#i thought the acting career was rly easy how come she has such a hard time... she met the requirements too........

[maelfe]

THREE (3!!!) failed auditions in the bag.................

[bluesfm]

(  park  chaeyoung  ,  twenty two  ,  &  cisfemale  )  who  ?  these  days  ,  it’s  all  about    blue hyong,  who  comes  from    los  angeles  &  ca    and  is  making  headlines  as  a    singer    .    she   currently  has  a  fan  count  of  42k    ,  no  thanks  to  the  rumors  of  them  being  inflexible  !  but  ,  on  the  other  hand  ,  their  most  devout  fans  say  they’re  actually    imaginative    .  last  i  heard  ,  they  caused  quite  a  buzz  when    she   publicly   dissed    her  new   record    label  and   the   misogynistic  treatment   she  was   receiving   from   their  reps  !  it’s  no  wonder  they  remind  me  of    long   rants   in  the  notes  app   being  posted   to  her   twitter  account  ,  empty  bottles   of  wine  laying  at   recording   studios’   floors   &  notebooks   upon  notebooks   filled  with   lyrics   she  might   never  use   but   refuses   to   let   go  of   .  

well hello human friends !! n also hello to the non human friends too , wassup . i’m angie a  dumb  noodle  from  the  middle  of  the  south  american  jungle  , and i’m here to introduce yall to this mess i call blue  who’s  a muse i have had  for yrs now n carry w/ me wherever i go , with some minimal changes but she’s still the  same  messy  bitch  on the  inside  don’t  worry  folks !  so   i  will   provide  u w/  some  background  info  on   her  n  some   possible connections  under   the  cut . issa  lil messy  but  we’ve   been  away  for  a while   pls  bear  w me

blue  is  the  only  daughter  to  a  couple   of  south  korean  immigrants  that  came  to   america  when  they  were  in  their  very  early  20s  n  already  expecting  blue  in  order  to  chase  the  american  dream  n  create  a  better  life  for  themselves  n  their  family  .  their  life  was  pretty  hard  for  a  big  part  of  blue’s  childhood  ,  while  they  were  both  studying  n  working  odd  jobs  to  pay  for  their  education  all  the while  taking  care  of  a child .  so  blue  didnt  have  the  best  childhood  ,  not  that  her parents  were  bad  or  anything  they  just  didnt  have  time  for  her  . nowadays  ,  they  are  a  lot  more  comfortable  in  life  ,  since  her  dad  became  a  lawyer  n  her  mom  is  a  nurse  ,  but  they  definitely  didnt  have  an  easy  beginning  .

ok  so  maybe  bc  they  werent  present  durant  most  of  her  childhood  they  didnt  notice  a  lol  of  signs  that  might  have  made  things  a  lot  easier  for  them  ,  bc  by  the  time  they  were  available  to  emotionally  be  there  , during  her  early  teenage  years ,  blue  was  already  kinda  a  mess . she  had  grown  up  w  very  lil  structure  n  refused  the  rules  they  tried  to  instill  on  her  n  was  already  used  to  doing  things  her  own  way  .  that  lead  to  a  lot  of  conflict  between  them  ,  since  they  expected  her  to  study  hard  n  do  well  for  herself  in  a  nine to fiver  when  she  was  already  sure  art  was  the  only  way  to  go  n  while  she  did  ok  ,  she  definitely  wasn’t  as  good  as  her parents  expected  her  to  be .

so  ...  u  know   her  teenage  yrs  were  basic  girl  angsty  she  fought  a  lot  w  her  parents  n  rebelled  frequently  n  ran  away  from  home  like  ...  weekly  ,  but  she  never  rly  had  any  real  hardships  .  life  was  reasonably  good  but  she  always  had  something  to  complain  abt  ...  just  as  she  liked

[  MENTAL  ILLNESS  TW  ]

but  then  she  reached  her  late  teens    they  all  realized  there  was  something  going  on  other   than  the  usual  teenage  angst  she  displayed  all the time  when  she  had  her  first  manic  episode  .   her  parents  thought  it was  a  “  blue  thing  “  at  first  bc  she  was  usually  a  very  impulsive  person  n  she  rly  didn’t  have  a  habit  of  thinking  before  acting  on  her  impulses  ,   but  her  mom  quickly  noticed  the  signs  of  a  manic  episode  when  she  realized  how  aggitated  n   restless  she  was  , specially  when  blue  described  an   hallucination  she  seemed  to  be  having  .   they  took  her  to  a  psychiatrist  ,  she  was  admitted  to  a  hospital  n  diagnosed  w  type 1  bipolar  disorder  n  very  quickly  medicated .  while  the  medication  brought  her  out  of  her  episode  ,  n  she  was  allowed  to  go  home  after  her  mood  seemed  to stabilize  ,   blue  also  noticed  it  stunted  her  severely  emotionally  n  decided  (  against  medical  n  parental  advice  [  pls  dont  do  it  fam  !!  take  ur  meds  ]  )  to  quit  her  medication  ,  falling  into  her  first  major  depressive  episode  a  few  weeks  afterwards  . n  for  abt  four  years  she’s  been  living  w  her  disorder  ,  n  she  doesn’t  medicate  at  all  .  she’s  super  open  abt  her struggles  n  she  has  a  Lot  of  them  ,  specially  w  how  much  drugs  n  alcohol  she  consumes  .   i  never  said  she  was  smart  yall  .

[  END  OF  TW  ]

ok  so  as  u  probably  assume  ,   blue  is  an  emotional  mess  .  she  has  a   very  chaotic  personality  ,  n  most  of it  isnt  even  from  her  illness or  anything  she  just  is  a  very  chaotic  person  in  general  ?  she  is   one  of  those  artsy  ppl  who  forgets  to  wash  her  own  clothes  so  she  ends  up  wearing  the  same  dress for  like  ,  3 days .  she’s  super  outspoken  n  outgoing  n  rly easy  at  making  friends  if  u  can  get  past  the  dumbass energy  she  exudes 24/7  ?  but  yes  just  a  very  outgoing  person  n  a  outright  mess  most  of  the  time  .  she  is  also  soooo stubborn  u  will  never  get  her  to  change  her  mind  abt  smth  she  believes  to  be  right  about  in  any  way  .  u  just  cant  .  she  loves  a  good  time  n  loves  partying  n  is  the  lack  of  impulse  Queen  soo if  u  got  any  bad  ideas  she  is  the  one   u  should  go  for  if  u  need  any  company  .  also .... so dramatic  .  she  makes  a  big  deal  of  everything  n  has  0  apologies  abt  that  .  just  catch  her  crying  over  high  school  musical  3  or  smth  like  that  .

but  yea  on  the  bad  side  tho  ,  blue  takes  up  n  gives  up  on  projects  so  easily  n  she  can  be  super  fickle  abt  things  in  general  .  like  ,  she  will  defend  an  idea  for  7  hours  but  2  days  later  she’s  already  onto  smth  else  n  doesnt  even  remember  being  so  obsessive  abt  that  other  thing  ?  a  mess .  is  also  Quite  abrasive  ?  if  she  thinks  ur  acting  dumb  shes  not  gonna  be  scared  to  call u  out  on  it  .  can  also  have a  Reaally  explosive  temper  .  not  usually  but  specially  during  manic  episodes  she  can  be  quite  easy  to  annoy  ngl  .  is  very  unreliable  ,  especially  if ur not  too  close  ..  tbh  that  is  something  connected  to  her  disorder  .  when  she’s  on  a  manic  episode  ,  she  will be  too busy  planning  things  she  will  never  get  around  to  doing  or  painting  her  entire  house  or  spending  3  days  awake  n  drunk  writing  17  songs  by  herself  .  n  during  her  depression  is  very  hard  to  get  her  to  do  anything  n  even  if  she  feels  terrible  , she  rly  cant be  an  available  friend  .

