#i sometimes very quickly follow and unfollow ppl

[luvoid]

pinned post time!!!

☆ right now i mostly post abt hermitcraft and life series, but i also reblog things from my older interests (usually mha, mlp or various mcyts) (one blog for everything we die like men)

☆ i sometimes write fics (bubblegumdays), i dont post or talk about it often, but im always open to asks about them :D

☆ i reblog/post hermitshipping!! (not rpf) do with that as you will. idc abt discourse, i am retired

[destinyc1020]

Not someone making a Wattpad story

Lol ppl jump to conclusions so quickly before even waiting to see more developments. Geez!

I like to wait, and watch, and see what else transpires before jumping to wild conclusions. 👀

Now if both Hunter AND Z had unfollowed, then that would have been very telling. Idt Z will unfollow though. Her main method seems to be just muting ppl if she's not dealing with them anymore lol. She's famous, so sometimes an unfollow will be way more sus. Remember when she and Keke unfollwed each other? That was news for WEEKS!!! Z re-followed her, but Keke never did. 👀

Who knows what went on lol.

[tokugou]

Hi. First: I love your GIFs! They're pleasing to see on my dash (and sometimes gives me niggling ideas for creating GIFs of my own but almost never do it cuz procrastination and my creativity sucks haha 😅)! Please keep creating! <3

Second, genuine question (and out of curiosity): Why do you self reblog your posts often? People can see your posts on their dash, and even on the search thingy. The search thingy doesn't let people see your self-reblogs (just the original post). Even though I've kinda been on and off of Tumblr for years, I don't really get how it works, so I'm a bit confused as to why you and other bloggers self-reblog your/their own posts?

You don't have to answer if you don't want to, though! I'm just genuinely confused and I don't know who/where else to ask/search 😅. Thanks in advance! Have a nice day! <3

I honestly don't know what I did to get dragged into this discourse

Thank you for polite question, I honestly don't know if I can help you a lot and if my answer will explain it as you expect. I also was on and off tumblr for a long time and often, but I can answer it based on my own experience on this becasue it was confusing to me too when I first met with self reblogging.

Long reply under read more so to not trash other people' dash

first of all self promotion isn't a bad thing and i'm staring to think some of people here see it as a crime

compared to old one nowday t/mblr is a mess, lot of people left this site and most of them were content creators (either artists or gifmakers) and back then it seemd more welcoming to editors? People would rb your stuff no matter your popularity becasue hey it is content from my fav series i wanna see more i wanna keep it on my blog and show it to others so there was no need for people to self reblog becasue it circulated around a lot on its own.

new people who join this app are raised on i/stagram t/itter and/or f/book where LIKES means everything, you show your support by liking posts THIS NOT APPLY TO TUMBLR AND NEVER DID [you can check this amazing post about rebloging]. As nice as it is to get likes on your post becasue it is like a pat on a head - it is only a pat, doesn't mean anything on a long run. Reblog = spreading. If people don't spread it we stay unnoticed and we tend to self reblog more.

another thing that changed is: people no longer scroll from top to the last post they saw before going to sleep, cos why would they? You wake up in the morning open app while eating breakfast or drinking coffee and you sroll past ten or twenty post or an equivalent of hour or two of your absence - you dont go deeper cos it would be a waste of time - again, I say USUALLY, some ppl still do this and it is ok either way - which leads us to main point of self/reblog:

DIFFERENCE in TIME ZONE not all of our followers live in the same time-zone, when I post something in my free time it doesn't mean others have it too, most of them are probably sleeping or in working place at that hour. We self reblog so people who were absent (and we think might be interested in - becasue why not? they follow us for a reason right?) can see it when they get back on here. By reblogging ourself multiple times, that puts the post back on the follower’s dash and hopefully gives them a chance to see it.

most of people follow ton of blogs (one of my friend I met here told me they follow over 1k blogs) imagine even half of these blogs posting regulary, a few things per hour, the dash is messy and crowded OUR EDITS TEND TO GET LOST IN IT. Most of people follow a lot of blogs and might miss our posts becaue their dashes are WAY more active than these who follow five or ten blogs.

t/mblr fandoms aren't welcoming to new creators in my experience, to get notes you need to be popular/have lot of followers but you can't have lot of them if your posts aren't spread/seen and so on and so on it go in circle (a lot of ppl also only reblog popular posts and avoid these with litte of notes - don't know why it is like this, maybe they think these posts are suspicious?) so with self reblog we also give some of these fake notes to make a post more appealing, i guess? this one is just speculation.

the search function you mentioned is very rarely used tbh people don't go to search for things daily, they usually only do this when they join new series/ship/etc to check if there is something. People usually stick to what they see on their dashes. AND most importantly this option doesn't work as it should. It is some type of algoritm that promote post that are alive/active - even if your post is relativy new it might not show in search becasue it died quickly (as if it wasn't interacted with for some time). With search option it is 50/50 your thing either show there or not. ALSO REMEMBER search option is a terrible promoted thingy that doesn't show you everything so you better stick to /tagged/ thing you can enter manually while on dash if you are using web t/mblr.

people no longer go straight to specific blogs to check if they missed something, they might do it for their besties (as they call it) but other than that DASH is all people see and focus on, so the more often content creators self/reblog the higher chance followrs will see it.

we are not paid for what we do and it come to everything: edits, gifs, arts, writing, video and META POST we are not paid for it and no matter how many people say notes are just numbers these numbers are our motivational payment, the less you get the less you create because you just don't feel the point of sharing your creations if it is not received well or at all.

when I started posting I used to post new content daily even twice a day, nowdays seeing most of my edits not being well recieved in fandom I lost motivation to the point I was thinking of quiting because it didn’t give me joy anymore and I'm still considering it.

