#i think i just answered my own question lmao.. i'm just nervous i guess? i've never done anything like this
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Visibly sweating. do I use my personal account to receive comm money or should I make a business one
Artists, what's a good way to receive payment for your work aside from pa.y.pal?
#I feel like the personal one should be fine bc i've done it before and don't expect requests to pour in or anything#i think i just answered my own question lmao.. i'm just nervous i guess? i've never done anything like this#kofi has a gallery option and it seems like a portfolio.. i post all my stuff here and cross post the finalized stuff to insta#kofi is like. that's where the really good stuff's gotta go bc that's what will actually advertise the comms#ghghhhh gotta figure out what i can even post bc i do so much fanart.. which is probably fine but i always err on the side of caution#bc i am mentally unwell hfdslgj okay okay did some looking and it seems fine to post lmao#will uh. add some of that to the portfolio looking page and take it from there i suppose#oh i'm nervous it's SUCH an official looking thing.. i wanted to have my actual shop with stickers n stuff up before the end of the month#but this is also business and nervewracking so i'll definitely take this as well#i'd just want some extra income to pay down my debt bc of how badly my job cut my hours + how much i uh. might start looking#for a new job. i like my coworkers! I like our repeat customers for the most part! i cannot do the jobs of 3 ppl simultaneously#unless i'm being paid 3x as much i just. i can't do it and it makes me start crying at work to try.. thinking it all over#depends on who's in charge for the day as well. i am digressing anyways i am just. rambling! i'm excited and nervous!#comms open long term and with a professional flair to them is. so much more than i anticipated to do but i think it would be a good step#for me to take. emphasize the value of my work bc i know i struggle with it et cetera and so forth#anyways. will keep setting things up and changing up my icon and. oh wait. isn't there a shop option on kofi.#oh yes. i think we are going to be making it work#this could be very good.. I am looking at the possibilities. will keep talking about this bc i'm excited about it lmao#oh my most recent polished work is. orange slices gabe. can i have a first portfolio piece that isn't him jdsklgjhl#yeah he's repping me here i know i know but. what if i drew lovebug jfkglhk#shai speaks
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and now that we're on it, i was actually thinking about dot and eddie last night. i remembered the first time they meet thanks to hellfire and dot proves eddie's expectations wrong by showing that she's not just a cute and pretty face, but she knows her dnd shit.
now i know that i'm bringing you a bit of an au here but i was wondering how do you think things would have progressed between them if dot hadn't had a background that made her know this stuff? like, everything is the same but james and his friends met for different reasons so she doesn't know much of dnd? how would she and eddie meet and fall in love? or if she'd gone to hellfire without knowing much bc dustin was very nice when he asked her to join their club? how would their story go without that? bc my original theory was "no, dnd is an intrinsic part of their relationship, it's an unskippable part of their story together" but then i entertained the thought and said "ok but what if???"
okay babes buckle up i'm off work now and this is gonna be a wild ride.
full transparency here, i hadn't thought about it before but now that you bring this question to me i realise that i've always known the answer so thank you for that insight into my own story? lmao i love you. anyways, short answer: if dustin hadn't invited dottie to hellfire, they wouldn't have interacted with each other at all. end of story. dot has no desire to buy weed from eddie, and eddie isn't exactly in the business of talking to random girls (he's bitchless, let's be real here). the long answer is, however, much more intriguing which i'm guessing is what you're here for so i'm gonna spill my guts here for you under the cut about what happens if dustin invites her but she doesn't know dnd:
if dustin invites dot and she goes without knowing what dnd is, here's where it gets interesting because you mention that dnd is intrinsic to their relationship but it actually isn't. it's not dnd what brings them together, it's dottie's eagerness.
[...] “Do you want to watch today, see how everything works?” “If you think that’s the best, sure,” she said, and he noticed she looked a little deflated. “Or not. Trial by fire,” he smiled. [...]
in that bit from chapter 3, eddie doesn't know she knows her shit yet. all he knows is that a pretty girl is in front of him, treating him nicely and wanting to learn about something he loves. he doesn't know her, she's a new student he hasn't really paid too much attention to, but he sees that she's nervous and notices that she doesn't seem to have an ulterior motive: she walked in, asked for dustin and didn't realise he was the dungeon master until she saw his supplies on the table. so she's not here for him, she's here for the game. she wants to learn. now, eddie could go about it two different ways: 1) he gatekeeps like he tried to do with erica until she knocked him down a few pegs, or 2) he acts calm and tries to make her feel at ease like he did with chrissy in the woods. i think in this case, knowing what happened after he was friendly with chrissy, he'd go the same route because not only does he explicitly think dottie's enthusiasm is adorable, he's also been proven wrong twice by women he's recently met (erica and chrissy).
and here is where it gets interesting, because now we have dottie recognising that he knows his shit and wanting to learn from him, and we have eddie getting something he normally doesn't, which is someone who doesn't judge. someone who wants to get to know the ins and outs of the very thing that he loves, who doesn't care who he is, or who anyone in hellfire is, she just wants to learn. and we see this time and time again throughout small town, because dottie doesn't know anything about metal music, but she still accepts donny's mixtape and listens to it during the weekend so she can talk to him about it on monday. we see dottie being interested in gareth's background as a jazz drummer, she switches seats to sit with all of them during shared classes after knowing them for one single day. eagerness is all dottie knows, because she's used to molding herself to what everyone else wants her to be in order to have friends. so she asks questions, she learns about things because if she shows interest, then maybe others will show interest in her too. it hasn't worked for her so far, but she's never met anyone like the hellfire boys before.
see, this story doesn't work if both sides aren't equally eager. they are all desperate to fit in somewhere, and the boys have found that they fit into hellfire and with each other. so dottie coming along and not only asking to be let in, but also putting in the work to get to know them feels so special to all of them. here comes this unasumming girl that was deemed so fucking uninteresting that hawkins high forgot she existed two weeks after she transferred and she's actually so goddamn awesome! she comes from the big city! she doesn't care if they are a bit of a weirdo bunch, she's not poisoned by the hawkins rumor mill, and quite frankly, she's a freak herself! she has her own opinions and will voice them, she enjoys high fantasy, loves music, and is kind of a nerd! she's just so desperate for love and the only way she knows how to ask for it, is to throw it to everyone who so much as looks at her, and the boys in hellfire reciprocate so easily because this never happens to them! no one treats them like they are normal but she does! so the way eddie falls in love with her is the same way all of hellfire falls in love with her: she loved them first and kept loving them so hard they had no reason to doubt her.
yeah, she doesn't know how to play dnd. it might be a little bit annoying for a table of experienced players, but eddie takes the outcasts in and dottie has spent the last two months eating lunch alone with her headphones on. they are all the same kind of broken people, searching for someone to look at them and tell them "i see you, because i am you, and i get you". so for eddie to not fall in love with her, no one in hellfire should love her, and that was never going to happen because she showed up with snacks to a club she knew nothing about because a fifteen year old told her it was cool. eddie never stood a chance.
#bunny answers#small town fic#candy my love#thank you for asking this - i loved answering it#been thinking about it all day as you know
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AAAAH can I just say I am so soft that you remembered me and zuri🥺
I completely get why Sofia would feel pressured to say yes, it's a loaded question. Especially with her feelings about her mortality (which I'd love to hear about btw if you're down to share👀👀).
Zuri ends up saying that she's curious when she's asked about the blood drinking. She's always been a big supernatural fangirl so her answer would usually be a yes lol, but she's worried that she's only valuable to people now (ub, the chamber, rebecca - especially rebecca) because of her blood. After the brief conversation with her LI (i still have her romancing everyone💀) about her blood and them being tempted by it, she isn't keen on the possibility of having those thoughts confirmed.
Also, re: the chamber. How did Sofia feel about them before and after meeting them? And how does she feel about not being a detective anymore?
Which just sooo...uuuuaaah. I feel like it's WAY too soon for that, I don't don't have words to express how bummed I was when I read that. Especially since the detective can't say no. They've only had that title for a couple of months. I get that they're so involved that it makes sense for them to eventually be a full on agent, but in the 3rd book of a 7 book series? With the detective barely getting a chance to think about it?🧍🏽♀️
YES OF COURSE !!!! <333 oh my gosh there are so many wayhaven oc's that just float around in my brain – even if i'm not active, i'll think about them sometimes and be like "hmm i wonder if (insert mutual) is working on something (insert oc) related right now :)" i love zuri !!!!!!!
ok this is probably gonna be long so i'm preemptively putting the rest under the cut
AH !!!! i love mortality talk hehe okay so i've written this in fic form before more fleshed out than this but here's a tl;dr version <3 so sofía's whole thing is that she struggles letting go of who she thought she was going to be and reconciling with what her life is – she's always wondering what her life could've been if she'd done a, b, or c. and with mason, it's the first time she's really able to let go, because there aren't any expectations – except for turning. sofía knows if she chose to turn, it wouldn't be her choice. she'd be turning for mason. and a huge part of her character is the fact that she's taking her own agency back by not turning – truthfully, i still don't know if she ever will! if she made the decision it'd be in old age (okay time to laugh about mis/hka's whole 'de-aging' thing, because she's afraid of being 40 years old i guess) TY FOR ASKING I LOVE TALKING AB THIS STUFF
also ZURI !!!!!! i just want to hug her and tell her she's worth more than her blood UGH also all of ub needs to give her a smooch and tell her everything is okay </3 she's precious 2 me !!!!!! i really hope that by the time that we get blood drinking in canon, she's more comfortable with it <333 she deserves a lil bitey bite KFMKDKMDF
OOF THE CHAMBER.......... so many thoughts. so so so many. none of them good honestly LMAO so i think sofía was nervous/scared to meet them at first, because although she's able to woo over most people with her trademark friendly/genuine approach – the whole thing just made her very uneasy. afterwards, she felt even worse – a lot of her discomfort comes from her feeling like overall she has a lack of agency in any situation relating to her job, and meeting an even more authoritative, what-we-say-always-goes-no-matter-what group that's expecting her to kneel at their feet and blindly serve them, is fucking with her mind. she was accepting of the existence of supernaturals in book 1, but truthfully, the more she learns, the more i think internally she's starting to freak out.
