#i think i was just a closeted kid going thru a lot at home lmao

[bathroomcorpse]

when i was like 11 i took one of those “are you a psychopath” tests and got a score of “it’s likely!” and that was a bragging point for me for a long time

[linorangge]

Stray Kids Maid Outfit Scenarios!

 (requested by anon !)

Chan:

- you were scrolling thru amazon, looking for dog costumes for barry

- and a maid costume showed up in the recommended

- you showed Chan

- u were like “haha imagine u wore this”

- nd he giggled nd stared at the costume for a hot minute

- three days later (bc y'all have amazon prime ofc) 

- he made u sit on ur living room couch nd close ur eyes

- he walked out in the maid outfit nd told u to open ur eyes

- u slapped ur hand over ur mouth in disbelief

- the outfit fit him tight in some places

- specifically his arms nd the top part of his torso 

- u just stared at him in silence

- “does it look ok?”

- he got rlly bushy when u nodded 

- “u look so cute” 

- nd then u had a lil photoshoot of him in the outfit LMAO

- nd he stole some of the photos nd showed the boys 

- nd they were like “????? nice ?????”

- yea

Minho:

- u guys were out shopping

- he didn't rlly go to buy anything

- he went more for u

- while at a lil anime march store u pointed out sum fan art of an anime boy in a maid costume

- “look ! u should wear something like that”

- u said it as a joke 

- but u he looked so disgusted with u LMAO

- “I would literally never wear that”

- “ur insane for thinking id ever wear something like that”

- “omg it was a joke ugh”

- nd he rolled his eyes at u

- nd then he felt bad so he bought u coffee

- a week later it was ur bday

- when everyone had left ur place lino made u stay in the bedroom while he changed in the bathroom

- nd he walked into ur room with the outfit

- he had a feather duster nd everything 

- you laughed so hard 

- he sauntered yes sauntered up to u

- “I think knee highs work for me”

- he didn't have shoes on

- but u best believe that mf wore the knee high socks anyway

- his thighs looked great 

- “u look better in it than me”

- “I've never seen u in a maid costume”

- u were both like 👁👁

- nd he started flinging the layers off nd forced u to wear it too

Changbin:

- u made the suggestion nd got it for him as a joke

- it was sitting in the back of his closet for the longest time

- he rlly didn't want to

- but he did it for u

- bc ur his favorite person ever

- u came home to see him in the outfit, sitting on the couch

- he was watching tv

- he was like “omg hey”

- nd u were like “??????? hi ?”

- u literally stared at him

- nd then u made him stand up nd u fluffed up the skirt for him nd adjusted it

- “u look rlly pretty” 

- he got kinda shy “u think so?”

- he was rlly blushy

- he liked seeing the happy little smile on ur face

- after awhile he got comfy nd he was ok wearing it

- nd then he walked around ur house like that for awhile b4 changing

Hyunjin:

- HATED the idea

- literally stared @ u like -____-

- you’d mention the idea a lot just to piss him off

- you’d bring it up randomly 

- “UGH whatever that’s why u won't wear the maid costume”

- “omfg SHUT UP”

- nd one day he brought it up to the members

- nd they were like 😏

- “do it”

- “wtf no”

- nd they went to the store with him to force him to buy it

- he bought the outfit with extreme hesitation

- nd then he pulled up to ur house with the maid oufit

- he showed u the outfit 

- nd u were like :0

- nd he was like 

- “I'll let u help me put it on”

- nd u did

- and he hated it 

-  but he did it anyway

- and then he saw how happy it made you

- and he regretted wearing it way less

- and then he made u take pics of him to prove to the members he wore it

Jisung:

- he was so down 

- like he was READY

- he made u drive him to some store and buy it as soon as possible 

- there wasn’t much convincing for you to do

- u asked him as a joke 

- nd he was like

- “FUCK THAT IS SO CUTE”

- so he picked out the maid costume

- along with cat ears

- and then u guys got home

- nd u helped him button the backside

- nd then he made u fix his hair nd put the ears on him

- he was so excited PLS

- you gave him endless compliments to boost his already enormous ego

- nd then he took pics

- he made u take pics with him

- nd then he posted them LMAO

- everyone went mf crazy

Felix:

- lix saw the outfit in a catalogue u had

- nd he showed u how pretty it was

- u jokingly said you’d get it for him

- nd he was like 

- “ :D rlly?”

- nd u ended up getting it for him

- for his bday actually

- he was so happy

- way happier than you’d expected

- the next day he put it on nd showed u

- “I should work at one of those maid cafes”

- he asked u to fluff it for him

- pls this baby

- he literally loves it

- him and Jisung had similar reactions

- he took pics too

- he didn't upload them tho

- he kept them more for u and him

- in conclusion

- Jisung cat boy

Seungmin:

- he was not into the idea at all

- you suggested he’d look cute

- nd he was like

- “why tf would I ever wear that”

- nd then you got the outfit nd made him wear it

- like forced him

- u forced the clothes on him

- he fought through every second of it

- nd when u finally situated the skirt and buttons

- he realized it wasn't that bad

- u squealed nd complimented him all the way through it

- he got so shy despite being kinda mad

- “do u rlly think I look cute?”

- “omfg yes min ur adorable”

- he let u snap a few pics 

- he made u promise to never show them to a soul

Jeongin:

- hated hated hated HATED it

- he’s the one who would not like it at all

- no matter what

- u got it as a joke 

- he was not amused

- he laughed it off

- but u both knew he was never going to wear it

- and then one day

- during the summer specifically

- he got bored

- and then he walked out of the bathroom wearing it

- u were so happy and excited 

- but u cackled SO hard

- nd he got embarrassed nd he was going to get back in the bathroom nd take it off

- but u stopped him

- “let me look at u for a second”

- “no”

- “jeongin”

- “y/n”

- nd u looked at him a bit more

- u pulled out ur phone to take a picture

- he closed that bathroom door so quick

- u whined for him to come out

- no way in hell was he letting anyone but u see him in that outfit

- u opened the door nd he was just standing there, his arms crossed

- toasted bread 

- but with baby bread energy

- if that makes sense

- in conclusion

- he hated wearing it especially bc he found it itchy

- but he liked the reaction u gave him

- kinda

[simstationdance]

Tank Grunt for the character meme? :)

TANK!!! MY SON!!!

Tank Grunt

(headcanon ask meme)

Sexuality / Gender Headcanon: honestly i have no idea. he is a mystery to me. he definitely comes off as heavily closeted as SOMETHING but i can’t decide on what he's keeping in the closet.

ive seen a lot of headcanons where tank is a repressed gay / bi guy and im like "yeah i can definitely get behind that" and i've also seen at least one person who headcanoned tank as a closeted trans woman and im like "oh yeah i can absolutely see that"

tldr i imagine tank is definitely something other than straight / cis but his strict upbringing made it hard for him to explore that side of himself bc he was too busy trying to be his dad’s favorite child

A ship I have with said character: tank / johnny makes a lot of sense to me because the whole ship just has vibes of this post:

because tank would definitely send johnny a note that reads “GET OUT OF MY SCHOOL” in capitalized, bold letters because he’d rather do that than admit that he has a thing for him lmao

however, in my game, tank has a crush on ginger newson - it’s a very innocent crush that’s more like a “this girl is really cool and pretty i wanna be her friend! :)” sort of thing because tank just wants ONE friend rather than a full on “wanna KISS and HOLD HANDS” kind of crush. i think they’re a potentially cute ship, but me going thru with it depends on whether or not tank and / or ginger turn out to be gay dhsfgdhsfhsdfghsgh

A BROTP I have with said character: once he manages to get over himself and all of the shitty things his dad teaches him, he could potentially be good friends with the JRO squad... there’d still be Brotherly Tension between him and ripp tho but significantly less and things would be Healthier. i just want my boys to get along.

