#i think sorry my surprise is more abt the fact that i don't think i've ever been

[laroinda]

i just caught up to wind breaker manga (the satoru nii one) and i desperately need to rant abt it

let's start from the fact that i'm not a fan of this genre of manga. the only other delinquent series i've actually read was t*kyo r*vengers but we shall not speak about this one and it certainly didn't leave a good impression of this type of manga on me. so imagine my surprise when i tuned in to the first episode of wind breaker and i found myself tearing up by the end of it, let's just say that it was quite unexpected.

the thing that surprised me the most about this series is the heart that it has. yes it's cheesy, yes it's cringe at times, yes the premise of the town and the school is so silly it might just fall apart if you start looking at it too closely. but the series manages to build the sense of community within this place so fast and so well that i never actually found myself questioning any of that.

another thing that was a really nice surprise was how kind the series is, both with its characters and with the themes it builds itself on. the main one of course being opening yourself up and learning how to trust others. every time we see a character struggle with that it tugs at my heartstrings so much i end up barely able to read the chapter cause my eyes water immediately, especially when it's about sakura himself.

sakura, oh my dear sakura. i could sing him praises for hours i fear so i'll try to keep it short. he's just incredible. he's truly the heart of the story in every sense of the word. he's so kind! he's such a good person, even if he doesn't believe it or doesn't know how to properly express his care for others! he's so lovable from the start, even before you see him grow into the person he is at the current stage of the manga. and he keeps growing and changing and becoming the person he probably never thought he could ever become before he came to furin. and it's all because of the people around him that accept him and let him grow at his pace, even if he makes mistakes or doesn't do things exactly right immediately.

i love the slightly more recent imagery of comparing him to a plant that started to grow since he joined furin. it started in the stretch between the keel arc and the red lights district arc when he decided that furin is the place that he belongs in and we saw a little sprout, but i feel like it's gonna come to full fruition in this arc. it's pretty clear to me considering that endo literally compares him to a flower and his whole thing is to try and set sakura on fire (metaphorically of course... i hope). it's probably gonna be contrasted to umemiya who's literally a gardener and under whose care and leadership, directly or not, sakura was finally able to grow because he was nurtured by those around him. in this case the main person who allowed that to happen would be umemiya as he's the one who made furin into what it is now. also, i've seen quite a lot of people be worried (?) about sakura potentially going with endo to protect furin but idk man i don't think that would happen. the angst potential is incredible but he was literally calling out that girl in the red lights arc (i'm sorry i forgot her name, it slipped my mind cause i've read like 90% of this manga in two days) for... basically doing just that. giving herself up so that others could be safe without thinking about their feelings. i feel like he's probably gonna take that lesson and apply it here.

speaking of which, i love this whole theme of passing down knowledge and advice on how to handle things that are new to you. first it's kotoha telling sakura that he needs allies to be at the top of furin, that he should start facing people that want to be there for him and even the small things like telling him to just say "leave it to me" when someone asks for help. and then, in the keel arc, he uses the same advice he was given before and gives it to someone else who's also struggling with quite similiar things to him. then there's him learning how to rely on other boys in his class and going to kaji for advice, who's very clearly meant to be kind of a parallel to sakura. kaji's went to somewhat similiar things, he's just further down the path of figuring out who he is, what he can and can't do that sakura is (or at least that was the case when they talked). so he gives sakura advice, one that was given to him before by hiragi when he was struggling as a newly made grade captain who felt like he was wholly undeserving of the trust that people placed in him and felt like he's gonna dissapoint them. he knows exactly what sakura is struggling with so he can help him the way he was helped before, the same way that sakura helped nagato before.

i have a lot more thoughts about this series but they are not sorted out in my brain in any way yet so i'm not gonna say anything more cause this on its own is messy as hell

[brucequeensteen]

i thought Andrew had his political views straight w his other songs like jackboot jump and swan upon leda. so what happened? i just want to know more abt why you think so.

there was a list in nov/dec of celebrities and their statements on october 7, which listed hozier as "neutral" based on him basically taking the "it's complicated/both sides are bad". that was pretty early on and i don't know what else he's said, but tbh the fact that he's barely said anything about gaza IS a little odd, especially with his history and politics. there's no doubt he's a leftist, but my personal feelings are just mixed because I've only seen things that right now i literally cannot remember, only that they surprised me because they didn't align with what I'd assumed abt him. sorry this answer is literally so vague and all over the place but I don't wanna come out guns blazing cos i may be misinformed and i don't have anything to back it up, just a memory that his stance on palestine and Irish liberation was disappointing to say the least.

[allfortzu]

ik u asked for reqs but thought id bother u with a thought/idea i had sorryyyy

just love the idea of long distance gf tzuyu where reader tries to surprise her on a video call by speaking chinese!

just goofy reader stumbling over tones and words but still making tzuyu blush cause ur so cute

perhaps tzuyu teaching reader some wordd when they meet in person :]

omg user blepblooplebeep you've awoken a dormant memory I forgot I even had,, I've loved this idea for the longest time, I can't believe I've never written it 😭

but yes!!!! learning her language!! 🥺

and it's not just abt learning her language and making the effort, it's the fact that these are words she hasn't heard/never expected to hear coming from a lover towards her -- terms of endearment like 寶貝 (bao bei; baby) or 親愛的 (qin ai de; my love)... or 我的子瑜 (my tzuyu) 😭😭😭

I think the kind of joy she could experience from that would be indescribable 😭 and also tracing and whispering the words 我愛你 (I love you) against each other's skin!!! 😞 (okay maybe not tracing if we're fr. but it's literally not real so live laugh love 🫂)

what's more intimate than a lover learning the language of their other!!! what's more intimate than calling a lover in a way they're most familiar with, in a way not many people can :((

don't ever say sorry!! I really, really loved this, thank you for reminding me how much I loved it 😭🫂 I'm sure you'll see something like this show up in my future fics, if you don't mind non-reader-inserts 🥹

[samuraiondo-mace-1177]

I think the funniest thing I've been told by anons (I'm not pulling up screenshot for this cause uuugggghhhh yk?), is that Tomizawa and Nanba aren't soft, and that I'm de-masculanising them with my self ship

Which like... did we play the same game?

You're telling me that Mr. green homeless man who actively says he doesn't feel worthy of love, and goes weak by just TALKING about his little crush isn't a soft guy that would lean into Asahi's hands if he cupped Nanba's head? Just because Asahi is a guy?

DID WE SEE HIS SMILE WHEN ICHIBAN SAID HE WAS FINE WITH WHAT NANBA DID??? DID YOU? DID YOU SEE IT???

NANBA CRIED FROM HOW FUCKING WHOLESOME AND ACCEPTING ICHIBAN IS!! HE CRIED FROM HIS KINDNESS!!! HE CRIED FROM TRUE (platonic) LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE!!!

I EVEN CRIED DURING THIS SCENE BECAUSE IK HOW IT FEELS!!

