#i think i just answered my own question lmao.. i'm just nervous i guess? i've never done anything like this

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Visibly sweating. do I use my personal account to receive comm money or should I make a business one

Artists, what's a good way to receive payment for your work aside from pa.y.pal?

[moonchildreads]

and now that we're on it, i was actually thinking about dot and eddie last night. i remembered the first time they meet thanks to hellfire and dot proves eddie's expectations wrong by showing that she's not just a cute and pretty face, but she knows her dnd shit.

now i know that i'm bringing you a bit of an au here but i was wondering how do you think things would have progressed between them if dot hadn't had a background that made her know this stuff? like, everything is the same but james and his friends met for different reasons so she doesn't know much of dnd? how would she and eddie meet and fall in love? or if she'd gone to hellfire without knowing much bc dustin was very nice when he asked her to join their club? how would their story go without that? bc my original theory was "no, dnd is an intrinsic part of their relationship, it's an unskippable part of their story together" but then i entertained the thought and said "ok but what if???"

okay babes buckle up i'm off work now and this is gonna be a wild ride.

full transparency here, i hadn't thought about it before but now that you bring this question to me i realise that i've always known the answer so thank you for that insight into my own story? lmao i love you. anyways, short answer: if dustin hadn't invited dottie to hellfire, they wouldn't have interacted with each other at all. end of story. dot has no desire to buy weed from eddie, and eddie isn't exactly in the business of talking to random girls (he's bitchless, let's be real here). the long answer is, however, much more intriguing which i'm guessing is what you're here for so i'm gonna spill my guts here for you under the cut about what happens if dustin invites her but she doesn't know dnd:

if dustin invites dot and she goes without knowing what dnd is, here's where it gets interesting because you mention that dnd is intrinsic to their relationship but it actually isn't. it's not dnd what brings them together, it's dottie's eagerness.

[...] “Do you want to watch today, see how everything works?” “If you think that’s the best, sure,” she said, and he noticed she looked a little deflated. “Or not. Trial by fire,” he smiled. [...]

in that bit from chapter 3, eddie doesn't know she knows her shit yet. all he knows is that a pretty girl is in front of him, treating him nicely and wanting to learn about something he loves. he doesn't know her, she's a new student he hasn't really paid too much attention to, but he sees that she's nervous and notices that she doesn't seem to have an ulterior motive: she walked in, asked for dustin and didn't realise he was the dungeon master until she saw his supplies on the table. so she's not here for him, she's here for the game. she wants to learn. now, eddie could go about it two different ways: 1) he gatekeeps like he tried to do with erica until she knocked him down a few pegs, or 2) he acts calm and tries to make her feel at ease like he did with chrissy in the woods. i think in this case, knowing what happened after he was friendly with chrissy, he'd go the same route because not only does he explicitly think dottie's enthusiasm is adorable, he's also been proven wrong twice by women he's recently met (erica and chrissy).

and here is where it gets interesting, because now we have dottie recognising that he knows his shit and wanting to learn from him, and we have eddie getting something he normally doesn't, which is someone who doesn't judge. someone who wants to get to know the ins and outs of the very thing that he loves, who doesn't care who he is, or who anyone in hellfire is, she just wants to learn. and we see this time and time again throughout small town, because dottie doesn't know anything about metal music, but she still accepts donny's mixtape and listens to it during the weekend so she can talk to him about it on monday. we see dottie being interested in gareth's background as a jazz drummer, she switches seats to sit with all of them during shared classes after knowing them for one single day. eagerness is all dottie knows, because she's used to molding herself to what everyone else wants her to be in order to have friends. so she asks questions, she learns about things because if she shows interest, then maybe others will show interest in her too. it hasn't worked for her so far, but she's never met anyone like the hellfire boys before.

see, this story doesn't work if both sides aren't equally eager. they are all desperate to fit in somewhere, and the boys have found that they fit into hellfire and with each other. so dottie coming along and not only asking to be let in, but also putting in the work to get to know them feels so special to all of them. here comes this unasumming girl that was deemed so fucking uninteresting that hawkins high forgot she existed two weeks after she transferred and she's actually so goddamn awesome! she comes from the big city! she doesn't care if they are a bit of a weirdo bunch, she's not poisoned by the hawkins rumor mill, and quite frankly, she's a freak herself! she has her own opinions and will voice them, she enjoys high fantasy, loves music, and is kind of a nerd! she's just so desperate for love and the only way she knows how to ask for it, is to throw it to everyone who so much as looks at her, and the boys in hellfire reciprocate so easily because this never happens to them! no one treats them like they are normal but she does! so the way eddie falls in love with her is the same way all of hellfire falls in love with her: she loved them first and kept loving them so hard they had no reason to doubt her.

