#i swear that fb comment annoyed me today

[nyxreads]

"Azriel's shadow dance around Gwyn's breath = ENDGAME"

I'm quite tired of this, it's been three years now. Do people understand that Azriel is not his shadows? Azriel's shadows caress Feyre's cheek and neck the first time they met, was it romantic? Because it's more intimate than the shadows dancing around Gwyn's breath.

The more important matter is how AZRIEL reacts towards Elain rather than how his shadows (which, I might note, made sure Elain got back safely after their interaction thinking Az rejected her. Shadows that coiled like snake, ready to defend Elain, because Nesta insulted her. Shadows that helped Az presenting the gift for Elain.) acts towards Elain.

And how does Azriel act around Elain?

Azriel doesn't need his shadows to read Elain, meaning he can read her. He understand her. (In CC, we found that shadows disappears when the person is happy and comfortable, plus even Az's shadows skitters away from him when he laughs)

Azriel waited for Elain to give her offer and permission.

Azriel knew Elain doesn't want Lucien and is very uncomfortable around his mate.

Azriel sat down with her during the longest night of the year, just talking.

Azriel was relaxed around Elain while she's presenting him her plans for the garden

Azriel was ready to risk his own life to save Elain.

It was Azriel who figured out she was missing, Azriel who figured out her powers and freed her from all the confusion she was experiencing

Azriel never let go of Elain even though she's alright and he was the one bleeding, he needed to be sure she'd be taken care of first

Azriel always reaches out for Elain.

Azriel bought her a present, bought the necklace thinking of ELAIN, and doesn't care if the necklace was given to another priestess as long as he get rid of it because it reminds him of pain

Azriel lend the TT (the one thing he never let anyone touches) to Elain, trusting her with it and wanting her to have a protection

Azriel followed Elain's laugh, wondering what had caused it.

Azriel was affected by Elain and Lucien's mating bond to the point where he cannot even stand in the same room with them together

Azriel wants Elain. Not just because of lust, but because maybe, after 500 years he already found his home.

Idk about you, but if I ever read Rhysand or Cassian wanting to taste another woman before ending up with their mate? Think about it.

If the only argument is about the shadows, then maybe ship the shadows and Gwyn? not Azriel and Gwyn? Since most people are convinced crackship=OTP, why not we make the real OTP, #ShadoWyn? Because Azriel, on the only POV we got so far from him, wasn't interested romantically to Gwyn. No, he never even considered her as a friend. Gwyn never even showed she's attracted to him, she blushed for Rhysand not for Az.

If these readers aren't even concerned about Elain's feelings and hated her so much, then I guess, they should just consider Azriel's wants and needs? Because it is Elain. He found his happiness with her. Feyre even pointed out that he never heard such a deep and joyous sound from him until Elain.

There's no need to deny every Elain and Azriel interaction throughout the series over the last 10% of a bonus chapter. It makes one think most people never read the actual books but place so much value over a chapter that wasn't available for everyone.

The POV ended up with a cliffhanger. But it never ended Elriel because it was all just a beginning, their book is yet to come and by then I hope everyone is ready to accept what SJM has been hinting us from ACOMAF until ACOSF. No need to twist texts or take every parallel that are out of context, no need to call Elriels crazy and throw out degrees. Just simply read the series with open mind, and maybe tone down the Elain hate? Okay bye.

[your-kpopmama]

Lol but yall still cute and righhht the moodboards as cover photos and omg damnnnn have u made titles for them yet haha busy working on 7 fics shiiit remember to take breaks lol and yeaaa thats why y/n irritates because i was friends with someone who reminds me of her and same i was like kook and hobi i tried so hard to just help her and it annoyed me when she wouldn't fuckin listen its like whatever i said to her went through the other ear but we're not friends anymore

I have titles for them! They are words that kind of remind me of each boy and I have a story that revolves around each word. The POV will be between reader or one of the boys, not all of them will be in reader POV if that makes sense?

