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sar3nka · 2 years

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Well fuck they can't remove the tumor in Bezi so it's pretty much a death sentence. The only hope is that her meds will stop the growth completely and she lives a month or 3 at best...

She's fine now, will talk to the vet a bit in like an hour and see what are the options. But the surgeon who called me to inform me abt all this told me not to get my expectations very high

#i just #i really had hope #i will have to have her put to sleep when she cant have a good quality of life anymore #it fucking scares me #i love her shes so innocent shes such a little child...#I swear that if it could help her I'd give her my organs I'd give her some of the years I have left #I'd kill and I'd steal and I'd do ungodly things #and yet i cant!!! theres nothing to do. nothing.#do you have any idea? how it feels?#im not being dramatic when i said i love my rats like a mother loves her children #and now I find out my little angel is not going to grow old #i wanna rip my throat out cause jt hurts from howling like a dying animal #i wish i could die for her #shes just a baby shes not lived even half of her life #as much as other rats dying did hurt. none were still babies. none acted like a baby. they all were grown up and all #and shes just a little innocent angel with funny eyes. who loves to play and kiss me and run around jumping up and down. silly #i feel like im gonna throw up its just a nightmare #i had so much hope this cant be real. please

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