#i think ive been using tumblr to dump stuff like this too often but sometimes i wanna get stuff out without directly talking to soAHHHHH

[ei-mugi]

wonder if i could just like. move out

[theunconcernedembalmer]

Toko! I was thinking of creating an ask the character blog for IDV or Genshin Impact and wanted a few tips on how to start off. Anything you can share?

ey yo my dude!! thank you so much for this question, now im lowkey tempted (again) to make a genshin ask blog sjadhlkshgkahshglsaj anyway my 1.5 cents is under the cut, yall know how much i talk here HAHAHAHAH

uhhhhhh so i guess we start with picking a character u really Vibe with tm? I KNOW THIS SOUNDS LIKE COMMON SENSE BUT LIKE ive been considering making a genshin ask blog for a while now but i never really got to it cos i couldnt really decide on a character (plus the fact that their outfits are. so intricate. is also a hmm since i try to follow details to a t) (at first i wanted to do zhongli, but i feel like to be able to muse him well u need to know the lore super super well, which i dont n im too lazy to research on that aha. n u know how much i respect characterizations, especially for such a complex character like him. i also considered xiangling for a period of time mostly for guoba but also like i have 2+1 blogs here n having one more might not be a very good idea aha) (as for aesop he was my Hyperfixation Character tm also cos i looked at his kit n went Yep i could work with this. probably)

so assuming ur not a dumbass like me n u kinda know who u wanna pick, id actually say to snoop around here for other ask blogs n kinda get a feel of the... scene? is that the word? or like u know, other blogs that u can potentially vibe with. ive run a couple of ask blogs before this current one (both that have died for different reasons) n from my experience interacting with other blogs (if theyre okay with it, i think most should be) is pretty fun. it also kinda helps get ur blog around to other ppl on other blogs so they can go Oh whats this cool shit n check u out, n its also a reason why we kinda reblog promo posts for other blogs (also cos we’re always excited when someone new comes on, its really the more the merrier. we see all :eyes:). interacting with other blogs is also an option when ur inbox is looking real roomy too

another reason why i havent exactly done a genshin blog is that idk i cant actually seem to find genshin ask blogs around (i have seen rp blogs, or those that answer asks with mostly text instead of art, but thats. not my thing since i hate my own writing aha) (i did find one aether blog some time ago, but for some reason i hardly see them around anymore??? idk man i might be wrong). its not like im trying super hard to find them ask blogs, so im sure they exist out there (hopefully?? im not sure but im being optimistic). i mean theres nothing wrong with just starting an ask blog without others around, but for me i do find a difference when i interact with other ask blogs n when i dont, n i prefer when theres others to have fun with (unfortunately i couldnt find any ask blogs to interact with in my previous fandom. i tried, but the blogs i approached seemed to go inactive shortly afterwards...) plus u get to meet friends that way too :D (i made a lot of friends via idv askblogs n its really been a joy vibing with others)

as for the idv scene. gestures around me. unfortunately there are a lot of ask blogs that arent that active anymore, but theres still some of us who are alive n kicking empty inboxes, n im sure everyone would love to see a new face around. winks at u. also there seems to be a lot more blogs popping up lately, which is really heartening to see.

then u kinda just. make ur blog? n a starting introduction post so ppl can reblog it n spread the word XD n yay u have a blog i guess??? XD

i gotta say tho. dont expect ur blog to take off immediately (especially for smaller fandoms like idv, tvbh i didnt think my blog would even get half this far when i started cos of how non existent idv tumblr seemed to be) n ur inbox will probably be looking pretty empty a lot of the time (or at least filled with some that u havent quite thought of how to reply to yet aha) (but also like empty inboxes happen pretty often, im sure most of us here have experienced this problem)

in the case of the first ask blog i ever started, it never really took off at all. ngl it was kind of demoralizing n depressing but to be fair i had picked one of the more obscure characters in the series, so obscure that many ppl in the fandom would have never heard of this character before. if u wanted to know, i took a character that only appeared in the 2nd musical of the series, who also made a very brief cameo in the manga to acknowledge his existence within that universe. thats how obscure my character was, but i went with him purely because he was my favourite character. i will say though i did enjoy it while it lasted n i learnt a lot from the experience, n i think thats whats important really.