also tank & ginger because she was his first actual friend, and they are cute together. and i think they’d relate to each other, because they both have to deal with a lot of expectations, what with being the eldest of their siblings... and having lost their mothers... :(

A NOTP I have with said character: tank / ophelia, i guess? like, it’s probably not a bad ship but i just i can’t even imagine it. they are very different from each other and not in a good way

A random headcanon: i was probably not subtle about this while i was writing it out, but i imagine that tank is autistic and he's masking hardcore by trying to be like his father. buzz is also a shitty awful parent so tank has had a lot of pressure put on to him to be a “normal” kid... and, as an autistic person, it makes me really, really sad.

that’s why i imagine / write that he usually talks in a quiet monotone, but he learned from a young age that talking louder gets people to listen to you. he used to mumble quite a lot when he was a kid, but his dad made him stop and keeps reminding him of it. he channels the urge to stim into working out and doing other physical activities. his special interests include sci fi and nature (the hobby).

the idea that tank was basically forced to conform to the point where he can't show his true self around other people most of the time and when he does people think he’s weird and that’s why he starts off with no friends, it hits close to home for me in a lot of ways, but it also makes perfect sense. it’s also one of the biggest reasons for why i hate his father so much but i’ve talked about that A Lot so i’m not going into it again

General Opinion over said character: for a long time i didn’t like tank at all because my view of him was very 2 dimensional and limited, judged a book by its cover and all that, but then i took a closer look at his character stats and i was like “... oh my god i love him actually he is my Son now.”

[datleggy]

MY LAPTOP IS FUCKED FOR LIKE A MONTH (EXPECT MOBILE UPDATES D:) BUT REAL QUICK BEFORE IM STUCK ON MOBILE I NEEDED TO MAKE THIS POST BC I JUST FINISHED THE LATEST 911 EP AND JUST

SPOILERS AHEAD FOR SEASON 3 EP 12

OK OK So

1. THAT MEXICAN STANDOFF BETWEEN MADDIE AND BUCK IS ALL THE CHAOTIC SIBLING GOOF ENERGY I’VE EVER WANTED THANKU

2. JOSH DESERVES THE WORLD FUCK EVERYONE IM SO MAD

3. KNOCK ON WOOD IF BUDDIE DOESN’T HAPPEN I NEED BUCK TO TREAT JOSH RIGHT (lmao im jk!)

4. BITCH. BITCH. IF MICHAEL DOESN’T GET MAGICALLY BETTER IM THROWING HANDS

6. EDDIE MAKING HEART EYES AT THE (FOOINE ASS) ENGLISH TEACHER. OK. OK. OK. I MEAN. I GET IT. BC SAME. LIKE GADDAMN.

7. “YOU LIED” AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

8. HEN MENTIONING THE NEW BABY AND HER LIL POOPY BUTT----MY HEART IS SO SMILEY

9. CARLA SHOULD BE LISTENED TO MORE OFTEN FOR SHE IS WISER THAN THE REST (im assuming she holds the brain cell most of the time)

10. THAT LAST SCENE. THAT. LAST. SCENE. 

MY LAPTOPS ABOUT TO DIE BUT I NEED TO SAY THIS:

YA’LL CAN’T JUST MENTION BUCK IS SINGLE AS A PRINGLE IN ONE SCENE AND THEN IMMEDIATELY SWITCH TO EDDIE W/ CARLA MEETING A NEW POTENTIAL LOVE INTEREST LIKE THAT????

(SIDE NOTE: u know DAMN well eddie must’ve thought LONG and HARD about asking buck to come w him to the parent teacher thing but then was like “aaahhh that’s too much to put on buck uoregoufijdi” and chickened out last min and carla was like “alright u big baby, lets go”--------but also think of the possibilities??? imagine eddie had gotten the courage to ask him to come and buck is obv touched, like of course bro! that’s what besties are for! so they end up meeting the v hot english teacher and she’s like “edmundo, am i right?” and eddie’s like “<///< wow, how’d u guess” like  he was in the actual scene, and buck cracks a joke about how eddie told him he’d never respond to that name when they first met, and the english teacher flirts a lil w buck, like “oh, and ur name’s buck? that’s a tough one to figure out *super hot person laugh*” and buck’s like “<//< hehe, well, it’s evan actually, but uh, yeah, just call me buck, everyone does” and they actually both end up getting her number at different times (eddie while buck is in the bathroom, and buck while eddie’s getting the car from the parking lot bc even tho his leg is all healed up eddie is still overprotective about buck walking too much on it when he doesn’t need to, at least) and they end up finding out on the car ride home and they both are like “ooh, competition time to win her affection!” and they joke about it casually and are like “welp, may the best man win” and it’s thru ALL the jealousy and bs rivalry that they finally get together when the teacher’s like “uh, it kinda feels like u two would prefer to date each other, than me. all eddie talks about is u, buck, and vice versa.” iugth[ehwvnfdbs cij

AND ALSO FUCK ME SIDEWAYS, BUT BUCK IS SUCH A SASSY BOY---HE REALLY SAID “EDDIE MET SOMEONE SPECIAL BUT HE WENT AND BIT HER HEAD OFF SO SHE’LL PROLLY NEVER TALK TO HIM AGAIN AND ALSO FLUNK HIS KID” WITH A SMILE HGTOGERWSDL SIR WE GET IT, U JEALOUS, CHIIILLLLLLLLLLLLL LMAO

AND ANOTHER THING: IM SO CONVINCED BUCK IS JUST TOTALLY OBLIVIOUS TO HIS FEELINGS, LIKE, HE’S ALL “YUP, THIS IS JUST MY BEST FRIEND, WE TELL EACH OTHER EVERYTHING AND WE’RE NOT GUESTS IN EACH OTHER’S HOMES AND IM PRETTY MUCH COPARENTING HIS SON W HIM, WHO BTW I LOVE AND WOULD DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO PROTECT, AND I HAVE OPENLY ADMITTED I THINK EDDIE IS STUPID HANDSOME AND HE SAID HE DOESN’T TRUST ANYONE MORE THAN ME W HIS ONLY CHILD, I PLANNED A WHOLE CHRISTMAS PARTY V LAST MIN, ALL BC CHRISTOPHER FROWNED SADLY AND I WOULD SIMPLY NOT LET THAT STAND BC HIS HAPPINESS IS MY HAPPINESS AND ALSO I ALWAYS WEAR MY CUTEST (and tightest) SWEATSHIRTS AROUND EDDIE AND OH HEY, CARLA, WOULD U MIND JUST HOLDING THIS PHONE AND FILMING THIS BEAUTIFUL FAMILY MOMENT OF ME, MY FUTURE HUSBAND AND OUR SON WHO I WILL BE ADOPTING ANY FUCKIN DAY NOW SHOWING HIM HOW TO SKATEBOARD? THANKS. ANYWAY, WE JUST BESTIES. :)”

AND EDDIE’S SOMEWHERE IN THE CLOSET HIDING ALL THE BI AND DENYING ALL HIS GAY THOUGHTS ABOUT BUCK. OK BYE.

[tiktoks-we-like]

Omg do you have any more ghost stories??

I’ve told all the significant ones that occurred in this house except 1 other (but I felt that it could be brushed off as something else so it's eh), but I can tell some from my childhood home/neighborhood!

