#i sincerely appreciate you!! 💙

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🎵 for sansa?

of course!! also yes thank you for actually asking me i'm- 💙🙏 in keeping with my promise, i'm going to create a sansa playlist that only makes sense to me and like, maybe one other person who gets the vision. but n e ways.

(I've Had) The Time Of My Life - Bill Medley, Jennifer Warnes. My brief explanation is that, in keeping with a modern AU in which Sansa is a twelve year old girl living in the Midwest, Dirty Dancing is THE escapist post-heartbreak comfort movie of choice. It probably exists in a chewed up DVD case one of their giant dogs got into. I can picture Cat putting it on one afternoon, pouring herself a lil' glass of rosé or smthn, and Sansa just walks over and plops herself on the couch, gets intensely scandalized, and then this movie cements itself as previously stated. I also have a horrible crack AU in which Sansa is Baby and Margaery is Patrick Swayze's character, Johnny. Joffrey would be the evil waiter guy, Cersei and Marg would still have insane beef bc Cersei is the hotel owner... it just fits so neatly in my mind.

Little Girl Blue - Janis Joplin. Two reasons. First of all, it fits with her being terrified and manipulated in Kings Landing. Second, I truly believe that Sansa, in the middle of her 80s pop divas (passed down genetically through Catelyn), her MOUNTAINS of Taylor Swift, her 2000s Y2K slay pop music, and her dads classic 70s rock music, Janis Joplin is a staple in her music listening library. She changed Sansas life. Sometimes a voice just knocks the wind from your chest and makes you have some floor time and that was Janis Joplins for Sansa. I don't make the rules.

my tears ricochet - Taylor Swift. This was tied directly with mirrorball, also by Taylor Swift. I chose my tears ricochet because I think it's the song Sansa would play while laying on her bed and having a good weep sesh. I think that the lines 'I can go anywhere I want, just not home' and 'even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe, all the hell you gave me? Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you til my dying day' would send her into a fit of chest wracking sobs. I can't explain it, even. Just know this is a song so Sansa to me. The lyrics don't fit if you read over them, but it's less about the lyrics and more about the vibes and the aura. Also aren't songs meant for you to project on them? Especially if you're an eleven year old girl going through the worst pain in her life.

River - Joni Mitchell. Perfect Sansa song to me. It gives the cold, winter, Christmas, folksy energy of the North, with Joni Mitchell's voice? And the pure melancholy she can inject into this song? It's perfect. 'I wish I had a river I could skate away on'. Crying, sobbing, wailing even. It's so her it hurts. This explanation was short but I don't think it requires as much justification or explanation as my previous points.

Dancing Queen - ABBA. Also pretty self explanatory. Sansa is an ABBA and a Taylor Swift girlie, barely any explanation needed. The piano? Perfection. The 70s groove in the back? Perfect. Peak Sansa. See that girl, watch that scene, she has danced to this song and felt a personal connection to it at least once in her life and I can feel that in my bones. 10/10 song for a 10/10 girl. 

I was going to put some classic Britney Spears, but I was looking over some of the songs and all the ones I liked the most (my personal taste) were a little more sexual than I was comfortable with including in a playlist about an eleven year old girl?? So. I maintain that she'd do the quintessential hairbrush-as-microphone sleepover thing and jam out to Britney. I just didn't include it. 

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Oof- anyways I hope you're feeling better now mootie!! Make sure to eat and drink to regain some strength!!!

(I swear the quality frickin dipped once I transferred this from my other phone this phone-) Really sorry it looks a bit rushed TvT lol I had to run some errands after posting this. It was supposed to be a sketch but my brain and fingers couldn't help it hehehe

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✨His true fate - Part 8/?✨

Summary: Jensen hasn't been happy for years. But it seems almost impossible for him to escape. After another nasty argument between him and his wife, he decides to visit his ´former´ best friend for his birthday. Back in Austin, an encounter awaits him that will turn his life completely upside down.

Pairing: Jensen x Reader

Warnings: Some spicy scenes, Language, age gap

Word Count: 6601

A/N: English isn’t my first language, so please be lenient. 💙✨

Jared's teasing demeanor softened into a more serious expression as he glanced at Jensen, a hint of curiosity and concern in his eyes. "So, you guys didn’t settle on where this is going for now?", he asked, his voice quieter than before.

Jensen shook his head, his smile fading slightly as he considered Jared's question. "No, not really", he admitted, his tone thoughtful. "It's still early, you know? We're taking it slow. But I can tell you one thing—it's definitely not just a hookup for either of us".

Jared nodded, his expression becoming thoughtful. "That's good to hear", he replied sincerely. "She seems great".

Jared’s expression softened with understanding as he continued, choosing his words carefully. “Just keep in mind, Jensen, that after you end things with Danneel, things with (Y/N) will probably be easier”, he said gently.

Jensen paused, setting down the dish he was holding and meeting Jared’s gaze seriously. He knew Jared meant well and appreciated his friend’s straightforwardness. “I know”, Jensen replied quietly. “I’ve been thinking about that too. I just need to figure things out with Danneel first”.

"Talking to my lawyer is a good move", Jared said, his voice filled with empathy. "He'll give you solid advice on how to handle everything".

Jensen sighed, a hint of frustration creeping into his tone. "Yeah, I need all the tips I can get", he admitted, glancing down at the dishes he was supposed to be washing. "I've tried to bring up divorce with Danneel twice already, but she always manages to talk me down".

Jared frowned sympathetically. "She's good at that, isn't she?", he remarked, knowing Danneel's ability to sway Jensen's decisions. "Just stay strong, man. You know what you need to do".

Jensen nodded, his jaw tightening slightly with determination. "I do".

He glanced at his friend, noticing the hesitation before Jensen spoke again. There was a vulnerability in Jensen’s voice as he broached a different topic.

“You ever… believe in love at first sight?”, Jensen asked tentatively, his voice soft, almost hesitant. “Or fate, or… some shit like that?”.

Jared paused, surprised by the sudden change in conversation but understanding the underlying emotion behind Jensen’s question. He set aside the dish he was drying and turned to face Jensen fully, his expression thoughtful.

“Yeah, I think I do”, Jared replied sincerely.

Jensen nodded slowly, his gaze distant as he processed Jared’s words. “I guess I’m just wondering if… maybe there’s something like that out there for me too”, he admitted quietly, almost to himself.

Jared could sense Jensen's introspective mood, the weight of his contemplation palpable in the air between them. He leaned against the kitchen counter, folding his arms across his chest as he considered Jensen's question.

“Not to push your luck, but with (Y/N) and you, it pretty much seems like something like that”, Jared remarked with a reassuring smile, his tone gentle yet sincere.

Jensen looked up, meeting Jared’s eyes with a mix of gratitude and uncertainty. He appreciated Jared’s optimism but couldn’t shake off the doubts that occasionally clouded his thoughts, especially when it came to matters of the heart.

“I hope so”, Jensen replied quietly, his voice tinged with longing. “I really do”.

Jared nodded understandingly. “You’ve got a good thing going with her, Jensen”, he said earnestly. “Just take it one step at a time, and things will fall into place”.

Jensen managed a small smile, appreciating Jared’s words of encouragement. “Thanks, man”, he said sincerely, feeling a bit lighter knowing that his friend believed in him and (Y/N).