i guess this kinda leads on (not really but let me digress) to the whole uhhhh thing where if u choose a more popular character, u get more attention. which is fine i guess? if u really vibe with the character, i mean theyre popular for a reason. n choosing a more popular fandom (like genshin) would objectively also get u more viewers n numbers. but like honestly i believe that ask blogs are meant for u to have fun with, n like trying to get popular gets tiring pretty fast (this shouldnt be like a main goal, but u know sometimes u subconsciously also want that gucci follower count n bomb ass notes or something. i used to be guilty of this until i realized it isnt worth it) especially if ur not enjoying yourself in the process. (case in point: my previous fandom was considerably larger n my blog got about 700 followers within a year or so, but it got very tiring n stressful to maintain after my interest in it died, n no one was really interacting with the blog even though i tried which kinda made it even more depressing despite the so called success n popularity of the blog)

anyway on a less serious note, theres a lot of fun stuff u can do with the ask blog, like some ask blogs have really fancy tags that i really like n try to do but also like not really HAHAHAHA. i kinda just channel what i want to see in an ask blog into my own ask blogs (good art is one, i try very hard for it to be good :,DD another is characterization, n others is just extra miscellaneous arts n stuffs like au ideas or memes. these are also somethings u could work on during ask box downtimes perhaps)

uhhh another side thing is like a posting schedule i guess? like ppl would be more likely to interact (i think) if ur blog is relatively active, n this is usually determined by the last post u made (i think XD). but like generally for blog maintenence id say try to kinda find a frequency that ur comfortable with?? cos i know my once a day posting is kinda insane if i wasnt so hyperfixated on all of this n fight the urge to dump all ur replies when u finish them XD (though ive seen some blogs do that n they do it pretty frequently so its pretty nice to know once u see their post u can spend some time going through the latest batch of posts XD) the queue function is pretty useful here even though i truthfully have never really used it, i kinda just post from my drafts really but it also helps to space out ur content to seem somewhat active especially when u dont have the time to be working on replies sometimes. i hope u know what im trying to say here aha

ANYWAY that was like my 1.5 cents cos i dont even think its worth 2 cents HAHAHAHAH these are just my thoughts from running all my blogs up till now, some that are still running n the others that have just died a natural death. i wouldnt actually delete them (theyre still around actually XD) cos theyre kinda like archives n i can look back at what i did last time. cos ngl i made some high quality stuff back then, n i dont even know how i managed to do that aldhflhdsgk. also ppl do look at archive blogs every now n then for the content thats there yknow

BUT YES anyway if u do decide to join the idv ask blogs hmu, ill be sure to give u a lil shoutout here. winks

[bluealmondpie]

haikyuu boyfriends~

ah i missed writing these but i had no inspiration recently (;-;) work has been rough. so let drown in fluffy love

some spoilers for non manga readers. a small small hint of oihina. bc i love them. i want them together all the time. i've already written their bf!hcs so now i can freely ship them. leave me to my OTP

bf!iwa chan~

* calm vibes

* think strong, protective bf? yeah that's the good stuff lol

* tbh, he was probably worried at first that u were getting close to him cos u liked oikawa, that happens fairly often so he didn't wanna get his hopes up

* but once that barrier's knocked down (idk maybe u hit him like ITS U I LIKE BOKE totally his love language hahahha and he realises like oh. OH) he's pretty happy.

* will b all like :p to oikawa cos he's got a nice, steady partner while he's over there getting dumped repeatedly (see? told u u shld give them more attention. u can't just go around accepting everyone's confession! you'll hurt people if you don't take them seriously, trashykawa)

* anyway he (like oikawa) plans dates in secret, mostly because 1. one time makki and mattsun found out, they followed him around making snarky comments and there was no second date and 2. oikawa has a tendency to crash his dates (he's trying to hide from his fans, and iwachaaaaaaan u choose the most boring places, they will never find me in a museum of all plac-OW OW OW STOP HITTING ME)

* yes so anyway iwaizumi is forever trying to yeet oikawa out of your relationship, but at this point you've probably accepted that they come as a comedic duo and u cannot escape.

* if u call iwaizumi iwachan, he will grumble about being corrupted by shittykawa and it's not fair that when they say it it's so cute

* wholesome boi. responsible af. will text u throughout the day, making sure u ate properly or work isn't too rough.

* when you're stressed out he will somehow find some time to appear in front of you with snacks (healthy ones!) and some sweet drinks, or coffee

* he also does randomly turn up with flowers. totally randomly. it makes your day ♪( ´▽｀)

* "i just saw them and thought it would look nice in your hands" so soft i cry in solidarity w u

* will hold you while you cry. when you calm down and go to wash your face he will make u a hot drink. you will b touched and cry again and he will tell not to cry into the cup while pulling you back into his arms.