Okay so the last story in this home took place few years ago at around 11pm or so me and my parents just finished watching a movie and my parents had gotten up and went into another room. I was just chilling on my phone with the dogs when suddenly I heard this horribly loud sound of metal scratching from outside. It sounded very much like our shed door opening, the doors on the shed opened by rolling them to one side, kinda poor design but like eh n they were all rusted so you had to put some strength into it and it made a lot of noise. I told my parents and like white people in a horror movie we all went outside to see who was getting into the shed, but when we got out there it was empty, no one to be seen, the doors didn't even look like they had been touched. It could've honestly been someone trespassing on our property, but it's still very unusual considering we live ou in the middle of nowhere. 

That shed has always creeped me the fuck out though, I can’t stand in there without feeling like I’m being watched by something. The shed it split into since one half used to be a chicken coop (old owners had chickens) and the side that used to be for the chickens just...feels the worse to me, I can’t stand in there long without feeling very anxious and when I'm on the other side it feels like someone or something is over there watching me. 

Then to my childhood home back in lansing, it wasn’t a very old house just built in the 1900s sometime and was owned by my great-grandma and we moved in after she passed away n I wasn’t born yet. Usually, only little things would happen here like the sound of footsteps down the hall or on the basement steps or the kitchen sink would turn itself on at night. 

My most memorable occurrence was when I woke up late at night(prob around 1-3am area) to the sound of something falling in the basement. At first I brushed it off as my grandmas cat knocking a box over then I heard it again so I got out of bed and went to investigate. I went down to the basement and boxes literally were just..falling randomly around the basement. Theres no way the cat was bouncing across the room within seconds to knock a box over so?? I ran upstairs so dang fast and hid under my sheets.

This one took place a few years before we moved so I was about 11ish, I’m pretty sure I was staying up late on my gameboy or ds when I wasn’t supposed to but when I decided to finally go to sleep and dozed off a bit I suddenly woke up to the feeling of being watched. Up at the top corner of me and my sister's bedroom window there was something like look like a person's head with glowing eyes just...looking into the room at me. I just stared at it until I had to blink and when I did it was gone, I literally didn’t sleep until the sun came up. I don’t know if it was like a hallucination or sleep paralysis but it scared me enough that I started being afraid to sleep at night and would stay up until the sun came up until school started back up and I had no choice but to sleep earlier. 

Most of the super werid paranormal esq stuff didn’t happen in my childhood home, but my best friends home right next door. In his house they just had an empty room, no one used it, literally the only thing inside it was a bed frame sitting on its side and like 2 small storage boxes. Every once and awhile his dog would just stand outside the room and growl and bark then run away nervously, she didn the same thing in other parts of the room like in the living room corner or at the TV well it was off. 

We were super into ghost hunting shows like all thru 7-10ish so one time we decided to have a paranormal investigation in that room where we just sat in there in the dark with his dog and asked the ghost questions. Of course, we got no response but after a few questions, his dog started to get really riled up and upset which started to freak us out so we went to leave, but the door just wouldn’t open. We were banging on that door so hard until it finally decided to open and never went in the room again. Every so often the door would just open itself well we were playing in his room which was the next room over.

His bedroom was kinda equally as unsettling though, we were playing hide and seek with me, him, and my sister. I think I was looking when suddenly I heard yelling from his bedroom. He was hiding in the closet when he felt something grab him and when he tried to leave the closet the door wouldn't open. I opened the door easily from my side which made him think I was holding the door open, but when it happened I was way down the hall in the living room, but he still doesn’t believe me to this day lmao.

One of the days I was sleeping over at his house n we were both home alone since he dad left to the store. When he dad left things started getting really weird, his dog was just freaking out over was seemed like nothing just barking and growling then hiding nervously, then the Tv turned itself on and was just static and we tried everything to get it to stop even tried turning it off, but nothing worked on it. Then that stupid door down the hall opened up all the way, I think at that point we just ran outside and sat on the porch until his dad came home. When his dad got home and we went back in everything was normal, the tv was off and the door was closed.

Lastly, this isn’t really a ghost story, but its still creepy as fuck. When I was 12 the other parents on the street just decided it was okay for me to watch their kids, like they were my friends but uh trusting a 12 yr old to take your kids to the park n the rite aid down the road was a bad decision. Since I was the oldest and in charge me I’d take my friends to the park, but instead of going to the park we started exploring the area further back. This park was actually just the elementary school playground but it had a big field in the bad and at the end of the field there was a fence, behind the fence was a hill n up it was a road, but if you just walked around the fence you’d end up behind the property of the building besides the school which had lovely signs saying “trespassers will be shot on sight” and if you kept walking you’d reach train tracks. So I’d take my friends to the train tracks and we’d walk down them until we reached these old train boxcars that were just sitting abandoned besides the track, this area had tons of small sinkholes so it def wasn’t safe(besides being by active train tracks), but we’d open the trains up and play inside them. On one side of the tracks though there was a forest and a fence around it.

 Me and my friends were gonna make a clubhouse in one of the trains, but one of the final trips we made to the tracks there were people on the other side of the fence in the forest looking at us, they were further back so they weren’t noticeable at first. I don’t know why they were there, how they even got there, or why they were looking at us, but we booked it back to the park when we saw em. After that we only visited a few more times, but we didn’t stay for long because the area just felt unsettling and after seeing those people we were worried we were being watched constantly. 

[ambitionsource]

wait i actually have more weirdly specific questions (if ur up to it) - how do the kids feel about poetry? do they follow any sports? what childhood tv shows were their favs? do they have celebrity crushes? fav coming of age movie? how are they doing in quarantine? what time in history were they obsessed w as a kid? have they ever been to summer camp? what type of candles do they like? what song do they cry to? how do they drink their coffee/tea sorry if u’ve answered already/too many questions

wooooo thank you for your patience iz!! we’re gonna go point by point

poetry?

charlie loves it genuinely and will read it for fun. riley likes it enough but doesn’t go out of her way to read it. farkle loves coming up with insane explanations for the metaphors and is smug about interpreting it in class. zay doesn’t care for it, neither does lucas. asher appreciates it but finds it boring; dylan likes it for the same reason farkle does, only not to look smart but to come up with something completely crackheaded to combat farkle’s interpretation (which he can’t then say isn’t correct, bc its poetry, so all interpretations are valid!). isa doesn’t like it because she doesn’t get the metaphors on paper the same way she can pick them up in film. maya hates it even though multiple people have pointed out that song lyrics are basically poetry -- she will tune you out.

sports?

sports aren’t Big at aaa (aside from dance), but there are remnants here and there. riley follows basketball of course -- even tho as demonstrated in 110, she cannot play it to save herself -- and she tried out for cheer in 9th grade at her old school but was rejected from the squad (another bad mark on a terrible year). farkle prefers wii sports over any actual sport, but will sometimes watch golf with stuart because it’s quality time with his very busy father. charlie did soccer when he was younger before it got phased out by dance and semi keeps up with it. dylan also “played” soccer, but this meant the other little league teammates getting pissed at him bc he never paid attention to the game and was just like “hey! hey, dennis, look at this!” and did like 3 cartwheels across the field. it was a smart move when randall pulled him from the team bc those intense soccer moms were gonna like beat them up fDJSKG. so now dylan is just an unofficial gymnast instead.

isa doesn’t like sports but played them a lot with foster siblings, and even though she sucks she gets very competitive. lucas liked baseball and was good at track in middle school, but he never thought about doing a sport for real because he knew he was going to quincy eventually where his dad is a coach... yeah. no. but he’s great at running fast from the police!

maya hates sports (aside from the art of dance). waste of time, waste of energy. asher has never done a sport nor ever contemplated a sport. the most Sport he’s endured is going with jade to support dave at his swim meets (where nigel also does swim) and suffice to say, asher wasn’t there to look at the swimming.

childhood tv?

dylan to this day is a spongebob squarepants STAN. legend, icon, scholar, best television show ever made, in his opinion. he also was well-versed in pokemon, adventure time, gravity falls, and phineas and ferb. asher and lucas both didn’t watch lots of tv growing up (if at all), so dylan considers it his job to give asher a thorough education in the quality tv he missed as a kid.

