â
â...you don'tâŠget a chance to kill him,â you say slowly. Gojo tilts his head, waiting for you to elaborate, but you hesitate. You have to tell him, you know you do, butâŠ
You have seen the interaction so many times and though you don't know the exact nature of the relationship between them, you can tell that seeing Suguru Geto (or rather seeing his body) shook Satoru Gojo to his very core.
There's no doubt in your mind that he will not take this news well.
âCome on now,â Gojo's tone is light-hearted, unaware. âDon't keep me in suspense here.â
It's as if you're withholding the punchline to a joke. In a way, you suppose you are, but you don't think he's going to find it funny.
You take a deep breath. You need to tell him. The worst thing that could happen is that he doesn't believe you, but if that's the case⊠you'll probably just end up repeating this all again until you find a loop where he does.
Having made it this far, you'd like to avoid all that.
âBefore you can get Volcano Head you get restrained by something called the prison realm,â you say slowly, âby someone calling themselves⊠Suguru Geto.â
The second the name leaves your mouth, there is a clear and obvious shift in the air. Gone is Gojoâs laid-back and frivolous demeanor, replaced with something more somber and almost frightening. The tension grows more and more palpable to the point that you think it might almost choke you.
You almost wish that it would.
âYou canât be serious,â Gojo finally says, once your words have fully sunk in.
âIââ You start to speak, but come to an abrupt stop when you see him shove his hand into his pocket to yank out his phone of all things.
The both of you know full well that thereâs no reception here, but you donât think that heâs planning on making any calls. Gojo scrolls and scrolls on his phone before he stops and shoves the screen in your face. It shows a picture of three peopleâ a teenage girl with a cigarette in her mouth, a younger, happier version of Gojo sporting a pair of round sunglasses andâ
âWhen you say âGetoâ is this who youâre referring to?â Gojo demands, using his other hand to point at the third person in the frameâ a handsome young man with long dark hair pulled up into a bun.
âYes, butââ
âThatâs impossible. It canât be him,â Gojo interrupts, his voice firm, cold even. âHeâs dead.â
Thereâs a note of finality in his words that is definitely meant to leave no room for argument. It doesnât stop you, though. Instead, you glare at Gojoâs stupid blindfold and say, â...being dead doesnât mean a damn thing! Iâve died hundreds of times and yet Iâm still fucking here, butââ
âYour situation is different,â he interjects, the temperature of his tone hiking up, his words like heated hissing. âI killed him almost a year ago. There's no wayââ
âYou didn't get rid of the body properly!â You cut him off, raising your voice in hopes that he'll take even just a second to stop and listen. It seems to work and you add something you remember âGetoâ saying. âYou should have had Shoko Ieiri get rid of it, but you didnât and now some⊠some kind of gross brain thing is possessing the corpse!â
The air between you both is silent as the grave. Though you can't see it, you can feel the weight of his gaze pressing down on you. Heâs definitely having second thoughts about everything youâve said so far. Thereâs a chance he might even think youâre his enemy now. You stare him down though, refusing to look away. Youâve made it this far, you canâtâ you wonât back down.
â...youâre not lying, are you.â Gojoâs words are more of a statement than a question. Thereâs no doubt in your mind that he knows the answer, and yet heâs still asking. You wonder if maybe heâs clinging onto some vain hope that maybe, just maybe this all a sick, cruel joke thatâs gone way too far.
âIâm not.â
Gojo holds your gaze for a second longer before he lets out a curse. âFuck!â
â...Iâm sorry,â you say quietly, mostly because it feels like the most correct thing to say at this moment. You donât know the whole story, but it seems like they were close. If so, then it must have hurt Gojo a lot to have killed him, and must hurt even more to know that someone is desecrating the body. You hate that you, a complete and utter stranger, happened to be the person to tell him, butâŠ
It had to be done, for the sake of getting past this unending night, it had to be done.
Gojo runs a hand through his hair and lets out a ragged sigh. âOkay. What happens after that?â
You give him a rundown of what follows; he gets sealed, the monsters wake up and all but âGetoâ leave in search of their next target. When you mention the high school girls demanding the brain give Getoâs body back, Gojo snorts loudly.
âFat chance of that,â he says derisively.
You nod in agreement. It was clear to you that the brain parasite has no intent on giving it up any time soon. âAfter they leave, he⊠talks to me.â
âProbably couldn't ignore all that cursed energy you have,â Gojo remarks offhandedly.
You stare at him, expression twisted in a way that shows that you have absolutely no clue what that means. It should be fine for you to ask this one question; it actually concerns you after all. âWhat does that even mean?â
âExactly what it sounds like, though⊠probably doesn't make much sense to you, does it?â
You give him a pointed glare and all Gojo does is laugh.
âJust think of it like having a lot of MP.â
â...Like in a video game?â
âExactly!â Then, Gojo tilts his head, clearly thinking. You don't bother asking; you don't feel like he'll explain.
âHe does ask me if I'm a sorcerer, whatever that is. Is that why?â
âProbably. Ordinary people don't have even a fraction of the energy you're packing.â
âOrdinary peopleâ he says as if youâre not an ordinary person who got caught up in all this supernatural sorcery bullshit. Or at least you were, but if the time loops are really a product of your own doingâŠ
âDoes he kill you when you answer?â Gojo asks to get the conversation back on track.
âNot right away. What happens next kind of varies,â you answer. âHe usually lets me have a question or two before he kills me; I've asked him a couple different things.â
âReally taking advantage, arenât you?â Gojo says and you're not sure what to make of his tone. Is he mocking you or is he easing back into that laid-back persona of his?
âIf Iâm doomed to repeat the same situation over and over, I might as well make the most of it,â you respond flatly.
âYou know, your technique kind of reminds me of save scumming.â
Heâs definitely gone back to acting almost completely unseriousâ all signs of his earlier agitation are nearly gone.
âSo what did you learn?â
âWell, the prison realm only holds one occupant. Once theyâre sealed, time stops for them and the only way out is if the bearer unseals them or if they choose to kill themselves.â
âI see⊠And what about our body jacker?â
âHe didnât go into detail but he said something about⊠striving toward the evolution of mankind?â You frown a little at the memory. He didnât explain further because he said that you wouldnât understand.
âHuh. Interesting. Wonder how he was gonna go about doing that.â
âI don't know, but I can't imagine you'd like it since he goes out of his way to seal you into that box,â you say. âSaid youâd get in the way because youâre too strong.â
Gojo shrugs his shoulders and grins a little. Cocky. âWell, I am the strongest sorcerer around, you know.â
You would think him overconfident if you hadn't seen the magnitude of his strength first hand.
âAnyway, that's as far as I ever go. When he's decided heâs done talking to me, he kills me and I loop back.â
âSo, in short, what you want help with is getting past that point, right?â
âMore or less.â
âAnd all I have to do is avoid getting caught by the prison realm?â
You nod.
âWhatâs it look like?â he asks. âA big cage with a bunch of metal bars?â
Now that you think about it, you havenât woken up early enough to see it before it traps him, but you canât imagine it looks that much different. âNo.. Itâs a small box with eyes⊠It gets big enough to fit you in it, though.â
âHuh.â He stretches his arms out above his head as if heâs trying to emphasize how large he actually is and shoots you a grin. âShould be easy enough then. I bet our body snatcher used the shock of seeing Suguru to trap me but since I'll see it coming, avoiding it'll be a piece of cake.â
Gojo makes it sound so easy, and maybe it really is as simple as that, but you can't help but be worried still.