* will send you to the doctor's if you're sick. will constantly text you to make sure u r resting and taking medication properly. will also drop by with food, store bought, but something healthy and easy to eat.

* he likes museum dates cos it's quiet. after all, he is training a team of explosive and loud volleyball idiots with no idea how loud they are talking. bokuto pls for the love of god SHUT UP! MIYA STOP FLIRTING WITH HINATA! HYAKUZAWA STOP HIM NO NO NOT BY LIFTING HINATA UP WHY ARE U ALL JUST SO THICK HEADED WELL?? PUT HIM DOWN U BIG DOOFUS. hinata has oikawa already anyway AND NO. HOSHIUMI IF U GET ON ANYONES SHOULDERS I AM KNOCKING U OFF PERSONALLY iwa chan is suffering (;-;) you r his refuge

* SO YEAH. a nice calm place away from all of that fuss is great. walks in the park, things like that. calming, quiet, and all his focus can b on you.

* he is generally not a pda person, but he will hold your hand and all. makki and mattsun have made a lot of bets on what kind of bf he is and constantly bug you about well? how good is the sex!!! and things like that (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

* yes so iwaizumi doesn't let u hang out with them anymore, such a pity really bc they r so fun to b around. pout a little and sulk and he will give in ♪( ´▽｀)

* he doesn't like it when u come to his matches. he will text you before and after tho. he doesn't use emojis.

* he's the type who doesn't back down in an argument. u hate to admit it but he is right most of the time. curse his logic. this perfect man. how could he b so flawless

* ofc there are times where he is illogical. he sometimes is too hard on himself. or when oikawa is around you know the average mental age of the seijoh boys drop. which means many strange shenanigans, but those are cute.

* he likes it when you comfort him, but he doesn't like you to know when he is stressed. what a bag of contradictions. basically he doesn't want you to know he is stressed, but you can tell cos he just wants you to hold him or he just holds you (you have no choice in this basically but let's face it you're probably ok with it right hahahah be i am 100% down to be enveloped by a warm iwa-chan and those yummy muscles). he will tell you the problem later, but he doesn't need a solution, he just wants someone to hear him out.

* loyal af, will never leave you. sometimes insecure, but reassure him. i mean, has he seen himself??? he had his fair share of fangirls too back in seijoh but most were the more quiet, serious types. and most were too shy to approach him, too

* he likes to nuzzle his face into your hair.

* fav place to kiss you: temple

* fav place to be kissed: soft cheek kisses, eye kisses, forehead kisses. pepper him with them. make him feel loved ♪( ´▽｀)

* anyway 10/10 boyfriend material hurry and get him while stocks last lololol

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[winnipegpatty]

to all the boys i’ve loved before [pt. iv] | s.m. series

a/n: catch up through the link in my bio! i’ve heard tumblr doesn’t put posts with links on dashes as often, so i’m going to see if more people see these if there’s not a link attached! Love you! Also this is really filler, but hey whatever. 

Fake dating Shawn was getting easier and easier. I always ate lunch with him and his friends in the cafeteria. And I was even becoming friends with some of his friends. They were nothing like my old friends. But it was fun to be part of a group. Of course, there were still moments when I wanted to disappear. The moments when Josh walked down the hall staring at me like I was someone he’d never known before. He’d shake his head at me, almost like he was disappointed in me. I’d be lying if I said it didn’t hurt. He’s my best friend. Well, he was my best friend. Really, I don’t think I remember what it was like to be best friends with Josh before Ari. It was all so different then and even more different now.

“Hey, can we talk?” Josh had asked one late evening in November.

Despite being next door neighbors, Josh hadn’t been over since Ari left. With Ari off in England, well, Josh just vanished.

“I guess,” I answered him. We stepped out onto the porch and stood against the wall.

Everything with Josh was so uncomfortable now. I hated it. They were weird when he was dating Ari, but at least I could still talk to him. Then Ari left and it was odd but manageable, and now with Shawn in the picture it was just uncomfortable.

“I can’t believe you’re dating him, Y/N. I mean, Shawn Mendes? Come on. We used to make fun of that guy.”

He used to make fun of that guy.

“Is it so unbelievable that someone like Shawn could like me, Josh?” It wasn’t supposed to hurt. I wasn’t in love with Josh after all, the letter was old and forgotten. Besides I was with Shawn now, at least to Josh I was. So I couldn’t make this seem like it affected me.

“No, that’s not what’s unbelievable.” Josh stuttered to find words, “You’re like, well you’re just this completely innocent, sweet, kind, perfect girl, and he’s….he’s a complete dick!” He practically spat at me.

