#i thought i was amazing at art till i met them tbh

[altdisc4]

tfw when ur lover is inspired by ur art that's mega important to you and creates a piece 20x better and expands on your idea in an even better way and you're so proud but also internally writhe in jealousy for not coming up with it first

[navxry]

Rate your friends

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well damn alright fine LMAO

My mutuals from discord and/or Tumblr (utc cause the post is LONG)

Carmine: def a 100/10 if I have to be honest. They dealt with me SO much and my absolute nonsense as well since 2020, no words can describe how much I appreciate them for being there with me in my highest and lowest of my era. I also love terrorizing them with my muses (Lyney simp in denial), and I dont regret at all meeting and befriending them. Love you bestie <3 /p

Ryan: also a 100/10, I genuinely owe him a lot for helping me realize just. how certain things in life isn't 'normal' and fueling my brainrot/s so much. We both had so much to talk abt during the 3 years I've known him (and we're still friends to this day!), and Goddamn do I enjoy playing games w/ him and esp abt our current hyperfixations (Persona and Raincode. I still want to rattle your Yuma bot you little shit /t)

Esther (@mixed-kester) : I just met you like months ago when I first joined astronetwrk, and tbh I genuinely am v happy to have met you and enabled you BAHAHAHAHA I've been friends with her for a while but its so fun just going through the plot + AUs, and also going through pain (and making me go through a crisis with enabling and "NO YOU DID SO MUCH FOR ME" "NO, I DIDNT" LMAOOOO). Yeah, there were times when we both have our disagreements, but I genuinely could never ask for a better friend to yell at Tinuvion/Kunimitsu and the rarepare between Wanderer and Kaeya than her.

Meirin (@meimeimeirin) : I'LL SAY THIS ONCE AND I'LL SAY IT AGAIN: You are so cool and amazing and I'm so amazed with how you deal with my nonsense. I never saw an opportunity to talk to you outside of being on anon back then, and I genuinely thought that it won't be possible, but when EBG happened? I saw it and took it. You were so so so enjoyable to talk to, to rant about the entire event, and even after that, I enjoyed talking to you about even your simping with Zhongli and Alhaitham! I also enjoy bouncing off ideas with our threads (even if I have them on hold, I swear I'll reply to them orz). You're the sweetest person I've known and I am so, so glad to have met you and got to know you as a friend ;v; you also inspired me in writing for Genshin and for my faves, and for also sharing my thoughts on my sona and my selfships. I know you're busy but I hope you can see this because I genuinely appreciate you /pos

Yami (@pastel-rights) : YOU'RE SUCH A GOOD ARTIST WHAT THE HELL— honestly, how the fuck do you deal with me, Sam and Tae? (/lh) like I genuinely am so surprised I'm actually friends w/ you, but in a good way because you are?? So cool?? I swear I sometimes admire your art and when I say I wanna eat it, I would. You're such a good friend and I wish we can talk more fr

Tae (@nice-chiaki) : My first victim (/j), but really, I am in awe that I've met you in the mun's corner. I saw your blog with Itha and I genuinely loved interacting with him— your muse of him helped a lot in bringing me out of my idv writer's block slump because I had no ideas and ooooh, genuinely having you on vc and hearing/seeing you go through your cycles and bs with Sam and Yami (and Fifi as well) is the funniest thing. I also hate you (/exag) for the fandubs, and you making me go through a huge moment with Andrew and Cro. 0/10 wont recommend voicing villains (/j /j)

Sam (@paperbcy) : You are the biggest menace I know, and tbh I wonder if you're like a mirror to my menace self /j, but I'm kidding BAHAHAHAHA. I dont regret enabling you so much for your immorphy AU and our own shared AUs, and I sometimes wonder what would happen if I hadn't met you, Tae and Yami. Also, do not pull Father on my inbox ty

Fifi (@fffiii) : You dealt with my ass for years and I honestly question how you're still sane BAHAHAHAHA, but fr, even till now we're still together from 2016 - 2017(?) and I cannot stop but wonder how long it's been. It was v fun just looking back on our days at Q and even now, and I still appreciate you for everything even if you're a bigger menace than me.

