#i think that's infinitely more romantic

[chickadeethoughts]

reread this post and maybe this is an unpopular mclennon opinion? but i think they both didn't actually understand each other as well as they thought they did. i think both of them believed the other could read their mind and then filtered their subsequent actions as a conscious slight. like. john should know that paul is someone who keeps his feelings very closely guarded, who will always choose to keep the peace and to put on a good face when he's upset. but throughout the breakup, when paul seemingly stays as productive as ever, staying distantly polite to yoko while urging john to keep writing, keep beatling, everything's fine, time to put on a show, john takes it that paul doesn't care one way or another about their partnership dissolving, he's a perfectly capable one-man band hit machine anyway. this is seemingly confirmed by paul announcing the breakup to "sell a record," effectively ending all hope of quietly reconciling and supporting john's theory that paul was done with the beatles (john) anyway and had been on his way out once he learned he could write a #1 song without anyone's (john's) help. all he cares about is hits and money and his new perfect family and farm.

meanwhile. paul should know that john wasn't handling the pressures of the beatles well. he should know that he needed more support. but paul seems to be someone who gets stuck in his ways of thinking about people (see also: george), and doesn't seem to have ever shaken the image of john as the older, cooler teddy boy on the bus who he'd do anything to impress. he thinks the world of john and spends the 60s thinking they're in a friendly competition, not realizing john has started falling into the paranoia that he's losing. you can see it in get back. paul is waiting for john to write his next great song, to set a new bar for paul to push himself to reach. paul got john by impressing him with his music and when he's losing john he doubles down on it because he thinks that's the only valuable thing he has to offer. he might have offered the support john needed instead if he knew what that was, but he didn't. but mid-60s john, who still thinks paul understands him, thinks paul knows he needs him but chooses to spend his time flitting around swinging london instead, which deeply hurts him. john clings to yoko because she's a breath of fresh air from the constant race he's been running for a decade. a creative partner he doesn't have to chase down. someone who needs him as much as he needs her. a woman he can marry, can have a real commitment to. he can be everything to the person who is everything to him. but paul sees this as john finally outgrowing him and finding someone better.

paul also should know that john often speaks first and decides whether he believes what he said later. but it seems he only ever takes john at his word. when john leaves the beatles that's it, no negotiation, because if paul has lost john to someone more interesting, more artistic, then that's that. when john starts to talk publicly about paul's muzak and granny shit that must be true too, it's why john left after all. and granted john just wont stop shit talking him and it's not like he just fell on a keyboard and how do you sleep came out. but this is how you get a paul who starts to see himself as a villain and questions whether john did love him. he doesn't think too many people was that nasty compared to what john was saying about him in interviews because he doesn't realize that one of john's biggest fears is that he's incapable of being a great songwriter without paul. so to john, the lucky break line is paul admitting he agrees with that assessment and twisting the knife. but paul wouldn't see it that way because he's only ever had john on a pedestal.

so by the 70s, on their worst days, john thinks paul is cold marble statue who knows he's better than him and delights in it and paul thinks john is entirely out of love or use for him, if he ever had it in the first place. and of course, they could never talk about any of this openly because neither of them were willing to face the pain of confirming that their love really was one-sided.

[widowshill]

the people aren't ready to hear this but angelique arbitrarily picking quentin to decide to be in love with out of nowhere, bewitching roger into marriage and then absolutely not wanting him to touch her, and constantly pursuing men's (chiefly barn's) attention only when it's clear he doesn't want her, is soooo comp het of her.

[wrathunts]

°ㅤ𝙷𝙾𝚆 𝙳𝙾𝙴𝚂 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙼𝚄𝚂𝙴 𝙲𝙰𝚁𝚁𝚈 𝙴𝙼𝙾𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽 ? please repost , don’t reblog ! bold / italicize what applies accordingly .

『 𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓 . 』   jaw     clenching ,     hands     balling     into     fists ,     teeth     grinding,     yelling ,     going     nonverbal ,     vocalizations ,     stuttering     speech ,     rushed     speech ,     slow     concise     speech ,     rambling ,     quiet ,     arms     crossing ,     shaking     head ,     curling     lip     upwards ,     baring     teeth ,     tearing     up ,     animated ,     expressionless ,     projects ,     internalizes ,     vents ,     withdraws ,     tighter     movements ,     passive-aggressive ,     direct ,     physical     outbursts ,     verbal     outbursts ,     pacing ,     going     still ,     anger     boils     over     in     the     heat     of     the     moment     but     cools     down     quickly     afterwards ,     anger     brews     slowly     but     lingers     longer ,     will     act     out     of     impulse     when     angry ,     will     stew     on     their     anger     and     plot     revenge ,     holds     grudges ,     forgives     easily ,     forgives     but     never     forgets

『 𝒋𝒐𝒚 . 』  easy     smiles ,     fighting     back     grins ,     suppressed     laughter ,     loud     laughter ,     giggles ,     chuckling ,     smirks ,     whole     body     laughs ,     covers     mouth     when     laughing/giggling ,     throws     head     back     when     laughing ,     slaps     leg ,     touches     people     around     them     when     laughing ,     looks     down     when     laughing ,     looks     for     eye     contact     when     laughing,     sparkling     eyes ,     bubbly     happiness ,     quiet     subtle     happiness ,     obnoxious     happiness ,     wants     to     spread     joy ,     quietly     savors     joy

『 𝒔𝒂𝒅𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 . 』   crying ,     bottling     it     up ,     seeking     distractions ,     wallowing ,     meditating     and     processing ,     avoidance ,     seeking     out     comfort ,     withdrawing ,     swallowing     thickly ,     talking     it     out ,     internalizing     it ,     sad     smiles ,     depression     naps ,     using     alcohol ,     using     drugs ,     seeking     out     sources     of     joy ,     fidgets     with     sentimental     item ,     sits     in     silence ,     broods ,     gets     moody ,     wants     someone     to     share     the     misery ,     tries     to     hide     negative     emotions ,     nurtures     others     to     make     themselves     feel     better

『 𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕     /     𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒎𝒆 . 』       blushing ,     looking     away ,     rubbing     at     the     back     of     the     head ,     running     a     hand     through     hair ,     clearing     throat ,     covering     the     face ,     laughing     nervously ,     laughing     it     off ,     overthinking ,     letting     it     go ,     self-deprecating     humor ,     deflecting ,     getting     irritated ,     smiling ,     withdraws ,     crossing     arms     over     the     stomach ,     crossing     arms     over     chest ,     hands     in     pockets ,     shoulders     sinking ,     shrugs ,     falling     into     silence     until     comfortable     again ,     talking     a     lot     to     compensate

『 𝒈𝒖𝒊𝒍𝒕 . 』   avoiding     eye     contact ,     shoulders     sinking     low ,     head     hanging     down ,     crying ,     chest     aches ,     lashing     out ,     internalizing ,     apologizing ,     deflecting ,     communicating ,     withdrawing ,     grand     gestures     for     forgiveness ,     accepting     fault     easily ,     punishing     themselves ,     martyrdom ,     victim     complex ,     over-active     guilt     complex ,     healthy     conscience ,     internalizes     even     after     forgiveness ,     seeking     redemption ,     moves     on     easily ,     denial ,     shuts     off     empathy     to     cope ,     lack     of     guilt / conscience ,     sorry     they     got     caught     more     than     caused     harm ,     can’t     handle     knowing     they     hurt     others

『 𝒇𝒆𝒂𝒓     /     𝒂𝒏𝒙𝒊𝒆𝒕𝒚 . 』   trembling ,     crying ,     sarcasm / sass     to     cope,     humour     to     cope ,     rambles ,     going     quiet ,     going     nonverbal ,     getting     angry ,     fidgeting ,     freezing     up ,     impatience ,     clenching     jaw ,     picking     at     nails ,     chewing     at     the     lip ,     pulling     at     clothes ,     adjusting     jewelry / clothing / hair ,     pacing ,     swallowing     thickly ,     eyes     widening ,     over - reacts ,     under - reacts ,     calm ,     logical ,     panic ,     irrational,     overthinks ,     carefully     analyzes ,     talk     to     themselves ,     breathing     exercises ,     flight ,     fight ,     withdraw ,     fawn

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[transfemstarscream]

thank you for your father + daughter megatron and starscream analysis because most content is them being romantic (i dont hate m*gst*r but idc for it)... because whenever i see them interact (esp armada) its so so obvious thats an emotionally constipated or apathetic dad with a daughter who desperately wants to prove herself to him or his standards. can they please write this relationship for them again 💔

i'm happy my, quite frankly, messy analysis of them holds up for you! i don't talk about them too much anymore, but viewing them through the lens of a distant, destructive but forever longing father-daughter relationship (especially in the context of armada/energon, and other continuities with a similar age/experience gap) paints the most heart-wrenching picture of the two characters to me.

megatron becoming the father to his men he is always claimed to be yet failing to be that father to the one person who needs it most; starscream disavowing the pain and standards projected upon her yet ultimately becoming just like the man who forced them onto her. they destroy each other for neither of them can be want they want the other to be, nor what they need. but they will still impose themselves onto each other—the only ideal imposed onto starscream by megatron that she is able to understand.

or, basically:

[werewolfdog]

You know what I’ll say this. Sol and I are quite happy that Mickey 17 is a thing and there will be so much contents between 17 and 18. The more we’re seeing them, the more we can see ourselves in them with their dynamics + interactions and we think it’s really nice to get to see duplicated characters having interactions that some OSDDID havers like ourselves see in them because as much as any of us can mentally visualize ourselves differently from our physical body, at the end of the day, unfortunately we’re still carrying this body and that fact can be distorting and bothersome, so. Bless Bong Joon-ho for this film, truly.

[darabeatha]

/ Still thinking about that one scene in Paradise Lost where Adam asks Raphael if angels also make love and the text mentions how Raphael is then visibly blushing over the question but basically ends up confirming that yes, angels do that albeit differently, as there's no need of physical contact even, they can simply make that love manifest in a way a person could feel as if it's air entering their lungs

[akajustmerry]

i am soooo tired of seeing skinny people i am so over it its so everywhere and everything on tiktok on ads on book covers in movies in tv shows, politics, fucking music even. its endless, infinite, exhausting. isn't there something more than this? this can't be it. like how did i end up in a version of the world where a fat woman being a romantic lead in a mid period drama on Netflix is a win? and how is she still basically the only fat person on that show? how are there films and tv shows praised for diversity that don't have a single fat person in the cast?? how how how HOW. the majority of people in the world aren't even skinny. most people in the world aren't thin white people! its crazy its so fucking insane how colonialism, ableism and racism has created a phantasm in which we all accept that pretending fat people don't exist and punishing them when they do is normal and fine. like, imagining a world where fatphobia doesn't exist is actually unimaginable and painful and i truly can't think about it too much without tearing the hair off my entire body

[mousfri]

will's conversations with bedelia are extremely meaningful. not only is will triumphant and smug about hannibal being in love with him, beds is actively jealous in return. it's this whack love triangle where one of them never had a chance, and for once it's not the straight pairing that's coming out on top.

will knows what he's doing when he breaks hannibal out. he doesn't hesitate. he puts plans in place to give them more time by acting like he's going to kill hannibal. he knew how he'd break him out far, far before beds even confirmed hannibal's love for him, he was just waiting for a good enough reason. will didn't ever fall out of love or obsession with hannibal, he just needed time to get over himself and accept the inevitability of it, because he's a fussy, vengeful bastard.

