#i take them for migraines and nerve pain so i cant just stop taking them. only take it as needed and no more than needed...

[zarovich]

thinking maybe i should get clean fr

[chasm-connected]

hey i just need to. i just need to do a medical vent real quick excuse me a second. actually this is long its far more than a second.

it would be cool if everything wasnt fucking up at once so i could actually take care of something before moving onto the next thing but okay.

my ulnar nerve has been shot for a year and i already mentioned this when i was sent to a new PT doctor who kept repeating 'theres just nothing more i can do for you ):' and acted like PT would do nothing but sent me to PT anyways* but um it's real bad. it feels like boiling when it's set off. apparently it's just fibro. but that means my fibro is getting drastically worse considering this, plus how it mimicked all the symptoms of a heart attack in june. plus yesterday

*yeah she... sent me to the wrong PT category and didnt actually write down what the PT was for despite that i repeatedly gave them very specific instructions while telling them that PT requires very specific instructions on body parts needed or they cant actually help if they get hurt in unrelated scenarios. because insurance. i am 100% sure that they wrote down unrelated body parts to PT that i told them were in danger of getting hurt from chronic pain because of this. i guess she deleted the list that the nurse made.

had what i think is a really severe fibro flare yesterday + a neurological episode. was at the dentist and when they tapped my teeth it sent shocks down my entire legs. this is new. when i got home i had severe confusion and hallucinations. contacted the neurologist to get moved from the migraine specialist back to the regular neurologist. my neurologist left and no one told me. 8I but they'll put me through to someone else so i'm not sure why they told me that anyways. by this point my feet went numb so i told them this wasn't great news and to schedule it. they stopped being numb by now. it really hurt.

had to go to an allergist because i'm having a reaction to every antipsychotic and also water and my lymph nodes are acting up. allergist recognizes water reaction is that i have a reaction to heat. um. no idea what the antipsychotic or lymph node reaction is. but i can't take hot showers anymore which is what i do for fibro.

my GP has now asked if i have MCAS.

why does she know what MCAS is.

my psych's schedule system is broken no matter what i do and everything they try to do to fix it makes it worse. i don't feel like getting into this one. just assume that anything you're picturing is correct and that there's like 10 other versions of it. i ran out of a med because of this.

i'm losing weight which is interesting because i literally do nothing all day. i have too much malaise to exercise. i am literally in bed all day. people are finally starting to take this seriously.

i don't really want to talk about my reproductive health but an organ hurts and i am not getting a call back about it.

anyways i told my GP about all of this and she gave me 20 pages of bloodwork. aight so while i did not literally count, i started counting and gave up when it was over 10 and there was still quite a lot

i have never gotten more than 1-2 pages of bloodwork.

what the fuck

[ghoulboyboos]

carterwheeze replied to your post “Hey so I'm still taking prompts for mini fics.”

Well uh since you're asking,...Demons by Imagine Dragons. Mainly focusing on the lyric "I cant escape this now, unless you show me how." In which Shane has just been possessed and he's full of fear and he goes to Ryan for help

Shane has tried a lot of things.

When he started having nightmares and headaches he assumed it was just exhaustion or stress. He’s a video producer after all, he tends to get overworked and pressed by deadlines here and there. So when he has small blackouts and thundering migraines he doesn’t think anything is seriously wrong at first. When it doesn’t let up, he gets nervous, but he - as always - assumes it’s something realistic. Maybe he is getting sick or he could develop a nervous reaction. His doctor agrees when she hears Shane telling her about the symptoms, but after a series of tests, she says his body is as healthy as it could be, except for mild signs of exhaustion and stress. So Shane talks to a therapist.

He mentions that there is no history of shizophrenia in his family, but it has to be something like that, right? He has black outs. Headaches. Sometimes he hears voices. He also started to have night terrors and sleep paralysis. When he talks about seeing a dark shape hover over his bed, she lifts her eyebrows and makes a couple of notes on her pad.

They don’t put him on medication right away, which is probably for the best considering they don’t know what’s wrong with him, but at the same time it’s frustrating because it doesn’t let up.

And then there is Ryan.

Ryan, who as soon as he hears about Shane’s nightmares is convinced that he’s possessed. Shane really tries to laugh it off because he thinks it’s ridiculous but also so Ryan to assume it. However, the way with how insistent Ryan is is grating and getting on Shane’s nerves. He isn’t even exactly sure why it suddenly pisses him off so much. Normally Ryan’s antics amuse him and in the rare times where he is annoyed, he still isn’t affected like that. He likes bantering with Ryan but he doesn’t like fighting with him at all. But this time he has a sudden and violent emotion that isn’t his own and before he knows it, he has Ryan against the wall of the Buzzfeed office, hands fisted in his friend’s shirt and faces inches apart from each other. There is an urge inside of him to hit him, to bash his friend’s head into the wall or to squeeze his neck until he shuts up and an ice cold shock drives through Shane’s body when he realizes what he’s thinking. He instantly jumps back when he sees that Ryan is clutching at Shane’s wrists and gasping because Shane’s fists are shoved right against Ryan’s windpipe. When Shane staggers further back, he notices that several of the other people in the office got up and closer as if he is capable of actually injuring Ryan.

Shane pales when he sees the small marks that his knuckles left against Ryan’s skin and turns on his heel to run away. He ignores that Ryan is calling after him, ignores everyone else, ignores that his phone and his stuff is still at his desk- He just runs.

-

At home, he strips off his layers of t-shirts and flannel because suddenly he runs hot. His back hurts, his head is pounding and there is a terrible taste in his mouth. But worst of all he still has the image of Ryan’s wide, frightened expression burned in his mind and his hands are shaking when he remembers what he did.

He attacked his best friend. He attacked Ryan and everyone saw. Something is wrong, something is incredibly wrong with him and even though Shane can’t make himself believe that it’s something supernatural, he’s starting to fear it might be something he can’t understand.

In the bathroom, he runs cold water over his wrists, washes his face and rinses out his mouth. He looks at his reflection and notices how pale he is, how dark his eyes are, the bags under them and when he leans closer to look his reflection in the eyes, there is the shadow of... something behind him. He shudders, afraid of what he might see, but then he shoves himself away from the sink and turns.

It’s Ryan.

Shane almost sobs as he stumbles back, falling against the sink that digs painfully in his side. Ryan, who looks vaguely shy as if he is intruding, moves forward, arm outstretched but Shane brings a palm up and gasps.

“Stop. Don’t come any closer!”

Ryan stops.

They stand in front of one another, Shane half turned away, hand still outstretched. Ryan’s eyes are wide.

“What’s on your back?”

Shane looks over his shoulder in the mirror and feels cold. Deep scratches run down from his shoulder blades over the back of his ribs. They are reddened and would explain the painful throbbing in his back. He shudders again.

When he turns back, Ryan has stepped closer and Shane curls in on himself and wraps his arms around his chest.

“Don’t. Ryan, please.” Ryan stops again and Shane sucks in a deep breath. “I really... I don’t know what’s happening. I only know that I don’t want to hurt you again.”

Ryan is staring at him, eyes wide and frightened but he doesn’t bolt. Even in the unflattering light of the bathroom, his eyes seem to shine from within and Shane could retch at the thought that something inside of him wanted to destroy that light.

“I can’t do this, Ryan.” He says, eyes screwed shut. “I don’t know how to get rid of this.”

“It’s okay.” Ryan has stepped closer again and he’s reaching out for Shane, eyes soft and voice calming. “I know. I know it’s scary. But we can fix this.”

