#i thought it was Stockholm syndrom and now i dont think it qualifies exactly

[thebacon24]

So listen, I have been developing some theories and I just want to talk about it. Spoiler warning for those who haven't read it.

For reference, I am on flashback 12. I have had a couple minor spoilers becuase I couldn't help not looking at fan art.

First I just want to talk about how by chapter 20 i was suspecting that the memories she couldn't access were memories she had with Draco 😭 and she actually says to him she'd rather be raped by his father than to develope feelings for him. My God.

And then Draco says some really awful things to her about how he doesn't care and it's all obligation...and I thought the lady doth protest too much?

I couldn't fucking contain myself when the flashbacks started holy shit. No one could get me to shut the fuck up.

Reading through the flashbacks is like reading through the beginning again, of her and Draco getting to know each other. They even have some of the same conversations, like written exactly the same way. I read that SinLinYu wrote it this way intentionally so that you could read it either starting at the 'present day' or starting at the flashbacks.

This is where my new theory question comes from. PLEASE DONT TELL ME IF IM RIGHT OR NOT.

Hermione doesn't remember everything she had with Draco before her torture, but does Draco? I assumed he does for a while because it was what made sense of his being unnecessarily kind towards her. But the fact that they have some of the exact same conversations over again makes me wonder if he didn't do something to his memories as well?

It could also just be that if he knows everything the whole time, I can't bear to think about his emotional turmoil over the whole situation. So it's easier to imagine he also doesn't remember 😭

I will check back in.

I'm reading Manacled for the first time, and I feel like I am gonna desperately need to share my emotions with someone.