While Jensen spent time with Jared, you busied yourself unpacking the last of your stuff and decorating your apartment. You wanted everything to look nice when Jensen came over tomorrow. As you arranged a vase of fresh flowers on the coffee table and fluffed up the pillows on the couch, your mind wandered to thoughts of what tomorrow might bring.

You didn’t know what to expect. Everything between you and Jensen had been moving quickly yet also cautiously. The visit today had felt like a milestone, a step closer to something more. But you were unsure where things would go from here. Would tomorrow be casual and comfortable, filled with laughter and easy conversation like today? Or would it be charged with a different kind of energy, exploring deeper connections and shared moments?

Despite the uncertainty, you felt a surge of anticipation and hope. Being with Jensen felt right, and you were willing to see where this journey would take you both.

As the evening settled in, you found yourself reflecting on your feelings for Jensen. The anticipation of his visit tomorrow filled you with a mix of excitement and nervousness. You had just finished dinner, tidying up the kitchen when your phone buzzed on the counter. You glanced at the screen and saw Ben's name. Your heart sank a little, the complicated nature of your relationship with him resurfacing.

Sighing, you picked up the phone, deciding to get this over with. “Hello?”.

“Hey”, Ben’s voice came through, casual and familiar. “How’s it going?”.

You took a deep breath, trying to keep your tone neutral. “I’m fine, Ben. What do you want?”.

There was a pause on the other end, and you could almost hear him gathering his thoughts. “I’ve been thinking a lot lately, about us”, he began, his voice hesitant. “I know things have been rocky, but I miss you. I want to work things out”.

His words sent a ripple of emotions through you—anger, sadness, and a hint of nostalgia for what once was. But they were quickly overshadowed by the clarity of how much you had changed since you last saw him.

You took a deep breath, steadying yourself before responding firmly. “Ben, I already told you I needed a break. We can’t keep going in circles like this”.

Ben’s voice took on a pleading tone. “I can change, (Y/N). I know I messed up, but I’m willing to do whatever it takes to make things right between us”.

You sighed, feeling a mix of frustration and sympathy. “Ben, it’s not just about you changing. It’s about us not being right for each other anymore. We’ve grown apart, and we need to accept that”.

There was a brief silence on the other end of the line, and you could almost hear Ben processing your words. Finally, he spoke again, his voice tinged with desperation. “But we had something good, didn’t we? We can get that back”.

You took a moment to collect your thoughts, the weight of Ben's words pressing on you. His plea for another chance stirred memories of happier times, but they were overshadowed by the pain of betrayal.

"Oh, you mean the good times before you cheated on me?", you snapped, unable to hold back the bitterness in your voice. The hurt and anger surged through you, fueled by months of confusion and heartache.

Ben audibly swallowed, his voice faltering slightly. "I… I regret that. I made a mistake", he admitted, his tone pleading.

"You made a choice", you countered sharply, your emotions raw. "A choice that changed everything between us".

"I know", Ben replied quietly. "And I've been trying to make amends ever since".

"It's not that simple", you replied, your voice softening despite your resolve. "Trust doesn't come back overnight, Ben. It's been hard for me to even consider trusting you again".

There was a heavy silence on the line as both of you grappled with the weight of your words. You could hear Ben struggling to find the right response, his breaths coming out in uneven intervals.

Finally, he spoke again, his voice thick with emotion. "I still love you, (Y/N). I'm willing to do whatever it takes to prove that to you".

You closed your eyes, battling conflicting emotions. Part of you wanted to believe him, to grasp onto the hope that things could be repaired. But another part knew that moving forward meant letting go of the past.

"I need time", you said finally, your voice steady but firm. "Time to heal, time to figure out what's best for me".

"I understand", Ben replied softly. "Just… don't shut me out completely, okay?".

You nodded, even though he couldn't see you. "I won't", you assured him, feeling a twinge of guilt for the pain you were causing him.

With a heavy heart, you ended the call, setting your phone down on the table beside you. The weight of the conversation hung in the air, but alongside the sadness was a glimmer of relief—a step toward closure.

Meanwhile Jensen propped himself up against the headboard, the dim light from the bedside lamp casting a warm glow across the room. He held his phone steady as JJ’s face appeared on the screen, her tired eyes gazing back at him.

"Hey", Jensen greeted softly, a smile tugging at his lips. "How was your day?".

JJ yawned, rubbing her eyes sleepily. "It was okay", she murmured, her voice small through the phone's speaker. "But I miss you, Dad".

Jensen's heart twinged with longing. "I miss you too, sweetheart", he replied gently. "I wish I could be there with you".

JJ nodded, her expression solemn. "When are you coming back home?", she asked, her voice tinged with hope.

"I'll be back soon", Jensen reassured her, his tone comforting. "Just a few more days".

JJ sighed softly, shifting in her bed. "Okay", she replied quietly, though her eyes still held a hint of sadness.

Jensen’s chest tightened with the ache. "Tell me about school", he prompted, trying to lighten the mood. "Did you finish that book you were reading?".

JJ brightened a little, nodding eagerly. "Yeah! It was really good", she exclaimed, launching into an animated description of the story.

As JJ talked, Jensen listened intently, his heart swelling with pride and love for his daughter.

After a while Jensen set his phone down on the nightstand, he heard JJ’s small voice mumble through the still-active call.

“Dad, you’re never home”, JJ murmured, her words tinged with a mix of sadness and accusation.

Jensen’s heart sank further, the weight of his choices pressing heavily on him. He picked up the phone again, his expression full of regret. “I know, JJ”, he said softly. “I’m really sorry about that. I miss you so much”.

“Why can’t you be here more?”, JJ asked, her voice trembling slightly. “I just want things to be like they used to be”.

Jensen took a deep breath, trying to find the right words to explain a situation far too complex for her to fully understand. “I’m trying to figure things out, sweetheart”, he replied gently. “It’s complicated, but I’m doing everything I can to make things better. I promise I’ll be home as soon as I can”.

JJ nodded, though her expression remained troubled. “Okay, Dad. I just miss you. And I wish Mommy wouldn’t get mad so much”.

Jensen felt a surge of anger and helplessness, wishing he could shield JJ from the turmoil at home. “I miss you too, JJ. Just remember, no matter what, I’m always here for you. You can call me anytime, okay?”.

“Okay”, JJ said softly. “Love you, Dad”.

“Love you too”, Jensen replied, his voice filled with emotion.

As the next day dawned, you decided to head out for some shopping. You picked up a variety of snacks and drinks, including beer and whiskey, not entirely sure of Jensen’s preferences. After loading everything into your car, you drove back home, feeling a mixture of anticipation and nervous excitement.

Once home, you decided to indulge in a relaxing spa day. You filled the bathtub with warm water, adding your favorite bath salts to create a soothing atmosphere. As the tub filled, you set out your razor and shaving cream, determined to be prepared for whatever might happen later. You slipped into the warm water, letting the tension melt away as you took your time shaving, making sure you felt your best.

As you settled back into the tub, savoring the tranquility, your phone vibrated on the edge of the sink. You reached for it, seeing a message from Jensen. The simple text made your heart skip a beat.

“Hey there”, Jensen’s message read, making your heart skip a beat as you read it. “How’s your day going? Is 7 pm good for you?”.

You smiled to yourself, feeling a rush of excitement at the thought of seeing him later. Quickly drying your hands, you replied, “Hey, I’m just a bit tired, might take a nap before you get here. And 7 pm sounds perfect”.

