#i think if i lose a lot of weight and this pcod business clears up then i will be able to eat it because | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

girlivealwaysbean · 18 hours ago

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it's so crazy how internet has brainwashed us into thinking that the secret to perfect skin is buying a fuckton of expensive makeup products and a 15 step makeup routine and not like. eating healthy food drinking water exercising

#im breaking out like crazy and i know it's because of pms because on the chin is always hormonal #and like. i know it's because of food because in the 3 months i lived with my dad i never broke out so badly #and i remember that when i used fo live here at home this happened monthly and i even went to the dermatologist flr it #and im still using the facewash and everything but it didn't really heal those like they still came every month and I didn't understand why #but well now i get it😭#but ughhh what ks this am i supposed to not eat junk food all my life????#like the gynac who said i have pcod said that outside food has a lot of salt and tons of preservatives in sugar #and i know that's what i need to stop eating #but it's hard :( food js practically my top 5 reasons of happiness #i think if i lose a lot of weight and this pcod business clears up then i will be able to eat it because #I didn't used to have this bad breakout when i weighed less #fuck man i am 20 kgs more than my normal routine weight how did i let this happen 🥲#and how will this go away #man halsey was so right when she sang i wanna hold my skin between my fingers and cut off some parts with scissors #like ughh i know that's so dark but it would be so easy i wish it worked like that #but anyway makeup is insane wow i was jjst thinking taht oh no i have to go out tonight maybe i should buy concealer #and there are soooo many shades and it's so expensive so i was watching yt videos and they were #all talking about how to conceal your under eyes and im like wait woahhh I didn't even think about that is this something #people do everyday wtf???? like the video was titled 'get rid of grey skin under your eyes' and like wow I didn't even realise #that that was something that needs to be done like who is even noticing these things????#so that broke my crazy makeup want lol im like ok this is insane you're just trying to make me waste money #and ykw i will use my money but on other things like buying vegetables and fruits #i really REALLY need to start walking btw.but problem is that even if i listen to music while walking #my brain is an overactive mess that hates to see me happy like i hate being alone with my thoughts it's always thinking horrible things if #i let it rest for even a minute like why do u think it's so hard for me to study. it's!! not!! captivating!! enough!!#maybe i should listen to podcasts? i wish i could listen to my lectures while walking #but there's so much to write and highlight and underline in every subject it's impossible #aaah idk

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