#i think I may need more idkkk

[piierrote]

i need to rediscover how to draw eyes im having. an incredibly hard time my eyes feel so BOXY and uninteresting

[fraternum-momentum]

(if this was already asked im so sorry! i cant with tumblrs search thingy) hii!!! i havent drawn in ""my style"" in years, but your art has inspired me to try again. do you have any tips on how to develop it and become more consistent? much love and thanks <3333

hello !!! dw i don't think this has been asked beforee so ur good :3

imo you can't really brute force developing your own style. i think it slowly develops over time the more media you consume and get inspired by ! (i mean, i'm still trying to find my style so yk,,)

in my case, i tend to gravitate towards more semi-realistic styles, so i would need to develop my fundamentals (gestures, anatomy, line of action, etc, etc..) first as a base point. i would say learning your fundamentals is important even if you want your style to be super cartoony bc it really does help when it comes to deciding which parts you want to exaggerate and stylize and stuff. (it may be boring for some people but i promise u it rlly does help a lot !!!)

btw ur anatomy doesn't have to be perfect on the get go when u want to try stylizing 😭 shit even my anatomy was p bad before i started drawing in my 'style' so dont be discouraged !

@/atie1225 @/jasminjaegerart @/quietgom @/AmiThompson_h

ok when it comes to stylizing what i find helpful is copying certain aspects of an art style i like. ur not stealing their whole thing btw !! but u should try to analyze what parts of someone's style that you like !

like for example, i like how Alfons Mucha does hair, so i implement it in how i draw. i remember i liked how Ken Wakui does noses bc its simple enough, so that's what i currently do, i liked the nose bridge lines thing from mha and jjba so i added it to my drawings, and so on and so forth

obv these arent all my influences, there's probably thousands of artists i like, shows i've watched, comics and manga i've read that influenced me etc etc and our art styles are just a mish mash of all of that ! it's actually super cool to see how different people draw depending on what influenced them so ykkk

as for consistency don't be afraid to use your own art as references ! shit even i have a couple of my drawings in my inspo board because of how much i like them and sometimes i would look over and try to remember how i did those LMFAO

but idkkk i don't think you have to strictly adhere to your style. imo experimenting is good and seeing how it changes over time is super cool ! so you shouldn't stress urself out about that :3 eventually you'll develop the habit of sticking to your style, it just takes a bit of time !!

i think that's all, i hope this helps :3

heres the drawing by itself bc i kinda like it

[zukosbangtan]

people always joke about how zuko did one good deed and immediately fell into a coma and i getttt why that situation can be seen as funny (i think that joke's funny too ok) but seriously speaking i personally i think him falling ill after freeing appa is not bc of him "doing something good for the first time" (which is not true btw🥴) and it's more bc of him not just doing something that goes against everything he's stood and fought for for years but also being directly told by his uncle to do something that goes against everything he's fought for for years. bc let's be honest, yes, iroh has tried for some time to send zuko hints that chasing the avatar is not "his destiny" or whatever but that's basically all he did until that point. he still helped him with his mission for over 3 years. he helped him chase the avatar, gave him tips on how he could find him, he even helped him directly attack aang when he escaped the first time. like to me it seems like zuko always thought that, yeah iroh may not be too happy with him chasing the avatar but that the chase after the avatar overall isn't actually wrong. and why would he even think so? cause for so long to zuko iroh was a retired successful general of the FN and the literal dragon of the west, a title he got after laying siege on ba sing se. zuko did not know that iroh actually started opposing the war which he previously passionately fought for, so why would he think that iroh opposed the chase after the one person who could stop the FN from winning this war?

so correct me if i'm wrong cause maybe i'm forgetting something but until the scene where he's about to go after appa iroh has always helped him and supported his mission for years (or thats what it seemed like to zuko at least). and then zuko has the perfect chance to finally fulfill this damn mission and all of a sudden the person who's the closest to him and who has stood by his side so far tells him that this is not his destiny? iirc that's the first time that iroh explicitly tells him so and not through some vague proverbs which zuko has already told him he does not understand. sorry but that must have felt like a punch in the gut.

idkkk does this make sense lmao? like to me it's like you've been with me on this mission for years, you helped me with this mission, you saw me struggling with this mission and NOW is the moment you decide to yell at me and tell me that this mission is basically fucked up? that i need to look inward and decide what my damn destiny is or whatever?? seriously?? sorry but i'd start tweaking too 😭 and like this is not even iroh shade (ok maybe i'm shading him a little bit. look i love iroh, he's a good uncle and i know that he didn't have it easy with zuko either and that he loves him but i still have some...thoughts regarding him and his approach with zuko but we movee) and i'm glad that he was there to prevent zuko from stealing appa and that he finallyyyy hammered some sense into him but still can you imagine just how zuko must have felt in this moment? like girl no wonder this boy basically fell into a coma lmaoo.

so yeah maybe i'm reaching with this and thinking too deep into it but it is something that i've been thinking abt for some time now and i just saw someone joke about zuko almost dying after doing One Good Thing for the 73838th time and yeah just my quick thoughts on this lol

[astridthevalkyrie]

Do you think the ck fandom downplays Miguel and Sam cheating on their partners? I don’t think it’s talked about enough, regardless of Whether sam was drinking

I may be a little biased because I HATE cheaters

i mean the fandom definitely doesn't downplay sam cheating lmao. at least not on tiktok or reddit. generally i think it's considered the worst thing she ever did. people hate her for that more than they hate the other characters for literally anything, including physical assault and attempted murder.

miguel maybe? the show and fandom both kinda excuse him for it because he pays the price during the school fight. mind you i think if sam had been the one who ended up paralyzed (fire fanfic idea btw) people would still probably hate her more than they hate miguel in canon.

the show downplays it by never really having sam or miguel apologize to tory and robby, but again. the reason they don't is because tory attempted to kill sam and robby came very close to actually killing miguel. like in juvie robby full didn't know whether miguel would make it or not and he doesn't seem to show remorse about it. did sam and miguel hurt them first? yeah. but tory and robby hurt them more, and i think it'd be hard for anyone, let alone teenagers with PTSD, to be the first to apologize in that scenario. by the time they're all on the same side, it doesn't seem like tory or robby want an apology either or care to have one (which. doylist explanation is just that the writers didn't care to have it).

frankly more than the cheating i wish they'd acknowledge how miguel helped to escalate the school fight for almost all its entirety. during robby and miguel's fight in s5, robby should've actually said the words "i'm sorry" instead of just "it was also the worst moment in my life" like bruh c'mon. why are you making this about you he got PARALYZED. and after that miguel should've apologized for escalating the fight when robby was trying to stop it. if the writers gave a damn about miguel and tory's relationship they should've apologized to each other too.

i think the actual words "i'm sorry" being spoken are also why almost everyone generally agrees sam and tory's apology scene is better. but notice how during that scene, tory says "it's not like you haven't tried to kiss my boyfriend before" but robby never says anything like that to miguel? sam will always hold the blame in the writers' and fandom's eyes for the kiss despite being hammered.

tory and miguel should've apologized to each other. sam and robby should've also apologized to each other. at some point robby should've learned that when the kiss happened, sam was reeling from learning that robby had lied to her (i have. thoughts about sam's feelings here but i won't get into them rn). sam's actions in s3 should've been more consistent. she went to the skate park everyday to look for robby and emails him all the time but never once tries to visit him in juvie? could make a watsonian explanation that daniel told her how angry he was and so she was afraid to see him or maybe she was mad about what happened to miguel but idkkk she does still email him. she clearly does still care for him. robby's actions are also weird i think him being this mad at daniel is just strange. way too many of robby's plot points are dependent on bad timing lmfao.

the writers didn't want to completely villainize sam but still needed to give robby a reason to join ck so that's why characters have to act super inconsistent. daniel not visiting robby in juvie even ONCE is insane considering he tells him he'll visit everyday. sure, robby was hanging up on his calls, but that shouldn't have stopped daniel. sam and daniel both had to be ooc to give robby a reason to fall into kreese's clutches. it's just weird.

i got very off topic but tldr it would've been nice to get proper apologies from miguel and sam for cheating. but it also would've been nice to get proper apologies from robby and tory for attempted murder 💀 the fandom doesn't downplay sam's cheating, but it does downplay miguel's, albeit for somewhat good reason

[bonnietheoutlaw]

JJ Maybanks fic prompts.ideas

some of these may be silly or stupid (kinda lots of ooc), but pls don't judge, dm me or leave the link in the comments if you use any of these pls!

