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[xiaosconquerer]

Welcome, hello!

Name: For this blog, Ali, if we ever get to be friends maybe I'll tell you my real name.

Age: I'm 26, if you're a minor STAY AWAY FROM THIS BLOG, DON'T YOU EVER INTERACT. I feel confortable interacting with people that are +23.

Identity: I'm a bissexual cis woman, my pronuns are she/her.

About me: I come from a very conservative family, but I've always been different. I like games like Horizon, Genshin Impact, Alan Wake, The Last of Us. I also like reading a lot and I'm a big Taylor Swift fan!

I created this blog to be a safe space for me to talk about sex and the things I wish to explore about myself and about my body.

What I'm looking for: Honestly, I'm looking for a patient dom, it's my first time exploring BDSM, also, I'm a virgin and I'm really shy. I'd rather find a dom from my country, Brazil, but come say hi to me even if you are from another country, I wanna learn from every dom that wants to teach me something!

What I like: I'm still figuring this out! For now, I like ropes, orgasm control, guided masturbation, dd/lg, dirty talking, pet play, toys.

Don't: I'm not into rape fantasy, somno, cnc, unasked pictures (nudes, especially), puke and things like this.

RULES: Again, if you're a minor, DON'T INTERACT WITH THIS BLOG! Also, please, don't send me pictures I didn't ask for, don't send me threats, I'm not confortable with this and you'll get blocked.

If you want to talk about games, books or Taylor Swift also just say hi! I love making new friends! Welcome, I hope you have a great time here!

[list-me-the-reasons-why]

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Like as drunk i can read adnd trandlsate thjs disjust fINE nbht sober me???????????? Regret

Next tumblr update: must take blood alcohol test before being allow ed to post !!!!!!! EVERYONE WHOL VIOLEATES RULE FOES TO TUMBLR JAIL WISCH I VHUESS IS JUST DASHCON 2.0 or 3.0 idk

[azlrse]

Drunk Part 2 (Younger Demon Bros x GN Human!Reader)

CW: alcohol intake, suggestive themes, vomiting (only in Satan’s part), ooc characters (?), overall contains fluff!!

A/N: here comes part 2 my dear readers! I hope I interpreted the characters well here! :DD (Reupload due to flopping)

*contains headcanons and a drabble

For the older brothers <33

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Satan 📘

Unlike his brothers, he doesn’t like the taste of alcohol and is quite sober most of the time.

But when he’s invited to a party that was hosted by some rich demon who attended RAD, that’s a whole another story.

As his significant other, you would constantly keep on tabs towards your boyfriend on how he’s doing or felt when he consumes lots and lots of demonus and wine in that party.

It was a very rare sight for him to be drunk and your boyfriend would constantly nags you for your attention; kissing your neck and cheek specifically and calls you embarrassing (yet loving) nicknames like lovey dove and baby cakes.

You would drag him when the two of you left for the night and as soon as this man wakes up, Satan got a severe hangover from the alcohol intake and pukes on the spare bathroom he has on his room.

Now que your scolding towards your boyfriend while patting his back as he does his thing.

“Easy there, that’s it..” You spoke as the emitting sound from Satan’s constant urge to puke was heard on the bathroom. As he does his business, you patted his back lightly as he heaved and panted after he lets out the bile of liquid from his stomach.

“You shouldn’t be even drinking lots of alcohol from that party! I mean, wine is fine by me but and expensive bottle of demonus? Do you even know on how strong that drink was?” Satan knew that you were quite worried for him, scared even. For you know that it was his first time trying alcohol. He felt guilty for his actions and proceeded to hug around your waist, making the both of you sitting on the cold tiled floor of his bathroom.

“I know,” He spoke while he tested his head on your shoulders. From his actions alone, you gently patting his hair. You even got a spare towel to wipe off the excessive sweat from his head after he puked on the toilet. “I shouldn’t drank those. Only Lucifer and Asmo can handle those kinds of alcohol.” He chuckled, making you smile a bit from the sudden change of topic.

“It’s okay, my bookworm. I understand, now come on, I’ll run you a nice warm bath to help relieve your hangover.”

Asmodeus 💄

The Avatar of Lust won’t stop complimenting you, like he could go all night and speak every single word that reminds him of you.

He’s known as a party demon and still could drink lots and lots of alcohol.

If you are his lover, then good luck because this demon won’t stop flirting towards you.

Would constantly show off to the other party goers on how beautiful/handsome you are and how you became his and his alone.

Isn’t embarrassed to tell the others on how good he and his lover would make out for hours, making you constantly hit him to shut his mouth 😭

Your face was peppered with kisses as your boyfriend kisses you nonstop. From the top of your head to the knuckles of your hands, making you very gigglish yet embarrassed as he shows his affection in public. “Asmo sweetie, don’t you think you’ve given me lots of kisses for today? I’ll give you even more as soon as we get home. Plus, you’re quite drunk–”

Words are cut off when all of the sudden, your boyfriend pulls you closer to chest and proceeds to snuggle against your neck. “Just a few more minutes, darling. I just wanna spend some time away from my brothers and have some alone time with my lover. Now why don’t we pick off where we started hmm? We still have lots of time with each other’s company~”

Oh boy, you’re in for a long night once you get home with your boyfriend…

Beelzebub 🍔

Even when this guy got drunk, he would still be hungry. Beel loves raiding the fridge and would cry if he saw a tray of eggs on the fridge and tries to warm the inanimate objects by placing several eggs on his chest.

If you make something for him to satisfy his hunger (huge bonus if you make a bento box or baked cookies with a cute design added), once again he’ll cry and refuses to eat your own cooking.

Would try to bribe him with some of your affection for him to eat what you prepared just for him. Hugs and kisses are his most favorite form of affection from you.

He sneak in kisses on your forehead or lips and runs away. If you give him a piece of payback and kissing him on his lips, there are two things will happen; Beel would either pass out in happiness or will carry you to his room to continue this small “business” of his.

“Beel? What’s wrong, munchkin? Is the flavor too strong for your liking? I can make something else if you want–” Beel’s eyes started to water as soon as his eyes landed on the plate in front of him. The plate itself was decorated with lots of stars and hearts made from vegetables and the delicious smell form the newly cooked katsudon made it even worse. It was cat themed, thanks to the cooking set you recieved from Satan during the holidays.