OH AND

THAT IS A MAN WHO IS HAPPY TO BE AROUND THOSE WHO CARE!! HE IS SOFT! HE IS A LITTLE GUY WITH TRAUMA AND TRUST ISSUES!!

AND THEN TOMI. REALLY???

Nanba is soft, he just has a rough, cold shell that he uses for protection.

(editors note: Don't mind this, I got off course and started to analyse Tomi instead... woops)

So, purple shirt cabby with a rough past of losing contact with his wife, feeling disconnected from love and life, and struggled because he had to become Yamai's lapdog wouldn't have a trauma bond and genuinely care and love Asahi who went through similar events? Just because Asahi is also a guy?

Right, right... so we forgot when he talked about his wife? How he lit up every time he talked about her? How he constantly talked about missing her? How he started to use the Ichigang as a way to fill the hole in his heart where she used to be?

HOW HE REALISED THAT HE MAY NEVER TRUELY BE FIXED BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN HE CAN'T LOVE OR CARE!!

TBF, for the Tomi thing, it has been a while since I last played IW so I won't be surprised if I got him wrong. BUT NANBA???

I feel like alot more people just hate it because they're looking at a gay couple that isn't their toxic ship/or rare pair/or popular ship, and is just a dude having fun whilst exploring these characters soft spots in a wholesome platonic way and it isn't just the two fucking.

Damn. Sorry I'm gay and can't control the fact that I wanna end up with these men.

I've also noticed that part of it may be because it's a guy oc made by a guy? I noticed alot of fem ocs made by fem people, or guy ocs also made by fem people don't get that much hate.

"We need more strange queer people" Girl, you can't even handle a gay trans/polygender dude selfshipping with other guys.

(I have seen people complain abt that too, so I'm just trying connect these two things)

[bandzboy]

Seeing the amount of hate she gets just for dating, aka a normal thing lots of people (even celebrities) do makes me so sad. I haven't seen this amount of hate in a while. I'm sorry for them because I don't want random people online to ruin what could be a beautiful relationship. I get people being surprised because they don't know what's happening in their faves' lives (and let's keep it that way) but I've seen some of the worst reactions ever when coming across an article confirm the dating news </3 Being a kpop for more than a decade, I can tell you many couples have broken up due to all the hate thrown at them. I'm just sad because these are people we're talking about. People with feelings. People who deserve happiness and love. What makes me sad is those are the same people who would bend backwards to defend their fave's cr*mes. But apparently, dating is where they draw the line...

it was genuinely wild 😭 i mean most of the things i've seen abt her dating was mostly people on twt saying they felt "betrayed" bc they projected onto her the fact that she is gay (even tho if she is that's none of our business) but yeah it's very obvious when these things come out it's usually the woman that gets the most shit for no reason! at the end of the day, this is something that should be normal for idols to do because they are humans with feelings and i honestly hate how companies still have the "dating ban" thing which is so stupid especially since these idols start so young and should have normal experiences like dating (if they want to ofc) like that should be something normal and not something they are demonized for and i think, the way these companies think, other than the fact that yes, they are sorta presented to us like they are our boyfriends and girlfriends, i think they see it as something that is gonna distract them and honestly it could be beneficial to have that in their lives regardless bc that's normal and human to want to be loved and these idols are not gonna date us it's not gonna happen and i wish people stopped thinking this fr! that's why when these news come out i support them 100%! if that person makes my fav happy i will support it at all times! but yeah when it comes to sm, it's so insane how they are debuting this man who has sa accusations and acting like nothing is happening while we don't know when seunghan is coming back we have absolutely no clue and once again he is on hiatus for dating predebut which is wild to me like god forbid he had a gf before he debuted god forbid he is human ??? and so as of late, i can't take sm seriously not that i have before but this is honestly wild to me how all of these situations are happening at the same time and are being treated SO different it's quite offputting to see it as a fan of both seunghan and karina

[namtanlovesfilm]

Hello! Idk how to approach this bc it's a sensitive issue. But I have a question. If you dont want to answer I understand. warning upsetting and sensitive subject ig. 

Was there ever a follow up on the ''drake is a potential transphobe'' issue? Bc i learned it from your blog, and the last thing i know abt is that he made a sorry a$$ excuse of an 'apology'. I just got rmded abt it when you rbed your 'my tee' gifset (damn that show was a rollercoaster of ‘wtfs’ lol). 

And since the actor ''O**.Pa***'', I want to be cautious about these issues (bc it came out of nowhere and slapped me in the face and I’ve been disgusted with him(O.Pa) ever since). 

I am asking you bc I dont know Thai ppl on here, and I learnt it(the drake situation) with you. I also know there is something culturally that could potentially also apply. That in country n1 (here Thailand) smthng happens is different from country n2 or 3 or 4. (like I rmbr abt the thing with cis actors who talked abt trans actors and everything). I agree abt the fact that we, I, come from NOT the same culture and we, I, have to take it into account.

 But in this case I'm REALLY not sure it’s about a ‘’different culture’’ situation. Bc you know, it was very transphobic and also yah andr** tat*... So ig I want to be sure abt the media/ppl I'm involving myself with. 

If you answer this thank you, and even if not.

hi! I've addressed the drake issue when a follower sent me his apology, which I personally thought was good bc he took accountibility & did say he respects everyone. the one thing missing was an explanation though, which is annoying bc it's what misses from most thai actors controversies. but personally, I did think he was being genuine & not a transphobe, though I am definitely biased since drake is one of my favorite thai actors. I've talked multiple times about the cultural differences between "ladyboys" (katoey) & trans people: though now most "ladyboys" now identify as trans women bc they've learned about the western term for it, they were historically considered as a sort of third gender in thailand. that means it is more globally accepted to say things about them in thailand that would be seen as insensitive in the west, and thai trans women themselves have grown accustomed to mocking their own transness to be successful in the thai entertainment industry. this means that the "____ is transphobic" controversies only ever regard international fans, while thai fans don't even bat an eye. it's not my place to say what's wrong or right in those situations, but that's why I feel hesitant to condemn ANY thai person as transphobic when the cultures are so different & sensitivities so opposed. trans rights are under attack everywhere in the west, meanwhile "ladyboys" have existed openly (somewhat safely, I'm sure there's attacks & discrimination on them, but I couldn't find any data about it) for literal centuries in thailand.