yeah, she doesn't know how to play dnd. it might be a little bit annoying for a table of experienced players, but eddie takes the outcasts in and dottie has spent the last two months eating lunch alone with her headphones on. they are all the same kind of broken people, searching for someone to look at them and tell them "i see you, because i am you, and i get you". so for eddie to not fall in love with her, no one in hellfire should love her, and that was never going to happen because she showed up with snacks to a club she knew nothing about because a fifteen year old told her it was cool. eddie never stood a chance.

[masonscig]

AAAAH can I just say I am so soft that you remembered me and zuri🥺

I completely get why Sofia would feel pressured to say yes, it's a loaded question. Especially with her feelings about her mortality (which I'd love to hear about btw if you're down to share👀👀).

Zuri ends up saying that she's curious when she's asked about the blood drinking. She's always been a big supernatural fangirl so her answer would usually be a yes lol, but she's worried that she's only valuable to people now (ub, the chamber, rebecca - especially rebecca) because of her blood. After the brief conversation with her LI (i still have her romancing everyone💀) about her blood and them being tempted by it, she isn't keen on the possibility of having those thoughts confirmed.

Also, re: the chamber. How did Sofia feel about them before and after meeting them? And how does she feel about not being a detective anymore?

Which just sooo...uuuuaaah. I feel like it's WAY too soon for that, I don't don't have words to express how bummed I was when I read that. Especially since the detective can't say no. They've only had that title for a couple of months. I get that they're so involved that it makes sense for them to eventually be a full on agent, but in the 3rd book of a 7 book series? With the detective barely getting a chance to think about it?🧍🏽‍♀️

YES OF COURSE !!!! <333 oh my gosh there are so many wayhaven oc's that just float around in my brain – even if i'm not active, i'll think about them sometimes and be like "hmm i wonder if (insert mutual) is working on something (insert oc) related right now :)" i love zuri !!!!!!!

ok this is probably gonna be long so i'm preemptively putting the rest under the cut

AH !!!! i love mortality talk hehe okay so i've written this in fic form before more fleshed out than this but here's a tl;dr version <3 so sofía's whole thing is that she struggles letting go of who she thought she was going to be and reconciling with what her life is – she's always wondering what her life could've been if she'd done a, b, or c. and with mason, it's the first time she's really able to let go, because there aren't any expectations – except for turning. sofía knows if she chose to turn, it wouldn't be her choice. she'd be turning for mason. and a huge part of her character is the fact that she's taking her own agency back by not turning – truthfully, i still don't know if she ever will! if she made the decision it'd be in old age (okay time to laugh about mis/hka's whole 'de-aging' thing, because she's afraid of being 40 years old i guess) TY FOR ASKING I LOVE TALKING AB THIS STUFF

also ZURI !!!!!! i just want to hug her and tell her she's worth more than her blood UGH also all of ub needs to give her a smooch and tell her everything is okay </3 she's precious 2 me !!!!!! i really hope that by the time that we get blood drinking in canon, she's more comfortable with it <333 she deserves a lil bitey bite KFMKDKMDF

OOF THE CHAMBER.......... so many thoughts. so so so many. none of them good honestly LMAO so i think sofía was nervous/scared to meet them at first, because although she's able to woo over most people with her trademark friendly/genuine approach – the whole thing just made her very uneasy. afterwards, she felt even worse – a lot of her discomfort comes from her feeling like overall she has a lack of agency in any situation relating to her job, and meeting an even more authoritative, what-we-say-always-goes-no-matter-what group that's expecting her to kneel at their feet and blindly serve them, is fucking with her mind. she was accepting of the existence of supernaturals in book 1, but truthfully, the more she learns, the more i think internally she's starting to freak out.

also! i think that she's deeply upset about not being a detective – not because she ever wanted to be a cop in the first place, but because for years, she's held onto the idea that this year is the year she'll go to med school. "i can leave this job at anytime. this is just temporary." but the more that she gets sucked into the supernatural world, the more she's having to divorce herself from the version of herself that she's always wanted to be. (she wants to be a person who helps people, even though she already is, but she never thinks what she's doing is enough)

SORRY FOR THE DUMP ABOVE DKMFMKDFMKD i just love talking about her so much ugh im sorry

ALSO YES TO THE LAST PARAGRAPH !!! dude. it's SOOOOO soon. and i know from the stuff mis/hka has said, i highly doubt that this is a setup for something later – like even the idea that mc joins the agency and is immediately terrible at the position for narrative purposes – or even the idea of mc being forced to join for surveillance purposes – i just don't trust her with those types of complexities

[tsuki-sennin]

I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!