also! i think that she's deeply upset about not being a detective – not because she ever wanted to be a cop in the first place, but because for years, she's held onto the idea that this year is the year she'll go to med school. "i can leave this job at anytime. this is just temporary." but the more that she gets sucked into the supernatural world, the more she's having to divorce herself from the version of herself that she's always wanted to be. (she wants to be a person who helps people, even though she already is, but she never thinks what she's doing is enough)
SORRY FOR THE DUMP ABOVE DKMFMKDFMKD i just love talking about her so much ugh im sorry
ALSO YES TO THE LAST PARAGRAPH !!! dude. it's SOOOOO soon. and i know from the stuff mis/hka has said, i highly doubt that this is a setup for something later – like even the idea that mc joins the agency and is immediately terrible at the position for narrative purposes – or even the idea of mc being forced to join for surveillance purposes – i just don't trust her with those types of complexities
#TY FOR THE ASK <33333 MWAH this was so fun to read and respond to !!!#im sorry i took so long i wanted to wait until i was settled and ready to type out a thoughtful response#but also !!! i love zuri !!! she is so great !!! idk how you feel about me going through your oc tag but –#i think i will have to scroll through your zuri tag to get more content of our girl <333#i can't stop thinking about this book and all the discussions its posed but like. how i don't think any of these –#ideas are going to come back in the end ?? so much of this book throws shit out the window#maybe its a set up for book 4 but... i dont know if i trust that#asks#twc book 3#twc book 3 spoilers#twc spoilers#oc: sof��a olmos#<- i'm tagging my girl bc i talk about her quite a bit in this ask <333
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So, this is a genuine question - apologies if it is odd at all. If it makes you uncomfortable, feel free to ignore it.
I'm a baby witch interested in Hindu (otherwise known as vedic) astrology - I've been trying to find sources to read up on for it, and don't plan to really do anything with it other than read my own chart and maybe others for practice and out of interest. I've believed in astrology since I was a child, and upon hearing about vedic'd accuracy, took interest.
But I'm also aware it has heavy cultural ties, and feel nervous about stepping on toes as I am white and not actively practicing Hinduism - although through Vedic, it caught my interest and I've considered Hinduism as well, though I can't say for certain if I'll end up converting to the lifestyle or religion.
I'm unsure if Hinduism practices are closed - as I've read conflicting information - and even if it won't be used for profit, I wouldn't want to disrespect the culture or any Gods. I guess this is me seeking advice from someone who does worship them - if it's alright of course.
Either way, have a blessed day/night. And thank you if you answer this 💕🌺
I wish I could help you with any sources on Vedic astrology but since I'm not very educated on that stuff myself.
But one thing I can assure is that astrology isn't connected to religion and you can freely study it and even look up the astrology charts and all those stuff. You won't be disrespecting any culture or gods or practices. One advice is that try to get an in depth look at whatever knowledge you'll be getting while studying Vedic astrology. Cuz it's a practice that's been going on for thousands and thousands for years and is still active today.
And no. No branch of Hinduism is closed in any way! Hinduism is a fully open religion and practice. Open to all. Just be respectful and yeah mistakes do happen. I often do things wrong despite being a person who belongs to this culture. But you can always learn and correct yourself!
Otherwise I think @unmadana might be able to help you with Vedic astrology. Since I consider myself way too uneducated on the subject to speak about it lmao.
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I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!
Uh... I have no real justification or excuse as to why I've been slacking on these, but uh
Well, I just didn't feel like doin' it. Whoops. I spent practically every waking moment of the past couple weeks replaying Pokémon Rejuvenation, so... Y'know, you get it right?
Anyways Geats! He's Geod, I think. Not pronounced "Jod". Back into it I go. Twofer special~!
Spoilers, I guess...
-DGP is out the door.
-Now everybody knows.
-Hello, Sis. You're still here~!
-Well, I made my bed last episode, I might as well lay in it. Zagizuki reporting for duty, Geats-P.
-The OP has changed once again. Just our main four now.
-Sara-san~!
-...there's something really funny to me about Keiwa considering the idea he just lost his Driver in the couch cushions.
-Oh hai, Buffa~!
-...I wonder if Buffa's construction company had Keiwa's resume in their system?
-Oh, Ace gave it back to everybody, huh?
-That means we might be seeing Sumida and Morio soon.
-...also in case you were wondering, yes I have seen the trailer with Grandpa Tanba and Sae-neesan, I'm not totally out of the loop!
-Can't repair ID Cores, huh?
-He hungy
-Oh my god, he's putting all that away.
-Tsumuri-neesan.
-Hah
-I have to wonder just how much older Tsumuri is than A. ...y'know chronologically, I know there's a four year difference between Kan-san and Aoshima-san.
-Oh, we ballin'
-...I get really nervous when I see people skateboard without helmets.
-Oh hello, copper.
-Oh, Jyama Time!
-They didn't even bother cleaning up the Jyamato.
-That is profoundly neglectful.
-Geats can board, huh?
-Boost! Mk. IX!
-OH HE SMALL
-Ace~!
-Buffa and Keiwa appear!
-Oh okay, guess we're talking about this with these skater dudes out in the open.
-"Don't worry, I'm in charge now."
-No reward other than satisfaction.
-Neon's finally striking out on her own properly this time!
-"It's fiiiiiine, right?"
-I can respect that.
-Furnitureless behavior.
-Girls day out!
-Wiiiin, hello!
-Even God is broke in this economy.
-The pearly gates are made of tapioca.
-DGP Geats Style.
-I see Keiwa still harbors a measure of resentment for Mama Mitsume.
-Jyama Garden!
-Is that sap? ...please tell me that's sap.
-An interloper!
-Those're man tracks.
-Can't put Kamen Rider on your resume.
-...come to think of it, I wonder if you could say you were officially employed as a Rider? Like, say, as a user of the Birth System or one of BOARD's agents. You definitely would be able to if you were employed to the government like SAUL or AIMS, but would there be some kind of necessary legal disclosure you'd put out if you were like... a Kurokage Trooper or something like that?
-...I love asking all the wrong questions, this is why I do these <3
-It's a little guy! Just a little guy!
-Ohhhhhh!
-Hey there, Kousei! You motherfucker~! Now everybody gets to know!
-"Burn your paper trail and head to Tijuana by Saturday morning."
-Get 'im!
-Nice to see she's lost none of her experience.
-Real cute, fox man.
-Oh hai Kekera!
-A Visa.
-Whoa, that was a nice kick.
-That almost looked totally real there, I'm impressed.
-Ah yep, Beroba too. I knew that already.
-"boy thinks he's done lmao"
-DAICHI
-Jyama Shin!
-Parasite Game!
-Must be Cordyceps.
-Oh, Samas! You're here too!
-His creation with ours.
-Oh
-Hi there.
-I uh... think I recognize you.
-Ryuji Sato (not to be confused with Ryuga Sato), you played Sasuke in the Naruto stage show.
-Oh, you were Teruhiko in Shun's first limelight episode in Fourze!
-Hey man, congrats, that's another previous supporting role promoted to major character status!
-Oh, that's the end of the episode. I see.
-Alright, Episode 40, let's go!
-Oh shoot, insert!
-Let's go!
-That's definitely Yuka Terasaki singing.
-A very kind motherly gesture.
-Dejyammed.
-The boys are back in town.
-Good on you Keiwa, you get it.
-Yippee! Riders once again!
-Hello, Mrs. Kurama. Er uh... I suppose you might be in the market for a new sugar baby soon.
-Oh Neon...
-You've got a lot to answer for, Irumi. You, and the old man.
-And off Neon goes.
-Sara-neesan.
-Goddamn, she's supportive.
-J
-Jitto.
-Cheeto.
-If there's one thing I can say about Ryuji-san, he's certainly got range.
-This guy ain't Sasuke at all.
-Oh, they get Premium.
-That's one free century of DezaPlus and 10% off their next subscription renewal.
-Oh, what's that I see on the bottom? Tycoon and Buffa logos? Yep, those're definitely powerups we're getting at some point.
-Sōsei no Megami... Tsu!
-Oh, I get it... Tsumuri.
-Grandpa is out. Nerd is in.
-OH NO MAN DON'T EAT IT THOSE'RE YOUR BABIES
-Even Beroba's more grossed out than anything.
-Oh man I wish jobhunting was that easy.
-"Sakurai NOOOOO! ...actually, hang on, yeeeeees!"
-OHHHHHHHH DAICHI
-...that's not Daichi, is it.
-I really love the ambience of this scene here.
-He may not be infected by the Jyamato, but desperation is its own ever evolving parasite.