I'm sure this has been said a dozen times already, but it always baffles me when people say "Hannigram isn't canon" , "Hannibal is queerbaiting", "the show should've made them canon" or anything similar to that. I see it less on tumblr, but have seen it elsewhere and it's like, did we watch the same show? Just because they're not making out sloppy style or having intense gay sex on screen doesn't mean they're not into each other?

Like there's a scene where Will straight up asks "is Hannibal in love with me?" and gets a confirming answer. Theres a scene where Hannibal compares them to Achilles and Patroclus. Hannibal turns himself in to the FBI despite being able to escape and he does it for Will! Hannibal is so completely, deeply obsessed with Will because he loves Will. The show makes it explicit time and time again that Hannibal is in love with Will.

And Will is very much into Hannibal as well. I think for Will it might seem less obvious at times, after all, he had a wife and a kid while Hannibal was imprisoned. But ultimately there's a reason why Will chooses to free Hannibal and go with him. They kill the dragon together and Will is the one who says how beautiful it is. Will outright admitted that he wanted to run away with Hannibal, and that want never actually left him.

The show itself coined the term "murder husbands". A character in canon calls Hannibal and Will that. Hannibal refers to himself and Will as Abigail's fathers. They wanted to run away together and be a family. The finale of those two on the cliff embracing and covered in blood is like the most romantic scene ever shown on tv.

Characters do not need to kiss on screen to be canonically in love!

And I think with this show that statement is especially true because of how many times characters *do* kiss and have sex, and it means nothing. Hannibal had sex with Alana as a way to manipulate her and have her blind to what he was doing. He didn't do it out of love. Margot didn't have sex with Will because she was attracted to him. The show displays very obviously that those things don't necessarily equal attraction, and I think it's completely fine that Will and Hannibal never do something like that. Their attraction to each other is still there!

[7nuh]

WAS IT 'CASUAL' WHEN...? — TWST 1ST YEARS

Headcanons on the 'casual' things you do with him that made him wish that there was something more between you.

CW 𓂃 sfw, gn!reader, reader is implied to fit in Deuce's clothes in his part, pining

CHARAS 𓂃 Ace Trappola, Deuce Spade, Jack Howl, Epel Felmier, and Sebek Zigvolt

AN 𓂃 mostly* edited now 😎👍

ACE TRAPPOLA — you slept in the same bed?

Ramshackle isn't exactly known for having the best facilities or furniture, and that is a fact Ace has to make peace with whenever he gets kicked out by Riddle. It's always a little too chilly at night and the floors still creak beneath his feet. Even with a makeover, half of the beds are broken and that stiff couch downstairs is your next best bet at getting some semblance of sleep.

You insisted you really didn't mind sharing a bed at all and Ace took you up on your offer. In his words, "if you say so then!" Just create an invisible partition down the middle and the two of you should be fine. Sure, yeah, that'll be infinitely more comfortable than the couch, and Ace absolutely agrees. He repeats the thought to himself over and over again— this is supposedly the better alternative, isn't it?

Yeah, totally. He tries to convince himself that it's really not a big deal for him to be inches away from you at night and feel your warmth spreading through the sheets. God, you'd think he's a weirdo if you woke up and caught him staring right now, but he could always twist it into a dumb joke about your sleeping face looking like an ogre. Consequently, he would have to watch your face twist in annoyance and pretend he wasn't watching every rise and fall of your chest. He would rather lose his magic entirely than admit the ugly truth and make himself vulnerable to you.

Ace does realize he's being embarrassingly sappy and romantic, and he's disgusted at himself for these thoughts, but he can't help it. He can't change the fact your lips look so soft and your eyelashes are so pretty. This is freaking him out so much more than it should. Does this really mean nothing to you? Do really only see him as a friend? Fine, then the two of you are just friends sharing a bed then!

It's really nothing! Ace was the one who joked about it months ago, after all. But things (and his feelings) have changed and he cannot ignore that. Back then it wouldn't have been such a big deal, but now it is and he cannot calm his heart down no matter how hard he tries.

You're right there. It's not the first time he had to share a bed with someone but it's different now because it's you. He did the math and the two of you are only 10 inches apart. Ace almost reaches for you in his weakest moment until he remembers that the two of you are supposedly just two friends sharing a bed. You're doing him a favor by sheltering him for the night, that's all.

Ace retracts his hand right away at the very last second. He might have as well taken the goddamn couch (lest either of you wake up in each other's arms).

DEUCE SPADE — he lent his clothes?

You came here with next to nothing. You had exactly one change of clothes and pocket lint for change, so Deuce, being the righteous and honorable student that he is, decided to lend you some of his clothes for the meantime. It's what a good friend would do! It's a temporary arrangement that would last only until Crowley spares enough change for you to buy another set of uniforms.

But this arrangement drags on for so long even when you have a functional closet and multiple sets of better-fitting clothes. Deuce never really noticed until recently that a third of your (albeit very limited) wardrobe actually belongs to him. But whenever you tug on his sleeves for his latest sweater, he doesn't have the heart to tell you no.

When he went home during break, his mom even noticed that certain sweaters and shirts had gone missing. "I left them at the college," he tells her as to not worry her. It's technically the truth— it's back with you in the college (and you're probably wearing them right now; the mental image is enough to fluster him all of the sudden when it never did before). He has to get them back eventually since those clothes are his. He's sure you wouldn't mind? Right?

Simply asking for them back is the difficult part for Deuce. You're there in front of him wearing one of his older shirts that fit snugly around your figure and he's at a loss for words. It's worn down and outright hideous as hell but the very first thought that comes to mind is that you look good in it.

Ah, yeah. You walk around campus on non-school days wearing his clothes 1/3rd of the time and nobody else knows that those jackets and shirts and sweaters and button-ups are all his. You make even the ugliest ones look good, or maybe it's because you're the wearer and you always looked good to him? Do his eyes need to be checked...? Deuce is tortured by these thoughts while merrily go about your day. You're laughing at something stupid that Grim said and he can't hear anything else. There's a fight in the courtyard but he can't see anything else. There's a midterm tomorrow but he can't think of anything else. You're too distracting.

When you finally do remember to return a shirt or two, Deuce tells you there's really no need to return them. He insists that they're better off with you, but you laugh and remind him that you're no longer the same pathetic charity case you were at the start of the year.

The truth is, your scent still lingers on recently returned shirts. It's the closest he'll get to being skin-to-skin with you, and Deuce is supposed to ignore that but he cannot. Or maybe he's the only one making this weird for the two of you because it doesn't seem to bother you in the slightest (and he's bothered by that).

But when Deuce looks at the recently returned shirts in his hands, he hopes he has a chance. He hopes you think of him as much as he thinks of you. He hopes the odds of him not actually liking you after all make your guts churn and set butterflies in your chest at the same time. He hopes he isn't the only one yearning for used shirts, lingering scents, and ghost touches. But at the same time, you've only ever asked these kinds of favors from him... Deuce doesn't want to assume anything, but a blush creeps upon his cheeks all the same and he continues to hope for more.

JACK HOWL — you played with his ears and tail?

Beastmen weren't a thing back in your world, so seeing them regularly made you morbidly curious about their animalistic features. Jack was easily the best candidate to satisfy your intrusive thoughts because just who else could you ask about this? Leona wasn't exactly an option and Ruggie might rope you into some scheme of his. And Jack owed you a favor, after all, so this is what you decided to ask of him.

Jack's ears twitched— did he hear you correctly? His face scrunches up in confusion because you barely knew each other for you to be asking something like this. How could you ask something so personal from him? It's in your innocently eager expression that he realizes what's going on... you just didn't know. Fine, it should mean nothing to you and thus he agrees to let you pet his tail and ears for five seconds. Maximum.

It's supposed to be a one time thing but he finds him involuntarily offering up his tail whenever you look him like that. He's not even sure how it got to this point. After all, there are romantic connotations of having your tail petted by someone else and... nevermind. Ruggie and Leona have started simultaneously teasing him over it the very moment they caught wind of this peculiar arrangement. It doesn't help that Jack's tail is particularly sensitive and reactive, but he keeps a straight face no matter how much it embarrasses him.

Jack doesn't understand why you're so fascinated by his tail and ears because there are so many others just like him. However, he supposes it's not an entirely terrible feeling, though, to have your fingers absentmindedly rake across his tail and hair as the two of you study. It's relaxing, even, but he won't tell you that. Jack will never tell you that it gives him goosebumps all over and makes him shiver whenever you play with his tail. Or that he's begun wondering what it would be like to have your hands elsewhere, or for him to touch you in similar ways in return.

He doesn't understand why he craves your company but doesn't question it either. All he knows is that your hands are so soft and gentle and that he likes the way the corner of your eyes crinkle when you smile in satisfaction. And when you hum a soft tune as the gap between the two of you closes, he wonders if he's the only one feeling this tension.

"Again?" Jack huffs. The pretext of this being a silly favor has been long forgotten. He should probably tell you soon that you shouldn't be doing this, but you just look so pleased with yourself when the two of settle down in a lesser-known corner of the library. The routine persists, the cycle continues. Hours later, the both of you have gone through multiple bags of chips, two movies on his laptop, and his tail is now comfortably curled around your abdomen as you read a book and he tends to his beloved cactus.

Again? Jack silently asks himself whenever he sees your face in a crowd. Could the two of you spend hours in a comfortable silence while the unsaid implications haunt him? He's started to ask himself— were you just playing dumb at this point or just plain stupid? Or what if you had known all along and the two of you were just dancing around it?

EPEL FELMIER — you kissed him?

Epel eventually learns to use the way others perceive him to his advantage; there's strength in appearing to be weak and striking when the iron is hot. Still, he couldn't help but wish to be seen for his talents and strength instead of his beauty at the first glance. The first assumption everyone makes of him, for god's sake, is that he's a fragile little thing from a rich family, and, quite frankly, he's sick of it.

So he's secretly delighted when none of his charms worked on you and you yank him by the ear for even attempting. A few curse words and rough shoves later, both of you are on the floor, grappling and wrestling against each other. The two of you are laughing so hard and swearing so loudly that you'll probably wake up the rest of Pomefiore at this rate, but neither of you care. It's just the two of you right now grasping at each other like your life depended on it.