JJ sometimes visits his dad in a form of self-destruction/self-harm, so now that his dad is gone, he doesn't know how to deal with or process his emotions - this could be used in many ways, but my main idea is that JJ is depressed after they get the gold (after pogue-landia or being "alone"), so he kinda shuts down or smth

During 1x05 when John B. and Kiara start slapping the mosquitos, The pogues involve all of each other In the activity, but it triggers JJ or he gets worried about the pogue's continual fighting

Barry or one of Luke's dealers has a problem with Luke and can't find him or smth and takes it out on JJ, maybe by beating him or badgering him for money - this could be REALLY dark, or simply hurt/comfort

JJ insults one of his friends on accident and has anxiety and regret over it - that's it, but I feel like you can do a lot with it, create different reactions, and display the inner workings of the pogue's relationships

A parallel to the Sarah and Kiara scene where they tricked them onto the boat to solve their fighting, what if Big John did the same thing when JJ and John B were having a huge fight as kids. I think that Big John is irresponsible enough to do it and the boys would be petty enough as kids to need it. Ik it was pope's idea, but I think it would be so cute to see the little pogues.

Barry going to attack JJ to get his revenge but ends up seeing him getting beat by a kook or smth and relating to him bc of when Ward beat him or smth in his past (even just the relation of kooks vs pogues). I think that the development and atmosphere of the fic would be interesting.

I would DIE for a fic abt when jj was little and his parents both were in love with each other (like only had eyes for eachother and had the rest of their life planned out together) and they were eating dinner or some other normal family things and his parents were talking about their dreams of moving to Yucatan, and that is one of jj's favorite moments with his family and he remembers that as his parents perfect dream (before drugs took over their life and they abandoned/abused him), sooo I think that that alone would be beautiful, or you could add how he always want to go to Yucatan to solve their problems, because he thought that Yucatan would solve his mom and dad's struggles. Ik this was confusing, but if you understand, this would be beautiful 🤩

This may be confusing, but in the seen where he fights back against his dad and has the wrench held up and says "well I ain't scared of you no more" what if his dad usednto threaten him with tools or if he really did, so jj is taking the high road or is just like having flashbacks or smth - this one is kinda stupid and a real stretch, but I feel like Luke could have hit jj with one of his tools bc jj interrupted his work or something. Idkkk y'all

This is more of a headcanon, but I love the idea of jj being named Jesse James after his mom (Jessica - her name isn't mentioned in the show) if you wanna make it a fic, it could be abt him being bullied for having a girls name and his mom comforting him or abt his dad telling him that he will never live up to her name - I read a fic (I don't remember the name, but it COULD have been 'mental Polaroids', but idk) and Luke was yelling abt jj having the same "fucking weepy-ass eyes' as his mom

This is again just another headcannon, but jj has younger brother energy sometimes, and I think he was born in June or August for some reason - probably the youngest of the pogues, maybe celebrating his birthday ro smth

I think we can all agree that John b. is sometimes an ass-hat, so maybe a fic abt him getting reeaaaalllly drunk and upset over his dad in season 1 and trying to fight jj bc jj was insensitive or for another reason

[ninyard]

Hi nin!! I just wanna say that I love your stuff (you may or may not have noticed that I've liked nearly every single thing you've posted for like a week now lmao). I rlly loved your answer to an ask abt Kayleigh being Irish and how that fit into her creating exy, cos I am also Irish and I think abt it all! The! Time!!! There's not enough Irish fans in this fandom I stg, I need more discussion abt the similarities between exy and hurling/camogie. My personal hc is that Kayleigh was a true Feminist Icon ™ who hated the way hurling and camogie are so divided by gender, and who saw exy as a means to change that. I'm also constantly wondering if Nora was aware of the parallels between exy and hurling when she wrote the books, I don't keep up with her blog so I've no idea if she's ever spoken on it but like there's no way that can all be a coincidence right??? But also I've never heard of her mentioning it so idkkk. Anyways this is really long so just to finish it off I love your twitter AUs, your character analyses are always so strong and well thought through, and scrolling through your blog is one of my new favourite hobbies!! Love ya <3

I would be so curious if Nora knew about hurling when she came up with Exy. Like was it a conscious choice to make Kayleigh Irish because of hurling??

I haven’t stopped thinking about Neil/Kevin doing this since I made that post with all the hurling gifs.

Like that’s such a neil move are you kidding me

And I also love that idea of Kayleigh hating hurling vs camogie because she’s so real for that. As a kid I always felt like camogie is like the pink washed version of hurling, diluted for girls who can’t handle the big boy sport

[softle0]

hi i know you said ask again a week from now so here i am lolll. is there an update on your "Residences for Ciudad Enamorada" lot :)?

Hiii babe!!! sooo... you're gonna hate me for this 😭😭😭 but I started working in one of the apartments, but I decided to start in a very modern one... and apparently right know I'm in my more trashy/middle class(?) era lmaoo. So I felt overwhelmed with that fancy ass build and I stopped working on it 😭😭 I stared working in a "normal" area for me, I'm literally taking inspo from the streets near by me home lmaooo 🙈🙈

BUT LUCKILY, I did some research about mexican colonial builds (I literally watched just one fucking movie lmao but that gave me a better idea and I started to remember more scenarios where I know how they look on the inside hehe) and I came with a couple ideas.

So for me, the overall floorplan idea is this:

as you can see and if you remember, these apartment residences were really big homes in the past so when they started dividing the home into multiple unit apartments, this units were usually one of two divided spaces and they're usually connected each other by doors and sooome of them may have hallways but the reality is that the main hallways were almost always outdoors. The doors to the bedrooms are even outside you can see it in the picture above. In the modern days, this units were converted in loft studios with an added bathroom (the units used to share bathrooms and kitchens before T_T insaneee) and for the bigger ones you normally need go through the kitchen then the living room to enter to the bedroom, there's no hallways, you need to almost walk every single area of the home to your bedroom.

These are the only two units I changed to a more accurate floorplan for now (at least what I think) and I added some extra info so you know how they're divided :D ***sorry i added an extra n in dining OOPS

I think you can now have a better idea in how I divided them as you can see, there's really not hallways in the units. I think the only time I'll use hallways will be for bigger units with more than one bedroom. I did a quick redesign of another unit, and this is the floorplan I ended up with:

This one was little hard to come up with because I have no fucking idea how to make this one work because I don't think they're supposed to be this big irl, So I'm not fully convinced on this one. I'm not loving how big the living and dining area is buuut this was the most accurate version I can think of lmao. So, those are the options I can give you now. If I come with better floorplans I'll let you know anon!! Lately I been watching a lot of videos and reading about mexican architecture so I might know better soon lol but honestly its been like really hard to find info about this, ugh so frustrating.

*** I just had a little thought about this, and I can't show you because I already closed my game BUT I was thinking that another great floorplan for a two-bedroom unit could be this one, please dont mind my silly ugly drawing buuttt yeahh... the black lines are doors, I think the best way to blend in a hallway is definitely a door, an open hallway concept looks a little weird to me idk

I'm still thinking whether I'll share this build or not… maybe I will!!! but IDK IDK I'm not fully convinced yet 😭😭 I just don't feel like sharing cc builds but IDKKK lol

[sc0rpain]

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18 whole scorments... wow...

- yesterday i ate a whole box of cut pineapple and then lay in the dark for an hour with my mouth stinging

- i had cheesecake with vanilla ice cream on top and ohhhh boy. it was so good

- almost everyone in my real life has started to annoy me lately. not ppl im friends with or anything, just ppl i see around. maybe im the problem

- i think my spotify on repeat is broken bc somehow "juno" is no5 even tho i haven't listened to it consistently for a while

- im graduating community college so soon!! feels so surreal. im excited for uni though!!

