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Rewatching MCD yet again and tbh it's so fucking funny how much has been changed in my rewrite. Like I just completely fucking forgot about Pikoro village and that whole plot line because it'd been changed into another, some characters have been taken out because they didn't do well with the test audience (the test audience, who were my little sisters, who were forced to listen decided to help me when I wrote the very first rewrite of MCD back in 2017, 2018), and some things have just been flipped around.
Honestly, while the series had what some people call padding(Which, some things in it was, and for people wondering, 45 out of the 100 episodes of season 1 were 'padding'), I think it expanded the world pretty well with the downtime, and I want to do the same.
Also
APHMAU
DROP ANOTHER MCD EPISODE AND MY LIFE IS YOURS.
#aphmau#mcd rewrite#rewrite#aphmau minecraft diaries#aphmau rewrite#APHMAU PLEASE#i swear i will dedicate ny entire fucking life to you#just give us back minecraft diares please.
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alexa demie. twenty three. cisfemale. she/her. sia. | i canāt believe i just saw ARIA VEGA walking out of cadence records. theyāre a single POP artist whoās been in the industry for THREE YEARS. the tabloids love to focus on their MATERIALISTIC nature , but theyāre also pretty SPONTANEOUS and they seem to give off a vibe that reminds people of PERFECTLY DONE MAKEUP AT ALL TIMES, BUBBLE BATHS AFTER A LONG DAY, LATE NIGHT PHONE CALLS, RUNNING FINGERS THROUGH DARK LOCKS & FAKE SMILES.Ā
hi hello everyone !!Ā i suck at those introductions about myself, so let me just say that iām v excited to be here & bring a muse that i only played once & it was a long time ago. also iām bella ( she / her pronouns ) , my timezone is gmt-3 & iām 21. if you want to plot give this a like & iāll annoy you in the ims !!
ššššš :Ā
name : aria vega. age : twenty three. gender & pronouns : cis female . she / her. date of birth : july 25th. zodiac : leo. hometown : new york. sexual & romantic orientation : pansexual & panromantic. languages : english & spanish. positive traits : spontaneous , ambitious , outspoken , confident , passionate , trustworthy.Ā negative traits : materialistic , obsessive , dramatic , temperamental ,Ā pessimistic , hedonistic.
šššššššššš :
she can be considered one of those nepotism famous people , she always wanted to work with music & she had a quite easy access to it , her family has a big net worth & is involved with a lot of people in the industry. her father is a ceo & her mother is a former model ā so maybe something like the hadids ? but instead or modeling ariaās working with music.
born & raised in new york with three siblings. she moved to la three yearsĀ ago , back at the time she hated it because she didnāt have no one in la , still hasnāt completely gotten used to living there , her entire family is in ny & she loved to live in that big city ā also la is always hot and sunny & she doesnāt like this weather.
not much to say about her childhood , it was actually quite normal. she grew up occasionally doing some modeling jobs , but mostly aria grew up as a regular child , a rich & a bit spoiled one tho. her modeling jobs werenāt v often , she didnāt like it all & felt that it was too much pressure on her , i also think itās too much for her because she was so young to hear that sheās not a got fit because they donāt think sheās pretty enough , or skinny enoughĀ ( we all know it happens )Ā , but honestly the biggest reason why modeling was not for her ( besides she not liking it at all ) is that sheās very short so...
she has a veryĀ ā musicalĀ ā family , her father taught her most of what she knows , when she was younger they used to spend a long time together because of music , heās an amazing musician but itās more like a hobby for him.
music is definitely her biggest passion in ife , sheās very into any type of art but music is what speaks to her in a way nothing else does. sheās not that good with conversations , talking about feelings & etc , even tho sheās quite emotional ā music was the way she found to express herself & as any normal person she loves a good music.
aria cares a lot about her career , like A LOT , thatās the only thing sheās not lazy about & itās actually dedicated with ( anything else, she simply doesnāt care enough ).
ššššššššššš :
she is a nice person , i swear but she doesnāt have much filter & can be a bit of a bitch sometimes. regardless , sheās very caring with who is actually important to her ( probably not a lot of people )Ā
when she cares about someone , whether is platonic or not , aria definitely let the person know , she compliments them a lot , always tells the person she loves them , she can have some sweet moments with those she loves (Ā for some reason she canāt really do it with her family tho )
not impulsive at all , aria usually thinks before she does or say something , but that also does not mean she always makes wise decisions ? at least not in her personal life. because she does consider if she should do something but then just thinks āscrew itĀ ā & does whatās in her mind anyway.
might be a little antisocial with new people , she doesnāt like to meet people , which is bad because her career requires that ā not that sheās shy or anything like that , she just doesnāt like to socialize
aria is so confident that it can be annoying to other people but sheās too comfortable with who she is & doesnāt give a fuck about what others think about her. especially because being in the public eye she had to deal with a lot of people criticizing her , most of them not even knowing who she really is because they never actually met her but it still can hurt , so she had to learn how to ignore other peopleās opinions & thatās what she does.
sheās not really an annoying brat but she does care more than she should about money and material things.
loves loves loves to be spoiled and treated like the princess she is ( which is probably nothing but how everyone should be treated ?Ā )
aria is not that good at dealing with fame and being in the public eye , we all probably heard histories about how fame negatively affected some celebrities and it is the same with aria. she is way more reserved now , especially because she likes her privacy & sometimes itās not and option for her ? she pretends a lotĀ when doing something like an interviewĀ , she appears to be more happy than she actually is. aria would consider herself a damaged person nowadays.
very random fact but when sheās talking normally, i imagine that she speaks just like the kardashians lol , not the voice just the way she speaks, you know with that american accent ?
šššššš ššššššššššš :
best friends : give me a long time friend who is like a sibling to her pls , best friends are my fave type of connections , so pls give me someone that is very close to her , knows everything about her & they would do anything for each other
muse : someone who one of her songs was inspired by this person & whatever happened with them depending on the song , it could be any of siaās although i think i do have a few suggestions already ( some suggestions are ā fire meet gasolineĀ ā , ā hostageĀ ā ,Ā ā be good to meĀ ā )
a pr relationship were they hate each other pls , it just seems so much fun for me ! their pr could already have ended tho but they still have bad feelings towards the other & maybe they still have to act in a certain way in public.
party friend : she really likes to have fun & go wild so why not have buddy to always be there doing it with her ?
exes : pls pls pls iām a sucker for exes plots , give me all the angst , iām all here for it & iād love to plot it out but i do have a few ideas on my mind for an exes connection , iām still down for anything tho.
enemies / competition : someone who is constantly in a competition with her , or someone who simply hates her , or someone who used to get along with her but not anymoreā¦ so many ideas for it.
friends or whatever connection of people who are constantly teasing each other , making sarcastic comments , pranking each otherā¦ but all in a friendly way if that makes any sense.
a current fling : iām down to discuss about it , especially because i didnāt think on anything specific for this lol but iād love a fling for aria.
& if i remember anything else iāll probably make a page with her connections and wcs.
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Reviewing time for MAG153! ā¦ Abridged version because I messed up my planning orz
- And we finally got an actual Corruption statement this season!! You made it into season 4, babe!!
I like how its Crawling Moment Of Awesomeness came little by little:
(MAG140) BASIRA: Erā¦ Jon. Whatās this. [DRY SOUND] ARCHIVIST: Mm? ā¦ Oh. Thatāsā¦ [SILENCE] That, uh, thatāsā¦ my rib? BASIRA: ā¦ Right. [PUTS IT DOWN] ARCHIVIST: Yupļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ BASIRA: Andā¦ the jar of ashes. ARCHIVIST: Notā Not mine; IāI mean, it belongs to me, IāI guess, but itās notā¦ Er, stationery is in the other drawer?
(MAG145) ARTHUR: [SNORT] Slumlording over a nest. GERTRUDE: Oh. A nest ofā¦ what? ARTHUR: Found a mass of the Crawling Rot growing, a while back. Managed to get a hold of the property before it became too big. Gotta wait ātil it blossoms before we can properly burn it.
(MAG152) HELEN: Hello, Jon. Been a while since youāve been down here. ARCHIVIST: [ANGRY EXHALE] I didnāt come here to see you. HELEN: Oh, come now. Iām sure Iām more interesting company than the late Jane Prentiss. ARCHIVIST: [SIGH] ā¦ Itās all that left of her now. Apart from aā¦ jar of ashes in my desk. Just a circle of rotten stone on an otherwiseā¦ unremarkable wall.
(MAG153) ARCHIVIST: This, wellā¦ The Corruption at work, if I had to guess, though with unsettling echoes of aā¦ āFleshlinessā.
Jane, The Hive, Jane&The Hive, and now The Corruption for itself.