maya was all over hannah montana (miley is still a role model to this day for her), and she, zay, and charlie all remember the fever dream that was shake it up. zay especially loved it bc he was (is) obsessed with zendaya. zay and maya both also watched victorious. charlie was sharing a tv with four siblings so he just ended up watching whatever the dominant sister that day wanted to watch. riley was a disney channel girl, and farkle was a pbs scholar (arthur, cyber chase, fetch! with ruff ruff man... classics).

 celebrity crushes?

zay = zendaya (as previously mentioned). charlie = harry styles to a major degree, although his Cover Story would be zendaya if you asked (ironically). maya = britney spears (but in a I Want To Be Her way, major idolization rather than attraction) and technically the same for valerie de la cruz but like... rip to that lmao. isa = loki, yes we know, but sometimes it be that way (altho that does extend a little bit towards tom hiddleston in general). asher = logan lerman, aka the main valid white boy who dresses nice, is polite and soft-spoken, and minds his own business (not to mention he is the Same Type as dylan). dylan = had crushes more on like... personalities so like ash ketchum and percy jackson, and now its irrelevant bc he met asher and became obsessed and its like every other potential crush just flew out the window of his brain. it’s full asher territory in there nowadays.

riley doesn’t have a specific one, she thinks lots of people are Pretty but no one particularly strongly. farkle doesn’t have one because he’s insane and doesn’t have the mental capacity. lucas doesn’t have one because he’s demi and also hates most celebrities as people.

coming-of-age movie?

maya’s is mean girls. farkle’s is ladybird. zay’s is easy a. riley’s is bend it like beckham. isadora’s is eighth grade. charlie’s is dead poet’s society. asher’s is perks of being a wallflower. dylan’s is spiderman: into the spiderverse. lucas doesn’t know movies.

quarantine?

we’ve somewhat discussed this before, but ultimately es and i elected to let aaa remain in a nice, calm universe where they don’t have to endure covid. lucky them. blow a kiss to the ether for us, buds,

fave time in history?

riley is huge on ancient greece and greek mythology. maya loves the theatricality and Drama of the roaring 20s (a baby flapper at heart). zay vibes hard with the 80s. charlie likes the fashion and romanticism and music and art of the 70s (that sort of flowery positivity clashing with the rebelliousness of the movements of the 60s... yeah. that hits something in him). farkle’s is the great depression not only bc he’s an emo but also all the raw and desperate art that came out of it. isadora was a egyptian mythology kid. i know lucas sounds lame (he is), but i don’t think he cares about history -- but if pushed he’d probably say the 90s bc he dresses like he’s straight out of there, everyone was angry rocking, and he wasn’t born. asher likes the victorian era bc of the sheer elegance and Aesthetic to everything. dylan doesn’t have a favorite time period because due to being the subconscious multiverse conduit (i.e. the being that is somewhat connected to every other version of himself) sometimes he wakes up and for a minute he doesn’t even know what year it is 🤪anyway...

summer camp?

charlie has been to many a christian youth summer camp. zay went to the kossal program, but that was basically it. lucas no although he probably wished he could be anywhere else during the summer sometimes including a camp he would hate. riley went for a few years in elementary school. isa has gone to a couple of “foster kid” summer camp bonding things that she despised. farkle went to jewish summer camp One time and was like that was HORRIBLE, never make me spend a whole summer outside AGAIN. asher was more of a Enrichment courses at the rec center during the summer kid than a camper. dylan no because the orlandos couldn’t afford something like that. same for maya.

candles?

riley has a small variety of scented ones that are like... warm scents, like cinnamon and stuff. asher a couple that smell like clean linen but his fear of accidental fires keeps him from ever lighting them. maya has one and it smells like “star power,” a gift from her mom one christmas. isadora can’t have any because many of her foster homes don’t allow them. lucas legally shouldn’t be allowed anything that catches on fire. dylan doesn’t have one but similarly should not be given one. the minki have a whole collection for different things so farkle can just pluck one at any time if he needs one like for a super fancy bath or whatever the fuck rich people do.

mental breakdown song?

charlie’s are “falling” and “from the dining table” by harry styles.

riley’s is “manhattan” by sara bareilles and “rainbow” by kacey musgraves.

zay’s are “imagine” by ariana and “dear life” from the step up soundtrack (post zc breakup).

farkle’s are “vienna” by billy joel and “get it right” from glee.

asher’s is “don’t cry” by ruel.

isa’s is “you are my sunshine” because valerie used to sing it to her a lot when she was really little, so it will always make her a little emotional.

dylan’s (although rare) are “soon you’ll get better” by ts and “make you feel my love” by adele. the second one is because his mom loved adele when she was just starting out bc 19 was released the same year that she passed away so there’s a lot of like subconscious association there even if he doesn’t realize it.

maya doesn’t have one, and lucas also doesn’t have one because in the rare moments he does cry its in his closet in the dark silence alone bc he literally can’t stand the sentience of knowing he’s crying so. sensory blackout.

coffee / tea?

riley will add at least 3 sugars to anything, but she’s ultimately an iced tea gal. lucas drinks it black but only because it never occurred to him to add anything to it and so it’s a big wake up call when he realizes you can drink it and have it NOT be bitter and horrible and demoralizing ( “i thought we were all just suffering for the caffeine fix??” ). isa is a tea girl mostly, although she wishes she could drink black coffee for the aesthetic (and hates that lucas can... it’s like... he didn’t even Earn that aestheticism, smh). asher doesn’t drink caffeine bc it makes him Jittery (and he’s already jittery) so he’s like... the lemonade bitch at coffee shops which kin, and then dylan definitely drinks caffeine but not thru coffee, he’s more likely to get like a hot chocolate.

farkle lives on coffee but he can only drink it from home because they’re rich and can have like fresh ground good imported whatever the heck etc etc so he’s like spoiled about coffee. zay will hit up a starbucks now and then and will order coffee at a diner, but he’s not too attached either way. maya is a fun n free starbucks gal with her frappes and lattes and lots of cream (whipped or otherwise). charlie doesn’t drink coffee or tea bc hes hyper aware of his body and health (he doesn’t really have soda either) and it was frowned upon in his house.

[bisexualthors]

Apocalypse tag game answer and tag people because during the apocalypse we have to support each other, help with boredom, keep and create contacts :D

tagged by @sweatercas

What do you think your apocalypse outfit would be? i wanna say something badass, but honestly it would be just black jeans, graphic tee, flannel and platform converse lmao + my faux leather mini backpack

What’s your actual apocalypse outfit been? pjs, mostly oversized shirts and nothing else lol

What do you miss the most? the gym, my work (i know, shocking), going out with my friends, vitamin D

What do you miss the least? work (lmao love-hate relationship much?), waking up early

What can people do to help you? tag me in shit haha or send me asks whenever i post ask games (or whatever u wanna tell me honestly!) also if we’re mutuals ask me for my insta

What are you enjoying about it? staying at home with my mom and sister, we havent had this much time together in like over a decade lol. i also really enjoy the Science of it all, im a huge fan of epidemiology and evolution, so i’m interested about the research that’s being done to figure out the different strains, what kind of mutations are happening on a local level, how the environment is changing with less humans in it, etc

What are you going to do that you never have time to do usually? declutter my closet (i did it last night), more gifs! (which btw send me requests to my main or to my spn blog), ive been reading fanfics again, ive found new podcasts and i’ve been catching up with my fav ones, i’ve started audiobooks, i organized my ever growing pen collection and ive been spending lots of time with my kid (its a dog and not a human lol)

i just went thru my following page and im tagging the mutuals i see the most on my dash, ily: @fierydeans @stormbrvkers @prayedtoyou @spacelabrathor @thoresque @stormsbringers @whiskeycherrypie @chrishemsworth

[dxmagedrose]

GET TO KNOW THE BLOGGER!