Shiro (@leftdestiny-posts) : We may not talk as much or as often, but you are so kind and ouuuu you make me ;-; honestly. I am v thankful for you in dealing with my brainrot over TCO (which! I plan on revisiting and reviving as a long drawn series haha), and I hope that we talk more often when you have the time (ofc, no pressure!)

Ying (@yinyinggie) : OOOOH YOU'RE SO SWEET AND LUCIEN/YUZU TOO LIKE AUGHHH, I genuinely love you both as mods in astronetwrk AND outside of it. I genuinely appreciate you as a mod and a friend in keeping the server together and hosting games for us, and even when those went awry (read: the mafia game), you and the others made sure we had fun anyway and prioritized our comfort, which is so?? sweet??? I genuinely wish I can hug you and I wish we can speak more orz ily /p

There are more but I can't remember them all so o7 o/ hope this is enough anon

[99liners]

A. I love that you called us clown demons cause that's exactly what we are, demons who are also clowns!

B. Your new Kaiho!JK work is a work of art! I legit wanted to punch Jk's character for being that way, maybe hit him where the sun never shines (although I'm like 5 feet of pure fluff so it won't hurt him at all)

C. (And this is in no way a continuation request as your note mentioned) While reading your work, it felt like, Aeira's decision of running away was a spur of the moment decision, with zero planning and thought going into it. But it got me wondering, will any of the girls in the series be able to outsmart their husbands? I mean i understand that these men are smart, cunning, resourceful, with a side serving of unhinged manipulation, superiority complex and cold ruthlessness. But will any of the girls ever be able to turn the table on these men? Maybe not for just running away but get a semblance of normalcy back in their life, hold an advantage over the asshole who ruined their life? Will the girls ever be able to channel the same toxic characteristics over their husbands to get an upper hand? What does the author think?

P.s i know this is longish but your works always gets my mind going!! Thank you for writing such amazing stories you are truly wonderful ♥️♥️

are you kidding? i think every author out there dreams of getting detailed feedback / asks like these. i am highly honoured :(

A. no one can change my mind that y'all ain't clown demons. all of you little shits are exactly that xD.

B. oh, what your words do to me nggh 😳 and please, height does not matter when you are kicking someone in the balls, so unhesitant-ly go for it >:D

C. oh, no. i get that you are not asking for a continuation!! i had to put it in my notes cause sometimes people keep wanting the same scenario to keep running on. i absolutely do not mind answering any questions regarding it, though!! so, don't you worry!!

aeira's plan mhm - it was both zero planning but also clever moves. she really did well to cover her tracks but how would she possibly know that jjk would track tanaz's phone. it's a common technique tbh, especially when cops are trying to nab a suspect who is underground, they always track the close ones. of course, if aeira and tanaz were criminals, they would know better than to contact each other but they are not. they are two city girls with a decent upbringing and proper education, paired with soft personalities that cannot even hurt a fly. you cannot expect them to think like criminals which they clearly did not and hence they got caught.

i don't think any of the OCs would be able to outsmart their husbands. maybe aria can get away, PROVIDED she leaves moon behind. in that case, knj might give up on her after searching for her for a few years but IF and OBVIOUSLY she will take moon with her, then knj would not sit back and hunt her down. same goes for jhs. now kth is a different story, tanaz knows kth can get her arrested any time for her accidental crime. pjm and ksj would be very much like jjk. pjm would be more the destructive type, if you do not come back sooner - fighting with everyone, destroying things, etc. myg also cannot let you go for [redacted] reasons.

i do not feel like any of the OCs have that in them to channel the same toxic traits back onto their husbands. they are people from very ordinary walks of life, with a normal upbringing and life till they met these men and got thrown into this pool of toxicity. they know it more than most how much that stings and to turn into that same monster? feels very anticlimactic.

aah, i am glad my works get your mind going <33 feel free to always attack my ask box. thank you for the read, the amazing kind words and the a2a.