- the bobo doll experiment is still my favorite psych experiment bc a) valuable lesson and b) the videos of those teeny kids beating the shit out of that doll are really funny

- between the two examples of unethical psych experiments (stanford prison experiment and milgram study), milgram is my favorite

- i need someone to watch "nerdy prudes must die" so i can talk about it bc ohhhh my godddd. my new favorite starkid show

- the weather has been so weird lately. wdym it's almost may and it's cold and cloudy outside

- a MICO and mad tsai collab would do nothing for the world but everything for me. please guys please PLEASE

- dinner today is rajma (red kidney beans in this gravy/soup thing) with rice. normally i quite like it but idkkk i want smth else

- similarly my soul yearns for a jasmine tea with boba and lychee jelly

- i feel like im more chronically online than people in my life think i am. like i see the things you all post babes

- if you pinch your nose and exhale you can clear your nostrils for a few seconds

- the address plate on our house fell off so my dad ordered new numbers. but one of them is two inches bigger than the others

- ive been making minecraft flowers lately out of wood cubes. so far i have the pink tulip (made with my bestie!!), allium, pink petals, blue orchid, and cornflower

- all the flowers in my garden are blooming, which slightly makes up for my horrendous allergies

- i put away mugs by hooking my fingers and hanging a mug off of each one. five at once baby

18 scorments :3

[goobie-goo]

was thinking and had an idea. DSEM. this is dallas in honkai: star rail btw.

in HSR, there are things called aeons. they are basically gods. i consider them titans or like above gods. they aren’t human in any form and not seen often. each aeon represent a certain thing. lemme pull up the hsr wiki page for you bc i will be talking about them for this.

https://honkai-star-rail.fandom.com/wiki/Aeon

the list of aeons will be under “currently known aeons”.

OKAY SO what im getting at is basically… if dallas entered hsr, would he be considered an aeon? well, i mean, by definition he already is one. BUT!!! im not sure if he would be an HSR aeon.

he might rise to aeonhood or just be an emanator. but if he was an aeon, idk what his Path would be. like… the ideas i have for him are already taken by existing aeons. like the Trailblaze is perfect. maybe Long, the Permanence, but we don’t know enough about it. The Hunt might also be a Path, but i think it would be better for younger dallas. The Recollection fits very, very well because of the nature of the Star-Weavers.

but besides those, i don’t know what dallas would be. like if i think about it, he could be the aeon of humanity, but that seems to fit Xipe, the Harmony. and i don’t think ‘the humanity’ is the right word either, because it’s a person noun and not like… yk? idk how to explain. the other Paths are more of concepts. The order, the Enigmata, The Elation, The Propagation, The Remembrance, The Trailblaze, The Voracity, The Finality—etc etc.

i’m looking for hsr aeon ocs lmao. i’m really thinking hard on this. i need ideas. i found ocs The Rebirth and The Renaissance (i love those). also The Morality. found one called The Raidance but idk what that means, one sec—literally nothing comes up. maybe they misspelled radiance? idkkk. JACKPOT ON THE FANON WIKI LETS GOOOOO. The Reverie, The Enlightenment, The Reality, The Euphony, The Genesis, The Longing, and more.

i’m not taking any of those bc they’re all someone else’s but hhhhh ideas, ideas.

ykw? dallas might be The Revolution. rebellion could also work but the definitions are different. rebellion is normally a violent uprising against something. rebellions may cause revolution, but one doesn’t indicate the other. however, revolution is a change, usually to the power structure. (also thanks reddit comment for that). The Resistance also works.

i also really like him as The Rebirth.

but also, he’s an outlier because he can do a lot of shit that other aeons can’t. so perhaps he could also be something like the outcast, the outsider, the unknown—ugh but those aren’t Paths.

lemme actually put this in an easier format

The Revolution

The Resistance

The Rebirth

The Reality (wow a lot of Rs)

a classic: The Guidance (which fits well since Star-weavers are. yk. Guides.)

out of those, i think my favs are The Guidance, The Rebirth, then The Revolution.

anyways what do you think? i personally was writing this to ask for input on Path names but i guess i got carried away lmao

for a good second i got hsr and pjsk mixed up and got really confused LMAO

ooooo wait ok these guys sound cool

i think i really like the revolution!! it fits him super well and feels the most like concept-y to me out of those options. the others sound really cool tho

[coyotere]

also bc ik i can count on ur audience do yall think i should paint ethereal renaissance style monsterfucker porn?? idk im like in the middle bc its a hell of a committment but also... its monsterfucker porn.. and ive been doing studies of trad techniques and it looks so pretty an ive been v v tempted..

idkkk ><

-🐾

the answer may be coming late but it is always yes for monster fucker porn, we need more of it all the time always<3

[ritzcrackee]

may tbr post yayy

rereads are marked by a ☆, new reads are marked by a ♡, and new acquisitions are bolded

physical tbr: 15

more letters from a nut - ted l. nancy ♡

fahrenheit 451 - ray bradbury ♡

little (grrl) lost - charles de lint ♡

dracula - bram stoker ♡

dune - frank herbert ♡

dune messiah - frank herbert ♡

frankenstein - mary shelley ♡

juilet takes a breath - gabby rivera ♡

sense and sensibility - jane austen ♡

stories of people and civilization, greek ancient

origins - lindsay powell, j. k. jackson ♡

the silent stars go by - dan abbet ♡

touched by an angel - johnathan morris ♡

the handmaids tale - margaret atwood ✩

the testaments - margaret atwood ♡

aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the

universe - benjamin alire sáenz ✩

digital tbr: 4

pandora's jar: women in the greek myths - natalie haynes ♡

providence girls - morgan dante ♡

cemetery boys - aiden thomas ♡

if you could see the sun - ann liang ♡

read: 11

an education in malice - s. t. gibson - 3.5/5

i have,,, conflicted feelings on this book. it was good, the action was interesting, the characters were complex, the vibes were impeccable, but,,,,, idkkk.... i can't even verbalize it but there was something about this that just made it a slog to get through.

i can't help myself from comparing it to a dowry of blood, which i feel had a much cleaner execution of very similar themes. dracula felt charasmatic, he felt gravitational, he felt like a person you would give up humanity for. de lafontaine felt,,,, like a mean professor. carmilla and laura constantly wax on about how brilliant and intoxicating she is, but i never felt that. s.t. gibson can write an obsessive, imbalanced, interesting relationship! they can write it very well! so i don't understand why this fell flat for me.

overall, i think this book was disjointed. it felt like a collection of vibey scenes and quotes to put on your instagram. (which, to be fair, the quotes are banger. and the vibes are so so vibes.) i liked it, but i don't know how long it'll stay on my shelf.

maneater - emily antoinette - 2.5/5

tbh i don't have much to say abt this 👍 it was an ok book 👍

hot button issue - catrina bell - 2.5/5

i liked seeing more of this world! the couple wasn't really my thing but thats more of a me issue (get it? no? ok) i do wish there was a little more roller derbying but overall this was cool.

wild is the witch - rachel griffin - dnf

cool concept but the writing style was too repetitive for my taste 👍

luxuria - colette rhodes - dnf

i didn't like this book whoopsies. i wanted to actually try fantasy romance instead dismissing the entire genre but ummm. yeah no i don't like fantasy romance. not my thing. paranormal besties please take me back ill never stray again 🙏

garron park - nordika night - 1/5

ok so. well. where do i even start with this book. extremely silly to, at 25 years of age, call someone your enemy. are you five? are you five years old? everyone certainly swears like a five year old. tiny baby writing tip: maybe keep the word fuck to, like, once a paragraph.

additionally, you can create tension without violence sometimes! if your main characters have confessed their undying love to each other, probably they can talk to eachother for four seconds! probably they don't need to punch eachother as much! probably, a change in their actions and words would show the audience how much their relationship has grown.

i also wasn't super into how many times the main characters brothers brought up how sexy they were? kind of a weird move. certainly not something i would choose to say about my own brother, nor my best friends brother! maybe thats just me though who knows

it was genuinely just edgy k-pop wattpad poverty-porn yaoi but? i did read 300 pages in one sitting so? points for that? you get 1 point for that.

rebel girls - elizabeth keenan - 2.5/5

second pro-choice book i've read this month so thats cool! guess we have a theme going. tbh i don't have much to say about this. the characters were interesting, if lacking in depth. the plot was fine, if lacking in depth. the messaging was good, if lacking in depth. i guess this book was overall, lacking in depth. i'm sure my local free little library will appreciate it. 👍

undergrounders - j. e. glass - 2.5/5

this is just the month of the perfectly average books huh? everybody's getting 2.5 stars skdisjdj.

anyways, i wanted to see if my issue with luxuria was actually its genre, or if it was the overwhelming hetero of it all. so i read a queer fantasy romance! with all of the tropes i like! and i still didn't enjoy it :(. i am glad that i tried this, but i can say with absolute certainty now that fantasy romance is not for me.

the main couple was sooooo cutes though and the side characters were sooooo cutes and the worldbuilding was v v v cool! if you like sapphic fantasy romance? absolutely reccomend this book!

the ballad of songbirds and snakes - suzanne collins - 3/5

girl this is why u reread books bcus i used to tell people that this was my favorite book ever. it is not. idk why i thought that.