-We're going to beat up this nerd.
-"You guys are still the worst, I see."
-Oooooh!
-Oh.
-"That's my boss's sister you're objectifying there. And I don't take kindly to that sort of thing."
-"Good luck with that, Punkjack."
-Buffa gets down to business.
-Oh he no longer has his cape. ...truth be told, I don't think I actually liked it that much.
-Traded in his Riderbane for a lawnmower.
-...y'know, chainsaws were invented by the Scottish for childbirth but now they're used all over the world for gardening.
-Oh, that was a good transition.
-"...TYCOON NO-"
-Oh
-He is crispy looking.
-...he kinda looks like a Kabutops. Is he a trilobite Jyamato?
-Oh and of course Mega Ninetails and Green Linoone can't quite handle him.
-...sorry, I've got Pokémon on the brain.
-Damn, he's really kicking ass.
-Oh, there goes Bouffalant! ...incidentally, Sap Sipper would be quite a good ability to have right now. If you haven't used Bouffalant on a team before, I totally recommend it, it's got nice coverage, good defensive stats, some good abilities-
-Oh
-Oh fuck
-Sara Sakurai died at the hands of Kamen Rider Buffa.
-What was even the point of killing her, Daichi?
-"I did it. It was me."
-Well, to all of you who wanted to see Keiwa lose it-
-There we go.
-Tsumuri-san :(
-Help us, God.
-OHHHHHH THAT'S A COOL SUIT
-Shogun, eh? Oh and he's apparently got a whole-ass sword.
-Not a Real-Ass Goddamn Sword, but-
-Hoo. This is quite a lot I missed, huh?
#kamen rider#geats#kr geats#geats spoilers#kamen rider geats#the world's next round: trick shot of desire for the grand victory
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Apparently tag games are all over
So I got tagged by @king-chaos-world I didn't know this was a thing on Tumblr, but it's a nice surprise! So, without further ado, I guess I'll answer some questions.
Favorite Color
Blue! I particularly like sky blue and very dark blue (like a navy blue)
2. Currently Reading
Um, not really anything? When I do read, it's usually short fanfics (I haven't read one that exceeded 16,000 words in a while) for various fandoms. Pretty much whatever fandom has caught my interest recently. I have three non-educational books in my dorm, though. They're sitting on my bookshelf. I can see them from here. Couldn't tell you what the titles are though lmao
3. Last Movie
I literally just finished my third rewatch of Nimona under an hour ago! This movie is honestly a bit of a comfort movie for me, and I watch it every Friday when I stay at the dorms. I like to squeal about goldenheart and get protective over my child Nimona.
4. Last Song
Does the deep sleep music I'm currently listening to count? In all seriousness, though, the last song I listened to was Try by P!nk. I had to listen to one song that let me think of my Nimona OC before I went back to working on fanfics.
5. Last Series
Last series I finished was Ahsoka, but the last series that I watched in general was Loki! I watched the first episode of season 2 last night, I'm enjoying my timeless husbands, thank you very much
6. Currently playing
I haven't played any video games recently, but I just got my dad's old PS5 brought to my dorm a few weeks ago (haven't had time to play). I'd like to play something this weekend, maybe some good old Minecraft, or Lara Croft. Or I could finally play the Long Dark, which I've wanted to play for years.
7. Currently Working on
The next chapter for my Clone Wars oc fic. There are four chapters already posted if you want to check it out. Allow me to offer you the link:
I, uh, have no idea who to tag. I don't really know many tumblr people (I barely even interact with my mutuals it seems? Definitely didn't expect to get tagged in this game). Idk, someone leave me suggestions in case I get tagged again (which I really enjoyed, actually. I like talking to people, but don't get the chance to irl because I get really nervous and anxious at the thought of talking to people)
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yknow it's funny how people perceive you and how you (or personality tests lmao) perceive yourself/you. like last week at my cadetship grad, the manager of it said in her blurb about me, that I was "naturally shy and quiet, but she came out of her shell, eventually"... some of the people in the group around this time last year found out that if you load me up on wine and shots, that im super loud, kinda obnoxious, and wild... and kept trying to drag me back out on town in sydney.... and to also say "im the sexiest bitch here!!!!" even to their families lmao... someone in the course even called me "charismatic" in feedback, and it stayed with me for the rest of the program.
from years 7-10 (early to mid high school in 2008-2011), I was known for being all edgy, wild "not giving a fuck what people think about you" and "marching to your own drum", weird, loud, funny..... you get the picture.... at the catholic school I was at.
back then, i was NEVER deemed as quiet or "shy" or "introverted" or "keeps to herself" etc etc.... actually, by year 10, when lame buzzfeed and other personality quiz sites started to spit out that I was introverted and gave me other readings that weren't extroverted (eg. I remember doing one about "what aussie animal are you???" and it gave me koala (extremely introverted, shy, and sleepy) instead of kookaburra or cockatoo (which were both extreme examples of extroversion))..... I got SO FUCKING ANGRY that those quizzes were basically calling me a killjoy and boring, bc I was a koala who was the above listed characteristics. like hell, my drama class kept telling me to pursue comedy or do stand up (im not that funny tbh, in hindsight) bc I was just so talkative, loud and such a show off jackass that.... yeah, I might as well be a stand-up comic, throw it at me.
but then, when I moved schools in 2012 to public school, I played the precocious, diligent, modest/placid (except for my group), and timid former catholic school girl they thought I was (but really wasn't- we all know how) so well for my teachers.... that I basically got asked frequently by my bio teacher before I went to tafe every second thursday, "I really can't see how you EVER excelled in drama, when you're so flighty and nervous???? what were your marks like??? you never talk in this class or get up and address the school, like a drama kid would..... what do you mean you were nearly a straight A student in drama??? what on earth??? again, you're so introverted and thoughtful here at *insert the schools name here* that you possibly couldn't excel in that subject????"
like mr garrel, pls consider that I HATE biology and resent this line of questioning very much. also, NEVER say any of that to my drama teacher, I'm sure he'd fight you at this point. moreover, consider that drama isn't in the subject selection for my year. plus, y'all need funding for new drama room equipment, so that's why I'm quiet. and finally, I've learnt that being the loud show-off, weird, "you march to your own drum" girl for the ENTIRE year group for the first 4 years of high school, was much too tiring.... so now I just limit it to my friend group only.
now, back in the present day.... yesterday, I did a chatbot interview for kmart. where after I answered the 5 questions of it, it emailed me the "personality insights" from my answers. one of the insights basically said that, "you have no problem being the centre of attention, and you generally gravitate towards people who have the same energy as you. but have you ever considered piping the fuck down??? bc this may scare people, bc you seem not to let them voice their opinions. learn to sit and listen to others more often and dim your natural Loud Personality™️. "
like, I guess it's "I contain multitudes" and everything else, where you turn on different parts of your personality for different situations. like at work last year, I very much wanted to be left alone to do my fucking assessments.... and eventually, wanted to get out into the field to do home visits (inspections) and shit for my assessments.... but the place I worked at deemed me "too shy" for fieldwork, and just stuck me on back office phones for the entire rest of my cadetship.
but throw me into the cadetship group, and everyone always made me the leader of group projects or activities with powerpoints (when quite a few of them already knew how to use powerpoint, but they didn't want to do it.... so they just passed it onto me and called me the "powerpoint whiz")... and obvs the one night where a few of them got me wasted and met Loud Ilona™️ , that I started this post with.
and I know work is NOT the place to be my super extroverted performer self, so I'll get quiet and mousy in the back... and most esp in the trainee/cadet position I was in.... bc that's how I learn most of the time. by being quiet and thoughtful and methodical (while also being impulsive).... which that place (and also the kmart test picked this up through "you're easily distracted and that ruins productivity. pls consider staying on task and caring about productivity levels") really didn't want me to be.
anyway, yeah. it's something I'll always be wary about, how my personality presents itself to different people.... and also what mood I'm in when I do personality tests or job interviews. also the
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The Hybrids Society
Characters: c!hybrids x gn!striderhybrid!reader (/p)
A/N: Yet again suggested by my friend my ideas are on a low rn lmao
UPDATE AFTER WRITING:
I have been made aware that Ranboo is uncomfortable with x readers, I am trying to privately save any to find things that may possibly be uncomfortable for him in the future and avoid them, however I cannot do that with asks. This can be read as a friendship if you please, I personally don't think it's weird for friends to hold hands, but if youre uncomfortable please scroll.
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The hybrids of the SMP always seemed to be pretty innocent, doing their own things, living their own lives. But behind the scenes there was a secret society for them. A society away from normal humans. A society built for them. It simply went by the Hybrids Society, that's all. It was a group for everything, from healing and support, to meetings for when it came to more serious times. When it came to meetings, everyone had to attend, but otherwise it was open for any of them to stroll in and get what they need any time. The main people you would normally see there would be Ranboo, Tubbo, Fundy and Phil, Techno and Foolish would appear from time to time when needed, but otherwise the others were barley seen at all. It was content, quiet enough for them. They had all the support they could need, right where only they could find it. It was only these lot, until you came along.
It was just a normal day for you, strolling around the lowest points of your home on the lava, checking in on all your friends and family, even if they were full Striders and not Human hybrids. That was until 2 people saw you.
"Uh, Phil? That's a person, right?"