[have this GIF as i am replying through my laptop, so i do not have access to my meme folder.]

[the-darklings]

[thank you for the 4k!];

Wow. I always feel such a deep sense of shock whenever I have to make one of these posts. These last few months have been crazy to put it simply, and with fewer fics and my changing interests, I never expected so many of you to stick around and actually follow this blog. I’m so lucky to have so many of you with me, and I’m incredibly grateful for each and every one of you. Your support is always overwhelming and even though I’m terrible at keeping on top of everything, please know that I am immensely grateful for each and every like/comment/reblog/message on my fics.

So in order to celebrate this amazing milestone, and to bring the more active flow of fics on this blog, I’m officially bringing back the nightly drabbles. My DBH followers will be more familiar with these but essentially over the span of this month, I’m challenging myself to write 22 drabbles based on this prompt list. 

So what can you expect:

semi-daily drabbles (usually around 1k give or take) 

fandoms: DBH (rejoice~), RDR2, and Marvel (yes, to all of you who have been asking me/eagerly waiting for me to write for Marvel, it’s finally happening. I’m going to be using this celebration as a stepping stone/testing of waters so to speak)

ideally, I want to do/finish these throughout February but it might take me slightly longer

drabbles will not be split equally (5 for dbh, 5 for rdr etc) because I will write each drabble depending on what character that particular prompt reminds me of/inspires me. Some characters that are expected to make an appearance, however: Connor, Nines, Arthur Morgan, Bucky, Loki etc. 

please feel free to leave any other suggestions for this celebration because I would be happy to hear your thoughts.

And finally, under the cut, I'm taking a chance to gush about some awesome friends I have made on this hellsite. So thank you, once again, to all of you for supporting me and reading my stories in ‘18/’19. You’re all incredible! <33

Firstly, to my friends:

@ilikecheesecakeforbreakfast oh man...where do I even start with you, Ali? My good soldier, I’ve never expected to meet someone as awesome and funny on this hellsite but here we are months later and I’m so grateful to have met you. Thank you for putting up with my mood swings, whining, and all the good and bad in between. Thank you for your art, thank you for staying up with me till 5am to talk about trashy ships, and crying over Arthur Morgan. Here’s to making this piggie our this year, pal! *jets down*

@drmsqnc Vina. My sweet, sweet angel. You’re one of my oldest friends on here and I appreciate you so much. I love the fact that sometimes we can go days (even weeks) without chatting but then we can crash into each other’s DMs and it’s never awkward. Your writing skills honestly blow my mind; your fics are so atmospheric and prose lyrical, I’m pretty sure you’re not human most days. Your blog?? Aesthetics goals and just ahhh, you’re amazing!

@deviantramblings Laurennnn. I’m so happy I got to know you better over these last few months. You’re an amazing person with so much talent it blows my mind. I’m glad to chat with you because you’re always so open-minded, and I respect you so much as a person who is passionate about so many things, and always SO supportive. You make me smile a lot, so thank you for being here for me <33

@malanoches Angel. You’re an amazing, brave, incredibly talented person. I told you before how much I appreciate your presence in my life and how much more aware you make me of certain issues now. I admire your passion, I admire your wild spirit that burns so bright I’m in awe of it. Your writing is a blessing to this hellsite so thank you for working so hard on it. I’m glad to call you friend. <33

@sunstrain Oh Bai. Hi. You’re the new addition to this list but I’m honestly so damn grateful I stumbled upon your fic that day. You’re so talented, so funny, and just overall a wonderful person. You’re a beautiful individual both inside and out, and I’m glad so glad to call you my friend. Your tags are always so funny, so thank you for making me laugh with them at the most inappropriate times. 

@connorshero Sadie, oh my sweet Sadie. I know you think you’re mean but honestly?? You’re one of the nicest people I have ever interacted with on this hellsite. Your sweet messages always brighten my day and I love seeing you on my dash. Your writing? Honestly, you could be writing about rocks and I would still love and enjoy it. Never stop sharing your talent with us, please. Love ya bean!