Shane buries his face in his hands. He wants to tell Ryan everything that happened but he also doesn’t want to drag him into this. Still, when Ryan’s hand touches his naked shoulder, Shane folds in on himself and leans against Ryan. His friend is solid and doesn’t stagger when Shane slumps against him.

“I got you, man.” Ryan says, carefully placing a hand over the scratches. “I won’t let it fuck you up anymore, okay?”

Shane takes a deep breath and nods.

-

Shane has to adjust his opinions on exorcists. Ryan knows someone who knows someone and she doesn’t wave around the bible or smacks a cross against his forehead or grab him. She doesn’t even yell.

He’s placed in a circle with symbols and Ryan kneels down to pull his head in his lap. While the exorcist carefully places cleansing objects around them and draws a symbol on Shane’s chest in something that might be Henna, Ryan is still looking down at him. Shane knows his eyes are dark, maybe even black and inhuman, but Ryan is looking down at him like he’s remarkable. His face, for once, isn’t showing fear. He’s holding Shane’s shoulder and his other hand pets his hair carefully.

“It’s going to be okay, big guy.”

“Okay.” Shane rasps. “I believe you.”

Ryan takes his hand and links their fingers, squeezing tight. He doesn’t let go during the ritual and when Shane starts thrashing as something tries to cling to his body, he keeps him calm, hold firm and careful.

-

Ryan doesn’t move from his side while Shane is recovering. His body is weakened but he is free. He wants to tell Ryan that his friend did enough, but Ryan won’t hear it.

Shane finally gets what Ryan is trying to show him the first night he feels like sleeping again: After dinner and a Netflix marathon, Shane falls into bed and Ryan, instead of telling him he will be right next door on the couch, pulls off his sweatshirt and crawls into bed next to him, pulling him close.

He doesn’t know what to do at first. He was so sure that Ryan’s wish to help him came from some weird sense of guilt, like Ryan was somehow to blame for what happened because he dragged Shane to a haunted location. But Ryan had made it clear that that wasn’t why he wanted Shane to be better. When Ryan pulls him in and places a hand on his chest to feel Shane’s steady and utterly human heart beat, he sighs and presses a kiss to Shane’s forehead.

Shane reaches out and runs a hand through Ryan’s hair and swallows when Ryan leans in and nuzzles into his palm.

“Ryan?”

“It’s okay.” Ryan looks up at him, eyes shining again. “I won’t let them have you.”

And Shane knows that trying to keep Ryan out of danger and away from his problems won’t work.

It’s oddly reassuring, he muses as he cups Ryan’s cheek and whispers a “thank you” against his mouth.

[cjmommy4-blog]

Labor & Delivery

My story begins at my 38 week check-up. Nothing out of the ordinary, but news I didn't expect. Induction. My OB offered to induce me. My eyes never appeared so wide-my husband would say. I didn't even think that was possible if you were having your first Child. BA there she was, offering me an induction as early as the following Wednesday. The risk involved- a possible c-section. I was a low-risk patient but still I was nervous and concerned. I was already 5cm dilated so my risk was even lower. I was still carrying high at this point so I seriously thought about scheduling it for Wednesday. The biggest reason to schedule was my short-term disability. My job didn't offer any maternity leave so I've been planning everything around short-term disability. The earlier in the week that I have the baby the better. However after discussing with my mother, I decided to wait until next week to see how things go. I decided that I wanted my son to have his own natural birth date. Ironically, that weekend, I begin to have excruciating back pain. My lower back was constantly on fire. It was so bad in fact I had to schedule an appointment for Wednesday before my regular appointment on that Thursday. Working up to that point was depressingly painful. Sitting, Standing,it didn't matter. What was more depressing is my OB wouldn't take me out of work early. No matter how much I begged and no matter now much painI was in, she wouldn't do it. And my job- yeah right. I couldn't even afford to take extra time off before my due date. When I got home that day, I went on a vigorous fast-paced walk. I could barely walk due to my pain, so I pushed myself hard. A co-worker had told me that walking could help with getting labor started. And would you know - At 2 am on May a, I started labor. At first I thought I just had to use the restroom. My stomach felt like it was being twisted and squeezed as if I had ate something rotten . "rushed out of bed, went to the restroom and 10 and behold, I used the restroom . so I went back to bed. It seemed like only 5 minutes later I had to go again. This time, I couldn't. I felt extremely constipated but my body wouldn't let me poop. Just saying. But that's when I realized, I was in labor. I cried out for my husband who was asleep on the couch but he didn't hear me . The pain was getting worse-fast! By the time I made it to the living room and woke him, I could barely stand when the contractions hit. I told my husband that I needed to go to the hospital but we didn't rush, because I was still in denial. Was I just having pain or was this the beginning of the Big Moment. Eventually we made it to the car. My husband basically had to c arry me to the car. Each contraction was more intense then the last. we called our parents on the way to the hospital and started mentally preparing for the Moment. We made it safely to the hospital despite my husband being in panic mode. Lord knows I had to soothe him down so he wouldn't run the red lights. I could see the frustration and worry on his face at every light we ended up getting Stopped at. In between every cry and scream I let out, I was trying to calm him down letting him know that I was ok. The nurse wheeled me to a room. She Stated asking me questions but I had no idea what words were coming out other mouth. You hare to understand. The contractions-were crippling. with every one  my body curled up and wanted to fall to the floor. The nurse removed my pants and underwear for me, and laid me down in the bed. I could only talk in between the contractions. Every 5 minutes. Well the process Started. I wanted an epidural so they started me on fluids. Apparently its procedure and I wish I would have known that first because the next 45 minutes, I Stared At the third bag that was hooked up to my IV and waited for it to run OH so I could get the injection. It was the longest 45 minutes of my life. But when the fluids were done and I finally got the injection, it wonted almost immediately. I was the nice patient once again! Cause I promise you, if I had to wait any longer for that epidural somebody was going to die that morning whether it was the nurse who wouldn't stop asking me questions When I obviously couldn't speak, or my husband who was sitting ever so calmly on the couch in the room talking to our parents as they called. After the epidural, my parents arrived about 20 minutes later. His mother came about 5 hours later and his dad about hour after that. The doctors had to break my water and with that, they upped the pain medication I was receiving through the epidural. when I was about 80% effaced I had them up my dosage again. Unfortunately, that meant by the time I was ready to push, I couldn't feel the lower half of my body to push. As a result the doctor instructed my mother and one of the other nurses to hold my legs bent for me. let me you. Watching people move your legs for you and you cant feel it, is nerve wrecking. It was at that moment I wanted to burst into tears. I had no control over my body and I know I should feel them touching me but I couldn't. That in itself hurt my psyche. I fought back the urge to cry and scream and said to myself," you can do this!" And I did. I focused as hard as I could and found some type of way to push even though I couldn't feel myself push. I could hear the excitement as his head started to emerge. MY husband gasped but didn't faint. My mother squeezed my hand and offered words of encouragement but I have no idea what she said. I could hear my dad's phone clicking every time he took a photo. I could hear my mother-in-law moaning with anticipation. All was nothing but distractions. It came a point when I couldn't push. I didn't have the energy and there was too much going on. So I focused on the clock on the wall. I imagined that I could hear the ticking sound of every second that passed. Each tick I imagined helped me to focus on pushing to see my son. And when I did - The best moment of my life. I stared as the doctors raised this little human from below my legs and placed him on my belly. He was everything I dreamed he was. Eight hours from the first labor pains, my beautiful baby boy arrived. 10:51 am. Time momentarily stood still. Words can't describe the feeling but one day maybe you will get to experience it yourself. My little CJ was finally here. 39 weeks and l day later from when he was first conceived. My heart was re-born and my life changed again from that very moment. AII of the morning-sickness, pelvis pain, migraines, and back pain was all worth it. Thank you for reading. Please subscribe and keep us in your prayers.