“No no, it’s okay. It’s just that it’s too cute for me to eat, cupcake. I can’t eat this masterpiece and it makes me sad when I eat this!” He cried, holding your hand while whipping off his tears from his face. As you heard those words, you could feel your heart swelling with pride, indicating that you boyfriend really do love your cooking but made you worry that Beel wouldn’t eat just because he thinks that the plating was too cute for him to consume.

From that thought gave you the most brilliant idea.

After dealing his cute tantrum for quite sometime, you gave him a small kiss on his cheek and spoke in a soft tome that he loved whenever the both of you are cuddling in his room. “If you eat my cooking, I promise you that you’ll recieve lots and lots of kisses tonight. Each bite, I’m giving you a kiss on your face, deal?” Just like magic, he eagerly nodded and proceeded to eat the huge meal you prepared just for him.

As a promise, you gave him lots and lots of kisses as he falls asleep on your lap.

Belphegor 💤

Clingy mf. Good luck leaving his side cause he ain’t letting you go.

Very possessive towards his brothers when he’s drunk asf (except for his twin tho-)

Just like his twin, he would cry if he’s drunk but only if you leave him alone in his room.

Belphie would barge into your room and is glued by your side during this state, even when he’s asleep. He loves hugging you from behind, knowing that he’s with you and safe from the outside world.

Would melt even from the slightest touch of your affection and loves the reassuring words that you won’t leave and stayed by his side for the rest of the night.

“Just for a moment, sleepyhead. I’m going to the kitchen to fetch you some water. I’ll be right back and will continue this cuddle session of ours.” You were about to walk towards the door, you felt a slight tug on your sweater while your boyfriend whines in protest. “Nooooo please stay, MC. Don’t leave me here all alone, I don’t wanna be alone again.”

You saw tears forming from his eyes as his pleading eyes begged you to stay with him in your bed. You felt really bad for your precious demon boyfriend. He’s not good at expressing his own feelings and he might saw this opportunity in his drunken state to tell everything he could think of. “Baby, as much as I want to cuddle with you, you need to drink some water. Please, do it for me and I promise you I can give you lots and lots of kisses if you drink a glass of water.”

He stared at you for a couple of seconds, contemplating wether he should let you go to fetch a glass of water for him. He thought that he could drink a glass as soon as he wakes up but he couldn’t resist the softness of your voice, persuading him that you’ll be back within a minute. “Okay but be back quickly, I want your presence here and yours alone.”

You kissed his head as a way to reassure him that you won’t leave him alone for the night and true to your words, you came back with a glass of ice cold water. He drank the cold water quickly and his arms quickly makes it’s way to your waist and pulls you into the bed. “Woah woah there love, I didn’t know that my boyfriend was a bit impatient for my attention.” You giggled, returning the gesture and peppered his face with lots of kisses. From his forehead and towards his lips, which he humms in contentment while you gave him a soft kiss.

“I love you, MC. I really do love you.” He whispered as he lays his head on your neck and proceeded to plant a small kiss on your neck. You smiled at his words of affection, it was quite rare for him to say those words towards you, wether it was out of embarrassment or nervousness, you still appreciate those words he spoke towards you.

It was a little secret of yours to remember <33

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How would Overhaul, Nine, Skeptic or Trumpet react to jungle juice or lean if you made them try it- would they even be able to stomach it or would they just go into a coma

Also welcome back from ur hiatus!! ⭐️

(Thanks! It’s good to be back! Now to answer this one my dumbass had to google some of the terms since I’m a square and never really drank or partied lmao. Anyway, I hope this lines up right!)

~Jungle Juice~

headcanon|scenario|imagine|match-up

~Overhaul~

-It was beyond him why you wanted to throw this party to even begin with. You kept spouting off about team building and bringing everyone closer and whatnot. He just wanted to go in the room and go to bed, but here he was on the lower levels of the base being bombarded by loud music and watching his men do something other than working for once. He groaned when he felt you grab his gloved hand and pull him to the table where drinks and food was lined up. “Oh come one and loosen up will you? Look, I made this myself!” You lied, Deidoro made the alcohol but you knew Kai wouldn’t try it if you told him that. He sighed and took a sip. Have you even seen Chisaki drunk before? Well you did tonight for the first time in your relationship. He wasn’t a big drinker but the beverage had a way of sneaking up on him. You’re not really sure how the in the hell Deidoro managed to get it to taste like fruit juice but he did. And because of that, you now had to watch the man you loved try and have a breakdancing competition with the wall. You silently prayed no one would record, but knowing them it would fall on deaf ears. Later that night you had to usher him upstairs to the bathroom in your bedroom so he could puke his guts out and expel the toxicity from his body. You swore that you’d never try and get him to drink like that ever again. That is...if you can survive the next morning when he finds those recordings of himself.

Verdict: He can handle it for a little while, but it’s coming right back up afterwards.

~Nine~

-You were in the kitchen experimenting again with your drinks and he knew this. He chuckled to himself and went to watch as you poured various bottles into a large container (amongst other things). When you finally noticed him you looked up and smiled innocently. “Wanna try it? It’s jungle juice!” He laughed and shook his head. “With all due respect, I don’t trust it. The last thing you made me try last weekend nearly had me dead. What was it called? The lean? Yes, well I’m not sure after that I want to try your ‘jungle juice’...or any of your juice concoctions for that matter.” You immediately pouted at him. “Oh come on! That was an accident and you probably had too much haha! Look, I need to make sure this is perfect for my friends get together they’re having tomorrow and I’m blind to my own drinks so I need someone else to test it out. Pleeeease?” Well how could he say no to you when you needed him like this, right? He tried it and boy did it taste good at first. After that, he started crying about various issues. You did your best to try an console him but it wasn’t working to well. Leaving him alone for just 10 minutes as you went to the store and got coffee to try and sober him up was a mistake. You came back home to him passed out on the living room carpet face down. Luckily for you he was still breathing. Unfortunately he was out like a light so you had to call his job for him the next morning and let them know he was not going to be able to come into work. He didn’t wake up until the next evening.

Verdict: He can’t hold it and too much of it makes him pass out. Wouldn’t recommend.