@thedragonkween Oh, Angie...the true Queen of aesthetics and amazing writing. You’re so talented and such a kindhearted person, seeing you on my dash always makes me laugh. Also, I kin your tags more than I would care to admit because they are just that good. You’re amazing and it’s always nice to have another European gal around <33

@hades-ii Yue. I didn’t think so much talent could fit into one person tbh. Amazing writing, incredible and unique ideas AND brilliant and graphic design?? You blow my mind honestly. Your blog is so gorgeous it makes me cry, and you’re an overall incredible person. I can’t wait for the Grisha show so we both can cry over the Darkling together. 

Secondly, to some of the most amazing followers who I always see sneaking into my notifications (or leaving me supportive messages, or mutuals who I don’t talk to as much). I’m so sorry if I forget to mention you, trust me, I’ll probably see your name later, and go ‘oh crap, forgot them’ but honestly?? I could tag you all even though that would take me a while:

@moonlace @dragonfruitdingus @supernatralysupernatural @teigra @rosesaregayy @but-who-saves-you @glitterlizardstuff @esylveon @seasalt-seaweed-goddess @coolmaybelateruniverse @coffeeandmusicinthemorning @sophiealivy68 @geronimo-11 @mynahx3 @negotiator-on-site @wrinkledparchment @blue--blushes @marvelousmorales @thirium-ink @dbh-connor-rk800 @shadows-echoes @deviancy-wasteland @maiden-of-gondor @the-kryomancer @lavenderstages @writinginstability @winterofherdiscontent @littlexmissxmischief @pandemoniumambassador @mywinterivy @dis-weird-girl-over-here @sadroomba @super-flamin-hot-cheetos @idacecyliajadwiga @tropfenlady @fusrobruh @honest-good @negative-blackbird @icecoldsoul1987  @hey-there-cowboy @delightfully-anonymous

[oneeightcosplay-blog]

Anime Boston 2018 | Day One

This was by far the best con yet! This was Kate and I’s first con where we actually met awesome people! Kate and I always make it a goal to make friends at cons but we get too nervous to talk to new people but this con was so much different! We met brilliant new people every day at the con and it was honestly a dream come true! There are so many faces I cannot wait to see again! 

Day One we went as Deku and Uraka and get this WE WERE ACTUALLY AHEAD OF SCHEDULE IN THE MORNING!! When we left the hotel by 9:15 I was honestly SHOOK! I was so proud of us because usually Kate and I say we’ll leave at a certain time but then we spend too much time being cozy in bed and then scramble to get ready. We left the hotel and the first thing we did was we went and picked up our badges. The badge line was luckily not bad at all! It took us maybe 20-30 minutes which was a shock! SO THANK YOU PRE-REGISTRATION YOU’RE THE REAL HOMIE!! <3 

After picking up our badges we decided to get Starbucks because Deku and Uraraka are basic. Kate and I both got coffee fraps and a double chocolate chip frap for our friend Nicole ( @talacosart ), which turned out to actually be for her friend Orion. Sneaky sneaky! But honestly I would’ve picked up coffee for anyone TBH just say the word and I got you! Because of all the frappuccinos in my hand, I forgot to record me meeting Nicole for the first time!!! It was a chase through the artist alley. I went through aisle and aisle until I finally spotted her! I shouted, I think don’t quote me on this, NICOLE! She stared at me for a moment and just didn’t say anything but then after a few seconds it clicked and we went in for the running hug! She later admitted she forgot what I looked like...thanks Nicole -_- <3 

I introduced her to Kate and she introduced me to three of her very sweet and awesome friends! Later that night I asked Nicole for her friends’ Instagrams so I could stalk them only to discover that I already followed them and already stalked them a few weeks ago. Orion taught me “bust a nut” so that’s exciting! What a guy!! We roamed the artist alley for a long while and I gushed over all the beautiful Lance art and Tododeku art. After artist alley, I really kind of forgot what we did after that...I want to say OH WAIT I REMEMBER!! We went up to Nicole’s room so that she could change into Killua from Hunter X Hunter!!! We waited for Nicole to change and Kate and I bonded with her dad Jim while watching Friends and talking about the origin of the laugh track. Then we went to lunch at California Pizza Kitchen and Kate and I shared a Margarita Pizza. The Margarita Pizza had hidden tomatoes in it and I was not happy but it was still yummy I guess. Jim paid for lunch which was INSANELY KIND AND GENEROUS!! Kate and I insisted that he didn’t but he insisted that he did and I couldn’t believe he would pay for the food of two strangers. It was so sweet! <3 THANKS AGAIN JIM!!!!!!