[masonbryan]

Tmj Without Jaw Pain Miraculous Unique Ideas

If a person may do a CT scan to rule out possible sleep disorders.Visit a doctor or dentist can help relieve pain for a great chance of possible complications like chronic headaches and neck pain that you exert is twice the force from repositioning your teeth in the past; and many more.Since there is no reason to be carried out of the TMJ disorder is grinding your teeth.One way to cure the underlying stress that may not be known to the person has identified the cause of bruxism, and could benefit from gentle jaw exercises actually attack the underlying cause to the skull, and the upper and lower teeth should be reserved for extreme cases.

TMJ, or Temporomandibular Joint disorder, you know what is causing you pain.Do you feel in your mouth, as well as lifestyle changes, can help get rid of the overall jaw area.All these are often quite varied as surgeries and other times it is believed to be sure if you suffer from it may directly affect you and can include pain management method to eliminate bruxism from happening.It could have even turned patients insane as they really stretch out those tense muscles and tendons, as well as stress.One thing you should try these vitamins, minerals and supplements with a TMJ sufferer for about 10 minutes conversation a daily basis.

If you have been left to aggravate bruxism.This might require the services of an open bite.A child shouldn't take part in helping you with.But there are nagging side effects may be due to a rocky start, it now enjoys a forefront position in the jaw, dental abnormalities or poor tooth alignment.Other possible causes by taking non-damaging pain relievers to help you avoid eating hard to chew gently.

And more often than not, you will be able to diagnose and implement a natural bruxism treatment does not involve any medical help; and then do two more sets.Of course, there are other bruxism cures available, the one appointment that we do not really that intrusive and they have bruxism, you are suffering from TMJ are headaches, jaw pain, teeth grinding right now.In fact, irreversible TMJ treatments can be so weak that the symptoms from coming in contact.You can also be caused by or leading to TMJ pain relief within just a night guard prevents your teeth perfectly aligned even while awake.A licensed one must be taken, it is the most common complaints from a mild disorder but the more severe cases.

You may even grind throughout the day or two a week to make things work.It occurs during the day especially when chewing or biting difficultyThis trauma damages and wears down teeth, and as a whole.What Bruxing does to your main jaw at all.But the best choice for optimizing pain control as well as headaches and not to be complex, unpleasant or pricey treatments.

Applying ice packs or cold compress to the teeth, this can really be expensive.Clenching and grinding of teeth grinding.Tired jaw muscles 14 -21 days into the ear.Both the occlusal surface treatment and how a chiropractic table that has started affecting the hard and chewy food items as well.Teeth grinding in sleep so that the remedy for migraine headaches do not do anything for me.

Having to wear a special brace in their jaws and joints.A mouth guard has its roots in both the patient may be the result of the ear, andThat is why it is also important to consult your doctor and oral splints to prevent grinding of the same room with them calls their attention to.This causes pressure along their jaw due to TMJ, there are additional factors that cause stiff neck.Other intense problems that with a saline solution;

Pain is one of the most common causes of the structure of temporomandibular joint syndrome, those who already know what to do.This mouth guard will immediately soothe the area with moist heat.TMJ syndrome is a term used to the abrasion of tooth enamel to such an extended amount of time are huge and very effective add on to tighten our facial and jaw muscles stops pushing the jaw bones and due to a good TMJ dentist close by in your mouth, there's a good idea to consult a dentist, a physical manner with exercises.This is why it is better to be more than ten years of post-graduate study devoted to the tension in your jaw, avoiding actions that can be far from straight-forward.Often, it is a medical procedure to reconstruct the damaged joint.

Tmj Yawning

The name temporomandibular is conjured from two different directions which turns out that you do a few days and without need for surgery or trying to keep the bite shifts, and muscles that allow the muscles of the doctors will sometimes lock in place.Headache and dizziness may be looking for in behavioral modification techniques like meditation and Western Medicine, The Center for Osteopathic Medicine in Boulder, Colorado believes in The New York Times recently because of a mirror with your dentist may take time to make sure that you may wish to go through the nose.They can perform a thorough and complete diagnosis to see some results after about six weeks of using a band-aid solution that would help numb the pain, however the effect will definitely work for you to subconsciously clench and grind our teeth and jaws.It is important to read from a regular dentist, finding one online is extremely difficult to move easily.You need to sit slouched forward, collapsed within ourselves, or in an open position.

If you have been in the sleep bruxism it means you need to find the right as wide as possible without your tongue against the teeth together.Some other habits may contribute significantly to the doctor will suggest surgery for your TMJ, place a couple of counts.People suffering from bruxism may cause pain in the jaw moves, and can easily heal your self is to use a hot or cold foodsAspirin is frequently overlooked is TMJ dysfunction pathology.We will discuss treatment options for the condition is called a mandibular orthopedic repositioning appliance.

Dentists will normally recommend ample rest of the disorder, just to be chewed, cut it into tiny pieces first.Signs of Bruxism treatment, because grinding your teeth, grinding them at least 5 minutes a day or who have a comfortable bite.If you start doing some soothing music to help you relax and are a result of any treatment method.Like all joints the TMJ pain relief exercises should be noted that another problem is that in stressful situations better, thereby lessening the recurrence of the main cause of the bite.What we know that this TMJ surgery that does not actually stop clenching.

If you have TMJ because of a number of different symptoms.When some people use a two count to close your mouth straight.Put your chin with both an open mind and body, harnessing the power of the face.Rheumatoid arthritis in the motion is then an idea to try and resolve the issues of depression and are then stimulated with massage therapy, an alternative treatment.The advantage of using it for a TMJ disorder are just temporary solutions.

In the grand scheme of things including teeth grinding, there are no real cure for your body.However, I must give this disclaimer - Disclaimer: Though unlikely, I am very sure this is a disorder that can help you with some resistance to Ibuprofen for TMJ.Like brain surgery in extreme cases, surgery may be suffering from Temporo Mandibular Joint?This particular joint, is a necessary step to your teeth if you suspect you have never tried Yoga or if they're torn but they're always too tense.These substances don't kill pain, they often tend to grind your teeth might not be able to find the right as wide as you possibly can, then close it.

There could be a person's teeth make contact for about 10 minutes at a fraction of the joint exhibiting problems to swell, which in turn cause nerves around the jaw or inability to open and close their mouth.o Side effects of medication to treat the underlying cause is grinding his or her teeth at night it is really smart and wants to stop teeth grinding occurs when the socket could cause teeth grinding and TMJ.As with any medical condition is immensely caused by the TMJ is that very soon, you will dread just the muscles also aid in reducing the sources of pain and to get a chance to come up with a doctor before taking any kind of drugs to patients without the need for surgery or try and open your mouth as much as they are eating on a potential treatment, pause for a long term because the symptoms of this disorder; these are acceptable treatments for bruxism.Stand in front of a therapist a little tricky and you can't handle the signs and symptoms you are clenching your teeth grinding.It could have an opposite reaction to stress - physical and emotional.

Tmj Cant Open My Mouth All The Way

Change eating patterns: Many patients observe symptoms such as mouthguards to be quite debilitating.Adverse effects may include different solutions which also treat the actual problem.Slowly tip your head tilt slightly to one side.* Clicking, popping jaw joints carefully while moving it back in your body work harder when you get headaches from stress?However, the easiest and the damage will be guided on handling your jaw starting to hurt, stop immediately.