Itāsā¦ an obvious things given Smirkeās name for it (well, at least Gerryās), but one of the things I find very interesting with Corruption is how itā¦ does that. Rather than insects for themselves, it ācorruptsā something, quite often perceived as āpureā and/or āabsoluteā: Jane craving for āsomething beyond [her]selfā (MAG032), the malarial research turning horribly badly (MAG045), Private Amherst giving his bed to the injured soldiers who needed it more than him (MAG068), little Gordon helping the old Maggie (MAG084), Lester Changās not-that-healthy new relationship with his father-in-law and his subsequent obsession for cleanliness (MAG093), BenoĆ®t MaƧonās desperation for love (MAG102), Jonās third victim from season 4 (MAG146: āA man rejected by all who knew him, searching ever-darker places for love. When he told me his story, he startedā¦ weeping maggots.ā), The Divine Chain cult turning the notion of selfless love into a requirement (MAG153)ā¦ which tied in with everything turning Wrong when the dog āAgapÄā joined it and that so-called ~pure~ love just opened the door forā¦ spooks.
- But also:
(MAG153, Barbara Mullen-Jones) āI hit my ālowest pointā when I turned 41. Thatās when my life came crashing down; at least on the inside. From the outside, Iām sure everything lookedā¦ pretty much okay. I was getting gigs, I had a job, I had plenty of friends and a supportive familyā¦ But that was when I started to properly look at my life, and Iā¦ really didnāt like what was looking backā¦! I was a stand-up comedian, you see, and a really good one. Thatās not boasting, thatās just the truth. And Iād always assumed that that was enough to eventually have real success. And for the firstā¦ ten years, it seemed like I was right. I worked my way up, performed for basically nothing basically every night, and got to be pretty successful.
ā¦ And I stayed that way for the next ten years. [SIGH]
Trouble is, do you know how much a āpretty successful comedianā makes? Letās just say I had a full-time office job and was still barely making rent. But between working full-time and gigging full-time, I just kept putting off everything else in my life. Always so sure the big time was just around the corner. āThis is the TV spot that gets me noticed.ā āThis is the sell-out fringe show that makes me mainstream.ā āThis is the deal that actually goes somewhere.ā
I made it through turning 40 with my self-image intact, but for some reason, at 41 I justā¦ cracked. I realised I had spent most of my life with nothing to show for it but a few awards no one cares about, a string ofā¦ awful comedian exes who broke up with me for being funnier than themā¦ and a dreadful office job [SIGH] I was going to be working until I died, because Iād never bothered to build a stable career. I was never going to own a home; never going to have kids; never going to have the life Iād spent my entire youth sacrificing for.ā
ā¦ Yes, I know I just quoted the whole beginning of the statement but: a lot of the RQ crew and their friends are comedians, sooo, uhhh. RQ folks, are you okay.
- Abridged version as promised, but things I liked: how you could understand why the statement-giver got wrapped up in the cult, but also howā¦ she didnāt really belong there indeed, because she was mostly focusing on the form of it (the kind words, the contact, the work in itself, the wine production), like she was attracted to the gratuitous symbolisms around the meditation course, but not truly receptive toā¦ the meat of things, what was behind the shape of it, what was at the core?
How she was, at the end, extremely petty about the cultās failure (āThereās a part of me thatās glad. A sick little part thatās happy that whatever āloveā was there, whatever I couldnāt be a part of, is gone from the world. And no one else gets it either.ā).
How, oops, a fair amount of officers in the American police may have signed their local equivalent of a Section 31 formā¦ or else, Gertrude or Adelard had been around, because explosives (āThe compound was destroyed in an āaccidental generator explosionā, and everything was gone.ā)
How, once again, we got a statement with an exterior shape reminescent of different Fears (Jon pointing it out at the end, a āfleshlinessā), like a few other recent ones? Though this one was a bit spelled out for us. (āAnd when youāre at that point, itās astounding what can crawl into your heart ā and start to fester there. [ā¦] Or if theyā¦ came about after things started to change. Started to go rotten.ā)
How the statement was about leaving everything to settle in Americaā¦ while later in the episode, Julia&Trevor revealed that they had come back from it to England.
How the simple representation of the world encouraged by the cult found a kind of echo with Julia&Trevor, simplistically separating people between monsters (preys) and the rest?
- ā¦ So, once again: why is Jon reading these specific statements, since he came back from Ny-Ć
lesund?
* MAG146, āThresholdā: Jon did mention that he had been pulled towards that one when he began to focus on Hill Top Road (āI spent so long looking for it, back when I found his fatherās, andā¦ no luck. But now, I decide to start looking properly into Hill Top Road, and all of a suddenā¦ Iām drawn to rearrange a filing cabinet ā and what do I find behind it?ā)
* MAG147, āWeaverā: left by Annabelle to Fuck Him Up.
* MAG148, āExtended Surveillanceā: Beholding, someone getting taken over by Beholding and obsessing over his friend.
* MAG150, āCul-de-Sacā: Hey, The Power Of MLM Love Can Save Someone From The Lonely Zone If You Reach For Them xoxoxo.
* MAG152, āA Gravediggerās Envyā: Someone falling deeper and deeper (ha) into their shiny new patron and Enjoying What Theyāre Doing.
* MAG153, āLove Bombingā: how someone got indoctrinated into a cult, and dodged a bullet by being dismissed from it because they didnāt believe/Feel It enough.
Has it been Annabelle still messing with him? Beholding? A reflection of Jonās own preoccupations, thatās been leading him towards the few last ones?
- Aka: was that once again Annabelle cackling in Jonās face because WOW, these first few lines sure felt like someone cackling in Jonās face:
(MAG153, Barbara Mullen-Jones) āEveryone thinks theyāre too smart to get involved in a cult. Iām sure you do. You think, that at the first mention of āaliensā, or the end of the world, or the lost book of the Bible, where Jesus buried his Holy Staff in the foothills of the Himalayasā¦ youād go running. Trouble is, that misunderstands how it works. I mean, when I was with The Divine Chain, some of the smartest people there were also the most committed. Intelligence doesnāt make you less prone to taking on bad ideas, it just makes you better at defending themā¦! To other people, and to yourself. Smart people can believe some truly ridiculous things, and then deploy all the reason and logic at their disposal to justify them. Because belief doesnāt begin in your mind ā it begins in your feelings.ā
ā¦ So once again, Jonās reaction is a priceless ājON???ā moment because:
(MAG153) ARCHIVIST: Statement ends. [SIGH] ā¦ I swear. I almost find the cult dedicated to the Dark Powers of Fear easier to understand than the more mundane sort. At least they have some consistency.
āWhatās going on?ā / Jon: *clicks āIām in this statement and I donāt like it.ā*
Oh My Gods, Jonā¦ you read so many statementsā¦ they work/proceed exactly the sameā¦ getting you when youāre vulnerableā¦ filling in what youāre craving and lacking, with the mix of āmaking you think you were shaped for themā and āshaping you for themā in turnā¦
(At least, he wasnāt in denial over the fact that the Dread Powers are ācultsā. That would have been harder for him to do, anyway; and he didnāt deny it in the past when Georgie (MAG083, āLook me in the eyes and tell me that itās not part of the cult or whatever the hell it was that left you homeless.ā) and Jude (MAG089, āI donāt suppose I could talk to anyone else in your, umā¦ā āItās fine, you can call it a cult.ā) both used the term. Still. Jon, there is no comfort/pride/excuse to get by trying to claim that the Fears Gods youāve been involved with are more effective than your ~regular~ cults.)
- ā¦ How did Julia&Trevor manage to leave America? Last time we had heard of them, they were stuck:
(MAG109) ARCHIVIST: Andā¦ [SIGH] why America? JULIA: [FAINT GROAN] TREVOR: [CHUCKLE] Heard tell there were a wolfmanā¦! JULIA: [LAUGH] TREVOR: Old Dave, heās down in Plymouth, swore blind his brother had seen one on the Pacific Crest trailā JULIA: I told Trevor he was a liar, but here we are anyway. Have been for a couple of yearsā¦! TREVOR: Hey, now ā no wolfman, sure, but thereāve been plenty out here that would needs killing! JULIA: [LONG-SUFFERING SIGH] True enough. Plus, itās hard to leave. Weāre not exactly here legally and trying to get a flight home would get us noticed by authorities weād rather avoid. TREVOR: I keep telling her we could hop a boat! JULIA: And I tell him Iād rather stay hunting here than trap myself on a boat for two weeks!
(Julia has Bad History with water.)
- I wasnāt incredibly clear on the post-statement scenography ā I assumed there had been a gunshot at first (but it wasnāt tagged in the content warnings, although it had consistently been in previous episodes), so was that loud bangā¦ Jonās door? Or the trapdoor? being violently banged open?