After lunch, we went to the Vendor’s Room! Kate was on the hunt for a One Punch Man figurine for her brother Alex and I just wanted something cute and fluffy. As we were walking through the vendor’s room we realized that Josh Grelle, THE VOICE OF ARMIN MY BEST BOY, was having a signing which is wild because I thought I was going to miss it because I thought it was at 8 PM!! So I jumped right into line and Kate and Nicole were so sweet to wait with me!! Josh was soooooo sweet and funny and he spoke to me in his Armin voice and I almost started crying. It was an amazing experience and I’m so happy I got to meet the man behind some of my most precious children (Armin, Yuri, and Nitori). 

Kate and I invited ourselves to the Hunter X Hunter meetup and somehow became professional photographers for the meetup. Well I mean not really but I pretended like I was. I snapped 10000000 pics of Nicole and the whole gang! And I’m pretty sure at first the people at the meetup thought I was just some creepy stranger BUT I PROMISE IM NOT!! Got some awesome shots of Nicole and some meme shots of her, Kate, and I. But who doesn’t love a good meme? 

We all went back to Kate and I’s hotel so we could change into our onesies for the BNHA PJ meetup. Kate wore a pig onesie and I wore my carrot onesie. We stayed at the hotel for about an hour and we laughed at Barbie Vlog Videos and we told some fun stories from high school and talked about prom experiences and such. It was really fun and awesome bonding time!! Then we went to Nicole’s hotel room again and Nicole changed into Todoroki for the BNHA PJ meetup. NICOLE CHANGED SO MUCH ON FRIDAY OML BLESS HER SOUL. Then we walked to the place where we wanted to eat dinner but it was too fancy for us to eat there in cosplay so we had to scramble to find a new place. We finally decided on going to a Poke place right across from the con and I don’t think Nicole and Kate liked it that much :( BUT I LOVED IT! On our way there we ran into a nice man on a bicycle who asked us all about the convention and he told us about his first con experience at Katsucon when he was 8. He told us he was thankful we ran into him so that he knew the con was going on and he pulled out his phone to buy tickets. He gave us great advice on where to eat the rest of the weekend and then he biked away! We never saw him at the con but I hope he made it and had a great time!!

The last thing we did was go to the PJ meetup!! It was so fun! I had never been to a meetup of any sorts before and it was fun to see all my fave characters in fun PJs!!! There was a Tokoyami which was awesome and there were a lot of adorable fellow Dekus!!! After the meetup, we did our own little mini photoshoot. We did some Tododeku, Uradeku, and just some trio pics!! A lot of dabbing!! Then we just sat around in that spot for about an hour. We went live and our friend Lu joined us and taught us about how to edit photographs and they showed us their awesome photography project for school. They were worried about it but Kate, Nicole, all the people on the live, and I reassured them that their project was SLAYING AND BRILLIANT AND FABULOUS!!! 

We got back to the hotel at about 12:30 AM and I started looking through vlog stuff, took a shower, watched my friend Faith go live on Instagram and do some awesome cosplay makeup, and watched Netflix till about 2:00 AM. After Kate got out of the shower she was on her phone for about 30 minutes and then she passed out. We were so happy with how the day went and we were so excited to do Voltron the next day!!!!! 

DAY ONE WAS A BLAST!!! <3

Joni

[mari-m-rose]

Magi coming to an end

I got the news while I was working....which almost makes me unable to continue working lol. It’s weird because I did feel it was ending. Last week’s chapter looked like it, but I gave it at least 6 more chapters....or 8.... So I’m still in shock.