Uh... I have no real justification or excuse as to why I've been slacking on these, but uh

Well, I just didn't feel like doin' it. Whoops. I spent practically every waking moment of the past couple weeks replaying Pokémon Rejuvenation, so... Y'know, you get it right?

Anyways Geats! He's Geod, I think. Not pronounced "Jod". Back into it I go. Twofer special~!

Spoilers, I guess...

-DGP is out the door.

-Now everybody knows.

-Hello, Sis. You're still here~!

-Well, I made my bed last episode, I might as well lay in it. Zagizuki reporting for duty, Geats-P.

-The OP has changed once again. Just our main four now.

-Sara-san~!

-...there's something really funny to me about Keiwa considering the idea he just lost his Driver in the couch cushions.

-Oh hai, Buffa~!

-...I wonder if Buffa's construction company had Keiwa's resume in their system?

-Oh, Ace gave it back to everybody, huh?

-That means we might be seeing Sumida and Morio soon.

-...also in case you were wondering, yes I have seen the trailer with Grandpa Tanba and Sae-neesan, I'm not totally out of the loop!

-Can't repair ID Cores, huh?

-He hungy

-Oh my god, he's putting all that away.

-Tsumuri-neesan.

-Hah

-I have to wonder just how much older Tsumuri is than A. ...y'know chronologically, I know there's a four year difference between Kan-san and Aoshima-san.

-Oh, we ballin'

-...I get really nervous when I see people skateboard without helmets.

-Oh hello, copper.

-Oh, Jyama Time!

-They didn't even bother cleaning up the Jyamato.

-That is profoundly neglectful.

-Geats can board, huh?

-Boost! Mk. IX!

-OH HE SMALL

-Ace~!

-Buffa and Keiwa appear!

-Oh okay, guess we're talking about this with these skater dudes out in the open.

-"Don't worry, I'm in charge now."

-No reward other than satisfaction.

-Neon's finally striking out on her own properly this time!

-"It's fiiiiiine, right?"

-I can respect that.

-Furnitureless behavior.

-Girls day out!

-Wiiiin, hello!

-Even God is broke in this economy.

-The pearly gates are made of tapioca.

-DGP Geats Style.

-I see Keiwa still harbors a measure of resentment for Mama Mitsume.

-Jyama Garden!

-Is that sap? ...please tell me that's sap.

-An interloper!

-Those're man tracks.

-Can't put Kamen Rider on your resume.

-...come to think of it, I wonder if you could say you were officially employed as a Rider? Like, say, as a user of the Birth System or one of BOARD's agents. You definitely would be able to if you were employed to the government like SAUL or AIMS, but would there be some kind of necessary legal disclosure you'd put out if you were like... a Kurokage Trooper or something like that?

-...I love asking all the wrong questions, this is why I do these <3

-It's a little guy! Just a little guy!

-Ohhhhhh!

-Hey there, Kousei! You motherfucker~! Now everybody gets to know!

-"Burn your paper trail and head to Tijuana by Saturday morning."

-Get 'im!

-Nice to see she's lost none of her experience.

-Real cute, fox man.

-Oh hai Kekera!

-A Visa.

-Whoa, that was a nice kick.

-That almost looked totally real there, I'm impressed.

-Ah yep, Beroba too. I knew that already.

-"boy thinks he's done lmao"

-DAICHI

-Jyama Shin!

-Parasite Game!

-Must be Cordyceps.

-Oh, Samas! You're here too!

-His creation with ours.

-Oh

-Hi there.

-I uh... think I recognize you.

-Ryuji Sato (not to be confused with Ryuga Sato), you played Sasuke in the Naruto stage show.

-Oh, you were Teruhiko in Shun's first limelight episode in Fourze!

-Hey man, congrats, that's another previous supporting role promoted to major character status!

-Oh, that's the end of the episode. I see.

-Alright, Episode 40, let's go!

-Oh shoot, insert!

-Let's go!

-That's definitely Yuka Terasaki singing.

-A very kind motherly gesture.

-Dejyammed.

-The boys are back in town.

-Good on you Keiwa, you get it.

-Yippee! Riders once again!

-Hello, Mrs. Kurama. Er uh... I suppose you might be in the market for a new sugar baby soon.

-Oh Neon...