in  regards  to  her  sexuality  ,  she’s  an  open  bisexual  and   also  is  a  crazy  romantic  n  falls  so  hard  for  literally  no  reason .  but  like  ...  doesnt  have  the  healthiest  mentality  for  relationships  ?  not  like  in  a  toxic  way  but  she  will usually  give  145%  of  herself  at  all times  n  honestly  believes  all  of  the  ppl  she  falls  for  are  the one (1)  just  wants  to  make  things  work  no  matter  what  .  she’s  v  impulsive  w/  meeting  n  falling  for  ppl  tho  so  things  dont  rly  end  up  working  n  she  always  ends  up  heartbroken  over it  .  Well  .  At least she’s  trying  right  ?

in regards  to  her  career  n  art  , she’s  posted  youtube  covers  n  original  songs  for  a  couple  years  and  gathered a  decent  following  ?  she  wasnt  huge  or  anything  but  she  did  get  a  record  deal  w  an  actual  big  label  out  of  it  a  few  months  ago  .  blue  was  pretty  happy  abt  it  but  then  when  the  recording  process  started  she  realized  they  werent  treating  her  as she  thought  she  deserved  at  all  ?  which  resulted  on her  taking  her  thoughts  to  some  reps  of  the  label  n  when  she  didn’t  feel  any  difference  in  the  way  she  was  being  treated  she  took  it  to  the public  ?  which  definitely  caused  quite a  sitr  bc  she  wasn’t  a  huge  name  but  she  was  big  enough  ?  so  now  she’s  in  some  considerable  trouble  w  her  label  but  Also  more  famous  than  ever  so  they  are  choosing  not  to  bury  her  for  now  ?  she’s  in  some  definite  trouble  though  so  it’ll  be  fun  to  see  what  happens  next  n  what  her  moves  will be  ?  spoiler  alert :  it’ll prob  be  smth  dumb.

i  still have  so  much  to  say  but  i’m  so lazy  wow .  dont  start  ur  intros  so  close  to opening  time  folks  thats  my  tip  as  an  old  internet  auntie  .  OK SO  ONTO  SOME  CONNECTIONS  NOW  

some label  mates  who  she  may  or  may  not  get  along  with  ?

hookups !!  she  prob  has  a  few  she  regrets  too   bc  who  doesnt  am i  right

best  friends !!  ppl  who  actually  support  her  n  she  loves  w  no restrictions  just  love  all  around  friends

exes </3  not  gonna  lie  i  have  some  sad  ideas  abt  this  one

good  influence  bc  blue  is  a  mess she  needs  one  of  those  pls  someone  slap  her  head  n  make  her  drink  some  water

a  fling  she  has  feelings  for  but  may  not  be  requited  ...  i  like  my  romantic  connections  to  be  angsty  did yall  notice

artistic  soulmate  !!  someone  her  artistic  bitch  side  just  vibes  with  ?  could  be  a  songwriter  or  singer or  anything  tbh

some   indecisive  romantic   shit where blue rly  knows  sh’s  too messy  n  this  person  is too amazing ?  but  they still  have  feels  so   ... now  what ?

this is  p  mcuh  it ??  it  has  taken so long  to  finish  this  i  hate  myself  but  HEY  if  u  like  blue  or  dislike  her  u  should  hit  me  up  so  we  can  come  up  w  some  plot  ideas  ?  i wish  i  had  a  quirky  goodbye  idea  but  my  brain  has  just  quit  working  guys  so  u  get  nothing  from  me  other than  a  good  old  fashioned goodbye  thanks  for ur  attention  i  love u

[lookwhatilost]

i finished my second watch of bojack s6 p1 and here’s a predictably massive post of some thoughts/observations abt it

spoilers under the cut obviously

the “fuck” of the season definitely came in a moment that i didn’t expect, but i rly liked how it was used. like, it was a callback to when gina dropped it in the last season –– something that traumatized her vs a reaction to her PTSD symptoms. a lot of people seem unhappy w it but i think it’s more powerful than people are giving it credit for being

the gatsby reference in e3 rly brought to mind that there are, like, a lot of gatsby tie-ins w this show and i never rly pasted them together mentally bc of the ubiquity of the “rich guy is utterly depressed and alone” trope. like, the imagery related to the pool, the shallow parties, the yellow car, the spacious but empty house, the billboards staring him down as he drives when he’s hallucinating in s5. charlotte/daisy being a weak parallel in that he had feelings for her when they were younger, held onto them for years, only for her to be married when they reconnect, but it’s worth mentioning that the glow stick balloons were green.

someone on reddit pointed out that jameson’s baby in e1 had physical traits associated w fetal alcohol syndrome. like, short, upturned nose, eyes that are far apart, and low ears. it’s hard to say if it’s intentional, but he’s drawn w a lot more detail than a lot of the other babies i’ve seen in the show. if it’s purposeful, like, that’s amazing attention to detail

i liked how the season opened on a planetarium flashback, because honestly, the immediate aftermath of sarah lynn’s death is definitely kind of glossed over in s3 when it initially happens. and though i suppose the added information isn’t terribly surprising (like him lying abt the events that lead up to her overdose and minimizing his own role in it as much as possible), it did make me wonder why i hadn’t thought abt it before

bojack rly does show signs of serious growth in the 6th season and it’s cool to finally see him move forward w/o simultaneously backsliding in other ways. a lot of his good actions in previous seasons were only rly things that benefitted him. and there are a lot of examples of it, but i think the one that stuck out to me the most was w his therapist. when he fell off the wagon, it’d have been rly easy for bojack to look the other direction and walk away like we’ve seen him do before. realistically, he has no real incentive to care for doctor champ’s wellbeing if he’s no longer staying at pastiches, but he checks him into rehab anyway, and when doctor champ throws his insecurities in his face to be hurtful, he immediately identifies it for the petty jab it is instead of letting it fuel his negative thoughts and using it as an excuse to dive into self-destructive behavior. honestly e6 was the emotional high water mark of part 1, even though it wasn’t the kind of gut punch that the dramatic, narrative focused episodes of bojack tend to be

i’m glad that the writers finally /did/ something w todd that made him feel like an actual character instead of jst a device for the comedy part of the show. i used to watch this show w a friend and we always used to say that todd had very little depth given the amount of screen time he occupies and seeing them move away from that was refreshing. his struggle w jorge is very relatable as someone whose parents have always pushed me towards things i didn’t sincerely want based on their expectations and desires for me vs my actual opinions of what success and happiness would look like for myself. but, on the other side of the coin, there’s finally a little bit of confrontation of the fact that todd’s erratic behavior and shenanigans are very taxing things for people who care abt him to deal w. and todd is rly the only character who’s somehow defied the show’s formula in that he never faces accountability for the things he does. like, he’s enabled PB’s impulsivity many times and drove him to bankruptcy, care of PB Livin’, and it’s a detail in the show that’s never truly been acknowledged or talked abt at all. he fucked PC over when he wouldn’t follow through w his sham marriage to courtney, and it was met w a cheesy speech from her abt how he needs to follow his heart and do what he thinks is right. it always struck me as a weird oversight, and to finally see someone take him to task for how taxing his behavior can be was refreshing. his only other “depth” was the asexual stuff and honestly? that is stupid and does not actually count for anything

if it didnt warm your heart when PC named her daughter ruthie then you dnt have one. i wasn’t as invested in her narrative as i’d have liked to be, but its good when PC is happy and that’s what everyone wants

