#i think i saw smth about a tweet about how hes not ''nice'' and tbh i???? dont get why ppl are worried about it???????????

[snickerdoodlles]

Wai’s still the same

So something that I haven’t seen mentioned yet is how a lot of Wai’s actions in ep7 directly parallel his actions in ep1. And I want to turn a quick light on that because I’m personally really invested in how Wai’s actions have turned from a positive push in Pran’s life to a negative one due to different contexts, and how I think they will still change again as the story goes on and all these characters grow together

Put this under a readmore since it got long, but here’s some rambles about how Wai’s trying to be a good friend and why it’s not working, plus some Pat rambles as an end treat because I love that boy:

So, the first thing to talk about is Wai’s still trying to help Pran reconnect to music. Consider one of the first interactions we saw between Wai and Pran:

Music is very important to Pran and integral to himself. He’s always listening to music in everything he does and he even puts a lot of consideration in how the music integrates with his activities. It’s also a way he connects with his family and his friends, and also a very important way he expresses himself:

Yet in the audience’s introduction to the Freshy Day Music Competition, Pran insists he’s given up the guitar and he has no interest in going back to it. This is very obviously a lie, just look at the way the kid lights up any time he looks at the guitars in the music shop, but it’s a lie Pran’s clinging to. And one of the main reasons why Pran picks up the guitar again is Wai.

In fact, for most of ep1-4, we as the audience see Wai being a really good friend and a huge positive push Pran needs. Pran's main conflict in all of Bad Buddy can really be summed up here:

We know how it’s going to end, isn’t it better not to start at all? (x)

And Pran’s slowly learning that the answer is no, it’s always worth pursuing what makes you happy. You can’t know how something will turn out, but letting opportunities pass you by means you will never achieve what you want. You can’t and won’t out plan every risk, and that’s okay.

Of course, Pran’s biggest influence to overcoming this fear will be Pat. And I’ll circle back to that in a minute, but before Pat, the person pushing him and encouraging him was Wai. It’s Wai who encourages Pran to join the Freshy Day Competition and encourages Pran to confront the floor guy hitting on him via dumplings. And these pushes are a good thing. Pran is very insular and at the beginning of the show, he needs this outside push to help him confront his fears of risk. Wai’s earlier actions helped give Pran the excuse and encouragement he needed to reach for something he wanted (or, at least, something he’s scared to face).

The problem with Wai now is that he’s hasn’t realized Pran’s grown.

Pran is not the same person he was in ep1. In ep1&6, he wasn’t running away from only the guitar. He was running away from the very old and still weeping sore of his family’s drama he doesn’t want to be a part of and his long time crush on Pat. He’s wrapped up so much of this pain in his guitar that he wants to get rid of this physical reminder and presence.

Wai doesn’t know this.

Pran doesn’t open up to Wai about this very complex and messy situation. Which, fair tbh, but it means that all Wai knows is that his friend is running away again from something that he loves, something Wai had just seen Pran reconnect to:

Now, this push to help Pran come out of one of his shells in regards to music was only successful because Pran chose to make this leap--Wai may have encouraged him, but Pran was the one that ultimately chose it. The sequence where Pran is delayed getting the competition form wasn’t just a narrative tool to keep Pran away from Wai and the other engineers--it’s Pran choosing, repeatedly, to join the music competition. He could’ve let Wai distract himself getting the form, he could’ve left as soon as he saw the empty music room, he could’ve left when there were no more forms. But he doesn’t. Pran chooses, over and over, to join the competition, even if he won’t say it in words.

And that’s where Wai’s actions start to fall apart in ep7.

He assumes that Pran’s still running away from music and tries to help push Pran back to it. Just look at the progression of Wai trying to reconnect Pran to music in ep7: he starts with asking Pran to join him on sound for the play. When Pran rejects him, he still tries to get Pran to help out (and, from his perspective, Pran does seem to be pretty into it). And then, finally, he begs Pran to take over his duties as the sound person for the play and drops off Pran’s guitar that he’s been caring for.

And it’s wrong.

Wai is not listening to Pran. Even if giving Pran a push would be a good thing, it is not Wai’s place to decide this. He needs to respect Pran’s boundaries, both spoken and unspoken, and remember that it’s ultimately up to Pran to choose what he wants to do. Right now, he’s taking advantage of Pran’s nature to accept responsibilities to try to push Pran into a place that he thinks will be good for him.

Now, all of this does not make Wai a bad person. It just makes him a person.

But there are two reasons why Wai’s coming off as especially bad in this episode: Pat, and perspective bias.

Pat is just plain amazing. He’s very good at offering his help and encouragement to others in ways that don’t come off as overbearing or intrusive, and the way he acts around Pran especially highlights this aspect of his caring nature. Every time he pushes Pran to confront something he might be uncomfortable facing, he still does it in a way that still gives Pran control over the situation--he’ll ask Pran questions but let Pran set the boundaries (”do you think we could be friends?” / “do you?”), he’ll fold the newspaper but let Pran decide how much space to give him, he won’t let Pran run away but he’ll make up a bet to help Pran feel more comfortable. Pran can open up to Pat because Pat’s really the only one so far that doesn’t impose on Pran--he lets him come to him and he’s always there when Pran looks for help, and that’s why we see Pran’s first awkward and clumsy (and defensive) attempt to reach out for help in ep7

(Also, the way Pat rejects Pran hiding behind the wall of their bet but later still showing Pran that he’ll be there for him is AMAZING and we will be talking about that in a different post because I’m still half-feral over Pat being the best boy I love him so much.)

And the thing is, when we have this amazing foil and positive influence in Pat, the other characters trying to help/push Pran fall leagues short. They were good for Pran at one point and they're still actions of care, but Pran’s grown beyond it and his friends haven’t (yet).