ANYWAYS this was alright. i liked how easy the themes were to pick up on, the ambiguous ending, and listening to coriolanus justify his weird evil behavior. that was cool. i didn't like um lucy gray. not because she was bad, but because she felt like a non-character yk? i thought she had some pretty cool characterization in the beginning, especially surrounding her being a performer (being a parallel to coriolanus) but then she kind of fell off and just became a stock Trusting Girlfriend. which was meh. i'm excited to watch the movie, snow lands on top or whatever 👍

cultish: the language of fanaticism - amanda montell - 4/5

this was very cool to learn about and easy to digest 👍. not a full 5/5 because it was nonfiction so i wasn't obsessed with it, but definitely more engaging than most other nonfiction books I've read.

fox court - nora sakavic - 1/5

started reading this because i heard that it was like,,, bad but addictive? like full wattpad nonesense but u look up and you've finished the whole series in one sitting yk? it was,,, not that way for me. i thought it was boring, confusing, and the characters were sooo unlikable. ik this has a pretty big fandom on here please don't come for me sowwyy um. yeah

last months goal: finish a reread

WOO HOO i did it this time! gold star for me, best reader in the whole world. this was really easy, because i genuinely couldn't remember a single thing about a ballad of songbirds and snakes, so it felt like i was reading a brand new book. i also said that i wanted to carve away a more sizable chunk of my tbr this month, which i kind of did? i only read 3 physical books, but i got rid of almost an entire shelfs worth because my family was having a yard sale! so yk. vibes.

this months goal: ... finish dune

LOOK LOOOK STOP THROWING TOMATOES AT ME LOOK ok. last time this was a lofty goal filled with folly and big dreams and it was stupid. THIS TIME i literally only have 257 pages left. which is actually so reasonable. if i read 50 pages a night before bed that's only 5 days of reading. i can straight up do this one this time I PROMISE.

[nikkisticki]

No sleep post time gotta talk about YIIK

Most people seem content recognizing YIIK as a really bad game and may give the concession of "having okay visuals/music", but I think people really undervalue that the failures are all in spite of good ideas.

A great example is Vella, who is from another reality. They actually attempt to hint at this in several ways before the reveal with the most baffling of all is a scene I've never once seen someone think about, which is the infamous "Vaguely Ethnic scene".

The intended meaning is that Alex noticing her being from a separate world (which appears to be intended in her design being not quite the same as everyone else but idkkk??) but not knowing exactly why. What it actually succeeds in doing is making Alex look like he's a weird dickhead and doesn't understand basic decency, which he doesn't.

It might have worked as an idea if she was more developed as being an outsider or feeling out of place...but that just doesn't happen, and a majority of her dialogue is expository.

In theory, she's a good character. In actuality...

YIIK I.V screenshot

I'm not one to judge as a smut maker, but it's pretty clear that they want to copy Personas waifu baiting approach to party design...and I just don't think Alex YIIK needs a harem, you know?

You can actually find more then a few remnants of the original game in various alphas, where plot is explained and things like the Golden Alpaca are set up and given meaning before hand, rather then with no explanation whatsoever.

I could go on for another six pages about this, but here's a good takeaway:

YIIK works under the idea that all realities are Canon with every version of the game acting as all canon, including older versions of the game that were never released

[lcnelyghost]

how about James march trying his best to keep the reader away from the countess, but they eventually start talking and it ends up with the countess manipulating the reader into thinking James doesnt like them? some angst maybe idkkk

I hope u have a great day, Thank u sm!!

ps: i love ur work :)

𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱’𝔰 𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔢, 𝔦𝔰 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯𝔰//𝔧𝔭𝔪 ✰

𝔭𝔞𝔦𝔯𝔦𝔫𝔤𝔰; 𝔧𝔞𝔪𝔢𝔰 𝔭𝔞𝔱𝔯𝔦𝔠𝔨 𝔪𝔞𝔯𝔠𝔥 𝔵 𝔣𝔢𝔪 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔯

𝔯𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔤; 𝔭𝔤

𝔴𝔞𝔯𝔫𝔦𝔫𝔤𝔰; 𝔪𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫𝔰 𝔬𝔣 𝔪𝔞𝔫𝔦𝔭𝔲𝔩𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔳𝔦𝔬𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔱𝔰

The sound of silence was the only sound present in the Cortez. Everyone was either out, asleep, or just trapped here, remaining in secret for however long they wished to be hidden.

You however, were wide awake in bed, just staring at the ceiling. James lay asleep beside you. His dark chocolate brown hair slightly messed up, a few bits resting upon his forehead. He always looked so peaceful when he was sound. You could never help but to admire his beautiful, sleeping form. With him being a ghost, he didn’t need much sleep. But even the dead got tired at times.

You sighed and slid out of bed, cringing when you saw James stir. You managed to creep quietly to another spot of the room, changing into clean clothes before leaving a note for you’re partner when he woke up.

Dearest James,

I have gone down to the bar for a bit of peace. I may not be here when you wake up, so no need to go looking for me. I will arrive back when i’m fully relaxed.

Love, Y/N.

You finished signing off the note before heading down to the bar. Luckily enough, Liz was still up serving drinks. So you wouldn’t need to help yourself and go a tad bit crazy. Perhaps she’d make sure you were keeping a limit on how much you were drinking.

She smiled at you before placing a glass down, putting in a few bits of ice. You liked when the two of you could talk in the dead hours of night. It was far more peaceful and no one would be able to disturb either of you.

“What are you in the mood for tonight, honey?” Liz asked. You requested you’re choice of beverage and she was busy making it within seconds. In the distance, you could see Sally sitting in one of the booths.

Liz handed you you’re drink and you thanked her gracefully. You took a sip before lighting a cigarette.

“Can’t sleep?” Liz guessed.

You shook you’re head and blew out a cloud of smoke. Not a single soul was in sight but yourself, Liz, and Sally. A chill ran down you’re spine as you listened in to the deadly silence.

“Is anyone else even up at this time?” You questioned. Liz just poured herself a drink and sat on the stool behind the bar.

“Well.. John sometimes comes down. I think Iris is probably sound asleep. And my Tristan always hits the snooze button the minute he lays down.” The two of you giggled. I think most of the ghosts were aware that Tristan LOVED his sleep. Even in death, he still found it incredibly important.

“Oh, and the Countess is always just out or in her room with Donovan or whoever she’s still with these days.” Liz said, swiftly gulping down her beverage. You raised a brow and stared behind her in deep thought.

“Everything ok honey?”

You were quick to snap back into reality. “Oh yeah, yeah. Just.. i’ve never seen her in person.”

Liz nearly choked on the small bag of chips she was now snacking on. “You’ve never seen the Countess?!?”

You awkwardly bit you’re lip. “No..”

Liz sighed a little. “Even.. even Mr March hasn’t mentioned her to you?”

“Nope..”

She looked rather confused but decided to shake it off. You were about to finish you’re drink but you seemed to notice how Liz was staring at the ground floor beneath the bar, paying close attention to the beautiful blonde woman walking through the doors.

“That’s her.”

“Sorry?”

“That’s the Countess.” Liz pointed out, getting herself off of the bar stool and pretending to clean up the minute the Countess caught her looking.

You drank the last of you’re glass before taking a good look at her. Soon enough, the two of you locked eye contact.

She smirked slightly before dismissing the thought of returning to her suite and heading up to the bar. Had you made a mistake by letting her notice you’re presence? You didn’t have a clue. From what you’ve heard of the Countess, you knew she wasn’t one to fuck around with. Be careful with you’re words. Always.

Her heels tapped against the stairs going upwards to the bar. Liz gave you a sort of ‘good luck’ expression before going off to speak to Sally.

She finally entered the bar and you turned you’re back to her, hoping she’d just go back to wherever she was originally planning on going.