âDon't tell me you don't think I can do it,â he says, tilting his head.
âIt's not that,â you admit. âI'm just concerned I might die before we can get to that point.â
Truthfully, since you know that will just result in another loop you're less concerned with dying itself and more worried about losing the progress you've made in convincing Gojo to help you. Even though it's been clearly proven you can loop him as well, there's no guarantee you'll be able to make the physical contact needed to do it upon death.
âYou've made it pretty far on your own, though, right?â
âYeah, but⊠Iâve messed up plenty of times.â More than you can even count. âThere's also the possibility that taking the time to talk to you might have thrown things out of whack.â
Speaking of time, you check your phone. It's 8:39PM. You curse.
Gojo leans over to check your phone. âLet me guess, I'm supposed to be somewhere right now.â
âYeah, this is when youâre descending down onto the platform.â
âYou know where I am down to the exact minute?â He asks and you tilt your head back and forth a little. Itâs not exact per se, but itâs close enough. Gojo chuckles a little. âMan, I didnât realize that you were actually that into me.â
That earns Gojo a glare from you, but he just laughs it off. âI doubt being a few minutes late is going to make a big difference.â
You certainly hope so.
âDon't worry,â Gojo says and you notice he's using that tone from earlier. âYou won't die.â
Itâs hard to argue with him when he uses such a reassuring sounding voice and yet, you still open your mouth to tryâ to voice your doubts, but what he says next silences you before you even can.
âI'll protect you.â
You think your heart stops beating in your chest and your words dissolve in your throat.
He grins at you. âDid you fall in love with me just now?â
That catches you a little off guard. You're willing to admit he's hot, but surely he must be joking. âHow could you even think of something like that at a time like this?â
Gojo laughs again. âWell, since someone is so worried about their time table being all messed up, I better head down there; canât keep Volcano Head and friends waiting, right?â
You blink. Is that it? âWait, shouldnât we make a plan or something?â
âIsnât the plan for me to not get caught in the prison realm?â
Yes, but⊠âBut what about me? Is there anything I can do?â
Gojo stares at you, or at least you think he does. â...I donât know, is there?â
Youâve seen the encounter between Satoru Gojo and those monsters so many times and you try to picture a version of it where you intervene and⊠all you can see is yourself getting in his way. Youâre no fighter, no⊠sorcerer, or whatever he is, youâre just some ordinary person that was unfortunate enough to get all caught up in this mess. The most you can probably do is kick the prison realm out of the way when the time comes, but otherwise⊠â...no, I guess not.â
His expression turns sympathetic. âYouâve done plenty by telling me everything that happens. So just wait up here, and let me handle the monsters.â
You almost nod. Almost. But then you remember what transpires up here above the platform. You know it sounds safer up here where youâre less likely to get involved in the carnage, but⊠âWait, no, if I stay up here then Iâll fall to my death when those girlsââ
Gojo laughs, interrupting you. âDonât worry about that. Itâll be fine.â
âHow?â
âJust trust me.â
âIâŠâ Itâs hard to. After everything youâve gone through itâs hard to trust in anything, to believe in anything. Even though youâve made it this far this time, the worry that something will go wrong and that youâll have to do it all again still lurks in the back of your mind.
Despite all that, you want to believe.
You want to believe that you can make it past this unending night, that one day youâll wake up and itâll no longer be October 31, 2018. And the first step towards that is trusting in Satoru Gojo.
â...okay,â you say quietly. âOkay.â
Gojo chuckles then asks, âAnything else before I head off?â
You start to ask if thereâs anything you should say, in case things donât work out, but you stop yourself. Youâre choosing to trust him, to believe in himâ you can figure out that stuff later if things end up going south after all. So, instead you give him a smile and it feels a little weird because you donât remember the last time you did. âGood luck!â
For a split second, Gojo looks almost surprised, but then he laughs again, beaming widely at you. He starts to move past you and reaches out to give you what you think is meant to be a reassuring squeeze of the shoulder and then heâs off. You turn to watch him go, the crowd, once again, parting almost naturally for him.
When he reaches the barricade, he pauses, raising his hand as if heâs giving you one last wave. Then he jumps over it onto his little perch and then less than a minute later heâs gone, descending to the platform below.
Now, all you can do is wait.
You check your phone again and itâs 8:44PM. If you remember correctly, the high school girls start threatening everyone right before 9PM. With Gojoâs arrival being shifted back almost five minutes, does that mean that theyâll be shifted back too? It would make sense, but youâre not too sure.
Out of habit, you keep checking your phone and at nearly 9PM, you hear the shrill voice of one of the girls over the crowd, commanding everyone to do what she says, her partner stringing up bodies until everyone listens. Everything plays out just as you remember it, which is mildly comforting, though you know that the events that happen up here are more or less independent from what happens below.
Surely, just as Gojo said, a few minutes arenât going to change anything, butâ
No.
You agreed to trust him. To trust that everything would be fine.
When the girls start to demand that as many people as possible climb onto the roots and vines covering the atrium your heart starts to hammer in your chest. In just a few minutes, all the foliage will disintegrate beneath you, and you and everyone else here will fall into the abyss below.
You are afraid.
There isnât a single loop where youâve really survived this fall. If you donât die in midair, you die right after landing. Itâs a death trap, and thatâs why youâve stopped coming up here. Thereâs a part of you, the part that knows whatâs about to happen, that wants to try and run back onto stable footing. But you canât, because you know if you do then the girls will kill you for sure; you have to stay.
Itâll be fine, you tell yourself, itâll be okay.
You just have to trust Gojo.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
You hear the announcement faintly below you. Itâs almost time. You brace yourself and try to stay calm. Gojo said he would protect you, that you wouldnât die. You donât know how he intends to keep that promise, but all you can do is believe in his words.
Itâll be fine. Itâll be okay.
The vines and roots start to crack and the ground beneath you starts to give out. You squeeze your eyes shut as that sickening weightless feeling overtakes you. It occurs to you that this is actually quite literally a trust fallâ will Satoru Gojo really be able to catch you?
As you fall, you realize almost instantly that something is different.
Youâve experienced this fall dozens of times and so, even though it has been a while since youâve gone this route, you are very familiar with what it feels like. Something is different. Youâre falling faster. The trajectory is changing. Itâs like some force, other than gravity, is pulling at you.
Is this Gojoâs doing?
Just as your body collides with the ground you hear the sounds of mutilating flesh meld with the screams surrounding you. Blood and severed limbs litter the ground, but you try to ignore it. You need to focus on your own survival right now. Quickly, you scramble to your feet scan the area around you; youâre on the platform right now and right in front of you isâ
Right in front of you is Satoru Gojo.
His back is turned to you, his focus currently elsewhere. Looking at him you realize you recognize this scene, though itâs much closer and at a different angle. Heâs about to do that thing, that thing that knocks you out.
Something in you tells you to move closer to him, after all, he used his mysterious powers to deliberately bring you closer to him, right? You rush toward him and as you do something he said earlier pops up in your mind.
