#i used to hc gil (and julia) as aroace; now i rather read him as aroallo (so spapru used to be allosex4ace instead)

[ambivalent-amphibian]

after revisiting the spapru/pruspa tag for the first time in like four years i've come to change my tune (all headcanons, ofc) about my first aro4allorom ship <3. they'd eventually become exclusive queerplatonic partners that enjoy sex, but their angsty gripes with amatonormativity aren't only limited to gil's inhibitions towards fearing he could be leading toni on (since he doesn't really understand experience romantic attraction and maybe never will, much less the rituals and expectations), but also extend to the confussion stemming from the longing and touch starvation they do experience when they're together, which the both of them (moreso toni) have always assumed could (and should?) only come from romantic, consumate love.

add to that the way toni's idealization of romantic love (conventional romantic roles and performances that is) is so deeply ingrained in him, his worldview, any plans he could ever make for his future -i'll say it, even in his sense of worth as a person. what a lovely mess <3

tl;dr they want each other what a shocker, but will toni finally accept ~romance~ is just a social construct that pretty much originated in his very soil (medieval chivalry romances)??? and that he and gil can make their own rules together?? stay tuned