IM SO GLAD JUDAH IS BACK. also i still hope he and PC end up together (and maybe she has a viable pregnancy this time w him a la sex and the city charlotte but that’s a little too cornball sappy for this show). generally rly enjoyed how characters from previous seasons were incorporated this time around. but i dnt want them to bring back vincent adultman jst to spite everyone who’s always saying “bring back vincent adultman”

pickles is still my least favorite character even tho the surprise wedding episode was probably the one i found the funniest. realistically i wanna see things work out for PB but his relationship w her is obviously not the move for him, and she’s also the worst

i like diane and guy together, they have rly good chemistry but i also have a bad feeling abt where things are headed w them. he seems ambivalent abt how principled she is and the scene where his son comes to the party and he makes her leave when he could have jst introduced her as a party guest if it even needed to happen at all... there was jst something off abt it. like you can definitely see the cracks in the foundation already and it’s disappointing

the scene btwn PB and bojack where bojack says to him “but i understand that feeling of needing to bottle up your guilt, not burden other people w it. you think you’re protecting them from your toxicity, you convince yourself that you’re being selfless, but it comes out in other ways and it infects everything” hit close to home bc it reminded me of someone i used to bond over this show w and like... whew

i rly love how the dominoes are being set up w the reporters (even tho their his girl friday shtick got old fast) bc the way things are culminating, the story getting out is liable to expose bojack for everything. if they approach penny and she talks to them abt what happened, she’s liable to tell them that bojack and sarah lynn went to ohio to find her in the time before sarah lynn overdosed, and the pictures that her classmates took of them could establish a time frame. he was in new mexico when he was supposed to be filming secretariat, and that knowledge could lead to them finding out that he’d been digitally replaced in the movie. when this information gets out, it’s very likely that gina will dogpile onto it w the truth abt what happened on the set of philbert, since trying to conceal her ptsd is actively hurting her acting career bc of the reputation she’s developing as a problem actress, and even though she dznt *want* to be “that girl that got choked by bojack horseman”, she won’t have a choice if she can’t get jobs otherwise. i guess there’s always a chance that penny and charlotte won’t talk to them, but now that hollyhock knows about what happened in new mexico, either way his personal life will be hurt by this. i’m not sure what’ll happen to him professionally, since there’s a recurring point the series has been making w famous people never being held fully culpable for their negative actions, and it’s a dicey thing for them to approach w a character that many viewers find sympathetic without ending on some myopic note abt cancel culture (whether intentionally or by popular interpretation) but im excited

i also hate how my obsessive watching and rewatching of this show meant that the intended pete repeat reveal (like, you’re not supposed to recognize him until his identity becomes obvious through the prom night story) was sort of compromised for me bc i recognized his voice and the second he introduced himself, i placed him IMMEDIATELY but it was still such a great scene. it’s the most tense i remember feeling when watching and an all around great cliffhanger

the final line of e7 comes off as some rly grim foreshadowing–– “it looks like you found solace in our show. stay if you’d like. in 30 minutes, we start over”. but it’s such an incredible line in context. my god, i fucking love this show, you guys

[cleocazo]

im . never on this blog anymore. but. im still a member of sidekickhq & i now play ,,, sm characters who all have sO MANY wanted connections ( there are thirty nine underneath the cut ! ) so if ur looking for a new rp ( its a marvel/dc next gen / canon rp and its .. v fun . has some rly nice members and a rly welcoming + supportive groupchat ) and wanna join w some connections already made this could b for u ! i play like nine chars and if given the chance .. ill throw them all @ everyone 

PLATONIC.

( REEVA SUMMERS ), our ( KEHLANI ) fc is looking for her ( PARANORMAL INVESTIGATION SQUAD ) who look like ( PLAYERS CHOICE ) and are ( BETWEEN 21 AND 26 ). you ( DO ) have to contact prior to applying at ( SPECTRVLS or discord ). ( so i’m looking for four more characters to fill up the squad of six that also includes jeannie drake-kent !! they’re basically a small group of people who never thought to create an official school club to satisfy the need in their life for spooky shit, and instead found like minded people on their own and became.. kinda a little mystery gang! reeva is the true believer “leader” of the group, because she’s .. spooky inclined and started down this path for some p hard to explain reasons, jeannie is the velma of the group, and past that… we’re really in need of every other type! they might branch into their own buzzfeed unsolved style youtube channel at some point, which could mean that they need people for cameras / sound / etc, but … there r plenty of options so! )

( MAKENA THURMAN ), our ( ZOE KRAVITZ ) fc is looking for her ( ADULTHOOD SUX SQUAD / THREE - FOUR FRIENDS ) connection who look like ( UTP ) who are ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( you know what’s hard about adulthood? all of it. makena was kinda super shuttled towards having to be a functioning adult when keely came along, but that doesn’t mean she 1. enjoys it and 2. is any good at it. paying bills on time is hard. remembering to renew her internet security is hard. getting regular smear tests? hard. nothing is easy, and this is the group of friends she laments that with. three to four wine mom’s / dad’s / parent’s / people who aren’t parents but who are in or around the same age and having just as much trouble adjusting / etc who met in a doctors office or something and who now get together every week just to drink wine and complain about taxes and anti-vaxxers. ) ( walt wilson + more )

( TRIXIE ESPINOZA ), our ( CHRISTIAN SERRATOS ) fc is looking for a ( GUARDIAN ANGEL, FLIPPED ) connection who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and is ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( how is it flipped, u might ask? well.. trixie is the guardian angel, in this scenario, and this person is someone she’s met along her merry way and who she’s trying to help, real lowkey. that can be in one of two ways: either they’re always in some sort of physical pain that she’s helping them with, OR they’re someone who’s usually in a lot of emotional pain, which she can hone in on with her angel given empathetic healing powers and ease. how they met and what exactly is going on is to be decided, and how they’d react to knowing that trixie spends a lot of time focusing on them and making them feel better without ever asking if she could / if they wanted her to do that is really up in the air, but… pls. )

( VICTORIA CREED ), our ( STELLA MAEVE ) fc is looking for ( SOMEONE TO PROTECT ) who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and is ( ANY AGE / PREFERABLY YOUNGER THAN HER ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( from now and until the end of her life, victoria is gonna be living with what she’s done, and working on making herself better. i like the idea of her coming across someone who’s just… good. the goodness radiates off of them, and they make her think of all the innocent people she’s hurt, and also kind of make her think about the innocent person she could have been, if the world allowed - and maybe they’re not having such a good time of it, or maybe they are and she just wants to make sure that things never sour for them, but either way, she takes it upon herself to be their guardian angel. maybe more accurately. personal attack dog. she works hard to keep them safe and to her that means being willing to lay her life down for them at a moments notice and being equally as willing to take a life for them, too. )