It's a nice change of pace to be openly exchanging insults instead of restraining himself. He enjoys the comfortable rhythm the two of you share— from all the brawls and the bantering and the hugs and to the kisses on the cheek. Yes, kisses. They started as simple thank you's after a few favors here and there, and just one of them is enough to make a mess out of Epel for weeks. Better yet, you only seem to be showering him with more and more of your attention and he relishes in it.

Ah, things are finally working out for him! He found someone he could confide in and he's sure that there's a spark between the two of you. By the end of the year, he might have someone to bring home and brag about to his relatives—

All the momentum halts when he sees you across the hall granting the rest of your friends the same levels of affection. From all the brawls to the bantering to the hugs and the kisses, none of those were ever solely his to take delight upon. It doesn't matter that he opened up to you about all his fears and insecurities because he was never special. You were just the kind of person who got along and felt comfortable with everyone around you, but Epel hates that he has no one to blame but himself. He willingly walked your warmth but it was never his to take.

It finally dawns upon him that you have never seen him in a romantic light and that was why you were so comfortable around him. In retrospect, the bond you two shared was more sibling-like than anything— and believe him when he says he's incredibly grateful that the two of you were that close —but it doesn't make it hurt any less to know that your affections never carried any romantic intentions after he had pinned for you for so long.

Even when he takes a step back, you're cruel in a roundabout way by continuing to be so kind and loving towards him. How was Epel supposed to make sense of your relationship after realizing he misunderstood you...?

And he also hates to admit this, but his self-confidence takes a huge blow from this. Epel genuinely thought he could be loved for who he was based on the time you spent together. It gnaws at him and eats him alive to finally know the truth, and sometimes he wishes he never found out at all.

SEBEK ZIGVOLT — you wrote him love letters?

So, Sebek asked (demanded) to be penpals...

It's all because Lilia told him it would be a good exercise of diplomacy, he insisted. As the young master's bodyguard, he will have to be as courteous as possible even in unpleasant company. He also rationalized, admittedly partly because of you, that forging bonds with magicless humans may be a worthwhile endeavor after all! It's all rather suspicious (and you suspect his real intentions have something to do with your friendship with Malleus), but Sebek has never been one to lie about his intentions. If anything, the popular opinion was that he's a little too honest and should learn a thing or two about holding back.

There's something very unconventional in sending handwritten letters in this day and age of modern technology, but also something very romantic and fantastical— much like the many fictional knights he had read about. It helps a lot that he's not directly confronted by the fact you are very much a magicless human who shouldn't be in NRC whenever he spills out his heart's contents unto multiple pages. It was a way for him to release his frustrations, celebrate his achievements, and talk about the dull, little things thats happened in his day-to-day life to someone who listened.

And listen you did. Turns out, when you're not subjected to his 1000 decibel shouting, Sebek is a rather earnest guy who worked hard and acknowledged others who also worked equally as hard no matter their disposition. To say the least, you understand why Lilia found it so entertaining to tease him.

It completely flies over his head that you had been flirting with him for months through these letters. Your everyday interactions with each other had been completely normal, so how was he supposed to notice?! It takes multiple rereads and many late-night discussions with the other Diasomnia dormers to decode and understand all the double entendres and hidden 'i love you's' in each and every letter. It was so needlessly difficult, but Lilia laughs in his face and pats him at the back for a job well-done.

"There's no way," he thinks to himself late at night and finds himself doubting Lilia's claims for once. But when Sebek steals a glance in your direction and you smile back in return, he's never felt weaker in his knees. You're absolutely and undeniably magic-less... but somehow you had casted a spell that made his chest tighten and shut him up. He hadn't even realized how much time he was spending with you and thinking about you when he wasn't.

Except nothing has changed in-person. You're acting like you hadn't meticulously hidden your affections for him in those letters, and he was starting to seriously doubt all of it. Yeah, were you event smart enough to pull off all that? As some magic-less human?

Actually... Sebek realizes that you are capable of outsmarting him after getting to know you much better through those letters. He's never been one to deny where credit it was due. Now, Sebek's just deeply ashamed that he failed to accurately assess your character before making judgements based on superficial traits. He knows better than anyone that you're witty, charming, brave, kind, beautiful, ambitious—

Oh no.

Oh no.

Sebek simply explodes on the spot once he realizes that he had been oblivious to his own feelings for you too. He had thoroughly examined every aspect of this conundrum except from within. Quite embarrassing from an esteemed knight of the prince of nocturnal fae to be this slow, really.

[teojira]

[Click Click Boom] [Shadow x Reader short stories]

Summary: You're set to be Shadow's companion to keep an eye on him and keep him in line, a courtesy from the goverment for him saving the world with Sonic and the others.

Word count: 1.8k

Warnings: Can be read as platonic or romantic! Shadow/reader romance is implied though! You're human in this, age is vague but you're meant to be in your 20s.

Disclaimer: Shadow is an adult, and as for the furry debate, he's literally an adult who can consent and is sentient, don't like? Don't read!

A/N: I've literally been obsessed with this fucker since I was a literal child and it's the first time I've written for him!! The trailer yas me going insane. This is written well before the movie has come out, literally all I got to work with is Shadow in the trailer and the bits and pieces of info I psychoanalized so I don't wanna hear shit about it not being accurate tbh, this is self indulgent!!

Shadow isn't the worst task you've been assigned, you both are more akin to awkward roommates more than anything.

I'm talking randomly lingering in the corners of the room, his bright red eyes glowing and they always seemed to be locked right onto you.

You screamed the first dozen times, but now you just glare at the black hedgehog and spit out a "fuck you." and go about your business.

He'll never admit that it brings him infinite amusement, it's hard to tell, but the huff he lets out is evidence enough.

Shadow will never admit he cares for you, he loses everyone he cares for, and humans don't live that long. It's terrifying to think about how much he's come to like you.

He's not nearly as slick as he thinks he is.

You're sitting down at the dinner table, typing away on your laptop, editing the mission report from the other day when Shadow makes his way towards you. Sending him a nod in his direction, you don't think of anything when he moves in close.

A huge slam takes you off guard though, jumping damn near out of your skin as you twist your head to look at him.

"What the fuck-"

"Take it."

It's one of Shadow's guns, his emblem being engraved along the stock.

"What? No, I have guns." You raise an eyebrow at the hog, his face is perfectly still, eyes locking onto yours as he waits for you to grab the heckler.

"Your guns are worthless, you need something better."

"Well excuse me, I so happen to like my guns." You try and joke back, but the offense is taken.

Shadow rolls his eyes so hard you're scared that he's gonna blind himself. Jutting his chin towards the table once more to get your focus back onto it.

"If you have one of mine, I know you're safe." He doesn't elaborate. Not that he needs to.

"...Thank you, Shad."

All you get is a grunt in response, and he's on his way back to his room.

Gingerly picking up the weapon, you take in how pristine it is, a thumb caressing your small initials that you missed on the other side of the stock.

With Shadow saving the world, the reeking of havoc makes it to where he's limited to what he is allowed to do in the public eye.

Not that he listens, he isn't supposed to be out after curfew. But to be fair, it is extremely hard to keep a teleporting hedgehog confined to a meager two-story house.

You can hear him teleport above you, he's on the roofs of the nearby building, leering down at you.

It was a small errand you were on, simply stocking up on the essentials for the house.

Namely, snacks for Shadow, he doesn't ask for a lot other than coffee beans and Doritos.

You are choosing to ignore the fact that he eats the coffee beans straight up, the crunch echoes through your head and it sends a shudder down your spine.

He was adamant against you leaving the house this late, standing in front of the front door.

"No."

"Fuck you mean no?"

"I said no."

"....I don't listen to men."

And you weaved around him to leave the house, ignoring his shout of disapproval.

That leads you both to here now, you pretending you don't see him trailing you from the rooftops as you walk your way back home from the small shopping center.

You feign surprise when he opens the house door for you, begrudgingly sticking a hand out to help you with your bags.

"Oh! Thank you my knight in shining armor~"

"Shut it."

He's never told you his birthday, which you can understand, living for 50 years and not having your family around must be hard. No matter how he may fake that it doesn't bother him.

That doesn't stop you, not in the slightest really. You damn near kick him out of the house for the day, shoving him over to Tom and Maddie's house so he can be with the others. Despite how much he protested.

"I don't want to go over there. Not with that blue fake."

"You don't really have a choice bub, I need you out of the house."

"I don't understand why I have to-"

"Keep arguing with me and I will make it a point to not buy you shit next grocery trip."

It's an empty threat, but he grunts nonetheless.

"...."

"That's what I thought."

When he finally gets home from his long and admittedly overstimulating day with the Wachowskis, he's ready to recharge in his room.

He teleports through the house door, sighing and rubbing at his temples as he moves to kick off his shoes, knowing that if he doesn't, you'd chastise him for not doing so.

Something about tracking dirt and rocket fuel into the carpet.

Whatever.

After trying to massage his brain through his fur, he opens his eyes up to see a colorful banner strung across the mantle.

'Happy birthday!' It screams, in its disgustingly neon color palette.

Shadow wracks his brain for any information of it being your birthday, he knows for a fact it isn't today. A friend you're throwing a party for? Well, that makes no sense, he knows very well you don't have many friends, especially any that you'd invite your house up for.

You're antisocial to a fault, not that he has absolutely any room to talk.

He hears you before he sees you, turning the corner into the living room, carrying some balloons in your hands. A stupid little party hat on your head.

"Shadow! What are you doing back so early?"

Kicking off the last shoe, he stands at his full height, staring into your eyes with a shrug.

"I wasn't aware I had a time."

"....fair enough, anyways, fuck, goddamnit. Stay here. Okay?"

And you're off, running into the kitchen, his ears flick at the slamming of the fridge door, followed by the cabinets being no doubt, hip nudging it shut way too forcefully.

He's awkwardly standing there still until you yell for him to come in.

Shadow has half a mind to ignore you and go into his room, but curiosity kills the cat, so he takes in a deep breath and makes his way to you.

He finds you sitting at the little kitchenette, a nervous smile spread across your lips as you gesture to the plate in front of you.

The smell is apparent, it's a coffee cupcake.

The hedgehog feels his ears flick again, staring down at the desert, then trailing his eyes back to meet your own. Wordlessly asking you what was going on.

"You've never told me your birthday, but it's been a year since you've been here, with me. After the whole trying to destroy the world shit. So since you won't tell me, we can kinda treat this as it?" You keep rambling, eyes flitting around the room, very clearly nervous as to his reaction.

Shadow doesn't say anything, or move even. Just staring down at the cupcake.

It looks amateurish, the frosting is lopsided, and the toppings on it look messy. But you made it for him. You even added a big black "1" candle in the center.