NOW THOUGH, I find it quite staggering that you can kind of put most of these thai actors in the same box. drake laedeke for liking (or reposting? I forgot sorry) an anti-trans video, for which he apologized, joss wayar for following andrew tate, who he unfollowed once the backlash against tate peaked, ohm pawat for being a homophobic bully (which some have argued that it's been disproven in my comments but I don't really believe it, it's giving delusional ride or die fan), and lastly foei patchara who reblogged anti-lgbtq far right content & (to my knowledge) never apologized or backed down. all four of these men present themselves as very straight, they all work out & have stereotypically very masculine & attractive bodies, and all of them are successful. I'm not surprised that men who watch fitness content would end up on hustle culture videos, leading to alpha male videos & eventually far right content which is currently obsessing about lgbtq+ people. and I'm not saying this to justify them or whatever, but I think it says a lot about masculinity & the echochambers created around this hypermasculine content which led to these actors clearly doing something wrong.

in the end, I'll say what I always say: everyone can choose to remain fans of actors that have done something wrong, or unfollow them, ignore them, hate them, etc. I do think things need to be taken with nuance, and for me I look at repeated behavior & lack of accountability to try to guess an actor's true nature. I say GUESS because none of us will ever truly know them. maybe there's an actor that has never publicly done anything remotely problematic, yet thinks the most awful things in his head. so yeah, it's up to each individual's judgment to decide what to do with those actors & what they've done wrong, but I do think we have to take cultural differences into account bc the world does not revolve around the west.

xxx

[moltage]

hi hi fellow Mick Rawson enjoyer!!! Would you be willing to spare some headcanons or fun facts for Mick or any of the characters please I am desperate for content 🥺

god where do i even begin ok so as for the fun fact part i don't think i can give you that much except maybe the little details i've picked up from the show or idk the type of gun Mick uses maybe since the show didn't. give us much but Yea i do however have. Headcanons / most might be about mick n prophet since im Totally So Normal about the two (i am not sure if you like them as a pairing, apologies if you don't😭)

there are a few i can't really explain like why i think Prophet had an ex wife who mistreated him and whom he hasn't seen ever since he's been in prison.

or why i think the reason behind Prophet's overprotectiveness towards children comes from a personal experience. Either cause himself or someone really close to him. or why he seems distraught and on the edge when on cases involving children is because it hits close to home.

or with Mick, cases where a child suffers loss of a loved one. but that's already mentioned in the show; he's lost his parents when he was young. Gina says 'He doesn't really talk about it with anybody.' Mick is rather a private person (or avoids talking about his feelings at least) The only time we've seen him talk about something he was afraid of was when he opened up about Fallujah to Cooper in Here is the Fire, but that's because they've been close friends for so long, and because they've worked together, Cooper understands. Or the time he got frustrated about the enemy sniper. (thats a whole another thing tbh i cant go off abt it kdshjdskfg)

so my headcanon is that, if it's not related to his past -- because then he goes to Cooper-- he goes to Prophet instead. I like to think that they're both there for each other as teammates, colleagues and best friends :)

so it's not unusual when one shows up on the others door unannounced, no matter the time, they understand. just two wounded men finding comfort in each other yknow🥺

i also think that, since they're literally b(f)fs they trust each other with the key to their apartments so its no surprise when Prophet walks into his apartment only to find Mick Rawson sprawled on his couch hgkjhgsd ('my apartment or yours?' ''Yours. It wasn't you who cleaned up the mess you did in mine the other day.'')

[ also PLEASE do check the deleted cm:sb scenes on youtube. they're so cute, my favorite is the one where Mick and Prophet are playing a video game together :) ]

i also loved the little moments in the show with the red cell team where they're all hanging out together. i like to think that they have like, traditions that they do, like game/movie nights and stuff like that at someone's apartment . or, simply stop by for a drink (please, the scene in Strays where they all meet up at Cooper's apartment in the middle of the night??)

they're the definition of a found family and i love that. 😭

i have a looot more to say but that's all for now djhjsdg im really sorry if these like. dont make sense its two am . thank you so much for the ask !! please feel free to hmu about them id love to talk about cmsb <3

[what-if-nct]

hiiii is it ok if i ask for some advice? im sorry im gonna sound rambly but uhhh i'm 14 and starting high school next year (which i alrdy dont feel too good abt haha) and my (overbearing asian) parents are going to send me to this private lutheran hs instead of the public one i was supposed to go to bc its more upper class and smart (?). tbh i was genuinely surprised that i liked the school, academic-wise, and i rlly liked that i had the space in my schedule to take more fine arts classes (i dont have any in my hs) but like the first thing the principal said to me was that i "needed to learn to be a good christian". a whole hour each week is dedicated to jesus and i just know my atheist ass is going to be uncomfortable asf. first, one of my best friends has a thing for jesus (he says jesus is too hot to be straight 😭) and i cant tell if hes joking anymore, and second, i dont have a problem with people who are religious, but i do when they are flat out hateful and harrassing people from communities they "dont agree with", and i just know the people preaching at this school are the latter.

also rn i am the *only* poc in my entire school, and i noticed there were a lot more asian students and students of color, so hopefully there'll be less kids pulling at their eyes or calling me slurs :D

anyways i not a fan of the fact that "homosexual behavior on or off campus" warranted for expulsion, since i am a *very* queer and bisexual individual. at my current school, i dont really need to hide my gayness bc no one cares, and my teachers are accepting (my homeroom teachers a lesbian lol <33). i dont think i can handle having to hide such a big part of my identity at home *and* at school :( too add to that i really suck at making friends, so being somewhere without people i'm comfortable with, my anxiety gets really bad, and i just shut down completely.

my hs is p rundown (like most public highschools are) and the classes are average at best, so idk man, im torn :( i dont know if i should suck it up and go to lutheran school bc their good academics, or ✨be myself✨ and go to p shitty school :/

i dont know what to do (or if i can even do anything) abt it i just dont feel too good about this :( you've mentioned you went to a christian school, so do you have any advice? even if you dont, thank you so so much for listening to me rant for a moment there <33 i really treasure you and your blog, atp you feel like the big sister i've never had. i love youuuu <333

That is such a sticky situation. Cause maybe you can try to persuade your parents especially since they'll be paying for the private school on top of college tuition in the future, it can be a huge selling point. I know that's how I won in the decision of beauty school over college it's cheaper. And christian and catholic schools are heavily based in religion like it's a huge part of it so if you don't believe in it it can be absolutely mind numbing. I actually didn't go to Christian school, actually wasn't forced to go to church as a child, I was like 11 and for some reason told grandma Christianity is responsible for all the bad things that happened in the world. Which is wild that I even was able to come to that conclusion as a child she just brushed me off. But I did go to church summer camp to be with my friends which my friend and I got scolded for holding hands but she was just leading me through the crowd of people. So that's still unfortunately a huge part of christian beliefs

the thing that really caught me off guard is the homosexual activity off campus can lead to expulsion. On campus like sucks but is expected of a christian school sadly. But off campus in your day to day life is like your actions off campus shouldn't be judged by the school. Like I can't wrap my mind around that. I think since you have a whole summer maybe look for more schools you can attend I remember doing this in middle school because my home high school was an F school so you could choose any high school within a certain range. You'd be really surprised with how many schools are around you I'm assuming you're in the us but I'm sure everywhere has a ton of schools. And look for a school that holds some of what your parents want and also your own values and needs for your education. And maybe your parents seeing you take initiative might be an extra point.