That said, Wai’s actions are still particularly grating in ep5-7 in a way that they aren’t in 1-4, and that tone shift is also due to the change in narrative perspective.

Pran is a lot more forgiving of his friends than Pat. We see it in how the fights are framed and how Pran defends his friends in the first 4 episodes, and then we see that bias flip on the two friend groups for ep5-7 (and probably ep8 as well). But that doesn’t mean that the perspective won’t shift again.

We’ve already seen a huge narrative shift in character perspective on one character: Pat. Even just comparing how he’s introduced in the first half of ep1 to the second half. We got a speedrun on the narrative shift because of PatPran’s history, but Pat is introduced as a thug that’s uninhibited and out of control, plus a selfish jackass that won’t even do his own laundry and thinks the world revolves around him (”why did you follow me to university?”). But as soon as he starts to reconnect with Pran, his caring and nurturing personality is revealed. We even see how his confidence is mistaken for arrogance, how he gets pulled into drama he doesn’t want to be a part of, and how careful he is of other people’s boundaries even when he’s pushing someone out of their comfort zone.

the tl;dr of this is Wai’s acting the same as he always has been. He’s still the sweetheart we met in ep1-4, but he’s currently a static character in a developing narrative and we’re getting a much less forgiving narrative perspective on his flaws right now. And that’s okay! All of these characters still have a lot more room to grow, but they care about each other. It’s going to be really interesting to see how the narrative’s perspective on all of them change as we not only shift to a more balanced narrative POV in ep9-12, but also as these characters grow to be better people as well.

[serendiquity]

aww you’re so sweet i think your taste is amazing as well i love all of the charas you mentioned!!! i love how comforting owen seems to be for a lot of people hes just so💖🥰💖🥰 about the characters i dislike hmmm… it’s actually a funny story i knew about mhyk for a long long time and i always knew that owen is my fav and that i love him even though i barely knew anything about him at the moment! so i saw someone vaguely tweet abt the eye swap incident and for some reason i misinterpreted it like cain took owen’s eye and that he has some power owen or smth😭 and i even said he looks sketchy and that i would protect owen😭😭😭 im so dumb lmao turns out cain is the one who needs protection, when i read the main story he seemed very nice and sweet so im very embarrassed… i don’t know what figaro did to shylock yet but im excited to find out😳 i have a question too! which character is the most inspiring and easy to write for?? i realise i love owen so much for example but sometimes it’s hard to pin down what kind of responses he would something like this

Haha, I can see how that could happen, though it's quite interesting that you wouldn't like Cain, but still like Owen even though he's the one who took Cain's eye (But tbh I'm like that too, so I don't have any room to talk. I don't care what any of the wizards do, as long as they don't hurt my favorites).

Personally, characters who have interesting and dark backstories are easiest to write for me (which is pretty much all the older wizards), since I decide on a scenario I want to write first, then choose a wizard that fits the criteria. I try not to make them OOC though, so I prefer writing for characters I know well, which would be my favorites and the North, West, and Eastern characters. Unfortunately, I usually skip the Central and Southern characters' stories, so I know much less about them.

I tend to focus more on their thoughts and feelings more than the dialogue as well, but I read (or reread) their character stories before I write about them to get a better idea of how they'd react. Also, do you write anything? If you do, I'd love to see what you come up with, but it's also fine if you don't or don't want to show me!

[chickenfetus]

all moongan

thank you for asking falen tbh i love u sm and i love doing these 

omg is this ask for this ask meme i literally almost posted this along with the wrong ask fml

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

more cereal than mik because.. i dont eat cereal with milk……… i love the crunch

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

as someone who lives in a tropical country is that what its called idk we dont have seasons and it never gets lower than 25 degrees so yes that would be ideal

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

hrmmmmm… i just remember the page number?? or try to lmao if i dont remember i just skim through the pages and try to recognise where i left off

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

with at least 2 packets of sugar tbh…. i dont drink coffee

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

omg story time i went 2 get my braces removed and the dentist wanted to take pics so he was like “smile with your teeth!” and i was like ok! but then he kept saying i wasnt doing it right lmao… guess whos never smiled b4… (me) so he told me 2 practice my smile lol i didnt answer the qn but ya,,, i am probably

6: do you keep plants?

i used 2 be very against plants… now theyre okay i guess i dont rly keep any

7: do you name your plants?

refer 2 6

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

art??? i havent drawn in awhile

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

no LOL

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

on my side!!!! i cant sleep on my back bc i gotta hug smth.. and my stomach is out of the qn

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

🅱️… and .. same brainwaves…. poor mans ____…. this is all from the shady hq im so sorry my other pals

12: what’s your favorite planet?

the moon for no real reason

13: what’s something that made you smile today?

hMMm, watching astro and mx perform??? and just being shady with bell lmao

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

this… question,,,..so im thinking of a bright place with white walls and translucent curtains so the light call fill the (living) room perfectly and everythings really ??? sunny and shit idk its warm… the floor’s made of (fake?) wood and theres a small kitchen bc i cant cook and idk if my friend would be able to lol.. theres 2 bed rooms both are painfully small but it works.. theres one other room with a closet for clothes… the bathroom is just a shower, sink and toilet… theres no washing machine rip and ?? thats about it poor mens life

i watchd the like we used mv again and i realized ...... that is literally where i got this imagery from thanks the rose i love a relatable band

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

heres a fact (?) from me first: it rains diamonds on one planet ?? mecury maybe?? mars??? whomst.. this isnt even a fact its ,me trying to recall shit

ok real fact: There are thousands of other planets out there. sorry lads this website doesnt wanna have fun

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?

is spaghetti bolognese a pasta dish

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

im chill with my current hair colour??? bc its brown sometimes idk shitty hair

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

i asked my irl friends (group name: panic support group) and this is what they said

K: everything

E: when u were one hour late (i dont remember this happening but i do know im always late but never for an hour past me wyd)

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

goDD i dont but i sure want to

20: what’s your favorite eye color?

this is strange but every eye colour is my favourite although ppl with two or more colours in their eyes are so cool

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

its just my school bag lmao i got it 4 years ago and i take it everywhere even if the event is “small” and they ask us to bring “smaller bags” ill bring my big ass school bag anyway it looks like this (i dont have to but linking stuff is so fun)

22: are you a morning person?

technically.???its the holidays but i still manage to get up before 10 (most of the time) and … even if i have like 5 hours of sleep i manage to feel awake really easily????