-You've got a lot to answer for, Irumi. You, and the old man.

-And off Neon goes.

-Sara-neesan.

-Goddamn, she's supportive.

-J

-Jitto.

-Cheeto.

-If there's one thing I can say about Ryuji-san, he's certainly got range.

-This guy ain't Sasuke at all.

-Oh, they get Premium.

-That's one free century of DezaPlus and 10% off their next subscription renewal.

-Oh, what's that I see on the bottom? Tycoon and Buffa logos? Yep, those're definitely powerups we're getting at some point.

-Sōsei no Megami... Tsu!

-Oh, I get it... Tsumuri.

-Grandpa is out. Nerd is in.

-OH NO MAN DON'T EAT IT THOSE'RE YOUR BABIES

-Even Beroba's more grossed out than anything.

-Oh man I wish jobhunting was that easy.

-"Sakurai NOOOOO! ...actually, hang on, yeeeeees!"

-OHHHHHHHH DAICHI

-...that's not Daichi, is it.

-I really love the ambience of this scene here.

-He may not be infected by the Jyamato, but desperation is its own ever evolving parasite.

-We're going to beat up this nerd.

-"You guys are still the worst, I see."

-Oooooh!

-Oh.

-"That's my boss's sister you're objectifying there. And I don't take kindly to that sort of thing."

-"Good luck with that, Punkjack."

-Buffa gets down to business.

-Oh he no longer has his cape. ...truth be told, I don't think I actually liked it that much.

-Traded in his Riderbane for a lawnmower.

-...y'know, chainsaws were invented by the Scottish for childbirth but now they're used all over the world for gardening.

-Oh, that was a good transition.

-"...TYCOON NO-"

-Oh

-He is crispy looking.

-...he kinda looks like a Kabutops. Is he a trilobite Jyamato?

-Oh and of course Mega Ninetails and Green Linoone can't quite handle him.

-...sorry, I've got Pokémon on the brain.

-Damn, he's really kicking ass.

-Oh, there goes Bouffalant! ...incidentally, Sap Sipper would be quite a good ability to have right now. If you haven't used Bouffalant on a team before, I totally recommend it, it's got nice coverage, good defensive stats, some good abilities-

-Oh

-Oh fuck

-Sara Sakurai died at the hands of Kamen Rider Buffa.

-What was even the point of killing her, Daichi?

-"I did it. It was me."

-Well, to all of you who wanted to see Keiwa lose it-

-There we go.

-Tsumuri-san :(

-Help us, God.

-OHHHHHH THAT'S A COOL SUIT

-Shogun, eh? Oh and he's apparently got a whole-ass sword.

-Not a Real-Ass Goddamn Sword, but-

-Hoo. This is quite a lot I missed, huh?

[the-oc-lass]

Apparently tag games are all over

So I got tagged by @king-chaos-world I didn't know this was a thing on Tumblr, but it's a nice surprise! So, without further ado, I guess I'll answer some questions.

Favorite Color

Blue! I particularly like sky blue and very dark blue (like a navy blue)

2. Currently Reading

Um, not really anything? When I do read, it's usually short fanfics (I haven't read one that exceeded 16,000 words in a while) for various fandoms. Pretty much whatever fandom has caught my interest recently. I have three non-educational books in my dorm, though. They're sitting on my bookshelf. I can see them from here. Couldn't tell you what the titles are though lmao

3. Last Movie

I literally just finished my third rewatch of Nimona under an hour ago! This movie is honestly a bit of a comfort movie for me, and I watch it every Friday when I stay at the dorms. I like to squeal about goldenheart and get protective over my child Nimona.

4. Last Song

Does the deep sleep music I'm currently listening to count? In all seriousness, though, the last song I listened to was Try by P!nk. I had to listen to one song that let me think of my Nimona OC before I went back to working on fanfics.

5. Last Series

Last series I finished was Ahsoka, but the last series that I watched in general was Loki! I watched the first episode of season 2 last night, I'm enjoying my timeless husbands, thank you very much

6. Currently playing

I haven't played any video games recently, but I just got my dad's old PS5 brought to my dorm a few weeks ago (haven't had time to play). I'd like to play something this weekend, maybe some good old Minecraft, or Lara Croft. Or I could finally play the Long Dark, which I've wanted to play for years.