Tagged by: my lover @hammurabicomplex​ I’m tagging: anyone and everyone who wants to pick this one up! share with the class if you feel like it! tag me in it!!

PRESENTING. RANDOM DEEP DIVE WITH INDIGO-MUN AT 2AM ;

FIRST NAME Good fucking question… It’s (sort-of) currently Dylann! I was Kieran before that, though; it’s still used as one of my first names and I’m not used to Dylann quite yet bc I’ve just started using it. 

Indigo is one of my middle names though, and I’ve used it as an online handle elsewhere forever so I use it here now!  [ Fun etymology facts: Dylan(n) is a mythology name generally meaning “born of the wave” (aspiring diver & a water witch at heart). Kieran means “little dark one” bc of my love for horror, && I chose Indigo bc as a kid to be it was neither boy (blue) or purple (girl) and was both and neither as well as my absolute favorite color as this vibrant ass mystical color. ]

STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF hmmmmm…. I’m a horror lover at heart, so as a child (I wanna say 12), I was walking through an antique store (I have a few cool finds, I considered putting my other one as the fact tbh) and I turned the corner and I saw these two dolls staring back at me at the foot of the stairs of this antique building. my blood froze, and i felt my stomach drop. i got actual, physical goosebumps stumbling across these two creepy dolls staring back at me in the corner, and i couldn’t leave the store without them. perhaps the little painted porcelain boy would be somewhat spooky by himself if it wasn’t for the terrifying lidded gaze of the porcelain girl with the hairline fractures and slightly open lips. i cant look at her. i dont really find dolls scary, I like to find the spookier ones ones, and she makes me paranoid as hell. i keep her face covered and her up in my closet except for when i bring her out to show her off proudly as the spookiest thing I have but……. i dont really collect dolls anymore.  even thinking about her brings a fearful tear to my eye.  i don’t like to think about her for very long, but that’s why I’m so fucking proud to own her. ( YES — I’m THAT white person in the horror film )

TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON hhhhh a beardy jawline, high cheekbones, crooked canine teeth >:3c

A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF b.l.t.’s with avocado. ahhhh. my mouth is watering just thinking about it, oh my god. just a bit of salt and pepper???

A FOOD YOU HATE barbecue anything, i hate the taste of bbq sauce, you keep your nasty black goo to yourselves at the grill. twice in my life i have presented with barbecue pizza and both times i cried literal tears. why would you do such a horrible thing to a person? what kind of a monster are you? how do you sleep at night?!

GUILTY PLEASURE the sims. constantly. always. i’ve sunk thousands of hours into my households. oh also uhhhhhh i run two 80s horror blogs, one being a shitpost blog with occasional art of mine and one gremlin fanfic ship blog for horrible, terrible self indulgent fanfics i’ll get the courage to finish writing & post so i can be cancelled on tumblr for at some point. NO, i won’t link them. as i pretend they’re even all that hard to find, within a day i was found on both by someone i admire here a lot :’) ilu bby thnk u eternally for supporting ur local horrifying dumbass wtf

WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN the same clothes i’ve been wearing all day usually, my sweats & long sleeve raglans or my hoodies. i like being cozy day & and out. and ugh. efoort. just throw me in a blanket in a cool room and im out.

SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS serious relationships with some openness or poly. i wish i could fling! just not exactly easy for demisexual autistics lmao.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE I think I would be adopted by my grandma as a kid. It would save me some trauma but mostly I think it would get my autism diagnosed way earlier and save me angsting all these years of wondering why & thinking it’s my fault I’m struggling so much and so loud and affectionate and different in a world that i didnt fit in the same way. 

ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON when i get drunk i text people how much they mean to me in my life. does that answer your question? ahhh. i’m sometimes a cuddle monster with friends, i message people with long texts about how much they mean to me, but I sometimes really don’t like to be touched at all. 

A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN FLYPAPER.  F L Y P A P E R.  FLYPAPER.  FLY, and, I can’t stress this enough, fucking PAPER. ( Though also Whole Nine Yards and both Re-Animator & Bride ). I have watched Flypaper already like, 5 times this week and I’m still not done, and the other movies have been on repeat for days in this household within the last year. In the past it has also been Donnie Darko & the new Nightmare on Elm Street.  roast me.

FAVORITE BOOK White Fang by Jack London. Have I actually ever finished it? No. Do I still own a copy I’ve had since childhood thru multiple dogs eating it, taking it to and from school, and highlighting and circling all the best parts of chapter one ever since I was a kid and it was too hard of a book for me to read? You bet your ass. If I ever need inspiration I just reread chapter 1. Although one of my other favorites was Broken Monsters by Lauren Beukes. But White Fang is like, a weirdly personal text. We stan London’s writing in this household.

YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE FENNEC FOX!! I used to daydream about having my own named Shiloh when I was a lil kid. they’re adorable little things and i am obsessed. i mean, gimme any fox and im happy, marble foxes, red foxes… but I was obsessed with fennec foxes. Also tbh ferrets. I want a ferret.

TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS [IF YOU ARE AN RP BLOG, YOU CAN USE YOUR OWN SHIPS AS WELL] Rosa & @ninetyscnds‘s Luke, Rosa & @iimpulsivity is already screaming my name, Rosa & Constantine, Jesse & Andrea from Breaking Bad, and the joker and harley of 80s sci-fi Dan & Herbert from Re-Ani.  I am but a simple opossum. 

PIE OR CAKE Pie! I’ll take both pumpkin & melty apple over cake. also, cheesecake is more pie than cake soooo, pie wins.

FAVORITE SCENT my dogs / my blanket. :’)  It’s the most grounding smell in the world. 

CELEBRITY CRUSH oliver jackson-cohen, i’m fucking GAY and im angry about it. there i was, minding my own business, and i saw that asshole in a certain SHIRTLESS GIF and it AWOKE SOMETHING IN ME. dont talk to me about it, holy shit im obsessed with beardy men now god fuckkdafjaask i hate him why did he make me this gay i was perfectly fine being into girls but NOOOOOO him and his dumb hairy chest and sweet rugged face and I——  I also am obsessed with the archaeologist & television personality Josh Gates and may or may not be considering making a fan blog for him bc idk if my anthropology docuseries host is Dad or Daddy but i love him lots

IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO I would go on a dive with anthropologists and archaeologists doing fieldwork research in the ancient cenotes of the Yucatán Peninsula. My actual dream job, catch me crying & fantasizing about being underwater documenting Mayan skulls given as offerings. Fuckkkk, I love anthropology so much!!  take me anywhere in the world to immerse myself into culture & archaeology.

INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT Introvert. I have a real life friend I see roughly once a month, and that’s it. Plenty of online relationships, I’m chatty, message me all day every day. but i dont do people well.

DO YOU SCARE EASILY I used to! Really bad. I don’t as much anymore. I do get paranoia a lot still. Having therapists telling you that the FBI could be outside your house watching you through your windows will kind of nervous. ( no google results for: yes hello fbi i am a writer please dont put me on watchlists i just have research i need to do for this idea im working on, would you like to try again? ) I have nightmares nightly but not they never make me afraid, they just make me feel like crap. jumpscares and loud noises and seeing people reaching into their pockets dont set off as many brain alarms anymore tho!! progress haha.