( ADRIAN TREVOR ), our ( TOM HARDY ) fc is looking for a ( BRO ) connection who looks like ( JAMIE DORNAN, KAREENA KAPOOR, DANIEL GILLIES, BIANCA LAWSON / UP TO PLAYER ) and is ( 30+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( basically… when you look for “bromance aesthetic”, they’re the search results. adrian is that one guy who’s a total gruff dumbass on the surface, but underneath, he’s such a genuine soft person who’s just so tired, and who just… keeps trying to do the right thing and continues to fuck it up. he’s a loyal friend, and like in all aspects of his life, he tries - but he isn’t always great, and this is the one person in his life who has really stuck by him, and who’s really in his corner when he needs it. likewise, he’s in theirs. they’re probably way more put together than he is, with a lot more going for them - but their bond is unshakable, and they’ll always be bros. )

( ADRIAN TREVOR ), our ( TOM HARDY ) fc is looking for a ( ARMY SQUAD / THREE TO FOUR PEOPLE ) connection who look like ( JON HAMM, MATT DAVIS, EVANGELINE LILLY, RASHIDA JONES / UP TO PLAYER ) who are ( 30+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( adrian was in the british army from ages seventeen to twenty six, when a serious injury brought his honorable career to a sudden end. he was the only survivor of a landmine related explosion, and a few of his friends died that day - but some of the people he was closest to survived, and i’d love for him to have their friendship, even now. they would have known him at his happiest and most put together, and have been witness to just how badly he fell apart when it was all said and done, and there’s just.. something really lovely to me in the idea of him clinging to their friendship more than he clings to any sort of relationship like that. )

( NIKKI BARTON ), our ( PHOEBE TONKIN ) fc is looking for a ( PARTY SQUAD / THREE TO FOUR PEOPLE ) connection who look like ( LAKEITH STANFIELD, THERESA PALMER, SHILOH FERNANDEZ, ALISHA BOE / UP TO PLAYER  ) who are ( 21+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( think… gossip girl flashbacks to when the core squad was younger, everyone was drunk or high, and they were… dancing on bars and having fights with the shower head and just being general delinquents. that’s this squad. they met through the party scene, and their friendship survives only because of it. nikki indulges their bad habits, and they certainly indulge hers - the entire group heading out pretty routinely to turn up at nightclubs and wingguy the heck out of each other. they’ve NEVER had a sober conversation and they support each others inklings even when they shouldn’t, but there’s… some loyalty, in the sense that they don’t ditch each other when the cops crash whatever rave they’ve found to be at. )

( NIKKI BARTON ), our ( PHOEBE TONKIN ) fc is looking for a ( YOUNGER SIBLING FIGURE ) connection who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) who is ( UNDER 21 ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( so! i’m into two versions of how this goes, but both of them are down to one thing: nikki has never had a sibling, and with the shitty homelife she’s had… she’s always kind of craved one. she sees something of herself in this character, and that’s where the option is. either they’re sweet and innocent and something to be protected, like she once was… or they’re a demon straight out of the depths of hell, and someone she can see her current self in. nikki will take them under her wing and be a voice of reason, if needed, or a cool older figure who can supply them with booze, if .. also needed. it’s p open cause i’m not too fussy ! )

( NORA LANCE-QUEEN ), our ( TAISSA FARMIGA ) fc is looking for ( RICH KID FRIENDS / SQUAD OF FIVE INCL. NORA ) who look like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and are ( 21+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( give nora her rich kid squad! i’m into this idea of this squad of kids - all in or around the same age - having grown up around one another in that upper class scene, and having gotten shoved together by parents or sitters and told to play nice. as they got older they just sort of continued to go with it, and the cracks started showing a long time ago, but it’s only now that they’re adults they’re starting to act on it. there might be some genuine friendships in the bunch, but i’m most interested in the splintering and seeing where the friendships are falling apart because they were built on not much at all - so throw ‘em at me! )

( NORA-LANCE-QUEEN ), our ( TAISSA FARMIGA ) fc is looking for her ( CLOSEST FRIENDS / SQUAD OF FOUR INCL. NORA ) who look like ( ABIGAIL BRESLIN, DEMETRIUS JOYETTE, GAGE GOLIGHTLY, ROSS BUTLER / UP TO PLAYER ) who are ( 21+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( this is the COMPLETE opposite to nora’s rich kid squad. these are people who chose to be friends - and maybe, they were at the same private schools or something, but they made a conscious decision to become as close as they are and they’ve worked on keeping their friendship strong over the years, meaning that they’re all genuine friends, and all genuinely there for one another. there’s no ulterior motive. just straight up love and respect, and who doesn’t need a whole lot of that? )

ROMANTIC. 

( ADRIAN TREVOR ), our ( TOM HARDY ) fc is looking for an ( EX-WIFE ) connection who looks like ( LAUREN COHAN, SARAH SHAHI, JULIA JONES, KRISTEN BELL / UP TO PLAYER ) who is ( 30+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( ex-wife. as in. not his wife anymore. as in… they’re actually still married, lowkey, but the marriage itself actually only lasted six months, and neither has been near enough to the other to do anything about a divorce since the split. when adrian was at his lowest - and believe me, messy as he is now, now is NOT that time - he made a lot of poor decisions. he did a lot of things in order to try and make himself feel better, and he indulged in alcohol and short lived relationships left and right trying to find some reason to keep on going. he was twenty nine, when they started to date, casually, and he had just turned thirty when they married at gretna green. six months later, i imagine she’d gotten sick of this guy who she thought would MAYBE change, and they split - never to see one another again, ‘til now. i think it’d be more fun if she was someone he grew up with, who he kind of… latched onto, in a way, turning a friendship into something more. it probably never fit right, but both were willing to give it a go. there’ll be lots of potential for angst and stuff cos why wouldn’t there be, and i’m just.. p into it. )

( ADRIAN TREVOR ), our ( TOM HARDY ) fc is looking for an ( EX-FLING / MOTHER OF HIS CHILD ) connection who looks like ( EVA GREEN, MILA KUNIS, EVA LONGORIA, HOLLY MARIE COMBS ) who is ( 30+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DO ) have to contact prior to applying at ( FIIDELIS ). ( so! i won’t go into everything about this one here cause i wanna try keep it short, but basically… they were on and off and never really an official item for years - way back to when he was still in the army, meeting up and having relations whenever he was home / free for a while - and were… complete opposites. on the surface, it seemed as if she was the sweet and innocent angel, and he was this rough geezer. in actuality, SHE’S kinda cold hearted - in the best of ways - and he’s the softie, but… not many people rly knew that truth. anyway, they came to an end right around the time he got into his short lived relationship + marriage, and he always thought of her as a big “what if”… right up to last year when he discovered that after they had ended, she had moved to the states and had his son. the kid is seven now, and she never told him for obvious reasons, but he’s here only to try and make something work - he never WANTED to have a kid, but he’s not going to deny him now he knows. we can talk out p much everything, but ! yeah ! )