He doesn't know what to say, he can feel heat rush through his body, rushing to his ears and his face, and his fur feels constricting.

What the fuck.

What the actual fuck.

You go to open your mouth again, no doubt to apologize, but he beats you to it.

Moving to scoop up the treat, he gently sniffs it before taking a cautionary bite.

A beat passes between the two of you.

"...it's good."

Shadow does his best to ignore the smile that blooms across your face, not wanting to remember just how pretty he finds you like this.

Disgusting.

Shadow doesn't like touch, you know it, he knows it, and everyone knows it. He's threatened to break Sonic's wrist for even so much as patting the older hedgehog on the back. Baring his sharper fangs and hissing out to not touch him ever.

He avoids group hugs from Team Sonic, avoids Tom and Maddie like the plague, dodging every invitation to be a part of the family, it makes him sick to think about it.

With you, it's a little different.

You're not like them, you don't push him to change, you don't have a problem with how closed off he is, giving him space, never once pushing his very strict boundaries.

Something churns in his chest at the sound of you crying in your room, you probably think you're being incognito, holding a pillow to your face to drown out your sobs.

The internal debate is heavy, Shadow used to be able to comfort, to provide warmth, but he hasn't done so in years. Flashes of memories where he would comfort Maria on her bad health days, letting her run her fingers over his quills, to lend an ear to Gerald when he was frustrated about treatments not working.

It's not to say he is replacing you in their place, but it's scary. To open himself up like that again. He can feel his anxiety rising as he goes over the pros and cons of crossing this line. Eyes squeeze shut forcefully as he tells himself he doesn't care about you, that you're an adult, and you don't need to be babied.

His ears twitch when a pathetic little whimper drops from your lips, and his resolve cracks.

You don't look up when he makes his way in, too stuck in your bubble.

Startling a little when two, much stronger and larger hands grab at your own, peeling them away from the pillow. Your puffy bloodshot eyes looking at the hedgehog in front of you, his face set as it usually is, stoic. But his eyes are different, and his body language is different, when has he ever looked at you so softly? It's jarring.

Oh, he's moving closer. Okay. Weird.

"Shadow? Uh, I'm ok-"

You try and lie, it's a pitiful attempt. Your voice is scratchy and the tear tracks down your cheeks aren't helping your plight.

"No, you're not."

He shuts you down immediately, hands sliding up your arms to drag you into him.

The instant your bodies touch, you feel a fresh wave of tears well up in your eyes again.

Shadow has you resting against him, your head resting on him as he wraps himself loosely in your arms, giving you the space to move away if you so choose.

It's the first time he's allowed you to hug him, the first time he's ever initiated contact with someone in years. A fact that you both are well aware of.

A sob works its way up your throat, immediately tightening your grip on the hedgehog, curling into him as you shake.

Shadow doesn't say anything, doesn't make fun of you as snot pours from your nose, doesn't point out that your mascara and eyeliner are getting everywhere, just sits there and lets you cling onto him like he's your only lifeline.

He thinks that this is okay, he's strong enough for you both, and you don't need to worry when he's here.

[patrickispinky]

Freaky Ahhhh Headcanons

Wally Clark x AFAB!Reader

Warings: This is just pure smut. Oral (both giving and receiving) Overstimulation. Face sitting. Public Exhibition. Slight Dacryphilia. Kinda Rough. I think that's it.

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This man is a Freak with a capital F. Jaw dropping, eyes rolling back, sheet grabbing, pantie dropping, pussy dripping freak. 

Munch Munch Munch, idc if it's an outdated term it’s the only way i can describe him. He’d have you on your back or stomach for hours while he lays between your legs. He won't stop until you’re begging and crying for mercy. (I need a lobotomy)

With that being said he would beg you to sit on his face. He doesn't care how light or heavy you are, he needs your full weight pressed against him while he eats you out from below. He’d make a complete mess of you. Have you doubled over, body limp as you try to pull your hips away only for him to pull you back down begging to make you cum just one more time. 

He’s a romantic but the poor guys been dead for 40 years and there aren't a lot of options in the school so forgive him if he's a little selfish at first. He’d absolutely destroy you, a rough brutal pace while he whispers sweet nothings in your ear. 

On that note he's very vocal. Loves telling you how beautiful you are especially when you’re on your knees for him. “Fuck baby, you look so beautiful taking me down your throat like that.” Said as he wipes away the tears gently running down your face. (Again SOMEBODY SEDATE ME)  

After your first time together he wouldn't know how to keep his hands off you. The memory of you beneath him constantly playing on repeat in his mind. 

He loves the idea of showing you off and since the living cant see either of you he uses it to his advantage. He will fuck you anywhere and everywhere. Over a desk in the middle of an active class? Why the hell not? In the pool while the swim teams practicing? He's diving right in. Teachers lounge while the sad sacks sit around drinking coffee? Absolutely. 

Lets not forget about the resets. The body never changes aka infinite energy. Round after round after round. 

(Okay I’m done. I wrote this at work so sorry if it's shitty. Honestly I think I'm losing my mind. Like actually clinically insane. I think it’s time I call my therapist. Happy valentines day 😚 💞)

[n0tamused]

Hello! Congrats on 1.500 followers! May I request Fluff Prompt # 26. "Do you think we're friends/lovers in every universe?" (Romantic) for Amphoreus men: Mydei, Phainon, and Anaxa?

Thank you so much!

✿"Do you think we're lovers in every universe?"

A/n: Thank you! I hope you enjoy this <3

Ko-Fi |  1.5K followers event

˖ ࣪⊹Mydei

The question initially puzzles him, almost as if he doesn’t understand it, but the truth is that he simply never had the time to ponder over such things. It is an abstract thought, much like the thought of tomorrow, but in some small part of his chest he is sure of it as well. 

“Hmm.. I do not doubt that even in the vastness of the universe and bounds of time, our souls have found their way to one another in another place, as they did here” He told you, not looking directly at you but somewhere out into the sky, the thought clinging to the corners of his mind. It was a bit rare to hear him speak in such a way, so..hopeful and gentle, almost pure, even with the gravel still present in his words, but it was that sincerity that had your heart wishing to leap into his embrace. 

You knew that if some force in another universe had decided it would want to prevent you two from meeting, Mydei would have cleaved through it like a hot knife slides through butter. And you would have fought all the same. 

Perhaps it was an idealistic approach, overly romantic, but it felt too true to debate it. You sunk deeper into Mydei’s side, feeling his arm pull you into him as you embraced him, smiling.

˖ ࣪⊹Anaxa

“In every univers?” he furrows his brows as he pauses from writing down another word, “That is quite an.. intriguing question. Multiple different realities, different settings but all with the same players. Seems like a bit of a stretch to me..” he shook his head, but the faltering of his grip on his quill spoke of unspoken thoughts that the question sparked in his mind. 

“The chances of us being together, or even knowing each other in every single universe is a low probability. In a way, it is almost absurd” he continued on, “however, in the universes we are together in, I have no doubts that you are one of the very few I openly hold dear”

Truth of this question is all out of reach, but that does not stop one mind from wondering and wandering, not even his own mind whom he boasts is always founded in facts and evidence. But there was something so symbolic and romantic in your inquiry that he could not deny, it was a comforting concept, and for a moment he wished he could glimpse into this other universe. But perhaps to glimpse such a thing, he needs to first cherish every single moment here, which he plans to do. 

˖ ࣪⊹Phainon

Phainon smiles when you ask that, looking over at you with a fond smile and even fonder eyes. A small touch of sadness graces his heart but he dares not let it affect him in that moment, instead he lets his mind flood with images of different universes. You and him. In one you have your hair in a different color, and he has his hair long, in another he is building a house for the both of you and you’re bringing out a tray of your favorite snacks and his favorite drink. Many more fill his thoughts, and he finds no doubt within his being - he’d love you in all the universes. 

“That is quite possible.. The universe is infinite, and so are the possibilities of our meeting. I believe we are together in every one, meeting under different circumstances, finding out again and again the same little things about one another.. Yes.. I can’t imagine a world where we do not meet, where we are not together..”

Ⓒ n0tamused/jarttavia_. Do not repost, translate, edit, and/or copy any of my works. Likes, comments, and reblogs are appreciated.

[yoiisa]

hello! I just read your pining fics ab windbreaker boys!! can we also have that with sakura, suo, kiryu, sugishita and kaji if that’s okay? but with a crush that is very popular that even small little thing they do get fawned over? like they could be walking and people would say: “theyre so pretty!” “how cute” “I can walk them in any aisle!” cue the boys getting jealous + points if reader knows their crush on them yet rejects their advances every time in a playful way? Like wb boys would confess their feelings for the Hundred time and reader only say: ”awh how sweet!”

eeeee! ofc ofc! these ones might a lil short for each though since i'm doing multiple characters! also this prompt totally reminded me of Aoi and Akane from TBHK iykyk (>ᴗ•) !

➜ sakura haruka is already incredibly romantically dense, so i feel like having a crush on someone who's constantly being showered with flirtations and romantic advances just makes it worse ➜ i can imagine him being like really protective over you though in an overt way ➜ like he will actively tell people off/to leave you alone when their flirtations get to be a bit too much ➜ in my mind, the reason why the two of you haven't started dating is because sakura still has a lot of issues socially that he needs to work towards fixing before he can take on the responsibility of the relationship ➜ but you've promised to wait for him, and that's really all he could ever ask for, so cue a romantic limbo for the ages!

Saturday mornings always meant the market was a little busy, but you didn't mind it one bit. The hustle and bustle made you feel a lot more energized. However, there was one thing that was thing that was draining your spirit, and that was this middle school kid following you around and continuously pestering you for your number. You'd told him off multiple times, and he seemed to take the hint, but nope. You'd turn the corner and he'd be right there, with another cocky grin and a can do attitude that made you want to put your head in a wall. "Please! Just one shot!" the boy says desperately. "Here, where's your phone? I pull my number in-" "I told you no!" you say adamantly, "Now please leave me alone! How many more times do I have to say it?" "Please-" the boy reaches for your arm and his hand wraps around your wrist, but just as it does, a chill runs up that boys spine. Sakura appears, and looks ready to throw the boy into the nearest vendor's stall. His two-toned eyes are all fury and he growls, "She said no. Now beat it." The middle schooler rambles out an apology before turning on his heels and promptly diving back into the crowd, desperate to avoid Sakura's wrath. Sakura turns to you and gives you an unimpressed look. You meet it with a wide smile and say, "Thanks Haru!" Sakura's face burns and he shakes his head as if to try and dissipate the heat. He grabs the same wrist the guy had, but infinitely more gently. His thumb smooths over the skin and he gently leads you throughout the rest of the shopping trip, making sure to keep watch for any more creeps lingering about.

