#i think the intubation was the most traumatizing thing ive ever been through theres a reason its usually done under anaesthesia

[bugbuoyx]

CW: Suicide, graphic description of hospitalization

I know this shouldn't have to be said and you'd think people would know better in this day and age and this fucking community but apparently fucking not.

If you encourage, support, or engage in suicide baiting, even as small as "kys", block me or respond so I can block you. Suicide is not a fucking joke, it's not a punchline, it's not a "gotcha" or a catchy comeback it causes real actual fucking harm.

Do you know what it feels like to have a tube put down your throat? It's been 7 fucking years and I still viscerally remember being told to hold my breath and the awful pressure of the tube. I remember looking over and seeing my heartrate at 300, both my parents crying. The nurses reassuring me that it was gonna be okay.

You know what else I remember? The name and face of a kid who once told me to kill myself, I doubt he remembers, we were only 14, but I do.

Also, for obvious reasons, I don't support any threats of violence, especially over fucking internet discourse.