Anyone you happen to be touching when you activate your technique gets affected by it too!
Whatever heâs about to do⊠Is that his âtechnique?â And if it is, would it work the same way as yours? If so, thereâs only one way to find out: you need to touch him. You dodge monsters and other people as you run toward Satoru Gojo andâ
A monster still manages to grab you, its large hands wrapping around your wrist. You try and yank it free, but it's much stronger than you are.
âShit!â you hiss as the monster starts to pull you toward it and away from Gojo. What do you do? Your other hand is still free, should you try to punch it in the face? Orâ
Before you can do anything, something blasts the monsterâs head clean off. Shocked, you stare as the monsterâs body slumps onto the ground, its grip loosening on you instantly. You whip your head around to find that while Gojo still has his back to you, his arm is bent back in your direction, his palm open as if he fired some invisible blast from it.
Then you feel it again, something pulling at you, but this time it's more forceful. Your body is yanked toward Gojo and the second you feel his hand press against you, you see him make that gesture with his other hand.
âDomain Expansion,â he whispers in a strained voice. âInfinite Void!â
Something happens and your vision flashes for a fraction of a second. And thenâ
The room is enveloped in an eerie stillness; all the violence and bloodshed coming to an abrupt stop. Monsters and humans alike stand like the living dead, unconscious with their eyes wide open as if they are staring into an infinite abyss. You recognize this scene, youâre familiar with it because itâs similar to the one you wake up to after being hit by Gojoâs âdomain expansion.â The only difference is the presence of the monsters, who are all but gone when you regain consciousness.
The pressure from Gojoâs hand is gone and he says to you, his voice still low. âIf youâre squeamish when it comes to blood and gore, it might be best for you to close your eyes.â
And then heâs gone.
You do not take his advice. You do not close your eyes. How many loops were you unable to witness whatâs about to unfold? A few hundred? A few thousand? And if all goes to plan, then you will never get another chance again: thereâs no way you could possibly look away.
And what you see unfold before you is that Satoru Gojo was right.
He is the one to kill all the monsters.
Itâs not as if you really had any doubt, after all, it seemed like the most logical conclusion to come to and yetâŠ
Thereâs a difference between knowing and seeing.
All the violence resumes and the platform is engulfed in the sounds of carnage and slaughter once more. The lack of terrified screams makes everything more disconcertingâ without them, all you can hear is the squelching echo of mangled flesh and blood splattering all over the place. You canât really see him, but you can tell where Satoru Gojo is in the crowd as he leaves dozens upon dozens of decapitated heads soaring in his wake. Once or twice, he leaps out of the crowd and even from where you stand you can see the crazed glow of his inhumanly blue eyes as he massacres monster after monster.
Even though you donât think you have anything to be scared of, you are still terrified: Satoru Gojo is no longer a man, but violence incarnate. You want to move closer to where Gojo gets trapped, but youâre afraid to. What if you get in his way? What if he kills you by accident?
Dying again when youâve made it this far is definitely not ideal, but isnât being killed by Gojo the best case scenario? Because then the two of you would probably loop together again andâ
No.
Gojo said you wouldnât die.
He said heâd protect you.
Itâs hard to believe when heâs in the middle of a massacre, slaughtering monsters left and right, but you remind yourself yet again that you have to believe in him.
You take a deep breath and start moving, taking care to keep an eye on where Gojo is. You donât know how long this is supposed to take, but you do know where he ends up when heâs just about done. The closer he gets to that spot, the sooner the prison realm will be unleashed upon him.
Thereâs a small group of zombified people nearby and you settle yourself among them. Itâs not super close, but you think it's close enough that you'd be able to run over and kick the box away from Gojo if you have to. You do a quick survey to see if you can spot the body snatcher, but he's nowhere to be found. Hopefully, he hasn't noticed you moving around, or, if he has, he's more concerned with Gojo than he is with you. Given that you always seem to be the last thing he acknowledges, you'd like to think that he doesn't consider you a threat.
Which you're not, not really anyway.
The sounds of slaughter start to die down and you look to see Gojo approaching the spot where he gets caught. He looks beat, his eyes unfocused and his breathing heavy. You do another quick scan around him and notice a small box a few meters away from him, wrapped in what looks like paper charms or seals or whatever they're called. That has to be the prison realmâ though it looks different than what you saw before. Gojo seems to notice it right after you do, his gaze honing in on it, examining it with some measure of bewilderment. Then, some invisible force slices through all the paper seals covering the box and it expands, the corners of the box floating up in midair to reveal what looks like a large sheet of dark red flesh with a large bloodshot eye stapled to the middle.
Disgusting.
If Gojo didnât realize before, he seems to now, because he takes a step back, away from the grotesque thing. Good, goodâ
âHey! Satoru!â Your blood runs cold at the sound of the body snatcherâs voice. He emerges from the crowd, smiling widely as he gives Gojo a wave. âLong time no see!â
Satoru Gojoâs entire body goes rigid. Shit. You told him, you warned him about what was going to happen, who he was going to see, but was that not enough? Itâs possible that no amount of warning would have been enough to mentally prepare Satoru Gojo for the sight of the man he said he killed a year ago. After all, you know that thereâs a stark difference between knowing and seeing. Even then, if Gojo doesnât gather his wits and move now then heâs going to get caught and you canât let that happen.
Your body moves before you can even think about it.
You scramble out from your hiding spot in the crowd and throw yourself in between Satoru Gojo and the prison realm. Thereâs no way you can kick it away from him now, not when itâs in this form, but maybe, if you get between them you can at least keep it from capturing him.
The eye quivers erratically, as it flits from Gojo to you. Every hair on your body stands on end as it watches you, the pupil dilating and contracting uncontrollably. You canât look away from it, your own gaze fixed to your image reflected in the black abyss of the pupil. Something in the back of your mind tells you to stop, to get away, itâs dangerous, but you keep your feet firmly planted to the ground.
A second, or maybe even a minute passes and the prison realm shifts, its fleshy form morphing to restrain you.
The body jacker looks at you, his frown tinged with disgust. âDonât you think youâre being rather rude by butting into what could have been a touching reunion?â
You scowl. Is he still trying to play the role of Suguru Geto?
He sighs and looks past you at Gojo. âSatoru, I thought bringing lesser sorcerers to fight alongside you was more trouble than it was worth?â
You hear Gojo snort from behind you, âIt is⊠but this person here isnât a sorcerer⊠Just like you arenât Suguru Geto.â
The faker almost pouts and presses his hand to his chest as if Gojo's words have wounded him. âSatoru, Iâm hurt, how could you say such a thing to your best friend?â
âCut the bullshit,â Gojo snarls. âYou canât fucking fool me. You might be in Suguruâs body but I know with all my heart and soul that youâre not him.â
The corpse snatcher stares at Gojo, expression blank before he sighs once more. Then, his gaze shifts back to you, his eyes narrowed as he looks at you with sheer disdain. It feels as if youâve been drenched in ice cold water. There's no smile this time but you already know what's going to happen.
Heâs going to kill you.