If your parents are deadset on it. I think try to make the best out of it as much as you can usually there's a group of people in the same boat you're in where their parents forced them to be there. Trust me no matter where you go you will always be drawn to those like you every single time. But if you do get the choice of going to the original public school firstly screw every single racist little bitch who does that to you that is horrid I am so sorry you have to endure that. People suck. But you can also learn extra independently I always did that cause I was a bit ahead of my class. But I really think researching more schools in your area would help you find the perfect school for you. I personally was in love with Waldorf schools they're more creative led schools and freer, I wanted to go to one so badly. So figure out the exact kind of education you want like a magnet school, charter school it doesn't hurt to see how receptive your parents will be to it.

I really hope this helped at all and I hope it works out well for you. And Awwww it's so sweet you see me as a big sister, I gladly be your big sister, love you too🌸🌸🌸

[mlynar-nearl]

omg !!!! hi ty for the detailed response 😭😭😭😭 i love all the mini little petty facts like god !!!! i love learning about ocs !!!!! he likes birds, hes petty and buys ancient iberian cookies to spite andoain pls he sounds like a fun character pls i cannot express myself but !!!!!! i am immensely pleased !!!! thank u sm </3

and yes ofc u did amazing in ur essay ! you dont just try you do it very amazingly !!! (www sorry im kind of just feelings rn i love the reply!! im hyped!! idk what to say!!) this is a lot of exclamation marks i apologize as well and tysm i love the detailed ans of his kit as well 🥰🥰 ur a wonderful being i love u and ur ocs and tysm aaaaa idk what to say

do u have any more ocs ? or do u have a storyline set for shealtiel? (im so sorry learning abt other ppls ocs make me all fuzzy im sorry ;-;) like ocs in ak are a thing ive never actually thought about so now that ive heard abt urs im just ! hell yeah! iw to know more ! so thank u for indulging me !

yes of course!! i love answering questions like i said i have lots of thoughts, head full and Such. especially about my ocs and mlynar because he's blorbo from my games. god i woke up today and i'm counting down the events til he's Here and i Have Him.

i do have a couple more arknights ocs (i have ocs in other things lol but. arknights is the focus.) they're less developed outright than shealtiel.

i'm leaving shealtiel's story where it is for the moment until we have an update on what andoain is doing, then i'll probably tweak it to move with that. i do think that he's not going to get what he wants, because i don't think he's going to get to help kill andoain given how arknights handles characters like ando, but he's going to be better off for not getting it.

as for my other ocs, i have my doctor, who is in stasis because i don't like being wildly wrong about lore. but the sparknotes is that their name is taki, they're divorced from kal'tsit, they're four foot nine and their abilities include seeing branching timelines from their decisions, which is responsible for their tactics. the Doctor Visor helps them filter it all out, which is why they rarely take it off in actual situations or important (plot-relevant) conversations. however, it was made before the sarcophagus, so it's a little loose and it falls down a bit sometimes. for now they're a fennec vulpo because i love fennec foxes. i realize this makes two of my arknights characters vulpos, but this is unsurprising, because foxes are part of my Brand.

second fox is a self-indulgent one. audr "audie" fuchsfrost is arctic fox + from a minor family in kjerag. i made him because i think silverash is hot and i wanted to make an ocship about it. bottom text. audie seems very unassuming and cute and sociable, but he also has a pragmatic side that keeps encio guessing and is always a pleasant surprise for audie's partner. arranged marriage to actual lovers because they realize they have a lot in common. i said this was self-indulgent, didn't i. "this is my husband, enciodes, and this is his boyfriend, gnosis."

last one is still in the oven, but i've been working on a kazimierz bounty hunter's guild oc, a banshee sarkaz called enka or "howl". she grew up with the guild. has vocal Arts. is an absolute raccoon of a woman. i think they found her in the garbage. i've kind of been marinating on her the last couple of days but she's the newest addition, so, there's not too much there yet.

[ouroboobos]

TW csa trauma rage and despair moment under the cut 🫶 Bad day with many triggers sorry. Ask to tag, it doesn't go into detail abt the abuse itself but I'm happy to add tags if anyone needs

The thing that really gets to me is how EVERYONE thinks they're an expert on trauma. You can disclose your abuse but the result is that even the best people in your life will not understand it. Everyone decides they know more about your situation than you do. At worst people are outright malicious but at best they still look down on you in one way or another whether they mean to or not.

People think you're not capable of making your own decisions so they tell you what to do. They try to "help" you by pressuring you into things you're not ready for. They think it's okay to violate your boundaries because your boundaries are informed by your trauma which means they aren't legitimate.

They talk down to you. They discount everything you say. They laugh at you. They sexualize you. They don't believe you. They say "well every parent does their best". They act like you'd be normal if you were really trying. They ask if that's why you're a dyke. They think you're looking for attention.

They tell other people your business without asking. They're morbidly curious the same way people are with shitty netflix true crime documentaries. Or they think you're gross if you talk about it at all. They ask you 6 years into your cptsd diagnosis if you've ever heard of fucking breathing exercises.

They helpfully inform you that you'll "have to get over it". They touch you against your wishes to "help you toughen up". They roll their eyes. They say you seem fine. They tell you you're probably going to be a predator too, "statistically speaking", like it's a fun fact and not your worst nightmare. They ask if you liked it. They tell you not to use the word "victim" because then you're "letting it define you". They try to give you help you never asked for and then they hold it against you. They interrogate you. And then they act surprised when you get defensive.

Everyone expects you to work past it by a certain point but their idea of abuse recovery is completely distorted, and then when you don't match their idea of a good survivor they figure you aren't putting in the work. Sure people are sympathetic. Oh how horrible I can't imagine blah blah blah and yet everyone feels qualified to judge you on your progress. I've never met a single other person in my life who didn't do it at least a little bit.

I'm just so so so so so tired of being treated like I'm not putting in the work when I put in so much effort to function and improve and get better and push my boundaries every single day of my life. I can't afford not to. If I stop pushing myself forward every day I become nonfunctional very very quickly. If I really stopped trying everyone would know. But people who have never been through it don't believe that you can really try and still be behind your peers.

Even trained medical professionals have no fucking clue how to deal with csa trauma, you can literally see them get more and more uncomfortable as you talk and then all they can say is "uhhhh umm it was a long time ago so just remember that :) if you have a flashback count down from 10".

I'm tired man the only people who get it are other survivors but if we spend too much time together we end up melding into a sad sticky angry inescapable tar pit.

[seelestia]

hahaha i’m glad i’m bad at being an anon BUT YOU GIVE ME SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT SO !!!

yeah school sucks i agree, chemistry is making me tear up. what's your favorite subject? and tbh I haven't written in a while i have no ideas what to write :( any suggestions?

uh oh i love chocolate milk but three glasses feels like it'll shoot my stomach. i am pretty good at self control, or at least id like to think so. and HAHAHA this is really funny bc i am in fact an intp and OBSESSED w mbti. what's yours?

you did do it justice!! i love the idea that sometimes no matter how much you love someone there's always going to be a small part of them that loves someone more than you and living with it can be difficult. you did it GREAT. and ZHONGLI AHHH. hes wonderful to write as i love his personality. i love how u analyzed him and i completely agree shxij. i love writing characters I can chew up n analyze (tehe) bc i like challenges, so scara, childe, kazuha, and diluc are some of my favs. wbu?