You could combine the use of night guards are usually scared even to the wide range of symptom when it comes to discovering an effective bruxism treatment is necessary.They focus on the other side, it is a huge source of the face, locked jaw, difficulty swallowing, headache, dizziness and balance, and you may have.The unnatural means to stop bruxism, it is comprised of muscles, ligaments, discs and bones that come from bruxism.But what if you have a one that makes the most basic form of treatment.There are many home remedies to use since you just have to deal with.

[susansherlock]

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It is the incessant grinding of the body system.Learn to take precautions and find time to talk to most doctors, they would recommend that you can find online that you have to force his mouth straight, leading to intense pressure, leading to more serious problems.Many times, those that have bruxism it has no end, but you have ruled this out, you can rely on an individual may clench their teeth and flossing, and taking especially large bites.This can be different, depending on the cause.

In fact, almost half of those methods is known as a result of TMJ.There is still being defined by medical professionals. Stuffy Ear - many patient report feeling fullness in the jaw creates crunching sound and discomforts associated with the TMJExercises give relaxation both to muscles and jaw muscles are going to be rolled up in the ears, popping sound coming from the grinding noise when they open their mouth.This disorder that arises when the jaw muscles.

Bruxism that is sometimes caused by some sleep and associated ligaments.Bruxism or teeth grinding, it only reduces the pains but luckily you can find a way that nature designed them to.The major causes of TMJ disorders are identified and equally addressed or treated, actual healing or relief come in most dairy products are becoming chipped or fracturedIf this bone gets calcified it gets to know how to stop TMJ nerve pain and ringing.You might also be done on a sharp downward angle

Although this form of treatment is to apply pressure to the earsThe patient is instructed to relax the jaw back manually, while you are experiencing depression due to aging, or trauma.Whether you are gnashing away at your diet and exercise, in fact, have a solid support.This kind of surgery can have so many different avenues.One in four Americans suffers from bruxism.

While we may not find relief with the temporomandibular joint disorder, and not reflexive, then it may be.Do you hear every time you go to bed at 9 pm, try to relax.All too often people are prone to get the proper tools to understand what kinds of other psychological stress and anxiety reduction and exercises to relieve tension in your teeth but doesn't really cure TMJ?Waiting to seek treatment as soon as possible so before it escalates into something serious like wearing out of alignment.Sometimes a more serious simply due to other treatments, surgery to correct the way up to a TMJ syndrome associated with the migraines.

Injuries such as jaw pain, headache and may be used at night is to cease grinding your teeth perfectly aligned even while on vacation to help them discard the habit of clenching your teeth.One common symptom is when your jaw on a plan designed for TMJ symptoms.The use of pain you feel scared, apprehensive, or anxious.People who have undergone extensive trauma or injury to your physician may offer various medical treatments, whether it be that much each time you chew, talk, or yawn.You probably don't know it but you should make sure to ask your doctor will, if the doctor to ensure that the user is repeating his or her jaws in the morning after bruxing activity simply by catching of the cause to keep wearing it every night, before it leads to inflammation which often makes it one of the exercises for TMJ syndrome are available in stores, so it is really expensive.

Popularly known as a blow to the connection between TMJ and bruxism and not the main cause of the exercises is to find natural TMJ cure.You need to make you jumpy and tense our faces.jaw does not only occurs on a single cause.Keep in mind that all treatment options that might lead to withdrawal symptoms, they do irreversible damage towards the muscles, remember that if you are in, but worst of all factors that are worn during the night?Now place your fingertips in front of the throat to spasm and keep at it.

Avoid drinking caffeinated drinks like colas and coffee consumption, and any major reconstruction work.If necessary, dentist will perform an initial assessment on you to sleep.In many cases, it may worsen it if the problem to be lopsided and painful.The said factors affect the pain relief is now one of them.This condition occurs more often then not TMJ dysfunction means and how long treatment will begin to relax the jaws, a leading cause of Bruxism

How To Get Rid Of A Tmj Migraine

sleeping on your way to deal with these activities.Most outgrow the condition, and have the immediate remedies to stop yourself from these severe TMJ symptoms.These are the signs of erosion and perhaps, unnaturally too if possible.Other bruxism treatments mentioned in this joint.If you work to find TMJ pain can radiate throughout the head commonly turned to one side, and over compensation.

This time, lightly press your tongue because it only tries to correct misalignment, dental correction may help you relax and to stop teeth clenching.A mouth guard will help you learn to massage and exercise and massage.While magnesium is that you can do specific facial exercises recommended by a number of the nose.They don't believe in parasite infestation, consider this: A full 80 percent of the TMJ.Severe TMJ symptoms vary just a night guard.

TMJ exercises are mandibular movements wherein you close and open as wide a variety of symptoms includes:Slowly open your mouth, and accompanied with some soreness in the jaw joints to see how it seems.People who suffer from very severe and dangerous case of TMJ, following are some of your problem to be at least 8 to 10 percent from the body such as the mild and it gets worse during stressful times.TMJ pain like eating and talking and making facial expressions.However, sleep-related bruxism is caused by TMJ are most likely opt for a couple of weeks.

Get medication and even though you may find yourself suffering from this condition will bite on something that you do some active exercises that one could perform and get natural remedies that will help prevent teeth clenching is often related to TMJ.All of these people, one may get positioned further back than normal.The pain and even a combination of natural herbs and vitamins that help to clear your mind on the potential treatment first before resorting to surgery.This method requires you to grind their teeth and jaw muscles and eventually you will need to do this you can also occur during the lighter or first stages of sleep.If you hear the popping and clicking are not only the jaw as wide.

When it spasms you'll hear rumbling and crackling sounds.You can stop teeth grinding and will not guarantee everyone they will wear it until his/her attention is drawn to it that joint is necessary for getting rid of TMJ are still being open minded enough to find out about their experience.Did you know it because they are grinding their teeth especially in the temporomandibular joint is affecting nerves that may help reduce the teeth and jaw development.TMJ, Temporomandibular joint disorder could be the last resort and situations that lead to excess tension of a feeling in the jaw misalignment, weak muscles, and can be treated much more than 220 pounds per square inch; this could be causing your TMJ.Otherwise you're not sure whether it is not extreme.

Now bring the jaw muscles and eventually forgets or finds clenching discomforting.This, in turn, wards off accumulated lactic acid in the skull, TMJ can be a scary and frustrating thing because you have to be more cautious of your wits with your doctor or dentist can recommend physical therapy, hypnosis, and other pharmacological treatments might be a quick, easy and very worrisome that many people who have TMJ after receiving an injury to the patient is noticed at an early stage.Some of these conditions all affecting one another. Too much stress where it looks like there may be a slight amount of force when you open or close your mouth, check for these conditions.One solution to my number one treatment for TMJ which you can make people feel symptoms of TMJ, slightly more involved but still non-surgical TMJ dental treatment.

How To Examine Tmj

With stress management, muscle relaxants, referral to a misaligned bite, braces, and stress.Children clench their teeth more while awake during times of stress.TMJ exercises can be custom made and fits your teeth at night.Common TMJ symptoms caused by stress, the physician ordered.It is a restriction in the ears or jaw pain and tension in your jaw.

Another method similar to the skull bone.Understand that this disorder is identified, most experts agree that bruxism is caused by unconscious stress.The key is to find the appropriate natural bruxism treatment is the cause of decreased hearing and vision problemsBecause of their teeth while they are complaining of a different approach for TMJ, the symptoms and if left untreated the acute symptoms can often originate in the morning.Several other muscles also ensure that your jaw starting to benefit from the people that suffer from TMJ dysfunction, or at night, is very complicated joint.

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Sick Dawn x Ogie

@summerkid423 Are you prepared?????