âI intended to deal with you later since you seemed harmless enough,â he says, raising a hand to summon a monsterâ the same one he always uses to end your life. âBut youâre in the way. So, I think itâs for the best if I just get rid of you right now.â
Instinctively, you try to take a step back but the prison realmâs restraints keep you in place. Not that it would have mattered much, even in the loops where youâve tried to escape the fakerâs monster, it still kills you, too fast and too agile for an ordinary human like you to avoid. All you can do is squeeze your eyes shut and wait for the monster to kill you. At least, itâs always painless.
Something touches your back.
Your eyes shoot open.
Before you is the monster, wiggling and writhing only mere centimeters from your face. It gurgles and snarls at you, desperate to fulfill its masterâs wishes and kill you but it doesnât move any closer. You stare at it with wide eyes, unsure of what to do.
Someone behind you clicks their tongueâ Gojo. You try to turn your head to look at him, but your movements are too limited, the most you can do is turn your head to the side. The sounds the monster is making start to change, sounding more frenzied, almost as if itâs in pain, and you flit your eyes in its direction just in time to see its entire body explode. The monster's guts and bright purple blood fly off in every direction, getting on the floor, the ceiling, the zombified bodies of the people unfortunate enough to be nearby, but not on you.
This is Satoru Gojoâs doing.
He steps in front of you, half turned towards you as he moves in between you and the body snatcher. His hands are shoved in his pockets as he loudly says, âDid you really forget about me?â
Youâre not sure if heâs talking to you or the body snatcher.
Past him, the imposter scowls, raising his hand once more, probably to summon even more monsters, but Gojoâs quicker, and it almost looks like his eyes are glowing even brighter, the blue looking almost white as he whips his head in the fakerâs direction. The sound of mangling flesh and breaking bones echoes throughout the room as Gojo, using that mysterious power of his, seems to break the fakerâs arm.
The body snatcher hisses loudly and despite the fact that his face is twisted in very obvious pain, he tries to shoot Gojo a mocking smile. âDo you really think you can kill your best friend again?â
âI already told you,â Gojo turns to fully face the monster inhabiting Getoâs corpse. He tilts his head a little to the side and some force starts to squeeze at the fakerâs neck. âYouâre not Suguru.â
You hear a loud crack as Gojo telekinetically snaps his neck.
The head rolls onto the ground and you almost look away, but then you notice his eyes still moving, looking around. Is he still alive? Then you remember: the thing possessing Suguru Getoâs body was some kind of parasite. âGojo! Wait! The brain!â
He reacts almost instantly, head turning and in an instant the skull is crushed and all that remains is red splotch on the ground.
You almost relax. Almost.
But the body is still standing.
Horrified, you watch as it quivers violently before falling to the ground. Then what looks like dozens of black spirits start to erupt from the corpse and the entire room is engulfed with a shrill howling.
What the hell is going on?
âThose must be all the cursed spirits he consumed,â Gojo explains uselessly, voice barely audible over the screaming. âGuess he was empty before.â
You donât bother asking what he means. There are bigger problems right now. âWhat do we do?â
âNo choice to exorcise them,â he answers plainly.
For him to exorcise them, he means. You both know that thereâs not much that you can do. You still canât move and honestly, you donât even know if itâs possible to get out of the prison realmâs restraints. Not without dying. And if you die nowâŠ
Everything will have been for naught.
Youâll reset time and have to do this all over againâ assuming you can even get to this point again.
There has to be something, you just have to think outside the box.
Or ratherâ
âGojo!â
He glances back at you.
âYou need to seal me in the prison realm!â you exclaim. He turns to face you fully, looking bewildered and you start to explain as fast as you can. âThose things are going to attack any minute right? I canât move or try to hide and I canât expect you to protect me the entire time and if I die then Iâll end up looping time again, butâ but, if you seal me in the prison realm then that wonât happen.â
Gojo frowns, looking conflicted. âYou donât think I can do it?â
âWouldn't it be easier if you didnât have to?â
He tilts head and you think heâs conceding your point.
âPlease,â you beg, staring at him desperately. âWe donât have much time. The other⊠cursed spirits will wake up soon too!â
You donât have to explain that you mean Volcano Head and friends.
It takes only a second for Gojo to consider the very few options you have. â...how do you seal it? Do you know?â
âI think so,â you answer. âThereâs no guarantee itâll work but I think that if you say âprison realm, gate closeâ it should seal me inside.â
If anything, itâs worth a shot.
Gojo nods. âDo you know how to break the seal?â
âI⊠donât,â you confess. You never asked, and you donât think the body snatcher would have told you even if you did. He only told you that it holds one and thatâŠ
That time doesnât flow in the box.
â...you donât have to break the seal.â
Gojo frowns, âWait a secââ
âEven if I make it past tonight⊠What if this all happens again? What if I inadvertently trap myself in another time loop?â you ask. âI⊠I donât want to have to go through all of this again. Itâs better for me in a place where time doesnât pass.â
You donât know for sure if itâll be better, but right here, right now, it seems like the best option.
It feels like an eternity passes before Gojo says anything.
â...fine,â he agrees and you donât quite know how to feel about it. The howling around you all grows louder. You wonder why the cursed spirits havenât attacked yet. Maybe Gojoâs power is holding them at bay⊠for now anyway. You both know that he canât ignore them forever.
â...before I do, though, mind if I ask you just one thing?â
You blink. âNot sure what I can do for you in this stateâŠâ
He laughs. âI just want to know your name.â
What an odd request. Though, now that you think about it, you donât think that during this loop or any other loop really, youâve ever told him your name. It only seems fair to tell him, since youâve known his for longer than heâs known of your existence.
You tell him your name.
He nods, looking as if heâs committing to memory. Probably easier to remember than his phone number. âAny last words?â
You try to think of something. Nothing comes to mind and you just shake your head.
Gojo takes a deep breath, âAlrighty then⊠Prison realm, gate close.â
Just as it did the many times youâve seen Satoru Gojo sealed away, the boxes and restraints around you vibrate a little before they start to close around you, growing large enough to fit your body as they approach.
You wonât see it, but once youâre inside the box will shrink and become small enough to fit in the palm of someoneâs hand.
Will it be quiet inside?
In your final seconds, some words, some last words come to mind, and you say them, hoping that he hears them in time. âThank you, Satoru Gojo.â
You burn the glittering glow of his brilliant bright blue eyes into your mind.
And then, everything is engulfed in an unending black.
Itâs November 30, 2018â morning on the campus of Tokyo Prefectural Jujutsu High School.
Satoru Gojo strides through the school grounds, casually tossing a small silver box with eerie blue eyes known as the prison realm up and down in his grasp. Walking at his side is Shoko Ieiri, a pretty woman whoâs been unfortunate enough to have been Satoruâs friend since high school.
âAre you sure this is a good idea?â Shoko asks, twirling a few strands of her long brown hair.
âWhat do you mean?â Satoru responds nonchalantly. âAll my ideas are good ideas.â
Shoko hums in clear dissent, but doesnât say anything more. Even she knows better than to try and waste her time trying to argue with Satoru. âIâm just worried about their mental state. Didnât you say that time doesnât flow in the box?â
âIâd be worried if it was some normal person,â Satoru says. âBut after what theyâve gone through I think theyâll be fine.â
â...well, if you say so.â
The two arrive at their destination: the largest training area on the Jujutsu High grounds. Satoru places the prison realm at the center and takes a few steps back with Shoko standing behind him, in case anything happens.