➜ suo hayato's honestly the most mature of the bunch, so i feel like you getting showered with attention wouldn't bother him that much ➜ at least that's what he'd like you to think ➜ honestly, i feel like suo would be a weird shield from all the comments directed at you. he would always hang out near you and try to distract you from the hoard of attention coming your way ➜ god forbid you pay attention to anyone other than him. he wants to be the apple of your eye, and he knows exactly how to do it ➜ if a guy is particularly persistent, suo will promptly take him to the side and as passive aggressively as he can ward that other person off ➜ see, he likes to pretend that he's all mature and stuff, and he definitely is in the show, but at the end of the day, he is a high school boy. he's got that immaturity in him too ➜ even if you lowkey eat it up . . .

"Suo?" you ask as he returns to your side. You'd been standing on a bridge and tossing some bread down to the fish in the water below when he walked up towards you. "What're you doing here? "I was just walking by and saw you, so I wanted to come over and say hi," he says, a soft smile gracing his features. "But you went to the bakery . . .?" you ask, but then Suo raises his hand and gently pats your head. In doing this, he also directs your gaze downwards by gently pushing on your head. Your eyes land on his hand, where he's holding a small bag with the bakery's logo on it. A baguette sticks out of the bag, and you can see the top of what looks like . . . strawberry cake?! "I wanted to feed the fish with you," he explains, " and they were having a sale on cake. Two slices for the price of one!You like strawberries, right? I got chocolate for myself." "Ahh!" You squeal and hug him, your eyes squeezing shut. He sets the cake down and hugs you back, his hands going to your waist "You're the best Suo, thank you so much!" He looks up just in time to see the poor soul wandering out of the bakery and sending him a withering look. He's holding his own bag, because you see, that kid initially wanted to pull what Suo's doing right now. The two of them had been in a race at the bakery, anxious to see who'd get checked out first and make it to you. By some stroke of luck, the other guy's cash register crashed, and Suo was first to leave. He'd made sure to flash the guy a . . . daring smile at the guy as he left, an invitation of sorts. Just try it, Suo said with his eyes. I dare you. But you don't need to know all that. Not while you're enjoying your cake!

➜ kiryu mitsuki has a bit of a playful personality, so i feel like he'd enjoy you teasing him back a little the most out of all the boys ➜ after all, he's canonically known as a ladies man, so you can't let yourself get drawn by some potential fuckboy! ➜ you've known kiryu since you were little, and occasionally would bring him some food for lunch. the first time it was a little scary since you were going into a place that had no girls, but everyone was super nice to you, so you got used to it by your third time going ➜ however kiryu knew a lot of the niceness was just because of how cute you are, and honestly you do too ➜ but it makes you happy seeing kiryu get riled up a little bit from all the attention you're receiving, especially since he's normally even keeled

"Ah! Y/N! Hey!" someone calls from behind you. Anzai and a few of his friends are walking with him. Anzai is waving at you and you slow to a stop in front of the classroom door. "Hi Anzai," you say sweetly, and you wave at his friends as they catch up to you. "Hi guys." "Wow! Is that another bento for Kiryu?" one of them asks, eyeing the small box in your hands. You nod. "It's just some sushi I got from a convenience store. I was super busy yesterday, I'm so sleepy~ I couldn't be bothered to cook anything at all!" "Wow Y/N, you're so hard working!" Anzai marvels, opening the door. You step inside, and all the attention falls on you. "You were so exhausted, but you still look so put together," his friends point out. "You're so cute!" "Thank you!" you say cheerily, running your hands through your hair. It falls perfectly back into place, courtesy of the amount of product you'd put in it to keep it healthy and strong. You shrug and sigh, "I try." "It's really paying off!" Anzai says with a bright smile. "Enough!" Kiryu calls from the other side of the class. Tsuguera and Nirei giggle at him, Sakura rolls his eyes. Suo just smiles at the pink-haired boy's attitude. "Y/N's here for me not you!" "A little possessive there, no?" Suo asks. Kiryu pouts and buries his face in his arms as he puts his head on his desk. "I'm hungryyyyy~" "Yeah, yeah, I'm coming," you laugh. You wave Anzai and his friends bye before walking over to Kiryu and his friends. You set the bento down in front of him, and talk with his friends. Your smile grows a little as Kiryu links his pinky with yours.

➜ i think sugishita kyotaro is a little like sakura, but like, silent ➜ whereas sakura's more likely to verbally call the person out, sugishita will just loom ominously near you, and chase away anyone who wants to make a pass at you ➜ he's so doberman coded, it's honestly hilarious ➜ i think the one person he can stand that kinda behavior from though would be umemiya. he worships that man, so he'd just bite his tongue, and let umemiya just say whatever. ➜ he still gets mad though, so if he's a little more touchy later on, well, how can you blame him? ➜ after all, blushing, jealous sugishita is the cutest thing in the world!

You're sitting on the roof with Tsubaki, Umemiya, and Sugishita for a tiny tea party. Tsubaki and you organized it, and just brought your respective . . . people with you. "Hey, Y/N," Umemiya starts after eating a macaron, "did you do something different with your makeup?" "Yeah, I was gonna say something," Tsubaki says, pouring more tea in your cup. "I just tried a different blush," you explain. You touch your cheek, and quietly ask, "Does it look bad?" "No, no, no!" Umemiya hurriedly says, holding his hands up in defense. "It looks cute! It compliments you really well! Matches your eyes and stuff?" Sugishita sits up a little straighter at Umemiya's compliments and you laugh softly at his rigid posture. You look at Umemiya and ask, "Have you been getting into makeup lately, Umemiya?" The white-haired boy shakes his head and says, "Nah, I've just been spending too much time with this one." He rests his hand on Tsubaki's shoulder and smiles. "But seriously, you look gorgeous." "Thank you!" you say taking a sip of your tea. You look over and Sugishita out of the corner of your eye, and you freeze momentarily at the look on his face. His eyes are lidded and his face is flushed slightly. He nods and says, "He's right." It takes everything in Tsubaki and Umemiya not to combust right then and there. They feel like crying, as if they're proud parents. As the tea party continues, you and Sugishita link fingers under the table, and he scoots ever so slightly closer to you. Umemiya gives him a knowing look and smile, and Sugishita does everything he can to avoid his gaze for the rest of the party.

➜ think kaji ren's solution to all of this is to just put his headphones on you instead ➜ because in his mind, if you can't hear it, it never happens! but like . . . that's not true ➜ you refuse to keep his headphones on. first of all the two of you have different music tastes, and second of all, you like making him upset ➜ like everyone around him says, he's a cat! to a certain degree, messing with him is endearing ➜ so you don't actively encourage the flirtations you get, but you will lean into them just a little bit to get under his skin ➜ plus he's hot when he's protective

"Where are my headphones?" is the first thing he says to you when he sees you. "I gave them to Hiragi," you say, blinking at him innocently. "Why?"" A vein pops in his forehead and he snaps, "Why did you take them off." "My ears felt like they were bleeding," you whine. "You set the volume up so high!" "You could've lowered it!" "It's too much work!" "Y/N!" "Ren!" "What is wrong with you?!" "Why do you caaarreee-uh!" you protest cutely. Kaji stares down at you, his cheeks turning red. He stutters something incoherent, his voice raspy with frustration. You can't help but smirk as you stare up at him, knowing that now you've got him exactly where you need him to be. You cup his face in your hands and pull him closer to you. He freezes and his eyes go wide as you brush your cheeks with his thumb. "I'm playing," you giggle. "I know why, but seriously Ren, you don't need to worry. No one else is this fun to annoy." Kaji can't decide where or not her wants to kiss or kill you. His brain short circuits and he settles for something in between. His forehead falls against yours and he grumbles. "You're so stupid," he grumbles, a pout forming on his lips. "I know," you smile.

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realistic sex with san

san x f!reader fluff | smut | mdni a/n: welcome to this series. where i'll try to imagine how each member would actually fuck, as ✨realistically✨ as possible. happy sannie day. enjoy ♡ disclaimer: i say realistic but lets be honest this is pure delulu behaviour and total fiction. everything is solely based on the vibes the boys give off.

i feel like san isn’t the pursuing kinda guy. he’s really shy at the beginning, especially if he’s crushing on you. since he’s a cancer baby ♋ he would actually avoid you/ignore you. 

At first you would just think he just does not care about you, not necessarily hate you because he would seem so laid back about it but in reality his heart is racing when he sees you and it’s just easier for him to avoid you

so why doesn’t he just go for it? what??? no! you’re crazy? what if you weren’t interested? he would never be able to accept the rejection. so he’d rather have this crush stay as it is. unless you take actions into your own hands? (spoiler it's what you’ll have to do to score this man)

at some point the others are tired of seeing san snob you when you’re around then gush about you when you’re away so one of the member just spills the tea (spoiler alert it was either joong or woo because they were sick of it or yeosang but he didn’t mean to)

so with that new knowledge you’ll just have to make your move

i think he has a careful/cautious nature so he doesn't fold immediately because you could be playing games we never know but he definitely doesn't take long before he gives in because he’s head over heels and can't resist you

after a while, if your actions and words are consistent things change. he gets confident and he’s all over you all the time.

he’s pda line with mingi and woo

he just loves to have you near him, he wants to feel that you are near.

if there’s people around he wont care he just wants to hold your hand or for you to sit on his lap (if he’s feeling naughty he will even sneak his hand on your ass, give a light quiet little spank or just squeeze it in his large gym rat hand because this man just loves your ass)

he’s perfectly fine with you doing your own thing. he doesn't require to be doing every single little thing together but he wants to stroke your thigh when you’re reading and he’s watching his cheesy romantic kdrama. because yeah san is a whole ass romantic. the hopeless kind.

but he’s also realistic. he knows loves comes from trust and communication and oh boy he just knows how to talk to you. even if he’s a little susceptible sometimes (i think he is a sensitive boy thats who’s hiding being the muscle mountain) he always communicates with you effectively. and that's because of his nurturing nature (cancer baby ♋)

At the end of the day san wants to coddle you, cherish you, LOVE YOU.

he has so much love to give. i mean he said it himself he grew up receiving a lot of love so he knows how to receive it and give it

speaking of it love isnt san’s only infinite resource 

i feel like san has also a lot stamina probably the highest out of all of them doesn't mean he has the highest sex drive (that’s probs mingi or joong) but when he’s in the mood he can go for a looooonnng time he is tireless, he is relentless

for instance he never taps out first. when your body is exhausted and your shivering and trembling and he’s came thrice already you have all the rights to assume he is done but then he folds your legs up on your chest again and you whimper because you don’t know if you can take it anymore so he whispers “please baby i just need one more, okay? will you be my good girl, just one more time?” you moan and arch your back as he slides in and he shivers from slight overstimulation. but nonetheless you look up to him through your wet lashes and nod. so he instantly starts to sharply snap his hips against yours, making you whimper meekly. “that's right baby. I knew you could do it, you’re doing so well” he whispers as he gently holds your chin up to bend down and kiss you.