Jensen’s reply came swiftly, his playful tone evident even through text. “A nap, huh? Making sure you’re well-rested for me, I see. Smart move. See you at 7”,

After sending your reply, you settled back into the warm bath, allowing the soothing water to ease away any lingering tension. The relaxing soak helped clear your mind, and after a while, you stepped out of the tub feeling refreshed and calm. Wrapping yourself in a soft towel, you made your way to your bedroom, ready for a quick nap to ensure you were well-rested for the evening ahead.

Meanwhile, at Jared’s house, Jensen was preparing for the evening as well. He stepped into the shower, letting the hot water cascade over him, washing away the stress of the past few days. The anticipation of seeing you again filled him with a sense of eagerness and excitement.

After Jensen finished his shower, he stepped out into the steamy bathroom, grabbing a fluffy towel to dry himself off. He ran the towel over his damp skin, the warmth and scent of the shower gel lingering on him. His thoughts were focused on the evening ahead, the prospect of seeing you bringing a smile to his face.

Once he was dry, Jensen headed to his room to decide on an outfit. Tonight was casual yet he wanted to look good for you. He settled on a pair of black jeans that fit him well, emphasizing his toned legs. For the top, he opted for a fitted black long-sleeve shirt, the fabric stretching slightly around his biceps.

After selecting his outfit, Jensen moved to the bathroom mirror to style his hair. He ran a comb through it, adding just the right amount of product to achieve a casual yet polished look. Satisfied with his appearance, he reached for his favorite cologne and spritzed a generous amount on his neck and wrists, wanting to leave a lasting impression.

Just as he finished, Jared walked into the room, a casual question on his lips. “Hey, Jensen, do you know how to make a cheese sau—”, Jared’s sentence trailed off as he entered, stopping short and chuckling at the scene before him. Jensen was practically standing in a cloud of cologne, the scent lingering heavily in the air.

“Whoa, man!”, Jared exclaimed, laughing. “Did you drown yourself in cologne or what? Trying to knock her out with that?”.

Jensen turned towards Jared, a sheepish grin on his face as he asked, “Too much?”, He rubbed the back of his neck, feeling a little lost. It had been a while since he had been on a real date, let alone one that he had high hopes for, especially with everything else going on in his life.

Jared chuckled, shaking his head as he took in Jensen’s slightly bewildered expression. “Yeah, man, just a tad”, he replied, trying to suppress his amusement. “But hey, at least you’ll smell unforgettable”.

Jensen laughed softly, feeling a mix of nerves and excitement building up inside him. “I just want tonight to go well, you know?”, he admitted, his voice earnest. “It’s been a while since I’ve felt like this”.

Jared’s expression softened, understanding dawning in his eyes. “I get it, Jensen”, he said, his tone sincere. “Just be yourself. (Y/N) likes you for you, cologne cloud and all”.

Jared crossed his arms and watched Jensen as he carefully put on his watch, then observed his friend glance at his ring finger. Jensen hesitated for a moment, his brow furrowing in thought, before decisively pulling off his wedding ring and placing it on the small shelf above the sink.

Jared's expression remained neutral, knowing better than to comment on such a personal decision. He respected Jensen's space, understanding the complexities involved in Jensen's situation with Danneel.

"You okay?", Jared asked gently, breaking the silence that had settled between them.

Jensen nodded, though his expression reflected a mixture of relief and sadness. "Yeah, it's just… feels weird, you know?", he admitted.

Jared nodded in understanding, offering Jensen a reassuring smile. "You're doing what's best for you and for (Y/N)", he said quietly. "That's what matters".

Jensen took a deep breath, steeling himself for the evening ahead. With a final glance at his reflection in the mirror, he turned towards Jared with a determined expression. "Thanks, man", he said sincerely. "For everything".

Jared nodded, clapping Jensen on the shoulder in a show of support. "Anytime, buddy. Now go get 'em", he said with a grin.

After your refreshing nap, you woke up feeling a mix of excitement and nerves about the evening ahead. As you stood in front of your closet, you debated over what to wear, your thoughts lingering on the possibility of something happening with Jensen. Eventually, you settled on a delicate lace bra and matching thong in a deep, alluring red, thinking that someone of Jensen’s age and taste would appreciate the choice.

With your underwear sorted, you opted for a more casual yet cute outfit, given that you would be watching a movie and staying in. You slipped into a pair of comfortable yoga pants that hugged your curves in all the right places and paired them with a slightly oversized shirt that offered a relaxed, yet stylish look.

Satisfied with your outfit, you took one last look in the mirror, adjusting your hair and touching up your makeup. You wanted to strike the perfect balance between looking effortless and feeling confident.

After a while, just as you were putting the finishing touches on your makeup, the doorbell rang, sending a flutter of anticipation through you. Taking a deep breath to calm your nerves, you glanced once more in the mirror to ensure everything looked just right before making your way to the door.

Opening it, you were greeted by the sight of Jensen standing there, looking handsome and relaxed in his black jeans and fitted black long-sleeve shirt. His eyes lit up when he saw you, a warm smile spreading across his face.

“Hey”, Jensen greeted warmly.

“Hey”, you replied with a grin, stepping aside to invite him in. “Come on in”.

Jensen stepped inside, looking around with an appreciative gaze. “It’s exactly how I imagined your apartment to look like”, he remarked, his eyes taking in the modern white furniture and pastel-colored decorations that adorned the space.

“Really?”, you asked, pleased with his comment. “What do you mean?”.

Jensen chuckled softly, his eyes twinkling with amusement. “It’s just… it’s very you. Modern, clean, and stylish. It’s a refreshing change from how my house looks. My wife’s taste is the complete opposite”.

You nodded, understanding the subtle comparison he was making.

You cleared your throat, trying to ease the slight awkwardness that settled in the air after Jensen's unintentional comparison. "Well, I'll take it as a compliment", you said with a small smile, hoping to lighten the mood.

Jensen turned towards you, his expression sincere. "It definitely is", he assured you, his voice warm. He paused for a moment, then chuckled softly and pinched the bridge of his nose in frustration. "Sorry, that was a bit… not what I meant", he muttered, realizing his slip-up. "I didn't mean to bring her up or compare…".

You waved off his apology gently, understanding the complexities of his situation. "It's okay, Jensen", you said softly, reaching out to touch his arm reassuringly. "No harm done".

Jensen sighed, his gaze meeting yours with gratitude. "Thanks", he murmured, a faint smile tugging at his lips. "I just… I don't want to mess this up".

You squeezed his arm gently, offering him a reassuring smile. "You're not messing anything up", you assured him. "Let's just enjoy tonight, okay?".

Jensen nodded, his shoulders relaxing slightly. "Yeah, okay", he agreed, his tone more confident now.

"You smell good", you mumbled before turning around. Jensen grinned, thinking about Jareds teasing. "Thanks".

You walked into your open kitchen, Jensen following close behind. As you headed for the fridge, you glanced back at him over your shoulder, a small smile playing on your lips. “So, what can I get you to drink?”, you asked, your voice light with a touch of nervous excitement.

Jensen leaned against the countertop, watching you with an appreciative gaze. “Hmm, surprise me”, he replied casually, his eyes twinkling with amusement.