(There was the chair scraping on the floor when Julia was ordering Jon to stay sitting, so for that, I pictured her hands on his shoulder and at some point, them pinning his arms in his back and slamming his head on the table.)
- Loving how Juliaās perception of Jon doesnāt change:
(MAG107) JULIA: We can chat in the car! Iām sure youāve got a ton of librarian stories, the miles will just fly by.
(MAG153) JULIA: Sure. Or: I slit your little bookwormās throatā¦!
Jon Is Just A Nerd, uh.
- I really love how Jon āCanāt Shut His Mouthā Sims and Julia āSims, Shut The Fuck Upā Montaukās dialogue:
(MAG153) ARCHIVIST: [VENOMOUS] Gerry wasnāt āyoursā. You had no rightā [SLAMMING SOUND] TREVOR: Oh, you hear that, Julia? āGerryā. JULIA: Sounds like it got pretty chummyā¦! Where is he? [ā¦] JULIA: Sure. Or: I slit your little bookwormās throatā¦! DAISY: Do it. That give me a chance to finish off your dad. TREVOR: Iām not her fatherā¦! ARCHIVIST: Not by blood, maybeā¦! JULIA: Shut. it. ARCHIVIST: [GROAN OF PAIN]
ā¦ was basically an exchange of āYOUāRE JUST A USELESS BIā āOH YEAH? AND YOU HAVE DADDY ISSUES.ā
Jon. Jon, please.
(Guuuh over Juliaās āYou always do what evil books tell you to, do you?ā becauseā¦ she canāt know, but to say that to someone who had almost been taken by Mr Spider because following the bookās thread? Aouch.)
- And my heart BREAKS over the fact that Julia&Trevor are reproaching himā¦ what was the Most Obviously Anti-Beholding thing Jon has ever done, back in season 3 ā fulfilling the promise he had made to Gerry, and freeing/actually killing him, even if it caused himself pain in the process. But for Julia&Trevor, itās precisely what made him an enemy just like any other monster.
(MAG153) ARCHIVST: He asked me to. JULIA: Oh, really? You always do what evil books tell you to, do you? TREVOR: Gotta say, Iām disappointed. Genuinely thought you were different. But youāre just another monster. Not even worth the chaseā¦! JULIA: You want the honours, old man. TREVOR: Donāt mind if I do~!
Aouch. (I wonder what part of it was rightful anger at being deprived of their āmonster manualā, and how much was actually a pretext to kill someone they had so far deemed as vaguely spooky, though? Interestingly, they didnāt mention that they felt like Jon had gotten worse or anything. According to their words, they only wanted to kill Jon because they felt that he had betrayed them and that siding with Gerry meant that he was āanother monsterā.)
- And bringing back the mention of Gerry and the bookā¦ also puts Eric Delano back to mind. Gerry only knew that his mother had used his father as training material with the book, but he didnāt find him inside. We know that Mary gave Gertrude a page, implying that it was Ericās (āwhatās left of himā), but Jon didnāt find it in Gertrudeās secret stash either:
(MAG111) GERARD: I never knew my dad. Not really. He worked in the Archives like you, but quit once I was born. I think he wanted to help raise me. But mum didnāt need the help, and after me she wasnāt able to have kids again, so she killed him in his sleep to practice her bookbinding. I guess she failed. I always thought he was in here, but when I eventually got hold of it, there wasnāt a page in there.
(MAG062) MARY: The End, of course. I could never truly serve it; I just donāt find death that interesting. Iāve always found a singular devotion far too restrictive. Just ask Ericā¦ or whatās left of him. [ā¦] GERTRUDE: And do you have any proof of this? Yourā¦ āmagic bookā. MARY: Yeah. [PAPER RUSTLING] You can keep this page. I made sure it was in English. GERTRUDE: Goā Whoā¦ who is it? MARY: A surprise, dear. Just make sure youāre alone when you read it. [CHAIR SCRAPING] Goodbye, Gertrude. Wish me luck. [DOOR OPENING] [DOOR CLOSING] GERTRUDE: Well. IāI donātā¦ really know what to add to that. If what she says is true, I should think carefully before reading this page aloud. I should probably destroy it. [GRUNT] I do rather hate the smell of burning skin. Anywayā¦ thatās a decision for another day. [CHAIR SCRAPING] [FLOORBOARD OPENING] [FLOORBOARD CLOSING] [ā¦] ARCHIVIST: [ā¦] But in spite of all that, Iāmā¦ strangely excited. Because what sticks out to me more than anything else in that tapeā¦ is the very distinctive floorboard, at the end. [CLOTHES RUFFLING] One that hasnāt changed in the eight years since this statement was given. Thereās never been any reason to look closely at a random section of floor. This bit wasnāt even breached by any of the worms. [FLOORBOARD OPENS] Because it had Gertrudeās hidden compartment beneath it. Hmm. Noā¦ strange skin page. But there is a laptop. And a key. I wonder what it opens. End supplement. [CLICK.]
Soā¦ the question is still up ā did Gertrude burn the page in the end? We know that she had burned a few things down in the tunnels, including at least one Leitner. Did she keep the page and is it stored somewhere? And if soā¦ why would have she kept it? Eric was likely one of her assistants before Gerry was born, and Gertrude soundedā¦ rather fond of him:
(MAG085) ARCHIVIST: Date of original statement unclear, though paper quality likely puts it at between twenty and thirty years ago. [ā¦] There are someā¦ short pieces of correspondence in the file, addressed to Gertrude, from someone called, er, Eric Delano, confirming that while he typed out this statement, he has no memory of doing so, and requesting some sick leave to addressā¦ persistent migraines he has developed.
(MAG137) GERTRUDE: [ā¦] And I will admit Iāve grownā¦ fond of the boy. I wonder, if I told him about Eric ā whether heād follow in his fatherās footsteps. Still, thatās not like it kept Eric safe in The End.
A few things: Gerry did point out to Jon that he was surprised that Gertrude had apparently managed to get Mary to teach her how to book-bind (MAG111: āI just had to make sure I took the book while my mum was fading, and brought it to her, and then she would free me. I didnāt really believe her, I donāt think, but I did it anyway. When she returned the book to me a week later, her pages burned and mangled, I think I actually cried with relief. I never even considered that my mum might have taught Gertrude how to make pages for it before she was destroyed.ā). Could Gertrude have learned it through Eric instead of Mary? Gerry also mentioned that, beyond the fact that Gertrude had chosen to imprison him within the book, he didnāt understand why she had left him behind (MAG111: āI thinkā¦ I think I finally understand why she brought me back. I just donāt understand why she left me behind.ā) ā and, indeed, whyā¦? Was it because she had been too freaked out by her arrest (although the bookā¦ stayed behind, unclaimed, and she could have got her hands back on it legally)? Was it because Gertrude wanted to leave behind a few hints about her actions, in case she got killed before achieving her goals? Was it because she wanted to retrieve it later, when things would be saferā¦? (Thatād be extremely sentimental coming from her, but if she had kept Ericās pageā¦ could it be that she had planned for Gerry and Eric to meet somehow at some point? If so: AOUCH, because Jon gave Gerry what he wanted, what he asked forā¦ but if Jon were to discover that Ericās page was still intact and that Gerry could have met his father at last? Thatā¦ would hurt, uh.)
- Julia&Trevor being back in the game means that theyā¦ potentially share a connection with everyone in Team Archives, one way or another:
* Jon was Hunted by Julia, kidnapped/ābodyguardedā by her (MAG107), took Julia&Trevorās statement about how they met (MAG109), stole Gerryās page from them (MAG111) before burning it (MAG117). They were already on the fence about Jonās status as a potential prey back then, but they had at least some interests in common with him (the world not ending, perceiving Max Mustermann as an enemy); right now, Julia&Trevor are clearly labelling Jon as a target and as an overall āmonsterā ā plus, they have the grudge about the page andā¦ there is the fact that Jonās dreams contained them:
(MAG153) JULIA: [LAUGHS] Youāve got something of ours. TREVOR: āSomeoneā. JULIA: Took him right from under our nosesā¦! TREVOR: In our own house. JULIA: I call that rude, donāt you? ARCHIVIST: [VENOMOUS] Gerry wasnāt āyoursā. You had no rightā [SLAMMING SOUND] TREVOR: Oh, you hear that, Julia? āGerryā. [ā¦] Not gonna ask you again, son. ARCHIVIST: I burned the page. Released him. [SILENCE] TREVOR: Arenāt that right noble of you. JULIA: Proper humanitarian. TREVOR: So. [INHALE] Let me get this straight! We take ye in; protect ye from the thing thatās huntinā yeā¦ JULIA: Spared your life! Even though youāre no better. TREVOR: Help you; give you access to one of our most valuable resources; and you steal it from us, piss off back to England, and thenā¦ burn it?! [SHUFFLING] Thatās just inconsiderate.