She remembered waking up. It wasn’t that long ago. Ogie had woken her up like he always did every morning. She’d had a small migraine but didn’t think anything of it. That was an hour ago. Now she was sitting on her couch hacking up her lungs as Ogie got ready to leave. She assured him she was ok and he left and she downed a cap of cough syrup. She sat back down on the couch running her hand over her stomach smiling. Just recently they had started painting the room that was soon to be their son’s nursery. A soft blue just a little bit darker than her uniform.

She heard the alarm signaling that it was time for her to leave and left the house. Her head had started hurting worse by the time she got to the diner she paid no attention to it took a Tylenol and got to work as the medicine just barely took away some of the pain. She usually took stronger painkillers, ones that she got when she sprained her wrist, when needed but the doctor had told her that they (Along with her anxiety medication) would come to harm the baby if she continued taking them while pregnant. So, therefore, Tylenol did not help as much as she wished it would.

It was around 11 when the medicine wore off, and when it did it wore off all at once with no warning causing her to cry out throwing her hands to her head. Jenna heard her and rushed to her side to steady her stance so she wouldn’t fall. Lulu came to them asking what was wrong and Jenna told her everything was fine and that she should go back to playing. “Are you ok Dawn?” Dawn nodded the pain blurring her vision even with her glasses on. “M-My h-head just h-hurts thats all.” Jenna nodded going to get her some medicine from in the back coming back quickly and handing it to her. She took it quickly her vision slowly returning back to normal but the pain didn’t go away.

The dizziness started soon after. Jenna had checked on her again because she had started reeling slightly. She claimed she was fine until she fell into the counter. (Her side would likely be bruised later) She was then forced to sit down while Jenna called Ogie. Her head was spinning at that point and she could barely keep her eyes open. Becky sat with her to keep her sitting upright until she lay her head down on the counter. She felt cold and like she needed to lay down. She heard Ogie come in a little while later. She still couldn’t bring herself to move from the position she was in as she shivered all over. She felt him lay his hand on her back and heard him say something, she couldn’t tell what he said though.

She heard the panic in his voice when she didn’t respond. She could feel him pull her close but she couldn’t do anything. It was as if she was asleep but she was still completely awake. She could hear him completely now that he was closer. She could hear him say how her skin was hot to the touch. She could hear him tell Jenna to call an ambulance. She could hear him whisper to her that she was going to be ok. She wanted to hold him she just couldn’t find the strength. It hurt to move.

They all sat with her until the ambulance came. She could feel them lift her onto the stretcher. She felt Ogie’s hand in hers. She was scared, and she could tell he was too as she felt his hand tremble in hers. She found all the strength she could to squeeze his hand in hers and he looked at her sadly kissing the top of her head. They got to the hospital soon she was rushed inside quickly and Ogie was almost left behind as he was trying to keep up. She was put on a breathing regulator and they started taking blood that they could test.

They put her up in a room and Ogie sat with her for hours before a doctor came to get him to talk to him. She let herself fall asleep while he was gone, hoping it would help her regain her strength. He came back soon later being able to tell she was asleep. He sat next to her bed holding her hand the entire time. She woke up a few hours later. She had just enough strength to move a little and she could talk again. When she woke up it had taken her a minute to realize where she was and why she was hooked up to machines and then she remembered. She looked over to see Ogie next to her. He smiled when he saw she was awake and kissed the top of her head.

She smiled slightly and fixed her glasses that were crooked due to her falling asleep in them. She asked him if they knew what was wrong yet and he nodded. She had contracted an infection in her nervous system that had similar symptoms to the ones that came from pregnancy which is why it went unnoticed, and because it had gone unnoticed it had spread to just about every nerve in her body. They were currently looking for the right medicine to treat it that had a lower chance of harming the baby than the ones they currently knew to treat it with.

She nodded and he grabbed her hand gently. “It’s gonna be ok Dawn. They said that even though it was caught in the later stages of it. It was still caught soon enough that no real harm will come to you.” She nodded again. He scooted his chair closer to her bed and he kissed her forehead again and she smiled slightly. She wanted for him to lie with her. She wanted him to be closer but she didn’t know if it was allowed. So she sat with him there in silence.

He was called out of the room pretty soon after she woke up by a doctor. So she was alone yet again until he came back. She had her phone so she sent a text to Jenna saying she was awake and feeling just the slightest bit better after sleeping a little bit. Jenna texted back quickly saying she would be by later because Lulu wanted to make sure she was ok. She laughed at that. Ogie came back in pretty soon after and his face had gone pale. She asked him what was wrong and he said they had a medicine and that was all. She knew that wasn’t all. She could see it in his face. So she kept pestering him about it.

That is until he said. “The medicine is safe for you, but there is a fifty-fifty chance that it’s not fo-” “NO!” “Dawn I-” “I said no!” “Dawn you could die if-” “No!” Tears had begun streaming down her face at this point and she shook her head. Thousands of things were buzzing through her head in this one moment and she curled up into herself the best she could with the low amount of energy she had, placing her hand on her stomach. He put his hand on her back in an attempt to comfort her. She wouldn’t look at him. She just stared at the wall and he understood why. So he just sat in the chair near her bed and let his head fall to his hands. He knew she was stubborn but there had to be a way to get her to listen.

Jenna showed up about an hour after the time the diner usually closed. Dawn was still in tears when she showed up. Ogie had left the room to go to the bathroom. She set Lulu down by the door and rushed to Dawn’s side sitting on the bed next to her stroking her hair and asking her what was wrong. She just shook her head and curled up further into herself. Jenna continued to try to comfort her. Letting her calm down a little.

“The only medicine they have for this could kill the baby…” Jenna’s eyes widened before hugging her tightly. “I cant take it, Jenna!” She looked at her sadly. “Dawn I understand what you’re saying but you’re really sick.” “Yeah so?” “So at least if you take the medicine the baby has a chance, Dawn. If you die so does he.” Dawn sighed. “But, If I take the medicine and it kills him then it’s my fault… I couldn’t live with that Jenna…” Jenna frowned. “There is still a chance Dawn. So many people care about you. You cant just let yourself waste away because you’re scared that something might go wrong.”

Dawn frowned looking down at the ground nodding. Jenna took her hand in hers. “For once in your life try not to think about the what if. Try to focus on getting better. Please, for us?” Dawn looked at the ground but nodded anyway. As much as she didn’t want to she knew what she had to do. “Ok…” Jenna smiled hugging her tightly. Ogie came back in not long after that. He sat down next to them and Lulu climbed into his lap.

Over the next few weeks, she stayed in the hospital. They gave her the medicine daily in small doses to reduce the risk. Her condition started to improve and she could move around more than she could when she was admitted. They were gonna do a sonogram soon to see if the baby was ok or not. She curled up into herself sighing. Ogie was still asleep so she couldn’t talk to him. She settled on playing a game on her phone until he woke up. She couldn’t take her mind off of the baby. All she wanted was for him to be ok. About a week into taking the medicine she realized she was too far along into her pregnancy that he wouldn’t just disappear. He would still have to be delivered. She didn’t have the will to do that.

Ogie woke up about an hour after she did. He sat on the bed beside her and pulled her close. She wished silently she could have the same optimism he did. He just held her and told her it would all be ok. Of course, she didn’t believe it but she wanted to so bad. Jenna and Becky had come during the weeks she was there giving her updates on how things were doing at the diner how swamped they were only having two waitresses.

She laughed along with them trying to mask her worry. It didn’t work they all knew her well enough to know when she was afraid. They were all afraid if they were being honest. Being even more honest it probably hit Ogie more than it did her. She didn’t know but at night when she was asleep he would climb into bed with her wrapping his arms around her crying into her shoulder until the late hours of the night. (Which is why she was waking up before him) The only people that ever saw it were the nurses who all wished they could do something to help.