-quill!

dw about it, quill! i love giving people things to talk abt because my brain is a jumbled mess of topics and listening to other people's opinions / how uniquely they view the world compared to me are absolutely >>>

CHEMISTRY IS A DEMON CHILD FR. i still need to shove chemical equations because figuring out how to balance them sucks the life out of me 😭 but my fav subject is deffo biology! i like how i always go "ooh, so that's what happened" because my child self used to have sm questions abt how the heck our body works. what's your fav subject?? >:)

i'm not good with suggestions, but let's see! is there any particular trope you'd like to try writing?? or like a trope that just screams a chara's name to you?? this sort of thing makes me feel inspired, but i'm sorry if this doesn't help much, quill <//3 i hope you'll be able to find inspo soon tho! it sucks not knowing what to do :(

see, you're a better person than me when it comes to this. (/lh) now that i look back on it, what was i thinking downing three glasses of choco milk 😭 ANYWHO, ME TOO?? a fellow mbti-obsessed brethren?? i'm an infj and i'm glad i guessed you right, ehe. let me tell you, i love typology sm like i have a habit of assigning an mbti or enneagram type to someone i've talked to for a bit or even the mc's i write in my fics (like the mc in 'do you love me?' for example! i can say that they'd be an xNFx / intuitive feeler).

THANK YOU SM <3 me too like the idea of that is so painful but also somewhat realistic at the same time?? like emotions are unique in the way that they don't have reins for us to maneuver the way we want to and following that idea, it somewhat explains how we can be prone to leaning towards one side more than the other (consciously or not). it may be an easy fact to acknowledge; it may not be an easy one to confront, however. — i think that was like the baseline i was trying to portray in the story?? i'm glad you loved it tho! writing that fic makes me adore dylm!zhongli and dylm!mc sm ☹️ (they're my skrunklies that are subjected to angst torture /lh)

CHEW AND DISSECT THEIR BRAIN! (in a safe and non-dottore way /j) i like how scara and diluc are the ones that put a lid over their feelings whilst kazuha and childe are the honest, open with what's on their mind type 🤭 for me, some of my favs to write are: ayato (are we surprised /j), scara, alhaitham, and dainsleif (so underrated, i need to write for this depressed beautiful man asap)! as you can see, i have a thing for writing logical people and i fear it's an obsession. (/lh)

[mochinon-yah]

I HAVEN'T RESPOND TO BRYNN'S ANSWER TO MY ASK FOR SO LONGGGG SORRY BRYNN DHSNJSKSKW

I agree with almost all of the things that you described yourself with, except for when you said you're talentless and that the rest of yourself is garbage - which i think not ofc - because seriously???? You should see yourself CLEARLY in the mirror >:o !! (I'll try to just talk abt the stuff you only mentioned there) Idk about you but hardwork is a talent as well yk?

You're one of the people i've ever known that is just so hard-working and i admire you, brynn! Funny storyyy, but um what push me to really interact with you was because of your friendly and fun attitude! But then, i stayed... like really stayed with you when i saw that you're actually really (like genuinely) nice and hard-working!! Please don't undermine your qualities because it's what made me stick with you 😵‍💫 muach muachhhhh

If you're ever an otome game character, i think i'll like u so much lolll 😭 like let's say ur brynn (ur character) there, i'd be all giggling whenever u pop up because not only ur so funny, ur so admirable that i'm probably gonna cry if ur backstory is ever revealed hdndjdksk

About shiro! Yeahh!!! Shiro is so so different from you, I get it when u said that you're confused when dis your friendship started lolll 😭 i don't even remember when me and shiro even started to be moots like... it just happens naturally that i never really questioned it.... huh 😃

After knowing ven through dreamjolt hostelry, i can see but also not at the same time why tou'd say all that about ven 😭😭😭 ven is so hecticcc but they do seem like someone you'd ask advice from! They're very non-judgmental.... i think? I've never really asked any advice from ven, so idk 😭 but all in all they're a very fun and easygoing person that it made me so surprised of how fast i got comfy with them sbndnsmsk

ABOUT RIN!!! Omg yes ☝️☝️☝️ she's one of the most elegant ppl i've known (idk a lot of ppl but most of em aren't as elegant as her) :O she's very expressive just like you said and i like that about her! I doubt she's like that in real life though hmmm i feel like she uses her more reliable and calm personality when dealing with real life (maybe...?) but if she's at home or with someone she's comfy with, i bet she'll be all soft and cuteeee

About me, thank youuuuu!!!! If i can be brynn for one day, i'd probably be writing a yan fic for my dan heng, for sure the fic will be so good i'd be like "huh??? That's it??? THAT'S THE END????" when i reach the end 😆 also I'm glad you like my vibes lol, not that i would know what my vibes are like bsnsjsj 😭 i just try to be as positive as i am in real life, so i'd be glad if u pick the positivity and deem it as part of my vibes! Tbf i often dream about having such a calming presence and be a person that everyone can rely on, but then i was like "wah that's so much work, i'm just gonna be myself honestly" 😭😭

BUT HONESTLY THO YEAH- i do the 'chill for a sec, before dropping a bomb' a lot dbdnjdksk like when i tell a story, i'd be like "oh you know guys i actually almost died when i was a baby" (real fact abt me btw) without telling much of the story itself unless people seem curious about it xD i like to surprise people and knowing how surprised you are from the jellyfish reveal, i guess i'm pretty good at it huh? /jjjjjj

But all in all, it was great reading ur response 🤩 i love how diverse you think about ppl and it made me smile how you tell some small or unique details about each of ur moots dbsnjsjsk love that about you brynn <3 hope you're always well in the future and please be more proud of yourself! You deserve the applause and a celebration for all your amazing works!!! ♡♡♡

*pokes you*

Brynryn, hi hello, how are youuu?

Anyway, since you asked me abt who i ship my mutuals with, i wanna ask you something as well! >:D

What (two or more) characteristics do you personally like about yourself and your mutuals? You can either just say it, explain it, or anything really lol

About myself: I have a love-hate relationship with my grit. Mostly because I know I was born talentless in all aspects (no exaggeration), so every creative endeavor I have is 99% hardwork. And no, my parents don't have writing or drawing skills. I don't need to explain how my mom only knows how to draw "v" birds or how my dad isn't great at English. Absolute shame on them. (jk I love my family, I wish I could just pass my lifespan to hem HAHAHA). So when all hardwork fails, I feel like absolute shit. Second thing probably is my faith. I think I wouldn't be here if I didn't have some level of trust with the universe overall. The rest of me is garbage tho lmao. If I'm an otome game character, I'm 100% the beloved and beloathed trash husbando /srs.

About @leftdestiny-posts: I'm not sure I'd ever encounter an internet mutual like them ever again, and I think their appreciation for life and bluntness/straightforwardness is something to be admired. They're traits I don't have. Shiro and I are very very different people, and I'm not sure why there was a miracle that made us meet lol.