Ranboo asked Phil. They were out looking for some Quartz, it would usually be Phil and Techno or Ranboo and Techno, but he was busy today, so the 2 of them went instead. Phil looked awfully confused, so Ranboo pointed in your direction, both seeing you playing with the smaller Striders in the middle of the lava pool.
"Oh yeah mate, it looks so. How are they not burning?"
Phil said. Ranboo just shrugged in confusion. They stood in silence, careful to be aware of their surroundings, watching you trying to figure out how you weren't burning.
"Why don't we go down and talk to them?"
Ranboo suggested. Phil took a moment to look in his inventory for cobble, if they were going to head towards you, they needed enough.
"Got any spare cobble? I think I'm just slightly short of it."
Phil asked Ranboo. You didn't have to ask him twice, as he pulled out all the cobble in his inventory and passed it to Phil. You could tell he was excited to meet you.
It wasn't long until they were at a suitable level and started bridging towards you. About halfway through their bridging, you noticed them, and decided to walk towards them to help them save resources. They somehow didn't notice you, not until you started talking to them.
"Hello."
You simply stated. The bridging blonde was taken by surprise and fell from the shock. If it wasn't for you catching him, he would've fallen into the lava.
"Sorry about that, here, pass me that, I'll help you."
You said as Phil passed you the cobble, and you began to build a bigger platform for them to stand on.
"Thanks... Wh-whats your name?"
The bi coloured boy asked, clearly nervous about meeting you, now that it was happening in person.
"I'm Y/N, how about you guys?"
Ranboo looked at Phil, and Phil looked at Ranboo, both clearly confused on who's answering first.
"I'm Phil, and this is Ranboo."
Phil finally spoke up, pointing at Ranboo as he said his name. He waved in response.
"Nice names! Would you like to stay and chat for a bit? Obviously if you're not busy, it's just nice to talk to someone since noone here speaks English."
You said. The 2 looked at eachother, remembering what they came for.
"We gotta get some Quartz, but you can come with us if you can walk on land?"
Phil asked. You thought about it for a moment. You'd never been on land before. Would you drag them behind their schedule? Striders are infamous for walking slowly on land, is it the same with you?
"Yeah, sure! I'm not sure if I'll slow you down though, I've never walked on land before."
You answered, excitement dying down slightly in the second sentence. Ranboo looked at you in slight disappointment of your excitement dying down.
"Don't worry kid, it's fine. There's a first time for everything, isn't there?"
You nodded in responce, and Phil held out his hand to pull you up, as the platform was one block above lava level. You placed your bare feet on the cobble. It was cold, rocky. But nice. It was different, you liked that. Phil started walking back, Ranboo behind him and you behind Ranboo, surprising you as you were walking at the same speed as them.
You were next to Ranboo, the 2 of you walking behind Phil, talking while he looked for Quartz. Ranboo would unconsciously stop talking at times to study you and your hybrid features. You had pale red skin, dark red hair, and wore a raggy shirt and trousers.
"So,"
Ranboo began.
"What other hybrid features do you have?"
You thought for a moment. The issue is you didn't really know. You never went outside the lava, never tried something new before today.
"To be honest, I'm not sure. I've never left the lava before today. All I know is that I like mushrooms, it's the only edible vegetation here for me and it's quite nice."
Ranboo let out a slight laugh at your honest opinions, which made you smile. You didn't know what you did or how you did it, but it felt nice.
You were all there for a while, you got to know Ranboo quite well and he got to know you quite well. You got back to the portal, kinda upset that it was time for them to leave. They both looked at you, before looking at eachother, and back at you again.
"Would you like to come with us? Y'know, like live in the overworld with us, meet out friends?"
Your eyes visibly lighted up.
"Yes! I'd love to!"
You called out. Ranboo offered you his hand so he could help you through the portal, which you excitedly took. You all stepped through the purple swirls, and before you knew it, you were somewhere you've never seen before.
It was indoors and decorated like your home, granted, but you cod tell it was different. You felt scared. You gripped Ranboos hand tighter, he looked over to you confused until he realised how scared you looked.
"Hey, it's ok, it's a nice world out there, trust me."
Ranboo told you with a smile. You smiled back but still didn't let go of his hand fully, you just released your grip a bit. It was all fine until you got to the exit of the building. It was pouring down with rain. Phil looked over at Ranboo and handed him a coat. You looked confused.
"He's an enderman hybrid, so he can't go into the rain. Wait, since you're a hybrid from the nether, does that mean you can't go out into rain?"
Phil said. You shrugged before you stuck the back of your hand out into the rain. It only took a single drop for you to pull your hand back in pain. You could see where it landed, it was physically sizzling.
"Ah. In that case, wanna get under with me?"
Ranboo asked, lifting up the coat so you could get under. You edged closer to him, as he released your hand and rested it across your back and looped his hand to hold onto your stomach. You reached up for his hand with one of yours, the other pulling the edge of the coat down. It wasn't overly comfortable, it wasn't the biggest coat, and Ranboo had to bend down to your level due to his height. But it was whatever it took for you both to be safe. The issue is you assumed you were running and didn't know where to go.
"Uh, Phil? I guess we're running, right? I have no clue where were going."
Phil looked at you, before looking at Ranboo and turning back around.
"Don't worry, Ranboo will show you. Now, ready? Let's go!"
Phil said before running into the rain, the 2 of you close behind. Ranboo held you close, making sure you weren't hurt at all. He was used to this by now, but was aware you were new to rain, and wanted to make sure you get back in one piece.
You finally reached where you were heading to, and Ranboo stood at his full height, letting the wet coat fall off both your backs. Phil was aware of why you both didn't touch it and picked it up for you. You followed Ranboo into the place.
"This, Y/N, is what we like to call the Hybrids Society. It's a place open for all hybrids whenever they need it. It's hidden away from the non-hybrids, so please don't tell them about it."
Ranboo said. You nodded when he said not to tell the non-hybrids, as you both approached a corner. You tugged on his jacket to grab his attention.
"I'm not sure about this mind..."
You said nervously. Sure, you were excited to meet hybrids like you, but it was also nerve wracking.
"Don't stress, you'll be fine."
You grabbed Ranboos hand and walked behind him as he walked around the corner. Phil had already walked ahead.
"Hey Fundy, Tubbo, Techno! Were back!"
Ranboo said as he walked in. You hoped his tall figure would hide you since you were considerably shorter than him.
"Hey Ranboo! Why's your hand behind your back?"
Fundy asked, as Tubbo nodded in agreement to his question. Techno was looking through chests for potion ingredients, not paying attention to them. Phil was in the corner smiling, looking for some clothes for you to wear. Ranboo looked at you, as you looked back up at him. He smiled at you softly.
"Remember what I said, it'll be fine."
You slowly poked your head out from behind him, before showing your whole self, waving at them nervously, still holding Ranboos hand.
"This is Y/N. They're a Strider Hybrid and we met them in the Nether earlier."
Ranboo introduced you. Techno perked up at the fact you were found in the Nether and finally looked at you both.
"Hello Y/N! I'm Tubbo, I'm a Goat hybrid!"
Tubbo introduced himself as he waved at you excitedly. You smiled and waved back.
"I'm Fundy, a Fox hybrid. Nice to meet you."
Phil had finished looking for clothes by now and was watching you all. He could see Techno looking at you in curiosity as to your hybrid abilities. He made his way over to him and nudged him.
"Go on then mate, introduce yourself!"
Phil whisper-shouted to Techno.
"Uh, yeah right, sorry. I'm Technoblade, but you can just call me Techno."
He said in a monotone voice before turning back to what he was doing.
"Y/N, here, go put these on, it's probably more comfortable than what you're wearing now."
Phil said as he handed you the clothes he picked out, baggy jeans and a red shirt. You took them before Phil pointed towards where you could go change. You walked off to go change, while the others continued the conversation.
"So, about you guys,"
Fundy began with a smirk on his face. Ranboo instantly cut him off, knowing what he was going to say.
"Were just friends. They were nervous about leaving their long time home, and I don't blame them. We talked alot during the trip so I suppose we got quite close and they started clinging to me for safety? I'm not sure, we'll just see how it goes."
Ranboo said. It was a simple response, with a simple theory, he just didn't know if it was correct.
You later walked out of where you were changing in your new clothes, happy with the selection.
"These are nice, thanks Phil."
You said. Phil simply nodded his head slightly.
"Hungry? There's some mushrooms over there if that's what you fancy. They're overworld ones though, not ones from the Nether."
Ranboo asked. You headed towards where Ranboo pointed and looked at the mushrooms. They were way different to ones you were used to, they were beige or red and white spotted, rather than blue and orange. You looked back over as if to say "Are these safe to eat?" and they all nodded. You simply shrugged before taking one of each and trying them one after the other.
"Mm! These are nice! Different from the usual, granted but it's nice that they are different."
You sealed the approval of the mushrooms.
You hung out at the base of the Society for a bit longer, meeting more hybrids and getting to know others better. It was getting late, and there was just one problem. You didn't have anywhere to sleep. You started getting tired, and they all noticed.
"Hey, we got beds here, want us to stay here tonight and we'll find you somewhere to sleep tomorrow?"
Tubbo asked, praying the others wouldn't mind what he put them up to. All you could do was nod, before you physically went out cold.
"Damn, they are tired, huh. It's been a long day for them I suppose."
Phil said, while Ranboo picked you up before taking you to one of the beds and staying until you felt comfortable.
"Goodnight Y/N. See you tomorrow."