I personally never felt bothered seeing self rebbloged post, I follow a bunch of content creators, some of them sr twice a day some each hour, some more or less often. It often helped me to see something I would missed becasue I wasn't here and personally it often give me joy to see the post I remember seeing that had 2 notes when I rb it and now it is 500 or more.

to anyone who read it and still think self reblog is a bother: do not tell people to stop self reblogging. If you genuinely have a problem with self reblogging, just unfollow or block the person who does it and don’t make a fuss over it!

I hope I managed to answer you at least partly? I probably lost the point somewhere between first sentence and second but... well

[causticsunshine]

twenty questions

tagged by @are-you-quite-finished-giovanna thank you babe!! 🥰

1. why did you choose your url?

simply put i adore louis and i like purple and it just rolled off the tongue lol, but i also had a list of possible urls i also liked and i had to snatch this one up while i could!

2. any side blogs?

yes i have four....i'm not one of those 'everything goes on main and you can deal with it' type people.... but i have an inspiration blog @prickelndauge (art insp, lots of fashion, cool photography), an art-only blog @swmpwxtch, one just for spooky/creepy content because i'm really into horror manga and scary movies and that kind of stuff but i keep it off of main because i know a lot of it can often be triggering to others! (i also don't post much there but @bonepickng) and one for art references, life tips, random resources, and more donation sharing @am-ref!

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

soooo long i thought i'd be gone by now tbh. i know i signed up in 2011 after just browsing the site through random blogs and tags for ages, but i didn't start actively using my own account until early 2012!

4. do you have a queue tag?

when i actually remember to tag things i have queued i'll use 'i'm sleep queue' because all my early morning posts everyday are queued....i am an insomniac rip

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

keeping up with my interests better! i was like 15/16 at the time so it made sense. back in Ye Olde Days much like now—i really have come full circle lmao—it was mostly just for 1d and then some random tv shows/franchises i just to see content of semi-often, as well as finding cool art!

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

rn it's just a regular pic of louis! as much as i like using my collages or little edits as my icons, you can't see much of anything and it looks too busy sometimes (but also the photo i have rn....i am always thinking thoughts about it soooo)

7. why did you choose your header?

it's pretty! i wanted everything to follow a color scheme + i love embroidery and fancy gowns!

8. what's your post with the most notes?

ok i thought it was gonna be one of my old larry chibi doodles because i know a few of them hit 1k+ notes, but i deleted those in 2017 and apparently now it's this 6 year old like....funky photo study i did of dan howell from 2015 when i still watched him and amazingphil a lot?? i mean at least it's something i was once proud of lmao....there's a few art posts i have with semi decent notes that i pretend i Do Not See

9. how many mutuals do you have?

i think rn 40 something so not very many, although i unfollowed a lot of people i was moots with when i left my last fanbase so that's probably why 😬 i've been meaning to check out more HL/ot5 people though!! i love mutual interaction but i'm afraid of being annoying if i'm any degree of attentive

10. how many followers do you have?

overall i have almost 2.4k rn, but there's a decent amount that are totally inactive or at least don't interact with me so it feels like....a lot less lmao but since re-joining 1d i've already made up like all the people i lost when i left my other fanbase of almost three and more so thank you for actually liking my work and maybe me as well 🥺💗

11. how many ppl do you follow?

around 370 rn!

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

half of the stuff that comes out of my mouth is a shitpost fdngjkdf like my tags are bad enough lmao, no one needs to properly share the bs i have to say

13. how often do you use tumblr?

pretty regularly rn but there are times i'll go completely MIA depending on what i'm into/how busy i am!

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog?

in the past i have had some....issues with other people i've met on here but never directly had confrontation with them? most of the time that's happened i figure it's been one-sided though because i can get irritated with certain behavior really quickly—like i always say my heart is big and open but my bullshit tolerance is dangerously low—but when that's the case i'll just unfollow or block without saying anything?

although back in the day there was one instance (and seriously if anyone remembers this you deserve a medal because this shit was Ridiculous) where i kinda but not really called out another 1d fanartist who posted untagged noncon fanart they'd done of at least two of the boys, and then acted like it was no big deal (like. 1. those are irl people my dude and 2. untagged noncon art?? in front of my salad??) and their friends kept defending them for it and tried to come for me claiming i was a proponent of Purity Culture when i'm not and literally all i said in my post on it was that in my own opinion it was kinda fucked up to draw noncon art of real life people—not characters played by actors! but actual real people as themselves—in the first place, but if you felt the need to post highly triggering content like that the least you could do was tag it accordingly

but i think that was the last time properly so i guess times within this fanbase are still chaotic as ever just in a different way?

15. how do you feel about "you need to rb this" posts?

Annoyed™️ like don't guilt trip me over a post lmao i do what i want !!

16. do you like tag games?

YES i love to talk about myself after years of trying not to show any personality online out of fear of judgement dfjkngdf

17. do you like ask games?

yes! i want to do them more but i'm always afraid of reblogging one and then getting nothing and looking like a Fool :'(

18. which one of your mutuals is tumblr famous?

i guess i have a few moots that are kinda well-known or at least get good interaction within the community we're a part of? also isn't that phrase kind of an oxymoron at this point adfjkdf

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

not past platonic friendly affection lmao but honestly what is it like to have a realistic crush on an actual tangible person versus someone in the public eye who doesn't even know i exist.....it's been so long and i am so lonely please send help

20. tags?

