#i think its the fourht

[aliceinborderlandsquidgame]

One part of me was left behind | Niragi x Fem!Reader

Warnings: Death - Bullying - Foreing!Reader - Xenophobia - WHAT I WRITE ABOUT JAPANESE PPL DOES NOT REPRESENT THEM !! - Blood - ANGST - grammar mistakes -

When Niragi first over hear that a new student was going to join his school in the middle of the year he did not give it a second thought.

He was after all, a loser. No one wanted to hang up with him fearing they would end being bullied too.

And on top of that you were a girl, of course you will avoid him like a plague.

"SILENCE! We will now let our new student introduce herself, pleasen come in"

The moment you entered the class a silence cold as the worse winter fell. No one mentioned that you were not japanese....

You gave a nervous yet friendly smile introducing yourself in japanese, there was an accent of course, but they could still understand you. You knew that since you did talk with adults and such and no one had a problem.

You also mentioned from where you were and how you hoped to get along the rest of the year.

No one clapped or smiled back. In fact they looked....disgusted by you. You wanted to think it was your mind playing games on you, but after you took a seat besides a girl and asked to see her book only to get a rude response you knew it.

They did not like you.

~~~~~~~

The next days were chaos for you. No one would talk to you, at least directly, whenever you tried to make up conversation they would fake not understanding you.

Then they would whisper how your accent was too thick and how strange you looked, how you just did not fit.

Thats why after one week of being the center of jokes at the cafeteria you took your lunch to a part of the school that was away from everyone.

It was truly a sad scene, you taking small bites of your bento (and of course they said how you must have stole it from someone, from a true japanese), and drinking water.

"You are in my spot" a voice said

You looked up truly suprised to see anyone here and more, talking to you.

Niragi adjusted his glasses and looked around avoiding your gaze. He had seen from day one how bad the school had take you in and how professors ignored it. He did feel bad for you, but honestly? What could he do?

"Uh...sorry i did not think someone would come here. Is" You made a gesture to the place "Rather lonely"

"Its better than being with them" Niragi said, just in last period his lunch had got robbed from his backpack so he had to take a trio to the cafeteria (wrose minutes of his life) to get some food for himself.

Thats why he was late, thats why you ended here in his spot.

"Well, there is plenty of space, we can eat together if you want?"

Shit, what if he was like the rest? What if he also hated you for no reason ?

Niragi blushed at your idea, if he was honest he found you rather cute for the eye, of course he did not know anything about you (to worried living his own hell) but maybe and just maybe you two could get along?

Since he was lost in his mind you took his silence as a no and started to move.

"Forgive me, you must be angry the foreing student took your spot and now is inviting you to eat" You said the last part with a tone of anger.

"N-no its not like that" He exclaimed making you stop "i was just thinking...we can have lunch together, (Y/N) was it? Right?"

For the first time since starting school you smiled, a true smile, not the fake ones you would give professors or to your own parents. Even your eyes reflected the joy you were feeling.

"Yes! Thats me, and you are?"

From that moment a friendship started to grow.

~~~~~~

The bullying did not stop, it even got worse once others noticed how you and Niragi seemed to be friends.

The "Strange couple" or "Nerd and Monster" were your new names. Some would even whisper how you two would go to the bathroom on the fourht floor to do stuff (something that made the school call your and Niragi's parents who almost exploted in range).

But you two survived it. Niragi was a hard shell to break, but he was good and even funny. You two would go to the arcade lots of times. You found out how good he was at shooting games, he even won you a plush one time. And kept saying how it was nothing while blushing.

The first time you two kissed it was spring. It was so cliche. It had been another hell day at school so you two took a walk around a park deciding to go to a near ice cream store.

Maybe it was the slowly but raising temperature or the sakura petals that fell once you two made it into the store.

"You have...some ice cream" Niragi said pointing at your cheeck, you tried to remove it but failed going to get a napkin when you felt his lips on your cheeck on the spot were the ice cream used to be.

Both of you blushed and did not talk all the way back to your place. But you were not going to let it slide so taking his hand in yours and giving him the most loving look someone your age could give you gave him a small kiss on his lips.

~~~~~~~

Years went by, the two of you started to date and your Relationship was beautiful. Niragi did change but so did you, you two were stronger now, more confident and mature.

The two of you were out for a date, just enjoying your time together, he had his arm around your shoulders as you two walked.

Then all went to hell.

~~~~~~~

The Borderlands were a place of fight or die, and luckly you had Niragi and he had you.

The amount of games you two went together and came out alive...the adrenaline, the desesperstion.

All of it was worth it if you two got more time together, if your visas got more days.

Niragi was always at the front, making sure no one and nothing would hurt you, he was your shield like he used to be at school.

And while you too got lucky lots of times....

"No...nononono!! (Y/N) WAKE UP!!" Niragi screamed seeing your body laying on the floor some type of gun innury on your abdomen.

It was a minute, just one minute. You two were together and then got separated.

"You cant leave me!! YOU PROMISED ME, FUCK YOU PROMISED WE WERE GOING TO GET OUT TOGETHER"

Niragi could not stop screaming as he hugged your lifeless body, cold and out of life. Any trace of what you were was gone.

And so was his soul.

Because if Niragi was sure of something, he loved you. He loved you a lot and was sure you two were soulmates. You were is angel, how could he had survived school without you?