He doesnât think it will, but itâs always good to take at least a few precautions.
âGojo, are you sure we should be doing this?â Shoko asks again. âDidnât they want to remain in the box?â
âOf course I am,â Satoru says with his usual air of confidence before looking back at the prison realm nestled in the grass. He grins and thenâ
âPrison realm, gate open.â
if you made it this far. thank you. it's my sincerest hope that you enjoyed the ride. 3
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hxh RESUME
back at it again w/the hxh, heres my recap of the last few epsÂ
ok so i totally forgot to recap that one ep at the end of the hunter exam arc lets see what i remember from like 3 wks ago lollll
i thiiiiink i left off in the middle of ep 21 lol. i really dont remember much tbh so im gonna skim the ep to refresh
exposition time! its so wild that if you lose ur hunter card That It like u cant get another or retake the exam hgabjdfuhasjf LsÂ
also the fact that you can sell it is rlly interestingÂ
leorio & kurapika backing up gon as he confronts illumi again :â) good lil familyÂ
illumi u fool. gon is a shounen protag. he can do anything he sets his mind to
the fact that gon thanks illumi for telling him where killua is....hes literally THAT polite like...what a perfect boyÂ
hisoka just fuckgin stepping out of the shadows....ok bitchÂ
the fact that gon fucked up illumis arm that bad with one hand....boi is STRONKÂ
AUGH AUGH AUGHHHH HISOKA IS SO CREEPY AUGHHH I HATE THIS BIIIITCHÂ
ok but like is illumi implying that hisoka is a fr p*do bc uhhhhh thats so nasty oh lord. pls stay away from gon, and killua, and like everyone as a matter of factÂ
EWWWWWWWWWW I HATE HISOKA HES SO NASTY. PLS STOP MAKING P*RNO FACES IN RELATION TO 12 YR OLD BOYS.Â
no but rlly what IS hisoka gonna do now. im assuming heâll show up p soon (tho probs not in the zoldyc arc like i thought bc its shorter than i thought)Â
ok the fact that they have the internet is hilariously wild to me for some reason....it just seems like this would be one of those fantasy shounen worlds with very little tech (a la one piece) but lol nope we can just google shit hvbhjdhjdfks
gon: it was fun when you beat me up for 3 hours and broke my arm! seeya dude!
i love gon he is so chill and doesnt seem to hold grudges except when it really matters (like hisoka and illumi)Â
hanzo has.....ninja business cards....thats amazing hvbhsdjkujfnd
dont worry pokkle, leorio was basically carried thru the hunter exam by various people and also won by default. he still deserves his license tho
an exotic game hunter sounds pretty cool! i wonder if weâll see pokkle again. kinda doubt it? that sounds pretty firmly non-combat based, and therefore probably pretty far from any plot lol
so gons dad is a bigshot huh.....whatever hed be a bigger deal if he didnt abandon his son tbhÂ
gon swinging his feet on the bench....sooo cuteÂ
so ging could restore a bunch of ruins but he couldnt raise his son...ok
im just gonna be bitter at this guy for abandoning the most perfect boy vhbhjfbsjhdhbfsk sorry dude but being a good hunter doesnt make up for being a shit fatherÂ
gon is so precious ;_;Â
WHAT WAS SATOTZ GONNA SAY TO GON???
why does it look like theyre googling things on MS paintÂ
ah yes, padokea, on the continent of Africa But SidewaysÂ
idk if i talked abt it before but the world map is WILD lmao i love how its all the continents/landmasses scrambled around.....im super curious abt that weird island in the top center of the map, thats the only thing that immediately sticks out as not having a real life equivalentÂ
the music in this show is so charming :â) i love the main theme smÂ
gon is sooo precious i literally cant get over it. and his hurry to rescue killua is so sweet....and i love how naturally charming/charismatic gon is....pretty much everyone he meets likes him, especially leorio and kurapika, who basically adopted him after knowing him for like a day, and continue to be completely taken by him
ok wtf is satotz & co talking abt......do they know something abt ging that they arent allowed to tell gon???? shouldnt gon have access to the same info now that hes a hunter? i need ANSWERS
i bet this whole thing abt the hunter exam not rlly being over is a metaphor abt the hunter exam NEVER truly ending bc youre always being tested, or st
ok the ED continues to be So Much like especially the last shot where the 4 main characters look like theyre posing for a JC Penny catalog while the singer goes FULL metal-screamo
ok ruth and i just rewatched the next two eps woohoo
i love that there are tourist busses that take people to the front gates so they can like pose for pics and stuff vhbhjafdsfkj and its like âah yes here are where the local assassins live!â thats so funny yet it makes so much sense
i love that leorio passed tf out during the bus ride. big big moodÂ
gon is so cute...hes like ok yes i understand that weâre not supposed to go in but i think they can make an exception for me bc im very polite.Â
those 2 dudes r so ugly and so dead god bless
that bigass buster sword....sir pleaseÂ
ruth and i rlly thot that the old guard guy was gonna turn out to be grandpa zoldyk or st lol
the fact that the dog managed to eat All their flesh but left some clothes....skillÂ
also the dog is named mike but it sounds like the guy is calling him miku hvbjdfssk
this cant be the first time some morons have been killed here likeeeeÂ
i cant believe nobody has visited the zoldyk estate in 20 years damn they all rlly b havin no friends. depressingÂ
the whole gates thing is wild. also that part where gon gets the math wrong on the weight.....BIG mood kiddoÂ
ok the part where gons on the phone w/the butler is soooo good oh man. i love how gon just calmly dials the phone again after hes hung up on the first time and then YELLS....and leorio and kurapikas faces r so goodÂ
also the butler guy unfortunately has a point, it isnt foolproof that gon is here Legit....but he IS let him see his tiny bf :(Â
as ruth pointed out, the butler guy is reminiscent of kuro from one piece. same vibesÂ
maybe if leorio was jacked like he is in the manga/1999 anime he couldve opened the gate that first time around....LsÂ
god i love this shows approach to Everything so far,....as ruth put it, half the time its like âoh wow they should do [x]/i wish theyd do [x] but ofc they wont cause its a shounenâ but then they DO do [x] and its like damn thats dopeÂ
anyways i love how gon is increasingly approaching situations with his Plucky Shounen Protag Attitude in full swing, and he pretty much gets shot down every time. BUT his general determination to see killua bc killuas his FRIEND and hes gonna RESCUE HIM is still a good and pure motivating forceÂ
like here, when hes climbing over the wall and hes like whatever i dont wanna have to deal w/being tested thats bullshit, i wanna see killua, my intentions are pure, im gonna try my luck with the dog....i was like ok yeah heâll get over and like tame or defeat the dog and the guard will be suitably impressed bc nobodys ever done That before, and then gon will continue on to get killuaÂ
but NOPE instead the guard calls him down and explains that gon Will Die if he tries that, and then the guard will die too for letting that happen. and gon is like oh shit my actions have consequences for people other than me, wow.Â
and THEN the guard takes them in to meet the dog. and hot DAMN that is a scary creature. not even really a dog tbh. they did an excellent job making the dog Legit Scary and not just like, big and flashy looking....those eyes are so soulless, and the proportions are freakyÂ
and the guard says exactly what i was thinking - that gon would use his Country Boy Woodland Creature Skills to workaround the dog....but then the subversion - this creature is NOTHING like the woodland critters gon is probably used to dealing with. theres no way gon stood a chance here. the guard just saved him from a really unfortunate deathÂ
i love all the Super Heavy Stuff in the servant house that seems so inconvenient vbhjdkfasjfld. also forgot to mention earlier but the guard guy being Absolutely Ripped was wild and kinda funnyÂ
training montage! gon continues to be so cute. and i love so much how leorio and kurapika are like no, you rest, weâll take care of this. good parents!!!!