(MAG120) ELIAS: The dark building is newer, but he knows it well; knows the two lost souls who creep through it with an alert hunger on their faces. He recognizes that look from the other Hunter whose dreams he's watched for so long. They stalk the darkness itself, and hope to catch and kill it before it can do the same to them. They see him watching, but they cannot catch his scent.
ā¦ Even for Jonās standards, thatās a lot. Usually, people wanted him dead because of the āArchivistā title and/or because he was marked by The Eye (Jane Prentiss, the Not!Them, Nikola, Michael-The-Distortion in MAG101ā¦), not forā¦ personal reasons, for things Jon himself had done. (ā¦ The only exception had been, interestinglyā¦ Daisy. Daisy who wanted to rip him apart because he had forced her to give him her statement, and because she kept seeing him in her dreams.)
(* Obviously Peter, and potentially Martin, because:
(MAG153) TREVOR: [SHAKING SIGH] ā¦ Come on, Julia. JULIA: What?! TREVOR: Thereās no rush. [CHORTLING] Weāve got all the time in the world. Besidesā¦ this place is just full of monsters. She canāt guard āem all.
There Are Other āMonstersā Here.
Would they sense the spooks from Martin, nowadaysā¦?)
* Daisy used to be a Hunter like them, but has decided to stop serving. Trevor used to perceive The Hunt as an āaddictionā, occasionally managed to make himself quit it, but when Jon met him in June 2017, Trevor had returned to The Hunt and already decided that he was getting a fair deal out of it, all things considered:
(MAG056, Trevor Herbert) āIn the early 80s, I was deep in the grip of my twin addictions. As I mentioned, after a while, The Hunt became an addiction of its own. Of the two, Iāve always found heroin the easier one to quit. [ā¦] But The Huntā¦ the hunt is a purpose. Itās not just a way to get through the day, itās a reason for there to be a day at all. [ā¦] Ah, itās a shame Iām on the way out. I will miss The Hunt.ā
(MAG109) ARCHIVIST: IāI mean, yesā¦ But the situation has changed quite a bit. Last I heard, you were dying of lung cancerā¦! TREVOR: I was. ARCHIVIST: And nowā¦? TREVOR: Iām not. [CHUCKLE] ARCHIVIST: And, and that doesnāt strike you asā¦ odd. TREVOR: Not much I see these days isnāt āoddā, somehow or other. Not gonna turn my nose up at that one bit that worked out well for me. I hunt monsters; my lungs donāt kill me. [HUFF] Seems like a fair trade. No big job, today.
Daisy antagonised them both, Julia & Daisy are quite obviously ready and willing to jump at each otherās throat againā¦ Which is a bad sign for Daisy, since theyāre bringing back her murderous thoughts.
(On the one hand, their antagonism could push Daisy back into The Huntās waiting arms. On the other handā¦ it could go another way ā though that would feel very hopeful: now that Trevor has been acknowledged as being a father figure for Juliaā¦ could it lead to Trevor pushing Julia out of The Hunt, because he would care more about her well-being than about hunting with her and he knows what a life of Hunt does to you?)
* BASIRA WAS WITH THE SECTIONāD OFFICERS WHO RAIDED RAYNERāS LAST BODY-THEFT ATTEMPT, AND SHE WITNESSED HIS DEATH.
Especially since Basira&Jon have just come out of a mini-Dark arcā¦ it feels especially relevant? Julia lost both her mother and her father to the Peopleās Church of the Divine Host, because of Rayner, and she had herself been scared of The Dark for long:
(MAG109) JULIA: There was another reason that I chose to work nights. If you read my statement, then Iām sure it will come as no surprise that for most of my life, Iāve had a pretty significant fear of the dark. I used to lie awake at night; listening, straining my ears for the noise of movement or thatā¦ dreadful growl coming out of the dark. It was one of my better counsellors that suggested I try working nights as a way to address it. And it worked! For the most part.
Amongst other things, we recently had confirmation of what had happened to Juliaās mom through Manuelaās statement:
(MAG143) MANUELA: You were not the first to try and stop us, you know. Not even within living memory. I was but newly joined when [Lynette] fled the Church, and Maxwell had her silenced. But I remember her brute of a husband. He fed the beast for us, you know, when first he believed [Lynette] might still be saved. Then, later, we faithful served as his fuel to banish it. But, not for long. Thatās the thing about Darkness, isnāt it? You try your hardest to eradicate, flood your surroundings with light, but itās always there at the edges ā waiting for the glow to weaken, to return and cover you forever. Robert Montauk discovered that the hard way.
(And in return: Manuela mentioned that Darvish had ācrossed a Montauk, which hasā¦ traditionally gone poorly for us.ā, which was an allusion to Julia and was covered by the story she told Jon in MAG109.)
Why Robert Montauk did what he did and what happened to her mother could still be elements that Julia would be interested to know. (Orā¦ not anymore, because she tried to leave that life behind her, butā¦ still, I have trouble picturing that it would be a coincidence that she would be back right after Jon&Basira heard that story.)
* ā¦ Iām especially worried about Melanie, since her āconnectionā to Trevor&Julia is thatā¦ they burned down the Ivy Meadows care home, including what was left of Melanieās father:
(MAG036, Nicole Baxter) āI turned and began to sprint back towards my car. I had to get away, to get out. Then, without warning, I felt something heavy hit me in the side and I lost my footing, falling to the ground. I looked up to see an old man pinning me to the ground, his long, white beard matted and filthy. I screamed and tried to escape, but his age seemed to have done nothing to diminish his strength, and he kept his grip easily. Then he spoke in a thick Mancunian accent and told me to keep my voice down. I noticed that his skin was unblemished pink, and behind him stood a young woman, tall and lean with close-cropped hair and a deep scar over her right eye. She carried a large canvas bag, and was shaking her head, telling the old man to leave me alone. After a few suspicious glances, he got up. I could swear I recognised him from somewhere, but when I asked the two of them who they were, they just shook their heads and told me to leave. I asked them what was going on, and the old man looked at his companion, as if asking permission, said something about knowledge being a good defence here. She shook her head and said that leaving quickly was a better one. I didnāt need to be told a third time. I got in my car, and I left them to their work. I didnāt turn around even when I saw the smoke start to rise behind me.ā
[ā¦] ARCHIVIST: The Ivy Meadows Care Home in Woodley was officially decommissioned in July 2011, a month before the first of these alleged calls came in. It burned down on the 4th of September that same year after a leaking gas main caught fire.
(MAG106) ELIAS: Your father was your last real anchor, wasnāt he? [STATIC RISES.] MELANIE: Thatās none of your business. ELIAS: Perhaps. Five years is plenty of time to grieve. Itās a real tragedy, isnāt it ā dementia? Oh, especially so early. But he always remembered you, didnāt he? āLittle mothā. MELANIE: Shut. up. ELIAS: At least, you got him into a decent care home. Hard to afford on an irregular income like yours, butā¦ your motherās life-insurance helped plenty. And Ivy Meadows wasnāt as expensive as some of them! Itās a shame, about the fire. But Iād have thought it would offer something of a relief. MELANIE: Whāwhat are you talking aboutā¦? ELIAS: Oh. Of course. They told you he died in his sleep, didnāt they? Smoke inhalation. A real tragedy, but at least he didnāt suffer. MELANIE: Iā¦ ELIAS: Do you want to know what really killed him? [STATIC RISES] MELANIE: [SHOCKED INHALE] [RAGGED BREATHING] [TAPE RECORDER HISSING] ELIAS: Awful, isnāt it? He really suffered. Notā¦ really your fault, just bad luck. MELANIE: [RAGGED BREATHING TURNING INTO SOBS] ELIAS: That doesnāt comfort you, does it?
And I have no idea how Melanie will take that news. Able to remain stable and/or to decide that it may have been a mercy-kill? Refusing to feel any gratitude-adjacent feeling towards then, since they did it as Hunters (so, not to save innocents or to put the residents out of their sufferingā¦ but because there were monsters to kill)? Anger and resentment at what they did? (Would Melanie team up with them if itās about tracking down Amherstā¦?)
- ā¦ So, Julia and Trevor just Got Inside Of The Institute Like That, and violenceād Jon, and would have gone for the kill if Daisy hadnāt stepped in:
(MAG153) TREVOR: Gotta say, Iām disappointed. Genuinely thought you were different. But youāre just another monster. Not even worth the chaseā¦! JULIA: You want the honours, old man. TREVOR: Donāt mind if I do~! JULIA: [CHUCKLES] TREVOR: [CHUCKLES] DAISY: [FAR] Get away from him.
ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦.. So, once again: pETER.