He said before walking out. It was a different life, of course it was, but it was going to be a nicer one for you, with more people to talk to, and a best friend you would trust with your life.
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A/N: a place for them would be nice where they just do stuff yeah
#dream smp#ranboo#philza#tubbo#fundy#technoblade#ranboo x reader#philza x reader#tubbo x reader#fundy x reader#technoblade x reader
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Absolutely in LOVE with your idea that crew!Mack waters the plants in life support 💕
If you're feeling inspired could I ask for some hcs of Mack with a Captain who was originally a biologist/botanist (before they went to captain school lmao) and life support is their favorite room to hang out in bc of the plants? If you want more specifics maybe something with the Captain teaching Mack all about the plants? But anything is fine tbh I just think this is such a soft & sweet concept and would love to see more
i absolutely love this request! i myself love plants and things, so this was a lot of fun to write :] (also, a few days late, my apologies. i had a school choir concert, but i'm slowly getting back to answering requests)
when you're the captain, you have a certain level of duties. checking on gunther in ads, celci in cryo, and burt in reactor, checking in with mark about the ships status, and the list goes on. it's hard to find some time to myself.
unlike my previous job, a botanist. with that job, i pretty much worked alone. hell, i had even thought about opening up my own botanical garden shop at one point before i became captain.
however, i didn't, leaving all of the information of plants fresh in my mind.
so, like usual, i went around, finishing my rounds. today i had noticed the plants in life support, and wanted to check them out a bit, so as the crew retired to their rooms/pods, i headed there.
as i opened the door, i noticed that i wasn't alone. which, really, wasn't all to difficult as the other person started spewing words at me.
"oh, uh, captain! how nice to see you...! i, uh, i was just, um, checking on life support! yeah, that's what i was doing! mhm, yes." i heard the rushed voice of one of my crew members, mack, say.
"no, mack, it's alright. first of all i don't believe that for a second. second of all, i think you might be in here for the same reason as me." i sigh and smile. that boy sure can get worked up over nothing.
"and w-what might that be...?" he questions, still nervous as hell. "the plants, mack. i'm here to see the plants." i smile and chuckle a bit.
"oh! then yes, that's true! i uhm, i enjoy looking at the plants, though i'm not too sure what they are..." he sighs a bit, and walks over to a plant with very, very large leaves, holding it very gently.
as i walk over, i stand behind him, putting my hand on his as he holds said leaf. "that one'a a colocasia. more commonly known as elephant ear. it's actually a fairly common plant back on earth." i explain.
"i never got to see many plants back on earth, heheh. as soon as i was old enough, my parents got me ready for this training, so this is kinda all i've ever known." he says nervously, his free hand rubbing the back of his neck.
"i used to be a botanist. my whole job was plants. so if you ever want to know anything, let me know. i'd be happy to have someone to talk about plants with again." i respond.
"so let me get this straight. *the* captain that everyone lives very much and is so cool and everyone fawns over. you. *you* didn't even know you were gonna be a captain until, what, a few years ago?" he questions.
"yep. i was going to open a botanical garden and sell plants. though, stores cost a lot of money, so when i heard about a cool opening as a captain, i took the job. next best thing, i guess. i love space, and i still get to talk about plants." i say as i sit down on the ground, mack joining me shortly.
i can see as he begins to get tired. first a small yawn. then, his eyes start to close. next thing i know, his head in on my shoulder.
the hardest thing i've ever done on this ship, i think, is figuring out a way to stand up and pick up mack so i can carry him to his room. though, that might be some personal bias.
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Goose bumps — myg [M]
ATTENTION: if you’re a minor and/or uncomfortable with mature themes please don’t read... or do it, but I warned you.
Pairing: Yoongi x fem!reader
Genre: fluff, smut
WARNINGS: unprotected sex, not-so-innocent baths in a lake, no pull-out game lmao, kind of sex with a stranger?, cum play, light spanking, slight daddy kink (yg calls himself daddy like o n c e), cum eating, Yoongi is a shy boi at first but gives up easily <3 if you hate being called princess then i’m sorry
Word count: 3k more or less
Of course I am technically ✨L A T E✨ but I guess it was worth it (even if in my country it’s still the 9th) so,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR YOONGO BONGO💜🍊
I’m still getting used to writing those things so let’s pray that there’s nothing wrong here, hope you like it!
As you woke up you silently thanked whoever was up there for having such a sunny morning, compared to the storm you were surprised with the day prior, as you reached the camping site.
The situation at hand was unexpected and quite messy since you were sleeping in your camper with seven boys, five of them scattered on the couch or in the driving seats. But it was more fun that way, you guessed.
You were traveling with your best friends, Namjoon and Jungkook, when you saw five people standing on the side of the road, with their car nearby surrounded by a thin layer of smoke.
Assuming they needed help and since they were directed to the same destination as the three of you, you offered them a hand and brought them to the camping site with you in your camper.
You slowly got off the bed, tiptoeing towards the exit and careful not to step on any hand or foot. You opened the door and hopped down, feeling the fresh grass beneath your feet. Everything around was still quiet, the only sound that could be heard was the sweet chirping of the birds that populated the trees. The area was well covered by tall, green plants and a few sun rays slipped through their leaves, creating puddles of golden light on the ground.
Before cooking yourself something to eat, you went exploring a bit, finding a couple of cute bunnies near the place and beautiful flowers, until, a bit down the path, you found a little entrance that hid a beautiful tiny lake and without a second thought you went in.
It wasn't really deep so you decided to sit on the moss that engulfed the sides and corners of the natural pool.
After contemplating the nature around you, you slipped in the cold water and slightly moved your limbs in order to get used to the low temperature.
The place was well hidden by the plants and trees, only giving you another open spot on the other side, just to admire the mountains nearby and you allowed yourself to relax. Said mountains were clearly visible and they created a stunning landscape, giving you the possibility to clear your eyes from the dull cities full of skyscrapers.
It seemed like the place was settled on another planet. Spots like this were truly a rare sight and deserved to be protected from the rest of the Earth, you thought.
"What are you doing here?"
As you were absorbed in your own world, a deep and groggy voice spoke up, making you snap your head towards the intruder.
Yoongi stood there, standing on the border of the pool and keeping an eye close to you, a veil of curiosity was wrapped around his sleepy voice.
You took a big breath and slumped your shoulders, the brief tension already subsided. "I was just looking around… this place is beautiful" you contemplated, shifting your eyes towards the landscape again. You felt the water ripple and you just assumed that Yoongi slipped in with you.
"It really is" he breathed, the sound reached your ears quicker than you thought. Turning around, the boy was really closer than you imagined, but he didn't seem to notice because his eyes were settled on the rural view as well.
You slightly shifted, tightening your shoulders as goose bumps emerged on your skin. Yoongi sensed your stiffness right away and moved towards you. With his eyebrows bent in a frown, he asked you if you were cold but you quickly shook your head.
The cold wasn’t the cause of your goose bumps, Yoongi was. You were totally feeling at ease, but having him this close was kinda unusual.
Ever since you two met the other day, you observed how his eyes always lingered for a moment on your figure, how he was always out of words and much more shy when you talked to him. Maybe he was really introverted, you assumed.
But while you were thinking about his behaviour, you have to admit that deep down you briefly daydreamed about him being attracted to you, which would be the reason for his behaviour; and if that was the case you were surely flattered about the idea of a cute guy like him feeling that way towards you.
Another couple of minutes passed by in silence, enjoying the company of the other. Yoongi slowly moved towards you, still keeping his hands on the border and his head bent down slightly.
He pressed his lips together, his whole body screamed shyness and you could perfectly feel how nervous he was. You knew he was trying to tell you something but his throat was completely shut, making it difficult to swallow.
That was when you decided to take the matter in your own hands, "Is everything okay Yoongs?" you asked.
The nickname almost made him blush but he just nodded, without opening his mouth. Your question wasn't much of help so you just tried to put him at ease without any words, just resting your head on his shoulder, to see how he would react.
Yoongi felt like the world had come to a stop and as he realized how close you were. He just stood there, eyes automatically fixated on you.
His hands were tingling. He just wanted to hold you tight against him, but he had to control himself. He had been infatuated with you since the second he laid his eyes on you, but he still didn't know you yet.
He just slipped his right arm around your shoulders, finding a comfortable position to look at the landscape. You smiled a little, content with how he was cuddling you. Even if you met him just the other day, he seemed such a sweet guy and you felt as if you wanted to spend as much time as possible with him.
You closed the space between your bodies by inching closer and closer to him, until your face was buried inside his neck. You took a deep breath and your nostrils were flooded by the masculine scent of his cologne and this made you want to pull him towards you and engulf him in a tight hug, just to be blessed by his presence.
These thoughts of him kept racing in your mind and, as if you were possessed by an unknown force, you placed a hand behind his neck and brought him down to your level, suddenly pressing your lips against his.
Maybe you were being reckless but, hell, you wanted to taste those lips so badly.
For a moment he didn't move at all, totally taken off guard; but when the action processed in his head and felt your sweet lips against his, he finally gave in. His fingertips caressed your sides while he moved his lips on yours, enjoying their softness.
Your other hand found its way between his locks and lightly gripped them, earning a small grunt from him.
His chest was flush against yours as he subconsciously pushed your body against the border of the pond. You were trapped and the only thing you could do was wrapping your legs around his waist. After doing so, his body moved even closer to yours, if that was possible. You two were caught by a sudden passion that didn't let you separate from one another.