IPHONE OR ANDROID I like my android better bc of capabilities but meh

DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES My mom, her husband & I play COD for family game night, and Silent Hill is my life’s blood. I’ve sunken hours into Sims & Skyrim, and Norman Jayden from Heavy Rain is my #1 fictional character in existence, why do i love the druggie babies

DREAM JOB Oh… You’re asking me to pick? I’d love to be an anthropologist doing work out in the field. Underwater archaeology is peak, but I’m also heavily considering being a body recovery diver or police diver. I’d love to see myself in uniform someday, if possible. Just the thought makes me teary eyed & proud.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS fund my person creative & educational endeavors. get myself a spooky ass abandoned house to make my own home to create in, and travel to the world’s best dive sites. just live a mild life of education, creation & exploration. that’s the dream TM.

FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE dr. hill is a gross and whiny lil bitch this post brought to u by the miskatonic crew, how is everyone here an even worse bad guy than herbert west precious dan excluded talk shit get hit tho john winchester from spn and both walter white & todd from breaking bad are all in my crew of hated characters. i jusT…   the reani novel is difficult to read because i have to deal with this old sack of shit.

FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER Supernatural :-)

… AND THIS CONCLUDES A DEEP DIVE WITH INDIGO!! //

[fallingforsincerity]

massive brain dump

it’s been a while since i had these thoughts resurface. Maybe because I had some more free time thanks to covid19 to think or maybe because it’s also Pride month. who knows. have a lot of rambling to get out of my head.

As someone who is trans but has not transition, sometimes you get many feelings and you need validation. what better way to get that but by watching youtube videos lol. There is something validating to hear someone say that your experience as being trans is valid no matter who says otherwise. Like how can it not when we all live in so different circumstances and environments. I get it, being passing to cis people feels good but not every has that opportunity nor cares. End of the day the moment some shitty cis person finds out your trans, nothing and I mean nothing can make them look at you the same ever again. Watching that youtube video, I didn’t realize that there are trans people out there that if you don’t experience dysphoria that the way they felt then your feelings and experiences aren’t validated. Like I’m sorry are you the gender police??? Like life is hard already trying to get cis people to understand and now I gotta deal with people who stand at the same side, who’d you think would understand the struggle, be part of the struggle. Like i’m sorry I didn’t get the gender handbook when I was born, didn’t know there was rules to follow in order to be considered trans. Not to say their feelings of dysphoria and needing to pass aren’t valid, of course they are. But doesn’t mean i agree with the one track mindedness about being trans. Because my experiences and environment shaped that. Does it mean I’m less queer or less trans than other people? Heck no! There is no lgbtq+ scale where you step on and you get a rating. like ah yes you are a 5 out 5 trans because you met all our trans criteria. Does this not sound like the stupidest thing??? 

rambly rambly rambly rambly

i don’t often talk about being trans....just because for me it’s kind of an uncomfortable topic. To the general public I look like a “feminine/ pretty boy” and don’t have to deal with the whole “oh you’re trans” situation, so for me to go out of my way to be out as trans to people I know, is very awk and makes me uncomfortable. Luckily because this tumblr and I don’t necessarily mention my tumblr to people I know, I’m not as scared or uncomfortable talking to strangers on the internet who may never know me in real life about this kind of thing. It’s pretty freeing tbh. I think the hardest part is because I haven’t fully transition that as an adult having to deal with workspaces and paper work gives me anxiety. The one thing I deff loved about being in art college was that I was able to live my life and because there are so many different people with such open minds, that I didn’t feel weirded out about having tell people my pronouns or minding too much about people knowing I was trans. But that took getting used to. As someone who is super closeted about this, it takes so much effort to release all that anxiety that is built up over the years. I didn’t even tell my closest friends and family until part way through my college life when I was finally able to come to terms with a lot of things. Bless my roommates who were so encouraging, understanding, and loving. I don’t think I would have been able to live my life as really who I was and being affirmed without them. 

Having to come back to live at home is a whirlwind of emotions and anxiety. At one hand I enjoy the comfort of financial stability and seeing my family, but on the other hand it brings back all the anxiety and forces me back to a point of life that I had lived before my college years. I’ve talked about this before, but from quite a young-ish age I knew deep down that I am a boy. Simple case, always been uncomfortable having any relation to being a female. To this day because I’m not out to everyone, I get so uncomfortable when someone goes “oh you are such a tomboy.” The anxiety and stress about fearing whether or not you can come out as trans and not knowing the reaction of those people is so deeply rooted in me it’s unreal. I just want to live a quiet life as a boy and not have to deal with any of that. Pretty sure many if not all trans people feel the same way, they just want to live as who they are and not be bothered by it all the time. 

Being Asian especially a 1st gen Asian American makes navigating being trans and queer really hard. These type of topics aren’t spoken about in the Asian community. I can probably count on my one hand people who I know personally who are asian + trans and have come out about it or spoken about it before. In Asian communities, being part of the lgbtq+ community is taboo. It’s almost seen like a disease. Sometimes I’m just so envious that my western counterparts have a bit more freedom in able to express or talk about being lgbtq+. Not saying it’s all sunshine and rainbows for them but like the way Asians (especially the older generation) act its like that doesn’t exist. Like there is no such thing as being trans, no such thing as being gay, no such thing as blah blah blah. That’s the struggle, if it is out of the norms, it does not exist. I keep thinking back to this one clip where the guy talks about how it’s not that they don’t want to acknowledge that it exist, they just don’t want you their child to have it so they deny it. What I’m saying is, this “taboo” of speaking of lgbtq+ and whatnot really made it hard for me to understand what was going on in my mind. I struggled for years to come to terms and even find the terms to describe myself. It was only when tumblr kind of took off roughly in 2009, when I first even heard of the word trans or bigender and yada yada. Having to navigate thru everything all at once was like a beginner level swimmer being thrown in to the middle of the Pacific ocean blindfolded and told to swim to America. I’m surprised I even made it to the land when tumblr at that time was a free for all, the amount of posts exploded, so different as to right now (which is kind of quiet). 

If I, who was the trans person, didn’t understand all this, imagine my environment. Not saying I had a bad time, just a very uncomfortable and stressful time. The one thing I found solace in was that in games, I didn’t need to present my trans-ness. I was able to escape who I was brought up and seen as (aka female) and live who I was in my games. I didn’t have to be labeled as trans, I was just me being a boy. I’ve mentioned this all before, but even in things where i used to role-play with my friends I always presented as a male. I hated the way I felt when I was referred to as she/ her when I was a kid, still uncomfortable to this day but given the circumstances I have to live with it. There are some moments in my life looking back that if I could change the way I had to present as a female at that time I would 100% redo that moment. But this isn’t those reincarnation manga’s i’ve been reading so live and forget, i’d say. 

Going back to being Asian, I’m very lucky that my mom because of her experiences shaped her to be opened minded, my father on the other hand while may be open to some things is still deep down the conservative south east asian. Though I’ve come out to my mom, she doesn’t understand me being trans nor does she really acknowledge the fact that I am a male. I’m always going back and forth with her having calling me her daughter in her mother tongue and me having to correct her every time and her saying no your my daughter. Shit gets fucking old real fucking fast. It’s a hell lot to navigate when you have to move back home. I miss my college life because of that freedom from that denial, freedom to really express who i am and able to figure that out in a safe welcoming environment. Coming all the way back to my point lol i’m just deeply uncomfortable outing myself as trans. It was affirming to hear in that youtube video I was watching that many trans people don’t want to be outed, that it’s okay to stealth because bringing up being trans is tiring. Like I am a male, i don’t want to have to bring up me being trans all the time, makes me really understand the want or need to be passing. Like do people not realize that if there was a magical change your gender button, we would not hesitate to press it? If i could had been born into a male body i’d be a regular cis male, no question about it. But life doesn’t work that way. I honestly, wished I had the knowledge and money back when I was younger. Maybe i’d be able to navigate and live my life as who I am earlier. Now i gotta figure things out, and present myself to those who already know and not want them to look at me as a trans person but as just a normal regular person. What a difficult matter this is. One could only wish. That being said still trying to navigate my way on transitioning and whatnot. Living in a dominantly Asian community made up of older folxs doesn’t lend itself to give you resources to access on these kinds of topic. When this whole pandemic thing and we get the whole nation reformed I’ll go searching for some resources. As long as I live here back home, i don’t think i’ll be able to live freely. 