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

tf i just use my phone lmao this is what ive been doing for like a month now… i could watch every vlive i havent watched yet, i could make video compilations i could practice my art but… even though im out of school im still procrastinating.. legends only

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

mmmm falens the closest to that

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

my classroom

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

white converse??  i have 2 get new ones every like 2 years since theyre also my school shoes and break easily….. other than those i have my blueblack converse too (i dont wear them as much so theyre still in one piece)

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

i dont eat bubblegum bc im always afraid ill swallow it and die and im p sure its illegal here

28: sunrise or sunset?

sunset but i dont look outside enough for either

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

hm……… with jen its when she sends me asks on anon despite it being super obvious like im not a Fan when my friends send me asks on anon bc sometimes i cant tell and i get a sense of false hope but w/ jen its okay but i know its her

with bell its when they reply to my keyboard smashes with their own keyboard smashes lmao and when they just??//?? say smth cute abt their faves (lately its been sanha thank u sh)

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

ya lmao when i have 2 sleep alone and its completely dark i have half a mind 2 believe some random supernatural being is out for me

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

hmM. socks are great i always wear them bc i wear shoes almost every time i go outside… i dont have any weird socks bc im Boring but i have 3 pkmn songs and 1 gudetama socks/.. bUT I DID buy my friend those socks with individual toe pockets… it was so funny when my other friend saw it she choked on her drink and almost spat it out. we laughed so hard we hit our heads against each other i love friendship.. i have 2 wear white socks for sch bc… aesthetic? god if i know lmao….. i only ever wear ankle socks bc….. socks any higher than that? cancelled.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

listen ive never stayed up later than like 1am ok maybe 2am??? but i was working on like a project that was due the next day for school with my groupmates (friends) so does that count lmao

33: what’s your fave pastry?

bread………. sugar donuts…….. i am Aware that thats not how u spell it but wtv

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

why does this ask so many qns in 1 qn……. i had a cat?? it had pink stripes and it didnt have a name bc i dont name my stuff… even my pokemon.. and yeah i still have it except its in a big dusty bag where all my other toys are kept

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

i kinda have to use stationary for school so ya.. p often is correct… pretty pens??? i dont rly see the point whoopS!!! in exams u can only use black or blue so

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

im listening 2 day6 so like day6

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

my room isnt even my room i just go there to sleep .. the place im always at is like a study area except its open?? so everyone can see me lol and . its not messy?? if u look at it from far but the shit on the desk and shelves are so fucking messy god i need to pack those

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

aLRIGHT LADS welcome 2 megans ted talk

(skip this if ur not fond of drama)

so something (refer to the song he said suits myday) happened with jae recently and ive seen fans trying to defend him by @ing him and saying that they love him which is fine - great even! but what i dont approve is how everyone’s basically forgotten about the whole matter because they had concerts so instead of @-ing him and asking him to explain himself, they tell him what a great concert it was which is also great bc their concerts are honestly amazing. basically my pet peeve is when ppl dismiss the problematic action of some people just bc they like them.

another thing is that there were some fans who started guilting others for wanting to drop day6 completely because of what jae did and in my opinion i think it is totally cool to want to drop a group if they did smth bad like??? its ur life???? u can choose who you want to like. what is not cool is pulling out all the good things the person has ever done in their entire life and try to remind others about the positive sides of the person. yes. they’re an encouraging person, etc. but that does not cancel out the bad things they’ve done until they explain/apologise. what is infuriating is just the manner some people took it?? they literally went ahead and tweeted shit like “would your parents drop you if you did smth wrong?” and “you’re seriously gonna drop someone whos been nothing been nice because of one incident?” yes. people will and you dont have any fucking right to stop them? so dont go pulling out receipts.

another thing. its also okay to want to stan the whole group even if someone has done smth problematic. like? to me youre cool if youre able to see and acknowledge the bad shit someone has done and still stand by their side while educating them at the same time its nice to have faith in your idols. however, i wont say much when your idols dont respond and/or respond in a way that shows absolutely no remorse. its cool if you want to support them too, despite that.

tldr; dont fucking excuse someone’s behaviour/action just because youre so far up their fucking ass. dont pull out shit from before either, be it good or bad. and lastly, its okay to want to drop/continue supporting them, its your life.

i just wanted to talk about this tbh,, it was nice to see a few mydays trying to urge jae to explain the whole situation but seeing as he still hasnt and couldve it really irks me :-/

okay update its been a day and i havent really thought about this but im kinda conflicted now bc jae still hasnt talked about the song and im probably just making a big deal out of smth that will never happen again but it really doesnt sit right with me knowing that jae recommended that song to his fans and said it suited mydays?? bc looking at the lyrics... i SURE hope not... idk i have neither forgiven or forgotten but he’s okay now.? i cant stay mad at someone for that long anyway ill never forgive him 4 it though lmao petty ppl only

another thing... jae’s still an amazing person to me with all the encouraging words he says to mydays but this one incident is just soOOOOO hrm and i did go off tangent with the question as usual lol

39: what color do you wear the most?

i wear a lot of colours tbh??? but bc its rly hot out ive just been wearing the same shirt every time i leave the house and its black so

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

i dont wear jewelry rip

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?

challenger deep

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

hm,, ive only ever visited this coffee shop like more than once bc the girl i used 2 like showed it to me b4 like 2 years ago and it was nice i liked their mocha frappe and its cozy i guess??? sometimes i go there with friends to study/just eat but i havent gone in awhile.., its two stories and it has an open air sitting area too i prefer sitting inside bc the sun is a big no thanks.. the ceiling is kind of like?? going downward?? like the kind iin attics???? idk man it was nice

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

u cant see shit here sorry

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

cant relate

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

yea?? sometimes i just gotta bc my brain wont shut the fuck up

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

suddenly all of the puns i know have left my mind thanks @ me

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

vegetables

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

the dark and whats basically in it???? like ghosts zombies and shit u kno the scary shit

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

i like buying albums?? theres a CD in those so it counts lmao i bought sunrise by day6

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?

boxes??? like containers????

