#i think the closest ive found recently would be nerdycrafter but even she i find to be too kiddy at times

[mintyvoid]

ugh ive been craving to splurg on a toys and craft kits and fidgets again. Ive always enjoyed them tho could never afford them, and now that i have savings am now super money anxious. Specially with like most toys n kits n blidnbag kinda stuff being more novelty. Most will end up just sitting gathering dust, but i still want it.

I wanna play with slime or get aquatdots or a paint by numbers or diamond painting. Same with like doing elves boxes or japan snacks :/

I think id might go the yt route, but i feel id be too boring. Even tho i think it would be fun and id mostly do it so that if ppl have questions about stuff most dont cover, itd be fun to go back to kits n stuff to really fully explore it. But its such a money sink and my focus should be on my art and freelancing/commissioning..or learning coding and building game prototypes.

But i struggle so heavily with what i want to focus on, that its not surprising that id want to find something else. Ugggh to be earning enough to do both would be a dream.

This kinda is fueled by my slight hyperfixation on explaining things, and exploring new things in every possible way. Id love to be like a product reviewer, i think itd be fun, i dunno.