@niallnailme @bolitodequeso @milkcurls @exzouis @ialwaysknewyouwerepunk @got-my-devotion @aliensyndrome uhhh anyone who'd like to please consider yourself tagged by me! literally if there was an 'all my moots' button i'd just pick that lmao and as always no pressure/sorry if you've already done this and i haven't seen!

[maybankiara]

OK I ship mayward AND jiara too but every time I reblog sthing jiara-related, I'm like..."will the ppl hate me for this? Will I be judged negatively??" The constant jiara hate I see here is so discouraging...I see that even from mutuals that I'm fond of. Like they are actively sh*tting on them and their shippers. And I never have these secondary thoughts when reblogging mayward content. I'm just curious, is it only my experience? I really do hope so.

first of all, i'm very sad to hear that you keep seeing people you like shitting on what you like. that's a horrible feeling.

to be honest with you, i do feel the similar way. back when i first started this blog i followed a lot of random people, and it became obvious quite quickly who is a negative shipper. i don't like people who try to make others feel bad for shipping anything, especially in an offensive and insulting manner. i did message one person who was insinuating that jiara fans are racist and choosing jj over pope just because he's their "white fave". otherwise, i just unfollow.

did you consider doing the same with the people you follow? it might seem harsh if you otherwise like them, but it's just tumblr at the end of the day, and you're here to enjoy yourself.

i still feel this way sometimes. luckily, none of my mutuals now actively shit on jiara, but there's an odd post or two. sometimes it's the argument between who deserves representation less - a girl and a boy who go from friends to lovers, therefore perpetuating the stereotype of "boys and girls can't be friends", or two boys who go from friends to lovers, perpetuating the stereotype "boys can't be physically showing their friendship through hugs and such without being gay".

whenever i reblog/post jiara content, i wonder if people are going to unfollow me, then i decide that i don't give a damn. no one has yet tried to personally give me shit for shipping anything, but if they do, it's none of their damn business.

i'd recommend you to follow more jiara blogs, honestly. it makes all the difference. i'll give you the shortcut to all the awesome writers (and fanfiction!) on @jiaraweek, as they also repost quite a lot of jiara content, too. it'll get better. don't let assholes bring you down and make you feel bad for liking a pairing ❤

[arschbiene]

regarding that last post, Ik ppl aren't comfortable speaking out against their abusers and stuff but part of me does sometimes wish that info was made more public,especially if its more serious accusations of manipulation and abuse. I dont participate in discord servers and really only personally interract w very few smaller creators but if the section of the fandom im in harbors abusive and manipulative ppl i just idk would rly love to know. I hope what Im trying to say gets across right

Hi anon, 

I definitely get where you’re coming from, but exposing people is a really messy thing to do, especially if you are only aware of the situation secondhand.  Also reckless name and shaming doesn’t take into account people’s personal struggles, the fact that some of us are young and growing and will develop and then grow out of toxic behaviors. It really should be reserved for serious cases with well documented cases of fuckery like Nox. Like I said things have gotten better in the last two years. I’m personally way more comfortable than I used to be. I think rather than naming names, i can instead just quickly outline some specific online behavior that I personally consider warning signs

Artists/Ficcers Online: 

+ Public Dickery: Any sort of consistent and unjustified cruel/mean/rude/asshole/explosive comments towards their audience. People with Edgy “You guys are fucking stupid” personas usually carry that behavior into their private lives. There used to be a 2P blog that was notorious for this. I’m also wary of people who constantly gripe about note count and seem a bit popularity obsessed. Also beware of people who seem to  c o n s t a n t ly be fighting with someone and are always talking some drama on their blog.

+ Excessive Discourse: Using their blog audience as white knights/Social Insurance for petty disagreements with other fandom members that could’ve been settled/resolved in respectful privacy.  I.E: Reblogging or screenshoting arguments on their blog instead of DMing. The moment behavior like that happens, to me it’s a power move. You can’t have a safe or fair convo with someone if they have 7,000 followers and you have 200.  Also god, if an artist is making fun of or attacking someone’s art or fic on their blog, that’s an instant unfollow. Fuck that.

+Gate-Keeping: Tied into the above, I always kinda side-eye anyone who go on campaigns against dissenting opinions or different head canons. Especially if it feels oddly defensive, angry  or emotional.

Discord Communities

+Tree-Housing: The moment a public discord starts to become a Semi-Private or a Private community is a red flag to me, especially if the environment turns into a gossip-y situation or if it is specifically becoming some sort of retreat or Clubhouse for the Mods. While I very firmly stand behind the idea that People Talk and there’s no harm in it, there’s a big difference between harmless gossip and uh obsessive bashing sessions. If you are in a discord with more than 10 people who are not long term friends, then it is not a private discord for you and everyone in it to be talking shit. I have seen so many really nasty discord screenshots in the last two years from so many different folk, let me tell you. Also if you’re in a discord and the goal of most rooms seem to just be to attack and demean and rip apart “competing” artists/ficcers in the community, then to me that’s toxic.  No one deserves targeted harassment. Not even that Ask-Blog you think is cringe. There are levels of talking about people and their works and if it’s straight up hateful, then idk why you’d want to be in that sort of company. If they’re doing it to other people, they’re probably doing it to your shit too. 