You nodded, opening the fridge and pulling out a couple of options. “Well, I’ve got beer, whiskey, some wine, and a few non-alcoholic options too”, you listed, turning around to face him.

Jensen’s smile widened. “How about a beer for starters?”, he suggested, his gaze lingering on you.

“Sure thing”, you said with a nod, reaching for a bottle of beer from the fridge. As you handed it to him, your fingers brushed against his briefly, sending a jolt of warmth through you. You couldn’t help but notice the lingering scent of his cologne, which intensified as he leaned closer.

You bit your lip and grabbed a soda for yourself, feeling the butterflies in your stomach intensify as Jensen���s eyes continued to roam around your apartment. He took another sip of his beer, still leaning against the countertop, clearly enjoying the moment.

“Did you clean for me coming over, or are you just a clean person in general?”, Jensen asked, his tone teasing but genuinely curious.

You shrugged and grinned, feeling a bit playful. “A little of both, I guess”, you admitted. “I like to keep things tidy, but I might have done an extra sweep before you came over”.

Jensen chuckled. “Well, it shows. Your place looks great”.

You felt a warm blush rise to your cheeks at his compliment. “Thanks”, you said softly.

The room fell into a comfortable silence, both of you sipping your drinks and stealing glances at each other. There was an unspoken tension between you, the memory of the kiss you shared lingering in the air. Jensen hadn’t kissed you when he arrived, and you found yourself wondering if he wanted to but hesitated.

For Jensen, the drive to your apartment had been filled with anticipation. All he could think about was the moment his lips would meet yours again. But when he saw you, looking so effortlessly beautiful, he found himself chickening out, unsure if it was too soon or if you even wanted it.

You broke the comfortable silence with a smile, wanting to ease any lingering tension between you and Jensen. "So, how did you spend yesterday?", you asked casually, hoping to shift the focus to something light and enjoyable.

Jensen's face lit up as he recounted his day. "Jared and I went jet skiing on the river", he replied, his eyes bright with enthusiasm. "It's something we haven't done in a long time, just the two of us".

You nodded, imagining the scene. "That sounds like fun", you commented, genuinely interested. "Must have been nice to unwind and spend some time outdoors".

"Yeah, it was", Jensen agreed with a smile. "It felt good to do something different for a change".

As he spoke, you found yourself relaxing more, enjoying the easy conversation between you. The tension that had lingered earlier seemed to melt away as you both settled into a comfortable rhythm of sharing stories and laughter.

As you continued your conversation, moving from small talk to more meaningful topics, you found yourselves seated comfortably on the couch, facing each other. The atmosphere was relaxed, with occasional bursts of laughter and moments of shared understanding.

At one point, you mentioned your dislike for Harry Styles’ music when Jensen unexpectedly brought up attending one of his concerts. His explanation came swiftly, “It was for my daughter”, he admitted, his voice catching slightly in his throat. The admission slipped out before he could think better of it, and he noticed your surprised expression.

You paused for a moment, processing this new information. Jensen hadn’t mentioned having children before, and you understood why—he didn’t want to overwhelm you or potentially scare you off with his family situation.

“Oh”, you responded softly, trying to keep your tone neutral. “You have kids?”.

Jensen nodded, a mix of emotions flickering across his face—vulnerability, uncertainty, and a hint of worry. “Uhm… Yeah, I do”. he confirmed, his gaze meeting yours earnestly. “I haven’t brought it up before because… there was already so much you had to take in”.

You nodded slowly, trying to compose yourself. Jensen was indeed a grown man, but hearing that he also had kids added another layer of complexity and maturity to his character. It was a reminder that he had a life beyond what you had seen so far, with responsibilities and priorities that extended far beyond your budding relationship.

“Wow”, you finally responded, a mix of surprise and curiosity in your voice. “How many kids do you have?”.

Jensen shifted slightly, looking relieved that you weren’t reacting too negatively to the revelation. “I have three”, he answered quietly, his tone soft yet proud. “Two daughters and a son”.

You hesitated for a moment, trying to find a way to lighten the mood. A playful smile tugged at your lips as you looked at Jensen, deciding to take a chance with a teasing comment. “So, you’re a real daddy, huh?”, you said with a mischievous glint in your eye.

Jensen’s eyes widened slightly in surprise before a slow, amused smile spread across his face. He chuckled softly, shaking his head. “Oh, I see what you did there”, he replied, his tone playful yet slightly self-deprecating. “I guess I am”.

You laughed, feeling the tension ease as the mood lightened. “Sorry, I couldn’t resist”, you said, still smiling. “But seriously, it’s really impressive how you manage everything. Being a dad and handling your career… it can’t be easy”.

Jensen’s smile softened, a touch of vulnerability in his eyes. “It’s definitely a balancing act”, he admitted.

Jensen saw an opportunity to delve into more personal topics, wanting to get to know you better on a deeper level. He cleared his throat, looking at you with a hint of curiosity and playfulness in his eyes. “But you’re not into that daddy kink stuff, right?”, he asked carefully.

You chuckled and felt your cheeks heat up, blushing as you shook your head. “No, not really”, you replied, still smiling. “But…”. You stopped yourself, suddenly feeling shy and blushing even more.

Jensen raised an eyebrow, a smirk playing on his lips as he leaned in slightly. “But?”, he prompted, his voice soft and encouraging.

You took a deep breath, mumbling shyly, “But I am sure into dirty talk”.

Jensen’s smirk widened, his eyes twinkling with amusement and interest. “Oh, really?”, he said, his tone low and flirtatious. “Well, that’s good to know”.

Jensen leaned back slightly, a playful glint in his eyes as he teased, “Well, someone’s full of surprises tonight”, His voice carried a low, suggestive tone that sent a shiver down your spine.

You giggled nervously, feeling a rush of excitement mixed with a hint of bashfulness at his response. “I guess you could say that”, you replied coyly, meeting his gaze with a playful twinkle in your eye.

He leaned closer again, his voice dropping to a husky whisper, “You know, I think I’m starting to like these surprises”.

You raised an eyebrow playfully, a smirk forming on your lips as you teased Jensen in return. "So, it seems dirty talk isn't a red flag for you either?", you quipped, your voice laced with amusement and a touch of flirtation.

Jensen chuckled, his eyes sparkling with warmth and desire. "Definitely not a red flag", he replied, his tone filled with playful confidence. "In fact, I might even say it's a green light".

You grinned, feeling a surge of boldness as you leaned closer to him. "Oh, really now?", you murmured. "Well, I guess we'll have to see where this green light takes us".

The air around you seemed to crackle with anticipation, the playful banter weaving a web of attraction and desire between you. Jensen's gaze held yours, his expression filled with a mix of admiration and a growing hunger for more.

Jensen's smile widened, clearly enjoying the effect his teasing had on you. “So, do you have more green lights for me?”, he asked.

Your cheeks flushed a deeper shade of red, but you didn't back down. Instead, you licked your lips slowly, meeting his gaze with a confident glint in your eyes. “Wouldn't it be more interesting for you to find out?”, you replied, your voice a sultry whisper.

Jensen’s eyes darkened with a mix of amusement and desire. He leaned in even closer, his breath warm against your ear as he murmured, “Is that an invitation?”.

You felt a shiver run down your spine at his proximity, his words sending a thrill through you. “Maybe it is”, you whispered back, your voice barely audible but filled with unmistakable intent.