~Skeptic~

-”Give it to me.” He took the glass from your hand and sniffed it a couple of times. “This stuff smells too good to be true. I don’t want you drinking it.” You groaned and rolled your eyes. “It’s a party and that’s what I’m here for. (Sorry to the readers that don’t partake in it) Besides, weren’t you supposed to be my DD anyway?” He stared at you for a minute or two before downing the drink. To say you were shocked was an understatement. You sounded off something between a scoff and a laugh before shaking your head. “There’s no way you just downed that entire jar like that. I thought you didn’t even drink!” He glared at you. “I’ve drank before...sometimes in the past.” That was a lie. He’s probably had a total of 4 alcoholic drinks in his entire life so far. The man lived on coffee and energy drinks alone. However, he knew how stubborn you could be sometimes so he was ahead of you in this and downed the beverage before you could have a single sip. “You’re about to go on a ride.” You smirked at him and he tilted his head slightly. “Elaborate on that...” He asked and you laughed. “Because that was lean, Tomoyasu.” The man blinked and one minute he was at the party, the next minute he was in the bed at the house with the others standing over him. “Oh good, he’s alive.” Curious sighed and went to find you. Re Destro placed the back of his hand over Skeptic’s forehead to test the temp while Trumpet and Geten stared with concern. You entered the bedroom and let out a long sigh of relief. “Oh thank God, we were going to take you to the hospital but I see you’ve woken up. Thank God too, because if another day passed then I’m sure this would’ve been considered as a coma.” 

Verdict: Don’t let him have anything beyond a little wine...

~Trumpet~

-You would think with age that the man could settle down, but that was pretty far from the truth. This dinner date with the others turned into a full house party when Chitose wheeled in the large cooler full of the drink. Rikiya had long since retired upstairs to bed when he saw what was inside of it. He claimed he wanted no part in it because of what happened last time. Before you could ask him to speak further on the matter he was gone, only leaving with a ‘please don’t let them destroy my house’. You shrugged and watched the drinks being poured. When you noticed Trumpet grab a glass you laughed a little. “Hey whoa, I didn’t take you as a drinker my love. I’ve not seen you partake in anything outside of Bourbon and Chardonnay. You sure you can handle it?” He smirked at you. “Y/N I’m a social drinker. I can handle it more than you could.” Of course you took this as a challenge. What you expected to happen would be a light drinking competition between lovers. What actually happened was that he drank you under the table and kept going even further than you thought any one man should. You wished you could gather your thoughts and tell him to stop but all that kept coming out was laughter. However, things didn’t stay funny for long as he turned to speak to you and vomited all over your outfit for the night. Chitose had to call a cab to take the two of you home.

Verdict: He can handle it a lot. Just don’t get too close to him when he opens his mouth.

[ohalemalia]

Daily Dose - (Part 4)(S.M.)

Pairing: Scott x Reader

Warnings: underage drinking, drug mention, YOLO mention

A\N:  i cut this part little shorter than i had planned it, but it’s totally going to work out. I also considering posting this on Wattpad or Fanfiction.net but I’m not sure about it yet. I also stumbled upon some...strange edits on YouTube (*coughedwardandstileswhodidthatcoughcough*) so I’m changing my entire blog and I’m going to be writing Edward/Stiles fics LMAO JK, but I saw a really interesting edit about Dean Winchester and Stiles being brothers and I was like hmmmmm  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) you might be onto something. I WANT TO WRITE MORE THINGS. BUT I ALSO AM LIKE…..DO I HAVE THE TIME. CAN I DO IT CONSISTENTLY WITHOUT LETTING PEOPLE DOWN. WHAT DO PEOPLE WANT TO SEE, pls talk to me.

Anyway,,,i’m also considering changing DD updates to Mondays because that seems to be when I actually finish writing them, so we’ll seeeee. Thanks again for reading if you read all of this authors note maybe reply with ur favorite emoji idk maybe maybe not

Word Count: 2030

Summary: Scott helps Y/N in a time of need.

Chapter Title: Magic Touch

My first flare up was at the Spring Fling at the end of sophomore year. I had wanted to go to the dance with my friends but they had wanted to go with these boys on the baseball team. They paired me with some guy who was also on the baseball team, but never actually played, Johnny Walnut. The only reason he was invited was because he had a car. One of the guys swiped some vodka from his parents liquor cabinet and everyone drank away in Johnny’s cramped VW Rabbit.

I was miserable. Johnny kept trying to hold my hand during the ride there, my friends were making out with their dates, the car reeked of vodka and weed. I thought things would be better when we actually got to the dance but oh, was I wrong.

My friends immediately ditched me once their heels hit the pavement, leaving me alone with Johnny Walnut who only wanted to talk about his collection of G.I. Joe action figures and how we could use vegetable oil to power our washing machines or whatever. I could feel a headache coming on and I didn’t know if it was from Johnny’s cologne, the loud music or the residual pot smell. I felt like I was going to puke.

I ended up curled up up on the floor outside the girl’s bathroom, clutching my stomach in pain. I thought I was dying. I remember someone laughing and thinking that I was extremely wasted. A group of students had formed a circle around me and were all gawking for a good five minutes before a chaperone finally stepped in and saw me having a fit on the floor. Luckily, she had the sense to call an ambulance and then my parents and countless tests later, I had my diagnosis.

At least this time around I knew what was wrong with me and I had made it to the bathroom.

I didn’t want to go back to the hospital.

Melissa and Scott had offered up a spare bed for me to sleep in. I was just getting used to being normal again and I didn’t want all of that to end. Hot tears ran down my face as I leaned against the toilet for support. “Please,” I gasped, clutching my aching sides, “Please, stop.”

There was a knock on the door. I groaned, hoping it wasn’t Melissa because she for sure would march me back to Beacon Hills Memorial.

“Y/N?” It was Scott. Thank God. “Y/N, is everything okay?”

“I’m fine,” I lied, “I’m okay, just go.”

There was a silence on the other side of the door, so I figured he had listened to me. Then the door knob jiggled, “Y/N, I’m coming in, okay?”

Another sharp pain ripped through my side and I gasped, unable to protest. In Scott McCall walked and saw me in a sweaty heap on his bathroom floor.

“Y/N?” Scott immediately kneeled down next to me, “Y/N, what’s wrong?”