+Long Live the King:  Don’t support discord servers where Mods+ their friends are treated like infallible Gods, be aware of power-tripping or when dynamics between the chat are getting stressful/harsh/toxic.  A revolving door of Staff + Members is not a good sign. If people disappear or are blocked without full transparency, then that’s a red flag to me. If you feel afraid or uncomfortable around someone in position of power in a discord, then don’t stick around. Also in general, don’t let A N Y O N E talk nasty to you in a discord, no matter what is going on, you deserve civility and always stand up for those who are being mistreated when you can.

+Dog-Piling: Discords where conversations turn tense or abusive very quickly with multiple members swarming someone on something innocuous and making tons of bad faith accusations over say a ship or an idea with little mod intervention, or worse, mod support, is usually a bad time for everyone.

I’m probably forgetting a billion things that are redflags for me but I hope this helps anyone reading navigate situations where they felt uncomfortable but didn’t quite know why.

[bma-2020]

Okiedok here’s the delio. I have a list of all the blogs from the last six months who’s actively either responded to a meme i sent, responded to a message ive sent, replied to something regarding mally herself, has actually written with me, written a starter for me from my liking a starter call, has at least liked a starter i wrote for them to awknowedge it exists, all that jazz, i have a lot of open field so it’s not just a possible tumblr didnt let them no option anymore, because i send memes to everyone who posts them that i see. I reply to most peoples ooc posts. I like most starter calls I pass by. I try my darndest to actually interact bc i know how it feels to be ignored and its… i’ve been called one before so i’m using the word, thats fluffing cunty behavior, and honestly if you complain about not being interacted with but never even try when i try with you, ya being cunty, end of. I gotta list. That list only entails Mally because she’s who I care about the most. I’m probably gonna start instilling a new rule in all my blogs that if you ignore Mally and/or Darcy( @tasedandconfused ), since I would say they’re my two main blogs tho darcy gets ignored even more than mally does, probably bc i denied canon and left it entirely we know fandom hates that, if either of them is ignored then… Ya out of luck, I’m gonna unfollow you. I’m debating soft blocking everyone who ignored me on both of them but I don’t want to like be mean and deny the chance to eventually try again but at the same time i shouldnt feel bad for taking a stand and saying this is bullsheet, idk my anxiety says im awful for giving a fluff about myself but also i should give a fluff about myself probably, ive nearly died in the last three months, my brain almost exploded, i just had three root canals on one corner of my face, i have to potentially get surgery on my inner ear which i cant even afford, i dont got time to deal with only being used for like smut memes or like as a resource blog or utter bs like that, i dont got time for it. So new rules here. 1: If Mally or Darcy are not acknowledged, written with, responded to, viewed as more than just their fluffing bodies? ya dropped, im unfollowing, potentially soft blocking, which means blocking and unblocking for those not in the know, on all accounts I follow you on. Every single one. I know most of my muses are on sideblogs but despite not being able to send memes from sideblogs you can block people from sideblogs fun fact, i will do that if i have to. 2: I’m gonna be posting SCs, PCs, memes, etc. I like and respond to plotting calls, starter calls, i send memes, all of that. If I don’t get any response within.. I’m giving one week for people who don’t run on a queue and a month and a half to people on a queue based system, if i dont get anything within that time like at least an im being like ‘its posted’ or ‘its queued i wanted to let you know in case tumblrs a fluffbutt’ (i do this sometimes if i dont get even just a like on the starters i post so i at least know people saw it since i know tumblrs bs, i wait until the day they’re active to do so in case theyre busy yknow) basically i need acknowledgment at all. No you can’t claim this is abt follower count bc when you unfollow someone they inevitably unfollow you too, thats gonna drop my following, not as quickly as soft blocking would but i wanna be fair i guess, which leads to: 3: I’m basing this on your activity too, like if i like a think and you’re gone for a month after that its fine, im not gonna unfollow you unless you never come back or youre online and posting others just not mine because that tells me youre specifically ignoring me and im gonna drop you for that end of. I’m done with the bullsheet im done w the dillish behavior, i love friendship but if im giving and never receiving thats extremely one way and not gonna work. I check through my follow list weekly and i go back about five-10 pages on someones feed before i unfollow them to see their actual activity and see if theyre here or if its a q so. I’m thorough basically. 4: You dont have to be active with me on all your blogs, i mean i’d prefer it but thats hard as fluff so essentially if you have like five blogs and are just like trying w me on two or three thats fine. Ten blogs, four or five with at least a plot formed is cool. Multis just one muse is all I’d need. I’m not gonna unfollow the blogs youre not writing w me on if you at least write w me on some. Again, specifically Mally and/or Darcy. If you ignore both of them, we’re done. I havent been active on darcy because of being ignored and its a huge butt mess and im just tired i wanna use my babies, you don’t get to have my ‘better’ muses like i know a lot of ppl only follow me for my boys or my villains, you don’t get them if you ignore my baby. But, there is a limit there too. 5: If you never respond to a meme or thread even once with Mally or Darcy, or post a starter, i reply, its never replied to again after a month, I’m unfollowing and/or soft blocking for that too. Bc that means youre just raising my hopes to fluff with me or get someone else and honestly, youre even more cunty than than the people just flat out ignoring me if you do that. And this isnt a specific person, this is five of the people actually on my list. Yes, my list is also annotated with specifics again I was very thorough on this yesterday, I hyperfixated I’ll admit it, I’m in a fluffing depressionary bubble and being told to get over it because people want something they dont deserve to have to. I am a believer that people deserve good things but if youre purposefully being cunty… no you dont. 6: No I’m not releasing my list, maybe I will and I’ll omit the urls because I don’t want people being buttholes to each other too but otherwise, yall not seeing it im not giving a callout because… really thats just unnecessary here. I don’t think yall are toxic people or something i just think yall are unintentionally being cunty. And no I don’t mean everyone that follows me i mean the ppl that add up to what i’ve documented so far and fit the bill of butthat that i’ve shown, its behaviors yall gotta check before ya wreck. Yes there will be some people who have priority, everyone has those people, I write w kathryn on other platforms since she doesnt go on here as often but when Kathryn returns from war here (if she does cause she also agrees most ppl on this platform are cunty, i feel really bad saying that word so often but im gonna keep doing it i recently deleted an ask saying I was a huge cunt for not sending someone smut memes when I didn’t even follow them or know they existed so, again the travesty of this place is nutballers) same with owly, alex is here too, my most active partners are always going to be priority because theyre the ones who show the most interest and the most care. I understand that with others as well which is why I have the timeframe set up, because I want to be as open and shizz as possible while atill being firm i guess. I don’t want to have extreme double standards like its impossible for double standards not to exist at least a little bit but I want to avoid a golden chest full of them I guess. 7: I don’t have a seven rn, this was an even number and it bothered me. Seven is nust my warning that I’m bittery writing this on mobile so formatting is not real but i tried my dandest to make this look like something people might actually mind. I dont want to be butty, i dont want to be awful, i dont want to start drama or have drama but that shizz comes around anyways so i might as well make my space as okay for me as i can cause im supposed to avoid stress so my brain doesnt almost explode again, like again i almost fluffing died i dont need ppl fake being my friend or anything, i want stuff to be real and clear. I want to be happy to be on here again and have fun like i used to since my health is plummetting and I’m not allowed to go outside near plants by myself anymore because i welt up. I have plants outside my work place and im surrounded by chemicals all day long I’m welted from here to new york constantly and never comfortable in my own skin because of it and constantly see people online acting like these actual real problems are pretentious because ‘its an excuse’ when, im a fluffing sagittarius, do you know how much i want to magically be a millionaire so i can pay for friends and my own medical stuff and go on traveling and adventures, be outside probably not camping bc as a pagan i know thats a death sentence but like be outside, lay on grass, go back to swimming because i used to swim competitively and due to health reasons i can barely even go in a pool anymore because theres too much sunlight which, bit plot twist i know, im fluffing allergic to vitamin D and the rays of the sun, so go figure, attempts to be healthy kill me more, i also cant eat most plants and am constantly dying from just eating food, they dont know whats wrong with me. i cant fix it by going ve/gan for a month inf act i tried and it almost made my heart stop thanks society. These arent excuses these are the lives of disabled and diseased and to a lesser but still very real point, ethnic lives every fluffing day. This is real shit and its murder and online and gaming? It may be all I have soon since I can’t just go out and make new friends cause, again, I’d fluffing die. I get sick going to the mall or the movie theater, I miss theme parks so much but have to minimize it to weeks i dont have work so i dont get fired for having a welt while working in the beauty industry. I may have to get a degree online and change my field entirely because of my illness that nobody understands. People even make fun of it constantly online and I wish I could just drop online entirely because of how unbelievably ableist the entirety of the world is, i wish i could drop humans in general for their ableism, but i cant. I don’t have choices in most cases, but throwing away people who maybe purposefully maybe unintentionally thats why i’m giving you this warning and will be repeating this warning for awhile, this is where i have choice. I have to use what little choice I have in life while I can since everytime i go to movies or a concert or a theme park i almost die because of not having an immune system that functions or being in certain air qualities pr being near plants or unclean people, I may not have much time and I gotta do whats best for what little mental health I have, and if that means dropping people i care about and really want to write with and do things with but who ignore me then, i guess so be it.