(S4 trailer) MARTIN: ā¦ Yeah. Yeah, I know. [PAUSE] Iām, erā¦ Iām actually with him now. [SNIFFING] You were right. [PAUSE] ā¦ yeah. Yeah, I know. [LONG INHALE] Iā¦ [EXHALE] ā¦ Will they be safe? [PAUSE] ā¦ Okayā¦ [INHALE] Okay! Iāll do it. Yeah. Sure thing.
(MAG126) PETER: Martin, this is what we agreed. After The Flesh attacked, you came to me. MARTIN: [SIGH] PETER: And Iāve held up my end of the bargain, despite your continued hesitation. Your friends have been largely untroubled by the many ā many ā enemies that they have made. MARTIN: What about the delivery guy? Breekon. And the coffin? PETER: Was that its name? To be honest with you, I thought it was dead. MARTIN: You thought wrong. PETER: True enough. And as soon as I learned it was here, I moved to intervene, but, well. It turns out I wasnāt really needed. And as far as the coffin goes, thereās not much I can do about a bull-headed Archivistā MARTIN: [EXPLOSIVE EXHALE] PETER: āwho seems hellbent on self-destruction. My powers only extend so far. [ā¦] As I said, one of the last shreds of the Circus delivered a gateway into Too-Close-I-Cannot-Breathe. I went to help, but was too late. Then, your detective friendā MARTIN: No, sheās not a deteā PETER: āwent on one of Eliasās wild-goose chases, then Jon wilfully hurled himself into the coffin. I did not intervene, because thankfully, I did not agree to protect your friends from their own idiocy.
(MAG142) MARTIN: ā¦ Anyway. So, whatās this field trip theyāre on? DAISY: They, uhā¦ they didnāt tell you? MARTIN: [DRY CHUCKLE] No, Iā¦ What. ā¦ [QUICKLY] Daisy, where have they gone? DAISY: You know that town in Norway? MARTIN: What? Iā¦ Waiā Whāwhat?! You donāt mean Ny-Ć
lesund? DAISY: Yyyeah. They reckon thereās a ritual they need to, you knowā¦ MARTIN: Yeah, but Peter didnāt even menāā¦! [OPENS DRAWERS, SHUFFLES THROUGH THINGS] I donāt believe this! DAISY: Sorry. Shouldnāt have said anything. MARTIN: No, no, itāsā¦ thank you, I justā¦ [CLOSES DRAWER] For Godās sake, can he not stay safe for like, for like ten minutes?!
(MAG151) MARTIN: How honest has he been with me? SIMON: About which part? MARTIN: Protecting the others. SIMON: I think he tried. I suspect he may have slightly exaggerated his abilities when you first made the deal, but he certainly expended a reasonable amount of influence and resources to follow through. MARTIN: Butā¦ [EXPLOSIVE SIGH] But that was never the endgame, was it? He just wanted me on side long enough to rope me into hisā¦ his plans for The Extinction.
1Ā°) I doubt that weāll get to hear Martin learning about Julia&Trevorās irruption in the Archives on tape, but PLEASE, I WANT TO HEAR HIS SHRIEKS WHEN HE DOESā¦
2Ā°) Weāre more likely to hear him explode in Peterās face about it, though.
3Ā°) That is, if Peter doesnāt flee into The Lonely forever to escape Martinās wrath. Jokes aside: I donāt think that Martin will be surprised, at this point, because Simon has now confirmed to him thatā¦ Peter isnāt as strong/useful as a defender as he claimed. And this probably wonāt be a game-changer for Martinā¦ unless it pushes him to press Peter to unfold The Plan already, at last, because the longer they wait, the longer Jon and the others are kept vulnerable.
(ā¦ Though: they should still be defenceless, whether Martin&Peterās plan(s) succeed or not? Peter promised their safety, howeverā¦ was he referring to extending his own protection to them (because we now have confirmation that that deal was mostly a scam), or because Martin would become something else and/or trigger something that could keep them safe in the long runā¦?)
- ā¦ Meanwhile, Elias had suggested another ādefenderā to Basira:
(MAG127) BASIRA: ā¦ So why am I here? What do you want thatās so important you needed to tell me to my face? ELIAS: I believe youāve recently lost Melanie. BASIRA: ā¦ We saved Melanie. ELIAS: As a person, yes, but as a defenderā¦ I would have thought you would want all the help you could get, orā¦ have you forgotten what happened last time you lay your guard down? BASIRA: ā¦ Weāll work it out. ELIAS: Possibly. Then again: you are beset by enemies on all sides, Basira. And unless you expect Jon to record them into submission, it would seem youāre in rather dire need of another option. BASIRA: ā¦ And you just happen to have one. ELIAS: I might have an idea, yes. BASIRA: And what does it cost? ELIAS: Just some of your time, Basira. Just your time.
(MAG135) BASIRA: Like hell you donāt! Every lead, a dead end. Every contact, vanished or dead. Iāve spent three weeks bouncing all over the globe on your bad intel, because you said there was a way to bring Daisy back. ELIAS: There was. It required you to be absent. BASIRA: [EXPLOSIVE EXHALE] You wanted him to go in there. ELIAS: And you would never have allowed it, had you been present. BASIRA: Why? ELIAS: Would you simply believe I wanted you and Daisy reunited? BASIRA: No.
ā¦ and did he mean Jon (who would have developed his powers further), or Daisy, in the end? Directly post-coffin, Basira had been absolutely disappointed in Daisyās state:
(MAG133) BASIRA: Yeah, I justā¦ I didnāt realise sheād change into someone whoā¦ canāt look after herself. ARCHIVIST: [INHALE] BASIRA: Even without the muscle atrophy. ARCHIVIST: You were hoping for a defender. BASIRA: I was hoping for someone I can trust to share the load. Because right now, itās all on me. ARCHIVIST: [SLOC EXHALES] It doesnāt have to be. BASIRA: Hm. ARCHIVIST: Youāre not happy she is back. BASIRA: I didnāt say that, Jon. I would never abandon Daisy and, having her back isā¦ [SIGH] But right now, sheās dead weight. And I need to be able to travel light.
But Daisy is proving that sheās stillā¦ kicking a bit, indeed. Or at least enough to chase away Julia&Trevor despite her, uh, current state:
(MAG153) DAISY: [FAR] Get away from him. JULIA: Ohā¦ TREVOR: Whatās thisā¦? You got yourself a watchdog? JULIA: Well, more of a lapdogā¦! Scrawny, isnāt she? DAISY: [MENACINGLY] I said get backā¦! TREVOR: Malnourished, Iād say. How long since you last tasted blood? DAISY: [SHARP BREATHING] JULIA: You think you can take us both~? DAISY: ā¦ Iād enjoy it. Start with the old bastard ā heās slower, doesnāt guard his neck. And you worry about him too much, donāt you? I go for him, you get sloppy, predictable. [ā¦] TREVOR: [SHAKING SIGH] ā¦ Come on, Julia. JULIA: What?! TREVOR: Thereās no rush. [CHORTLING] Weāve got all the time in the world. Besidesā¦ this place is just full of monsters. She canāt guard āem all. JULIA: [PANTING] ā¦ Fine. DAISY: [GROWLS] [DOOR SLAMMED CLOSE]
Iām not absolutely sure whether the final growl was hers or Trevorās and/or Juliaās, but, in any case, GODS, I love how Daisy has turned fiercely protective of her idiot Archivist.
- And at the same time, Iām heartbroken over Daisy but IN A GOOD WAY because Iā¦ was really fearing that she might have gone back to hunting behind the tapesā back. But no. Itāsā¦ ājustā that not Hunting is slowly killing her:
(MAG153) ARCHIVIST: Are you alright? DAISY: [BREATHLESS] Donāt touch me. ARCHIVIST: Christ, he was right, I, I didnātā¦ When did you get so thin? DAISY: Iām not, itās fine. ARCHIVIST: ā¦ Itās The Hunt, isnāt it? Without itā DAISY: Iām fine. Just havenāt been hungry. Iām strong enough. ARCHIVIST: Clearly. DAISY: Theyāre not gone yet. We could still get them. [CLOTHES SHUFFLING] ARCHIVIST: Daisy, no. Itās like you say. āDonāt listen to the blood.ā DAISY: [SLOWER BREATHES] ā¦ āListen to the quietāā¦
ā¦ And I wasnāt expecting Jon to spontaneously remind her not to Chase. To respect what Daisy had been fighting for, although he tried to argue with her overall decision shortly after. Gods, so with Melanie going on an Eye-strike, Jon not taking live-statements anymore, and Daisy being slowly killed by (the lack of) The Huntā¦ current Team Archives is slowly crumbling, and how long can it truly lastā¦? Unless they find a way to temper the effects, or get better after a very bad periodā¦?