That thought ended and you’re bubble was immediately burst. She took a seat on the bar stool next to you, sensing the fear radiating within.

“New face I take it?” She laughed with a slight hint of coldness to her tone, calling for Liz to come over and make her a drink. You saw the friendly, now nervous barmaid whisk out a large, fancy glass containing some sort of red liquid. You assumed it was wine, of course.

You gathered enough courage to face her, forcing a smile. “I’ve been here and there in the Cortez.”

“Hm, so what is it that draws you in to spend you’re time in this place?” The Countess questioned. You thought wisely about what answer you’d give her but just guessed it would be best to tell her the truth. You weren’t exactly threatened by her, but you just didn’t really want to know what she would do if you dared to offend her in any way, shape, or form.

“I stay here for someone who has drawn me in from the very first moment I met him.” You replied, watching her take a sip of her drink. She licked her lips and stared at you with great interest. Playfulness, even.

“Would I care to know this person?”

You sighed. “Maybe. Maybe not..”

She chuckled before signalling to you that she wanted an answer. Now.

“His name is James Patrick March. You may not have heard of him, but he has quite the reputation. So I won’t be surprised if you know who he is.”

She grinned wickedly before giggling softly. You blinked and wondered if telling her was the correct choice to make.

“Yes. As it turns out, i’m aware of who James is.”

You were confused on why she used his first name. You knew the guests and other ghosts only referred to him as Mr March. That was what he expected from all of them.

“Have you met?”

She laughed even further and you began to feel nauseous.

“James and I go way back. Though i’m sure you’re aware that he’s not from you’re timeline.” The Countess whispered. You nodded you’re head gently and didn’t know if you really wanted to find out how the Countess was acquainted with you’re beloved.

“You see, James and I were rather close back in our day. He appeared to have drawn me in with the same darkness I presume he drew you in with. It’s a pity though. Even when he put a ring on my finger, I didn’t entirely know what I was walking into.” Lying bitch. James had been the one to suffer for years due to her unloving and selfish personality. Though, that you had absolutely no clue about.

The minute she finished her last few sentences, you practically choked on you’re cold refill.

“I’m- i’m sorry?” You sputtered. James had a wife?

The Countess laughed again and took a few more sips of her drink. You felt yourself begin to feel like an idiot. James had been wed to her, and you knew nothing about it. He hadn’t mentioned anything that would indicate he had a previous lover. Especially not that his past lover was the Countess..

“I must warn you, he can be quite a handful when he wants to be. In fact, i’m still forced to have atleast one meal with him each month.” She huffed. You looked at her in disbelief. So that’s why James was never ‘available’ to see you on one specific day each month. Well, that’s how Miss Evers had put it.

“I’m guessing you’re aware of his past. I did not support his actions. But, I had to live with them. I tried to tell him about my doubts in our relationship, but I had no choice. I was stuck. I knew James would certainly never let me move forward..” The Countess lied again. Her tone was filled with pure, mock sadness.

You were at a loss for words. You’re.. you’re James was a control freak? If you ever wanted to leave him, he’d hold you captive within the walls of this hellhole?? That wasn’t what had struck you most. It’s the fact that he had been a lover of this woman for so long, and you didn’t even know about it..

I mean what could you possibly do? It was clear she wasn’t fond of him anymore, but was he still madly in love with her? Was he even YOU’RE James? Perhaps he’d been using you on the nights and days he never got to see the Countess.

“I must be getting back to my suite. Just.. keep in mind what I told you.” She grinned again, winking at you before abandoning her drink and leaving.

You sat there, a dreadful feeling of hurt and loneliness slowly passing over you. You’d been lied to. Again. So many men had all sorts of experiences in you’re life, and you thought James might just have been the one that changed everything. Well weren’t you the fool.

Liz came back over to you after she realised the Countess had left. She noticed the lining of tears in you’re eyes, suddenly growing worried.

“Sweetie, is everything alright?”

You fumbled for words. “I.. I need to go..”

You placed a hand over you’re mouth and dashed off. Leaving Liz confused and even more worried than what she was before.

***

You ran from hallway to hallway, desperately trying to get back to you’re suite. You passed Tristan on the way, he was fully clothed but was furiously rubbing at his clearly tired eyes. By the looks of it, he’d just awoken from his slumber.

“Oh hey Y/N..” He yawned, stumbling backwards when you shoved past him, still sobbing.

“Damn, someone’s pissed.” Tristan mumbled sleepily.

***

You finally reached you’re suite and burst through the door. There was no sight of James, so you ran to the bedroom and slammed the door behind you.

Curling up into a ball on the bed, you just sobbed. Sobbed and sobbed and sobbed you’re precious heart out, trying to release some of you’re pain.

James was quick to appear before you, totally stunned and extremely angry in case someone had hurt you.

“Darling! Oh, my darling.. what is wrong?” He said, reaching over to place a hand on you’re shoulder. You only flinched back in pure rage.

“Don’t touch me you bastard!”

James stared at you, wide eyed. He was totally bewildered. What had he done that would have hurt you so?

“I spoke with a familiar face in the bar. Very familiar, actually. You’d certainly know her..”

“Her?” He raised a brow.

“YOU’RE WIFE.”

James looked at you blankly. “Darling.. whatever do you mean?”

You scoffed and flew off the bed, pushing past him. He was quick to follow you into the sitting room.

“What do you mean ‘what do I mean?’ you asshat! You know exactly what I mean, James!” You screamed angrily. Flopping down onto the sofa in you’re fit of rage.

“Dearest please.. I don’t understand..”

You laughed at his foolishness. “The Countess. Does that ring any bells, Jimmy?”

He gulped slightly. You only referred to him as ‘Jimmy’ when you were extremely pissed. Now he knew he was in trouble.

“Dear, this a misunderstanding!” He yelled back. Beginning to grow frustrated with his words not even being acknowledged or listened to.

“James.. I know for a fact that this isn’t a misunderstanding. The Countess told me everything. How you got married, that you wouldn’t let her leave, how you trapped her in here! Is that what you’ll do to me?” You whimpered, noticing the look of hurt on his face.

He took a few steps closer to you and sat on the armchair nearby, sighing.

“My love, you know I would never hurt you. Ever. And as for the Countess, that woman isn’t so perfect herself. Our story.. wasn’t like that at all. I was betrayed, lied to. I thought I had fallen in love but I was so confused.. and desperate for that matter. Elizabeth used me as a distraction. A past lover of hers had passed away, and she felt herself also on the brink of death. So.. I tried so very hard to help the poor dear. Something in her had interested me, so.. I found myself feeling the need to make her happy. But what I didn’t know, was it was all a trick. A cruel, meaningless, trick. Her past lover was still alive and well. He offered to give her something I couldn’t. Immortality. That man had been infected with what appeared to be some sort of ancient blood virus.. something that would make one strong and forever beautiful. Elizabeth agreed to run away with him and his other lover, threatening to leave everything I had with her behind. They were all unaware that I knew all about this wicked plan. I.. I couldn’t help myself. I wanted her back. I still craved her touch and the warm feeling of undying love. So, I hid her lover away within the walls of the Cortez. He was trapped. Never to be found again. Just a few years ago.. Elizabeth managed to find out about this news. I didn’t bother hiding it. Whatever I did wouldn’t matter. I was practically abandoned by her so many years ago. All I did was watch as she moved on from man to man, not a single thought going to me at all..”

You looked at him with shock. Feeling nothing but guilt and utter stupidity. The Countess hadn’t been the victim in all this. It was you’re James.. you’re poor, poor James.

“So, my dear. The Countess was not the first woman I fell in love with. It was you..” He whispered, getting up from his chair and kneeling down in front of you.

“Oh James.. oh James!” You cried, wrapping you’re arms around him.

“I’m sorry.. i’m so, so, so sorry!” You cried further. James shushed you gently and pulled out his handkerchief, drying you’re tear stained cheeks.

He pulled you into his touch, kissing you’re lips softly. You returned the kiss, turning it into a more passionate, loving experience.

“Darling..”

“Yes, James?”

“Marry me.”

***

𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔰 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔪𝔶 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔰!!