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

boxy and letting go by day6

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

YOU KNOW I HAD TO DO IT TO THEM and oh worm

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

me: rocky.. ?????? from astro.. /?? no ive never heard of any of those and i saw the word horror so u wont hear abt those from me any time soon

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

i literally havent been outside for 2 days

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?

be petty aka yesterday i changed my twitter icon from jae 2 brian bc jae’s being a child rn so hes out

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

when they ramble abt smth they like thanksk buds

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

is this the song from p!atd i have it in my playlist lmao oh i fucing hate this song i always skip it im not listening

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

idk what either of those are but bell and boxy

59: what’s your favorite myth?

idk any

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

anything that eunwoo has ever written

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

ive given eggs for karissa’s birthday b4 and i got a kermit its not stupid tho its just the closest thign i could think of

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

i drink water juice everyday every minute every hour

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

my books are all in shelves lads i just  heard the fucking keys rattle im not doing this shit im logging off night

ok day 3 and im back like i said previously my books are on shelves i tried rearranging them by series b4 but my housekeeper rearrnaged them randomly the next day so i gave up

i make playlists for songs that i like, really like (i still skip them sometimes rip) and songs that my friend recommends me i have a seperate playlist for the songs i like in japanese 2

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

light blue?? like its actually p white bc its cloudy

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

m not rly

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

just. leaves maybe??

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

Horror Movie

68: what’s winter like where you live?

oh winter is fucking fantastic it never gets colder than 25 degrees celsius here and if it does rain it lasts for like 10 minutes

69: what are your favorite board games?

i used to rly like snake and ladders and monopoly :-o

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

im not ready for that kinda death

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?

english breakfast or earl gray??? those r like the standard right

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

ya but i never do bc i either forget to or am just 2 lazy

73: what are some of your worst habits?

being lazy + procrastinating :-D

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

okie :-o ..

they’re great ok ive talked abt them like 10 times in the span of 2 months but whatever folks

they’re super nice, kind and just all of the positive adjectives out there in the dictionary ...... they’ve helped me multiple times and they’re always there 2 lend me a listening ear (or in our case, eye lmao) idk??? im just super comfortable around them always and im honestly so thankful we became mutuals (and subsequently friends) last year!!!! i cant say a lot bc ill just get v repetitive but overall they’re an awesome friend and im glad we still communicate daily via twitter and sometimes our skype sessions even if they’re kinda awkward bc i never know when 2 talk bc im scared ill speak and theyll say smth and itll turn into a MESS which actually happened lmao  

im looking forward to the day our skype sessions become super smooth and easy going!!!

75: tell us about your pets!

i have none but id die for boxys cats

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

well yeah always tbh but its not smth i have to do but more like want to do im just 2 lazy to get around doing it

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

?? i almost said lemons arent pink but i Remembered...... yellow lemonade

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

i feel like this is an Attack? okay LISTEN so story time again.

on the flight back from japan i watched the alien covenant and i couldnt even get past the scene where the baby alien was gonna kill the poor guy who ended up being locked up with the infected dude as soon as i saw the blood and the alien emerge from the guy’s back i bolted lmao

so to calm myself down nd block that memory from my mind i went ahead and watched despicable me 3.. which HONESTLY im the worst critic ever but in my humble opinion.... the movie was good????????? idk i didnt watch minions the movie though i got lazy again whooopS!

anwyay i sidetracked but im neutral im not a fan but i wouldnt go out of my way to call minions annoying?? bc they really arent? i feel like its only seen that way bc of how people make posts abt how annoying minions are even tho.. they arent??

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

my memory hates me so every specific thing my friends have ever done for me has left my mind but .

the cutest thing? everything my friends do for me

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

theyre yellow and no i didnt theyve been there ever since i could remember

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

lava cake

82: are/were you good in school?

yeah i was good in school for like the first three years and this year i just flopped so badly lmao and its my important year too oh well my exams r over and i still dont have a backup plan in mind

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?

all of dance gavin dance’s albums have awesome art

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

back when i was really into 5sos i thought of getting a tally since that was their logo at that time but now no not really unless i decide to get lance’s face tattooed onto my forehead on impulse

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

im keeping up with hq, bnha and tg manga!!!!

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

idk what those r but sure

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

big hero 6

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

who wrote this whats up with these questions

i googled and.. not really?? they all look nice

89: are you close to your parents?

close enough to stand being in the same room as them but not close enough to want to initiate conversations

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.

tokyo was really cool (literally) and if i ever go again id love to go with friends so we can explore more??