- Also, no wonder Melanie and Daisy were getting closer, aaaah!! Same mindset of choosing death over feeding/getting fed by a Dread Powerā¦ with some nuances between the two: Iād say that Melanieās stance feels moreā¦ ethical, after all (she didnāt want to contribute to The Fearsā system), while Daisyās is really about doing things on her terms and not letting anything control her anymore? Although, as she pointed out, she is aware of the fact that she herself used to be involved in a (non-spooky, still very harmful) system and to be protected by it:
(MAG153) ARCHIVIST: Even so, if itās having this much of an effect on youā DAISY: Iām not going back. I canāt let it in again. ARCHIVIST: But itā ā¦ What if it kills you? DAISY: [CHORTLE] Always said I was dedicated to justiceā¦! ARCHIVIST: Daisy! Itās notā¦ You canāt think like that. DAISY: Jon. Do you have any idea how much damage you can do if youāre a police officer who wants to hurt people? How much the system will protect you? [SHARP INHALE FROM JON] I managed to keep most of it from Basira, butā¦
(Well, despite Daisyās attempts to hide it from her, Basira did know at the very least about Daisy illegally killing āmonstersā. Basira wasnāt Perfectly Pure And Innocent when it came to condoning it, either.)
- Iām love Daisy, I love how frank she is about what she did, the fact that it was herā¦ and also, that she decided she wouldnāt condone those things anymore ;;
(MAG142) MARTIN: Itās alright. Wasnāt you. [INHALE] Not really. DAISY: No, it was. I hateā¦ a lot of what I did back then; doesnāt mean Iām notā¦ responsible for it, doesnāt mean itā¦ wasnāt me.
(MAG153) ARCHIVIST: That wasnāt you, that was The Hunt! DAISY: ā¦ [SIGH] We were the same. [SILENCE] ARCHIVIST: ā¦ Youād never known anything different. [SILENCE] DAISY: Because I never wanted to.
ā¦ And sheās also, implicitly, throwing what Jon Taught Her at his face:
(MAG121) OLIVER: I made a choice. We all made choices. Now, you have toā [ā¦] Make your choice, Jon.
(MAG132) DAISY: I hurtā¦ a lālot of peopleā¦ and some whoā¦ who I shouldnāt have. Did you ever hear the, the story Elias told me? About what I did. How I amā¦ He, he didnāt get a detail wrong. The Huntā¦ Hunger was in me all my life. Telling me who to chase, how to hurt them. I never needed to thinkā¦ who I was outside of that. But down here, where Iā¦ I canāt hear theā¦ blood anymore, I dā, I donātā¦ I donāt know who I am without, without the chaseā¦ I just knowā¦ that Iā¦ I donāt like who I was back outside. I donāt want to be her again. I wantā¦ to beā¦ betterā¦ [PANTS] Yāyou know what I thought whāwhen I woke up here? I thought this was hell; I waā, I was dead, and within hell. And Iā¦ eh, IāI knew I deserved itā¦ I donāt want tāto be a sāsadistic predator againā¦ IāI donāt want toā¦ hobble around, like some pathetic, wounded prey eitherā¦ I donāt know which would be worse. And Iām scāscared, now, that Iāll never get the choiceā¦ ARCHIVIST: One thing Iāve learned, Daisy, is that we all get a choice. Even if it doesnāt feel like one.
(MAG136) ARCHIVIST: Myā [PAUSE] [INHALE] [SIGH] My memories of the coma are not clear. But I know I made a choice; I made a choice to becomeā¦ something else. Because I was afraid to die. But ever since then, Iā¦ I donāt know if I made the right decision; IāIām stronger now, tougher, I canā¦ ā¦ If I do die, now, or get sealed away somewhere foreverā¦ I donāt know if thatās a bad thing.
(MAG153) DAISY: All that time trapped was good for one thing: thinking. And I did a lot of it. Iāve made my choice. ARCHIVIST: Okayā¦! So what do we do when they come back? DAISY: I donāt know.
(Jonā¦ you threw out so many encouraging words but still didnāt follow through on them yourself, uh? Because meanwhile, he had already attacked two people, and was trying to convince himself that he was being manipulated/pushed into doing it without having a say in itā¦)
And Jon Trying To Argue Hurt A Lot, because itās very obvious that heās projecting / seeing himself in her? He was eight when he encountered Mr. Spiderās book. Daisy was eleven when she met something (Slaughter woman?) who turned Calvin Benchley against her; indeed, sheās ānever known anything elseā, and it shaped her as a person (she became āDaisyā because of the scar the experience left her with). So, if Daisy, who has taken a stance (to stop being a Hunter and hurt people), were to decide that in the end, itās too painful, itās not worth itā¦ maybe Jon thinks that he wouldnāt feel too bad about doing the same?
But no, Daisy is still saying that itās not worth going back to her patron and hurting people, stripping Jon of that excuse and possibility right away. I still have no idea whether Jon will take inspiration from Melanie&Daisy, butā¦ whatever he chooses in the end, weāve had prime demonstrations that itād indeed be his own choice ā not the Web manipulating him, not Beholding replacing by something else, not the āineluctabilityā of becoming a careless or ruthless monster, just his own personal decision to hurt rather than be hurt.
So; I still have no idea, I still feel like only Martin is the only one who can make things go forwards at the moment, but also, lots of plot threads are accumulating to justā¦ explode at the same time and make a carnage.
MAG153ās title is Magnificent in its simplicity andā¦ evocations. So. Could be a Slaughter thing, with a mix of Team Archives (/Daisy) getting wasted, but obviously, it puts Mary Keay and The End to mind. Though I donāt know what else we could get about Mary? Jon hasnāt said anything about running out of the stash of Gertrudeās tapes from Eliasās office, so itā¦ could be one of them again (last one was MAG145, Gertrude&Arthur) ā Gertrude talking with Ended!Mary after having invoked her page? Something from Eric Delano (in written form, or a recording with Gertrude while he was alive or dead) about his ~lovely wife~?
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OH BABYĀ !Ā THIS HAPPENS TO BE IN ADVANCEMENT OF A MILESTONE;Ā BUT I COULDNāT RESIST.Ā itās the third of december,Ā and iām feeling in the spirit of positivity.Ā iāve been on tumblr for around two years and a half,Ā iāve gone through many different fandoms with a lot of different characters.Ā and now here i am with a multi,Ā with all the characters i love,Ā and iām still shocked that people who knew me all that time ago are still with me.Ā and honestly i will never not be entirely thankful for that.Ā everyone of my followers has made this time incredibly specialĀ -Ā and i have no plans to leave tumblr anytime soon.Ā and if i do,Ā i know iād want to stay in touch with all of you.Ā so onto firstly,Ā Ā
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HONOURABLE MENTIONS:
@dueledforĀ /Ā @ringspiedĀ ;Ā silas,Ā mādude.Ā how much you love john is astounding,Ā and bringingĀ so much creativity to your characterization of john laurens,Ā especially since the original material didnāt actually provide a lot of information for us in how he behaves when not around the revolutionaries.Ā so thatās impressive;Ā and i love our relationships that weāve built with both ben and john with rhea.Ā it means a lot that someone actually took to her so quickly because i love her so much and iām glad that someone else feels the same way for her.Ā and iām also really glad we became friends becauseĀ youāre honestly amazing and so easy to talk to and that means a lot.
@mucheniksĀ ;Ā tate,Ā my angel.Ā itās been over a year since i first met you,Ā and iāll admit,Ā although i think itās evident.Ā weāve had more than our fair share of rough spots.Ā which were,Ā mostly my fault,Ā because i didnāt really understandĀ &Ā i was too proud to try and understand if iām gonna tell the complete truth.Ā but iām not here for that kind of confession,Ā you really do mean a lot to me.Ā youāve been integral to me developing as a person,Ā and my muse for sayu developing.Ā i think it would be easy to say youāre one of my best friends,Ā and that you deserve everything good in the world,Ā and this time round iāll always be here for you,Ā no matter what.