If he even knew Shawn, knew him like I knew him, he’d know he wasn’t a dick.

“You make me sound really boring, Josh. It’s not like I’m some innocent girl just waiting around for the right guy.”

Josh scoffed, “Okay.”

“Okay!” My response laced with sarcasm, “Well this has really been a great chat, Josh. Thanks for coming over to talk to--”

“No… wait, just wait, Y/N.”  It wasn’t until this moment that I really saw Josh. Really noticed how frazzled he appeared, how unkempt his hair was and the way his flannel wasn’t even buttoned properly. “Look...just, did you mean what you wrote in the letter?”

Yes. “Josh, that was a long time ago.”

“Not for me. For me this is brand new, you gotta hear me out. I’m just trying to understand.”

“There’s nothing to even understand. It’s simple. The letter was meant for me and me only. You should have never seen it. Never read it. Never got it. Forget about the letter, Josh.”

“But I did see it!” Josh screamed, completely unraveling at the seams. He pulled at his hair as he paced on the porch. “What am I supposed to do about that?”

“I don’t know, not tell Ari.”

“Ari’s not even talking to me,” Josh spat. “You don’t have to worry about that.”

“I’m sorry,” I mumbled as I turned around trying to go inside. Running away from the conversation wasn’t always the best move, but it was the only one I had right now.

“That’s it?” He choked out, “What? Ari dumps me, you’re dating Mendes, and now we can’t even be friends anymore?”

“Josh, I don’t know how to be your friend anymore. We can’t go back to how we were before you and Ari were dating. And we certainly can’t go back to how we were while you were dating...what else is there?”

“If I had known,” He paused a moment, “If i’d just known I was going to lose both of you like this I--”

“Stop, don’t even finish that sentence.”

“You can’t just ignore me, Y/N.”

“I’m sorry, I am really sorry,” I mumbled as I finally went inside, leaving Josh alone on the porch.

Now alone with my thoughts inside, and it wasn’t much better than outside with Josh.

So, I did what any girlfriend would do...I called Shawn.

“Hey, Y/L/N, what’s up?” His chipper voice rang through the phone, and it felt good. Felt nice and calming, and like the world as you knew it just a month ago wasn’t completely unraveling at the seams.

“Hey,” I said quietly.

Shawn paused a moment too long and I knew that he had heard it in my voice, “Everything okay?”

I wanted to say yes, but instead, “No.”

Shawn didn’t respond at all. For a solid minute we sat on the phone listening to each other’s breathing. My anxiety skyrocketing, completely regretting calling him in the first place. I mean, what was I thinking any way? All of this was just pretend anyway. He wasn’t really my boyfriend. He wasn’t at my beck and call and here to comfort me when I was confused. Or to be by my side when I was lonely.

“I was getting ready to go out, actually was about to call you…” Shawn trailed off quietly, “Contract and all ya know? Do you want me to come over though? We can talk.” The way he said talk, warmed her inside. Like maybe he knew she just needed some company so that she wasn’t alone with her thoughts.

“No, no, Shawn. I’m sorry. Just go to the party, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have called.”

“No, Y/N,” Shawn’s response was quick through the phone, “I’m glad you called. Just give my like ten minutes and I’ll be over, yeah? I don’t need to go to another party anyway.”

It felt odd, having Shawn drop his plans for me. It felt like something he really shouldn’t have done, or really even wanted to do. But he did for some reason, and all I could do was whisper thanks to him.

___

Shawn and Sof were sitting across from me at the table, an intense game of monopoly under way. Shawn and Sof were neck and neck for winner, while I was trailing behind with a measly three properties.

Shawn currently had two hotels on Boardwalk, and I was only one wrong roll away from bankruptcy. So naturally, fighting words were coming out. Sof was at his throat for trying to bargain with me on one of my few remaining properties.

“You know, babe,” Shawn batted his eyes at me, “I’ll give you the money you’d need to survive a roll on Boardwalk, for your last pink property.”

“No! You can’t do that!” Sof screamed out of frustration.

“I think I can,” Shawn winked at me. “So, what do you say, cariña?”

Sofia scoffed, “Sure just pull out Spanish pet names to win her over. Ay Dios míos,” Sof mumbled.

If I giggled into the back of my hand like a fucking idiot, I’d deny it until my dying breath.

Shawn tried again, after I hadn’t responded right away, “Listen. You’re one roll away from bankruptcy so you either do this and maybe live to see another couple turns, or you lose in like two minutes.” Shaw shrugged as if it was the most simple reasoning.