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

japan was supposed to be the only plan for this year but my grandad passed away so i had to go to malaysia multiple times earlier this year ik this wasnt the qn but ive already went to the planned destination tm so

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

BARELY SPRINKLES A PINCH im anti cheese

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?

um. like?? i tie the sides of my hair that cover my face back??? bc i dont like hair in my face

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

bell

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

hopefully something useful

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

i also click remind me tomorrow lmao

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

infp-t, capricorn, hufflepuff (same as falen nd jen yay)

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

uh ive never been hiking and i dont plan on it sorry body

99: list some five (or id never shut up) songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

currently......

when you love someone - day6

like we used to - the rose

crazy sexy cool - astro

death of a strawberry - dance gavin dance

if it means a lot to you - a day to remember

idk if these actually “resonate to my soul” they just sound nice

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

oh worm.. i wouldnt miind either???

i know i have 2 choose but like

if i go back into the past i could be less annoying?? but the past has actually helped me be the way i am today and i think im learning to be a better person?? im definitely way better than how i was previously 5 years ago and im just grateful i was able to learn from my mistakes???

so i wouldnt go back to the past.

if its in the future i can see how ill end up and if its not good i might end up being able to change myself so i dont get my “bad end”..???? maybe or i can just see what happens in the future and i can look forward to it

itll also give me a chnace to have the most fun while i can if its not too nice

so my decision is to go to the future

thank you so much for asking falen god this got so long lmao

[narahalara]

hello ok i guess i should input this into this journal of mine so i can look at it years later and possibly laugh or be like wow i forgot about that LOL cause i finally fixed up my page after 2 years since i didnt use this for a good year but ive been kinda using it again lately cause i realized this is like my journal and its actually nice to see all of my old vents and stuff here haha okie here we go.

on tuesday night i was actually going through my old twitter and then i realized you actually can look at tweets from the very beginning by looking at tweets and replies soooo stupid me got bored and looked up AS’s twitter and started scrolling through his old stuff and i saw smth i should have not read from july 2017, now ofc I can be terribly wrong it could have not been about me...but i think it was because one of his friends who apparently was following my finsta that used to have so much personal shit esp about AS for the longest ass time was replying to his tweet about it... i cant remember it but it was smth along the lines of supposedly me just wanting to be happy.

And i froze. i went fucking numb. i admit i was about to cancel my tinder hangout (I don’t deem meeting up with people for the first time as dates, they are hangouts LMAO) but i was like nope thats stupid narah. this is years ago. its been 3 years. I’ve moved on. He’s moved on. He doesn’t remember me anymore. I should be free to go on and do however I please.

I also did not want to write this but, again, i must constantly reassure myself that nobody of relevance will see these rants of mine so its ok. I actually added AS on instagram a couple of days ago. Why? I think cause a part of my was just curious if I would feel ok. and honestly i was. my heart did not jump or sink. I think i only did it as a way of me peeling off the bandaids that healed my wounds just to see how my wounds were doing. were they healed? were they still bleeding? are they just scars now? i think deep down i already knew the answer, but i just wanted to be sure? anyways, he did not accept it. I know he saw it cause his follower count was fluctuating. It’s not a big deal, but I do admit a felt a slightest bit sad. I think cause when JI added me 3 years later on IG (i still remember, he added me at the end of may cause i got the friend request right after my tennis banquet had ended) and I accepted it. It just kind of hit me, I guess he really does not care about me anymore. I’m being honest, i don’t like him anymore I now in my heart I have moved on and I am a completely different person in comparison to 3 years ago and so is he. But I just felt like him accepting my request would be like this ultimate go to setting me free... i think deep down sometimes i still feel afraid to go out and “date” or explore the waters cause there is some weird underlying conscious feeling that feels like i am “cheating on him”? which makes no sense because again its just been so long. so anyways, I just wanted to write that out otherwise i feel ok.

OK wednesday I finally mustered the courage to let this awkward potato go out and meet someone via tinder without the intention of a hookup! LOL it was good, i think i am awkward but i already expected that. he was actually cute so that made me feel more nervous but he was nice and it was an interesting first time experience. i think overall i am just happy that the person was nice and i did not pass out or stutter a lot and that i did not last minute cancel like i usually do and remove them off social media and ghost them and just hope that they dont see me at 24 hour fitness (oh my lanta yes i know thats horrible i have seen my mistake and i won’t do that anymore) so yeah! this was my first time going out with a guy tbh like even with my exes i actually never went out on dates with my exes like that (lol rip i’d never tell that cause that’s weird) anywho lowkey theres obviously no love connection, which is not even the intentio anways like for me this is to get out of my comfort zone and explore and meet new people to see what i like and dont like and further improve on my skills of communication and opening up to not being afraid of being me for future endeavors lol, but he’s cute and I would be totally down to hookup with him but idk if hes into that LMAO like hes actually cute the movie was hella boring but i was trying to see if he was down for my to give him a handjob but unfortunately the seats we sat in were infront of a couple lmao we should have just gone to different seats LOL oh gosh am i horrible ? i think im just super horny like am ovulating and my hormones are fluctuating because my medication for my hormonal acne ran out so i think my hormones are thrown off and did i mention im ovulating i wanna to give someone head so badly highkey and he’s a good candidate how do i politely and respectfully ask if someone is down to hookup without sounding like a perv honestly well i will see

cause when it comes to choosing who i hook up with im highkey pretty picky? like i have two methods. either a) they stick around and text or facetime me both sexually and non sexually for a minimum of three months and i feel physically attracted to them and they are a nice person or b) they take me out and they are physically attractive to me and they are a nice person

the first option is a very complicated process tbh i tried to explain it to one guy one time and he told me it was like applying for college LMAo

so now that i finally broke that chain of fear to go out with someone via tinder i have finally mustered the courage to reply to all those other messages that i was even the slightest bit interested in but honestly im very horny :( It is actually very hard to find a combo of being nice, attractive, is willing to let me know a bit about themselves and have them ask a lil bit about me, and wants casual sex. cause i don’t want to do it with someone douchy or cocky, i feel like i’d regret it. i also want to be genuinely attracted to the person cause if i’m not i won’t enjoy it and thats not fun for either of us, i also don’t want to do it with a complete stranger, like you don’t got to tell my your childhood traumas but i personally think its nice to get to know the person whose see my in my physical vulnerability lol and finally wants casual sex (the last one is actually really easy to find, whats hard is it to find one that also checks off those other qualities)

well on another totally different note jane the virgin finished yesterday AND IM SO SAD BUT I AM SO EVER GRATEFUL FOR THIS SHOW LIKE THOSE SHOW HAS MEANT SO MUCH TO ME IT IS HONESTLY SO GOOD AND IVE BEEN SO EMOTIONALLY INVESTED IN THIS SHOW FOR A LONG TIME LIKE I REWATCHED IT 4 TIMES SO I FEEL KIND OF SAD BUT THANKFUL FOR THIS SHOW ITS SO GOOD.