that would be a common occurrence if he’s domming BUT! san is a switch especially with you he likes to hand out the reigns once in a while because he trusts you.

and if he subs that stamina becomes your greatest ally. you can just tie him up and work him with a fleshlight for hours, milking him so many times that the last orgasm has his cock twitching but nothing coming out anymore. You make him cum so much that you both lose count at some point. if he finishes and he softens a little sloppy kiss, a little teasing of his nipples (i feel like he has sensitive nipples idk why kdslmfkdfdmlskf) and then boom he’s hard again. that man just can’t resist you. and he whines for you to stop, to continue, he’s not sure. you can just make him go insane and he loves that.

ok so i teased it in yunho’s part but i think san has a size kink. big one. 

the reason behind it i think is actually an insecurity of his. i don’t think he’s satisfied with his height you can kinda pick up in his body language that it’s a sensitive subject whenever it’s brought up by the other members and i think it’s also part of the reason why he works out so much. sure he will never be tall tall but he can definitely be big. so i think san would be into a partner that’s smaller than him (rip us tall girlies)

so he loves to tower over you, he loves that he’s able to hide you behind him, completely conceal you.

if he’s fucking you missionnary he loves to really emphasize that. “look at you, so small down there?” he loves taking the overly sweet and condescending tone when he doms (it makes you melt every time). “you’re doing so well for me baby. your tiny little body is taking my big cock so well” and he would lay his weight on you, really making you feel small.

also quick side note regarding 🍆 size. i don't think san is really long i think he’s average BUT he’s definitely girthy. He’s got some width to him and i also think he’s slightly curved upwards and god does he take advantage of that. if he fucks you missionary the angle is just devine and he loves to push down on your belly making sure you really feel him (dont mind me screaming rn because of san’s secret bulge kink)

he also loves when you tend to his size kink while he’s subbing. that could sound counterintuitive at first but hear me out

if he’s lying on his back on your shared bed and you are riding him and edging him he would keep his hands to his side not to influence your rhythm. he goes absolutely insane when you say “look at you big boy?” giving a particularly harsh bounce. “you’re suffering quietly? why aren’t you flipping me over and taking me exactly how you'd want” at this point he would beg and squirm so perfectly. “i know why because you know you must not. because you’re a good boy and you’d anything keep it that way right baby?” maybe teasing his nipples a little bit making him grit his teeth. “yes yes i wanna be good for you. i wanna be your good boy. p-please. ah fuck… pleaseplease”. so there you turn around and aim for the finish line he just can't get enough of seeing your perfect ass bounce on his cock. it’s his favorite position he just loves it whether he doming or subbing he loves it and it doesn't take long before he collapses and stuffs you full of pipping hot cum with grunts interspersed with small whimpers.

then when sexy time is done i feel like san is the kind of guy that has to hop in the shower he doesn't stand being sticky especially to bed. if you’re too tired it’s okay because he’s strong and he will carry you to the bathroom and wash you and then he’ll tuck you in bed and spoon you 

he’d rather be the little spoon because he’s a big pouty baby after sex. but he’ll settle for anything if he gets to sleep curled up with you

bonus: i think san’s special kink would be recording you, making a sex tape with you. then watching it together. he would actually love to see more clearly how good he makes you feel or how small you actually look next to him. something he cant really see when he’s in the heat of the moment. he would also definitely tease you about it. “look at you, love. you’re shaking. i guess i must be that good” he would get so cocky about it but if you retort anything his wits go from 100 to 0 real fast. “what about you? look at you fucking moaning and worshipping my pussy? you really can’t get enough of it can you?” then he pouts for a second. Then he wraps his strong arms around your waist and pulls you close to him. “you’re right i can’t get enough of your pretty little pussy.” gives you a kiss on your nape and breathes heavily against your skin “i love how wet you get for me.” an other kiss and another sultry whisper. “can you show me again?” (circle back to the stamina thing… he’s INSATIABLE 😵‍💫)

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a/n: finally back with this series! san was so fun to write actually. who will be next jongho, yeosang or hongjoong? just request them in the comments hehe <3

realistic sex with seonghwa, with mingi, with yunho, with wooyoung

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PICK A CARD

HOW WILL THE FIRST DATE FEEL?

Velvet Prophecies: A Love Series Channeled by moi

This isn’t just a tarot reading—it’s the moment the butterflies realize they’re not hallucinating.

A continuation of the love series, this chapter dives into the night everything shifts.

Maybe it’s that eyes-lock-across-the-room magnetism.

Maybe it’s candlelight confessions and fingertips grazing by fate.

Either way? This is the date that rewrites your timeline.

Written in glances. Told in skin-speak. Felt in the bones. Choose with your body. Read with your soul.

And don’t be shy—tell me which pile made your heart stutter.

—

Channeled by Dior Harris.

Stay infinite. Stay divine. Stay velvet.

A bientôt, mon ange.

PILE ONE:

“The Moment Their Breath Hitched”

Theme: Magnetic first impression. Timeless attraction. Instant soul déjà vu.

Channeled Full Reading:

You know when the air gets thick with tension, but no one says anything?

That’s what the moment felt like when their eyes first met yours.

This isn’t just a date—it’s an interruption.

A soul-level “Wait… you exist?”

This pile is pure energetic combustion. From the moment you both arrive, there’s something electric, like the atoms are recognizing each other before your minds catch up.

They didn’t expect to see you—not just physically, but spiritually.

And baby, you? You’re glowing. Not even from your outfit (though it’s iconic)—but because your field is calling them in like a damn lighthouse.

There’s a moment of stunned silence—one of those “I forgot what I was gonna say because wow” pauses.

And that’s when it hits: they’re not just attracted to you… they’re curious about your soul.

Card Spread (9 Total):

1. The Lovers – Upright (Oracle de Nuit Tarot)

Numerology: 6 – Harmony, union, divine connection

Symbolism: Choices, magnetism, karmic alignment

Message: This first date is an energetic choice-point. You’re both here on purpose. This meeting? Marked.

2. The Table is Set – Upright (Oracle of Sensory Realms)

Symbolism: Divine preparation, sensual details

Message: The ambiance is just right. Think dim lights, something fragrant, maybe music that plays like your mood. Everything feels like it was orchestrated.

3. Mars in Libra – Reversed (AstroAlignment Deck)

Message: There’s nervous tension—they want to impress you but might overthink it. Expect slight stumbles, awkward charm, hand fidgeting. You shake their cool.

4. The Hanged One – Upright (Sanctified Mirror Tarot)

Message: This isn’t fast-paced flirting. There’s pause. Introspective gazes. Space to notice. They’re looking at you like, “Why do I feel like I know you?”

5. Knight of Cups – Upright (Worship of the Moon Tarot)

Message: They’re coming in romantic. Compliments, soft eyes, maybe a small gift or thoughtful gesture. They’re not trying to win you—they’re trying to understand you.

6. The Blush Card – Upright (Your Signature Deck – Unreleased)

Message: You’ll both blush. For different reasons. They’ll trip on their words. You’ll smile too wide. The chemistry is tender, not wild. It builds.

7. Four of Wands – Reversed (Sacred Pulse Tarot)

Message: This isn’t a fireworks-first-date vibe—it’s a soft ignition. There may not be a kiss yet, but there will be something more intimate: an eye contact that lingers.

8. Moon in Gemini – Upright (Emotion Codes Astro Deck)

Message: You’ll talk for hours—maybe nervously at first, but then effortlessly. You’ll leave with questions, wanting more, replaying everything they said in your head.

9. The Second Date Card – Upright (The Unwritten Love Tarot)

Message: Yes. There’s a second date. They’ll initiate. Possibly within two days. Why? Because they left that night needing more of your light.

Symbols in This Reading:

• Velvet textures – Soft, magnetic sensuality

• Candlelight – Soul-level familiarity

• Laughter that surprises both of you – Nervous joy

• Mistimed eye contact – Desire and wonder

• A shared silence – A portal opens

Numerology Vibes:

• 6 (The Lovers) – Soul recognition

• 4 (Wands) – Foundation forming

• 2 (Second date) – Mutual curiosity and pursuit

• Master Number 22 – Foundation of something meant to last

Channeled Angel Numbers:

• 212 – Mutual attraction, unspoken resonance

• 717 – You both feel the pull even if you can’t name it

• 808 – Emotional safety. The foundation is karmic

Channeled Song:

“Her” – Majid Jordan

“You’re the only one that I’ve been dreaming of…”

That vibe where someone walks in and suddenly, every past fantasy has a face.

Confirmation Letters:

L – D – P – A – J

These might be their initials, your middle name, the café name, the perfume they comment on, or a city one of you mentions.

Message from Their Higher Self:

“I didn’t plan to fall this hard over dinner. But when I saw you? My timeline paused.”

PILE ONE

Drop an L if you’ve ever made someone stutter with just a smile.

Reblog if you’re ready for a date that feels like déjà vu wrapped in velvet.

PILE TWO:

“The Date That Changes Everything”

“They walked in ready for dinner—and left planning forever.”

Theme: Unexpected depth. Quiet intensity. A timeline shift you feel in your body.

Full Channeled Reading:

This isn’t the kind of date you expect—it’s the kind that slips into your bones and rearranges you.

You thought you’d be cute, maybe flirty, maybe a little giggly. But no—this one goes straight to the soul.

This is the kind of night where everything feels louder—your heartbeat, their breath, the air between you.

Even the waiter notices. There’s a hum around you. Like the universe is tuned in.

They don’t look at you like you’re a stranger.

They look at you like you’re a return.

Like, “Oh. There you are.”

And somewhere during the appetizers—while you’re saying something about a random childhood dream or your favorite artist—

they fall.

Not loudly.

Not obviously.

But irrevocably.

Card Spread (10 Total):

1. Two of Cups – Upright (Tarot of Returning Souls)

Numerology: 2 – Partnership, reflection

Message: This is mutual. This isn’t one-sided chemistry—it’s shared recognition.

They see you. And you feel safe enough to be seen.

2. The Soul’s Spark – Upright (Oracle of Divine Timing)

Symbolism: Eye contact that wakes up dormant timelines

Message: There’s a moment—a specific glance—where it hits both of you. Like, “Oh. This isn’t just a date.”

3. Moon in Capricorn – Upright (AstroLegacy Cards)

Message: They’re trying to hold it together, baby.

On the outside? Composed.

On the inside? Obsessing. Respecting. Already rearranging their schedule.

This person is serious—but your presence softens them.

4. The Hermit – Reversed (Lantern Light Tarot)

Message: You’re pulling someone out of hiding.