and then!!!! they sync up and use the power of gay love to almost open the gate. but then gon uses the power of Improbable Shounen Protag Healing Speed to toss that arm sling off and help out
i feel like leorio was side-eyeing gon like w8 a sec u broke that arm like a few days ago that aint right.....
oh man i almost forgot abt that scene with the zoldyks torturing killua :( :( this poor kid he doesnt deserve thatÂ
also mom zoldyck seems truly awful but i must say her aesthetic does fuck. the victorian-lookin outfit paired with the futuristic cyclops visor thing....excellent. also im betting this face bandages are from killua cutting her faceÂ
this family is so fucked up hvbsjdhjfbakdfn
killua telling his mom that gon is definitely gonna make it there :â) hes got such unshakable faith in his bf thats so good.....
back w/the gang, and immediately they run into more trouble in the form of the young girl butler, whose name i dont know, but i love her....her design is SO good oh man. a non-caricature black person? who also isnt sexualized? in MY anime??????
 i love how gons approach to conflict is currently âlet more powerful person beat me up for hours straight in hopes that they get tired or something idk broâ like....i love him lol, is it in an effort to show how determined he is? he doesnt even try to dodge her blows or get around her....id be tryin to hop that fence lolÂ
oh shit the tiny zoldyk kid from earlier is spying on them....she was w/the mom so im sure thats not good
when he punches the rock part and it breaks....strong boiiiiÂ
oh man that little flashback from when killua first came back and told her that he made a friend ;_; bruhÂ
i love butler girl :( she wants to let gon but knows it isnt allowed....and as soon as she starts to waver BAM here comes mom zoldyck JFC that was so sudden and jarring....im assuming butler girl isnt dead cause that would be lame and anticlimacticÂ
also IS THAT NEN??? NEN>>>??? NEN??? HM? NEN?????????Â
im so annoying abt nen i need to make one of those âis this a pigeon?â memes w/âis this nen?â bc thats me anytime anything remotely weird happens lmao
i do think its rlly nen this time tho
anyways shit is wild, cant wait to meet the full zoldyck familyÂ
PREDICTION CORNER:Â
as i said above i doubt hisoka will show up now bc this arc is a lot shorter than i anticipated. also im doubting that illumis even gonna show up honestlyÂ
i think weâre gonna have this OP for a while, as the part just at the end shows gon and hisoka fighting in what looks to be an arena, and ik the next arc is the heavens arena arc, which im assuming is the tournament arc....
also i have no idea what that weird building in the OP is but my guess is that its the building w/the heavens arena in it bc its tall and,,,,heavenÂ
i predict there wont be much fighting in this little arc bc how tf else is it so short. at this point i rlly think gon is just gonna grab killua and go lmao. im super curious abt how thats gonna go down, considering that killua is currently strung up just bc he wont apologize...so i cant imagine his family would just let him leave w/gon. i wonder if killua will fight them, or if gons determination will impress them and then theyll let killua go (doubt it)
thats basically it....weâll see abt the next few eps holla
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we're breaking the ban again, but listen you cannot tell me you wrote this for my birthday and expect me to let it sit in my drafts and wait til i'm done with my halloween fic to read it!!
liking hope to a disease truly always hits. LMAO. but aughhhh. reader making a promise to yuji⊠AND FOR STREET FOODâŠ. i love street food⊠we don't really have street food culture in the states at least not in the city where i live (which is kind of a damn shame). [continues to blab on about food for twenty minutes]
OKONOMIYAKI⊠MY LOVE MY FAVORITEâŠ.
HEHEHEâŠ. gojo wanting to kissâŠ. yes⊠yes excellentâŠ
yuji is just so cute omg. i'm adopting him. taking him home. shh-ing him because i know what's happening in the anime next week.
man⊠reader told gojo not to say it and he did⊠twiceâŠ. little brat⊠i'm gonna strangle him!!! i say this but i am smiling as i type HAHAHA
THE HAND ON THE BACK. MY EYES ARE NYOOMING. SUBTLETIES INDEED. your favorite heheheh . :3c
TAIYAKIâŠ.. i like the custard ones hehee⊠there's a place here that has nutella and taro fillings too⊠drool.. tastyâŠ
hehehehâŠ. watching gojo simmer in jealousy over semi-thirdwheeling this food tour is⊠heehehehehe i am kicking my lil niku feet.
OH I SEE. I SEE I SEE. story framing!! EVERYTHING MAKES EXTRA SENSE NOW HAHAHâŠ. i was womdering why reader seemed so daazed at the beginning and it's because they were about to slip into a food coma!! i totatlly get that feelâŠ
READER ASKING TO BE FED!!! AAAAAAA AND IT'S ENOUGH TO BASICALLY MAKE HIM FORGET ALL OF THE JEALOUSY HE WAS FEELING OVER YUJIIIII HE'S SUCH A⊠OMGGGG
Nose kissâŠ. nose kisses are so very col. I think I have said this before, in fact i'm sure i haveâŠ.
ah yesâŠ. thematic book ends my belovedâŠ!!!
WAIT A GODDAMN SECOND.
MY.
MY.
MY LOVE FOR FOOD?!?!!??!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH SEL!!!!!!!!!! SEL SEL SEL I'M CRYING I'M WEEPING I'M AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SNIFFLING WAILING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
i really loved this. naturally you did definitely appeal to my love of food... and OSAKA.. weeps i love osaka so much... it really was so cute. reader and yuji's osaka food tour funded by gojo LMAOOO. actually he probably didn't fund too much, maybe. but poor baby... wanting reader's attention so much only to have it stolen by yuji's infectious cuteness.... he got a little smoochie in the end!! it was worth it!! probably!! definitely!! maybe he should consider sharing more of the daifuku and reader and him can feed each other (while maybe yuji is sleeping in his own food coma hahahaha).