About @a-dose-of-phitre and @estellxli: longest friends I have. I really admire their creativity and skill, and if you want me to be honest, I know full well I'm left behind in those departments. If you know me irl, I'm not exactly the most affectionate person so I'd rather keep this part brief haha. Though, a small addition, I admire estella's communication skills and assertiveness a ton and I wish I had a bit more of Phitre's endearing charm and mannerisms (and height-). I'm super stiff lol.

About @navxry: Probably communication skills as well? When we met, they talked continuously. As much as I know I'm an extrovert and thrive off social energy, I think something in me is holding me back to being as vocal as they are. They also seem to have an abundance of energy. Ahh. Youth. /j

About @mixed-kester: i wish i am surviving engineering as much as she has i wanna quit can i quit also how does she pick colors sht is unfair i always have to open up google chrome to— //hjjjj

About @jessamine-rose: she already knows about my fashion sense or lack thereof, so let's talk about something else. I greatly enjoy her writing style because I know it's not something I'd pull off. Her sentence structures doesn't become verbose, they're incredibly succinct— enough to lead you along. Other than that, probably the way she bounces ideas spontaneously. I wish she sleeps right tho HAHAHA /silly

About @vennnnn-diagram: I probably pestered them too much about how normal people work honestly. I lack social skills so learning about stuff from them makes me feel a bit more knowledgeable without any visible judgement from them. So yeah, add that as one out of two. The second one? Their music skills. I hate learning instruments. I don't know why. I tried plenty. I suck plenty. Everyone in my family are great at playing except me. They're the Bruno Mars to my gambling addiction. WAIT WHY DOES SOUND LIKE THE WORST PICKUP LINE KN EXISTENCE HAHAHAHAHA

About @stardust-for-your-soul: i wish i can write fluff i wish i can write romantic things why can't i think of romantic genshin men headcanons why'd it always have to end in murder— oh and also, I love her prose. Chryseis can turn the mundane to something that oozes with beauty, and I think that romanticism is wonderful.

About @lucienbarkbark: i absolutely do not agree with your love for dazai /silly but I do admire estorea's unapologetic nature. Hell yeah bestie fricking read thag 300000+ chaptered story 😭😭😭 /gen. I find it a challenge to sit down and read nowadays huhu. Also, I like how warm she is to talk to, we haven't DMed much but it feels so hospitable (?) whenever she send fic links. Wish I was more like that. Also, thank you for the oda fics, soldier.

About @meimeimeirin: when mei put the kamisato siblings in a kin tier once (unless memory fails me), i remember silently agreeing so much. She has that "I got most my life together" vibe and I do wish I have that. She's also very open to talking about what she loves, she doesn't hide her affections and it's something I very much look up to if you've seen the things I've written so far lol. I love how vocal she is with appreciating what she has, including some new drinks she tasted, her parents' loving relationship, it's just sweet. The teashop aesthetic definitely suites her vibe. She just seems so... Elegant? Can't be me, I need to cause a mess /silly

About y o u: well first off if I get to have your hands for a day, you'd find weird ass drawings of blonde men on your drawing software. Second, I like your vibes a ton. It hits different. It fluctuates from absolutely chill to saying lowkey out of pocket things and I might be getting gaslit to thinking you're not at all the latter /j

[megkuna]

obikinvillage is literally the only part of the sw fandom i can tolerate and then only like 68% of it

[by-kilian]

(if this ask makes u uncomfortable in any way, feel free to ignore it, delete it, whatever u need to do. ur happiness matters more to me than anything else. however, i am specifically sending this not on anon, despite my incessant urge to do so as i barely ever send off anon, to give u the chance to reply to this privately if u want to. but that is if u want to! i don’t need, or want, anything from u. ur comfort outweighs any sort of recognition or interaction. i am also extremely unsure if this is gonna send properly bc i am on the tumblr app n the character limit seems to be nonexistent now? when did this happen HAHA…)

i went looking for u (scrolled thru the keyword of ur old user on tumblr, found an older ask that includes it) bc That App is talking abt That Story again. it always troubled me how things went down - i’ve experienced writers taking down their works before but never like that. orphaning works, sure. deleting ao3s, yep. but NEVER thru what u went thru. i don’t even generally go here (here being x readers), but That Story got pushed my way when the whole situation was in its hayday n i never properly paid attention to things until i caught wind of what u had to do. i had no idea it was that bad until maybe a week after the situation had been over n done with by ur actions. n i don’t blame u in the slighest. fandom culture is both extremely fun n extremely damaging - the fact u got the shortest end of the stick that i’ve ever seen is truly smth awful.

all of that aside, i am so extremely overjoyed to see ur still writing. truth be told, i hadn’t known of u before That Story, since again, my aversion to x readers. but ur writing is clearly smth special - n maybe this is extremely crude to say, i’m extremely sorry if it is - considering the way ppl acted over it. above it all, i am just happy to see that ur ok. everything is fine, as much as it can be. that fact alone leaves me content. i am SO glad u were able to push past it.

tldr, since i know this is a lot. i am so happy to see ur still kicking it, despite it all. content creation in any form is deeply personal if u put ur heart into it, n it seems like u do. i am so sorry for the way ppl treated u over That Story. i am doubly sorry if this made u feel upset in any way, shape, or form. that was not my intent, feel free to do whatever it is u need to do with this silly ask if this is the case. n maybe this is corny, but i hope more things fall in ur favor, instead of otherwise. have a nice day!

This is actually a really kind and considerate ask. I'll answer it under a cut since my response is pretty long though!

Firstly, I just want to say thank you for being thoughtful enough to consider my feelings in all of this. It's really kind of you and I'm not saying that just to say it. ❤️

Secondly, yeah. It all was a bit of a hell fire. While I wish it never happened, it obviously did but I'm happier now than I was then. Even before ThatStory blew up, my old writing blog was getting out of control and people were feeling super entitled to me, my works, what I did, and who/what I wrote about so in a way, I'm not surprised it headed that way although I never expected it to go THAT way lol. And yes, it was pretty bad but luckily it is done and over with. Fandom culture can be super fun and that's initially what it was for me--just fun before it unfortunately tipped over to the other extreme side of fandom which is toxic. It is what it is.

But to touch on your main point, thank you and it's not crude at all. I don't see your comment that way. In a way, I've come to think of it as much as well (that it must have resonated with people in some weird way) but not just with that particular story but other stories, too so it is really sweet that someone who doesn't read these kinds of stories thinks that of them as well. It also means a lot to me that someone cared enough to think about how I was doing after all this because that really hasn't been the case apart from loyal readers. Most ppl never think about me in this situation 😂 which is probably why what happened, happened. So thank you for the kind words. I'm fine. Like I said, happier now than I was in my previous blog. I've come to think that it's all meant to be. I get a lot more freedom here, I have the sweetest, most loyal readers, and no one feels entitled to my works, my time, or what I do.

Also you didn't upset me at all. While it's admittedly irritating to see people still talking about that shit a literal year and three months or so later, that has nothing to do with you so no worries. I appreciate you taking the time out of your day to check up on me, and thank you for being so kind. Content creation is super personal and I do put my heart into it, so it means a lot to me that you see that 🥺! Truly.