"Im gonna kill them, i dont care who did this. I will kill them all"

Soul tainted in range Niragi did it. He killed all the players coming out with lots of blood on his body and you on his arms. He carried you till he found a place where he could bury your body.

"Im sorry, i should have been more careful, im sorry, it should have been me"

One part of Niragi died that night. His good part. The only thing left was a monster, hungry for death and pain, ready to see others suffers as much as possible.

[johnegbbrt]

im gomna throw up and die i think i got sick and its the FOURHT week of school

im gonna jump 💥💥💥

[yngseung]

the power he holds!!

[pro-sketboarder-tony-hawk]

Weapon Asks

Longsword: Do you like when people are straightforward and honest to you? usually yes, but on really hard topics for me i want them to be gentle about it, and when it comes to me and/or my mental illness please sugar coat it so i don’t get overly upset when i don’t need to be

Spear: Do you get close to people easily? oh hell yeah, i love emotional intimacy 

Rapier: What is the most expensive thing you own? uuuuuuum not in terms of overall collections and in terms of personal belongings, i think a $150-ish shirt that i got at goodwill for about $5. one of my most valued finds literally and just bc i’m proud i got that deal

Butterfly Knife: What is a skill you’ve practiced enough that you’d call yourself an expert? i don’t think any? i have half mastered too many skills to count but i never focus on one enough to become an expert. as the full saying goes; “a jack of all trades is a master of none, but often times better than a master of one”

Dagger: Have you had an experience with betrayal? yes from many people, but i forgive almost all of them so it’s okay, we were all different people in the past 

Revolver: Six random facts about yourself. (((i tried to do less known facts abt me and not cliche ones like “i like the color yellow” and shit like that)

1- i’m so incredibly scared of the future, mine, society’s, and the world’s, and i don’t know how to cope with it so i just move on in life so horribly scared but brave

2- i have three half-brothers who i’m desperate to find out the names of, even if i never meet them. i don’t know why i want to know so bad, they’re from my dad’s side who was a horrible person, so if they’re anything like who he is in my head i don’t want to meet them. but i would still love to know if they’re real and who they are, if they’re my age, younger, older, look like me, like stuff i like, anything. i could even have a sister for all i know about my dad

3- i’m a paranoid schizophrenic and idk how many of my friends know bc i don’t usually just outright say it, but the friends that do know have to handle me when i’m having an episode and i feel bad for them even though i can’t control when or how it happens

4- i have literally fought to the point of ending friendships over respecting girls who are pregnant in high school. my grandma was pregnant in high school and she turned out fine and so did my mom, and my mom was pregnant in high school and i turned out mostly fine. in 11th grade there was a pregnant girl in my health class and every single day i would talk back to someone giving her shit. i’ve even talked back to teachers over it, i’m very passionate about the fact that they deserve as much respect as the rest of us high schoolers. if you’re gonna ridicule the girl why don’t you ridicule the teenage boy, now father, who did this too?

5- i’m so jealous of my friends who could date if they found a person to like. i theoretically can, but i know myself and when i like someone i become low-key obsessed, but when i date someone i actually do become obsessed and am very susceptible to abuse bc if i love them i would never leave unless they left me. i want to date again so bad but i don’t like anyone knew and with where i’m at in life i don’t think i wanna risk getting into a bad relationship now

6- the stereotype is true, i collect so many things to fill a void in my life. i’m really materialistic and love to be surrounded by items, whether sentimental (a lot of my stuff) or just random stuff i have, and if i had to live a minimalist life i think i would honestly become more depressed than i ever have been

Rifle: Have you ever killed something bigger than a bug? i accidentally killed my fish :-( long story short the city added more chlorine into the water and i wasn’t aware. but on purpose no i don’t purposefully kill anything other than bugs and i never want to

Bowie Knife: What’s the longest time you’ve ever been on a camping trip? three days but it wasn’t 100% wilderness in a tent camping, we had a cute tiny little cabin

Axe: What about your life would you change if given the chance? i would change my confident-ness to be way higher, but if were talking about ANYTHING related to me, i’d change my wealth status to multi-billionaire so i could buy my mom a farm, and do everything billionaires and millionaires should ACTUALLY do, like buy empty houses and donate them to shelters, and pay gofundmes in full, and help millions of people, because what’s 1 million dollars to someone who owns so much money?

Throwing Star: What is a pet peeve of yours? i have sensory issues in the form of touch, taste, smell, and hearing; so i have a bunch of little pet peeves but i don’t think i have any super huge big pet peeves

Katana: What era and place would you travel to if you had a time machine? it depends on if i can come back or not. if i can’t come back i’d go back to 2014/15 with the knowledge i have now and live my life out differently, but if i could come back i would go to the (near or far, doesn't matter) future to see what it’s like and to see if i could do anything to help either make it happen if it’s good or prevent it if it’s bad

Bo staff: What is something you do to try to seem scary? i make myself look unapproachable when i go into public as a coping mechanism, sometimes it’s a bad day and i don’t want strangers even thinking of talking to me, other times i just feel edgy and want to get a reaction out of those same strangers

Bare fists: Have you ever been in a fight? physical; with my brother but otherwise no, verbally; all the damn time i’m so argumentative and i hate it, and i’m gonna try to change it for real this time