[slowbladed]

HOW I RUN MY BLOG

SPEED.

i get to it when i get to it. its as simple as that. i try not to force myself to write, sometimes i kind of have to with certain threads in order to get over a hump. but really i go through what i need, see if something inspires me, then write. things tend to domino effect afterwords and ill be able to spit out replies in quick succession before needing to sleep/do something else. because of that im all over the place with who i reply to. i also like to actually do things other than rp (draw/vidya gayme) alongside school work so... speed is really not my thing. lmfao

REPLIES / DRAFTS.

i draft everything and, like above, get to it when i get to it. my replies are extremely affected by music and what i’m listening to at the moment among other things (books, quotes, etc.) i will literally spend 10min in finding a song for me to write to that matches what i want to get (and if i really cant find any i just slap KAIRI on). a lot of my writing is winging it and i dont particularly plan stuff out. i might think about certain ways to reply in the shower or when i’m idle, but often it comes to me on a spur of the moment and i just WRITE and hope for the best. but hey, it hasn’t failed me!

STARTERS.

i’m quickly learning that i’m awful at starters and i’m now kind of avoiding making them. now i just go off of ask replies/ask memes and generally go from there. it isnt that i dont like putting in the effort but im just Awful at starting stuff unless i am PARTICULARLY INSPIRED by something thats been in my head. unfortunately these tend to be for specific rpers and at that point i just go to them and shoot it back and forth (i am also very bad with keeping up at messages on tumblr so if i ever just dont reply back its me being extremely forgetful). overall? im awful at them. does this mean i wont do them? no, but don’t expect something amazing. 