and i also have an ear infection cause i think i scratched my ear too hard unknowingly in my sleep according to my sister so im actually in dire pain and i worked out my arms and abs today at the gym so im hella sore ANF oh my lanta i saw a dude that i thought was AS so my whole game was lowkey a bit thrown off but its fine i just ended up laughing with my sissy alot doing abs (we’re usually super serious but i was thrown off today but its ok) so yeah thats why i am lying in bed right now in pain writing all of this hoping that pain subsides and my ears get better

okie ends rant here.

oh wait super random that one guy who is the only person who has so far passed on his application using the first method had a snap of himself at the beach and he was half naked and i was like fuck man i miss your dick LOL ok forreal end rant here. 

OH AND I STARTED EATING CHICKEN AGAIN SO MY PESCATARIAN DAYS END HERE i guess im now pollo-pescetarian lol OK FORREAL END HERE

[andymieintus]

Oh my God 4 TIMES? Talk about all of them! Or just your favorite parts I'm sorry if you don't want to

omg okay

im gonna put this under a read more because theres four different stories and theyre quite long but basically this is the story of my budding acquaintanceship with andy mientus

just stick with me here because they keep getting better with each time

so the first time i met him was at the bway flea market in september and it was just a quick lil meet and greet thing with him and michael and tbh michael was SO NICE and i was SO NERVOUS that i don’t even think i made eye contact with andy once

then the second time, this is where it starts getting wild (this was less than a month ago wtf)

so i went to go see wicked in orlando and after the show i walked around the building to find the stagedoor. and once i found it i went back to my car, which was in a parking garage about a five-minute walk away. once i got there, i grabbed the gift i had gotten for andy (i don’t wanna say what it was because yall will think im ridiculous for buying this for him but lets just say it was a gift he had expressed wanting and it was vvvvv expensive) and then i walked back to the theater. so i was walking to the stagedoor when i saw the group of people that had been there earlier walking towards me (away from stagedoor) so i was like “oh no did i miss him oh no oh no oh no” but then i looked behind the group of people and ANDY WAS RIGHT THERE WALKING TOWARDS ME

so naturally im like !!!!!!! and hes just texting and walking and im like do i approach him?? do i not approach him??? but i wasn’t about to let my anxiety stop me from meeting him so i was like “oh! andy! hi!” and he looked up at me and he’s real cute and he was like “oh, hi!” and then he walked over to me

and i gave him his gift and he was super gracious about it it was super sweet and then i asked how he was and he was like “i’m good, i’m feeling a bit under the weather right now” and i told him to feel better ya know things like that and we got a picture it was cute

and so it was kinda just the right moment for us to part ways so we were about to do that when it turns out we were going in the same direction. i was going back to the parking garage and he was gonna wait on his uber and so we ended up walking side by side

so he was like “so how did u like the show?” and i was like wWELL because i had missed the first act due to forgetting my tickets at home and having to go back and get them because im a dumbass and i told him this and he goes “OH NO and most of my parts are in act one!!!!” and he was laughing and my heart melted i just love him and i was like IM SORRY but u were still great in march of witch hunters and everything and he was like awww thnx

and so then we said our goodbyes and he thanked me again for the gift and he was like “well hopefully you’ll get to see the show again sometime” and i was like “oh yeah definitely” knowing full well that i already had tickets for four more dates in tampa

so then we parted ways and he was just standing there and i was standing at a crosswalk like twenty feet away and i had to wait for it to say i could go and i just. we made eye contact it was awkward but then it said i could walk and i RAN

but IT GETS BETTER so i went back to my car and tweeted him thanking him for stopping and everything and then i started driving home and i called my best friend to rant to her about the whole thing

so after i hung up the phone all i saw on my screen was a twitter notif that said

Andy Mientus

Also, I’m sorry if I was a little despondent- my stomach is

and i FLIPPED OUT and checked my twitter and he had followed me and everything and i immediately called my best friend back and was like like WHAT DO I DO and she was like “well u could start by reading the dm” 

so basically andy had opened my gift and he was FREAKING OUT idk if i wanna post the full thing on here because ya know privacy but he was so sweet and he had sent me this paragraph saying that the gift was “crazy generous” and he was like r u sure u don’t want to keep it for urself??? and then he said “No one has ever given me something so generous before so I’m like, panicking lol” and then he apologized for if he seemed tired because his stomach was acting up, which he said hes “a wuss about”

so i literally pulled over to respond to this boy’s goddamn dm and i was like no u keep it i got it for u things like that and he responded saying wow thank u and then he told me that he wanted to post about it everywhere but he didn’t want people to think they should spend a bunch of money on him to buy a shoutout and then like five minutes later he complimented my art and the stones i got him as well and i just responded like omg no i never expected u to post about them and even if u do u don’t have to say it was a gift or anything

so that was the first night and im still so… shook

but the third time i met him got even better,,, (this was this past tuesday)

so i went to go see wicked in tampa and earlier andy had tweeted me saying that yes he was gonna be on and he was gonna stagedoor that night so i was hype