“N-nothing,” I choked out, “I’m fine, I’m fine.”

“You don’t look fine,” Scott looked me over, worry all over his face, “Y/N, we need to get you some help. I’ll get my mom.”

“No!” I grabbed onto his arm so that he wouldn’t get up and leave, “No, Scott, please. I don’t wanna go back. Please, please, Scott, please, I don’t want to. Please don’t let them take me back.”

I was a sobbing, blubbering mess and poor Scott looked like he regretted stepping into my whirlwind.

“How can I help you, Y/N?” Scott’s tone was soft and (almost) comforting. But there wasn’t anything he could do. I shook my head, “S’fine I ju-just need the pain to go away.”

He cautiously held a hand up to me, “Then let me help you, Y/N. Do you trust me?”

I looked up at him, but the pain was so intense he was fading in and out of focus. I cast my gaze down to the floor and nodded. Scott scooted closer to me on the floor and sat down. Then, he took my hand in his and placed his other hand on top of it. I thought he was helping me get up, so I tried to bring myself to my feet, but he gently pulled me back down.

“Just, close your eyes, Y/N.”

I did as he told, shutting my eyes. I felt a tingling sensation run up from my sides, through my arm and out the hand that Scott was holding. As the tingling went through my body, it seemed to take the pain...away. All of the different feelings in my body were too much and my head flopped over until it landed on something soft. My breathing slowed down s the tingling continued and the excruciating pain I felt slowly turned into a dull throbbing and then, into nothing. There was a ringing in my ears but other than that I felt completely fine in a matter of seconds. How?

I opened my eyes to see that my head had found its way on Scott’s shoulder. Scott’s forehead was beaded with sweat and his eyes were now shut.

“Scott?” I whispered, “Scott are you okay?”

Scott nodded but kept his eyes closed, “Yeah, yeah I’m okay. Let’s just sit here for a while, okay?”

I looked down at our hands. “How did you do that?” I murmured.

“Do what?” He asked.

“You...it’s like you took the pain away,” I opened his hand to see if there was some kind of magic needle or something that he could’ve cured me with.

His breathing was labored, “I read somewhere...that physical touch...it helps with pain.”

“You must have some kind of magic touch then,” I ran my fingers over the palm of his hand.

“Something like that.”

--

I took it easy for the rest of the day. I felt better, but Scott felt better if I limited my movement to practically nothing at all, so I used the time to catch up on social media while Scott fixed us something to eat. I thought it would make me feel more connected to all my friends and family, but it honestly made me feel like a stranger in my own life.

My Aunt had gotten engaged and was planning to move to New Jersey with her soon to be spouse, my friends were posting cute pictures of them with their significant others or traveling over the summer or first day of school photos. My uncle and his husband just adopted their first child. I felt like life had been passing me by while I was frozen in a carbonite bath or something. What was my life?

I felt a tear slip down my cheek but I quickly brushed it away. What was feeling sorry for myself going to help? Crying wasn’t going to get rid of my lupus. It wasn’t going to make me better, or normal, or give me my life back. I could hear Scott coming back up the stairs, so I closed my laptop and set it to the side. I pulled the sleeve of my sweater between my teeth as I thought to myself. I thought I could hold it together, but seeing Scott come in with a big smile and a tray of food for some reason made me feel worse about myself. I pressed the sleeve of my sweater against my mouth and looked out the window.

“So, I got tomato soup and grilled cheese because, well, it always makes me feel better after--Y/N what’s wrong?”

I wiped my face and shrugged.

Scott set the tray down and kneeled down in front of my bed, “You’re crying. Did it come back again?”

I sniffled and shrugged my shoulders again, “I’m fine.”

Scott frowned, “Are you really fine...or are you just saying that because you’ll think I’ll go away?”

“I’m as fine as I can be,” I snapped. “I mean, I’m not in agonizing pain, I’m sitting in this bed, safe from all of life’s dangers, I’m alive but,” I paused to have an incredulous laugh, “Am I even really living? Everyone I know, everyone’s life is just moving forward but I’m stuck stagnant in one place. I’m not going anywhere. What’s even the point of being alive if I’m not even living because it’ll kill me?”

I didn’t want Scott to see me in a huge breakdown, so I pulled the collar of my sweater up and over my face. My arms wrapped around my knees as I brought them to my chest and I positioned myself so that I was leaning against the headboard, “I just want to be left alone right now, Scott. Please.”

After what I figured was consideration, I heard Scott get up. I heard his footsteps go over to the door and after a brief pause I heard the door shut behind him. I could also hear him sigh on the other side and head down the stairs.

I only hoped he didn’t hear me sobbing. But knowing Scott, he probably did.

--

I don’t remember falling asleep, but I do remember waking up in the middle of the night and eating the soup. It wasn’t half bad. I remember faintly hearing Scott having a conversation downstairs. I remembered doing a lot of staring at walls.

There was a soft knock on my door. When Scott poked his head in, the bright yellow hall light broke through into my room.

“Hey, Y/N.”

I gave him the best smile I could muster, “Hi, Scott.”

Scott gave me a slight boyish smile in return and stepped inside the room, “I had something I wanted to show you, but it’s kind of super dangerous so I want your okay on it.”

I raised an eyebrow and sat up to get a good look at him, “Is it...drugs?”

“What?” Scott’s eyes widened in alarm, “No?  I would never--”

“Okay, good,” I put a hand over my chest, “I’ve had enough out of body experiences for now.”

“Oh, well, then I guess you wouldn’t be interested in,” Scott raised his hands and I could see he was holding a motorcycle helmet in both of them, “A super exhilarating late night motorcycle ride. I hear people ride motorcycles because it makes them feel alive.”

I blinked at him. There was no way he was actually suggesting this and there was no way that Melissa okay’d this. “You’re serious?”

“Why wouldn’t I be?”

“Um, because if the motorcycle didn’t kill us, Melissa would.”

“What?” Scott laughed, “Y/N, it’s totally safe. I wouldn’t put you on something that would put your life in danger.”

“You said less than two minutes ago that the thing you wanted to show me was “kind of dangerous”,” I argued.

“It was supposed to make it sound cooler,” Scott frowned, “If this is too crazy and wild, I totally get it. I just thought it would be nice to get out past four walls. You mentioned you wanted to live and--”

Scott set the helmets down, “This was a stupid idea.”