Jensen’s hand moved to gently cup your cheek, his thumb brushing lightly against your skin as he held your gaze. “Then I guess I’d better start finding out”, he said softly, his voice laced with anticipation and a promise of more to come.

The air between you seemed to pulse with electricity, the playful teasing giving way to a deeper, more intense connection. Jensen’s eyes searched yours, waiting for your response, his touch a gentle yet insistent reminder of the chemistry that had been building between you.

Your heart began to race the moment Jensen’s touch connected with your skin. It felt as though a bolt of lightning had struck you, sending shivers down your spine. You bit your lip, trying to steady yourself, and mumbled, “We said we wanted to take it slow…”.

But Jensen’s response was immediate and decisive. With one hand cupping your waist, he pulled you gently but firmly onto his lap, pressing you flush against his solid chest. The sudden proximity made your breath catch, and you could feel his heart beating just as fast as yours.

“I know we did”, he murmured, his voice a low rumble that resonated through your body. “But some things are worth speeding up for”.

He gazed into your eyes, his expression a mix of desire and tenderness. The intensity of his gaze made you feel as if the world around you had melted away, leaving only the two of you in this intimate bubble.

You swallowed hard, the heat between you becoming almost unbearable. “Jensen…”, you whispered, your voice trailing off as you struggled to find the right words.

He leaned in closer, his lips brushing against your ear as he whispered, “Tell me if you want me to stop”.

But any words you might have formed evaporated the moment Jensen’s lips found the soft spot just below your ear. The gentle kiss sent a shiver of pleasure through you, and a soft whimper escaped your lips before you could stop it.

That simple, involuntary sound was enough to make Jensen’s arousal evident. You could feel his erection growing beneath you, pressing firmly against you in a way that sent waves of heat through your body. The realization made you gasp softly, your body responding instinctively to his touch.

Jensen’s hands moved with purpose, one sliding up your back, drawing you even closer, while the other gripped your hip with a possessive firmness that made your heart race. He kissed down your neck, each touch of his lips igniting a trail of fire on your skin. You arched into him, your breath coming in quick, shallow gasps as his lips found new sensitive spots, making you shiver and moan softly.

His fingers slipped under the hem of your shirt, tracing the line of your spine, sending delicious shivers through you. The feel of his rough, calloused hands against your smooth skin was intoxicating, making you crave more of his touch. You could feel your own arousal building, a deep, insistent ache between your thighs that begged for relief.

Jensen’s kisses grew more insistent, his lips and teeth grazing the sensitive skin of your neck as he sucked and bit gently. Each touch sent a spark of electricity through your body, heightening your arousal. You could feel the hard length of his erection pressing against you, the friction driving you crazy with desire.

With a rough urgency, Jensen’s hands gripped your hips and pressed you down more firmly against him, causing you to gasp at the intensified sensation. The heat between you was almost overwhelming, your bodies moving instinctively against each other.

You managed to find your voice, your breath hitching as you whispered, “We… we were going to watch a movie…”.

Jensen’s hands paused for a moment as he heard your whispered words, his touch lightening slightly but still lingering on your hips. His lips, warm and moist from kissing your neck, hovered close to your ear.

“We can still watch a movie”, he murmured huskily, his breath sending tingles down your spine. “But right now, I want you more than anything”.

You shivered at his words, feeling the weight of his desire pressing against you both physically and emotionally. Despite the initial intention to take things slow, the raw intensity between you was undeniable, drawing you closer with each passing second.

Your mind raced with conflicting thoughts—desire battling with caution, yearning fighting against the need to maintain control. But as Jensen’s hands traced patterns on your hips, his thumbs rubbing soothing circles, it became increasingly difficult to resist him.

Jensen’s mind was a whirlwind of desire and need, his thoughts almost entirely consumed by the longing to be closer to you. As he held your hips tightly, feeling the heat between you, he could barely think straight. The urge to be inside you was overwhelming, an almost desperate craving that he couldn’t explain.

With more need, his hands dropped to the hem of your shirt, his fingers brushing against your skin. But just as he began to lift your shirt, a flicker of hesitation hit you. You placed your hands on his, stopping them from moving any further.

Jensen drew back slightly, his brow furrowing in confusion as he looked into your eyes. “You´re okay?”, he asked softly, his voice a mix of concern and tenderness.

You hesitated for a moment, your eyes meeting Jensen’s with a mix of vulnerability and nervousness. Taking a deep breath, you whispered, “It’s been a while… I’m kinda nervous about it”.

Jensen pulled back slightly more, his gaze intent and searching. “How long?”, he asked directly, his tone gentle but curious.

Your cheeks flushed with a deep blush as you cleared your throat, feeling a bit embarrassed. “Uhm… maybe three years”, you whispered softly.

Jensen’s face fell forward, resting against your collarbone as he let out a low, strained growl. “Fuck”, he muttered, his voice thick with emotion.. “You’re practically a fucking virgin all over again”, he said, his voice a mix of awe and frustration.

Jensen’s words hung in the air, charged with a mix of desire and concern. The thought of how long it had been since you last had sex turned him on even more, but he was acutely aware of the responsibility that came with it. He didn’t want to rush anything or make you feel uncomfortable.

Sensing your tension, Jensen sighed deeply, his breath warm against your skin. He gently pulled back, looking into your eyes with a tender, understanding gaze. "You want to watch that movie now?", he asked softly, his voice laced with care and a hint of disappointment.

He hoped you might decline the offer to watch the movie, silently expressing his desire for more. But he also knew it was important to respect your comfort level and give you the space you needed.

You nodded softly, surprised by your own shyness. Jensen’s understanding and patience made you feel safe, but there was an unexpected fear lurking in the back of your mind. The fact that he was older and an actor, with undoubtedly more experience, intimidated you. You couldn’t help but wonder if he had been with women far more beautiful than you, and that thought scared you off.

Jensen swallowed hard, taking in your nod and the emotions flickering across your face. He could sense your hesitation and the underlying fears you weren’t voicing. “Alright”, he mumbled softly.

You bit your lip, feeling the weight of your insecurities, and Jensen gave you a small, reassuring smile. Trying to lighten the mood, he said with a low chuckle, “I could really use a whiskey now”.

You stood up, ready to get the whiskey for him, and as you moved to the kitchen, Jensen took the opportunity to adjust himself. He tugged on his jeans, trying to shift his erection to a more comfortable position. The desire was still there, but he wanted to make sure you felt at ease and not pressured.

In the kitchen, you took a moment to gather your thoughts, pouring a glass of whiskey for Jensen and one for yourself. You returned to the living room, handing Jensen his drink with a small smile. He accepted it gratefully, taking a long sip to steady himself.

“Thank you”, he said, his voice a bit more relaxed now. He patted the spot next to him on the couch, inviting you to sit back down.

You sat down next to Jensen, feeling the warmth of his body as he wrapped an arm around you and pulled you close. You shot your whiskey in one go, the liquid burning a comforting path down your throat. Jensen chuckled softly at your bold move, his fingers tracing gentle circles on your arm.

“Alright, let’s see what we’ve got”, he said, looking through the movie options. You tried to focus on the movie selection, but Jensen’s touch made it increasingly difficult.

Finally, you settled on a movie, trying to calm your racing heart. Jensen shifted slightly, pulling you even closer against him.