( NIKKI BARTON ), our ( PHOEBE TONKIN ) fc is looking for a ( EX-FLING / MAX. FOUR ) connection who looks like ( DIANE GUERRERO, SAM CLAFLIN, HALSEY, CHACE CRAWFORD / UP TO PLAYER ) who is ( 21+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( i’ve said it before and it’s time to say it again. nikki is highly fuckt up. she’s never learnt how to… feel, the way she should have, and this means that when it comes to romance and whatnot, she’s… not great. in fact. the only way she knows how to express feelings that she has in line with romance is by having sex, and so, her life has been littered with meaningless flings that ultimately went nowhere because she turned what could have been something into a brief affair. that means that she has a lot of exes, and all of them come with a story… and i’m pretty interested in working those out with people. )

( MAKENA THURMAN ), our ( ZOE KRAVITZ ) fc is looking for her ( TUGGED-ALONG-ON-A-STRING-EX ) connection who looks like ( RAMI MALEK, LAKEITH STANFIELD, KEKE PALMER, JANEL PARRISH / UTP ) who is ( 25+ ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. (from the time she was nineteen to when they officially broke up, she and cooper kent had a … pretty volatile relationship. there was a lot of love, don’t get me wrong - but they were two strong personalities with a tendency to explode, and sometimes, simple arguments turned into them being “on a break”. both dated other people during such times, but this is someone who makena kind of.. led on, i suppose, for lack of a better term. they dated more than once. they were her go to, for a time, whenever she and cooper split. and she didn’t like herself for it - she’s not THAT bad - but she wasn’t ever good at being alone, meaning that it just kept happening, even if she recognized she should have let them go, because she was always going to go back to cooper. eventually, for reasons to be discussed, it did come to an end, but it had definitely already gone on for too long, and how things are now is up in the air. )

( MAKENA THURMAN ), our ( ZOE KRAVITZ ) fc is looking for her ( BAD INFLUENCE BLENDED WITH FRIEND + BENEFITS ) connection who looks like ( MANNY MONTANA, EMMA GREENWELL, JORDAN CONNOR, LEIGH ANNE PINNOCK / UTP ) who is ( 24+ ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( makena is kinda .. an ass, but at her core, she’s not so bad. this character is someone who’s textbook ‘villain’, someone she should be keeping at farther than arms length for her own sake & her kids, but who she’s had… more than one liaison with, because they’re pretty much addictive. something about them keeps her coming back in spite of herself, and who’s to say if falling into bed with someone who’s a lot more BAD than she is will end well? )

( NIKKI BARTON ), our ( PHOEBE TONKIN ) fc is looking for ( CURRENT FLINGS / MAX. FOUR ) who look like ( LAKEITH STANFIELD, RAMI MALEK, RITA VOLK, REBECCA BREEDS / UP TO PLAYER ) who is ( 22+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( just to reiterate an earlier point: nikki doesn’t know how to express feelings that line up with ‘liking someone’ or ‘general romance’ in any way that isn’t sex, and this means that she has.. a lot of short lived relationships with people, that probably WOULDN’T be so shortlived if she just learnt to use her words. likewise with the exes connection, she probably has a few people, with different dynamics with each, and i’m super interested in talking about those and working out… what drew them to one another, and how exactly they feel towards one another. )

( RAMONA DARKHOLME ), our ( MADCHEN AMICK ) fc is looking for her ( EX-FLINGS / MAX. FOUR ) who look like ( WINONA RYDER, SOFIA VERGARA, PEDRO PASCAL, HUGH DANCY / UP TO PLAYER ) and are ( 35+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( romy might have lost the love of her life, but she did not lose her sex drive. i’m sure there’s a better way i could have worded that, but… whatever. over the years since her fiance passed, romy has tried many times to move on - and that means she has quite a few exes scattered about the place, all of whom she has a different dynamic with. like any ex / current fling connect, i’m most interested in discussing how it started and all with people who want to do it, cause i think that’s the best way of making unique dynamics! )

FAMILIAL.

( TRIXIE ESPINOZA ), our ( CHRISTIAN SERRATOS ) fc is looking for her ( MOTHER / CHLOE DECKER ) who looks like ( LAUREN GERMAN, VERA FARMIGA, WINONA RYDER, SARAH MICHELLE GELLAR, AMY ACKER, PLAYERS CHOICE ) who is ( 40+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( if u have seen lucifer, then u already have a pretty good idea of trixie’s dynamic with her mom! her dad is great and all, but… chloe was the one who was REALLY there for her, ya know? i kinda had it hced that chloe is now with lucifer cause that’s how the show was heading to and i didn’t imagine anyone snagging anymore lucifer chars, but i’m! definitely open to changing that! just gimme her mom pls! )

( VICTORIA CREED ), our ( STELLA MAEVE ) fc is looking for a ( ��HALF-SIBLING” / COUSIN ) connection who looks like ( DJ COTRONA, JASON RALPH, KATIE CASSIDY, TINASHE, ANTHONY RAMOS, PLAYERS CHOICE ) who is ( ANY AGE / PREFERABLY 26+ ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( so. yall best know yall can do what yall WANT, its just.. originally when i played vicki i had a wc for a “half-brother”, and i was thinking about it recently and think it could be… kinda fun. SO. this is for a kid of victor creed - either.. biologically, or another one that he just kinda . stole - that vicki actually knew during certain points of her life, because for the most part, she was pretty isolated. for whatever reason - maybe he just wanted someone to keep an eye on his investment or whatever - victor allowed these two to interact a bit more, and depending on how they were to one another, i feel that a certain loyalty definitely could have developed between them. vicki got fucked over a couple times and left in, like, japan for 9 months and a yemen prison for another six and incidents like that have dotted her life, but im kinda thinking this “half-sibling” could have been the one who.. helped her out, or was stuck there alongside her. gimme! )

OTHER. 

( NIKKI BARTON ), our ( PHOEBE TONKIN ) fc is looking for a ( EX-CLIENTS ) connection who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) who is ( ANY AGE ) you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( i’m gonna keep this one a little vague, cause.. i wanna leave it open to multiple people, and i think every single one of those could have a different sort of dynamic with her. nikki used to work as a drugrunner for a major dealer named callum. he was, for want of a better description - an abusive piece of shit, and he continued to be that right up until nikki killed him in self defense. HOWEVER, before he died and she got carted off to jail, nikki used to do a lot of jobs for him, and they led her across states. she would have rubbed shoulders with a lot of not so great people, but also some kinda ok ones. some might have heard what happened, others won’t and might be kinda confused about what the FUCK happened to their supply, but either way.. i want. also. callum coulda had some other helpers. idk. i just want it ALL. )