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lately i’ve been consuming a lot of josei manga especially those harlequinn mangas. god damn are those manga one shots so infuriating like COME ON JUST LEAVE THE MAN, DON’T GET BACK WITH HIM. Every goddamn manga is the same, the girl meets the greek tycoon/ rich british snob/ arabian prince gets pregnant, gets her heart broken and leaves him, guy find out he has a kid and forces her back, goes thru misunderstanding for 2 pages, then kiss kiss fall in love. Like it is the same every god forsaken time and yet I still get all angry lmao. I should know it by now why am I still silently screaming at 4am reading these mangas. I know what happens yet i’m still screaming LEAVE HIM, DON’T TAKE HIM BACK, BE YOUR OWN WOMAN WHO DOESN’T NEED NO MAN. I find myself laughing at myself because I put myself in that situation when I read it and then I get angry when I chose to read it lol. If I wasn’t so camera shy I’d have great reaction videos and livestreams of me when I read manga. Cause I talk to myself a lot when I’m reading manga, it’s kind of funny. 

On that light note i’m just gonna end this rant. I’m sleepy and I think i dumped out all the thoughts that’ve been accumulating at the back of my head out. Till next time!!

[jokeson-u]

aubrey didnt go to prom in high school cus she had so many extra curriculars that took time and she didnt wanna bother with prom. emily went several years in a row bc she did choir which always gave a performance at prom. when she finds out aubrey didnt go she makes a big deal of it and aubrey comes home to strung up fairy lights and a stereo playing slow songs and emilys all dressed up and makes her slow dance. she even buys them little plastic crowns and announces them as the prom queens. it makes aubrey tear up

aubrey likes to wrap her arms around emilys waist from behind and kiss her shoulder and lean her head against her back

emily gets so mad when ppl kill ladybugs. if she sees one she'll tenderly pick it up with a leaf and move it to a tree or grassy area

aubrey really likes candles. she prefers the subtle scents to strong ones. sometimes emily lights candles to 'set the mood' and aubrey thinks its so cute

theyre occasionally put in charge of babysitting bella. its actually howthey first decide they want kids bc seeing the other with little bella just made their hearts melt and it felt right

so one of my headcanons is all the bellas get a matching tattoo of a 'B' in the bella font. but part of that headcanon is emily faints when shes getting her tattoo done and has to get it finished another time 😭 (literally only cus my second tattoo almost made me pass out and i think thats emily energy)

speaking of tattoos i think aubrey unexpectedly has multiple. theyre all generally minimalistic but she gets several and emily loves kissing them. esp the one behind her aubreys ear

emilys surprisingly uncoordinated for someone who has such strong and steady stage presence and dancing skills. becas right that shes clumsy, ehich means aubrey has a couple boxes of hello kitty and disney princess bandaids in the hall closet for inevitable scrapes and cuts on emilys body

aubreys one of those people who impulsively signs up for weird promos and stuff so emily has to cancel subscriptions for her when shes randomly charged after forgettong she signed up lmao

so in my personal experience, everyone i know has like, That Time at least once where everythings absolutely horrible mentally and emotionally. aubreus was her jr/senior year which we kinda get to see. i think for emily, its her late sophmore/junior year of college. i feel like she was kinda sheltered and that college exposes her to a lot of things she has to deal with on her own. even freshman year she had the bellas to keep an eye on her and she was sorta consumed with them. she is with the new bellas too but its harder cus shes in charge and she has little support. also i generally think tjat time frame is difficult and for someone with an open heart and slight naiveté puts her in some tough spots at times, and that her empathy males her takes things harder than others. its one of the reasons aubrey so willingly and strongly steps in to help bc she sees how much more stressed and reserved emily is when she visits barden

aubrey eventially has a 'mid life crisis' even tho shes not mid life lol. shes kinda impulsive anyways and makes out of the blue decisions sometimes which is mostly her trying to find some semblance of control over her life. by the time shes like 35 it hits harder cus she feels lile shes wasted time. emily thinks shes crazy and reminds her of all shes accomplished. she keep her from like totally losing it and packing her bags and has aubrey talk it thru with her. its kinda rough for a couple weeks but aubrey gets back on her feet and feels more sure of herself and her direction than she ever has

junksen+emily headcanons pt 4!

emily has always wanted kids and aubreys a little afraid but a part of her has always wanted to be a mother

they adopt a girl and she cries so much and emilys always like oh god oh god i broke her

they both sing her to sleep at night (emily ends up with like 10 new original lullabies on her hands)

they ask stacie for advice sometimes and it makes aubrey feel weird cus she never imagined a day where she'd be going to stacie for parenting advice of all things

theyre both very excited to have an excuse to go all out when celebrating halloween. they do matching outfits (they go as mike, sully, and boo for her first halloween)

the adoption process is rly rough honestly. ots hard enough as is, but being a same sex couple set them back, in addition to the fact that emoly didnt have a steady source of income (the agencies just dont care that aubrey makes enough for the both of them). when they get a call that a mother was interested in them they try not to get their hopes up but when theu get the call that they were chosen, emily just bursts out crying and aubreys in shock until she just starts laughing from disbelief and relief

chloe throws a baby shower after hearing the news. beca buys one of those onesies thats like 'f!#k the milk, wheres the whiskey tits?' and aubrey throws it out right in front of her

by this point bella is like 5 or 6+ and is so absolutely adoring of the baby. shes the closest bella has to a sister and she treats her as such. if bella has her on her lap she refuses to let anyone take her back

emilys favorite thing is coming home late from recording or one of her odd jobs and seeing aubrey and their daughter asleep on the loveseat. motherhood just made aubrey softer and it fills emilys heart up so much

sorry these were all baby/child themed there were a lot of little kids at work today who were sO CUTE

also im in a constant state of baby fever and have a soft spot for little kids so

and a DOUBLE soft spot for emily and aubrey with kids

[baekstolemyname]

that long list of like 94 questions minnie had you post! (r u high on holiday w ur bf!!??)

i actually have not smoked at all since we left for japan, wasnt about to chance taking that shit thru the airport. but okay i’ll do all of them just for you (also because minnie is still sleeping and im bored af.. gonna skip the ones i already answered tho)

(1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed?uhhh my closet is like an entirely separate room type thing that doesnt have doors? lmaoo

(2) Do You Have Freckles?like a few here and there, but not on my face

(3) Can You Whistle?hell yeahhh

(4) Last Song You Listened To.me and minnie had sex last night with bts playing in the background.. idk the name of the songs tho

(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour?black

(6) Relationship Status.very much in a relationship

(7) What Is The Temperature Right Now?its like hot af right now... like 80 something

(9) How Many Followers?67 im so famous i know

(11) What Is Your Eye Colour?brown

(12) Take A Vitamin Daily?no fuck that

(14) What Books Are You Reading?lmao books

(15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.there are no books in my hotel room so no

(16) Favourite Anime?fuck dude, dont make me do that i like too many

(18) Do You Collect Anything?yeah, collars for minnie

(19) What Did You Have For Lunch?i havent even got outta bed yet dude

(20) Do You Dance In The Car?no, but baek does and its obnoxious as hell 

(24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?yeah some smeared ass eyeliner from yesterday

(25) Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean?ocean thooo

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?mine, duh

(27) Bottled Water Or Tap Water?bottled, tap water is actual shit

(28) What Makes You Happy?making minnie happy

(29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.