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A/N: Please let me know what you think.🥰

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Part 9

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[wonforjwon]

Yang Jungwon, 2004 : Happy 21st Birthday, Jungwon! 🎉💙

It’s hard to put into words just how much you mean to so many people. From the moment you stepped into the spotlight, you have led with such grace, kindness, and unwavering strength. You’re not just an incredible artist and leader—you’re a person with a heart so full of love, warmth, and sincerity.

Every single day, you inspire us with your hard work, your passion, and the way you care for those around you. Your laughter brings joy, your presence brings comfort, and your determination reminds us that dreams are worth chasing. No matter how difficult things may get, you always keep moving forward with a bright smile, and that strength is something truly admirable.

As you turn 21, I hope you take a moment to look back at everything you’ve achieved and be proud of how far you’ve come. You’ve touched so many hearts, and the love you give comes back to you in waves. May this new chapter in your life be filled with endless happiness, good health, success, and the love you so freely give to others.

You are deeply loved, appreciated, and celebrated today and always. ENGENEs will forever stand by your side, supporting you in every step of your journey. Never forget how special you are.

Thank you for being you, Jungwon. Keep shining, keep dreaming, and keep leading with that beautiful heart of yours. ENGENEs will always be here, cheering you on every step of the way.

Watching you grow over the years has been such a blessing. You carry yourself with such grace and wisdom beyond your years, yet you never lose your playful, bright spirit. You inspire so many people, not just with your talent but with the way you care for others, always putting your team and ENGENEs first.

Enjoy your day, our incredible leader. You deserve all the happiness in the world.

Happy Jungwon Day! 💙✨

[virmochi]

For the roleplay committee on Tumblr

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Enough with the pathetic targeting of roleplayers on Tumblr! It's downright despicable, especially given that the majority of these creative individuals are minors. Get a grip on reality and find something better to do with your time than spewing disrespect.

LISTEN UP, if I catch wind of any more of these toxic comments, I'll make it my mission to unearth your sorry identity and ensure your account is obliterated. Consider this a warning – back off and let people enjoy their space without your mindless aggression. The consequences will be swift and severe.

To those who have been hurt by the senseless targeting on Tumblr, I offer my sincere apologies. Remember, it's not a crime to pursue your passions, including roleplaying. Don't let the negativity of others dictate what brings you joy. Do what you love, stay true to yourself, and embrace your interests without reservation. Your well-being matters, and there are supportive communities out there who appreciate and respect your creative endeavors. Keep shining and doing what makes you happy. 💙

IF YOU SEE ONE OF THESE ASSHOLES TAUNTIN' OTHER ROLEPLAYERS, TELL THEM TO FUCK OFF!

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SPREAD THE WORD!

#PROTECT TUMBLR ROLEPLAYERS

[dearestarmie]

Armie! Yesterday I ended up my (birth)day with this amazing video of you.

Hope all you wish and work for becomes true, you deserve all happiness in the world.

💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

You made my life better and you'll never know how much you matter to me, feels like you're my brother, my best friend, my biggest love, my dad and my beloved son.

I'll love you in every world, in every life. I want to celebrate and cry at every little thing you achieve, and I hope sincerely that you get your name and life back, because you're irreplaceable.

Nobody else could ever be you, no matter what anybody says. You're missed in the cinema world, this fandom lives to love you, we are all your fans first and foremost.

Your talent knows no bounds, your heart was made to be cared for and appreciated. 38 years of Armie Hammer is not enough, I want more, we all do.

Never forget you have us all in this little side of the internet rooting for you and celebrating every victory of yours.

Happy birthday, Armie. I love you.

🫂🙏🏼

[coloradocharmiegirl]

Chapter 42 here --New 4/20/24

Summary:

With Armie heading out to fight the wildland fire at Murphy Creek, Timmy faces some uncomfortable truths about what loving a firefighter really means, and makes promises, to himself and others, about how he'll make sure they never end up in such a mess again.

Excerpt:

Timmy reached up and brushed a finger over his medallion, the piece of Armie that had hung around his neck since that very first night. Life had somehow brought him back here, back to Armie–the man who made pancakes laced with vanilla to celebrate 3-month anniversaries, who touched both his body and soul in ways no other person ever had. The man who unlocked hidden desires, tied deft knots, and matched Timmy round for round–the noble man who cared so fiercely and, though he’d never said so in so many words, made Timmy feel loved.

He’d wobbled at the worst possible time, and now Armie was far away, facing danger. Timmy brought the medallion to his lips and pressed a kiss against it, sending a prayer to the universe for Armie’s safety, knowing he needed to be strong. He couldn’t fall apart, not now–not when Armie needed him to take care of the things he’d had to leave behind in the face of duty.

Or start from the beginning here.

Hello! I know it's been a while, and I'm sorry. But hopefully this will have been worth the wait. I sincerely appreciate each and every one of you who has hung around and is still reading--thank you from the bottom of my heart, truly. I was recently reminded that this story has been going on nearly 3 years now and isn't finished, and that it's a lot to ask people to keep reading after so long. And I get it, I do. There's more to come, but if you ever want to stop reading, just know that these boys have a happy ending, so you can step away with a happy heart.

💙💚CCG

[riacte]

One thing I’ve always admired about the Blue9ers is the fervent propaganda that pushes them forward as a good TEAM. Not just good teamwork and comms, but a good team with the mentor-mentee dynamic and formation of new friendships etc. Like it started a whole new META and started a chain of events that led H to be invited on HC for an event. That’s staying power for you. Even the most clueless of people who go “Fruit slayed and H also did a good job” will also go “yeah and the hermits were there too”. I’m so serious about team appreciation in a team tourney. I’m so serious about this team that still occasionally gets crumbs and remains a crowd AND cc favourite.

The OG Blue9ers on Twitter, hibernationtwt, cherrybombtwt, the fanartists, Twitch chat, the video essay, the animatics… this team really, sincerely emotionally resonated beyond the high of “winning MCC”. I love how the fans weave the story together. It’s an underdog hero’s journey about friendship and hope and optimism 💙🦇

Also the rallying slogan of H’s “and everyone in the MCC community sleeps on the Blue Bats” is funny and memorable lol.

[dinnfameron]

Happy nice ask day, Ki!

What are your favorite moments of Patrick being a troll?

Oh, hi! Thank you for this nice ask, and bless you for giving me an excuse to think about my most beloved of beloveds: Troll Patrick.

What I appreciate most about trolling as a means of conveying affection is that you have to KNOW someone in order to troll them. You can give anybody flowers or pay the same old compliments, but trolling is personal. So when Patrick trolls David, it's an acknowledgment that he's paying attention.

And what makes Patrick's particular brand of trolling so delightful is how he wraps it inside something impossibly fond and sincere, and then wraps that in even more trolling.

Take open mic night. I believe Patrick is genuinely looking for a way to bring people into the store and genuinely enjoys performing, but he knows it isn't David's idea of a good time. So what does he do? He makes jokes about a fringed vest and an original song. He singles David out in front of everyone and loudly dedicates the song to him. He does everything he can to make it as uncomfy as possible for David.

BUT THEN. He sings That Song. And he sings it in That Way. He shows David, unmistakably, how much he cares about him.