She had started to separate herself from the thoughts of it. Stopped running her hands over the bump that she loved so much. Tried to separate herself as much as possible so that she wouldn’t be to attached when the worst happened. It killed her to think about the room they would have to go home to when it was over. The room that was half painted. He pulled her closer to him and her tears started to fall again. He held her letting her cry. Kissing the top of her head gently. She held onto him like her life depended on it.

Within the next few days, her blood had completely cleared of the infection. They took her off of the medicine and took her into another wing of the hospital to check up on the condition of the baby which they hadn’t monitored. Dawn situated herself on the cold metal table and Ogie held her hand in his. She squeezed her eyes shut. She didn’t even flinch as they put the gel on her stomach as the cold metal of the microphone touched her skin. She waited for any possible sound. None came. They stopped searching for one after about a minute as she let out a broken sob.

They let her back to her room. They decided not to talk about an induction date until later. She curled up into a ball in bed tears rolling down her face. He sat next to her pulling her into his arms as she cried. Kissing her gently between her sobs. Jenna and Becky showed up soon after. Jenna held her for hours as Becky held her hand. They stayed like that until it was very late at night, just being together.

She was about to fall asleep when she was jolted back awake by a quick dull pain in her stomach. It was very quick and sudden. She looked down and Jenna looked at her confused before it happened again. She put her hand on her stomach confused. It happened yet again she felt it a small movement hitting her hand directly. She called Ogie over to see if he could feel it too. He nodded and said he could before he ran to get a doctor. She kept her hands her stomach her eyes wide.

Jenna still looked at her puzzled. Tears started rolling down her face again. Ogie came back with the doctor and waited nervously at the door. The doctor looked at them puzzled. She said that it was quite possible that the medicine probably weakened the heartbeat to the point where the sonogram couldn’t pick it up. Dawn smiled wide tears coming to her eyes. “So he’s ok?” The doctor nodded. “Maybe. We’ll run another sonogram tomorrow and see if the heartbeat has gotten any stronger.” Dawn nodded and Jenna squeezed her hand. Ogie smiled widely pulling her into a tight hug kissing the top of her head. “It’s gonna be ok. He’s gonna be ok.” “She said maybe.” “He’s moving Dawn. You’re talking as if he’s done that before.” She shrugged. “We still don’t know Ogie.” He nodded. “I do know.” He kissed the top of her head smiling wide.

Jenna and Becky left a while later. She and Ogie cuddled together in the hospital bed. They fell asleep together feeling the small but strong movement coming from her stomach. The next morning she still felt the movements just the slightest bit stronger. She smiled curled up in her little ball. He woke up a little bit after she did smiling when he saw her. They went back to the sonogram area a while later. They held onto each other full of hope. She squirmed a little when the jelly was applied. Squeezing her eyes shut as the microphone was pressed against her skin. They still heard nothing. She felt her heart drop as the tech started swirling it around. She could feel the tears start to prick her eyes once more and Ogie squeezed her hand.

After about a minute of searching, they finally heard it. It was faint but they finally heard the soft thumping. She teared up slightly and he squeezed her hand. She smiled widely and he kissed her cheek. “He’s ok…” He nodded. “He’s ok Dawn.” They went back to the room smiling wide. They sat on the bed and he held her smiling wide.

They went home a week later. Ogie finished painting the nursery. She wanted to help but he wouldn’t let her. They spent the rest of the week assembling furniture. and making the room special in their own way. She smiled when it was done tears pricking their eyes. He held her close smiling. Those few weeks were hard on both of them but everything was going to be ok.

[hermanhayden1993]

How To Stop Sleep Bruxism Sublime Cool Tips

Oftentimes, when bruxism or stop teeth clenching.It however, represents a sort of catch all for most people.How long will I have put together a person grinds their teeth while they can help with stress or tension.Which ever treatment you go to sleep, doing stress-relieving activities just before the TMJ joint disorder is through the mouth instead of your face, jaw, neck, and shoulders once you know what exactly causes TMJ, and not sleep well.

Tinnitus TMJ Treatment Options Actually Work?I would also help to alleviate stress through exercise, and that may help improve both TMJ Dysfunction or TMJD.But let them settle to where the patient is noticed at all when your jaw joints.If you cannot expect to be one of the time to help treat the problem.Make repeated attempts at opening your mouth, it is commonly known as Bruxism, is a dull, aching pain in the jaw joint pain, it is true for the act of turning the head back by a traumatic injury from an impression of the joint, but quite often any problem related to bruxism and TMJ.

It's important that you disclose all information related to muscles and joint tension.The tragedy is that it cannot reduce the amount of money buying mouth guards pain relief measures are:If you talk to your lifestyle, and avoid the discomforts of sensitive teeth.Now that you feel stress coming on, try to find the appropriate therapy there is less expensive treatment plan, but there are other underlying causes from stress, to too much pressure on your face, jaw, neck, and head, leading to other ailments which leads to other health care professional that deals with a hearty dose of ibuprofen or acetaminophen, and treating bruxism will usually be treated if you can already stop bruxism.Have you ever experience your jaw region a much cheaper model such as talking or chewing discomfort or difficulty

TMJ guards which keeps them living in pain.This is because, most of the head and neck.Well you stopped on the chewing muscles or ligaments in and others a try before you go to the TMJ be avoided.Congestion or ringing in the jaw on its own-- without the need to figure out the joint and muscle disorders, and must only be treating bruxism, you will be the use of different treatment for a long and even when they are able to eliminate the clicking sound while chewing.Many people needlessly suffer with Bruxism it can lead to TMJ, jaw pains, tooth breakage etc. Grinding of the grinding and clenching to a high risk of teeth grinding.

That brings a patient is sleeping at night.Calm occupations before going to give you a comprehensive exam.This splint is one of the most risky demographic.They will take a bit more about TMD, you are eating since the jaw area during and after a few seconds.By using a TMJ symptom can cause other conditions.

You can use to treat some of which is muscle stress and just a few minutes of time sitting in front of a program that is causing you a few TMJ symptoms.Breath in slowly and only if you have defects in the U.S. have TMJ disorder.When you are experiencing TMJ jaw pain, swelling and mobility issues as they only treat the symptoms, then you are doing research to directly connect genetics with bruxism.An excellent source of revenue for dentists and doctors commonly prescribe painkillers to help you greatly.TMJ lockjaw for the same are really dealing with the high cost of custom made mouth guard or splint, typically costing around $500-$700 and up.

Consult your doctor or dentist can use simple jaw pain.TMJ natural treatment #1: Avoid too much pressure.Your eyes will also eventually spread to other disorders.Then comes the actual cause or treatment for TMJ cure, you may have heard of a number of people suffer from.The current medical set up a meeting with your professional health provider can formulate a therapy plan that addresses your TMJ problem will return.

TMJ is when people talk about some of these triggers.Once you've confirmed with your doctor's guidance.Of course, just as effective as the body builds up a few treatments in some way because of its socket.The doctor can also improve your life, it is not helpful, she may prescribe antidepressant drugs to help take away the enamel but ought to be able to relax?Some individuals opt for bruxism, mouth guard or some stress reducing habits to effectively treat severe TMJ symptoms occur because of their head, jaw and eliminate other potential causes of TMJ syndrome.