His tongue stroked your lower lip, asking for entrance. You swiftly opened your mouth and your tongues danced, wrapped around each other. That warm feeling made you feel tingles all over your body as you caressed the back of his head. After what felt like hours, Yoongi finally broke the kiss and looked at you deeply, contemplating what you had just done.
He regained himself and pushed himself off of you, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that" he blubbered, his head bent down again.
You felt your chest tighten for a moment, confused about why he was apologizing. Maybe he didn't want to do that? You were the one that pulled him in at first, maybe he just kissed you so you wouldn't feel rejected.
But as soon as he spoke up again, your doubts were cleared, "don't get me wrong,” he shook his head when he saw your worried expression “you're really beautiful and you seem a kind and sweet person. But I shouldn't have rushed like that" he blushed, rubbing the back of his neck.
You smiled at him, observing his face, and got closer to him once again, "Don't apologize, I enjoyed it" you whispered and licked your lips, "We can do whatever you want to do".
He sighed once he heard your words, still unsure about the situation. He had you on a silver plate and he was mere inches away from a good time or from something that could be deeper, as he let his mind daydream; but still, he didn't know you. Maybe you just wanted to use him for one time, and maybe he would even let you do that. The tension was strong and he couldn't make a decision: he could leave aside his morals for one day, or risk it all and try for something real with you.
Was it really worthy to give in so easily to a stranger? You occupied his mind since he saw you the other day and maybe he could really try and take action on his new feelings.
After thinking about it deeply, he lifted his head and watched you with a slight pained expression "I've known you for just one day, even less, but you already make me go crazy", so he conjoined again your bodies and kissed you.
The tension that built up inside you while waiting for an answer left your soul as soon as you felt his warm presence again against you. You didn't have time to reflect on his confession as you tightly wrapped your arms around his neck, lightly biting his lower lip and tasting him.
He sighed, his breath hot on your lips and you felt his fingertips brush your sides, slipping under your shirt. You unconsciously arched your back, giving him more access to explore your body. His cold hands gripped the flesh where your ribs were, picking you up and placing you on the border, with his hips in between your legs. A small whimper left your mouth as you felt his crotch push against your centre, pressing your nails into his shoulder blades.
His lips slightly turned into a grin, the sweet sound reaching his ears. Your moans were heaven to him and as he secured an arm around your waist, his other hand started to caress your thigh, slowly inching closer and closer towards the hem of your shorts.
Your heart was beating fast against your chest and it was difficult to breathe. His finger slid in your thin shorts that were soaked and clinging to your skin. He gently stroked your sensitive bud, earning another delicious moan from you. A new wave of pleasure washed over you as you felt hot pressure against your clit. He soon reached your entrance, he circled his fingers around it, collecting your arousal and teasing you. You broke the kiss and whimpered again while trying to catch your breath.
Your hips involuntarily pushed towards his hand, wanting just to feel his fingers in you, but before you could express your needs he removed his hand from your shorts and gripped at the hem of the clothing. Immediately taking the hint, you placed your hands on the hard surface and raised your hips, allowing him to take off your pants and underwear together.
His hand returned to its place as he rubbed the wet skin around your entrance, thanks to how wet you were, his finger dipped with ease in your heat, disappearing between your folds. The delicious burn made you cry out his name, throwing your head back, your nails scratching the ground at your sides.
Your hips slightly rolled with the movement of his hand, his face was buried in your neck, leaving wet kisses and bites that will surely leave a mark on your skin. Your hand reached Yoongi's locks, pulling them and making him groan against you, fingers pushing even deeper inside you and stroking your sweet spot.
You felt your orgasm approach quickly, a string of moans and whimpers left your lips. Yoongi's thumb pressed against your clit, circling it harshly and finally bringing you to the edge. Your hand gripped his hair even tighter and you cried out his name, legs shaking as a pang of pleasure exploded in your lower abdomen.
But Yoongi didn't stop, with his lips attached to yours, blocking your screams, he kept pistoning his fingers in and out of you, prolonging your orgasm until your shaky hand gripped his wrist, as you were too sensitive to continue.
He broke the kiss and brought his fingers to his mouth, tasting your sweet cum on his digits, "You taste delicious, princess" he spoke with his deep voice, planting another kiss on your lips.
You smiled at him in your post-orgasm haze, cheeks flushed with droopy eyes. "I should return the favour now, what do you think?" your legs moved closer to him on their own, and you found your hand already making its way towards his tummy.
He took your hand in his, shaking his head "I don't wanna waste time, I want to be buried inside you right now" he claimed, grabbing your arm and spinning you around, trapping you again between the ground and his waist.
You whined at his sudden action, but Yoongi didn't give you any time to understand what was happening as he brought his hand down your butt cheek harshly, a light smack reached your ears.
You moaned at the sudden contact, feeling your plump skin burn under his tight grip, "M-More… please," you cried out for him, feeling an unknown pleasure from what he was doing. You never minded that much, a bit of spanking was always there in your bed activities but Yoongi literally lit up a fire inside of you and you melted every time his palms touched your hot skin.
"Is princess that needy?" you could feel the smug grin in his voice, satisfied with the effect he had on you. You bit hard on your lip and pushed back your butt, nodding fervently. He quickly pulled down his pants, his warm cock now rested heavily against your backside as he stroked your cheeks.
However, instead of giving you what you wanted, he wrapped a hand around himself and pressed his tip in your entrance, without entering fully. You whined again, sick of all his teasing while you squirmed under him, desperate to feel him inside.
He blocked your movements with one hand and bent down towards your ear, growling "Stop being a brat, or else daddy won't give you the fuck that you deserve today" his teeth grazed the shell of your ear, biting it and finally pushing his length fully inside of you.
A loud moan left your throat at the sudden intrusion. Yoongi gave you some time to adjust as he wrapped his arm around your waist, "But for now I will let that pass, I don't wanna play games" as he said this, he began moving his hips. His thrusts weren't fast, but slow, deep and intense, making you feel at every movement that delicious stroke against your walls that almost made you go crazy.
You searched his hand with yours until you found it on your hip, and squeezed it. The tender gesture of holding hands was in stark contrast with the things he was doing to you. While his right hand was occupied with yours, his left one travelled towards your swollen bud, ready to give it again the attention deserved.
As his thrusts sped up, slamming his hips against you, his digits quickly worked their magic on your clit. "Yes…! Yoongi, oh my god," you mewled, the pleasure difficult to bear, "You're so big, it feels too good," you praised him, pushing your head back, trying to meet his thrusts.
You could hear him gasping from time to time, in sync with his dick coming in and out of you. Another wave of pleasure washed over you when you realized how strained he sounded, proud that you were making him feel this way.
His hips stuttered and the pace he was maintaining started to falter. You knew he was near the edge by the small grunts that left his glistening lips with every thrust and you were close as well.
As you finally managed to match with his thrusts, setting a new, hard pace, Yoongi dug his nails into your soft skin, "Fuck princess, you're squeezing me so tight" almost out of breath, he gripped onto you as if his life depended on it.
Another couple of quick, rough thrusts and he found himself slumping over you, whispering your name in a broken moan, right into your ear. You shuddered as you felt his cum coating your velvety walls, milking him as you reached your climax as well for the second time.
As the after waves of the orgasm wouldn't let your legs stop quivering, Yoongi squeezed his arms around you, keeping you close to him as he rested his head on your back, eyes closed and catching his breath.
You two stood there, without moving for a moment, your limbs slowly relaxing.
"That was amazing" he whispered with a raspy voice, getting off of you and caressing your arms. You smiled to yourself and nodded, agreeing with him without a single word, turning towards him and putting on your long-forgotten shorts.
Yoongi kissed your forehead with a foreign sweetness, enveloping you again in a warm hug. You closed your eyes and buried yourself deep into his chest as your mind slowly came back to reality. You glanced up, staring into his eyes and playing with your nails, you suddenly had many questions swarming inside your head but maybe… it was better not to open your mouth for now.
You suddenly took a look at your hands and noticed how wrinkled they were, you scrunched up your nose and showed your palms to Yoongi. "I think it's better if we get out of here" you pouted and Yoongi nodded, soon following you.
When you returned to the camping site, everyone was awake and eating breakfast. Jimin spotted the two of you first and waved at you, calling for Yoongi. "Where were you, lovebirds? You're totally soaked" he took a close look on you, going inside the camper to take two warm towels and you kindly thanked him.
"We discovered a little pond down there, it's really nice and it's not even that deep," Yoongi explained, sitting on the bench next to Hoseok, with you next to him.
Currently, Jin had just finished cooking breakfast for everyone, while Taehyung already had his nose deep in his precious strawberries. You remembered him mentioning his love for those fruits, and at first you didn't understand his excitement but after he let you try his strawberries… you swear that was the sweetest thing you ever tried.
In front of you sat Jungkook, playing some game on his phone, with Namjoon by his side, who was eyeing you in a weird way. But you didn't mind his behaviour at that moment.
For now you just wanted to eat and enjoy the rest of the day with the boys. You still felt butterflies in your stomach while thinking about what happened at the lake and you were excited to discover what that day would bring to you.
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questions for you :)
12. name a song that makes you feel ethereal
18. do you believe that dreams have meanings or are they completely random?
30. what do you do to feel at peace?