The same is true for the first time Patrick says I love you. He knows David has said it very rarely, and never to a romantic partner. He knows it's going to be uncomfortable for David no matter what, so he waits until David is having a stressful day, gives him absolutely no preamble, then drops it on him without warning. He's peak fond in that moment, but also peak troll. It's the Patrick Brewer Way.

Then you have the wedding vows. I won't lie, I have a hard time watching that entire scene because it's too many feelings, and there's only so much a girl can take. But the trolling is at maximum levels.

The fact that he chose to sing to David in front of everyone with no warning. 💙 The fact that he chose Mariah, knowing what she means to David, calling back to their first 'I love yous.' 💙💙

Not only does Patrick understand what his actions mean to David, but he knows that David knows he understands what they mean. In that moment, he intentionally communicates to David in a language that only David can understand.

This legend trolled his husband during their wedding vows, and no one but the two of them knew that it was trolling. It wasn't at David's expense -- it was FOR David. And it was ONLY for David.

Look, we all know that emotional vulnerability makes David Rose deeply uncomfortable. This aversion has held him back in his prior relationships. But Patrick understands this about David and responds with, "You know what I'm gonna do? I'm gonna make him so uncomfortable about something else that the discomfort he feels from the emotional vulnerability will be a relief in comparison."

And that, friend, is how you troll someone you love.

[muiitoloko]

hii really sorry for bothering 💙

I'm kind of dying with period cramps, could I ask for a little pov with Eli where he comforts you?😭💙 I don't mean a whole fic, just like a little imagine or something, but like five lines and that's it, I really don't want to bother you 😭💙🫶🏻 I love your writing style btw 😭😭😭😭

Title: care

Summary: He takes care of you.

Pairing: Eli Michaelson × Fem! Reader

Warning: none.

Author's Notes: Hey, you're not bothering at all! I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling well. Here's a quick POV with Eli comforting you:

Eli entered the apartment, his exhaustion evident in the way he dragged his feet across the floor. But as he turned the corner into the living room, his tired demeanor quickly shifted to one of concern when he saw you curled up on the couch, a pained expression etched across your face.

"Darling, what's wrong?" he asked, his voice softening slightly as he approached you, his usual arrogance momentarily set aside.

You winced, clutching your stomach as another wave of cramps washed over you. "It's my period," you mumbled, your voice strained with discomfort, "the cramps are killing me today."

Eli's brow furrowed with empathy as he knelt beside you, his hand reaching out to gently stroke your hair. "I'm sorry, my dear," he murmured, his tone surprisingly tender, "I can only imagine how painful it must be for you."

Despite his usual pompous demeanor, there was a sincerity in Eli's voice that took you by surprise. In that moment, you saw a glimpse of the caring, compassionate side of him that he rarely showed to anyone else.

As the minutes passed, Eli remained by your side, offering words of comfort and support as you endured the worst of your menstrual pain. He fetched a heating pad and a glass of water, doing his best to ease your discomfort in any way he could.

And though he still retained traces of his usual arrogance, there was a warmth in his gestures that spoke volumes. It was as if, in caring for you, Eli was allowing himself to be vulnerable, to show a side of himself that few ever got to see.

As Eli set the heating pad gently against your lower abdomen, he couldn't help but maintain a semblance of his usual arrogance, even in the midst of his caring gestures.

"There, that should help alleviate some of the pain," he remarked, his tone still carrying a hint of superiority, "though I must say, you seem rather fragile for someone who claims to be independent."

You rolled your eyes, both amused and exasperated by his comment. "Thanks, Eli," you replied sarcastically, "I'll be sure to remember that next time I'm bench-pressing my own weight."

Eli chuckled softly at your retort, a smirk playing at the corners of his lips. "Ah yes, your unparalleled strength never ceases to amaze me," he quipped, his tone dripping with sarcasm.

Despite his arrogant demeanor, there was a warmth in Eli's eyes as he looked at you, a flicker of genuine concern shining through his usual facade of superiority.

As you settled back against the couch, Eli rose from his kneeling position and made his way to the kitchen, his movements confident and purposeful. Moments later, he returned with a steaming cup of tea, the fragrant aroma wafting through the air.

"Here," he said, extending the cup towards you with a slight flourish, "a humble offering to soothe your delicate constitution."

You accepted the tea with a grateful smile, taking a sip and relishing in the comforting warmth that spread through your body. Despite his continued arrogance, there was a kindness in Eli's actions that you couldn't help but appreciate.

"Thank you, Eli," you said sincerely, meeting his gaze with genuine gratitude, "for taking care of me."

Eli waved off your thanks with a dismissive gesture, though the hint of a pleased smile tugged at the corners of his lips. "Consider it a momentary lapse in my otherwise impeccable facade," he replied, his tone light but tinged with affection.

And as you sat together in comfortable silence, sharing the quiet intimacy of the moment, you couldn't help but feel a sense of gratitude for the complex, multifaceted man beside you. Despite his flaws and imperfections, there was something undeniably captivating about Eli Michaelson, a complexity that both frustrated and fascinated you in equal measure.

[theolivetree123]

Coming back from my hiatus.

Sorry I just suddenly left without a word. My mental health has been in the dumpster for a long while, but about 2 months ago, it was the worst it's ever been. I was stressing about my trip, struggling with both body and gender dysmorphia, and doing pretty badly in school. Now that I'm back from my trip, my mental health is very slowly improving. I'm trying to find a psychiatrist right now, and my family is thankfully trying to help me get through this very dark time.

But now, I need to be honest with myself and you. This app has been slowly making my life worse. That's partly why I left. Ever since I downloaded Tumblr, I've been trying to force myself to bite off more than I can chew and try to stay relevant as new content for twst get posted. This has just done more harm than good, as I'm burning myself out and drawing has become a chore for me instead of something I enjoy doing. This app has taken the fun away from what I loved doing the most, which was showing my art and hyperfixations to you all. I've been trying to be just like my mutuals to make sure I become popular, but it's only making me feel even more depressed than I already am. Seeing my mutuals be so happy in doing the things they love while I have lost all motivation in something that used to bring me joy is heartbreaking, especially since all of my mutuals have been growing day by day while I struggle to get one art piece out a month, only for it to barely reach half the notes of what my mutuals are getting. I've been tearing myself down trying to become popular, that I've lost all the fun in content creation.

So what now? Will I stop posting entirely? I'm not sure, actually.

I still love twst, but posting here is just making my mental health worse. I've started to draw only for myself, and it's been helping me to get my spark back. I've been focusing on drawing things I want to draw instead of what's popular, and I think I'm starting to like drawing again. Though, I don't think I will post the drawings I've been making, and this will most likely be my last post for a while. I still need to take some time away from content creation to focus on myself.

My birthday art contest is still open, and there's only a little less than a month left, so I'd really appreciate it if you'd join. I will still see all of your amazing art while I'm on my hiatus.

Sincerely, Olive 💙

[artsygirl0315]

"Unsure Reassurance"

(Mention and Response to Gianna, Belongs to the lovely moot @numbuh-72 !!💙)

"This was found in the graveyard today, It's probably from Gianna.. Do you think he'll let us bring it in?.."

"... Give it to me, I'll do the talking.."

"This came in the mail, We're agreeing it's a gift from a.. close alliance.. Shall we take it in?"

"..."

"Is that so?.. Give it here.."

"..."

"Tyler?.. Is something wrong?.."

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". . ."

"T-ty?.. You doing okay?.."