“Triple it, and you have a deal, cariño,” I shot back at him with a devilish smirk.

“Double.” He countered.

“Double, and you give me a free pass on the next one of your properties I land on.”

“Deal,” Shawn reached across the table and shook my hand, “Nice doing business with you.”

In the background there were signs of Sofia’s continuing distress at the situation, but I wasn’t paying any attention. I just hoped Sofia doesn’t get too attached. In fact, I wish we could have kept our families out if it all together. Family felt too real. Having Shawn over felt like when Josh was over with Ari. And that’s not what this was, but everyday it got a little bit harder to remember that it was different to begin with.

There was a look that Shawn gave me every time there were moments like these. Moments that felt real. And the look that he gave me, it felt real too. Like he was looking into my eyes wondering where I’d come from and why he hadn’t found me sooner. Sometimes I think I gave him a look right back.

____

“Hey, I’m really sorry about my mom. I swear, I told her about it all before you came over. I thought she’d remember,” Shawn mumbled quietly as we roamed into the kitchen with our dishes in hand.

Shawn’s parents were nice. And his sister Aaliyah was really fun. She reminded me a lot of Ari, which was nice since she wasn’t around right now. The dinner at their home had been lovely, and Shawn’s family was picture perfect in pretty much every way. It’s something I would have found annoying months ago, but now it seemed almost endearing that he had the privilege of growing up in such a comfortable life.

“No, it’s okay,” I said looking towards Shawn as I handed over my cup, which he placed in the dishwasher.  I hopped up onto the kitchen counter. “It’s nice getting to talk about my mom, like it’s normal. Like I’m normal...without my life seeming like a complete tragedy.”

“What’s it like living with only one parent?” Shawn asked quietly, as he inched closer to me.

“It’s not as weird as it used to be. I mean, Sof hardly remembers her. And as time goes on, I’ve lived longer without her than I ever did with her. But I’m used to it now. Sometimes it’s weird not having a mom to talk to, but it’s not too bad.”

“I bet you really miss her,” Shawn whispered.

“Yeah,” I whispered back, looking over at him with a sad smile. “Every day. But it’s just been so long that sometimes...” I trailed off, looking away from Shawn, off into an unknown headspace. “Okay, it’s like this. Like, I’ll be doing homework or cleaning my room, or something, and I’ll just be thinking about my family...and I’ll forget that there was even a time when it wasn’t just my dad and my sisters. And it only happens for like, a quarter of a second, but then….then I just feel really, really guilty about it. I’ve never really told anyone that before,” I said shocked. I looked at Shawn, his eyes staring earnestly at me.

Shawn nodded, “I mean...I get it. It makes sense to me, yeah?”

“You know, it's kind of nice having someone to talk to about this stuff.”

Shawn smiled at me, nodding his head and looking kind of shy.

“You’re a good listener,” I spoke softly.

“Yeah?” He bit his lip a bit, “Why thank you.”

____

Being with Shawn was so easy, that sometimes I let myself believe it wasn’t fake.    

“Okay, so tell me again, why we’re eating lunch...under the bleachers?”

“We can’t have our Subway contraband out in the open,” Chris responded like it was the most obvious concept. “Don’t want the powers that be, catching on to my truancy vibe. Then I’d have to back to cafeteria food, and that is a total blow.”

“I don’t know, Shawn. It’s like you don’t have time for me anymore.”

The voice, clear as day, belonging to Gen spoke directly above you on the bleachers. Chris stilled immediately pointing up. “All you do is hang out with her.”

You looked up, and sure enough Shawn’s signature black jeans and boots were sitting next to Gen’s classic hideous Ugg boots.

“What, like I’m supposed to just wait around for you? Gen, you left me for a college guy.”

“We should get out of here,” I whispered to Chris.

“Are you insane? That’s your boyfriend! And they’re talking about you.”

I didn’t really want to eavesdrop, but at the same time I did. The nosier part of me, the part wanting to know what Shawn was saying to Gen behind my back, won out in the end.

“He’s not a good listener,” Gen whined.

“That’s because he’s not at your beck and call, like I am. Gen, you can’t keep doing this to me.”

“Wait she’s not coming on the ski trip, is she? That’s our thing!” Gen’s voice rising to a panicked yell.

“What does it matter? You have a boyfriend. An upgraded boyfriend, supposedly.”

“Yeah, but...maybe by then...I won’t.”

Shawn scoffed before Chris said to me, “Dude, Gen is after your man.”

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