I'm touched that there are still kind, good, decent people out there because for you to take the time to look for me and send me something lovely truly means a lot, especially considering you weren't necessarily a reader of mine--just clearly a kind, thoughtful human being. I can't express how much I appreciate it. Honestly. Thank you so so much for the lovely sentiments, and I hope all is well for you in the future as well. ❤️❤️❤️

[soldrope]

New Morning New Braincells… 2! (couldn’t write a reply yesterday but now I’m gonna get you…!)

I'm SO happy to hear that you liked the reviews I sent you and that I didn't go overboard <3 I just gosh, even now I feel like there's so much more for me to say abt Accidentally Undercover bc the layers man, the layers! And the way you build up your characters? I'm gonna getchu w my adoring comment for the Eclipse one but man, man! Your hard work shines through Luce <3

:readmore:

Moon bird real caught in 4k not clickbait?! (sorry hcidshdo) Can't WAIT to read the Foxy conversation when that's ready 👀 After you published your artpiece for how Foxy looks in your AU along with his backstory I've just been obsessed w that old man. I cannot wait-

Where to even start with everything I loved abt this? There's too much to love! But I love how you jumped right into positively surprised and weirded out which makes sense!! Just like you said like, these brothers love eachother, they're family and they always will be but they're still working on building this relationship back up from the ground up and that takes time. Time, and getting used to the fact that now, your brothers will just call you out of nowhere and it won't be for an emergency.

I love the way you explore Eclipses mental state (?) throughout this. How conflicted he feels; the lingering hurt that still resides despite knowing now that his brothers never hated him, they're just riddled with guilt bc of how poorly they handled just, everything that came with him suddenly existing.

And it helps, knowing it was just guilt that kept them from bringing him up because it's not exactly first meeting material to say, ''Oh yeah, we have a younger brother but we never really talk to him or mention him because we feel too guilty over the way we treated him when he suddenly split from our AI and we still feel personally responsible for the fact that he has a shitty battery and we don't know how to cope with this or work through this without it devolving into arguments. Also his name is Eclipse. Hi.'' mm. yeah no. It's understandable that Moon didn't mention him for this long despite how understandable it is that Eclipse feels forgotten or avoided over how long it took. Complicated complicated brothers that I love w my entire heart and soul bc my god are they TRYING !!

Eclipse being snarky when he thinks they've been deservedly yelled at by Y/N for not mentioning they had a brother when no, no, and god do i love that bit, they're so mad because their brother is, ''That Horizon?'' The only researcher that makes gadgets worth getting? UGH !! My heart !! Immediately thinking back to the duck duck goose chapter and the way their friendship just, it's everything I've needed and more. Your honour, I love them. Especially after, 'Now, within seconds, he's decided he has to meet them and become friends. Hopefully they'll still like him once they've met him.' and the way Y/N adores him once they get over their own trauma and guilt and OUGH !!!!! And the friendship you've hinted to us they'll build, like you mentioned in Fragile (AU but still) how there's things they'll bond over that Sun and Moon can empathise with, but they can't understand it, and how Sun is coming to terms with the fact that that's okay. There's not everything he can understand, and sometimes all you need is someone who does and he's happy Y/N and Eclipse has their friendship together and, I'm gonna smother myself in a pillow i love them.

TLDR^: Anyways, when he finds out Y/N is a fan of his work I love that he goes from a few seconds of surprised awe that he's being appreciated for his work, and then it goes straight into a cackle as he becomes a menace again. <3 and their brotherly banter after this ;A; 'Both draw it out, just a bit, to enjoy it more' LUCE U CAN'T JUST WRITE STUFF LIKE THAT !! MY HEART !! MY HEEAAART !! QAQ <3 Moon caving in after a while and sending the txt <3

and at the end, when he goes on about his drone, and Moon just replies, ''tell them yourself.'' Just, the certainty and comfort that comes from just those few words? the promise that lies hidden between the lines that they're gonna keep working on this. They're gonna talk more, they're gonna be more open, and of course Eclipse is going to meet Y/N. Ofc he is. Because Sun and Moon want him in their lives just as much as Y/N.

And like you said at the end here, it'll take a little work, and time, but they're all very willing to put the work in and that Luce, that is probably my favorite underlying overlying etc theme in your stories, because they're always built on hope, and the certainty that they're gonna figure it all out. And that's such a great, incredible comfort that makes your fics very special to me <3

Thank you for this drabble and I hope your sunday is wonderful!!

1st of all, need to say, adored Dove on the Roof and I'm sending you the longest review once I can after work, this is a threat 🔪 2nd of all–if you've thought of it and you wanna share the tidbit–I loved how after sharing Horizons name and Y/N admitted they only used his gadgets, Moon said he was gonna tell Eclipse abt it, Re:

“I’m going to tell him you said that. It’ll be terrible, because he’ll get even smugger, but it’s too good not to.”

and like. Luce. If you wanna share. I'd love to know how Eclipse reacted to that. Bc yes he'll be so smug abt it i just know it, but i also think he'd be really touched that like, his brothers' partner feels that strongly abt the stuff he makes? Struggling to stay coherent bc English is not my first language, but I just gosh. i loved it. going bonkers. hitting u w that long review later. get ready. -Soldrope ☀️💧

New morning new braincells, let's go!

I have devoured your comment(s) and I have been so so normal about the amount of thought and analysis and how many things you've caught that I tried to write in! I'm so so happy that it all came across and I literally cried reading your comments already gfdhjs now I only hope I soon get the spoons to go through my ao3 inbox and reply to the comments I've amassed

As for Moon telling Eclipse? It didn't happen in that window between Moon date fade-out and Sun date, because Moon was too busy cuddling and being a lovebird (he finally gets to be a bird too! <3), though it'll happen after the Foxy conversation after Sun's date.

That conversation will be addressed in a proper drabble/ chapter (they've been getting longer, so by now drabble feels no longer appropriate gfhdjs), so since I haven't written that yet this might not quite fit with how things turn out, but it'll be a fun thought until then!

Because after all that, and not charging the night before due to cuddle priorities (and they haven't quite yet reached the stage of a permanently installed charging cable at Y/N's side of the duplex) (it's definitely a thought though, because lugging around their cable for sleepovers has a bit of a hassle), Moon will excuse himself for a quick charge before work, and handle a little special phone call <3

(Eclipse will be smug enough. Moon doesn't need to make the gloating even easier by providing something to screenshot)

Eclipse, on the other hand, is positively surprised and doing his best not to be weirded out by a spontaneous phone call from his brother. That just didn't happen before! He's still getting used to the closer contact, too, and his first thought won't be a good one. Maybe another emergency? At least this time he'll hear about it sooner?

Well, only for Moon to pull the rug from under him completely.

"What do you mean, you haven't talked about me before?"

"I mean, we were trying to flirt, which already kept misfiring. Adding complicated family history that paints a rather ugly picture of us when they never asked wasn't really... Something that came up."