( RAMONA DARKHOLME ), our ( MADCHEN AMICK ) fc is looking for their ( EX-BROTHERHOOD GROUP MEMBERS ) connection who look like ( WINONA RYDER, PEDRO PASCAL, JADA PINKETT SMITH, ANGELA BASSETT, HALLY BERRY, NORMAN REEDUS, KEANU REEVES / PLAYERS CHOICE, MUST BE 40+ THO ) who are ( 45+ YEARS OLD. ) you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( any of them can maybe be kids of canons, depending ON the canon?? anyway. all of them - preferably about.. five, ig - are surviving members of the brotherhood group that romy ran, some nineteen years ago. they all worked together for YEARS, moving around europe a lot but spending some time settled in rural germany, which was ultimately where their particular crusade seemed to come to an end. intolerant humans attacked them, most were killed, and those that ran were assumed dead / assumed they were the only survivors, pretty much ‘til now. romy back means they’re probably gonna maybe want to restart what they were doing before, and this connection could rly go.. any way. maybe romy - ran into one of them at some point in the past, and relieved they were alive, kept in contact to call them someday, leading to their reunion now. maybe they’ve seen a familiar name in the paper, or on the paragon website. maybe this is just where the wind has blown them. i lov the idea of this squad, ‘kay, cos.. they spent a chunk of their time together, and for romy, they were less friends more #fam ) ( elijah creed + others )

( SIENNA THOMPKINS ), our ( ADRIA ARJONA ) fc is looking for a ( BUSINESS ASSOCIATE / CO-WORKER / WHATEVER TF U WOULD CALL IT ) connection who looks like ( PIPPA SOO, RAMI MALEK, MANNY MONTANA, KAREN FUKUHARA, PLAYERS CHOICE ) who is ( 27+ ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( think matt and foggy, avocados at law! sia is pretty set on becoming a real good private investigator, nowadays, after a long period of indecision - and i’d love for her to have someone along for that ride with her! i kinda imagine they met during the course of a law degree, cause that’s something sia actually holds, and then maybe.. lost contact for a hot minute as her life fell APART, but somehow or another have gotten back in touch and decided to open their firm together. halving the running costs, sharing the cases, helping each other out, etc. both their names can be over the door and it’s really just.. two best buds being best buds. )

( NORA LANCE-QUEEN ), our ( TAISSA FARMIGA ) fc is looking for an ( EX-FAKE PARTNER ) connection who looks like ( MANNY JACINTO, BEN HARDY, EMMA GREENWELL, JORDAN CONNOR, KEKE PALMER, PLAYERS CHOICE ) who is ( 24+ ). you ( DO ) have to contact prior to applying at ( BABYCANARY or discord ). ( i’ve put so little thought into this that it’s actually kinda hilarious BUT im a hoe for fake dating tropes and i think that an ex fake dating scenario is… so fuckin funny. anyway. nora was an up and coming hollywood star between ages eighteen to twenty two until life royally screwed her over, and this is.. a wc for a character who was maybe in the same setting / at least in a … high upper class one that would have allowed them rub shoulders, who was kinda the perfect person, in her managements eyes, to have on her arm. their relationship would have been all over tabloids for a while and they would have walked the red carpet together and done some fun interviews, and.. how it came to an end can be discussed, but i think it could be ! supes fun !   )

( MAKENA THURMAN ), our ( ZOE KRAVITZ ) fc is looking for her ( EX HOUSEMATE ) connection who looks like ( PIPPA SOO, ALFIE ENOCH, HAYLEY LAW, JOHN BOYEGA / UTP ) who is ( 25+ ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( in the years before her daughter was born, makena wasn’t always the most stable of people. she’s also never exactly been the WORST, but… she’s always had a lot of issues with keeping her emotions in check, and she used to be horribly selfish and petty, at the worst of times. after becoming friends in college, she and this character decided to get an apartment together and split the costs - but after a few months of this, shit hit the fan, and kena fucked up in a way that she couldn’t go back from, resulting in them kicking her out. they’ve barely spoken since, and she harbors.. a lot of resentment, for that fateful event. )

( MAKENA THURMAN ), our ( ZOE KRAVITZ ) fc is looking for her ( ACCIDENTAL VICTIM ) connection who looks like ( UTP ) who is ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( though she doesn't really know it ( she’s always suspected, but there’s no real way for her to check ), makena has some level of probability manipulation, inherited from her mother. for her, this manifested as doing well in tests she didn’t study for, but stressed about until her mutation kicked in, or being unusually good at convincing her parents to allow certain things, or… dot dot dot. a lot of lucky coincidences, if you will, have dotted HER life - but for this character, just being in the vicinity of the girl that doesn’t like them and who they certainly don’t like either ( reasons tbd ) turns their luck sour. she projects onto them unknowingly, twisting their luck and turning it bad - meaning that when they’re around kena, they’re FAR more likely to suffer some pretty horrible happenings. maybe they realize what’s happening, based solely on knowing about her mom. maybe not, and it’s something that needs to be discovered. either way… who’s to say how they’ll solve it?)

( TRIXIE ESPINOZA ), our ( CHRISTIAN SERRATOS ) fc is looking for ( MORTUARY COWORKERS ) who look like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and are ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( so !! trixie currently works at the local morgue, and as of right now… i think she’s the only one who does? and i’d love for her to have some coworkers there, cause it’s obviously such a heavy job, and i think… while it doesn’t phase trix, it would still be nice for her to have people who can relate to how TOUGH it can be sometimes, and who she can kind of have developed a little something something with. ) 

( TRIXIE ESPINOZA ), our ( CHRISTIAN SERRATOS ) fc is looking for ( ILLEGAL PATIENTS ) who look like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and are ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( trix is a med student, and she does a lot of work at the local hospital - but i also imagine that over the last few years, she’s sort of made a name for herself in the lowkey sense as someone who’s willing to treat patients out of hours / out of the hospital / etc on the downlow. if your character is a vigilante / hero / villain / etc, who sometimes gets themselves fuckt up and doesn’t want to make the big deal it could be by getting treated officially… hit her up ! she’ll fix you up for free, and she’ll do it discreetly. )

( TRIXIE ESPINOZA ), our ( CHRISTIAN SERRATOS ) fc is looking for her ( NON-BELIEVER ) who look like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and is ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( allow me introduce… the bitch that rly deserves to not be believed every once in a while. trixie’s parents chloe and dan might be entirely human - albeit, blessed - but her STEPFATHER is another story altogether, and given that she’s grown up aware of the fact that he’s the devil / his family are all angels / his friends are demons… she’s very comfortable with talking about it and all, and does that quite freely. given that line of talk can be pretty controversial, i’d love for her to have someone in her life.. a friend.. enemy.. frenemy, maybe.. who just. can’t believe her. they refuse to believe what she’s telling them about her family, for whatever reason, and this leads to.. so many arguments and debates. )

( VICTORIA CREED ), our ( STELLA MAEVE ) fc is looking for her ( THERAPIST ) who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and is ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( victoria is just the latest in a line of traumatized students to begin attending the school / living in paragon, but… when i say she’d really benefit from having someone who’s trying to listen and understand and help her… i mean it. they don’t even have to be fully licensed therapists - and part of me kind of loves if it’s just someone doing this out of the goodness of their heart. she’s spent twenty six years being broken down into a shell of an actual human being, and under her “fathers” thumb, she’s never developed any sort of emotional or social or, well, normal skills needed to live, and really suffered every sort of abuse a person could. she certainly has some sort of stockholm syndrome from it all that’s going to be hard to break through, and she just needs someone who’ll listen, and hear her, and then.. offer a shoulder to lean on, or offer words that might help her through. )

( VICTORIA CREED ), our ( STELLA MAEVE ) fc is looking for her ( TUTOR / ANY NUMBER OF ) who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and is ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( again ! victoria is another in a long line joining the school who doesn’t really have.. any sort of formal education behind her, and while i do think it’s a good idea to have her go down this path, i struggle to see how she’ll make it without having people willing to work with her. she’s smart, and she’ll pick things up quite quickly, but she’s still going to be a difficult sort of student just because she’s never really had to learn things in this kind of setting - people with patience encouraged, but people without would be equally fun )