𝔱𝔞𝔤𝔩𝔦𝔰𝔱; @v-love (𝔪𝔶 𝔣𝔞𝔳 𝔬𝔣𝔠)

[writer-in-theory]

👄 💀 ☕️ 🔥 idkkk if this is weird but I thought it’d be interesting ahh

to know you (spencer reid x unsub!reader)

prompts: I'm also combining it with this anon request since they ended up being super similar: 👄sharing their first kiss, 🗣️ having an argument, ☁️ enemies to lovers and 🔥 slow burn

summary: when spencer needs to work with reader to catch the real unsub, he finds she may be more than just a criminal.

category: angst with happy ending

pairing:reid x fem!unsub!reader

content warnings: language, allusions to past trauma (kept vague), a bit anti-police in the middle there, violence, brief character death, questionable medical happenings

word count: 2.7k

a/n: sorry this took so long, i hope it was worth the wait!! it wasn't weird at all, the combo made me really think but i really like how it turned out

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•─────⋅☾ ☽⋅─────•

There was never anyone more infuriating than you, of that Spencer was sure. If it weren’t for the consequences looming over the entire team, he’d be more than happy to let you be arrested for the vigilante-ism you’d taken to.

There was also no way to catch this unsub without you, so for now he was stuck unlocking the cuffs from around your wrists.

“Don’t look so upset, sour puss,” you told him with a smirk, causing Spencer to roll his eyes. He’d dealt with unsubs like you before, he knew exactly how to handle you. People like this thought they were so brilliant—so mysterious and tough—when really they were the easiest to read. Vigilantes were often hurt by the same kind of person they often hunted down. They were emotional criminals, easy to trap. “Who knows, maybe you’ll actually like me by the end of this.”

“I wouldn’t hold your breath,” Spencer shot back easily.

“You don’t have to keep acting, Spencer, I know you’re at least a little interested.”

“It’s Dr. Reid,” he corrected as he guided you through the halls of the BAU. It felt wrong to have you here without cuffs, as though you were just like any other woman; as if you didn’t have red-stained hands.

“I forgot how touchy people with their doctorate can be about titles,” you laughed and at this point, Spencer wasn’t sure if he could last through the case if it would be like this the entire time. He couldn’t even pinpoint what it was exactly about you that infuriated him, just that his blood boiled whenever you were around.

“Are you capable of not talking for more than two minutes?” Spencer snapped, wishing that any other agent was able to go undercover with you.

“I don’t know, I’ve never tried.”

“Maybe you should.”

The club was far too loud for Spencer’s liking. The two of you were dressed for a night out, his hair styled back off of his face. Eventually, both of you would have to speak to one of the unsubs to see if he’d give up his partner. For now, though, the two of you were told to enjoy the club.

While you were ready to bolt to the dance floor after retrieving your drink, Spencer was quick to wrap his hand around your wrist and guide you over to one of the few empty tables, in the back with plenty of space to watch the crowd for your targets.

“Who goes to a club and doesn’t dance?” you complained, still having no problems sipping on your drink.

“I don’t dance.”

“Have you ever tried?”

“I don’t need to. It’s not part of this.” Why wouldn’t you just leave it alone? Spencer didn’t understand you sometimes. It didn’t even seem like you were trying to antagonize him on purpose, but rather were genuinely interested in finding the answer. He wasn’t sure he liked that any better, though.

“Do you always think about the job? Is any part of your life separate from it?”

“I’m not going to talk about me,” Spencer tried to shut down the conversation. The quicker they could get to Rogers, their target, the sooner he could get far from you. The feeling that built up in his chest when you were around was so unfamiliar and a little scary, it wasn’t something Spencer was ready to think about yet.

“Okay, we’ll talk about me. I used to be just like you, all uptight and desperate to please my bosses. Then I realized they were all using me, and they’d use me until I was nothing. It’s much more freeing this way.”

“You’re killing people,” Spencer hissed back, unable to accept that choosing to be a rogue vigilante was really the best option for you.

“So are you. You just get paid to do it.”

“It’s different. We’re different.” How could his job be anything like what you do? Spencer saved lives, not take them. He only took lives when he needed to, when the villains were so bad they refused to live without hurting and taking. They were different, Spencer was sure of it.

“Are we? You don’t know anything about me other than what I do on weekends.”

“I don’t need to know anything else.”

“No, you’re scared to humanize me. You’re scared you might actually see something you like,” you pushed, smirking at the way Spencer’s cheeks flushed hot with frustration.

“I’m not scared of you.”

“So ask me something personal.”

“What’s your favorite color?” he sighed.

“That’s not personal. Try again, champ.”

“Okay, um...what do you do to relax?”

“You mean after drinking the blood of my victims?” Spencer scoffed, eyes widening as if he couldn’t truly believe what you were saying. Just when he thought you could be normal, you were off saying things like that. “I’m joking, c’mon, Dr. Reid. I’d say my favorite thing to do is put on some comfy clothes and curl up on the couch with a good book.”

“You read?”

“I used to be an English teacher, what did you expect? And don’t say you didn’t know, that was definitely in my fancy FBI criminal file somewhere.” It was in your file. Spencer remembered reading it and wondering how a teacher with so many awards turned into a killer. For so long, he couldn’t imagine you as anything other than the woman who held knives to mens’ throats. Now, it was far too easy to picture you cuddled up with a fuzzy blanket, reading one of his favorite books that he had memorized by now.

“I didn’t think you kept reading.”

“I didn’t become a different person when I started doing this,” you told him. “I’m still me, I just...I refuse to let men like that continue to hurt other women like me.”

Spencer knew what happened to you. He’d read it and found himself momentarily rooting for the wrong team. You didn’t deserve what happened to you, and the men you were killing were certainly horrible people, but Spencer just couldn’t reason out the way you were going about finding justice. “Why didn’t you just go to the police when you found out what those men were doing?”

“They didn’t believe me when it actually happened to me, why would they trust my word now?”

“I would’ve,” Spencer reassured you softly, hoping you understood now that the people who had abandoned you did not represent everyone. He wished his team had been around to take your case, that they could have stopped all of this hurt in its tracks. He wished you were believed from the start.

“Well, then for a cop you’re not so bad, Pretty Boy.”

“Don’t call me that,” Spencer snapped, the nickname enough to snap the moment in two and spark hurt deep in his chest. Though he still saw Derek often, it wasn’t the same now that his friend was no longer working at the BAU.

“Yikes, okay. Didn’t take you for someone with toxic masculinity syndrome.”

Spencer sighed, knowing he didn’t have to explain anything to you but for some reason feeling as though he wanted to. It didn’t sit right with him that you would think that way of him. “I’m not,” he answered, “It’s...you wouldn’t get it.”

“What makes you say that?”

“Because you don’t—you’re not capable.”

“Not capable of what, Dr. Reid?” you asked, voice sharper than he was used to hearing it. Clearly, you were expecting what was about to come from him next. “What am I not capable of?” you dared him again, pressing until he finally blurted the words out.

“You’re not capable of caring about anyone.”

As soon as he said it, regret flashed through Spencer’s core. He watched as your entire face crumpled for half a second before it hardened stronger than it had been before. “Let’s get this over with, I want to go home,” you spoke, voice numb which was more frightening than any sort of anger Spencer had been expecting.

So he stood, only barely wincing as you looped your arm through his as if he hadn’t just been cruel to you. The pair of you walked back over to the bar, and Spencer let you take charge for now. You knew how to get to the back room of the club, knew how to request a meeting with the owner of it. It was why they’d allowed you to become a CI in the first place, knowing you were their best shot at taking down a major unsub.

This was important, so all Spencer could do was follow you to the back of the club and hope what happened between you two got better when the job actually started.

It didn’t get much better when the undercover mission started, either. In fact, it was almost worse. The backroom of the club smelled heavily of old tobacco and weed, and there were enough bodyguards to make every muscle in Spencer’s body tense from where he sat. It wasn’t often the team had to take cases like these. If it weren’t for the high-profile victims, the BAU likely wouldn’t have been handed the case at all. The initial thought was that you were the unsub, but already the case was unraveling into a far more dangerous answer. With one wrong move, the both of you were dead, simple as that.

Yet despite all of that, you were completely relaxed perched on Spencer’s lap. His arms were snaked around you, holding on around your waist. The dress you were wearing was gorgeous, though the revealing cut of it meant he could feel the heat of your thighs through his pants.

“I don’t know why you’re pressing so much, Y/N,” the man in front of you spoke, hand around his glass of whiskey tightening. Spencer slipped his right hand a little further back on your body, trying to position it as close to his concealed weapon as he could without being obvious.