(i wonder if my love of jealous gojo has also spread to you hehehe.... it's just so cute to watch him simmer hahaha...)
it was so NICE seeing a nice warm-ish lighthearted bit of col hehe. I MEAN I THINK I'VE SAID THAT BEFORE TOO AHAHAHA. i still need to read the other jealous gojo col fic... soon... SOON... weeps
ANYWAY SEL I LOVE YOUUUUU. i should really be thanking you!! for writing this!! even though i know you wanna finish col4!!! thank you for thinking of me while you were writing it!! for always listening to me!! even when i'm being crochety and bitter, even when i'm crying about how much i miss stupid gojo aaaaaaaa. i'm gonna go weep into my hands now aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
âËâčălook my way, youâre what i crave | gojo satoru
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summary: you and gojo made a promise to yuuji.
contains: f!reader in mind but no pronouns used, many food descriptions, a little bit of (playful) jealousy, pouty gojo, yuuji calls reader sensei.
a/n: a small extra scene that takes place some time between col 2.5 and col 3! not a food expert nor am i japanese, so food descriptions are just based off first-hand experience and some research iâve managed to do! there are some switches in povs (gojo-reader-gojo) but i tried to keep it as distinct as possible! this is also my birthday gift for you, niku @stellamancer!! thank you for sharing this idea with me and for loving the col couple as much as i do!!
collection masterlist: conversations on love 2.5. and my body keeps saying (it's yours) <- you are here -> 03. so this is what it means to be in love + (extended scene) too good to be mine
âLosingâ isnât a word in Gojoâs vocabulary.Â
If it is, itâs usually addressed to the other party.Â
Heâs been a winner ever since he was born, two blue eyes and an extra four hidden, holding power that manifests itself only once every few centuries. Some argue that he was born for that reason: to win, without doubt, incontestably.Â
And he supposes, most of it is trueâwhich is why he canât believe the loss heâs feeling right now, standing in front of the Daifuku stall across from you.Â
Never in his entire life did Gojo ever anticipate himself losing to anything. But with the way youâd casually nodded off, signaled so nonchalantly that youâd follow him but clearly didnâtâit has his head turning, finding you midbite a singular, shared stick of Yakitori.
He thinks he might have just experienced his first loss.Â
And the victor is none other than Itadori Yuuji.Â
.
You made a promise to Yuuji.Â
Back when he was still up for execution by virtue of being Sukunaâs vessel, youâd laid your confidence in Gojo.Â
âSensei, do you really think itâs possible?â he asks, voice hesitant but eyes tinged with hope. You were discussing the ways his execution could go downâif it even will go down.Â
Shokoâs always pointed out that the most dangerous thing about you is hope, and how you hold onto it so deeply that you pass it onto others like a disease, spreading it to seep into skin and bones.
Gojo calls it your hidden technique, the trump card you pull out when everyoneâs knocked down, spirits low. Itâs what sets you apart, he thinks, how youâre able to survive in a world that serves as an antithesis to the values you hold.Â
âIf Satoru said to leave it up to him, heâll find a way,â you answer immediately, like youâve known it all this time, experienced it first-handâa memory. Then you add, an affirmation that sounds so close to fact, it reassures him, âhe always does.âÂ
âLetâs go to Osaka and eat all the street food when everythingâs done.â Â
You made a promise to Yuuji, and here you are now, with Gojo, keeping it.Â
The streets of Osaka are bustling, crowded pretty much any time of the yearâcarts of all sorts of street food lined up with restaurants hidden in every corner. Neon banners and LED signs light up overhead, a twinkling food heaven reflected in Yuujiâs eyes.Â
It must be his first time here, you surmise, because heâs looking at every food stall like heâs ready to devour. You glance at Gojo, hands tucked in his pockets with his blindfold sitting snugly on his face. His presence is bright, blending in with the light, and he turns his head to you slightly, flashing you a small smile.Â
You tell yourself the warmth you feel is because of the heat radiating from all the vendorsâ stoves.Â
âSensei, what do you want to try first?â Yuuji interrupts your train of thought, but youâre sure he doesnât mean to. Heâs just excited, and his energy has always been infectious, spreading to both Gojo and you.Â
Gojo isnât too big a fan of savory things, so you know youâre going to end up having to choose. You take a look around you to survey each stall, before turning back to Yuuji with a plan on how exactly youâre going to eat and conquer.Â
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Gojo watchesâthe way you zig-zag across the street, following Yuuji as he walks up to each vendor. Itâs amusing and endearing, seeing you being just as, if not more, enthralled at all the savory options in front of you.Â
Between the two of you, heâs always had the sweet tooth, so it tickles something in him that even when you donât, you still sandwich-ed your game plan with alternating savory-sweet-savory food.
Yuujiâs first pick is of course, Okonomiyaki, an iconic must-have in Osaka. He asks for one first, but you insist on two, knowing that the boy is more than capable of finishing one on his own. On the frying sheet lie columns of the pancakes, all made up of a simple flour, eggs, and cabbage mix, fried and coated in flavors bursting of sweet, savory, and smoky. The lady vendor is generous with the toppings and sauce she pours over it, packing the two pancakes in separate plastic containers before handing one to you and the other to Yuuji.
You turn back to find Gojo a few steps behind you, so you beckon him closer.
âLetâs share,â you whisper, once he sidles up next to you. The plastic crinkles in your hand as you try to slice a piece. He can hear Yuujiâs muffled âwhoahâ from the side.Â
You blow on the slice, lips shaped into a small âoââand he doesnât want to stare, not with Yuuji right there; neither of you have made anything official yet.Â
But this is really tempting him to kiss you.Â
He doesnât know if you can tellâany hint of his desire concealed by his blindfold, but you shove the slice right to his lips. And, though it isnât graceful at all, with the sauce probably smeared all over his mouth, itâs a good distraction from how much he wants you instead of the food right now.Â
The texture of the Okonomiyaki hits right every time, the crunchy and creamy combination providing a great contrast that complements how sweet and savory it is. The bite you take after his has your expression mirroring Yuujiâs, and he takes out his phone to start taking pictures.Â
âGowo-shunsheh! Tek a shulfeh!â Yuuji shouts, mouth still full as he lifts his fingers up into a peace sign. You grin, ear-to-ear, evidence of your happy tummy; he wants to pinch your cheeks.Â
âOkay, copy!â he raises his phone up at an angle, fingers hovering over the volume button as he grips the edges, âready! 1âŠ2âŠ3⊠say Okonomiyaki!âÂ
Only Yuuji shouts it, and when Gojo reviews the photo, youâre halfway through a fallen smileâdisbelief that he said something that cringe in his typical, loud, Gojo fashion too.Â
âHey!â he points out, zooming into your face in the photo, âAgain! Youâre not smiling!âÂ
You shoot him a look.Â
âWe can try it with a .5 this time, the kids love doing it these days.â he suggests, flipping the phone and gathering you and Yuuji to come closer.Â
He takes two photos: one with flash and one without, and the moment he counts down, you mumble right by his ear to please not say Okonomiyaki when you have to smileâhe chuckles.Â
And he says it again. Both times.Â
You expected no less, but at least you tried.Â
âYou should be our human tripod next time,â you tell him, letting Yuuji go ahead.Â
The photos look good, with you tiptoeing as you balance a hand on Gojoâs shoulder, Yuuji at the back with his hands raised along with the empty plastic that used to house his Okonomiyaki.