SORRY I COULDNāT TALK ABOUT EVERYONE BUT YOUāRE ALL DAMN AMAZING:
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#( positivity & saved / fuck your bad vibes. )#bias list /#sorry i couldn't do long paras for everyone#but let's be really I LOVE YOU ALL#if you can't read it on my theme just /mobile it#i had to keep reading it or else it would take up the whole dash for a year#long postĀ /#(thank u @ ronnie for the banner)
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Ace, Andy, Kena, and Vicās Danatole Kid Hcs
@melchirits
* THE KIDS * * helo naught xhildern, itās danatole child time * THE KIDS: Fyodor(Theo) and Lucette (Lucy) Dolokhov-Kuragin * Dickle * every close friend/relative gets One Name to suggest * all of them are really good and considerateā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦..until they go to balaga, a family friend * they tell balaga that he has One Chanceā¦ā¦. And the name he choses is dickle * āok balaga you have one shot at this, donāt fuck it upā * āok ok hear me out. dickle.ā * anatole is dying * dolokhov is having a heart attack in the background, im fucking wheeding * āok but give me at least three chancesā * āhear me out: succulent butterfly or FUCKING NUTMOBILEā āwhyād you scream the second one?ā āBecause it should be in all capsā āget the fuck outā * āyou had one chance, WEāRE NOT NAMING OUR GOTDAM SON DICKLEā * ābut can the middle names spell dickle, what about troikaā * ābalaga please get out of our house itās midnightā * āhow about pikachu. Or ash ketchum.ā * fedya, screaming from the background, heart attack paused: āYESā āi think i thought of the perfect nameā balaga literally gets to anatoleās height by climbing him and whispers, āthe loud THX noise from that one movie.ā[a] * āname the child the THX noiseā ābalaga,,,,its been four days please leaveā * he Wonāt give up * Other balaga recommendations: * FUCKING NUTMOBILE * lucas steele, and variants * paul pinto * razor boy * succulent * marvin * paul pinto in khakis * lucifer * succulent butterfly * lampost * trash can * naruto * pikachu * ash ketchum * kukas steeke * THX noise * fursuit * (anatole kicks him out after that one) * ALSO * āfedya you are the fatherā * āso are youā * āoh shit trueā * the first child (theo) grows up and learns that they were literally almost named fucking nutmobile and is ready to deck both balaga and their dads * balaga is like āim gonna teach your kid how to driveā * anatole astral projects while Everyone it holding fedya back from destroying balaga * balaga teaches the kid how to drive anyway bc fedya and anatole canāt stop him * so the kid gets pulled over by a cop the first time they drive (w/balaga) bc of course * the police person is just like āI KNOW YOUā and balaga screams āFLOOR ITā * āgreen means go, red also means go probably, yellow means speed upā * ābalaga why is my kid cryingā ā,,,,,,,,,,reasonsā * balaga calls theo dickle forever bc he can * Lucy has Fedyaās Determination and she does everything balaga does better * balaga cries into a wine bottle on the pavement * ābalaga eating saltines and chugging wine on the sidewalkā~Quote from Ace * one time balaga takes lucy out for night lessons * fedya wakes up as this is happening and has a panic attack because āwhere is our kid oh dear godā * he literally sprints out into the driveway and balaga screams āFUCKING FLOOR ITā and lucyās doing all sorts of pro maneuvers * while balaga ends up hanging on for dear life because āoh so this is what itās like to be my passengerā * ālucy luciferā * balaga has a corkboard full of parking tickets he never paid, he hoards them like trophies * (balaga voice) speed limit 420 haha nice
*Ā āBalaga that says 42,,,ā * āif i put four engines in my car,,,ā * balaga owns a school bus thatās decked out like a monster truck * balaga works for uber AND lyft, like a double agent * one time he gets an uber and lyft at the same time so hes like fuck it and gets them both * fuzzy dice on rearview mirror * balagaās car is named nutmobile & it has a nut sticker * balaga sleeps in his car in a walmart parking lot at night?? * on lucyās first birthday balaga teaches lucy how to say fuck and fedya decks him in the street * balaga picks lucy up from school or something one day and he saw her and just yelled āHEY LUCIFERā * lucy whips around like YEAH FUCKASS WHAT DO YOU WANT, she was like 14 * BALAGA IS LITERALLY AT ANATOLE AND FEDYAS HOUSE ALK THE TINE AND HE IS JUST YELLING LUCIFER ALL GHE TIME AND FEDYA ID LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP BALAGA * balaga runs like naruto * balaga was the babysitter literally all the time * balaga worked as a gym teacher for a month before getting fired * (āwhatād he get fired for?ā ānothing you can proveā) ~Andy and Ace * someone else parks in his parking spot and he just keys the car * balaga worked as a librarian for two hours before being fired for telling the kids to shut the fuck up * balaga never gets fired from uber no matter what * Review: 5/5. Almost died but i got to my destination, 30 minutes away, in 2 minutes. * āLUCY, HYPERDRIVEā * balaga has completely taken over anatole & fedyaās garage * they try to walk in one time like āis this is fucking dead ratā and he shoots them with a paintball gun and says āno this is covfefeā * Balaga goes as a gc egg shaker for halloween w the kids * āNo you just hear the beads and then theres tiny egg manā ~Kalvin * āyeah the guy who lives in our garage uhhhh tiny egg manā ~Theo * lucy draws balaga and he says āhell yeah fanart,ā hangs it up on like the ceiling of his car * when lucy and theo play mario kart she always chooses rainbow road * chooses monopoly for Family Game Night * ālucy please weāve been playing for three daysā āno itās blond dadās turnā * anatoleās dying on the floor, fedyaās crying, theoās dissociating * theoās a hide and seek master
*They watch Buzzfeed Unsolved * lucy & theo go ghost hunting, lucyās humming the ghostbusters theme and theoās shaking like a leaf in the corner with ten vials of holy water on him * āhey demons itās me, ya boiā āLUCY NOā * āCOME AT ME DEMONS!ā āL U C Y P L E A S Eā * Theo is Dipper Pines * lucy is always ready to Deck People (kalvin style) * lucy has a pokeball in her backpack to throw at people she doesnt like * the guys at school call her āhellraiserā and the girls call her āluciferā * theo and lucy are Not Straight in the slightest * lucy is pan, theo is gay & ace, & also trans * lucy makes so many innuendos she got detention multiple times because of it * theo can play literally any instrument and spent his money on bookfairs in elementary school * Theo knows that anybody who plays violin is a basic bitch so he plays viola instead * āFyodor jr.!ā āSorry dad, youāre basic.ā ~Convo with Anatole * theo quickly become better at gambling than fedya, it switches from fedya letting him win to him actually getting demolished, fedya cries * lucy does the thing where it looks like youāre doing ballet but then you go over to someone and kick them in the face * lucy literally carries around a bag of glitter to throw on people when they say/do something stupid * lucyās ringtone is the THX noise and itās always so fucking loud * ippolit kuragin is the cool uncle but also cryptid * is a fashion designer in NY apparently * unrelated: (dolokhov voice) me me big anxiety * theo stans all the murder musicals * also is totally straight for phillipa soo * also stans all things LMM * lucyās contact pick for Blond Dad is That anatole pic * lucy is team valor and theo is team instinct * fedyaās valor, anatoleās mystic (prettiest logo???), balagaās instinct * everyone outs poor anatole for being on team mystic * āso uh anatole what team did you pick?ā āmysticā āoh because theyāre smart and stuffāā āno, theyāre the most aesthetic * the kids are highkey competitive about pokemon * anatole does that thing where he does 600000 soft restarts to get a shiny starter * he REALLY LOVES alolan vulpix!! * lucy has an embarrassing collection of photos of anatole * Balaga insists on giving the kids The Talk * theo didnāt talk for a week after but it could have gone much worse * someone: so howād It Go? * theo, shaking, looking up with the purest fear in his eyes: it could have been worse * balaga teaches theo to curse * also, someone @ theo : āfuck, i mean shoot! im so sorry!!ā theo, drinking a glass of vodka: what the fuck you can swear around me i literally fuckimg 21 years old what the shit * theo, quietly: in the heights is better than hamilton * lucy, a floor down: EX-FUCKING-SCUSE ME * once lucy asked balaga āhey do you sell drugsā * and balaga was like āno why, do you need them? bc i can get you themā * everyone sees theo as the calm kid, but if you talk shit about his family he Will duel you in a dennyās parking lot @ 3am hamilton style * thereās always the option to go live in the garaga with balaga * Theoās secret dating the Andreirretasha kid, Nico(lai) * They are the cutest coupleā¢ * Okay some Mama Heleneā¢ bs * Helene was the mom, Fedya was the dad * āHelene and Dolokhov arm-in-arm,ā * Lucy looks like a mini Helene, Theo looks like a mini Fedya * The only difference between Helene and Lucy is while Helene has the green-hairpiece-thing, Lucy wears a mauve bow * On Lucyās fourteenth bday, Helene bent down to eye-level, look soulfully into her eyes, and said this: * āLucy, as my daughter, i feel as if you should have this..ā * Itās a necklace that says āBitchā * Lucy was 13 when she started her drunk text collection * On Lucyās 16 bday, helene gave her her most prized possession * āLucy, I want you to have this, I was going to give it to you later in life, but youāve come so far already..ā * She pulls out a book from her purse, written in fancy calligraphy on it are the words āBurn Bookā * āLucy this is everything that someone i know has done wrong, treat it with careā¦ā * It was one of the only times lucy has ever cried * You bet your ass thereās an entire section dedicated to Anatole * āAnatole, age 1-6, Anatole, Age 7-10, Anatole, Age 11-13, Anatole, Age 14-18, etcā * Theres even some stuff about Cryptid-Uncle-Ippolit * āHey dad? Remember when you and uncle Pierre tied to guy to a bear for shits and giggles?ā * Theo is on the spectrum * Helene got him a fidget cube * He and Lucy do sibling costumes * Theo is a gangly mess of limbs like how does the kid function * Theo was cis-passing when he started dating Nico * When he told him he was trans, Nico just shrugged and kissed him alot * Yeah so I love these kids and might write a fic