(literally this is the only gif i’ve ever saved to my computer lmfaooo)

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music?lmfaooo study

(31) Dogs Or Cats?cats

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be?fuckin.... macaroni and cheese crayola crayon

(33) PlayStation Or Xbox.playstation xbox is the worst

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?why do you keep asking me about swimming chill dude

(35) Do You Believe In Magic?FUCK no

(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing?uhh i am shirtless currently

(37) Can You Curl Your Tongue?the fuck does that even mean?? i can wrap it around a dick if thats what youre asking lmfaoo

(39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You?have... have you met minnie? there is ALWAYS something pink within 10 feet of me lmaoo

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?yeah this mochi from the cafe down the street from my hotel.. swear ive eaten like $100 worth of it already

(41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly?why

(42) Are You Easily Influenced By Other People?i was by my cousins when i was younger now i couldnt give a fuck what other people are doing

(43) Do You Have Strange Dreams?no i have some dumb ass boring as shit dreams that dont mean anything

(44) Do You Like Going On Airplanes?im indifferent

(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry.this korean move i watched with minnie, miracle in cell 7 or something i think it was called. it was good, watch it, i sobbed like a bitch lmaoo

(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds?um, ew

(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?bts because minnie would fucking scream

(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper?oh yeah, like you legit gotta fuckin shake me to wake me up

(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning?no

(51) Do You Like To Read / Write?gross

(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud?yeeeeeeess

(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents?neither honestly, but i guess carve pumpkins

(54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?Nobody Baby by The Pink Spiders

(55) What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather)hell summer

(56)What Are You Craving Right Now?the fucking mochi from the cafe down the street 

(57) Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.no fuck you

(58) What Is Your Gender?wow youre a nosy shit huh?

(59) Coffee Or Tea?coffee

(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?nah dude i just graduated

(61) What Is Your Sexuality?you know thats honestly a great question lmfaoo 

(62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?yeah im not a slob

(63) Favourite Pokemon?ampharos

(64) Favourite Social Media?you know i actually only use tumblr because fb and twitter are just... drama

(65) What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories?i literally avoid instagram like the plague because of baek so idk what that even means..

(66) Do You Get Homesick?no i love not being at home

(67) Are You A Virgin?LMFAOO

(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?idk some expensive shit the girl that cuts my hair told me to buy

(69) If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free?uhhhhh OR id just go stay in a nice ass hotel

(70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life?unfortunately

(71)  Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters?i have no idea tbh

(72) Do You Miss Your Ex?i do not have an ex

(73) What Is Your Favourite Quote Right Now?some sign at this market minnie and i went to was written in japanese and the translation under it said “walk fast and rainbows sweetly” and im kinda never gonna forget that

(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest?eye color... is not sexy??

(75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set?i didnt do much child stuff when i was a kid i was always busy being dragged around with my parents

(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate?ate minnie out before bed if that counts?

(77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?pokemon go and some word game i play when i dont want people to talk to me in public

(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?uhhh no...? because like idk how to do that shit

(79) Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?obviously

(81) Do You Like Meeting New People?no i fucking hate people

(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.i do but i dont have them on now

(83) Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed?closed and locked

(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today?ive literally only woken up, went to the bathroom and laid in bed on my phone

(86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.dont wanna

(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person?night fuck the sun

(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.im not about to spend that kind of time on this.. just, lots of nintendo

(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.i really only rarely have dreams and theyre always like boring dumb shit, like i’ll be walking for five minutes down the street i live on and then wake up

(90) Favourite Soda Drink?dr pepper i guess

(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?uhhhh both

(93) How Do You Look Right Now?tired af and like i had some crazy ass sex before bed lmfaoo

(95) What Tattoo Do You Want?so many

(96) Favourite YouTuber?jontron is like honestly my favorite human after minnie

fuck that took so long why did i do this?? lmfaoo you better have read every single one anon i did this long ass shit for you

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howdy, the aaa lit class thing made me think - what are some of the aaa crew’s favorite books? type of books? fav ~classic specifically? book character they relate to? were they harry potter or pjo kids? or another child/teen fantasy series entirely?

okay lots of questions lots of questions... where to begin!!

to start, who are the Readers in the front nine. the avid readers are definitely isadora, farkle, charlie, and asher. isa was a kid growing up in foster homes and needed worlds to escape to, farkle enjoyed it and also looked for it as a way to connect with his older siblings + dad, charlie just liked reading, and asher was a pretty lonely kid and needed something to do when no one was hanging out with him after school. i think riley likes reading, but as she got older she just lost track of it and so isn’t nearly as avid as the others (as many of us do... rip those iconic child reading abilities to tear thru a book like lightning).

zay i think... likes reading? like in theory? but with his dyslexia it’s just so damn hard that it’s not worth it. maya literally has zero interest in it. lucas has never liked reading and didn’t really get a foundation for it growing up -- aside from occasionally reading those animal behavior books in the waiting room at the doctor’s or whatever he didn’t waste much energy on it and was more preoccupied with all this restless energy he needed to go Do something to let out. i would call him illiterate, but the only reason i can’t is because he’s evidently one of the smartest kids in the a class so. obviously he can read. and dylan doesn’t dislike reading, but he just doesn’t have the attention span for it. he can get into comic books and graphic novels, but a whole ass novel... that’s asking so much of him. however, if asher reads out loud... well, then perhaps... maybe that makes points...

for the readers, isadora is majorly into science-fiction and the less boring classics. her favorite novel is frankenstein, and she really idolizes mary shelley. farkle is a boring bitch and loves classics, i.e. he’s nuts as we know. i mean, his favorite book is great gatsby, which he started reading at 9 because his dad gave it to him. who gives a 9 year old that book. but its his comfort novel now so no turning back. he tends to just like depressing classic lit and is shakespeare’s bitch. charlie will kind of give anything a try once, but one of his minor forms of rebellion (without actively acknowledging to himself it was rebelling) was reading books he wasn’t supposed to read. like bridgette read the hunger games series in early high school and gave charlie the first book and he used to stay up late with a flashlight under his blankets reading it being like i should stop reading... this is so gruesome and bad... and yet... (this also applied to twilight, and later, some queer lit). asher is more into queer ya lit at this point, like his favorites are ari & dante and the song of achilles, but he’s kind of caught in that phase of life where YA is getting too cliched / poorly written but he’s too nervous to tread into new adult or adult so he’s just like. rereading the same books over and over lmao.

isadora is definitely a closeted potterhead, and i think riley was super into them for a time as well. so they can talk to each other about it, but no one else will know what the heck they’re talking about really. like es said lucas will say something and riley will be like “what a gryffindor thing to say,” and isa is like “oh yeah totally he’s such a gryff,” and lucas is like am i being insulted. literally what are you saying those are made up words. maya and farkle were too busy hyperfixating on glee and showtunes to get into anything hp or pjo, charlie wasn’t allowed to read them, and asher just didn’t gravitate towards them (he... didn’t have a lot of fun in elementary / middle school). 

pjo riley was definitely into, and i feel like zay struggled through it bc he liked the protags having dyslexia and the world was interesting enough. i think riley is a greek myth nerd in some ways, like that was her middle school hyperfixation, so pjo fits neatly into that box. also dylan wanted to read pjo so badly bc of the adhd rep, but he couldn’t get through them bc... he has adhd FGKDLJGLSH. so eventually he either listens to the audiobooks, or convinces asher to read them with him i.e. have asher read them out loud bc it is the only way dylan will pay attention enough to retain what’s actually happening.

-- Maggie (with help from Es)