( VICTORIA CREED ), our ( STELLA MAEVE ) fc is looking for ( victims ) who look like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and are ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( twenty six years spent being little more than another weapon in victor creed’s hands means that victoria has… a lot of blood on her hands. i dare say that none of it is blood she wanted to spill, but the fact remains that she never really knew enough torefuse. she’s done a lot of things she’s not proud of, and she’s hurt a lot of people - meaning she’s going to be spending a great deal of her very long life trying, in vain, to make amends in some way. i want for her to encounter people who she’s hurt. either directly, or that… she hurt their family or distant family before alongside victor, and either she recognizes them and seeks them out, or they recognize her and seek her out. give her people who shout and scream about what she’s done, and people who can’t believe she’s being allowed walk around and keep on living. give her people who know she was just another victim of a psychopath, who could maybe give her something she’s never had before - forgiveness - and make her feel a way she’s also… never felt before. give her all sorts of connections under this heading bc i think it’s unrealistic if she has none. )

( ADRIAN TREVOR ), our ( TOM HARDY ) fc is looking for a ( NEW BOSS / ANYONE WHO WORKS ) connection who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and is ( 30+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( right now, adrian’s main job is pouring coffee for millennials at starbucks. he’s ex-army and current gang, and he’s really not got that much going for him - but it’d be nice, if there was someone out there in a better place, job wise, willing to give him a shot. he needs to get that bread! )

( ADRIAN TREVOR ), our ( TOM HARDY ) fc is looking for a ( NEW BOSS x2 / ANY PRESS ADJACENT CHARACTER WHO WORKS ) connection who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) who is ( 30+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( can you tell that i literally… do not know what to refer to this connection as? lmao. anyway he’s an independent journalist - who writes things on like��� avocado recipes and shit for whoever will hire him at a time - and i’m not sure on the newspaper / general press situation here, but i’d love for someone to read his writing and take him on as some sort of regular reporter. i imagine it would remain secondary to his “main” job if only because he really needs to keep himself afloat here, but over time, i’d love to see him succeed and actually become the journalist who writes about relevant things that he’s always dreamt of being. )

( NIKKI BARTON ), our ( PHOEBE TONKIN ) fc is looking for a ( TUTOR ) connection who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) who is ( 20+ ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( nikki is! not great! at anything, really, but specifically college. she barely got her ged, and she’s been scraping by since trying to make herself do well. i want for her to have someone she sees regularly - and either gets along with or DOESN’T - who helps her out with her studies, because while she’s messy and it mightn’t seem it, succeeding and doing something good in her life is actually her lowkey dream, and she doesn’t want to flunk if possible. )

( MAKENA THURMAN ), our ( ZOE KRAVITZ ) fc is looking for a ( BOSS ) connection who look like ( JASON MOMOA ) and is ( 30+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( kena works at the karma klub as an accountant and booking agent, and i’d ! love for her manager / owner of the klub / honestly… whatever tf / to be a jason momoa face, just because… their pics are supes cute and i think it’d be really sweet if kena had this older guy in her life who’s almost, like… someone guiding her? they’re in the scene longer than her, they can provide some tips and tricks, and just past the job aspect.. neither of her parents are here, so it would be nice for her to have someone who can sort of step into that role and be someone who she has learnt to be able to go to and confide in, when needed. ) 

( REEVA SUMMERS ), our ( KEHLANI ) fc is looking for ( PEOPLE SEEKING GHOSTS ) who look like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and are ( ANY AGE ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( i dont know what to refer to this as, but… on top of doing some general occult things for people at paragon as a way of keeping her skills sharp, reeva… will also, when able to, communicate with people’s lost loved ones for free because helping ghosts and helping people are two things equally important to her. if she can pass along a message from the living to the dead or vice versa that might provide either with some sort of peace, then she’s all in. give her people she’s trying to help or give me, specifically, death )

( RAMONA DARKHOLME ), our ( MADCHEN AMICK ) fc is looking for a ( APPRENTICE ) connection who looks like ( UP TO PLAYER ) and is ( YOUNGER THAN 30 ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( right now, she’s a security guard and mechanic, but over her 53 years, romy has been a lot of things. while i see this as someone who she’s grown quite close to / taken under her wing / been adopted by who’s interested in learning the tricks of the mechanics trade, i’d be willing to talk with anyone on changing that and making what they’re learning from romy into something different! i just think it’d be neat if she had someone who’s almost becoming a child figure, in her eyes, who she can kinda… learn to be softer with, and really practice with in regards to learning how to be a better mother. )

( SIENNA THOMPKINS ), our ( ADRIA ARJONA ) fc is looking for a ( PREVIOUS ROOMMATE ) connection who looks like ( LUKE MITCHELL,  LEIGH ANNE PINNOCK, NORMANI KORDEI, SINQUA WALLS / UP TO PLAYER ) and is ( 24+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( way back when she was eighteen, sia left wayne manor - where she had been living with her father, alfred - and moved so she could be closer, if not in, gotham city. it suited her better, at the time, and she shared an apartment with a friend she met at gotham academy who split expenses and probably knows sia from both… a time when she was at her most carefree and reckless, and a sia who was at her most sad and closed in. they’re someone she still, to this day, would consider one of her closest friends - and i’d love to work out why they didn’t choose to continue living together, and if they’ve been in contact much since sia left gotham!  )

( SIENNA THOMPKINS ), our ( ADRIA ARJONA ) fc is looking for a ( TRAINING PARTNER ) connection who looks like ( LIAM HEMSWORTH,  SURAJ SHARMA, TATIANA MASLANY, EMMA GREENWELL / UP TO PLAYER ) who is ( 24+ YEARS OLD ). you ( DON’T ) have to contact prior to applying. ( sia used to be batgirl, once upon a time! and she was good at it! she was a good hero! then life turned pretty shitty and she hung up the mask, and she… continued down a pretty good path, until life turned more shitty, and she lost herself a bit. losing herself, and giving into feelings of hopelessness and anger and grief, really shed light on something sia kept from even herself for years - that she’s never really belonged or felt as if she did, anywhere, other than when she was batgirl. she’s started training again in hopes of being able to one day step out as some sort of vigilante hero again, and i REALLY want her to have someone who she’s confided her dream in, and who’s helping her achieve it. maybe they could… be… partners… :~~ )

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hello, hello ! i’m adrienne (she/her), but dri is cool too ! i’m seventeen and live in the pst ! i’m honestly just a huge mess, but could it be that athena is an even bigger mess ?! stay tuned to find out ! o ya pls hmu to plot even tho i’m not very good at it despite rping for, unfortunatedri, 1/3 of my life,,, pls do not do the math,,, ah ha

