#i thought abt writing down a collection but its all just terrible self insert stuff SO | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

skitskatdacat63 · 5 days ago

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Basically every time I'm going to bed, I tell myself similar bedtime self serving fantasies, and I feel very conflicted abt them because I literally NEVER get anywhere close to through them, yet always insist at starting at the beginning. But doesn't that mean they're effective???? That they put me to sleep quickly??? But man I'd love to actually get through the narrative for once 😭😭

#it wouldnt be the same if i tried to write them down </3 #the only way to sooth it would be for it to happen irl and thats impossible djfjfkfk #though one time i tried to speed thru it when i was still mostly awake #and it wasnt good SO #idk i have conflicting feeling abt these bedtime stories trapped in my brain #cause its nice to have this little narrative to escape to when im asleep #snd im genuinely excited to go to bed so i can think about it #even if i only get a tiny bit into it #but it kinda sucks itll never exist anywhere outside of that tiny space of time #also bcs its self serving i get morose itll never ever happen irl WAUGHHHHHHH #i thought abt writing down a collection but its all just terrible self insert stuff SO #also i absolutely cannot even think about any of my fic narratives instead #bcs then i lose it all by the morning </3 #but with these its so funny cause ill wake up and realize #wait wtf i barely got through it again?????#the degenerate's way of counting sheep #catie.rambling.txt

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