#be gondrey chat#nutmobile chat#helene bezukhova#helene kuragina#pierre bezukhov#andreirretasha#natasha rostova#anatole kuragin#fedya dolokhov#fyodor dolokhov#danatole#natasha pierre and the great comet of 1812#the pride of sacrifice#balaga
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It actually wasnāt DSoD that got me thinking about this - as I rightfully have put this event out of mind -Ā except on occasion, like in recently rewatching some of the series. That, and of course just anything about the first reason why I fell in love with Seto to begin with - his dedication to his little brother. [After the first few episodes] I saw in him all the things Iād always felt as a big sister. Although, my brother's only 3 years younger, almost a foot taller than me anymore, and has never been annoying in the least to me, unlike how I feel about Mokuba himself. Weāve always been so close, lived through Pokemon together, shared a single cartridge of Blue Version, got into Yu-Gi-Oh! together, and he's the one I'll probably always have duelled the most, among a myriad of other games and everything. [I keep saying 11-13, but wow it was actually] 15 years ago, Seto just made me think of all the countless little things with my little brother, that Iām pretty sure I failed at, and always thought I could be better at, cuz it's simply always been important for me to be the best big sister for him. 15 years ago, he grabbed me in KBToys, excitedly pulling me and yelling that āthat gameā from āthat new showā was real!Ā We each bought a starter deck on the spot. He knew I had first liked āYugi,ā so he was worried I would pick the same one as him, but thought we should have different ones to face each other. He was happy Seto was already the no-brainer choice for me. As soon as we got home, we tried to figure out how the fuck it actually worked...Ā 15 years ago, the huge CRT TV in our living room had ended up with a loose wire somewhere. It would randomly cut out the picture sometimes, then randomly come back. And, it decided to start cutting the picture out during the first airing of Face Off, April 2002. Like, Kaiba started walking backwards ā then cut to black, while we still heard the audio going. We spent the rest of the episode screaming and running back and forth between the living room TV, and the TV in our grandma's rooms, which she kept chasing us out of. We all like to think we'd act like Seto does when it comes to protecting or saving his little brother. But those are fantastical hypotheticals. My brother was never actually in any real danger, and he's always been perfectly healthy. Why even bother ever letting thoughts of life without him actually play out? Well, something happened since way back then, and at the time, none of the aforementioned things came to mind. But, now, I keep thinking back to it... Mokuba is still as annoying as ever, but anytime Seto yells for him, my stomach actually drops now. Darker 1/2 under the cut; but honestly no more drastic than Duelist Kingdom, I suppose. Just skip down to the end if you canāt handle the literary panic attack...
A couple years ago, there was a car crash right in front of my house. It's a 3-lane each way highway. Happens all the time at this spot actually, and there have been many quite horrific ones. But this time it was a 2008 Silver Ford Focus. The car was upside down 2 lanes away from us, and while the passenger side was facing us, we could see that the entire driver's seat area was gone, crushed completely in, and that tire Ā and entire wheel well was missing. The EMTs were looking at it from afar, just standing around. The police set up cones, then were just hanging around waiting for the āaccident investigationā team to arrive. Btw, all of that, means fatality, and... That's the same car my brother drives. As I got closer, my heart ā I don't even know. Skipped? Thudded? Stopped? Pounded? Probably went tunnel vision where you only hear your own breathing? ā much as I tried to refuse to believe that I could ever possibly be correct in identifying car makes and models. I had to be wrong. My dad was already out there, but just observing from the parking lot next door. That should mean that he wasn't, like, contacted by anyone, right? All he said was to verify that it was a Ford Focus. I nervously forced myself to calm down, treat it as just a strange coincidence that it happened to be just like a car we owned, and tried to coolly ask where he was. (Our property alone is 2 acres, and I happened to not have a clue if he was even home or not.) He was supposed to be on his way home from tutoring at his college library by now. That is the singular thing I did not want to hear. My insides dropped again. We couldn't read the license plate - but against hoping it was NY, it was indeed NJ. My mom had already tried calling his phone, multiple times. And? No answer. Just kept ringing til it went to voicemail. We called his girlfriend; he wasn't at her house. She knew as much as we did. My dad just stood there with his arms crossed, staring at the wreck, wouldn't look at me, didn't say anything. I swear my everything fell out, over and over. Iād convince myself he had to be fine. He had to just still be driving, and like a good driver, he wasnāt on his phone while driving... That resolve never lasted longer than a few seconds each time. I felt like jello. My body felt like my blood was running cold, but somehow rushing to my head. For the first time in my life, I actually felt like I was going to puke just from that much info alone. I don't know how my legs kept me up; they were numb. I immediately called him. No answer. I sent an urgent text for him to just call one of us ASAP. I went back and forth between not being able to take my eyes off the car, and unable to look at it. I ran back to the house for my glasses. A local news chopper allowed us to see the other side on TV: Ā A curtain was hung in place of the driver's door, and it was flapping up in the wind. There was a black puddle running out from under it, against the light grey asphalt. Not kidding, not exaggerating. They quickly switched from it and did not show that clip again. I got my glasses and headed back out in a daze, and I paced up and down the road as far as was helpful. I still couldn't make out the license plate. I didn't know what to do. There was nothing I could do. Whatever had happened, had already happened. I had zero concept that, at some point, we would have an answer. I was just trying to figure out what to DO at that moment, and I could not acknowledge āwaitingā as being relevant. At the same time, I was too petrified to call a cop over and just ask. My head was spinning, stuck in limbo... Also unfortunately for the first time in my life, I actually entertained realistic scenarios of daily life in my house with our family, without him. Just me and my sister? Never another meal with him? Never, anything else? EVER again? Even as we grew older and had our own families, forever without him? Like, how could he just be--Ā gone?Ā That couldnāt happen. Not out of nowhere like this. I didn't know his schedule, I didn't even know he'd left the house! Then, just suddenly, didn't exist? ...was his body really just a few yards from me? No.Ā There were 2 lanes of traffic between us and the lane the wrecked car was in. The law is that these cars passing a police set up like this, are supposed to slow down to at least 25mph, or slower, and I think give them a lane of cushion even. Nehh, this is Route 9 in NJ. Both lanes slowed down TO the speed limit. I kept pacing and calling and pacing and checking my phone. I'd be lying if I said I was not thinking about dashing to the median during a red light. I would have my answer, whichever it was, before anyone would notice or even think to stop me. And, if it was true, there would be no point in making it back past the speeding traffic safely... Or if someone simply told me that it was true, then it'd still just be a couple steps for me. No, actually, no character or story reference could ever have made it to my head in the moment; I was too much of a mess. Yes, I am saying fuck everything else in my life, fuck everyone else grieving both of us. I didn't care. I knewĀ *I* could never deal. I don't care how that sounds.
He called back. I have no idea how much or little time actually passed, but my mom eventually walked up and said he had called. Somehow that was when my tears finally broke out, and my brain instantly felt like it was at last no longer being squeezed. Still could hardly catch my breath. He said he had left his phone charging in his car, and the tutoring session ran late, so he was only leaving just then. And he wanted to know why he had a zillion missed calls from so many different people. He thought the house had burned down or something. Nope, it was actually you. About 20 minutes later, his car pulled in the driveway. It was so surreal. It felt like I was watching him just casually come back from the dead. I watched him just normally get out and come walking in, like nothing had happened. Like the rest of us didn't just all go on the worst & fastest emotional rollercoaster ride. Like I hadn't been contemplating suicide for how long, up until just minutes beforehand. Needless to say, I jumped on him and hugged him so tight and kept telling him I love him and kept hugging him randomly and just kept looking at him for the rest of the day and trying not to cry, but crying a lot. And he kept telling me to stop being weird... ;u;
#long post#NOT A BROTHERSHIPPER#my little brother#[no creative tag for that yet I guess]#this is the story of the day i thought he died#but don't worry - this story is actually no worse than anything you've already watched / read#...and my god i never want to feel any of that ever again...#yes my dad is normally useless#oh great and look at what came out of the queue right before and after this... =/#death tw#body horror tw#blood tw#car crash tw#suicide tw
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