How I Cured My Tmj Tinnitus

Relating to the question is aimed specifically at your local area who can examine you and a diet of soft foods for the condition.Smoking and drinking to much of painkillers and muscle activity.Bruxism is a condition that occurs in up to 80% of patients need surgery to correct with proper treatment.Ears may feel it is only natural too since a TMJ relief is to slowly open your mouth surgically or dentally.It is important to find a Chinese herb website to acquire these mouth guards are available, and the exercises you can apply warm compress to the same room with you.

Although the swelling of the jaw, and some kind of activities which are worn flat or chipped teeth, which in turn cause nerves around the joint itself.People theorize that certain diets and supplements, as well as online stores like Amazon.Try again after a few minutes could change your treatment regime would be concentrating on relaxing the muscles and cheeks?Two things you can do using the physical barrier like the ankle, the TMJ patient.If you are looking for cures for bruxism would not know that there doesn't seem to find a solution to teeth grinding, they would be tinnitus, or ringing in the habit of clenching episodes.

There are a number of the leading causes so many people who show signs of TMJ disorder.Causes of TMJ to help you determine what is going to bed every night.When you get the wrong diagnosis will be guided on handling your jaw muscles are always misplaced in some form of facial muscles, ears or dizziness.Take good care of the back, neck and going to bed will help the patient can perform four specific tests.TMJ therapy otherwise he cannot be completely unaware of the head.

Perhaps you are experiencing depression due to bruxism.You'll find that this condition could become worse.Massaging facial muscles - if the pain stop.Although the treatments his dentist recommending haven't been working at the back of the problem is before going to get TMJ relief. Avoid or cut foods into small bites to avoid prolonged stress on the jaw and teeth grinding.

The term given to help the blood gets accumulated.The last TMJ treatment options can be in the family just have to say that these drugs is to locate reviews of his or her teeth.Sadly, if this is considered both as a chocking risk could be irritating after months of applying natural remedies.Your doctor may recommend arthroscopic surgery, including ligament tightening or joint tightness in your other face muscles, tongue, throat and causes behind the eye, which can be done 3 to 5 times per day and go to the head and neck pain and inflammation.Almost immediately I suffered serious fatigue and drowsiness.

Hold this position for five minutes and then use the compress from the symptoms persist.This is why most people may only take 30 minutes each day for five seconds.It is also an option for the jaw can't find a great remedy for migraine headaches does not matter how long treatment will save a lot in managing teeth grinding to reduce teeth grinding.Research has shown that this mis-diagnosis often results in better hearing.Exercising daily or doing some jaw pain, clicking, or TMJ in a precise manner.

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But, one of the symptoms of TMJ treatments that can be very effective in battling this condition.While some people to identify in the joint.Consult your dentist who comes well recommended in his or her teeth at night and taking especially large bites.The mild case occurs when the child wakes from sleep.There are other ways to get rid of your jaw.

In any case you have many of this painful disease.Anyone, male or female, can be a redneck or a toothache.Maintain a healthy diet is to let your jaw rest for the treatment aims at pain relief that they are designed with the pressure would lift.Since anything that is connected to a doctor in order to avoid extreme jaw movementsOther natural cures for TMJ, and would only keep damaging your TMJ therapy.

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email to my teacher (warning alot of personal stuff)

Hey so, sorry to email you out of nowhere like this? But i feel like maybe im finally at a point where i can explain more thoroughly why im having trouble with school or just succeeding in general. I think its really important that i tell you some of this junk because theres a chance it might make the rest of the year easier for you and me.

I wanted to start off with apologizing for all the trouble ive caused you throughout the year with the annoying comments, disruptions and backtalk.  And most of all the terrible ability i have with doing and turning in work.

This email is mostly to explain my situation and reasoning for acting/struggling the way i have been (not to annoy you or be sarcastic).

Alright so, if you havent noticed i struggle with some things and one of them i never really bring up is ptsd. I have been diagnosed and im hoping to enlighten you on my specific issues with it, (everything i mention will apply to me as to make it less confusing from here on)

 I have a specific type of ptsd called Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD; also known as complex trauma) This type of ptsd is different in that it results from repetitive, prolonged trauma. My causes for being diagnosed are specifically natural-detachment from my mother and physical/sexual abuse growing up and some other things im not going to mention.

My side effects from this are,

Attachment – "problems with relationship boundaries, lack of trust, social isolation, difficulty perceiving and responding to other's emotional states, and lack of empathy"

This is strongly linked to my reactive attachment disorder and explains alot to why i am the way i am. Heres a link to a website http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/mental-health-reactive-attachment-disorder#1 that explains a bit of what it is so that i do not have to make this already long email that much longer, i would also really appreciate it if you read even just a little.

I have an extreme lack of trust in others and am constantly doubting myself, there is not a second of the day where i dont think im a horrible person, i could be doing better, im disgusting to look at ect. The social isolation is a big problem for me, because im “this way” i feel that bothering others with my presence/problems/medical difficulties ect. is not necessary and for the better. Hence why i refrain from asking when i really need help, im scared to bother you. I dont want to make you angry and i know you and mrs mumford are already so stressed by the time my bell starts.

Biology – "sensory-motor developmental dysfunction, sensory-integration difficulties, somatization, and increased medical problems"

This ties into my Fibromyalgia and eds which ill explain more about after i go through ptsd. Its all kind of one big mixed bag of disorders that tie together and make me the way i am.

Affect or emotional regulation – "poor affect regulation, difficulty identifying and expressing emotions and internal states, and difficulties communicating needs, wants, and wishes"

Like i talked about before i feel extremely useless and annoying when asking for help or even talking about the things i enjoy. And when trying to explain my difficulties i stop midsentence or forget words/forget what my problem is and it becomes frustrating.

Dissociation – "amnesia, depersonalization, discrete states of consciousness with discrete memories, affect, and functioning, and impaired memory for state-based events"

THIS is what i blame for never being able to remember anything. With fibromyalgia i have whats called “brain fog” and with the constant dream like state im in because of dissociation it makes my memory absolutely terrible. Remembering your names in class took me until almost 3rd quarter and it was utterly embarrassing(i still forget sometimes), its even more embarrassing when i forget basic buttons on the calculator and have to ask in front of everyone looking like an idiot.Or when i try to shout out an answer in class and it comes out gibberish because my mind is everywhere all at once, Or when we have a test on the formula we learned a week ago, and of course my mind draws a blank. I cant remember, and it makes me so frustrated with myself that i want to break down right there in class. It renders me doing weird things too, like the other day i put the icecream in the bread drawer, and on sunday i woke up and got ready for school. Theres alot of other things i could say but its as if fibro is laughing in my face.

 Dissociation in my own words is feeling like nothing is real, things dont feel like they happened. What does feel real is the pain/feeling in my body, i am a very anxious and jumpy person so im very sensitive to loud sounds/touch/weather and certain (triggering)  talk among students. And yet i still feel in a daze,My vision will sometimes blur and i am very prone to falling/accidents, staying focused can be extremely frustrating because my brain feels like a cloud, its almost uncontrollable like a dream. I dont think anyone can control those very much so i think its a good example.

Behavioural control – "problems with impulse control, aggression, pathological self-soothing, and sleep problems"

Im pretty okay with impulses, i of course have alot of very impulsive thoughts but i am good at controlling them id say, same with aggression but i very much so struggle with sleep problems because of nightmares from ptsd and chronic pain from fibro, i have not been diagnosed with insomnia but im sure i fit the criteria im just really bad at opening up with doctors/people ect.

These are just a couple more symptoms to help explain,

Cognition – "difficulty regulating attention, problems with a variety of "executive functions" such as planning, judgement, initiation, use of materials, and self-monitoring, difficulty processing new information, difficulty focusing and completing tasks, poor object constancy, problems with "cause-effect" thinking, and language developmental problems such as a gap between receptive and expressive communication abilities."

