#i vibe with existential dread ig

[sleepanonymous]

Do yourself a favor and take a seat for this one fam 👍

I fell upon a point The axis of the spectrum To bathe in abstract joy Or die without direction

Determined steps we take But please, for goodness sake We’re not gonna make it out alive

I sit for wasted days and toil in desperation To weep beneath a sky of fractured indication Let faith lead you down But please, for goodness sake We’re not alive; we’re just getting older

I would help you, but I can’t Seems that time got the upper hand To live yet never understand Is there a purpose?

But you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders

But you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders (Do we) And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders (Deserve this) And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders (Do we) And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders (Deserve this)

Live by the subordinate belief That we are more than this we live By the subordinate belief That we are more than this we live

Okay so you guys are just gonna have to trust me on this one. This came from an(other) anon source since the link on Way Back Machine is dead. This was published to Ves's YouTube channel on July 15, 2012. The description said something along the lines of this (basing it off memory, it's very loose):

I wrote this song about the idea that humans have evolved beyond our means. We suffer implications due to our sentience and awareness of our world, which leads us to questions we cannot answer. Animals are programmed to fear death but they probably aren't aware of its inevitability, where humans most certainly are, but are totally powerless to stop it.

Update on this song as of December 2023:

Two different Anons provided me with more background info. The first screenshot is the original description that Ves had (he also worded things in a much better and more Vessel way than I did lol). The second screenshot is copy+paste text from the lyrics portion below the description. I updated the lyrics to reflect the text.

[deeply-unserious-fellow]

Every journey ends where it started, but how true is that, really? How often do you end up in the same place you began? How long until you can't go back anymore?

Everything rots. Everything decays. And one day it'll all be gone. Your home, your family, your friends. I wish I could say it wouldn't. I wish I could say there are things that'll never change. But I can't without lying. Everything changes and it's scary and maybe that's okay.

And maybe it's hard to accept that it's okay. Maybe you end up kicking and screaming and punching and biting and still can't accept that it's fine. But it is. No matter how hard you fight to change the rate of change, you won't. So you'll just inevitably accept it. Acceptance is the last stage of grief, after all.

I'm still struggling to accept it. Everytime I try I feel as though I'm in danger, I'm exposing myself to the cruelty of the universe. So I kick! And I scream! And I punch and I bite but the universe doesn't care. One day I'll get too tired to fight, one day my stubborness will fade and I'll be willing to accept change and all the tragedy it comes with. Accept the fact that once something's gone you'll never get it back. But until then I will continue my pointless fight with fate, because when you're scared and confused it's so much easier to just lash out then to accept the truths that are frightening you.

I hope one day you'll be able to accept it. I hope one day I'll be able to accept it. But until then, don't let it get to you, okay? For my sake and yours.

[b-a-pigeon]

Really very fascinated by the fact that two separate people have called HotU "cozy" now — both in the context of thorough & thoughtful reviews so I feel like I have to consider it now lol!

I meannn it is very character-driven in the way cozy fantasy is... the villages in the earlier chapters have some cozy vibes ig (they are broadly very community-oriented and welcoming)... but I feel like the existential/apocalyptic dread kind of precludes a sense of coziness lol. And can a book really be cozy if one of the protagonists like graphically murders an innocent person in the text??

"Coziness" is kind of a nebulous concept I think but I just cannot wrap my brain around applying it to HotU. Y'all should let me know what you think after reading it though!!

[tbhimnoteasyonmyself]

Luna pied on the sofa so she's grounded (can't go to the balcony) and now she's sad about it. But otherwise she's fine!

I'm glad to hear you're good!! I hope everything will pass smoothly! Don't let the existential dread get to you!!

A Journalism elective? That sounds cool!! I think I'm gonna have a mandatory journalism class, actually. Something about the touristic journalism. 'Cause, yeah, idk if I'd told you but: I finished my Bachelor's!! I officially have a degree now, so that's cool. Ksksksk Got into a Master's in tourism though so that's another 2 years but, at least, it's a different university and all so it's a bit exciting, right? Anyway... Hope your last year goes well!! Make that thesis your bitch!! The last one was my favourite but maybe that's just me.

Any fun people? Well, the same ones that were in it before, Ig ksksksks But I have a fun story.

I went to pride with my friends and a very drunk guy came up and started speaking in English and calling us gorgeous saying he was lost and needed to find his friend but he was clearly Brazillian. So I told him, in Portuguese, "I believe there's a common language you're choosing to ignore here". And then he started to speak in Portuguese saying "if you speak English, I'll speak English. If you speak Portuguese, I'll speak Portuguese. If you speak Spanish, I'll speak Spanish. If you speak something else, I'll speak it too! I speak all the languages, darling, as long as hot people are talking to me" and then his friend called him and he DANCED AWAY from us. I never met anyone with his vibe before but he's hilarious. I still think about him sometimes, you know? Like a mentor. I wanma be him one day...

Anyway... The rant's too long already so I won't bother you anymore. I'll take care of myself and of Luna, I promise! You take care of yourself too!!

Xoxo 🤗💜

Hello~~

How are you, Liyah? I haven't heard from you in a while and your tags are a bit concerning tbh, so I just wanted to check on you, see if you're good.

And send you all the luck and strength for whatever you're going through!!

Hang in there, warrior!! This too shall pass!!

All the love 💜💜💜

PS: Cat pics? Cat pics!

DANTE MY DARLING!! Helloo love, first of all KITTYYYYY OMG HELLO BB. How is the little darling?

I missed talking to you as well, I have been less active on tumblr ngl. I am doing well, with the occasional breakdown hehe. Some tags... late night thoughts, but dw I am doing okay! Even when I am not, it'll be okay. I did have a rough summer ngl... I am back to school today! Last year of my Bacholar's, fun fun. I have my Journalism elective (finally found the english word for it lol, we call it minor but that's like not great in any sentence lol). ANYWAY I am starting my thesis as well, which will be a fun one I hope. I have a theme down I think I hope, yeah I am early but I like being a good girl. AGAIN ANYWAY, how are you???? How's uni? How's life? Any fun people in your life since we last spoke? I am manifesting for a lot atm and it's doing it's thing I believe.

loveeeeeee you, take care of yourself and your kitty, you can do it my fellow warrior <3 <3 kisses