so after the show i went down to stagedoor and there were literally only two other guys there. and the stagedoor is kinda like,,, its a clear glass door and you can see into this lobby area from outside and i saw andy in the lobby area and he was talking to like a security guard or smth and i was like ohshitohshitohshit because i knew he was about to come out and i think its natural to get nervous when things like this happen

so he finally walked out and he went up to the two guys standing a little bit away from me and he goes “hey man.” and they talked for approximately 2 seconds and then andy looked at me and he just…….. okay andy has this face he does where he get really excited and he opens his mouth and his eyes get really big its like a mix between the :o and the :D face and HE LOOKED AT ME AND DID THAT

so the next thing i know, andy mientus is walking towards me with his arms open and he’s hugging me and im hugging him and my face is in his jacket and hes like “HI!!! how are you??!” and im like “IM SO GOOD”

and he says “so u finally saw act one” and i was like “i did” and he was like “howd you like it?” and i was like IT WAS SO GOOD and i told him that hes actually a pretty good dancer and his eyes get all big and he puts his hand over his heart and he goes “REALLY?” and i was like ya!! and he told me “oh my god thank u so much i had to work so hard to make it look that way” it was the purest thing

and idk how it came up but i told him that i was coming back to see the show on friday (which was like,, two days ago now oh my god) and he goes “friday? ur seeing it on friday?” and i was like “yea friday night”  and he goes “…….would youuuuu wanna go on a tour backstage with me that night?? because we do this thing with broadwaycares where the actors give people who donate a certain amount tours backstage and if u wanna just tag along we can just hang out”

and at this point my brain is going a mile a minute and i was like “omg yeah sure” and i probably said “that’s awesome” and “that’s so nice” at least eight times each

and he was like “okay great! u can just walk in through the stagedoor that night and tell those guys in there that ur with me and they should get it all figured out” and i was like…….. this is my life now

so that was about it for my third time but THIS FRIDAY was my most recent encounter with mr. mientus and whew what a story

on my way to the show, andy dmed me again on twitter and he was like “whats ur name for the list tonight?” and i told him while freaking out because not only did he remember that i was coming but he remembered my twitter and then he was like okay cool i don’t think you’ll need ur ID or anything and then he sent me another message that said “Enjoy the show and see you after!”

so after the show, i was nervous as hell and he dmed me right after he had gotten offstage apparently and it just said “Come through the stage door” like yes andy i know but i didn’t actually see the dm until i was going home lol

so i walked to the stagedoor and i saw andy in the back of the lobby area just chillin and im just now realizing that he was there to pick me up aw and so i walked in and the security guard at the desk next to me started FREAKING OUT he was like “WHO ARE YOU YOURE NOT ALLOWED IN HERE” and andy started walking over and he was like “oh no shes with me” and i kinda just gestured towards him and the guard let us go lol

so we walked back to where andy had been standing which was near some doors and he goes “hey” and i was like “hey!” and then he opened his arms again and i thought to myself “i love my life” before hugging him and then he called out to the security guard that had just yelled at me and he was like “hey can we get buzzed in” (referring to them opening the doors for us to let us go backstage) and he said to me “thanks for coming!” and i was like “thanks for having me” and apparently the security guard had not heard him earlier so andy waves his arm over towards the desk and shouts “HEY CAN WE GET BUZZED IN” but then someone opened the door from the inside so he was like “oh! nevermind lets go on a touuuuur follow me”

then we went through the doors and he was like “so this is backstage” and hes like walking in front of me and HE WALKS SO FAST I WAS TRYNA KEEP UP and usually im the fast walker but no and then he showed me the hair and makeup department since the door was open and then we went through some double doors (he held the door open for me what a gentleman) and suddenly i was on stage right backstage of wicked

so the other people who were supposed to be going on the tour had to be gathered up and guided backstage and everything so me and andy had time to talk for like literally ten minutes and we talked about where hes currently living and the election (i talked about politics with andy mientus rt ur goals) and the show and all of the huge props around us and things like that we went over a variety of topics

then all of the people who were going on the tour arrived and there were probably like 8 of them and they all just walked in on me and andy talking and i wasn’t even mad that they interrupted us i was like…… i feel like i shouldn’t be here but it was all good

so i wont go through the whole tour but just know that andy is THE CUTEST TOUR GUIDE most of the people on the tour had literally no clue about anything in theatre (andy had explained to me that this would probably happen) so he explained stuff really well and he knows so much about wicked and the show and im never gonna watch it the same way again

so once the tour was over (it was probably like twenty minutes long) he was like “well i think that’s it! thank u guys so much for coming and donating and seeing the show i hope u liked my tour” and then he was like “now im gonna walk u guys out to stagedoor… maybe you’ll get to sign some autographs for people” and everyone laughed but i was just like ur stupid

and then he led us out but on the way he showed us the wardrobe department because it was open and the sign in sheet and stuff so that was cool and then we got to the door to enter the lobby area so he was saying bye to all of us and holding the door open to let us all out and when i was going out he looked at me and went “hey” and i was like “hey” and he went in for a big hug it was the best moment of my life and singlehandedly saved my 2017 and he was like “i’ll see ya” and i was like “oh im coming back im seeing the show again next weekend” and he was like “oh okay great!!! i’ll see u then!” hes the sweetest lil angel and then i left so yeah that’s been my life as of late

tldr; ive hugged andy mientus three separate times and he knows who i am and hes the most kind person you will ever meet and i can’t wait to see him again

[theday]

Those feelings are perfectly valid. It doesn't make you petty just because you still feel this way while some have moved on; people feel and deal with things differently. I don't know how you feel about these feelings of yours, but try not to beat yourself about it. Hopefully he'll apologize if he gets the chance. If he doesn't, I hope these feelings leave eventually.

