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cuntwrap--supreme · 4 months ago

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My dog has been having senior moments, such as randomly forgetting what she's doing or trying to walk into a street, and I've been calling her "Mr. President" when it happens.

Like, "No, Mr. President, we can't walk into oncoming traffic. That's how we get killed!"

#it makes me sad that she's so old. and it's only in the past couple months that she's been doing this.#she's still overall very physically healthy. we go on walks almost every day and as long as she wants to.#and she eats well and takes vitamins and her teeth are kept clean and her claws trimmed and her coat clean #but she's slipping a little mentally #she's 11 which is old as hell for a dog her size. the vet said golden retriever mixes (which is what i assume she is) usually live to 10.#and she's not even started going white too much. just around her snoot and a little on her paws.#so when i take her in the vet always assumes she's like 6 #but I've had this crusty old lady since shortly before i was even legally an adult #and I'm scared for when she does die because my other dog dying damn near made me commit suicide #and like I've said. I've had her a lot longer.#if she were a person she'd be going into middle school. like.#and she's had her share of weird health things. she's had a thyroid issue since she was 4. she has a weird skin condition.#she's had a couple surgeries and has scars from being attacked by random dogs (not my fault. she's well trained)#she's fallen a couple times recently but the vet says that's normal for her age #she went blind then wasn't blind and is going blind again #her hearing is starting to get shit too #I'm just so worried about her. this dog is a person to me. she's more real than my family in my mind.#and my cat is cool and all. but she's not a people. she's just a cat.#i guess the best i can hope for her is she lives the rest of her life comfortably and can die peacefully in her sleep #i think I'd completely come unglued from reality if i lost another dog to surprise everything cancer #but that's what I'm most scared of #because it came on so quickly and no one caught it despite me being that person who takes their dogs to the vet over a cough #she's sleeping right now and making goofy ass dog dream sounds. and i know i won't hear that any more sometime soon.#dog #old dog #senior dog #clio #joe biden mention

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