They’ve been isolated emotionally for a while—but you? You make them want to try again.

5. Seven of Pentacles – Upright (Root and Bloom Tarot)

Message: They start thinking long-term—before dessert hits the table.

This person notices the way you speak, laugh, dream.

They’re not rushing it. They’re savoring it.

6. Venus in Cancer – Upright (AstroLove Deck)

Message: Expect comfort. Warmth. Familiarity.

You might end up sharing emotional stories, family wounds, or big hopes.

It won’t feel like oversharing—it’ll feel like relief.

7. The Coat Left Behind – Upright (Your Signature Deck – Unreleased)

Message: Someone “forgets” something—or lingers after the bill.

There’s an excuse to stay close a little longer.

Or a desire to come back.

8. Six of Swords – Reversed (Soul Transition Tarot)

Message: Neither of you wants the night to end.

Even if the date’s simple—a park walk, a coffee—it lingers.

You might sit in a car talking until 2am. Or text immediately after they drop you off.

9. The Second Door – Upright (Mystic Threshold Oracle)

Message: This date unlocks something new.

Not just a second date—a new era.

A shift. A soft opening of your heart that stays open.

10. Knight of Pentacles – Upright (Earth Devotion Tarot)

Message: They’re here to build.

This isn’t fast. This isn’t flashy.

But it’s solid. Reliable.

They leave the date already planning how to earn your trust and keep your attention.

Symbols in This Reading:

• Shared jacket or warmth moment – Quiet affection

• Music playing faintly in the background – Emotional frequency match

• Cutlery clicking against plates – Nervous anticipation

• Light drizzle or night air – Romantic tension

• Hands brushing “by accident” – Sexual tension disguised as innocence

Numerology Vibes:

• 2 (Cups) – Connection, partnership

• 6 (Swords) – Desire for emotional movement

• 7 (Pentacles) – Long-term vision

• Master Number 11 – Soul alignment, mirrored moments

Channeled Angel Numbers:

• 922 – A destined partnership is forming. Don’t overthink the pace.

• 311 – Truth shared is intimacy created.

• 2244 – Slow and steady union. Real. Tangible. Worth it.

Channeled Song

“Until I Found You” – Stephen Sanchez

Lyric: “I was lost within the darkness, but then I found her…”

Confirmation Letters:

S – T – M – B – V

Could connect to their first name, the place you meet, a song lyric, or your next journal entry title.

Message from Their Higher Self:

“I didn’t know I still believed in this kind of connection… until you made me feel like I never stopped.”

Pile Two

Drop a V if your softness deserves a slow-burning love.

Reblog if you’re ready for a date that turns strangers into soulmates.

PILE THREE:

“The Date Where Everything Almost Happens”

“The kiss didn’t land, but the timeline did.”

Theme: Magnetic tension. Divine pause. Longing that rewrites your breath pattern.

Full Channeled Reading:

Okay babe—this date?

It’s the kind that haunts your skin after.

The kind that feels like your bodies had a conversation your mouths were too nervous to finish.

This pile is drenched in anticipation. Not frustration—no, this isn’t “will-they-won’t-they?”

It’s “we’re both feeling this, but it’s almost too sacred to rush.”

You meet and from the jump, there’s that look.

The one that lingers a second too long.

You’re both lowkey clocking how hard you’re trying not to look too interested… and failing.

There’s light brushing.

Close chairs.

A coat held longer than it needs to be.

But no kiss.

Not yet.

Because this date is about emotional hunger over instant gratification.

There’s laughter—but beneath it?

Reverence.

This person is trying so hard not to mess this up.

Because they already know: this date shifts everything.

Card Spread (9 Total):

1. The High Priestess – Upright (Temple Veil Tarot)

Numerology: 2 – Sacred connection, hidden truth

Message: There’s mystery here. You’re both reading each other’s energy more than the words. It’s spiritual seduction.

2. The Spark Card – Upright (Oracle of First Fire)

Symbolism: Eye contact that could burn down rooms

Message: It’s not a crush. It’s ignition. And they feel it too.

3. Mars in Scorpio – Upright (AstroAlchemy Archetypes)

Message: Intense, sensual, under-the-surface attraction.

They’re trying to hold back because they don’t want to reduce this to a hookup. But baby, their thoughts? They’ve gone there. In detail.

4. The Chariot – Reversed (Celestial Axis Tarot)

Message: Something holds them back from acting on it.

Maybe they’re nervous. Maybe you are. But it’s divine.

You’re building tension—not skipping intimacy.

5. Nine of Wands – Upright (Sacred Stamina Deck)

Message: One or both of you has been hurt before—recently.

That’s why the kiss doesn’t land. The feelings are loud, but the walls are still up.

6. The Unspoken Card – Upright (Your Signature Deck – Unreleased)

Message: So much is said without saying a word.

Expect lingering silences.

Expect almost-touches.

Expect eyes that ask, “Are you feeling this too?”

7. Five of Cups – Reversed (Wounded Love Tarot)

Message: Healing is happening—quietly, gently.

This date is emotional recalibration. You both realize, “I don’t want to lose this by moving too fast.”

8. Venus in Taurus – Upright (AstroLover’s Oracle)

Message: They’re savoring you. Every movement. Every smile.

This person doesn’t want a moment—they want memories.

9. The Delay is Divine – Upright (Fated Threads Oracle)

Message: Spirit is whispering:

“Wait. Build. Let it simmer.”

Because when it does happen? It’ll hit like destiny detonated.

Symbols in This Reading:

• Sweatersleeves pulled over fingers – Vulnerability

• Napkins twisted in hands – Nervous energy

• Eyes glancing at lips – Controlled temptation

• Prolonged hugs – Repressed desire

• Music playing faintly that neither of you comment on – Psychic communication

Numerology Vibes:

• 2 (High Priestess) – Sacred secrecy, mirrored awareness

• 5 (Cups) – Emotional evolution

• 9 (Wands) – Boundary softening

• Master Number 33 – Spiritual communication, sensual resonance

Channeled Angel Numbers:

• 122 – Slow-burn love, energetic alignment

• 636 – Balancing attraction with emotional safety

• 933 – Rewriting old love patterns through new sacred connection

Channeled Song:

“Altar” – Kehlani

“You know I’ll worship you right there on the altar…”

The vibe? Reverent attraction. Sacred seduction.

Confirmation Letters:

K – N – R – E – F

Could tie to the name of the location, initials of someone from the past, a restaurant song, or the scent on their skin.

Message from Their Higher Self:

“I wanted to kiss you—but my soul said, not yet. I want to do this right.”

Pile Three

Drop a K if you’ve ever held back because the connection was too real.

Reblog if you’re ready for the kind of first date that lingers like perfume in memory.

PILE FOUR:

“The Night That Feels Like a Vow”

“It wasn’t a proposal—but your hearts knew what was promised.”

Theme: Soulful devotion. Timeless comfort. A date that feels like spiritual commitment.

Full Channeled Reading:

From the moment you both lock eyes, something exhales.

This isn’t the butterflies kind of night—this is the exhale after a storm, the warmth that rises after a long winter.

This date feels like a memory you don’t remember making… until now.

There’s ease.

There’s gentleness.

There’s knowing.

And baby, the air isn’t tense—it’s sacred.

Like the universe hit “pause” just to give you this moment.

You talk, but it feels like your souls are doing the real speaking.

No games. No posturing. No performance.

You’re both just there.

Present. Bare. Real.

This is the kind of night where hands find each other naturally.

Where glances feel like confessions.

Where time dissolves, and all that’s left is yes.

This is the kind of date that doesn’t need a kiss to feel complete…

Because every word, every glance, every soft laugh already said “I see you. And I’m staying.”

Card Spread (10 Total):

1. The Empress – Upright (Tarot of Divine Bodies)

Numerology: 3 – Creation, nourishment, embodiment

Message: You’re radiating softness and power—and they worship it.

This card says: They see you as someone they could build life around. Not rush. Just grow with.

2. The Inner Altar – Upright (Oracle of Sacred Homecoming)

Symbolism: Feeling spiritually safe in someone’s presence

Message: This is soul-level belonging.

You don’t have to explain your joy or your wounds. They hold space for all of it.

3. Moon in Pisces – Upright (AstroDreamers Deck)

Message: Deep emotional resonance.

The vibe is romantic, intuitive, dreamy—like everything said has double meaning.

They’re speaking your emotional language fluently.

4. Ten of Cups – Upright (Hearth & Heart Tarot)

Message: This is the “I could see a future with you” moment.

And it’s not dramatic. It’s gentle. They’re not overwhelmed—they’re certain.

5. Judgment – Reversed (Celestial Reckonings Deck)

Message: You might doubt it at first.

“Is this real?”

“Am I projecting?”

But that’s old fear talking. This reversal says:

“Yes. It’s really this good.”

6. The Silk Card – Upright (Your Signature Deck – Unreleased)

Message: The energy is smooth. Luxurious. Effortless.

There’s a divine sensuality—not sexual, but sacred.

Like you’re both remembering a rhythm you didn’t know you knew.

7. The World – Upright (Infinite Cycle Tarot)

Message: You both feel complete.

Not filled up—but mirrored. Supported. Recognized.

This card says: You’ll both go home changed.

8. Queen of Cups – Upright (Depth and Devotion Tarot)

Message: You’re showing vulnerability—and they honor it.

This is emotional intimacy that feels royal.

Expect heartfelt compliments. Touches that ask permission with their energy.

9. The Celestial Vow – Upright (Oracle of Eternal Echoes)

Message: This date seals something.

Not physically. Spiritually.

Even if it’s the first of many—you both know something sacred began.

10. North Node in Cancer – Upright (AstroKarmic Legacy Cards)

Message: This relationship is part of your soul path.

This isn’t just romance—it’s ancestral healing, emotional evolution, and future-building.

Symbols in This Reading:

• Soft fabrics, candlelight – Comfort + trust

• Warm drinks or shared meals – Nourishment and intimacy

• Wind chimes or soft music – Spirit guides blessing the union

• A warm goodbye hug that lasts too long – Timelessness

Numerology Vibes:

• 3 (Empress) – Creation of something sacred

• 10 (Cups) – Fulfillment, divine union

• 21 (World) → 3 – Completion that leads to rebirth

• Master Number 44 – Foundations of legacy love

Channeled Angel Numbers:

• 414 – Soul foundations. Safe beginnings. Long-term emotional anchoring.

• 1001 – Completion and initiation. Sacred cycles.

• 2222 – Divine union. Emotional balance. Relationship alignment.

Channeled Song:

“Only Love” – Ben Howard

“Only love is all maroon / gluey feathers on a flume…”

A song that feels like soul vows spoken in metaphor.

Confirmation Letters:

H – C – W – O – Z

May show up in names, dish titles, ancestral surnames, or even dreams after the date.

