#i wanna see everyone in here i wont lie. i dont wanna leave besties out.

[ot3showdown]

i think 64 is a bit. excessive. but why 24? i vote 32. that’s a good number for a bracket.

hmmm. i see you using the number 3 to entice me.

HOW3VER! i wanna watch the heavy hitters take out the little guys, before they start cage matching. so.

[mysimsyuri]

FUCK IT im infodumping abt swap au frank lore on here. ive been listening to his playlist a lot today and he wont. leave. my brain.

ok so i know ive shared that frank is canonically dead before but ive got a swap au where. youll never guess. he Isnt /lh

(the gist is just that he survives whereas nick doesnt, and thus takes his place in the story. a Lot of things change cuz frank and nick are Different People !)

ok so,, i Was originally gonna have the main plot points be the same so its still recognizably the same story but tbh. i think gatsby wouldnt die. frank isnt held back by catholic guilt and whatever else is wrong with him (affectionate ofc) i dont think hed let that happen

today ive specifically been thinkin abt chapter 8 and like... frank still leaves for work (he Does still do the "theyre a rotten crowd" bit but he changed his wording cuz hes Different. hed prolly say smth gay like "theyre all ASSHOLES and youre worth the GOD DAMN lot of em" (he swears a lot)) but he comes back like an hour or two later like ".....i changed my mind."

he also Does stop wilson but gets shot in the process,, and gatsbys like "omg old sport are you okay :((" and franks like. bleeding out on the ground like "what do you think pal,,," (he calls ppl pal and buddy. idk where this came from tbh it just feels Right)

idk what happens after that tbh. ive had the thought that gatsby just,, leaves after that but idk. its both hilarious and heartbreaking to think abt frank getting the "happy ending" w him that nick never got to but also like,, its a tragedy. smths gotta happen. WHAT IF FRANK DIED SFHDGJK YOU CANT ESCAPE FATE BITCH!!!!! thats funny as hell actually

ok wait back to the general swap stuff cuz like. i wanna share as much as i can while im thinkin abt them...

frank is very much Not related to daisy that would be Weird. he Does however meet tom at a speakeasy and they like,, kinda hit it off?? tom likes the cut of franks jib and while he does make frank kinda uncomfortable hes like. the closest thing he has to a friend in this new place (and also frank mentions that he knew a guy named nick in the war and tom is like "...i know a nick. hes dead?" and thats how frank gets invited to dinner the next day)

also daisy tries to set up frank and jordan but frank doesnt like to lie and isnt catholic abt being gay so hes just like "listen pal. im sure youre neat and all but im a faggot" and jordans like "oh i know. me too" and now theyre friends<3 besties even<3

AND frank just straight up tells gatsby hes handsome when he sees him. gatsbys all "im gatsby :) i thought you knew im sorry :)" and frank, drunk off his ass on champagne, is like "my god. youre the most beautiful man ive ever seen. i think im going to cry"

ok that. might be it. im all outta juice. (for this particular au anyway,, i have so much for some of my others.... one day ill share the entire lore for the au where everyone is happy and alive together<3 yay<3) goodbye

[lost-ghoost]

Its been a while since i wrote anything but i need to let it out i just cant anymore everything is getting worse and worse and worse and worse cant sleep 24/7 tired lost friends THIS YEARS was so good i dont want it to leave i was rude asshole who ended up 5years of friendship I dont have bestie anymore And most of friends hate me i guess I have gf who makes me hate myself even more and i dont love her but im with her i cant she kills my moods Kiss (latest worst part) i dont wanna talk about it with him BUT IT KILLS ME i couldnt sleep for days every time i closed eyes i was imagining that moment and once fell asleep and i had dream where that moment was going on again and again AGAIN AND AGAIN and words: i want to kiss you I cant i just cant but its not the reason he left reason is that im a bad person and he cant stand someone so rude and shitty caz i destroy people ofc not him (well i hope i did nothing to him) i didnt care caz i had my loved ones next to me and i didnt care about other people but here we are… being myself killed me There was 2reason why i wasnt going to suicide and guess what first reason left second reason is my brother i hope he will get a loved one so he wont be addicted to me and wont get so sad after my death I dont see point i just cant i cant do anything i have no talent no friends nothing at all no hard feelings I dont know what i will do in future I dont know what i will do right now I dont know whats going on at all All i can think is about ending my life. Today cop rushed into my house (caz of stepfather) and pointed gun to my head guess what i had no reaction i wasnt even scared i wanted her to pull the triger but she didnt and said sorry I was just thinking: is this my last day? Is this how it ends? I did nothing in my life oh well but i didnt said to my loved ones that i loved them and i closed eyes she was kinda confused why i was so calm she was looking at me like:why u didnt do anything? Did this ever happened to you? But she just said sorry and they left What will happen? Whats even going on? At my worst moments my bestie (already ex bestie) is txting me terrible things wich i know and makes me even worse DOES HE KNOW THIS AND IT MAKES HIM FEEL BETTER? i just cant everything has fallen i want everyone to leave me every god damn one it doesnt make sense i dont know Im so lost and tired I still love him and it hurts me that he is so hurt i cant do shit Hope he will be better hope my gf will leave me hope i will find reason to live hope ill get what i want hope i wont die soon (thats a lie)