7. Currently Working on

The next chapter for my Clone Wars oc fic. There are four chapters already posted if you want to check it out. Allow me to offer you the link:

I, uh, have no idea who to tag. I don't really know many tumblr people (I barely even interact with my mutuals it seems? Definitely didn't expect to get tagged in this game). Idk, someone leave me suggestions in case I get tagged again (which I really enjoyed, actually. I like talking to people, but don't get the chance to irl because I get really nervous and anxious at the thought of talking to people)

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

yknow it's funny how people perceive you and how you (or personality tests lmao) perceive yourself/you. like last week at my cadetship grad, the manager of it said in her blurb about me, that I was "naturally shy and quiet, but she came out of her shell, eventually"... some of the people in the group around this time last year found out that if you load me up on wine and shots, that im super loud, kinda obnoxious, and wild... and kept trying to drag me back out on town in sydney.... and to also say "im the sexiest bitch here!!!!" even to their families lmao... someone in the course even called me "charismatic" in feedback, and it stayed with me for the rest of the program.

from years 7-10 (early to mid high school in 2008-2011), I was known for being all edgy, wild "not giving a fuck what people think about you" and "marching to your own drum", weird, loud, funny..... you get the picture.... at the catholic school I was at.

back then, i was NEVER deemed as quiet or "shy" or "introverted" or "keeps to herself" etc etc.... actually, by year 10, when lame buzzfeed and other personality quiz sites started to spit out that I was introverted and gave me other readings that weren't extroverted (eg. I remember doing one about "what aussie animal are you???" and it gave me koala (extremely introverted, shy, and sleepy) instead of kookaburra or cockatoo (which were both extreme examples of extroversion))..... I got SO FUCKING ANGRY that those quizzes were basically calling me a killjoy and boring, bc I was a koala who was the above listed characteristics. like hell, my drama class kept telling me to pursue comedy or do stand up (im not that funny tbh, in hindsight) bc I was just so talkative, loud and such a show off jackass that.... yeah, I might as well be a stand-up comic, throw it at me.

but then, when I moved schools in 2012 to public school, I played the precocious, diligent, modest/placid (except for my group), and timid former catholic school girl they thought I was (but really wasn't- we all know how) so well for my teachers.... that I basically got asked frequently by my bio teacher before I went to tafe every second thursday, "I really can't see how you EVER excelled in drama, when you're so flighty and nervous???? what were your marks like??? you never talk in this class or get up and address the school, like a drama kid would..... what do you mean you were nearly a straight A student in drama??? what on earth??? again, you're so introverted and thoughtful here at *insert the schools name here* that you possibly couldn't excel in that subject????"

like mr garrel, pls consider that I HATE biology and resent this line of questioning very much. also, NEVER say any of that to my drama teacher, I'm sure he'd fight you at this point. moreover, consider that drama isn't in the subject selection for my year. plus, y'all need funding for new drama room equipment, so that's why I'm quiet. and finally, I've learnt that being the loud show-off, weird, "you march to your own drum" girl for the ENTIRE year group for the first 4 years of high school, was much too tiring.... so now I just limit it to my friend group only.

now, back in the present day.... yesterday, I did a chatbot interview for kmart. where after I answered the 5 questions of it, it emailed me the "personality insights" from my answers. one of the insights basically said that, "you have no problem being the centre of attention, and you generally gravitate towards people who have the same energy as you. but have you ever considered piping the fuck down??? bc this may scare people, bc you seem not to let them voice their opinions. learn to sit and listen to others more often and dim your natural Loud Personality™️. "

like, I guess it's "I contain multitudes" and everything else, where you turn on different parts of your personality for different situations. like at work last year, I very much wanted to be left alone to do my fucking assessments.... and eventually, wanted to get out into the field to do home visits (inspections) and shit for my assessments.... but the place I worked at deemed me "too shy" for fieldwork, and just stuck me on back office phones for the entire rest of my cadetship.

but throw me into the cadetship group, and everyone always made me the leader of group projects or activities with powerpoints (when quite a few of them already knew how to use powerpoint, but they didn't want to do it.... so they just passed it onto me and called me the "powerpoint whiz")... and obvs the one night where a few of them got me wasted and met Loud Ilona™️ , that I started this post with.

and I know work is NOT the place to be my super extroverted performer self, so I'll get quiet and mousy in the back... and most esp in the trainee/cadet position I was in.... bc that's how I learn most of the time. by being quiet and thoughtful and methodical (while also being impulsive).... which that place (and also the kmart test picked this up through "you're easily distracted and that ruins productivity. pls consider staying on task and caring about productivity levels") really didn't want me to be.

anyway, yeah. it's something I'll always be wary about, how my personality presents itself to different people.... and also what mood I'm in when I do personality tests or job interviews. also the