“No,” Now I was starting to feel bad, “Scott, it wasn’t. It’s not.”

“You can tell me it was a stupid idea,” Scott smiled at me, “I’m not trying to guilt trip you or anything. Riding usually helps me clear my head sometimes, I thought you might enjoy it. But I can wait until my mom gets back, I’ll just borrow her car and--”

I crept my legs off the side of the bed and onto the carpeted floor. I walked over to Scott, never breaking eye contact with him, and picked up the motorcycle helmet. It was a lot heavier than I thought it would be, but I guess that was the price of protecting your most essential organ.

“We’re going, Scott. I want to go.”

Scott beamed at me, “Are you sure?”

“Positive,” I nodded, “YOLO, right?”

Scott visibly cringed, “Okay, we’ll go. But only if you never say YOLO again.”

“I can definitely agree to that.”

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tagged by @malmaratus !! Thank you!!!!! I love filling these out but I never get tagged!

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 15 people

1. drink - Rootbeer!! Tastee

2. 📱 call -  My parents and my sister!

3. text - My discord that I have with my best friends!

4. song you listened to - Lovegame by Lady Gaga KJFHDJH

5. time you 😢 - LOL... When I saw a CD at the mall that had Getter Robo on it.... It was a Mazinger/Getter Robo music CD, it was in japanese so the only song I recognized was HEATS!! Aneeways i got very emotional

HAVE YOU EVER

6. dated someone twice - Nope!!! 7. 😘 someone and regretted it - Nah!! 8. been cheated on - Noo

9. lost someone special - Yes, this sounds dumb but my childhood cat, he helped me through a lot

10. been depressed - Bitch..... KTJGBDKJNGBKJGBG ofc

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - Noooooo I can’t even puke

FAVORITE COLORS

12. Chartreuse 

13.  Green (In general)

14. Magenta

15. Red (in general)

in the last year have you

16. made new friends - Yes!!!!

17. fallen out of 💛 - Nah

18. 😂 until you 😢 - The time I saw (wont’ say who) ass’s steam bc they pissed themselves from laughing when it was super cold out. you had to be there to know the true chaos behind the situation KFDJHKFJGH 19. found out someone was talking about you - I don’t think so?

20. met someone who changed you - Naah

21. found out who your friends are - I dunno!!! last year was a blur to me tbh 22. 😘 someone on your facebook friends list - LFHNKD no

GENERAL

23. how many friends from your fb friends list do you know irl - i dunno...... i never use facebook

24. do you have any pets - yes!!!!! One dog, one catfish, and one zebra finch!

25. do you want to change your middle name - If i could easily i would.. I hate the name Elizabeth 

26. what did you do for your last 🎂 - Had dinner with my family !! it was nice! I got cooking stuff : DD

27. what time did you wake up today - 10:38 AM. I remember lol

28. what were you doing last night at midnight - Drawing my getter robo oc kjgf

29. what is something you can’t wait for - Getting my first psychiatrist appointment!!!!!! We’re working on it!

30. what are you listening to right now - Absolute silence other than my bird quietly meeping

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - My grandpa!

32. something that gets on your nerves - My biological parents

33. most visited website - Tumblr!

34. hair color - Brunette with natural red highlights. I’m irish baybe! 35. long hair or short hair - At my shoulders rn, I usually like to keep it short

36. do you have a crush on someone - IHGDKGSDJBKGH ......... maybe

37. what do you like about yourself - That I can make myself laugh

38. want any piercings - NO.... I got earings one time and I almost cried : ( they’re closed up now..

39. blood type - IDK...

40. nicknames - Mell, Kero, Sock, Kaity, Dirt. I am called a lotkjfhj

41. relationship status - Single !

42. zodiac - Sagittarius 

43. pronouns - Any, but to keep it simple I usually go by They/Them

44. favorite 📺 show - That’s.. really hard to pick so I’ll say my current hyperfocus.... Getter Robo!

45. tattoos - I don’t have any but maybe one day.. a frog tattoo 46. right handed or left - Right!

47. ever had surgery - Tubes in both of my ears, once when I was 3 and once when I was 6

48. piercings - Noooneee 49. sports - I’ve never done sports bc of my asthma

50. vacation - We went to southern Illinois on route 66! That was fun

51. trainers - Huh??

MORE GENERAL

52. eating - Olive oil w parmesan cheese and white bread.. 

53. drinking - Rootbeer

54. i’m about to watch - I dunno... Probably Oneyplays

55. waiting for - Dad to come home so I can tell him I didn’t call the doctor KJGHG

56. want - Something to eat with soy sauce.. I’m craving it

57. get married - Idk what the future holds for me but rn I feel like marriage isn’t for me

58. career - I wanna be that person at the zoo that does educating shows for kids.. :’ )

WHICH IS BETTER

59. kisses or hugs - Kisses..... they’re nice!

60. 👄 or eyes - Eyes!

61. shorter or taller - TALLER.. I’m 5′1 what option do I have

62. older or younger - Ew.... Ok not a fan of this one lol. My age?????

63. nice arms or stomach - Arms........ 

64. hookup or relationship - Relationship!! I don’t like the thought of hookups

65. troublemaker or hesitant - Depends on what kind of person they are... IDK..

HAVE YOU EVER

66. 😘 a stranger - No!!!

67. drank hard liquor - ................Yes

68. lost glasses - I don’t wear glasses dkjfk

69. turned someone down - Yeaaaa

70. sex on first date - No!!

71. broken someone’s ❤️- I did but it’s not my fault lol

72. had your 💔 - Yup!!

73. been arrested - Nooooo

74. 😢 when someone died - Yes????

75. fallen for a friend - AJGFJG yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

76. yourself - It changes a lot but.. I think overall, yea

77. miracles - Yea but only because I believe in luck

78. 💛 at first sight - I don’t really know honestly

79. 🎅 - kjgdhjkhghkjhgjkg No....

80. 😘 on a first date - Nah

81. angels - I did for a bit but it was only bc I was paranoid and scared of them KJFHFG..

other

82. best friend’s name - Jesse, Harley, and Konyleigh! <3

83. eye color - Blue!!