âKnew you were just using me,â he pouts, hand reaching behind to rest at your lower back.Â
Itâs been the subtleties with him this trip, tonight especially.Â
âYep,â you play along, smiling at him oh-so-sweetly, âI knew those freakishly long arms were good for something.âÂ
Before he can retort with something cheesy, along the lines of: âto hold youâ or âto hug you in your sleepâ, you move away, catching up to Yuuji.Â
Your pick, for Gojo, is Taiyaki. Itâs not his favorite thing to eat, but itâs sweet, and is still a good, nostalgic dessert, youâd like to think. Batter is poured all over the fish molds before being filled with the red bean filling. Then, after a few minutes of waiting, it pops out perfectly, ready to be eaten by the three of you. You ask for two again, only because this time, you know Gojo can finish one whole.Â
But when his eyes land on the Taiyaki youâre taking a bite from and he realizes very quickly that it isnât his, he feels a pinch.Â
The crunchy outside and soft, full inside of the Taiyaki is enough to make him shrug off this feeling.Â
As the food trip goes on, you end up in many more stallsâ
âa Takoyaki one, where Yuujiâs âoooâsâ and âaaaâsâ are heard every time the balls are flipped and formed. The cooking on it is perfect, the octopus sitting just right with enough bite as flavors of soy and Worcestershire come through in its glaze. Gojo only eats one from the set of six that you ordered, and he wishes he just waited, because now Yuuji is eating half of the last one you couldn't finish.Â
âa Kushikatsu one, deep fried beef and vegetables coated in crispy, crunchy breadcrumbs and dipped in Tonkatsu sauce. Yuuji ends up finishing three whole sticks, while you manage to eat one. Itâs an animated conversation between the two of you that Gojo canât seem to insert himself into. A part of him feels a little pathetic now, tailing you both like a dog, but he just wants a little bit more of your attention.Â
âa Soba shop (not so much a stall) that serves the most amazing Cold Soba he definitely isnât missing out on. Yuuji is practically buzzing, excited for anything noodles; itâs the main reason youâd suggested Osaka in the first place. He ducks in the shop last, Yuuji first with you in the middle, and when you settle in your seat right beside him, he endearingly snickers. Gojo can see everything, youâre reminded of that everyday and in moments like this especiallyâthe way you sigh as soon as you release the top button of your pants immediately.
You pout at him as youâre served an order of noodles each, the dipping sauce in small ceramic as the noodles lie in bamboo boxes. Itâs refreshing and light, just the right balance of sweet and savory; the buckwheat noodles have a lovely bite to them, not at all mushy. When he glances at you, halfway through your bowl, he can tell that youâre already full.Â
But just as he offers to finish yours, Yuuji speaks up,Â
âSensei, are you going to finish that?âÂ
You shake your head, pushing your bowl towards him; Gojo feels that pinch returning.Â
A few good minutes of walking find you on the way to another stallâ
âa Yakitori one that Yuuji practically skips to, as if he didnât just finish a bowl and a half of Cold Soba, three sticks of Kushikatsu, three and a half pieces of Takoyaki, a half of one Taiyaki, and a whole order of Okonomiyaki. Itâs unbelievable how much this kid can eat; does he have more than one stomach?Â
Gojo decides to sit this one out, eyeing the Daifuku stand across the streetâone, heâs gone here plenty of times before; two, he wants you to try it while itâs still freshâsoft and oh-so-delectable.Â
He takes off his blindfold, ruffling his hair. With Yuuji having gone ahead, itâs just the two of you.Â
âIâm going to buy Daifuku, thereâs a special one I want you to taste,â he whispers excitedly, wiggling his eyebrows.Â
The expression on your face is the last thing he was expecting.Â
Your eyes are dazed, half-lidded, almost like youâre sleepy, and you blink at him twice before youâre able to fully process whatever it is you were saying. You could be having a food coma right now, just standing.Â
âOh, okay,â you hum, nodding as you smile, dopey, âIâll follow.âÂ
He actually considers just waiting for a bit, because he wants you to go with him. But you insist and shoo him away, telling him that they might run out by the time the Yakitori line reaches Yuuji.Â
So he goes, and maybe itâs a little petty, and immature, and stupid-silly, but he hates how this entire food trip has felt like a battle for your attention between him and Yuuji.Â
Even though heâs probably the only one who feels it.
So itâs one-sided. Definitely.Â
And heâs losing. Terribly.Â
Each individual piece of Daifuku looks majestic, pink mochi with red bean filling, sliced in the middle to leave room for a whole syrup-glazed strawberry. He orders two boxes to bring back home and an extra two pieces, one for the two of you to share and the other for Yuuji.Â
Gojoâs mouth is watering and he really wants to take a bite already, but you arenât anywhere near him. So when he turns around and spots you, no doubt midchew on the last few bites your stomach can handle from that shared Yakitori stick, he feels that pinch again. Because al youâd done was split savory food with Yuuji, and all he wanted was a bit more attention sharing half-bites with you.Â
When you finally meet his eyes across the street, signature blue amidst bright reds and neon greens, heâs pouting, and he hopes heâs making it really obvious that he wants (needs) you to go to him.Â
Your eyes widen before crossing the street, Yuuji right on your heel.Â
âWhoah, Sensei! That looks good!â Yuujiâs voice booms, earning a few looks.
Gojo holds one Daifuku on each hand, the other two boxes tucked in a plastic bag hanging by his elbow.Â
âItâs their special one!â He smiles at Yuuji, handing it over.Â
You look at him curiously, head tilted to the side as you watch him closelyâhow his smile doesnât really reach his eyes.Â
Once Yuuji moves out of earshot, his series of âmmmâsâ getting softer as he explores more stalls around you, you face Gojo and open your mouth wide, âAaaah,âÂ
Gojo doesnât move for the first few seconds, but you meet in the middle eventually, his hand inching towards feeding you while you move your head closer. He keeps his palm open under your chin, cupping it to serve as a catch tray for any filling that might spill out.Â
Thereâs something about the look of you, half-sleepy and asking to be fed, that makes him feel warm and fuzzyâlike that pinching feeling earlier never existed. Like heâd gladly do this everyday if you asked for it.Â
The soft, plush exterior of the mochi touches your lips, and you bite, the filling oozing out just enough for you to get a good portion of it. Flavors of red bean and strawberry hit your palate, and the filling doesnât leak, but the syrup coating the strawberry catches onto your nose when you move away.Â
At the tip of your nose is a shiny red spot, glistening under the busy lights. The expression on your face is pleased, contentâyour head doing that side-to-side sway whenever you like the taste of something.Â
âMmm,â you smile at him, âitâs yummy.âÂ
And he doesnât know what it is, if itâs the look youâre giving him, or if itâs something in the air tonight but he feels warm and full and still very much like he wants to kiss you.Â
So he decides, damn all the passersby.
He does one quick scan around him, making sure that Yuuji, at the very least, is away from the immediate vicinity. And when itâs all clear, he leans in.Â
Gojo kisses you on the nose in the middle of a busy street food road, and his lips are soft, almost feather-light, swooping in quickly before anyone can notice. Youâre stunned into silence, but the moment you come to, heâs already swiped the strawberry syrup off you.Â
His cheeks are starting to turn pink, the sides of his neck already as red as the signs on the food stalls. And he can tell you feel it too, with the way your sleepiness seems to have faded into what now looks like surprise.Â
Still cute though.
(Always will be, in his eyes).Â
So, âlosingâ isnât really a word in Gojoâs vocabulary.Â
But if it is, he thinks heâd gladly lose to you.Â
(Still not to Yuuji though. He still has to keep a maybe eye out for that one).
thank you notes: to niku for being there always!! from answering my questions, brainstorming together, and just all-around everything!! col wouldn't be what it is now without you!! i love u, i hope i gave your love for food justice, niku!
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