He wasn’t liking where this was going at all.

“I told you, Rogers, I don’t like where this is headed. They’re asking around, and you know whose names they have? Ours. We’re gonna take the fall for this if it all goes to shit,” you pressed, and Spencer fought to keep down a smile. It was impressive, the way you were able to work the situation without any proper training. He knew actual agents who couldn’t do what you were doing.

“So make sure it doesn’t go to shit,” Rogers pushed back, scoffing and rolling his eyes as if that were a worthy answer.

“It already is!” you yelled, standing from your spot on Spencer’s lap. Before he could stop you, you were surging forward into the unsubs space, staring him down with such intensity Spencer was sure he himself would have folded under your gaze.

The criminal did no such thing. Instead, he reached out and his hand connected with your cheek so strongly you stumbled backward. It would bruise, of that Spencer was sure.

He was also sure that for once, he was seeing red not because of you, but for you. And before he could consider the repercussions, Spencer was pulling out his gun and training it on Rogers.

The calm demeanor on the other man should have sent warning signals through Spencer, but for now, he was only focused on the way you were getting to your feet, hand still cradling your hurt cheek.

“You cheeky little traitor bitch,” Roger spit toward you, “you brought an undercover in here, didn’t you?”

“What, you thought I’d talk to you alone?” you refused to back down, even when Spencer was practically begging with his eyes for you to.

“Put your hands up, Rogers,” Spencer ordered, “You’re under arrest for assault.”

“I’ll be under arrest for a lot more than that when I’m finished with you two,” the other man threatened, and Spencer could only hope that the wire was working well enough that the rest of the team would come in as backup soon.

Spencer heard the shot before he felt anything. The man just to the outside of his vision had lifted a gun and he didn’t even notice. His body tensed up, waiting for the all-too-familiar burn of a bullet wound to surge through his body.

It didn’t happen, however. Instead, Spencer heard a small whimper from just in front of him.

“Good riddance, bitch,” Rogers spat before taking off with his henchmen, leaving Spencer alone in this far-too overstimulating room with you on the ground.

How had it hit you? The gun had been obviously leveled at his chest, the bullet should have killed him. It should have hit him, unless—

“You took a bullet for me,” Spencer gasped, dropping to his knees beside you. There was so much blood, too much of it leaking out of the wound in your shoulder. It must have nicked a dangerously important blood vessel, reducing your chances to a scary number.

Keeping in fashion with surprising him, you let out a breathy laugh. “How’s that for not caring about anyone?”

Were you already in shock? The words didn’t make sense in Spencer’s brain, didn’t connect with what he already knew to be true. “You care about me?” he asked, voice shaking as he applied pressure to the wound. He could hear the footsteps of his team rushing through the building, likely having taken off as soon as the sound of a gunshot went off.

“What, you think I flirt with just anyone? Actually, don’t answer that,” you winced, letting out a sharp cry as he applied more pressure to the injury. Spencer felt guilt claw deep in his chest, but there was no way to slow the bleeding without the pressure. “I wanna die thinking you saw something good in me.”

“You’re not dying, Y/N,” Spencer spoke, never sounding more sure of anything else in his life, “and don’t try to prove me wrong just because you can.”

“You know me so well, Doc.”

“I don’t, I don’t know anything about you but I want to,” Spencer was practically begging now, tears coming to his eyes at the thought that this would be the end of their story. It wasn’t even clear if this would work out—you two were so different—but he couldn’t let you die without knowing. “You’re so infuriating. Since I met you, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you. There’s something about you.”

“I’m guessing it’s not my career choice.”

“How can you still be joking like this?” Spencer laughed through the tears, shaking his head. You didn’t even seem upset at the very real chance of this being the end.

“Hey, Spencer, can I ask you for a favor?”

“Anything,” and he meant it, because his team was there now but the paramedics were still making their way back to the room after the danger was cleared.

“Can you kiss me?” So he did, bending down over you and pressing tear-stained lips to yours. Spencer tried not to think about the fact that yours felt a little colder than what they should, but instead on the way that this felt more right than a kiss ever had before. He kissed you until the paramedics were pushing him out of the way.

Until the paramedics were performing chest compressions. Until they were trying everything they could to resuscitate you. It felt like every breath they were pumping into you came directly from Spencer’s chest, leaving him gasping around nothing. It wasn’t until you were strapped to a board and carried out, heart pumping again, that Spencer came to life again.

And it wasn’t until he was sitting beside your hospital bed, knowing with certainty that you’d make it out of this alive, that he felt truly okay again.

And when you woke up again, Spencer took your hand in his and asked, “Hey, Y/N, can you do me a favor?”

“Uh, I’m a little limited on options here but yeah.”

“Never take a bullet for me again,” he spoke, causing you to laugh around the fog of painkillers pumping through you.

“I can do that, Spencer.”

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[dolliedarlin]

Hi I’m one of the anons who’s obsessing over the P.A series!!!!! For some reason my brain has been full w diff things that could happen IDKKK! Hope u don’t mind if I dump a few....

TW: this is A bunch of rambling and some grammar errors LMAO sorry

Idk y I c y/n having a stalker💀 this prob sounds rlly weird but hear me out. (To add drama, also I Lowkey wanna c Mina,Sero and kiri get mad idk y-)

Since we all know y/n is the baddest most sophisticated b*tch (sorry idk if I’m allowed to cuss or not LMAO) her Ex lover is still obsessed w her and thinks that they are soulmate even tho they obv aren’t. I feel like y/n knows he stalks her but she ignores it until it gets worst. Like he found out where she lives. (He finds out where she lives while she’s sick which is now loll)

Anyways I feel like Mina would be over at y/ns place and since she’s getting better they are In her living room talking abt who knows what and y/n gets a knock on her door she goes to open it and admittedly closes it looking shocked. Mina being a pro hero is  supposed to be able to read body language. Mina ask her if everything is Alr and y/n OFC (stupid a**) says yes. Mina didn’t want to keep pressing the issue so she dropped it until it became a reoccurring thing with y/n and it’s not just her that noticed. She (y/n) is extremely hesitant to open the door and when she does she opens it a little bit. (And then idk her EX does crazy like breaks into her apt and scares the sh** outa y/n) THIS IS WHERE MY BIG IDEA STOPS 😭😭😭😭😭😭 that was a lotta rambling my apologies

Have a great day dollie!

oh no! please don’t feel bad, it’s always fun for me seeing what you dolls would want to happen next

although i don’t plan on bringing any psycho exes into ‘the p.a’ series, as a writer and an avid daydreamer, i can’t help but play around with this idea 

warning: there are brief mentions of violence ; this is not a part of ‘the p.a’ series but is just a little thought that i just couldn’t help but try my own hand at also ; i didn’t edit this either 😂 so kindly forgive any grammatical/spelling mistakes 

continuing on from your idea...

⏤mina, having the sneaking suspicion that something bad might happen to you that night, notifies the rest of the group later on that day

⏤usually, bakugou was in charge of you during the night and always sat in a chair beside your bed on high alert, ready to serve your every need...

⏤BUT!

⏤now that mina told them about your suspicious behaviour, all of them were put on high alert. 