Message from Their Higher Self:

“I knew I wouldn’t want to leave—but I didn’t know it would feel like I already belonged.”

Pile Four

Drop a Z if you’re done dating for distraction and ready for devotion.

Reblog if you’re calling in a love that feels like a whispered promise across lifetimes.

So… who showed up when you read this?

What part of the night felt too familiar to be fiction?

Drop your pile in the comments. Tell me what flashed behind your third eye.

If it cracked something open—reblog it, tag your favorite romantic, and claim it.

This is just the first spark of your next love timeline.

Next up? The courting phase.

And baby… it only gets sweeter.

—

Channeled by Dior Harris.

Stay infinite. Stay divine. A bientôt, mon ange.

[crimeronan]

i've seen a couple people in the notes of this very good post about fictional polyamory by @thebibliosphere say things along the lines of "oh, i've been doing it wrong :(" or "how do i know if i did this right??" or "i should probably give up and start over, i wrote this badly :(" and. no!!!!

(i AM seeing far MORE people say "oh, this clarified and helped me so much, i think i know how to fix issues i've been having with my own story" which. YES!!!!)

listen. if you're a monogamous person who's writing a polyamorous relationship, and you've been focusing mainly on The Triad and All Three Together All The Time as the endgame, that's literally fine. that's a perfectly acceptable and strong starting point for your plotting, imo. you do not need to give up on a story that you've started like this.

but the things discussed in the post Can and Should improve your execution!

you can keep the same plot beats and overall relationship arc 100%. polyamorous relationships are infinite in their formations, every one is unique. "basically a monogamous romance but with three people" Does exist, as a relationship type. you're not hashtag Misrepresenting (TM) poly people with it

BUT i do think it will help to read up on some poly people talking about how their relationships Differ from monogamous ones.

so i have outlined some basic important concepts about polyamory.

MORE IMPORTANTLY though, i've broken down some questions that you can answer throughout the writing process to strengthen your individual dyad relationships, your individual characterization, & your characters' individual feelings/experiences. this is a writing resource have fun

future kitkat butting in to say i spent over two hours writing this and it definitely needs a readmore. it is also NOT comprehensive. but everything should be pretty simple to follow! feel free to reblog if you find it helpful yourself or just want to reward me for how gotdan long this took KSLDKFJKDL.

i've grabbed quick links for a couple of the important concepts, some have SEO pitches in them but the info largely seems to be good. (if i missed anything Egregiously Gross on these sites i should be able to update the links with better ones later, since they're under the readmore.)

sidenote: this is NOT meant to be overwhelming, despite the length. if you can't read all of this, that's Okay. you do not need to give up on your writing.

here we go:

compersion!

compersion is a BIG thing in a lot of polyamorous relationships. it's joy derived from seeing two (or more) of your partners happy together, or joy derived from seeing your partner happy with someone else.

compersion is really important as a concept because it highlights that every individual relationship within a polycule is different -- and that that's a GOOD thing. it's sort of the inverse of jealousy.

by the "inverse of jealousy," i mean that instead of feeling left out and upset and possessive, you feel happy/joyous/content.

i can use personal experience as an example: it's a Relief for me when my partners receive joy/support/sex/romance/etc that i can't (or prefer not to) give them. and i love seeing my partners make each other laugh and be silly together.

it's 100% okay for a poly triad not to be together 100% of the time, it doesn't mean that the third member is being left out or not treated equally when two people do things alone together.

(i have individual dates with my partners all the time! PLUS larger 3-and-4-person date nights.)

if the third member DOES feel jealous or left out, then the polycule can have a conversation to figure out what needs/wants aren't being met, and solve that. this happens semi-regularly in my polycule, as it will happen in any relationship (including monogamous ones)! it's just part of being an adult, sometimes you have to talk about feelings.

metamours!

a metamour is someone who is dating your partner, but ISN'T dating you. this may not be relevant for people writing closed three-person romantic sexual triads, but it's a super helpful term to know.

the linked article also lists different types of metamour relationships with some fun phrasing i hadn't heard before. the tl;dr is: sometimes you'll be domestic cohabitation friends, sometimes you'll be buddies with your own friendship, sometimes you might not interact much outside of parties, every relationship is different.

there's no one-size-fits-all requirement for metamour relationships. sometimes polyamorous people will end up dating their metamour after a while (has happened to me), sometimes polyamorous people will break up with one partner for normal life reasons, but remain friendly metamours.

the goal of polyamory is NOT for EVERYONE to fall in love. it is 100% okay if this happens in your story, it happens in real life too! but it is also 100% okay for characters to be metamours without ever becoming "more than friends."

(sidenote: try to kill any internalized "more than" that you have when it comes to friendship. friends are just as important and special and vital as partners.)

of course there are a million ways for messiness to occur with metamours within a complex polycule, exactly like with close-knit platonic friend groups. however this post is not about that! there's enough "here's how polyamory can go wrong" stuff out there already, so i'm focusing on the positives here :)

open versus closed polyamorous relationships!

i'm struggling to find an online article that reflects my experience without directly contradicting at least SOME stuff. so i'll give a quick rundown

google has a bunch of conflicting definitions of open relationships and whether open relationships are different from polyamory. the general consensus seems to be that an open relationship prioritizes one partnership (often a marriage), but that each partner can have extraneous flings or long-term commitments (most often sexual in nature).

this is not typically how i use the term wrt polyamory. the poly concept is pretty simple. a closed polyamorous relationship is one with boundaries like a monogamous one. there are multiple partners in the polycule, but they are not interested in having anybody new join said polycule.

an open polyamorous relationship tends to be more flexible -- it just means that IF someone in the polycule develops mutual feelings for a new person, it's fine for them to become part of said polycule if they want to! the relationship/person is open to newcomers.

some groups will need to negotiate this all together, others will just go "haha, you kids have fun." just depends on the individuals!

with open AND closed polyamorous relationships, the most important thing is making sure that there's respectful communication and that everyone is on the same page. but there's no one-size-fits-all way to do that.

i wish i could give you guys a prescriptive "You Must Do It This Way" guide, but that's.... basically the opposite of what polyamory is about, HAHA.

feelings for multiple people!

i was gonna tack this on to the previous section but decided it warranted its own lil bit.

a defining feature (....i'm told?) of monogamous relationships is that a monogamous person only has feelings for One individual at a time. they only want a relationship with one individual at a time. or, if they DO have feelings for multiple people simultaneously, they're still only comfortable dating one person at a time & being exclusive with that one person.

this is perfectly fine!

the poly experience is generally different from this. but once again..... polyamorous people all have different individual perspectives on this.

for me, i have never been able to draw hard boxes around romantic vs sexual vs platonic relationships, & i love many people at once. my personal polycule lacks many strict definitions beyond "these are my chosen people, i want to forge a life with them indefinitely, whatever shape that life takes"

some poly people feel explicit romantic or sexual attraction to multiple people at once, some poly people feel almost no romantic or sexual attraction at all. i'd say that MOST poly people feel different things for different partners, which is not a bad thing!

some poly people are even monogamous-leaning -- they have just chosen one romantic partner who is themselves part of a larger polycule. (so this monogamous-leaning person has at least one metamour!)

or alternatively, they might have one romantic partner AND a qpr, or other ways of defining relationships. (this is a factor in my own polycule!)

i made this its own point because if you're writing a straightforward triad, this is unlikely to come up in the story itself -- but it's worth thinking about how your characters develop/handle feelings outside of their partnerships.

like, is this sort of a soulmateship, 'these are the only ones for me' type deal? in which they won't fall in love with anyone else, and can be fairly certain of that?

that's pretty close to typical monogamous standards but you Can make it work. just be thoughtful with it

alternatively, can you see any of these characters falling in love Again after the happily-ever-after? and how would the triad approach it, if so? what would they all need to talk about beforehand, and what feelings would everybody have about the situation?

it's worth considering these questions even if the hypothetical will never feature in your actual canon, because knowing the answers to these questions will help you understand all of the individuals & their relationship(s) MUCH better.

i've been typing this for nearly two hours and there's a lot more i COULD say because... there's just a lot to say. i'll close out with some quick questions that you can ask yourself when developing the dyad dynamics within your triad

first, take a page and create a separate section for each individual dyad. then answer these questions for every pair:

how does each pair act when alone?

how do they act differently alone compared to when they're with their third partner?

are there any elements of this dyad (romantic, sexual, financial, domestic, etc) that these two people DON'T have with the third partner?

if so, what are they?

are there any boundaries or hard limits within this dyad that aren't shared with the third partner?

if so, what are they?

partner 3 goes out of town alone for a few weeks. what are the remaining two doing in their absence?

(doesn't have to be anything special, it's just to get a sense of how the two interact on a day-by-day basis without the third there)

what is something that each partner in the dyad admires about the other -- that they DON'T necessarily see in the third partner?

what problem do These Two Specifically need to solve in the story before their relationship will work?

how is that problem DIFFERENT from the problems being solved within the other two dyads?

doing this for ALL THREE dyads is VITAL imo. that way, you develop complex and nuanced and different relationships that all have unique dynamics.

those questions should be enough to get you started, i hope

then After you've charted the differences in relationships, you can start to jot down similarities in the overarching triad. what does one person admire in Both of their partners? what are activities that all three like to do together? what are boundaries or discussions that all three share?

but the main goal is to figure out how to Differentiate each relationship!

a polycule is only as strong as the individual relationships within it. if two people are struggling with their own relationship, adding a third person won't fix that.

(UNLESS the third person is the catalyst for those two to, like, Actually Communicate And Work Their Shit Out. i just mean that the old adage of "maybe if we just add a third-" works about as well to fix a miserable non-communicative marriage as, uh, "maybe if we have a baby-")

AND FINALLY.

if you're not sure whether your poly romance reads organically to poly people, you can hire a sensitivity reader with poly experience. if you can't afford that, you can read up on polyamorous resources like a glossary of terms & articles actually written by poly people. (and stories written by poly people!)

you can also just.... ask poly people questions, if they're open to it. i like talking about polyamory and my own relationships so you're welcome to send asks if u want, i just can't guarantee i'll answer bc my energy levels fluctuate a lot and i don't always have time.

polyamorous people are in an uphill battle for positive representation right now & so the LAST thing i want to see is authors giving up on their stories bc they're worried about getting things Wrong. well-meaning and positive stories that treat this kind of love as normal, healthy, & aspirational are So So So Needed. even if you guys end up with some funky-feeling details.

seriously, if you're monogamous then you probably don't have a full idea of Just How Nasty a lot of people can get about polyamory. i wish it DIDN'T mean so much for you guys to want to write nice stories about us, but it does mean a lot. and it means a lot that you want to do it WELL.

in conclusion. this is not a prescriptive guide, it's just a way to raise questions. and also, you all are doing FINE.