I mean...this is the end of an era for me....the past 4 years came to my mind in slow motion....I was able not to cry at least.

Last year when a couple of friends were already writing about Magi and them, thanking everyone, saying goodbye and having nostalgia as last arc progressed, I told myself I was gonna do the same when the time came.

The time came....NOW...to my disbelief.

So, I’ll try to be brief (spoiler: I failed) and tell the story of Magi and I first.

2013 was probably the worst year I had had in many years. I didn’t have cash to study, and that year was supposed to be the last year of my career. All my friends almost finished their careers back then while I stayed behind and was doomed to study my last year, the hardest year, with a bunch of nobodies. You see, I value much more experiences when I live them with my friends also all my potential is forced to come out when I’m with them, however meeting new people in a career like graphic design in which you have to work in groups and not seeing any of my friends....I was sure the future was gonna be a nightmare (and it was tbh lol in 2015). The thought was enough to give me anxiety like never in my life. Also got some panic attacks: couldn’t breath, couldn’t stop crying and my whole body felt agitated). My friends were so busy in their last year that I couldn’t see them much, my neighborhood friends were already hard to reach before I signed up to uni, my bf was still in Germany (I had a distance relationship with him for almost 4 years, 2013 happened to be his last year there).In short: I felt so lonely, because I WAS LONELY. I also got two jobs: both of them sucked, both of them were low pay, both of them were hard. I distanced from internet friends because of some issues. Lost my passion for fanart and my OCs. Everything was shit. There was nothing to be excited of, no one to pass time with, not even enough money to have fun.  BUT I could do something, which I couldnt do ever since I started my career, which was: watching anime. So I watched a lot of anime, A LOT. AND ofc one of those ended up being: Magi. It was around august or september, second season was airing and me and bf caught up with it and started to watch it weekly. I became impatient tho (which is weird) so I began reading the manga and caught up before season 2 was over.

I FELL ENTIRELY FOR IT. Especially after reading Magnostasdt arc (still my fave arc). It had a weird effect on me, it did not only made me happy, but it also brought back my passion for drawing fanart, it brought back my interest for reading fanfics (hadn’t read one since I was 16), it made me excited for every single week: oh here come the spoilers, the backstage, the translations, wow ♥!! And the people were the kindest people I’ve ever met in my life (can’t say the same about now sadly). It looked like paradise and it was paradise tbh. Almost all the years I spent here were amazing, which leads me to:

Thank you, srsly, all my friends, all the people I met, especially those I met 4 years ago. My followers, everyone who doesn’t talk to me but likes me and has supported me. One of the few reasons I cling to this site even if a lot of people are making it impossible for me to exist here (and my friends have left it), is because I love sharing Magi stuff in general and my art, and how you guys like it ofc. I have never felt so loved in a fandom and I have never felt important in a fandom. Some of you really made me feel too many great things I had never experienced. Thank you so so much. I hope you are blessed a million times more for all the kindness you have given to me.

I feel Ohtaka saved me with Magi. Falling in love with it made all the horrible times that came after 2013 better. It got me out of my hole of self-hate and put me back to work. I srsly wish I could thank Ohtaka in person, for saving me with her art and tell her how much her work means to me... (omg omg omg don’t cry pls).

I can’t believe this is the end. I will cherish all these memories forever and cling some more to my friends, cling some more to this blog, to Magi itself and to sinja ofc. I will not stop just yet B).  Thank you a million times again AND hope we keep enjoying ourselves in both our happiness, sadness, disapopintment, fear, excitement, whatever you are feeling right now. For me it’s the actual ending of an era and I will celebrate it somehow.