84. favorite movie - I never know how to answer this.. So i’ll say Christine as usual

85. favorite actor - OHDFKJDFGH I DONT KNOW!!

tagging @chi-kuchi, @purple-gem, @moondroppopcandy, and *points* YOU. kjdj in all seriousness, all my mutuals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucka yea!!!!!

[revengeworld]

Let the Past die. XVI

Zombie Apocalypse AU

Kylo x Reader (+ Solo siblings)

Words: +2.500

Warnings: Swearing, Fighting... just the two idiots haha

AN: A littlew bit of fluff a little bit of angst, the perfect mix! :DD

MY MASTERLIST

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Previous Chapter - Dreams

Chapter 16 – Brothers will be Brothers

It felt like the longest trip they had ever made, maybe it was because they were going home and would need to leave their privacy behind, but it just felt exhausting.

The snow had picked up and the drive back took longer and longer, that they even couldn´t find a place to rest, so they head to sleep in the drivers cabin, cuddled against each other to keep warm.

“Ben probably took Matts last nerve.” Y/N chuckled at that thought and was almost glad when they finally saw the selfbuild fence again.

Uncle Luke opened it for them, so they could bring the Truck in.

It took almost two whole hours to get everything from the Truck inside but it definitely was worth it when they saw Bens sleepy but happy face.

“Hello my big boy!” Y/N kneeled down to pull him into a long hug. “I got you some new clothes wanna try them on? I really can´t endure your belly button any more.” she chuckled while pulling the new sweatshirts out.

“Dinosaurs?” the small boy yawned and she nodded.

“Sorry buddy, but they only had these.”

“No there awesome...” he mumbled quietly in her arm, almost ready to fall asleep again.

“He did a lot of work today.” Matt explained to her, while taking the clothes out of her hand, so she could hold the boy, that was falling asleep in her arms.

“Thank you.” she mumbled, before picking up Ben to bring him back up in his bed.

“N...No problem...” Matt stuttered lightly and Kylo only huffed, while helping Luke to stow away the food.

“We found a few construction sites and hardware stores, were we can get our stuff for spring.” Pushing the Map against Matts chest, Kylo tried to look into his eyes but his older brother avoided them.

“Well it was a long drive. It´s best when we rest for now, could you take care of the rest?”

“S...sure.” Matt took the bags from Kylo and retreated to the kitchen, while Kylo slowly walked up the stairs, he didn´t know why, but something felt off. Maybe it was because he had spend so much time alone with Y/N that he felt possessive when another man looked at her. Brushing over his eyes he entered their bedroom. Y/N and Ben totally knocked out when he climbed under the blanket with them.

When it was supposedly Christmas eve, Kylo and Y/N sneaked down into the living room to prepare the presents for everyone, while Uncle Luke was loudly snoring in his bed.

“Do you think they will like it?” she whispered quietly while hanging the small tree with fairylights.

“It´s the best we could do.” Kylo only shrugged with his shoulders, placing the poorly wrapped presents under it.

“You don´t seem very cheerful today...” crawling over to him, she sat down in his crossed legs and wrapped his arms around her.

Sighing he placed kisses against her hair.

“It just feels like something is off… Didn´t you notice Matts weird behaviour? He started to stutter again.” he mumbled into her ear and she only shrugged with her shoulders.

“Maybe you are just to anxious after what happened...”

“That´s not what I mean, he especially is stuttery when he is around you…”

Realising what her boyfriend just had said, he turned her head slightly to look at him.

“Are you implying that Matt has a crush on me?”

“Well you are basically the only girl around and even though he is such a big nerd, he probably has … desires.” Kylo tried to explain his worrys to her, but shuddering at the thought alone.

“Well then he has enough `material`.” shrugging her shoulders she placed kisses onto his knuckles.

“Excuse me?” Kylo suddenly got serious and turned her around in his lap.

“What is that supposed to mean?”

“Calm down, he just saw me in my underwear. Once. The Night you almost died and left me behind. I needed to change quickly to get you your blood.” placing a hand gently against the side of his face he nodded, slowly stroking his nose against hers before he stole her lips with his.

“I´m still yours and will be in the future. So don´t be jealous. Just talk with him.” cuddling against his brode chest, she closed her eyes before she heart the tiny steps of ben who came running into the room.

“MERRY CHRISTMAS!!” he screamed of the top of his lungs before jumping onto the both, while look sat now confused in his bed. “Can I open my presents?”

“Sure go for it!” grabbing Bens face, Y/N showered it in kisses while he tried to avoid them.

Letting Ben search for his gifts, Matt was slowly waddling into the room his blonde locks standing up in all directions.

“Good Morning...” he mumbled while rubbing over his sleepy eyes, putting his glasses back on his nose.

Kylo leaned his head onto Y/Ns shoulder who was taking a picture of Ben when he finally unwrapped his presents.

Maybe he was really just imagining things, but he could swear that Matt was staring at her legs from time to time.

“Aren´t you cold in those shorts?” Kylo asked her quietly before pressing a few kisses against her temple.

“just a little...” she mumbled, totally dazing off in his arms from all the cuddles.

“Then get into something warmer, before you catch a cold.” nodding, she slowly stood up and vanished for a few moments, coming back in Kylos big sweatpants.

He only shook his head with a smile and greeted her back in his arms.

Otherwise it was a normal day, Ben was constantly switching between the things they had got him, comics, toys and the new clothing that Y/N was trying just trying to get him to wear.

“Arms up!” pulling the new sweatshirt over his head, she grinned. It was a lbit big, but he would definitely grow into them.

“What´s with you guys?” asked Luke, while Kylo and her just sat there, watching them with their presents.

“Oh we got lots of presents already.” she grinned wide before placing a kiss onto Kylos cheek.

“Yeah, we didn´t think it would be necessary to wrap that stuff when we used it already.” Kylo shrugged with his shoulders before taking a sip of his coffee.

“Is Y/N now pregnant?” Ben suddenly asked and Kylo almost spit his whole coffee on the floor.

Coughing, Y/N started to pat his back before looking shocked at Ben.

“Where did you get that idea?” she asked sweet, but ready to get that someone a slap against their head.

Pointing at Luke and Matt, she threw them a furious look.

“W...we just disgust the possibility!! How to make this place secure if something like that would ha...happen!!” Matt quickly waved his hands, scared that both of them were gonna give him a punch.