+ bonus question if u want: pick whichever question you're secretly hoping someone asks because you want to answer it :)
@littlegenderbean EMME MY LOVE, THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE 😚💖 (omg i have so many asks today i feel FAMOUS ahahahaha i had 3 but i'm feeling fancy heheheh) okok let's get into it!! i’m gonna put my answers under the cut for you because i know it’s you therefore i will ramble! have fun!
12. i answered this here :)
18. i believe dreams have meaning. i mean unless it's a wack one where you're riding a rainbow ostrich over water or sum shit (cause then you've just got to sit down and analyze your life i guess) but yea i think a lot of the times dreams (at least in my personal case) are a place to replay a certain situation with different endings or like watch a scenario you want to play out irl (which never turns out like how you dreamt lmao) and they usually mean that i regret how certain things went down or my anxiety over how stuff will turn out. also i have that one dream where you feel like you're falling and then you roll over and almost fall off the bed and have a mini heart attack at like 3 am. that's usually when i'm nervous or scared abt stuff. so yea :))
30. it's a step by step process. lemme walk you through it. it usually starts with violent sobbing because some stuff's been weighing on me. which is then followed by a "am i gonna be a shitty person and unleash my rage on the next person who crosses me" which i don't anymore, i'm growing. then i sit with my laptop put on some really sad music and type. i scream type, i keysmash, i pour out all the rage i feel into whatever words i can. and then when i can't write anymore. i sit down and i breathe and i read what i've written. i read it and i go and kinda analyze it. that time when i introspect and think about and dissect my own feelings gives me peace. it makes me feel good about myself because i got through that moment. i didn't misdirect my rage or sadness. in fact i feel lighter and happier at the fact that i learnt something that i didn't know about myself. and i stop my sad playlist, play a couple of songs that bring me joy and i put myself to sleep :) so in short. i take care of myself to feel at peace.
27. have u ever written a love letter?
ok so this is a fun story! so in about 8th grade i was questioning my sexuality a lot and i was like maybe i’m bi. and that was cuz i had this crush on this one friend of mine. so i literally plucked up the courage and wrote her a letter and poured my HEART AND SOUL into it. at least as much heart and soul my 13 y/o self had and gave it to her. and from what i heard. she threw it in the trash becuz she didn’t like me back and instead dated another girl like a week later. and i went so far back into the closet. i didn’t come out until like 3 years later and realized it while i was dating my best friend, poor boy. had to break his heart but he’s still my best friend. so yea. and i’ve never written a love letter ever since i was like 13 AHAHHAHA. this was fun!
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I've read every work you've done and I'm completely in love with your writing style, you portray every character the way they really are and I appreciate that so much! If it isn't too much can I request a scenario with Kyōjurō, it was his and his s/o's honeymoon and they're not sure how to start so Kyōjurō takes the lead? You can decide if it would be nsfw or not! Thank you so much in advance 💗💗
Hey hey, bby!!!! Awww. Thank you so much! That’s very sweet of you to say! And for sure, it’s no problem at all. I hope you like it tho. UwU
Also, y’all be thirsty as hell. Lmao. Out of the 30 reqs that came in, only this one and an angsty one gave me the choice between SFW and NSFW content. Everything else was NSFW. Ahaha.
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Kyōjurō x F!S/O: Honeymoon Jitters (SFW Scenario):
There was no reason for her to feel panicked and lost, but (Y/n)’s nerves still felt as if they had been shot to hell. She had just gotten married to Kyōjurō; there was nothing new about their connection or, at the very least, she didn’t think there should be a new kind of dynamic between them.
Her love for him surely hadn’t changed, and she was more sure than ever of it at that moment; yet there was still a voice in her head that constantly questioned if whatever she was doing was the “wifely” thing to do after marriage.
She wasn’t one to constantly second guess herself, but that nagging feeling of unsureness kept hemming and hawing at her conscious— especially after she and Kyōjurō left for their honeymoon.
Inevitably, (Y/n) felt like she had been thrown back to the very beginning stages of hers and her husband’s relationship; all the way to the awkward and longing glances, the hesitant touches, as well as the flustered expression that would always take over her face whenever he so much as smiled at her.
It wasn’t a horrible feeling, but it was something unfamiliar— as she hadn’t experienced something like that in five years.
She was acting like a shy little teenager, and they both knew it. Much to (Y/n)’s dismay.
Because Kyōjurō used every opportunity he could to tease her about it; if only to see her cheeks go red, and also witness the very moment when her brain went blank— where she was then forced to flounder around like a fish, before righting herself.
“Good morning, my love,” Kyōjurō greeted enthusiastically, as he entered their room with a cup of tea in hand.
For someone who hadn’t had the opportunity to consummate his marriage the night before, he sure was acting chipper.
By all means, they had done the deed before, but last night was their first night together as husband and wife— and it was safe to say that (Y/n) got nervous and croaked.
She felt so unsure of herself and how to reciprocate Kyōjurō’s affections that she had asked for them to just sleep and cuddle up with each other.
Slowly, the Flame Hashira knelt down beside his wife’s barely awake form, and set the tea cup a few ways away from her face.
“I brought you some tea to calm your nerves,” He uttered softly, just as he ran a hand through her hair. Eventually, he rested his palm against her cheek— which made the young woman nuzzle affectionately against it.
They were silent for a while, with the two of them just basking in the comfortable silence, until, “I’m sorry for cowering out last night. I just... it was...”
“Overwhelming. I know, my love. Even I’m overwhelmed because even we never expected that we’d get to this point, right?” His words were so gentle and comforting that it brought tears to (Y/n)’s eyes.
She then found herself sitting upright, with Kyōjurō’s hand still cupping her left cheek. Her hands— which laid idly against the comforter— wrapped around his right wrist, before dragging his touch down along to where her heart was.
It was beating so frantically beneath his fingertips, that the Hashira couldn’t help but smile; because after all the years that they were together, he could still make her heart race like that.
He still had it, if he could say so himself.
“We don’t have to rush...”
“I know... but...” A crimson blush colored (Y/n)’s cheeks, and she averted her eyes briefly from his own, before eventually gravitating back towards his gaze. “I want you; as I always have.”
The answering grin on Kyōjurō’s face was so radiant that it could rival that of the sun’s.
“Then come here. Let me remind you how much I love you.” With that, he pulled her up to straddle his lap, before pressing his lips to hers in the faintest of kisses. “And how much I’ll always love you.”
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I've been nervous to send this ask, but I'm kinda durnk so my courage is here I guess. You are a multishipper which I respect because you respect canon shippers. Can you tell me from your POV why canon shippers are so shat on in fandom in general? I was just blocked and called a stupid child by someone I thought was my friend because I said I never saw sexual tension between Suki and Aang in the show. She then vagued me on twitter saying canon shippers ruin fandom. What gives?
hi anon! first of all, that person sounds like a crappy friend. you might be better off with that negativity in your life! (also,, i really don't think there was any sexual tension in atla?? since romance was mainly a backburner aspect of plot?? and they were kids?? to each their own interpretation, i guess?? im?? anyways lmao)
but to answer your main question... im really not sure? generally speaking, canon pairings are bitched about when there is a fairly popular/active fanon pairing in the same fandom. obvious example: k@taang vs zvtara. k@taang is more popular, because more casual viewers of atla ship k@taang. plus, since k@taang was a well-executed ship*, it again tends to have more fans (however active or not in fandom). however, zvtara is also very popular! there's a reason the zvtara fandom still lives - they have a lot of content creators making awesome content! so when you've got opposing ships like that, you tend to have ship wars. but the bitching about canon (specifically in the atla fandom) comes from zvtara shippers who think zvtara should have been canon. im pretty sure most zvtara shippers ignore them (because they're plenty smart enough to recognize k@taang as a core of atla, lmao) and have fun with their own fanon, but unfortunately, the "zvtara was robbed" narrative is perpetuated by a very loud group, however small, hence plenty of bitching about canon ensues. thus, the "[insert ship here] was robbed" narrative seems to incite a majority of complaints about canon pairings, at least in my experience.
that said, your "friend" was talking about a rarepair, which is a much less common experience. i ship a lot of rarepairs and have the sense to acknowledge that they'll never be/are not canon, lol. it's possible they were just looking for something to complain/fight about, anon - again, you're probably better off without that toxicity!
*not saying people have to ship or even like k@taang, duh, but it was well-implemented into the show and people who adamantly insist otherwise... possess questionable opinions at best.
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🌸Hi, a few years ago when I was 16 (19 now)I was forced out to my friends by this homophobic girl, and I came out as bi (still in the closet to my family), I'm no longer friends with any of them, but I can't figure out what label I should have, I really want to just know who I am. I said to them I was bi, but I've never felt right with that label. I read about comp het and it makes so much sense to me, but I still don't know. 1/5
🌸I feel, like, attracted to male celebs, but only when they’re in films or tv, and watching interviews of them ruins it?, and whenever I’m around guys I get these thoughts I can’t control about kissing them and sleeping with them and I feel rlly self conscious, I said this to a friend who said it’s a crush, but I get it with people I don’t like at all 2/?
🌸 And sometimes I have a phase where I feel like I could date a guy and marry him and have kids and be happy but it feels like I’m imagining a perfect version of me that actually im not like at all? And as well I can only imagine myself with a young guy, once I think about a 30 yr old or older I don’t want it anymore, but the perfect fantasy seems so appealing idk 3/?