This post  kinda ends here, but right....AFTER I TELL THE STORY OF ME AND SINJA. ♥♥♥♥

It is a really random story. So when I first watched Magi my faves were Sinbad, Alibaba, Hakuryuu and Aladdin (I especially adored Aladdin). BUT bf, browsing the internet found a sinja doujin lol, and he came like: hey look, those characters from Magi, haha. And my reaction was: O M G I DIG THIS SHIT (back then I didn’t know how much I was gonna dig it tho), how did I miss this ship before? And then the ultimate reason to ship them appeared: the tegaki. Ohtaka’s tegaki are such a sinja heaven, all the married couple jokes, their intimacy, how they talk like they are parents of all the young generals. I FELL FOR THEM, but most importantly I fell for Ja’far. JA’FAR ENDED UP BEING MY FAVE. He wasn’t even on the list lol. And through my new Ja’far obsession I tried to gather as much information as I could and started to catch up with all the Magi info I missed through all those years the fandom existed before I joined. And that’s when the actual passion began tbh.

I’m both happy and pained that I still love sinja with all my heart and can’t stop and ofc WON’T STOP.

I will continue creating sinja content and also telling you to do it ♥ all sinja shippers should contribute to our own happiness about this ship sdjvposjop. I hope that after Magi ends you guys stop thinking about canon that much (says the person who creates sad sinja times from canon :^) ), so we continue creating beautiful sinja HCs and stories ♥♥

Anyway if you read till here (wow) thank you ♥ hope you have an awesome day!

[kpoptart216]

My North Star (Pt 1)

Author’s Note: This is my first fanfic and I apologize for the mistakes I’m bound to make.

Genre: Fluff/Angst

Characters: Jin x Reader (ft Hoseok)

Word Count: 1357

Summary: You’ve been in love with your best friend for as long as you can remember. He’s been the one constant in your ever changing life, *until there’s a new girl in his life. (As if there isn’t many other fanfics with this same idea)

P.S. Jin isn’t even my bias BUT I just figured this concept in my head would fit better with Jin as the main. Enjoy peeps!

Life has a way of throwing curve balls at you. In fact, you didn’t know life as being calm. Your life was changing constantly, much to your chagrin. You never asked for these changes, especially since a lot of these changes weren’t good at all. 

At a very crucial age, you lost your parents. You were never rich or well off but your parents worked hard to provide for you so you never really knew. Their only goal was to make sure you had a smile on your face of each hour of every day and for the most part, they succeeded. They were the world’s best parents. Were.

You still remember the night you got the phone call, urging you to hurry to the hospital. But you didn’t make it in time to say goodbye. That night haunts you till this day, almost 10 years later.

You lost your apartment, and you began working multiple jobs. You worked hard, even when your body couldn’t take much more, to make sure you had 3 meals a day and a roof above your head. You worked hard to provide yourself a decent education, and hopefully make something out of yourself.

The one thing that remained constant, the one thing that brought you back to you senses when you thought you were going insane, was none other than your best friend, Jin. You guys had met when you two were about 10. In the beginning, it was definitely a love-hate relationship. He would tease you at school and you would tease him back. But that only strengthened your bond at that young age and you both haven’t been separable since. 

Jin took care of you for everything. He helped you when you lost your parents, when you lost your apartment, when you were struggling with your jobs, and when you were struggling with college. And somewhere along the lines, you couldn’t help but fall for him. But you were so scared to lose the most beautiful thing in your life that you never confessed. You couldn’t bare the thought of not having Jin in your life. You didn’t know if you could keep going if that were to happen. 

 “Jin I’m fine, I promise. A cold isn’t going to kill me” you squeaked through the phone. You were always one to fall sick easily, and Jin was always there to help you get through it.

“How bad is it, though? Because last time you were sick with that nasty sinus infection, you were practically deaf for a few weeks and tbh that was annoying as hell.” He sounded annoyed now. 

“I promise it’s fine. Don’t get any ideas about coming over though, I don’t want to give you whatever it is I have” Sure, you wanted nothing more than to have him come over and just chill, but you didn’t want him falling sick either. 

“I think I can manage a cold…are you sure? I kinda had something I wanted to talk to you about actually” he said. Your heart began to race. Whenever he said that he always had pretty big news. What was it going to be this time? But before you know it, you begin sneezing and coughing

“Yeah… perhaps it can wait. Don’t stay up too late and get some sleep Y/N, you have work on Monday!” he says with concern. But what did he want to talk about?