INBOX.

i have a lot in my inbox. stuff i save for later or just didn’t get to. if i need to i’ll delete older asks thats just been growing dust and are way past their expiration date. it isnt that i dont want to interact its just that nothing has hit me that i will produce something worthwhile. i dont like clutter and even though i have a lot of asks in my ask box right now, it hasnt gotten to the point where i wont reply to any of them. art asks are ust going to be kept in my back pocket in case i need a warmup or im feeling particularly motivated but uninspired to draw. i also tend to keep asks from people that are positive in case i need a pick me up.

SELECTIVITY.

i will follow pretty much anyone. if i like your characterization ill stay, but sometimes ill unfollow if i a) become uninterested b) you are starting shit or c) im just not feeling the waves anymore. it isnt so much to insult but i like keeping a dash that i enjoy scrolling through when im bored. we dont really need to interact but it would be a plus. generally i just ride the waves and see what happens, as with everything on this blog. 

WISHLIST.

ive a couple. but one thing i want to explore is the what ifs. specifically if marluxia managed to control sora and take over the organization. alternatively broke away from the org and created his own organization for himself. it would be interesting to see how different things would have gone with 5 different groups (xehanort, maleficent, trios, MoM, mar) going for largely different things. especially how having sora out of the mix would completely ruin some ppl’s plans. idk. i’d just like to explore that. and another thing i’d like to explore is just talking about how marluxia is doing awful things for an ultimate greater good. not excusing his shitty manipulative actions but how he just wants his heart back in the same way (kh2 characterization) xemnas wants his heart back and having to do ultimate evils to accomplish it.

HONEST NOTE.

although i love talking to others and sharing in the fun i am just as human as the rest of you guys. i get overwhelmed, i have a lot of school, and that takes priority over everything. im here to have fun, get better at writing, and make some friends. if i ignore you, drop a convo, im not mad at you im just actually busy lol. be nice to me and ill be nice to you. 

tagged by:   i stole from @critsnipe

tagging:   i dk take the thing

[mxterhyde]

For some reason it said I unfollowed you??? but I followed you right back!!

I love you

Stupid tumblr 🙄

awww ty 🥰

I noticed and was sad :( but just assumed it was bc I don’t post my age (I know some ppl don’t like when you don’t say your age, so sometimes I’ll get followed and unfollowed pretty quickly). Side effect of growing up when posting any sort of personal information would clearly get you shadowsniped by stalkers lmao posting your exact age just feels weird even as an adult

I love your posts and hope to see you around! You are very funee

[justnoodlefishthings]

your comment on the esa dragon post was really upsetting. you did make it seem like esa arent important and that they arent as important as service animals which is very shitty. i know you want to inform people and i personally have learned a lot from following you but youve been a lil harsh recently and i dont know where the aggression is coming from? and before you even say ‘im not being aggressive/rude/harsh’ thats not for u to decide. if someone says that what ur saying is makin them feel

bad, it isnt up to u to determine wether those feelings are valid or not. if u wanna educate people, be chill about it. i know people are ignorant sometimes about animals but coming from someone who works in an animal shelter and deals with a lot of stupid folk, educating ppl in a nice way is going to work far better than how ur going about it. anyway im gonna unfollow u bc ur comments and post recently have me feelin super shitty but j hope you will analyze your most recent posts n comments

My “aggression” is an attempt to take a neutral tone. There’s no font for tone so it can get hard to convey it over the internet. I’m sorry about that. I’m busy IRL and when I answer stuff, I write it out quickly and monotonous. 

I’m honestly confused because nowhere did I say or imply ESAs are not important? 

If you’re referring to the “reptiles don’t feel love” post, that had nothing to do with ESAs and more so about the anthropomorphization of non-human animals. And that’s dangerous. Of course there are reptile ESAs and that’s wonderful. But if you start treating them like mammals, you can end up with husbandry issues. There’s nothing wrong with loving your reptiles. I mean, I love Nubby to death, I would take several bullets for him. But at the end of the day, I understand he doesn’t “love” me back. And that’s not bad. I know he prefers me over my mom, and prefers my mom over my dad. I understand he doesn’t like being touched or handled like a dog, so as much as I love handling him, I never have him out for longer than a couple minutes because I respect that it stresses him out. And there are reptiles who don’t mind being handled! It’s all about the individual. And those guys can make great ESAs, but one should never put their needs above that of their pets. 

If you’re referring to the picture of the bearded dragon vest, I didn’t really comment on it besides a gif. The vest was being sold on Etsy as a legitimate way of being able to take a reptile into public places just like a service animal. Like kaijutegu explained here, this is dangerous to the animal and to immunocompromised individuals. Working at a pet store, I’ve seen soooo many fake service animals. It’s upsetting because these dogs are so ill behaved and you know these people take them into stores and restaurants. It’s people like these that get all animals, including service animals, banned from public places. And uneducated people see ESA vests and assume they’re service animals too.

I don’t appreciate you putting words into mouth, anon. I never said ESAs are not as worthy as service animals. ESAs are important tools to help disabled people cope emotionally. But they’re pets, and they deserve to be properly taken care of. 