🌸I feel different about girls but I don’t know I’m catholic and I feel like it’s always been other people are gay and that’s ok but not me? And I don’t know whether I feel no attraction to girls or I’m pushing it down bc when I see girls kiss on tv I literally have started crying and I saw a lesbian couple in public once and I got butterflies and also Ive found myself changing pronouns in songs in my head without realising but I’ve never had close to a crush on anyone especially not a girl 4/5
🌸Ive never even met a gay girl except for one pan girl at school but she was really weird and rude so I don’t know what it’s supposed to be like to like someone? writing this all down it makes it sound like I’m definitely a lesbian but that scares me so much bc ill never have a normal life and I can’t shake this feeling that actually I do want to be with a guy but I’m trying to be interesting or I’m faking this or something. Pls tell me your thoughts on this 5/5
Oh, anon. This literally all feels as if my younger self came into my ask box just now to ask for advice.
I understand your pain, I really do, I went through so many of the same thought processes you’re describing now. It’s good that you’re aware of compulsory heterosexuality, since I believe that will make sorting your feelings easier. Still, I recommend you look through our tag (if you haven’t already) to read more thoughts on this. It’ll help.
I obviously can’t tell you what your sexuality is for you, that’s your own journey to make, but this sounds so much like my own experience that I’m pretty sure what the answer is already.
Anon, let me tell you a story, I went to a catholic school and while my parents are pretty liberal and not that religious (in fact, my dad’s an atheist) I was also raised with the idea that ok, there were gay people out there, and I didn’t care what other people did with their lives! But honestly that was kind of weird and I couldn’t be like them, because they weren’t normal, like I should be. I was bullied a lot as a kid, because I was weird and ugly and way too shy and easy to pick on, so I grew up with this idea that whatever else happened, I had to stop being like that, I had to be beautiful and normal and acceptable. And that of course included a perfect fantasy of marrying the man of my dreams after he fell in love with men when I suddenly grew up to be the most beautiful woman there was, and having kids, and holding down a successful job that I was happy doing and having lots of money and well, just having the most perfect life. How could I not want that? Ever since I was old enough to walk, society fed me the idea that this was my ideal endgame, how could we ALL not dream about that at some point?
I used to be obsessed with those stories where the “ugly” girl suddenly turns beautiful and the Nice Perfect Popular Boy finally notices her and they get together, those stories were my dream life. As a kid and young teen I’d fantasize about them constantly, I’d make up characters that would always end up fulfilling those same tropes. It was the way to prove to all those who ever called me ugly or belittled me because I was nerdy that “see? I got the happy ending” so when I was twelve, and suddenly all the girls were having crushes on boys I felt nothing for, while I started noticing seemingly out of the blue just how incredibly beautiful so many girls my age and older were, I got veeery scared. I couldn’t like girls like that, I wasn’t like that, I was already weird and had no friends, so how could I ever hope to find a girl who liked girls who’d like me? And if I did, everyone already hated me, so how would I bear it? The stares and the insults and the danger we’d face if people saw us together on the street? So I pushed that attraction down as far as I could, I convinced myself I was actually just too inmature to start thinking about crushes and all that stuff, and obviously when I was mature enough and the time came, I’d like boys, because that’s what Normal Girls did right? And I had to be normal.
In my school’s equivalent of US’ eighth grade, a new boy came to our class, he was pretty, and friendly, and most importantly, blonde! and he was the school sports star! It felt like every movie-like fantasy I ever had come to life. Every girl was in love with him, so one time I had a dream where we were dating. I woke up being absolutely ecstatic, that must have meant I had a crush right? I liked a boy? I was definitely straight?
I never actually began feeling nervous around this boy, or looking at him any more than usual until I had this dream and decided that meant I was in love. I told a friend eventually because I was excited about being in love and the fantasy I had created for myself about our perfect relationship (which did involve us kissing and having sex, and I never actually felt turned on about it but I did imagine it a lot because it meant we were In Love, so those fantasies happen even if you don’t actually like like the person in question, dw!), and isn’t that what you do when you like someone? Gossip about it with your friends? She told some of my bullies and the dude found out, so he started laughing at me in the middle of the class and calling me ugly and saying he was traumatized at the mere idea of me liking him.
And I… felt nothing. I was angry of course, and sad, but it was just the same anger and sadness I felt when some random I didn’t like made fun of me, it wasn’t even like what I felt when former friends said nasty stuff about me. And I wanted to be heartbroken I wanted to wallow in the misery and the drama of it, but I just wasn’t, it was the same “well this shit sucks and I’m angry about it but it happens everyday so wyd?” There was no deeper feeling there, not even any special resentment, there was nothing. I never felt anything ever again when I looked at this boy.
Now, sometime later, the same boy starts dating a girl from our class, and it was around the same time that I was coming to terms with the fact that the latent attraction I had started to feel for women when I was younger had never actually gone away but rather had grown. Things were purely about sexual attraction for me at that point, not romantic feelings. I hadn’t actually been in love with a girl either by that point. Because even tho I was accepting my sexual attraction to women, I still had the idea in my mind that ideally I would end up with a boy, because when so much of my hopes for the future relied of me being beautiful and a man falling in love with me forever and ever so that I could have a normal future, letting go of that dream took a while. I called myself bisexual for a while, only to realize very little later that it didn’t actually fit me. When I did, it was hard, because I had to re-come out again to my mom and the two friends I had told, and that really scared me, because I felt like some fake, like what I felt was not actually real. I put it off, and my friends & mom were accepting but they also were like “you’re just confused about your sexuality!!/this is just a phase!!” so that fed into my insecurities. Even when I realized I was sexually into women only, I still hadn’t fallen in love with one, so that made things more confusing for me (I hadn’t fallen for any boy other than the one I mentioned earlier and one I met on a vacation that thought I liked for like a week because he had a pretty voice and was pretty androgynous lmao, but again, no heartbreak when he went away)
Eventually, (funnily enough through fandoms and f/f ships and fics that depicted them in loving relationships, And I cried when I read about girls kissing too, at first I thought it was because I was a Good Straight Ally, but I was just a lesbian lmao) I realized that I could also be happy in a relationship with a woman, that it was not only a possible future for me, but one that I wanted, one that felt right, one in which I wouldn’t be the beautiful, perfect, feminine, smart, succesful career woman I had dreamed of as a kid, but in which I’d be me, with all my quirks and faults, with another woman with her own quirks and faults who’d love me for who I am, because that was possible! It was possible to be happy like that!. When I realized this, that me liking girls romantically and sexually, and exclusively girls was okay, it felt like a veil was lifted from my eyes. Suddenly, all the feelings and attraction I had thought I had felt for boys paled in comparison to the intensity of what I felt for women, I learned what actual sexual desire was like, I yearned for a future with a real me in it with a real woman by my side, instead of the fake ideal I’d wanted to be when I was younger. It was around that time I fell in love for the first time.
Remember how I mentioned the boy I used to “like” got a girlfriend? Well, guess who I fell for? Me and her were assigned seats together one year in high school, and I got to know her through the first term, every time liking her more and more, until one day, she just walks into class, and I think she did something different with her hair? Whatever it was, seeing her felt like someone punching the breath out of me, it felt like watching literal perfection embodied. And I was gone, I was just so so sooo gone. I felt sparks when we sat next to each other, I couldn’t stop smiling like a fool whenever I looked at her, she’d say something nice to me and it felt like my soul was flying out of my body. And of course it was idealized, it was a crush on a girl I didn’t know that well, but the feelings I had, I had for her, for her actual personality, her actual sweetness, her actual kindness, even her actual rashness sometimes, not the fantasy I had made up of her that I projected onto her like I did when I “liked” her boyfriend. I liked her as a person. Plus the intensity of both crushes was just so fucking different. When I liked her, I cried when we were apart and at the thought of her with her dumbass idiot boyfriend, I listened to a love song and could relate to it for the first time. I understood finally why people would write poetry and songs and do all sorts of crazy things for this feeling.
Tldr: I also fantasized about the ideal boy and I was never able to allow myself to feel anything for a girl because of how much I had repressed my sexuality due to fear of backlash until I was able to recognize that yes, liking women was OK and then all my repressed feelings came pouring out like a tsunami.
If that sounds like something you can kind of relate to, then that’s your answer anon. However, it might not be, or maybe you don’t know if it is yet. That’s alright! Sexuality can be complicated and it can take a long time to figure it out. You’re not on a deadline here, you don’t have to stress about it.
As for the normal part, yeah being a lesbian in this society sucks a lot. And I still get terrified of the idea that I will not be “normal” and that I can never be happy. Even if I know deep in my heart that I can never be happy with a man, sometimes I wonder if it’d be worth it to spare me the pain. The answer? Hell no, I’ve got one life, one, what’s the point of wasting it on loveless unfulfilled relationships when I could try to go for someone I’ll actually be happy with? There’ll be pain, of course there will be, I live in a small town and I’ve only just started meeting other lesbians & bi girls offline this year because I’ve gone to university, and I’ve only ever actually started talking to and becoming actual friends with the ones I knew online this year too because I was so terrified before! All of them tell me about their hurt, and how lesbophobia affects them a lot, and yet I see them talking about how much they love their girlfriends/wives (I don’t have that because I’m an awkward potato but I’m trying) and also other lesbians, and it gives me hope, because I can be just like them, finding genuine happiness amidst the pain.
I hope this answer helps you.
Mod M :D
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