A sigh, and Eclipse does his best to cover up the lingering hurt. He knows their relationship was rocky at best, and he wasn't exactly eager to talk about them to other people either.

(It helps a little, knowing that part of it was guilt - he wasn't forgotten, instead his brothers felt too bad to casually bring him up. But he also doesn't like being a guilty secret either. In the end, he pushes it away to unpack later, and focus on the conversation at hand)

"How did it 'come up' then?"

Silence from the other end, as Moon quickly decides that no, he's not going to explain that he made his own first date emotionally charged in the heavy way to finally talk about his brother, much less the exact conversation that sparked it.

Eclipse never asked for their favorite colors, either.

"No, no, look, that's not the important bit. They went off on me for not telling them."

"Makes sense."

"Because they're a fan of your work."

"Makes s- huh?"

"They like your designs. They exclusively buy their own gadgets, except for when one of yours gets distributed. They said, and I quote, 'That Horizon?'"

Again, silence, as Eclipse processes that. That's so far from what he expected, or even figured would ever be in store for him. He knows his work is good, the agency doesn't really entertain slackers and subpar work, not for leading researchers - but that doesn't mean he feels appreciated. The people he works with are more neutral to annoyed by his antics, and the actual results he produces seemingly fade into the background.

So hearing there's someone out there who, dare he say it, is a fan?

He already thought Y/N/ Robin is nice enough from just the stories Sun and Moon shared before, but this? Now, within seconds, he's decided he has to meet them and become friends.

Hopefully they'll still like him once they've met him.

By now, he's been silent for a while.

"... Eclipse?"

The anxiety gets pushed away yet again, and instead Eclipse starts laughing. Softly, first, but then it turns into a full blown cackle.

Moon just sighs.

"Here we go."

"Since when? How long have they liked my stuff?"

"I didn't ask, that wasn't exactly the focus of the conversation."

"You can ask right now though! Ask them!"

"They're at work!"

"Send them a text then! You'll say you forgot if you don't do it now!"

"I wouldn't forget!"

"Yeah, but you'd say that!"

They squabble a bit, and it feels nice - just your normal, comfortable sibling banter, something they didn't get to share for the longest time. Both draw it out, just a bit, to enjoy it more.

Moon does send the text, but only after making a production out of "not wanting to". Eclipse laughs some more, that smug snicker of a younger sibling winning out over the older one.

And then he thinks of something else, too.

"Oh, oh, have you told them about that drone I've been trying to get approved?"

"No, I haven't, tell them yourself. Did that still not go through? You mentioned that weeks ago, they're really dragging their feet."

"They say it's a fire hazard, and I keep trying to explain that that's the reason why I need them to approve the more expensive fireproof material. Somehow they don't seem to understand that."

The conversation drifts towards other topics, then, but Eclipse is very much soaring from the start of it. That little "tell them yourself" is enough to reassure him on so many levels - this isn't an exception, this is going to be normal, his brothers want him to meet their partner, want to introduce them and give him a chance to talk to them himself.

The anxiety is still there, and a bit of it we see in Duck Duck Goose - he needs them to like him, needs things to go well, and to leave a good impression. He's more than just his work, and unfortunately he's afraid that they won't like the person behind the codename, and that confidence boost of them liking his work doesn't quite shine through.

They'll get there! It'll just take a bit of work, and time, but they're all very willing to put that effort in <3

[transmasc-wizard]

hey tumblr user chaotic-queer-disaster aka nico !! tell me about your wips !! or like literally anything you want to talk abt go balls to the walls insane dude

also in case no one told u this today you're super cool and valid !! and if someone has told you this, then, well, couldn't hurt to hear it again :]

aksjhasjkd this is one of the nicests asks i've ever got, thank u

SO (this is a sign of rambling)

my default wip when it comes to rambling is GFS/GFW1 and since you did not specify, that is the one i will talk about! it's my baby, i love it, it's the story closest to my heart and absolutely my favourite child.

So, i've talked very very vaguely about the plot, but i don't think i've actually said anything... helpful? I've just said "cinderella retelling with murder" then dramatically swept the plot off the table to talk about my characters instead. But it has a plot! A very weird and elaborate plot! which is actually three or four plots! and i will explain them now. under a cut for the benefit of people's dashes. (also this will focus on book 1 only, because. it's 5 books and each one has a mini-plot, plus the overarching one.)

It opens with Angel (the first POV, there's 5 main ones) being her usual morally dubious self and conning people! but it's cops so it's ok. Angel bumps into her fellow narrator and morally dubious individual, Bea, who's giving fake prophecies. This is extremely distressing because Angel hates/adores Bea, so she Hits The Bricks.

Severely distressed, she decides to follow the advice of a creepy message she finds that tells her to get in a car on Rue De L'Enfer (which. fun fact. means hell street. She knows this). Surprise, surprise, it's a terrible idea, and she and 4 others (including Bea, and the 3rd narrator, Hope) realize they're being kidnapped. They escape, blah blah blah, they nearly run over 2 dudes, and lo, they meet the rest of the narrators! Corey and Oliver. Now that they're together:

plot one revolves around the fact that later that night, they find out that all seven of them are prophesized to either save the world or burn it down. Specifically, they're meant to each awaken a Terrible Bad Monster, and once all 7 Terrible Bad Monsters wake up... they're fucked! But they can also kill the terrible bad monsters. Plot one goes through all the books, where they're finding increasingly more obscure but also more powerful ways to destroy the Terrible Bad Monsters once and for all.

plot two revolves around the absolute chaos being that brought them together. (She is human but... she is chaotic.) She sent them an invite after finding them. Said invite is to a masquerade ball. They take it, hoping to kill her and the others manipulating them.

plot three is the roadtrip to get to that ball, which frankly could be a book all on it's own if i bothered to expand on it, lmao. it's the most shenanigan-filled part of the book, probably.

plot four is the "falsehood" plot with magic plague shit that's killing people, especially petty criminals, smugglers, and people the government doesn't like. they're trying to trace it to it's roots and stop it, and it seems weirdly connected to plot 2 up there...

plot five is the rowan plot!! she has 4 chapters of narration in book 1 (plus the 280 word prologue) and her plotline is about how she's trying to... kill the main characters lmao. but she becomes part of the chaotic found family later, i promise.

plot six is all the character/emotional plotlines in general. Bea and Angel trying to reconnect, Corey and Oliver trying not to absolutely love each other (because thats Not Allowed), Hope learning not to be a doormat, all of them learning to trust each other, etc.

as you can see, i have a Lot of plot and therefore kinda just vaguely mention it. if i actually bothered to talk about all my plot work, i'd be typing up fukkin essays every day. but yeah!! gfw1 does in fact have a plot and here it is

sorry i took like a week to answer this lmao, i hope its... at least someone interesting and/or entertaining.

taglist just bc this is Literally The Plot: @e-the-village-cryptid, @stormharbors, @timelybees, @citywillow, @void-fireworks, as to be added or removed