Anyway this is the titles so far:

- Apricity : the warmth of sun in the winter - Hoseok (reader POV)

- Trouvaille : something lovely discovered by chance - Jin (Jin POV)

- Dysania : the state of finding it hard to get out of bed in the morning - Yoongi (Yoongi POV)

- Sabaism : the worship of stars - Jungkook (reader POV)

- Tarantism : overcoming melancholy by dancing; the uncontrollable urge to dance - Jimin (Jimin POV)

- Elysian : beautiful or creative; divinely inspired; peaceful and perfect - Namjoon (reader POV)

- Selcouth : unfamiliar, rare, strange, and yet marvelous - Taehyung (reader POV)

These are kind of going to be my ‘long term’ fics. These will be a WIP for a while since I already do have the other 4 fics started, I will work on these slowly while I take breaks in between writing the others. I saw the word Apricity today and  I was like ‘that is the most hoseok word i have ever seen’ and thus my journey began to find words that I thought suited the boys and the ideas just came RUSHING IN and I was like IT MUST BE DONE. hahaha.

I’m still friends with the girl, but we aren’t as close as we used to be. I mean, my grandparents let her move in with me basically one summer (her step dad was a creep and her mom didnt do anything about it and she literally lived in the house behind us so it was no big deal) but I mean, she like…idk she was boy crazy and looking for validation in every man she met and she ended up putting me on the back burner and putting all these sleezey guys first. She’s on her third marriage and second kid and she’s the same age as me (we are both 26. ancient beings I swear) and she’s going through ANOTHER divorce. I just want whats best for her, but she is beyond anyones help, she just refuses. Maybe a FB comment here and there between us but i havent seen her since her son was born (2 years ago) and that was right after I had my twins. It’s been a long time. Why are girls so dumb sometimes????

Sorry, long ass winded post XD

[ellenbryant]

>A 2020 version of Ellen...where have u been?

Alright so, it’s been a minute Tumblr. 

I’m back and I’m going to continue to type like I’m speaking to someone, yet again. 

Let me set the scene for you, It’s 10:48pm on a Monday night, 13th April 2020. 

I’m in Melbourne, Australia and it’s cold out. The nights are showing up earlier these days as we approach winter. OH and there’s a Pandemic happening outside everyones front doors, life as we know it is most definitely changing. (Bless anyone who has been affected during this time, due to having the illness or life changes.) 

Continuing on, after a creative/learning day I’m on the couch, tucked in with a hoodie and some sweats on…I’m absolutely chillin.

I’m going to dedicate this Tumblr page to writing without too much thought. Doing music and songwriting, or even just on any other social platform… there isn’t a lot of room to just go UGHHH and let it out. I mean, I do that vocally when performing but it’s still curated in the way I’ve written the piece, unless I’m freestyling… ANYWAY, this is my UGHHH place, to just let go. 

What I have been doing since I last posted here… if I were to put into one word, it would be ‘expanding’. My mentality, my knowledge, my heart, my understanding of the world and things that happen…and why. I’ve been excited, low as fuck, drained, loved, broken, fuelled…the list goes on. life. 

I’m 27 currently and I’m in a completely annoying place in my mind. I know in a few years I’m going to look back and say how important this time is but it’s just plain annoying right now. It’s like 2 steps forwards, 5 steps back. I’m just gonna keep walking until I’m outstepping the steps back. I’m pushing myself and learning new skills and keeping in contact and up to date with those I love. (If I wrote this on FB I would have someone from the older gen give me some advice in the comments sections…and then proceed to tell me not to swear).

The people I have in my life, my friends (most definitely considered family to me) are some of the most inspiring and sound people I could ever dream up. I always say I prayed for friendships like these to be around and here they are. YES!

To conclude this, my producer/family (K-Notes…who is based in Toronto) and I cooked up a beauuuutiful track today over FaceTime. One of those ones that I can’t wait to practice when I wake up in the morning. 

Cool, that’s it from me for now.

I hope you’re well…and looking after your mind…and drinking water… matter of fact - I need to drink a litre…BRB

Ellen x

[orderuponthe99prettygrimmdiaries]

“Going backwards is not good. For anyone.” -Lucifer 😈👿

This is it. I’m done with school. Well, 2 more exams, but no more going back to school. And getting my degree in a couple months. YASSSSS. Okay, actually I’m not really sure if I’m happy about graduating cos i know everyone misses school once they start work. 