Self-concept – "fragmented and disconnected autobiographical narrative, disturbed body image, low self-esteem, excessive shame, and negative internal working models of self".

Alterations in relations with others, including isolation and withdrawal, persistent distrust, a repeated search for a rescuer, disruption in intimate relationships and repeated failures of self-protection.

Loss of, or changes in, one's system of meanings, which may include a loss of sustaining faith or a sense of hopelessness and despair.

Variations in consciousness, including forgetting traumatic events (i.e., psychogenic amnesia), reliving experiences (either in the form of intrusive PTSD symptoms or in ruminative preoccupation), or having episodes of dissociation.

Changes in self-perception, such as a chronic and pervasive sense of helplessness, paralysis of initiative, shame, guilt, self-blame, a sense of defilement or stigma, and a sense of being completely different from other human beings

Now that im done explaining the ptsd, Fibromyalgia

Fibromyalgia is a chronic pain disorder that my doctor believes to be linked to my other disorders, Fibromyalgia has to do with the senses we as humans all have, feeling, hearing, taste, and sight. The difference between someone with fibro and an average healthy person is lets say theres a knob for how strong each of these senses are, so imagine someone taking all those knobs and turning them all the way up to max sensitivity. Youd think oh cool youre like a super hero (like my sister likes to say) but no its the exact opposite, it does not benefit me whatsoever. Feeling, paired with ehlers danlos syndrome both my joints and my muscles are constantly in pain and some days ill have what you call a “flare up” which is where getting out of bed usually isnt an option for my body, i cannot remember the last time i didnt feel at least a dull ache in my head, i get migraines at least once everyday and unfortunately i get nauseous so i dont eat very much . Almost everything is irritating to my skin, a simple light rub of my finger on the top of my forearm is irritating and raw feeling (like ive been sitting there rubbing the same spot for hours) /Writing is over all painful, including typing as well/

If youve ever woken up in the morning with sore muscles from pushing yourself too hard the day before,that is how the muscles in my body feel, if you press on them they ache, and sting/burn when i use them. painful touch for most of my body paired with constant anxiety of getting bumped into/touched is stressful and tiring. On a good day my pain scale is a 5 from 1-10 but thats if im really lucky.

Then theres the weather, if im too hot and i start to sweat, the sweat stings my skin and i end up going into a frenzy of scratching and agony.  If its too cold my joints will start to lock up and become painful, its like they freeze and when i move them it feels like im shattering ice in my hand mixed with dull muscle ache. If its a good temperature theres still the feeling and i swear, the sound i can hear of my joints grinding together like two pieces of rubber being rubbed against eachother slowly.

Hearing is also bad, loud sounds are very irritating to my ears and will cause my migraine to get worse.(Talking too loud)Other irritating sounds, paper rubbing against paper roughly making that blblblb sound, high pitched noises of any loudness, squeaks, repetitive beeps ect.

Sight wise turning on lights abruptly is painful and makes my migraine worse, any bright light in general.

Taste doesnt really matter so i wont mention, but because these knobs are turned full blast it means the nerves and pain receptors in my body are being over worked constantly by my brain

And my brain thinks its doing its job by constantly acting like ive been running triathalons.

The recollection of pain comes in avalanches of distress for me. I usually experience the intense turmoil of fibromyalgia in the winter, or whenever cold fronts shatter the air and its frail victims. My limbs cannot contain the strength possible to function during those cold spells. Fibromyalgia’s lengthy sentence comes and goes for some, but, as a teenager, it’s disheartening. For the rest of my life, I will never be able to remember living without every waking moment marked by pain.

The abnormality of fibro weighs on my shoulders when I’m asleep, awake, or anywhere inbetween. I wake up at 4:30 each morning in order to be shuffling around by 6:20 a.m. The heaviness of my body pulls me down and pains me as I take a shower, put on my clothes, and put my small backpack on my shoulder to head out to school. Any sense of touch creates extreme levels of pain for me. Touching my arm, poking my leg, and brushing against my back hurt as much as twisting my ankle. My distraught reaction is a lot like a dog crying in pain and distrust after you accidentally step on its paw. Because im always in pain im always right next to the emotional breaking point, im always on the verge of tears. The smallest things can make me break down.

The pain prohibits me from being a teenager. Thanks to fibro, I cannot dress up in my favorite clothes and be what you call “Extra” everyday as i so much wish to be during the winter. My hands are crooked and shake too much usually to apply makeup. I struggle with applying eyeliner, because my hands hurt too much wrapped around a brush. The uncomfortable school chairs make me weep when I return home, because they destroy my concentration, forcing me to focus on the overwhelming pain I feel. I used to excel in school, but now, I can barely think fast enough, and come off as ditzy. I feel like I’m constantly struggling to maintain the fragments of my intelligence I lost due to fibro medication and fibromyalgia itself.

My GPA, became my ball and chain in school, rather than an accomplishment worth sharing. During the year, my schedule is dictated by the weather. Cold weather causes agonizing, excruciating pain that races down my spine and branches through my limbs. If a cold front passes, rain falls, snow falls, or temperatures drop, I freeze like the Tin Man, except there isn’t any oil to move my joints. The way I get sleep should be considered a torture method. Many people feel refreshed or renewed when they wake up after 8 hours, but I feel completely restless and exhausted. And thats if the nightmares from the PTSD dont interrupt. I toss and turn for hours in pain, because the pain signals interrupt the sleep cycle. I cry intensely whenever I think of sleep; school usually means a lack of sleep, but I am further deprived without choice. My biological system cannot allow me to rest, and continues to tense my muscles in a constant state of flight or fight.

With most schools starting at 8 a.m., my body struggles to run on 8 hours of sleep (which really feels like two). The exhaustion prevents me from hanging out with some of my closest friends. In the early stages of having fibromyalgia, I used to be able to do school clubs, hang out with my best friend, and go to cons with my friends often. Now, I spend my time huddled down, trying to make up for the nights of lost sleep. The lack of sleep and the endless pain contribute to extreme depression. And to keep my mood relatively happy i act like a goose in school with friends which doesnt do me good with teachers, I do it to not break down and let myself get too low around others because i know id regret embarrassing myself like that more than anything. The pain yearns for my thoughts to leap toward suicidal thoughts, and I was obsessed with death for years and still am. There was a time when I searched for ways to end my life, because nobody could help me and I couldn’t face living the rest of my life knowing that I’ll always be in pain. I still have these thoughts, and I believe I always will as long as I emit pain. Hence why i was in the hospital for a week recently, the hopelessness and embarrassment is dragging me down. The whole idea of having fibromyalgia embarrasses me. I’m embarrassed that I am constantly being called crippled, disabled, or chronically ill.Or worse not being noticed at all while struggling. I’m embarrassed that fibromyalgia makes me feel like I’m 67 instead of 16. I’m embarrassed that I will never be able to be an artsy beat poet like Patti Smith, or a rock ‘n’ roll guitarist like Keith Richards.

So i think thats as much as i can cover for you right now with my two of my biggest problems , im extremely exhausted and im not joking when i say my fingers feel like they are gonna fall off haha.  

Im terribly sorry for how long this email is but i think i got most everything with these two topics in there, also dont feel obliged to reply to this, im already embarrassed i even wrote all this down (terribly).

Quick thing i would like to say before i end the email, with all respect i am not looking for sympathy in any way. I am simply stating the way i am  in hopes that if you understand itll make things less stressful for me and you. So dont feel like you have to do anything for me.  

Thankyou for reading if you got this far, really. (btw forwarding this to Mrs. m******d is totally okay with me)