“R u su–” you started but were immediately cut off on the other end of the line

“JIN can you make me some food?! I’m famishedddd” you hear on the phone. You recognize the voice as Hoseok’s, one of Jin’s roommates. 

“Sounds like you have company. I’ll call you tomorrow and don’t worry about me. We can talk tomorrow k?” You were starting to feel sleeping, silently thanking for Hoseok for choosing this moment to ask Jin to feed him

“K feel better, my panda. I’ll catch you tomorrow” he said. Panda. Your heart fluttered with the use of your nickname. You always loved pandas and you didn’t really stop Jin when he started calling you that after you had black bags under your eyes after many stressful days at work. 

But you were still anxious to hear about what he had to tell you? You never wanted to get your hopes up that perhaps, just maybe, he felt the same way about you. But he never said anything. Sure, Jin had his share of girlfriends in the past, but they never lasted long for whatever reason. In fact, you might be even thankful for some of those girls, for they were the ones who had helped you realize your feelings in the first place. 

You hung up the phone and went to sleep with a smile, despite not being able to breathe through your nose. Although you had no right to, you were eagerly looking forward to his news tomorrow.

Tomorrow came faster than you expected. You slept through the night with the help of Nyquil and woke up still kind of in a trance. However, you couldn’t deny that you felt much better. You smiled knowing that you were going to be okay for work the next day and more importantly, you were going to see Jin soon.

You took your time getting ready but once you got to the kitchen to make breakfast, you notice that it’s much later than you expected and only had a little bit before meeting Jin at your favorite café a few blocks from your apartment.

You eat a granola bar quickly and put on some boots in a rush. You almost run to the cafe, not wanting to be late.  You smile upon reaching the entrance of the cafe, seeing Jin near a table by the window. He waves at you after seeing you through the window. You sit down across from him and give him your biggest smile.

“I ordered you your favorite! White Chocolate Mocha!” he beamed, and like magic, the waitress brought your coffee to the table. You smile at the little coffee art in your drink. Was the white heart symbolize anything today? You smile shyly at the coffee when Jin continues, “Do you feel better? I must say, you don’t look sick at all”

You wonder- does he notice when he makes me blush? If so, does he do it on purpose?

“Yeah I feel a lot better actually. So..whats up? What did you want to talk about?” you ask in anticipation

He ruffles his hair and smiles shyly back at you. God you loved that. You begin blowing at your coffee hoping to cool it down to relish in the taste of the warm coffee.

“Uh, I’m not sure how to tell you really” he says. You take your eyes off of the coffee to meet his eyes. “It’s kind of embarrassing” he says. Your heart begins to race as he continues that shy smile. 

You pretend that your heart isn’t racing a mile a minute and say, “God Jin, you know you can tell me anything, now spill” You hold your breath as you wait for him to reply.

“I…I think…” he begins. Your heart was about to burst. You give him an eager look. 

“I think…I’m in love” he says. Omg this is really happening you think. You’ve waited for this for so long.

“I don’t know Y/N, but I can’t stop thinking about her and god she’s so different from any of the girls i’ve ever been with. We’ve only been on like two dates but…” wait what

“But god I think I love her. Her name’s Kim” 

And in that moment, you swear you could hear your heart shatter. It was a surprise no one else could hear it. 

“K-k-Kim?” you ask. Tears were threatening to spill from your eyes but you cursed yourself and fought to hide them, praying he doesn’t notice.

“Yes Y/N she’s amazing. I can’t wait for you to meet her. I just know you’re going to love her too” he says, excitedly. Don’t hold your breath you think.

Maybe she was just going to be another girl that passes through Jin’s life. You pray that this is the case, but you know deep down that she’s already different than all those other girls. 

It’s okay, you’ll get through this, you think. 

But boy were you wrong

OKAY so PLEASE give me feedback, I crave it. This is my first ever fanfic and I have no idea if it is even worth reading. I don’t even know how many parts this is going to end up being. Let me know if you want a part two!