After Kylo calmed down and could breath normally again, he sighed deeply.

“You guys don´t need to worry about something like this. We discussed this topic already ...” taking Y/Ns hand he pressed her lightly against him, before letting his lips rest against her scalp.

Avoiding the gazes from the others, Y/N looked onto the floor leaning more against Kylo.

“Sorry, we shouldn´t have brought it up.”

“Oh, I had really liked to be an older brother...” Ben said, sad about these news as well.

“Ben you would be an uncle, you idiot.” Kylo laughed and ruffled through his hair.

“I don´t want to be an uncle! Uncles are always old, have you looked at Uncle Luke lately?” the small boy complained and all of them started to laugh.

Spring took a long time to come, but it was finally here.

“Will you be alright?” Y/N slowly letting Kylo pull her closer, his hands resting on her hip.

“I will be fine.” he promised and showered her face with kisses, which was also covered in a few streaks of paint. Her hair was in a chaotic bun and her hands were covered in paint as well. Ben didn´t look any better.

“We just grab the rest of the wood and be back in a sec.” kissing her lips one last time, Luke loudly cleared his throat.

“Don´t make the little one uncomfortable.” the old man said and they both looked down to Ben.

“What are you looking at me for. I´m not the one almost puking.” the black haired boy said and pointed at his other older brother.

Matt was already standing at the passenger door of the Truck and rolled his eyes.

“Well we will be off...” pulling her into another kiss, he let his hands wander over her behind and she lightly chuckled into the kiss before hitting Kylos shoulder lightly.

Watching them leave, she and Ben waved for a while, before returning to the half finished expansion of the wooden hut.

“Just this last bit and we are finally done.” Kylo mumbled to strike up a conversation.

“If you hadn´t ruin the last patch, we would have been finished already.” his older brother huffed, annoyed and frustrated, which they had to endure the last few days, especially Kylo.

“We would have been biter food otherwise!” pulling up to the hardware shop, Kylo stomped onto the brake.

After the last few weeks, there was tension between the two older brothers and not just from Kylos side, Matt was throwing blame around left and right.

“Sure, you always got an excuse for everything.” Matt hissed and walked around the big storage hall.

“What the fuck is your problem?!”

“Kylo who always get what he wants. Kylo the Artist in the family. Kylo the big hero of everyone. I could puke every time I look at you!” the blonde suddenly turned around furious.

“Come on then, let it all out, Matty.” holding his Arms wide open, Kylo was already readying himself for a fight if it would come to it.

“I´m fed up with your bullshit! Oh how everyone loves the talented Kylo. I worked my ass of for this damn family, but nooo, you who could play some wrong tunes on his first guitar got praised like it was gods work!” Matt started to scream and started threw thing around.

“You were never at home! As soon as you could leave you were gone! Focused on your studying instead of coming to visit, don´t fucking blame it on me! Mum and Dad tried but you always pushed them away!” Kylo countered, avoiding a screwdriver that was flying his way.

“The big Kylo who could ruin everything and still would be forgiven by everyone! I mean you killed Y/Ns parents and she still falls in love with you! What does she even see in you?!”

Pressing his hands into fists, Kylo only scoffed.

“I fucking knew it. That is your problem? That I won´t let you fuck my girlfriend?!” he was ready to pounce on Matt and break his goddamn nose until the noticed the loud pounding at the door, that suddenly broke down, biters swarming in from everywhere, probably lured by their loud screams.

“Fuck! Get up on the shelves quick.” pulling Matt to the high industrial shelves he boost his older brother up, before climbing after him. Matt quickly pulling him on the highest shelve.

Looking down at the undead, Kylo took a deep breath.

“Well shit...”

“Kylo...” Matt mumbled after a while, his legs pressed his chest, while he was staring down at the biters.

“Matt, just shut up, otherwise I´m really gonna throw you down there.” his younger brother sighed, rubbing over his eyes with an annoyed grunt.

“I´m sorry. I´m always getting so frustrated since we were basically caged in the whole winter. Every little thing gets me ticking and I just don´t know how to handle it. Maybe it´s just because we were always together 24/7 without having any privacy and endure each others company, but when we finish this it may get better...” he spoke truthfully and Kylo looked slowly up at him.

“Ben likes you more, Y/N likes you more, Our Parents like you more. Even Uncle Lukes likes you more and you burned his first scout camp down.” now even Matt started to lightly chuckle and Kylo groaned embarrassed.

“Oh fuck, don´t even remind me. I was so eager to help him with this damn camp fire… I run right into the gas canister.” shaking his head with somewhat of a smile.

“I got grounded for a freaking year and uncle Luke never trained me again. I felt so horrible...” shaking his head, he thought how banal this whole situation was now. Back then it was just a few burned tents but now they were sitting on high sheves full of wood, one wrong move and they could fall to their death.

“Wow. I really can´t let you guys out for 2 hours.” they suddenly heard Y/Ns voice and looked up to the roof were she was looking through an open window.

“Do I even want to know how you got here?” Kylo called up and she struck her tongue out.

“A bicycle, so be glad I didn´t get eaten!” they knew she was angry at them, because they didn´t call or anything but the walkie was in the truck with the rest of their stuff.

“Are you getting us out of here or not, babe?”

“Maybe I just leave you guys here, that would be a very educational lesson!” she hissed but looked around.

“How many?”

“Around 70.” Kylo counted and she sighed.

“You guys are impossible.” seeing that they didn´t even have any weapons on them besides the knifes, she rolled her eyes.

“I will lure them to the loading area. You guys get your weapons.” seeing her shadow, through the milky glass, carefully balancing on the roof, they soon heard loud banging on the other side of the hall.

Watching the biters attention switch to the noise the boys, soon managed to get to the Truck and get their silenced pistols, slowly thinning the group of biters.

Helping Y/N down the ladder, Kylo immediately got a hit against the back of his head which only made him chuckle, before he smothered her in kisses.

“Stop! I´m still angry with you! And you too!” she pointed her finger first at Kylo and then at Matt.

“Let´s get this damn wood and I need more paint.”

“Oh so you only came for the paint...” Kylo pouted lightly and she shot him a glare.

“I´m here, because I tried to call you to and nobody picked up.” constantly poking his chest Kylo just smiled down at her.