[koomitooru]

hi precious ppl~ with vinda here ^^ since today is my birthday & i’m five ppl away from 2.6k. i figured i wanted to do something for precious ppl that i met here but first of all huge gratitude from me to @jjeonguk, for making such a cute banner for me, thank you so much bby! 😘 💕 😘 💕 😘 💕 😘 💕 😘 💕 😘 💕 😘 💕 😘 💕 😘 💕 😘 💕 😘 

note: CTRL + F (or command + F) to find your url quickly! ^^

since i decided to turn my anime blog into an active bangtan blog around nov-dec 2015, i have no idea that i’ll get this much followers. i’m so grateful & happy for everyone that following, reblogging, liking my posts & for whoever sweet souls to dropped by my inbox. really it means a lot to me, you all make my stay here incredibly fun & i can forget all of the stress & sometimes anxiety that dragging me down even for just a while ^-^ 

also for mutuals, if in the future, your interest change & you wanna unfollow me, it’s okay since i don’t wanna make following me is such an obligation for you all just because we’re a mutual but pleasepleaseplease tell me the reason why. recently i found out some ppl that unfollowed me while i’m still loyally following them & they’re just gone & ignore my chats, you have no idea how it hurts me so please & thank you ^^

i also have a few words to say for:

@jjkspjm: dasha, i know we have ups n downs in terms of communication. i know that despite any miscommunication, you didn’t mean to consciously hurt me. i know that you love me, i know that you’re always think that i’m super cute, i know that you’re actually in love with jungkook :p. i really hope that our friendship will last for a very long time <3

@ughjeon: my love, bree. as cheesy as it sounds, it must be fate that brought us together in matrimon..whut??? /coughs/ i mean you’re one of the loyal ppl that still following me despite my emo phase or jikook-taegi-spam spree, i really wish we get closer sooner but guess later is always better than never (my rhyming game is no joke right babe) i love how we can speak nothing & everything, how we goes to serious-stuff to kawaii-******-stuff easily, i’m just so happy to get to know you better love :*

@mylovelytaetae: dearest partner-in-taegi!! hi cam, i’m so grateful despite you being busy with college, you still have time to share your experience & your dream with me. you’re one of the ppl here that i can come screaming at about anything w/o me afraid of being the receiving end of judgmental stares. you’re truly genuine & i rly love you for that <3

@pjungkook: isaaa, my curly baby, thank you for being so enthusiast over my emotional-ride that is jikook, before you i prefer to silently or chatting privately with my mutual here over jikook but since you came (cheesy much huh) i really enjoy to have literally no chill over them, all-out screaming abt them in your asks. so thank you so much for embracing all of those crazy asks lmao, love you!

@c-cygnus: seriously why are you so genuinely caring & sweet meariie? are you sure you’re not an angel in disguise?? getting to know you is probably one of the best decisions i’ve ever made, thank you so much for being such an amazingly caring friend dear <3

you are so cute & sweet & honestly i’m really grateful being mutuals with you all: @trashywickie @jjeonguk @01jeonguk (i miss you so bad hon!! :c) @jiminsangel @jiminsoftgf @btsarekings @wonhossunshine @minyccngi @1glow @daegucrew @taesflower @taegiboo @youngest-k @himtohim @firebowwowwow @cherryblossomkook @shyjimins @caughtinjimin @velvethoseok @iwuvjimin @jiminpoppins @aeviternaal @divinesuga @harunyany @yoonseok @kikistiel @minshookga @prettymochi @astro-child @winktaes @sugamonic @dailydoseoffuckyou @confettibangtan @aovi @holdme-baek @vmony @conniethehuman @yahjiminie @jikookdetails @jikookiejar @neverbefake @kihyunswife @pinkbtsme @kimtahyung @apgujeon @bts420 @gloomybow1 @yoongichii @95s @fuckmybiaslist @myg @jeonofarc @pxnksenpai @heyhosam @yoontaes @rapgodv @blondejeon @ilovbangtan @iloveyoubangtan @hobipd @itsjhope @1glow @whenxoxosmilesunshines @letmecumbaek @elluts @ulookfreshlikesalad @13pjms @jiminies-thighs @koookie @jiminie-minime @bottomkook @yoongichill @jihyped @jinsneck @jeonofarc @tranquilopa @jikookstance @eternaljikook @arihanagrande @ofbusan @mochih @mochichapel <3

wanna get to know you all better but just don’t know how: @artistictae @voidpjm @busancity @pinkjikook @blondepjm @18nth @lie @1una @jeonminnies @taeqi @malfloyds @sweetmxchi @neibulae @xeunha @tahyungs @parksjmin @parkejimins @parkesjimin @yeskook @samwol @flower-guk @1verseoks @btees @lilchubchim @1ovemoni @cuterapmon @artychim @mochih @jungkooksweetheart @1honeysuga @chenkhyun @13egin @bipjm @nudejeon @taekoyaki @drawerse @badboypersona @iloveyoojung @1ovescams @je0n @yoonseok @here4jimin @uhsuga @babyboyguk @jungkiller @meinfehlermeineschuld @jiminstrash @jiminstinybabyhands @r4pline @1stlove @jiminliess @jiminbeba @dailyjungkooks @yoongi-hobi @getitjimin @pommehina @kooks-gf @kookspeach @minyoongislaysme @jiminshugs @kainks @bwimint @jinsluvr @jiminlush @laylienn @vguk @sugacakes  @blushguk @taegis @jaelbum @yoongichill @jinbaby @teenage-sihlouettes @tabeorin @kyungsinn @officerkook @rp-mnstr @isexoreal @htkpop @gimmethejibooty @hobiini @ghostnamjoon @jeongiggle @velvetseok @adoreseokjin @5angtan @shykooks @ojk @bubseok @btsxwings @glitchyoongi @yoonmyeon @yoonimin @jiminiemini @taespoonofsugaplease @baek-yoo @taemanic @xultjeon @be1ge @mssuga @jeon-bunkook @performanceunit @softguk @mincute @ofbusan @eebwi @wow-lovely-idiots @jjkookei @isexoreal @softguk @performanceunit @mincute @taetaesbff <3