For the Jae situation (if you’re talking about the song) I think it’s unfortunate that the song he recommended has such problematic lyrics. My stomach was twisting the whole time I was reading them and to know that he thought it was appropriate to recommend it didn’t make that it any better. I try my best not to blindly love bands or idols but a part of me thought that he was going to apologize. It’s been almost a week but I don’t think I’ve seen anything yet. This has me feeling torn at this (1)

point. This might be biased but I suggest having a bit of faith in him perhaps? Based on his personality (from what we can see anyway) I feel like he wouldn’t leave a topic like this untouched on purpose, especially if he knew that my days were upset about it. I understand that it can be unsettling to have one of your favorite people do something that rubs you the wrong way without any closure to disappate those negative feelings. Even if you do continue to feel badly towards him, know that (2)

hi anon!! how are you i didnt really expect anyone to talk about it bc i have v few day6 mutuals but thank you for bringing it up!!! i have talked about this before in an ask i answered on my main blog (thought it doesnt relate to the topic at all so ill just copy and paste what i said) under cut bc this will get long!

as of november 6:

so something (refer to the song he said suits myday) happened with jae recently and ive seen fans trying to defend him by @ing him and saying that they love him which is fine - great even! but what i dont approve is how everyone’s basically forgotten about the whole matter because they had concerts so instead of @-ing him and asking him to explain himself, they tell him what a great concert it was which is also great bc their concerts are honestly amazing. basically my pet peeve is when ppl dismiss the problematic action of some people just bc they like them.

another thing is that there were some fans who started guilting others for wanting to drop day6 completely because of what jae did and in my opinion i think it is totally cool to want to drop a group if they did smth bad like??? its ur life???? u can choose who you want to like. what is not cool is pulling out all the good things the person has ever done in their entire life and try to remind others about the positive sides of the person. yes. they’re an encouraging person, etc. but that does not cancel out the bad things they’ve done until they explain/apologise. what is infuriating is just the manner some people took it?? they literally went ahead and tweeted shit like “would your parents drop you if you did smth wrong?” and “you’re seriously gonna drop someone whos been nothing been nice because of one incident?” yes. people will and you dont have any fucking right to stop them? so dont go pulling out receipts.

another thing. its also okay to want to stan the whole group even if someone has done smth problematic. like? to me youre cool if youre able to see and acknowledge the bad shit someone has done and still stand by their side while educating them at the same time its nice to have faith in your idols. however, i wont say much when your idols dont respond and/or respond in a way that shows absolutely no remorse. its cool if you want to support them too, despite that.

tldr; dont fucking excuse someone’s behaviour/action just because youre so far up their fucking ass. dont pull out shit from before either, be it good or bad. and lastly, its okay to want to drop/continue supporting them, its your life.

i just wanted to talk about this tbh,, it was nice to see a few mydays trying to urge jae to explain the whole situation but seeing as he still hasnt and couldve it really irks me :-/

okay update its been a day and i havent really thought about this but im kinda conflicted now bc jae still hasnt talked about the song and im probably just making a big deal out of smth that will never happen again but it really doesnt sit right with me knowing that jae recommended that song to his fans and said it suited mydays?? bc looking at the lyrics… i SURE hope not… idk i have neither forgiven or forgotten but he’s okay now.? i cant stay mad at someone for that long anyway ill never forgive him 4 it though lmao petty ppl only

 jae’s still an amazing person to me with all the encouraging words he says to mydays but this one incident is just soOOOOO hrm 

okay so that ^ was like 4 days ago and it was answering a question on pet peeves so it didnt really have to do much with jae at all sorry for making u read that the second last paragraph is probably the most relevant whoops anyway

ive already said this but thank you so much for coming to my ask to talk (? though its mostly to reassure) about this with me because on twitter where i follow more mydays, i barely saw anyone talking about it and as i mentioned above it really bothered me :-/ everyone has different ways of responding to it so ill let that slide because there may be people who still want to enjoy day6′s music without having to deal with anythng “problematic” idk i cant speak for those fans who keep quiet about it but this isnt about other mydays its about jae and 

the fact that he’s been active on twitter since the release of the november magazine but has yet to speak about it also bothers me and its not smth i can just brush aside because like you said the lyrics are fucking terrible and has upset at least 2 people??? (which is completely understandable, the lyrics are trash along with the artist but i doubt jae knows about the shit the artist has done) from what i managed to catch on twitter idk about others and i posted a message on fans here because he has said that they do check fans so im hoping he ends up seeing it soon assuming he doesnt know about how the song distresses some mydays (i think most people have stopped @ing him about it at this point) and ill try to keep tweeting him??

i check the jae_day6 tweets and there are barely any tweets about the whole thing which is sad :-( so im just giving him as you said, the benefit of doubt and i believe that once jae finds out he’ll speak about it because jae is still the kind, encouraging person to mydays and i dont want something like this to change my opinion of him although it did eventually since i cant look jae (and pictures of him) the same way :-/ it probably has to do with the fact that i get influenced really easily by what others think?? and this time bc of what i think i ended up reacting negatively/not at all to jae things and i mean it sucks??? but i know that its okay to feel the way i do since we havent gotten any sort of explanation whatsoever 

anon i hope youre doing much better and even if you harbour any negative feelings towards jae too i want you to know that it’s really alright to feel that way like you said!!!! it makes me a feel a bit better that i have done my part to try and get jae to notice the mistake he’s made and i just hope he’ll talk about it eventually because he has so many opportunities to apologize/discuss the matter (vlive, twitter, fans) theres also music access which i will try and tune in to next monday so i can leave a comment (id feel bad for bernard though since hes the main dj)

once again thank you so much for being kind enough to reassure me and im glad it gave you a chance to talk about this too because something like this isnt something i can forget easily and i hope you have a good day because youre really great!!!!! i love you and its amazing that you believe in jae idk i think youre amazing!!!!