“God I love you...”

“Shut up!” she hissed against his lips before he kissed her again, but relaxed after awhile.

Matt just giggled at the two before they took the stuff they needed.

At the end of the day, they had finally finished there work, and Y/N was balancing a few glasses of selfmade probably horrible iced tea, but nobody cared about that.

“You did great guys.” she praised them and gave both of them a kiss on the cheek, seeing how they were much more relaxed with eachother.

“And you especially, my little painter!” she hugged Ben who tried to escape her kisses, while everybody started to laugh.

Tags: @karma-jolie @hungrymango @attorneyl @sdavid09 @celestiaelisia @zoemonster200 @marveloussirens11 @plethora-of-things @ayatimascd @ghostslikemydoubts @dangerous-but-fun

[wolfehes]

ENTRY #11

June 30, 2022 // 20:42

Hi! It’s me again… WOW it’s already been a year since I last wrote something here :)) So I actually feel sad and d*pressed the last couple of weeks (or months, even) you know the feeling when your chest just feels so heavy as if someone’s pushing against it? Well yeah, I oftene experience that now. I think I’ll make two entries today (one is after i read all my past entries). So well, I’ve started this small diary, well obv for myself, to let out my insecurities and random thoughts even though i know it’s never gonna reach someone.

So i am now officially graduating (well, in aug must 5). So I’m not having a latin award, which made me puke, cry, and be in a state of self doubt for a couple of months/weeks now. But slowly, I think I’m getting gonna get over it. I know I can. I admit it’s not true that these are just awards. These are indications that you habe done well in that 4 years of suffering. But this does not end me. I will not let this latin honor name be a burden, insead, I’ll use it as a motivation, that I know that Inshould work harder!

I still have a very heavy chest but I’m getting by. Special thanks to my parents that trully supported me. To my college, jhs, and shs friends. To DD, who always makes sure that I am loved and appreciated. I wanna say it here since I don’t have the guts to pose these thinngs on my fb account. But yeah, I wanna pursue more and achieve more and shwo people that I can still do it and be successful. But I thinking of getting an MBA for the past couple of days and I’m still undecided. (Although my parent REALLY wanted me to go to med school)

So yeah

Your future (hopefully) doktora,

Alecs (iykyk) 🫶🏻

[yellowgh0st]

Tw: mentions of breast/chest size

I fucking hate my body type

My breasts are too fucking big and they get in the way of the things I want to do

I also need a better fucking bra

But when I was trying on bras and I said that I didn’t know if one of them fit right, my mom got mad at me and asked HOW COULD YOU NOT KNOW IF IT FIT but it’s like I’m so fucking sorry that I’ve never had a proper bra in my life and you take out the cups and stuff because you don’t like them when you never ask me for my fucking opinion on things

There was also another bra that fit kind of eh but my mom liked it and she was like go put a shirt over it so I did and I looked in the mirror and I cried cuz it made my body look..weird like it was too feminine and not me and I told her it made my body look uglier than it already is and she just did nothing about that

So I don’t even have a proper fitting bra which probably would help with me not hating myself

It was getting bad tonight so I went ahead and googled how to deal with large breasts cuz I’m like a 42 DD or something

all of them said to basically get better bras and it’s like bruh I tried

they also kept using a lot of feminine terms and god those made me so fucking uncomfortable

I’ve been kind of going yea I’m a she but now I don’t know if I want to be associated with being a woman at all

also most of them were saying stuff like wear low necklines and 3/4 sleeves

BUT THOSE ARE SO FUCKING DULL AND BORING TO ME

PLUS THEY MAKE ME THINK OH LOOK THERE’S A WOMAN WHO’S PROBABLY BORING AS SHIT CUZ MY MOM WEARS THOSE CLOTHES AND SHE’S BORING AS SHIT (sorry to anyone who actually wears that I’m just really fucking upset)

You might be like oh well what do you want to wear

I DONT FUCKING KNOW

sometimes I wanna wear alt/e-girl clothes and sometimes I wanna wear soft girl clothes

BUT MOST OF THOSE OUTFITS ONLY LOOK GOOD ON FUCKING SKINNY SMALL CHEST PEOPLE

IVE SEEN NOBODY WHO LOOKS LIKE ME WEARING THOSE CLOTHES

AND ITS NOT LIKE I CAN WEAR THEM BECAUSE MY MOM PROBABLY WOULDNT BUY THEM FOR ME OR THEY WONT EVEN FIT ME OR THEY’D JUST LOOK PLAIN BAD ON ME

“Oh but what do I wear now” you may be asking

T-shirts and leggings

I just spent 4 days wearing a hoodie and now I never want to wear a t-shirt again

They don’t look good with my breasts and they make me look fat and weird

BUT IVE BEEN WEARING THEM FOR THE PAST 4 YEARS AND ITS ALL I FUCKING HAVE

MOST OF THEM ARE FUCKING ANIME ONES

I BARELY FUCKING WATCH ANIME NOWADAYS

MY MOM WONT BUY ME NEW PANTS OR NEW CLOTHES BECAUSE “You already have a lot of shirts/leggings”

Some of you might be oh use your own money to buy your own clothes

WHO’D TAKE ME TO BUY THEM

MY. FUCKING. MOM.

PLUS ITS NOT LIKE I HAVE A SOURCE OF INCOME

MY PARENTS OWE ME AND MY SISTER HUNDREDS OF DOLLARS BECAUSE THEY SAID WE’D GET $10 DOLLARS EACH MONTH FOR HELPING PAINT A RENT HOUSE

THAT ONLY LASTED LIKE HALF A YEAR

EVERYTIME I BRING THAT UP MY MOM’S LIKE YOU OWE ME A LOT OF MONEY FOR GIVING YOU FOOD AND RAISING YOU

BITCH I DIDNT ASK TO BE RAISED

I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE

SOME OF YOU MIGHT BE LIKE OH BUT THESE ARENT THAT BIG OF PROBLEMS WHEN YOU HAVE THIS AND THIS

but they are when your mom doesn’t accept they/them pronouns (found out cuz a friend)

and your dad said people who need anxiety medication just don’t know how to deal with it

I really really want new clothes and to have a different body

I’m so fucking sorry

I feel like I’m going to puke