But ugh, speaking of work, I really need to figure out what I wanna do. Definitely thinking of doing freelance while taking a break. Wanted to travel but the world is so unsafe now (#PrayForTheWorld).. So... What to do.. 

ANYWAYYY, I actually wanted to write a post a few days back, but I was busy last week with all the final submissions. Oh, and managed to finish one within like 12 hours, okay maybe 8 cos I was chilling and taking my time. So, after I got my new phone, I was so afraid I’d lose all my game status cos I didn’t really link them to FB or anything, but then I managed to get my game back for Emoji Blitz after a couple days and I WAS SO HAPPY. I contacted the people at Emoji Blitz, really kind and lovely people, and they tried to help me out. Told me to try to log into my FB account, but I didn’t want to at first cos I unlinked it for a couple months, which means months of progress gone. But the other day, I decided to take a leap of faith. AND I GOT EVERYTHING BACK :’) 

This is a pretty lame context, but hey, everything works out alright eventually. This also taught me to link everything to everything, so at least if something goes wrong.. Well and praying that my other game progress can be retrieved cos 2 years of progress, damn. 

Anywho. So, it’s June now eh? Wow, May flew by fast. May was kinda a good month for me. Ups and downs, met new people, reconnected with old friends (omg that reminds me, finally contacted a friend that I haven’t spoke to in almost a year, SO GLAD 💗🍎🍏🍊🍋🍒🍇🍉🍓🍑🍈🍌🍐🍍), and discovered myself more. 

Sure, I had anxiety attacks again, but I got over them, and I think I might have found a bit of my confidence back for presentations.

I realize I’m also way too attached to show characters, even for shows I’m not that involved in. It’s so weird, but those annoying ones make me rage so much. And recently, I asked my friend if guys even hold on tight to girls they like, cos it seems like they give up fast, just because they don’t show they fancy them back immediately, but she tells me she thinks it’s the opposite. Honestly, I’m still not really sure. 

But I also learnt that despite everything, I’m still a hopeless romantic at heart. Might not wear my heart on my sleeve anymore, but I think I’m ready. Ready to move on. 

“Going backwards is not good. For anyone.” -Chloe Decker, Lucifer 

It’s time to move on for real. God, I know, I’ve said this a million times. I swear, two days later I’m probably gonna talk about him again, cos pms plus I’m never forgetting him, but I’m fine with that. I’ve accepted that he might have been, was, my first true love, maybe, and that I will always compare every guy to him. I will always be reminded of him. 

Like I was commenting on a discussion board on 7 cups (still have to write about it soon), and a kind girl responded and we talked about it for a bit. The topic was on ‘what is one thing you hope to get over’, and I said letting down my walls. She asked me stuff about it, and I realized it led back to the events around him. Well, actually, before him even. But yes, I somehow ended up reliving all that again, like when have I ever not, even at school to my friend, even at home at random hours. 

But it’s time to let go. Move on. I’m so close to finding all the pieces of myself again. And it’s time to plan my future. I’m almost 21, and hell, I’ve missed out so much in my teenage life just because I was too afraid. Too afraid of letting people know how I truly feel, too afraid of getting hurt, too afraid of everything. Now, I need to take more leap of faiths. And I need to stop worrying too much. I’m still young, I still have my 20s to make up for my teens. 

And not to forget my 21st bday pact. But since now I still have some time before exams, I’m starting to clear some shows off my list. Hah, I know, slipping back into old habits hobbies. Even created a proper list to see all my upcoming shows, those on hiatus, ongoing shows, and another for movies too 😁 Managed to finish 2 since Friday, Snatch (starring Rupert Grint. OH GOD, THE AMOUNT OF HP REFERENCES, I CANT EVEN DEAL. AND THERE’S NO ONE I CAN FREAK OUT TO.) and just today, A Series of Unfortunate Events (not really a huge fan of black comedy shows, I’m okay with movies, but it’s not bad!) 

Oh wow, I just realized it’s a weekday, suddenly thought we were in the weekend. Whoops. But hey, it’s like almost 3am here 😅 Well, so gnight to you folks, or morning, or afternoon, whatever it is wherever you are, I hope you guys will have a lovely week ahead 💗 HUGS FOR ALL 🙆 

(Pics credit to owners!)

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