[ MUSE C ] is that KIM JISOO? since when was she a class of 2017 penn state graduate? oh, wait, nevermind, it’s just ATHENA CHAE. she’s TWENTY ONE years old, majored in COMPUTER SCIENCE, and NAMED HER ELECTRIC GUITAR AFTER PAT BENATAR. she’s a bit STUBBORN and EVASIVE, but also very AFFABLE and ARTICULATE. i heard she’s off to a villa in maui with a group of her friends, but as the resident FACADE, who knows how far she’ll go until her friend vacation turns into total island madness? (cis female, straight)

okay, to start, i would like to say that athena is the epitome of the “this is fine” meme, which is also why i chose her label “the facade.” it’s not because she’s a fake person but rather that she often pretends that, well, everything is fine. no one ever believes her when she says that, though. she wants to appear strong & capable with direction in her life, but she actually has no clue what she’s doing.

in terms of her history, she grew up in a nuclear family with a younger sister named artemis (her parents really liked greek mythology), & they were five years apart in age. their parents wanted both of them to either be engineers or doctors, & for the most part, neither of them desired to follow that dream. growing up, athena had really taken to music. she was enrolled in piano lessons as a child & got up to level 8 through her exams. alongside that, she learned to play bass in her middle school orchestra & taught herself how to play the guitar, aside from a couple classes. when she entered high school, she auditioned for the intermediate jazz band, playing bass there for a year before moving up to the advanced jazz band. music really was a passion for athena, & her parents supported that passion by attending all of her concerts, but they still wanted her to pursue a more stable career. they said that she shouldn’t waste her intelligence. they also wouldn’t fund her if she decided to major in music. she, although a bit offended, didn’t want to cause any chaos with her parents, so she actively tried to find something she could get into. she found success when she took an ap computer science class during her junior year, finding it rather easy in comparison to her classmates. her parents were pleased when she told them that she was considering comp sci as her major, despite the fact that she wasn’t really passionate about it. however, she knew that a lot of people were going into it purely for a monetary goal, so she felt that her reasoning wasn’t that bad. so that’s exactly what she did. she applied to a few uc’s as well as other out-of-state universities, & even though she was accepted into ucsd, which had a great computer science program, she wanted to be suuuper away from her parents (aka opposite coast) & have a sense of freedom in her choices, so she committed to penn state, which had a pretty good cs program as well. athena didn’t change her major at any point during her college career (even obtaining a minor in music as a result of having available units for classes -- her parents didn’t find out until the ceremony), but after graduating, she doesn’t really know what to do. she feels that the trip with the pythons will be a chance for her to clear her head of these worries & just enjoy her time for once.

personality-wise, it’s quite easy to get along with athena when things are light. she’s definitely an extrovert, & conversations with her often result in random rambles. on the loquacious side, her words don’t always get filtered out, which leads a lot of people to believe that she’s an open book. however, just because she’s talkative, it doesn’t mean that she’s necessarily unloading all of her feelings & secrets. friends that she’s not that close with think they know her inside & out, but they couldn’t be more incorrect. she presents herself in a way that appears put together & certain, but the few that she puts her faith in have picked up on the fact that she’s more lost than ever. athena really hoped that the “fake it until you make it” mentality would save her, but she just felt like a fraud. she wondered if she was wasting her talent & intelligence like her parents had feared.

despite the fact that athena experiences a lot of emotions, she has no idea how to handle them. when things start to get a bit more real, she tries to avoid feelings & utter honesty. this ranges from masking how she really feels with sarcasm to attempting to change the topic. in any case, she doesn’t have the ability to take things all that seriously. this causes problems when she’s at fault. athena is the type of person that says that she’s trying to improve herself but never really changes due to being stubborn. it’s hard for her to apologize when she knows the other party did nothing wrong & she was the one who hurt the other. she can’t face the people she hurts, so she just avoids having to confront them, which brings me to the next bullet point.

people joke around, saying that athena is a heartbreaker, but they’re not necessarily wrong. it could be a fear of attachment, commitment, or both, but when relationships come into play, she can’t do it. similar to her stance on emotions, it’s hard for her to have something serious. in theory, the idea of loving someone romantically sounds nice to her, but in reality, it’s difficult. she doesn’t know if it’s because she stresses about her public image, the inability to settle, or some other internal fear, but despite the fact that she would like a relationship, she just can’t. oftentimes when she makes a new guy friend, she gets nervous that they might develop feelings for her. most of the time when they do, she slowly detaches herself from them, becoming more distant, texting less often. athena once went on a date with one of them, hoping that, maybe, she could allow this to turn into something. she liked the feeling of affection, she liked the attention she got from him, but after the date, she ceased communication. she avoided him in person. she couldn’t figure out what was wrong with her, if anything.

there was one instance where she thought she felt something for a boy. it was her friend in high school. the two met in jazz band & were incredibly close. they hit it off instantly, & in their junior year, they became that duo. the two you assume are dating but aren’t actually. people publicly anticipated it, & soon enough, athena started catching feelings for him. however, it wasn’t reciprocated. their friends were impressed by their ability to stick together through the pressure others put on them to get together. someone remarked that people either end up hating each other or falling for each other. what that person didn’t know was that the events were not mutually exclusive. her best friend slowly began to resent her, for he had an interest in someone else, but the rumors about the two of them prevented anything serious from happening. he started to notice her flaws, & only her flaws. he started becoming distant, avoiding her after classes & texting her less. she would apologize for whatever she did to make him act that way toward her, but her apologies served nothing. it wasn’t necessarily her fault, but she continued to blame herself throughout the entirety of her senior year, while still clinging onto him. she didn’t want to let go of what they used to have. how close they were. emotionally, it tore her apart, & it wasn’t until they graduated & went their separate ways that she finally felt liberated of the burden. athena sometimes looks back at this event in her past & wonders if it had anything to do with how she is now & why she can’t get attached. it did.

she often plays along with the joke about her being a heartbreaker, but she actually feels pretty lonely

one time a friend asked her if she enjoyed breaking hearts & she didn’t know the answer

athena is quite self-aware, & she acknowledges her faults, but she doesn’t do anything about them. she also acknowledges the fact that she doesn’t do anything about them & lies to herself about the fact that she’s trying to change. it’s a bit paradoxical, really

nevertheless, she is generally a friendly person as long as you don’t make her uncomfortable. when she’s uncomfortable, she avoids at all cost !

tries not to hurt people but ends up hurting people anyway in attempts of not hurting them,,, her second label could be the paradox tbh

fun facts:

athena owns an electric guitar & an electric bass, named benny & count bass-ie, respectively. she chose the name “benny” because she’s absolutely in love with pat benatar’s music, & “count bass-ie” because she loves jazz & couldn’t simply pass up the chance at that word play. she considered the name “pat ben-guitar” but couldn’t take herself seriously enough to commit to it.

she has relative pitch

since sophomore year of high school, athena has been uploading covers on youtube, typically accompanied on-screen with her guitar, but she edits in her bass guitar in post. i would imagine that she sounds like sarah lee.

she is asexual heteroromantic

although she doesn’t play often, she is a sombra/lucio main on overwatch, & yes, she is aware of the difficulty in playing sombra. she’s decent at it.

her favorite studio ghibli film is kiki’s delivery service

she has a tendency to impulse buy mugs, especially at target. don’t take her to target. she will buy 6 mugs in one trip.

speaking of fun facts, she loves fun facts ! prepare for 2am texts about how humans share 50% of their dna with bananas. shookt,,, she's actually a huge nerd wow

o ya her hair color's just dark brown bc jisoo's new hair is rly cute but athena could never commit to that