special s/o for my followers who encourage me when i’m down you’re the real mvp: @fuzzydreamlandwhispers @jeonstormkook <3

and for all of these precious content makers, thank you so much for sharing your beautiful creations: @dearmyjimin @sonyeondan @sosjimin @hoseokxx @namseok @kookmint @junghope @jminies @jjilljj @mewchim @pjkook @bangtoori @booptae @kookiebuff @beuits @lavendervalar <3

[heartsoftruth]

it's not a montage, woman always gets the blame. Ney is a player, ppl from Brazil who follow this chick say he responded to her stories before. His friend Jota followed, but when drama started quickly unfollowed yesterday so they would all distance from her. Ney didn't follow Adenacia but followed her yesterday when she posted defending him. it's clear they're just quickly covering up their shit cuz they're caught. not the first time he chats up trashy models and few in the past have exposed him

I don’t know if you read my replies to other asks, but no where I blamed her for anything nor did I say it was a montage. ;) All I said was: “If it’s a montage or not we do not know 100%, but I’m sure we all have our opinions about it. One would say it’s real and others would say it isn’t. “

And indeed I know Jo followed her. 

Anonymous said:Brumar has been weird lately every since she (Bruna) posted them damn socks

True, but she is acting or having rehearsal in Brazil for Shakespeare or something… 

Anonymous said:Did you see Neyma’s friend Jota pics and snaps from that yacht party? These boys are all living it up large :)) lol and then ppl are surprised when Ney chats up this slutty models.. it’s all he and his friends are surrounded with…

That was from a few days ago huh? I can’t remember the girls, maybe they were just chilling, having fun. I dont know why they are labelled as slutty all of a sudden just because Jo is on the same boat. They probably dont even know hes bff’s with Ney.. 

Anonymous said:[1/3] I have been following Neymar since 2013 Confederations Cup so I lived through Brumar’s ups and downs. Stuff like what just happened with that Kristy girl pops up every few weeks since the very beginning and unfortunately he seems drawn to this kind of girls (huge ass, big boobs, heavy makeup). Even through he post comments like that under his mom’s/sister’s pictures I find his behaviour unacceptable. He is in a relationship and this is disrespectful to Bruna.Anonymous said:[2/3] I know you and 99% of your anons are team ‘he deserves better than her’ but honestly, he is not this perfect boyfriend you imagine him to be and sometimes I think it’s other way around. When they were previously together it almost looked like he needed her only to keep his bed warm at night, he always picked his friends over her, he took her for granted. No wonder she felt neglected and broke up with him.Anonymous said:[3/3] I really thought he has changed, deleting all this shady girls from his Insta, making an effort of actually spending some quality time alone with Bruna but I guess it is still the same old Neymar. Don’t get me wrong, I love that guy, and I know his heart is in the right place, but unfortunately he tends to think with his dick. I just really feel bad for Bruna (or any other girl he might date) because nobody deserves to live with a constant fear of being cheated on. ~J

I’m not on team 'he deserves better than her’ nor did I ever say that. I’m on team I dont believe in going back to your ex for the 82937 time, because the problems from the past will 100% hunt you down again. As we saw a couple days ago with this new rumor. I know during the last times cheating was also a major subject for the tabloids and their relationship. 

I think he did a better job this time. Like you said deleting people from insta, having her over really often, spending time together. But right now they look weird and off.. Maybe after Sunday we will see them together again in a hurry, but I htougt it was weird that she stayed away for so long, then went for a vacay in NYC and then only stayed for a couple in BCN while he also had an away match. I would say shorten your vacay. 

I think he also tried to spend less time with his friends and more quality time with her. 100%. Of course they’re in Barcelona now and have been for a while (Cris), but with the Copa final coming up I didnt expect something different. and im sure after Sunday they will go on a vacay together. But that has been the case since years. 

I also said in the past staying with Ney must be tough bc his friends surround him 24/7, but Gil moved already. Im sure Jo could stay with him a little while Bru is there, but a the end of the season he has all his friends over always. I mean you also dont wanna break a tradition of your bf… 

And if he really did send that lemme say one thing - and I said that in Dutch even before it all blew up - I would chop that dick offfff xD OFFF. It fucking shady to send that shit. 

Anonymous said:LMFAO funny how Brumars report EVERY little detail of bruna’s social media activity but skipped the part of her liking a pic of marlon(on vogue Brazil’s page)😂😂 I have no issue with her liking pictures of her ex tbh but Brumars CLEARLY have issues with this. If not, why not post it like her other 5466568 likes daily 🤔btw this isn’t the first time of her liking his pic either because they still follow each other but Brumars choose to skip this detail 😂

oh, huh? I didnt know she still liked his pics, bc like you said they dont post that… Hmmm… Interesting... Or weird... Hmm. 

Indeed imagine Ney liking pics of one of his old flings, They would dieeeeee, but with the Ta Gata gate maybe that was her way shady thing to do?