⏤they all agreed to keep you unaware of their intentions by having bakugou take care of you like usual but they made sure that when on the night patrol, they were close by with their radios on and constantly being hyper aware of the shortest route to your residence from wherever they were situated - just in case of an emergency 

⏤naturally, they trusted bakugou with keeping you safe but that didn’t mean that they had no worries for you at all 

⏤seeing as you usually feel asleep before bakugou switched with the sero, who took care of you in the late evening, you were under the impression that you were alone at home 

⏤your current condition disallowed you from comfortably staying awake so you were constantly tossing and turning in bed, brows furrowed and sweating more than usual

⏤”what is she dreaming about?” bakugou utters in frustration as he continues to wipe away the vastly accumulating sweat rom your wrinkled brows

⏤he wasn’t frustrated at you no no, he was annoyed at the fact that he couldn’t make you comfortable no matter how many wet towels he uses to cook your forehead or wipe your sweat clean off your skin 

⏤as the night progresses, you eventually fall into a dreamless sleep, far too exhausted to continue stressing over your ex with the added burden of your fever on your body

⏤nevertheless, bakugou continues being on high alert at all times except for when he momentarily leaves to room so as to go to the toilet 

⏤this was the perfect opportunity for your crazy ex to sneak into your room via the window bakugou left ajar so as to help cool you down better 

⏤your ex was a creepy and disgusting man - someone that you had grown to dislike the more you got to know him and naturally left as quickly as you were able to 

⏤what followed was harassment to the highest degree, thankfully you were able to protect yourself due to your self defence training and quirk, however, it didn’t take away the shuddering feeling of being watched constantly

⏤you grew paranoid and extremely fidgety over time and eventually filled for a restraining order. unfortunately, that didn’t work and left you to deal with the situation yourself

⏤you were naive enough to think that you had shaken him after a particularly horrible beating he took from you in self defence. he had come at you with a knife but you were able to disarm him and send him limping home with a dislocated arm, a black eye and a bruised ribcage 

⏤over time, you got busy with work and slowly forgot about him, it wasn’t until today that you were reminded of his crazy obsession with you and were thrown into a panic 

⏤believing that you were alone at night and in your most vulnerable state, you didn’t feel safe and sought to deal with the situation however you could, even in your dreams

⏤all attempts were in vain, however

⏤bakugou, returning from his momentary break to the toilet came back just in time to see your creepy ex hovering over your sleeping figure. as if you sensed the unpleasant existence stalking you, your body stiffened under the blankets and you began to breathe uncomfortably, beginning to sweat bucket-fulls once more

⏤not wanting to disturb your sleep as rest was the top priority for you, bakugou crept up from behind the unknown figure and instantly went for his neck, choking him into silence as he dragged his thrashing figure outside, far away from you all the while sending a emergency signal to the rest of the squad 

⏤in no time at all, the rest of the squad arrived and had your crazy ex cornered. at this time he had already been tied up by bakugou and was ready for a quick chat 

⏤”what the hell were you doing with our yn?” kirishima began, sharp teeth grinding together as he clenched his jaw 

⏤silence 

⏤”speak up, we can’t fucking hear you,” bakugou spat as the others glared on from beside him, their eyes piercing through the moonlight and darkness of the night 

⏤”y-yn isn’t yours - that’s the first thing,” your ex finally cracked, giggling creepily in between 

⏤”you’re right,” sero began, “yn doesn’t belong to anyone so why were did you break into her house,” it took everything in sero not to lash out but they needed answers

⏤”wrong again!” your ex sang, “she doesn’t belong to you, she belongs to me! i’m her boyfriend!”

⏤”yn doesn’t have a boyfriend,” kaminari spoke up

⏤”that’s right! and if she did, we would have known,” mina agreed

⏤“that’s because she doesn’t know it yet, we broke up but we’ll get back together again soon” the tied up man giggled to himself, “it’s only a matter of time before she realises her mistake and she comes back to me,” 

⏤the team of heroes didn’t know what to say, they were so shocked and appalled at what they were seeing and hearing that they couldn’t bring themselves to utter a single word of response, they only listened further

⏤”i hoped she’d come back soon, anyway...but i was getting impatient so i had to try and convince her a little more. she’s been ignoring my love for her all this time, she can’t continue rejecting me for long...” he laughs, “i bet she misses it”

⏤“miss what...?” bakugou didn’t want to know but it had to be said

⏤”i bet she misses being with me. she’s so beautiful and so soft to the touch, she always smells good too and she has such a lovely voice - i want her all to myself, she doesn’t deserve to be anybody else’s”

⏤it was then that the team of heroes just about lost their minds. the creep before them didn’t say anything explicit but the madness in his eyes and the harrowing smile he was displaying was off putting. they dread to imagine what a lowlife nasty sob like him put you through but they saw flashes of unforgivable scenes that sent all of them into insanity 

⏤someone so precious to them didn’t deserve any such treatment. you may not have disclosed anything to them strict on being professional but if this man was willing to break into your house...they were fearful to think about what else he was capable of

⏤he deserved a beating from that act alone, actually, and a beating he got

⏤they could’ve killed the guy - they were more than tempted to and it would have been so easy...but he deserved to suffer in jail for his crimes against you so they held back no matter how painful that was for them 

⏤the very next day, under their authority and recommendation, the man was locked up for as many years as they could tally up and seeing as they were heroes, they were able to look into his past documentations and found you had filed a restraining order for him under harassment, assault and a number of other things they grew all the more furious at the more the read

⏤they would prefer it if you didn’t realise what they did that night but the media couldn’t let the story of 5 high class pro heroes sending a singular, beaten man to jail for life

⏤your creepy ex’s battered photos were all over the news and you were so incredibly grateful  

[seijorhi]

asks :))

i’m bad at answering things :)) whoops.

ughhhh your writing is actually immaculate, you know?? like not only are your scenarios always hot and well characterized, but the writing itself is so. on. point. like the grammar/word choice/sentence structure and variety and i hate to sound like a english teacher but when an x reader does all that right... it just hits different idkkk - @gingersnaaps​

HI I LOVE YOU THIS IS SUPER FUCKING SWEET <33

Ok but imagine how awkward it is to be shoved into that room with the rest of Seijoh mannn what was the conversation lol

very, very awkward. but considering the wide eyed, confused and slightly terrified look on the reader’s face and how fucking pissed off mad dog was, it wasn’t too hard for them to connect the dots lmao.

Rhi ill be honest, all day i have thought about your kyoutani taking me home afterwards and trying to help me feel better with all the bruises i know he left and then judt fast forwarding to me being his perfect wife that adores him with her whole being so, thank you <3

i mean... yeah. if that’s the scenario/ending you wanna imagine go for it bby! haha, but thank you!

FIRST OFFFF your kyoutani fic is *chef’s kiss* i swear you never miss. now i didn’t fuck with that tennis ball mfer before, but after reading that fic— whewww officially a kyoutani simp

and second. what’s that drabble/teaser of the mc being “stuck between her husband oikawa, iwa, and a hungry young kageyama with something to prove”?? somebody pls provide the link👀

i can’t find it :(( but tbh it was like two sentences from memory, you’re not missing out on much. but yeah, kyoutani supremacy!

Omg thank you for writing Rabid!

I love Kyoutani and I feel like he’s super underrated especially in the fanfic part of the Haikyuu fandom. You wrote a masterpiece, it was wonderful! 🥺💕

You made me love Kyoutani more 😎

ahh thank you, nonnie!! kyoutani needs more love <33

whaaaa can we get the link to that drabble with oikawa, iwa, and kags pls?🥺

it’s not an actual drabble, more just me rambling and bby i tried to find it but i couldn’t :(( sorry!!

poly seijoh yakuza.......... those words have sparked such a strong emotion in me thank you

it’s just very sexy y’know?

You’re just so talented and I hope u really know that and don’t just accept compliments but internalize them because holy fuck your writing is amazing every time even for characters I’ve never cared for in the past

dear nonnie, you now have my heart. please be gentle w it 🥺

Hdjejehehdjdh I'm living and dying for the soulmate Au's that you have. Just thank you so much for the delicious food!

ahh thank you, bby!! glad you like em :))

Heyy :3 I just read your Kuroo Story "Gift wrapped" (I love it!) and i wanted to ask if there is going to be a fourth part because there still are some open questions (like what bokuto did to our poor reader and I wanna see Kuroos reaction to it! *^*). But yeah, I love your writings and I can’t wait to read more of them :)

you want a part 4?? from me?? who has to be bullied into writing part 2′s?? lmao sorry to disappoint bby but i don’t think i’m gonna write more for that fic, even if it is one of my faves. but i’m glad you liked it!!

Hey rhi!! Hope you’re doing well🌹🌹 would you ever consider doing a alternate POV for Like Nobody Else? I’m dying to know the details of what iawioi were thinking and what thoughts were running through their head as they slowly piece together that y/n is their soulmate 🥺🤩🤩 I love reading from the yandere pov it gives me butterflies 🦋✨ and ofc your writing gives me butterflies as well 🦋

have i thought about it? yes. did i try to write a lil something for you? also yes but it was bad and so i didn’t because i don’t wanna throw crap writing up onto my page for the sake of it. maybe one day? it wouldn’t be a full fic if anything just maybe a little drabble

Always and Inescapable are too much for my heart to take but I love it 💯 do you have a tag list? If so may I be added?

i do not because tag lists take forever, half the time they don’t work and usually i’m posting barely awake at 3am in the morning so it’s not a fun experience, sorry. but thank you!!