"This is nothing but rubbish! What made you think it was suitable to bring this here? Don't you think it's disrespectful when it's THEIR faces on these little.. things?!"

"H-hey, Tyler! Come on, it's jus-!"

"Don't use that tone on your leader, These dolls are now contraband! Do I make myself clear?"

"I-I... Y-yes, sir.."

"Yes, sir.."

"Good, I expect no more of these.. Don't forget who we're doing this for.."

"You think we pissed him off too much?.."

"Don't work yourself up about it, He's probably just.. stressed out today..."

"But.. They're from 72, Why is it so.. Unfair?.."

"I don't know, but I'd rather not question it.. He'll be even angrier if we do.. Come on, let's go.."

"What's this for?.."

"A letter for Gianna, I already wrote it down. All you gotta do is send it to her, Give her a little reassurance.."

"This is for the best, We can't disobey orders.. As much as I hate it, There's nothing we can do.. Tyler won't let us be.."

"I know, I know.. It's just.. It's so unfair for all of them.. For her.."

"This is really for the best, She wouldn't survive here.. Tyler isn't exactly in the right headspace, no matter what we do.. So, Let's just do whatever we can, okay?.. For their sake.."

"Okay, I'll believe you.."

"We'll get through this.. One way or another.."

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LETTER FOR GIANNA, FROM J AND P;

Dear Gianna,

We hope this letter finds you well, We have accepted your gift. They're wonderful.. Unfortunately due to protocol and strict orders, Tyler has confiscated them. Although, it was a lovely gesture. The dolls are made sure to be tucked away safely, Tyler isn't all that cynical, you know. He's soft for them. So, we thank you. You're gift was appreciated and loved dearly. And please.. Take good care of yourselves out there. To all of you.

"Sincerely, 216 & 510"

[e-dubbc11]

Let It All Wash Away

Photos are not mine. They are courtesy of Pinterest/Google.

Pairing: Billy Russo x F! Reader

Warnings: None, really. Fluffy bunnies and unicorns. Maybe a swear word or two

Word Count: 1.9K-ish

Summary: You’ve had a long and difficult day at work, Billy told you he would be late coming home, so you decide to try and relax with a nice hot bath.

A/N: I was looking around on Pinterest and I came across the picture in the moodboard that’s on the bottom right hand side. It inspired me to write this one and I hope you like it. 💙

As always, thank you for reading!  I appreciate it so much and comments, reblogs are welcome and encouraged. Don’t be shy to tell me your favorite part. 💕💕 💕

After the long and frustrating day you had, all you could think about was getting home to relax. You remembered Billy saying he would be home later than usual tonight but not too late.

He apologized profusely of course; Billy was hyper aware of how many times a week, he was late for dinner, a meeting ran late, or if he just lost track of time doing paperwork or working on his computer.

But it was ok. You understood but he still felt bad disappointing you. However, after the day you had, you would welcome the airy, quiet penthouse for a handful of hours before Billy came home.

The overhead fluorescent lights in your office were very bright; they were too bright and it was almost as if you were looking into the sun if you glanced up toward the ceiling so it wasn’t a surprise that you left work every day with tired, red eyes.

Your blue light glasses did their best to protect your eyes from the intense dual monitors on your desk; they were still strained by the end of the day though; it didn’t matter how many breaks you took away from the screens.

People in the next cube must have had extra caffeine during the day because they didn’t stop talking from the moment they walked in that morning. The stress was a lot to take today but thankfully you didn’t have to wait too much longer before it was time to clock out and go home.

You always waited until the mass exodus from the building was over before you would clock out and start your walk home. Standing shoulder to shoulder with people in the elevator made you quite anxious so you’d rather wait until the coast was clear before leaving.

The frigid winter air hit your cheeks as soon as you stepped outside and the sky looked like a faded multi-colored rose. Shades of pink and orange emanated from the direction of the setting sun and peeked out from in between the tall buildings as it warmed the high points of your face while walking home.

It was going to be difficult to get warm after walking around outside in the cold.

“Welcome home, Miss Y/L/N.” The doorman greeted you while opening the door for you.

You smiled warmly at him. “Thank you, Jack. Ugh, you must be freezing! I’ll make you some tea and bring it down.” You replied.

He gave you a sly smile. “You don’t happen to have anything stronger, do ya?” He asked.

“Billy has a nice selection but only when you’re off duty, I’m afraid.” You said with a slight chuckle.

“It was worth a shot. You two always take good care of me, Miss.” He said sincerely.

A slight breeze blew into the lobby as he held the door for you.

“Well I can’t have you freezing to death out here. Besides, who’s gonna open the door for me if that happens.” You said, covering your mouth to hide your laughter.

Jack just shook his head and smiled.

“Thank you, Miss.” He said.

“I’ll be back with your tea. Do you have a preference of what kind?” You asked.

He replied, “Surprise me.”

You tried but even the hot tea couldn’t warm you up. The winter air buried itself deep into your bones and couldn’t escape even after being inside a warm apartment for an hour.

After bringing a thermos full of hot tea to Jack, you had a little something to eat and decided to take a hot bath. That was sure to warm you up.

You were thankful that Billy had dimmer switches on all the lights inside the penthouse. After being inside a bright office building all day, you welcomed the softer lighting at home. Your eyes could relax and the warm glow of several candles gave everything a very romantic feel.

Equally luxurious to the rest of the apartment, the bathroom was functional yet stylish complete with a claw foot bathtub and a large tiled shower. Still trying to rest your eyes, you dimmed the lights and turned the water on. You could see the rising steam on the surface of the hot water; it looked so inviting and you couldn’t wait to soak your tired body.

Stripping off your robe, you were sure that your bath salts had dissolved by now. The bathroom smelled heavenly with the subtle scents of lavender emitting from the hot water.

You turned the water off and listened to the gentle sounds of the bubbles popping as you tested the temperature of the water with your hand. It was almost too hot but you would get used to it. Your glass of red wine rested next to the tub on the tile floor.

You inhaled sharply and let out a long exhale as you fully submerged in the hot water; you let it hug and envelope every inch of your skin as your body was finally able to get warm. With soft music playing over the speakers, you placed a wet washcloth over your eyes and let the stress of your day wash away into the water.

A sense of calm swept over you; your body and mind felt at ease while breathing in the aroma of the bath salts and bubble bath.

This felt like heaven.

The music wasn’t loud but it was loud enough to where you didn’t hear Billy come home. Always light on his feet like a cat, he had already removed his jacket and rolled his sleeves up to his elbows.

Leaning against the bathroom doorframe, Billy watched you with a wide smile stretched across his face. He carefully observed your chest as it rose and fell with every gentle breath you took, not wanting to disturb you. He knew you well enough to know that you had a hard day.

Billy loved you so much and he would do whatever you wanted so you would feel better.

“Rough day, baby?” He asked softly.

His voice was always so silvery and hypnotic.

“Mmmmm…yes it was, handsome.” You hummed with the cloth still over your eyes. “But you’re home now, so it’s already better.”

You started to remove the cloth and you could feel him smiling at you. That perfect million-dollar smile that always made you feel better after a bad day.

“What can I do, sweet girl?” Asked Billy. “I wanna help.”

Now eye level with you, Billy sat next to you gazing into your tired eyes; he kissed your forehead and waited for your response.

“Read to me, Billy? Please?” You asked, biting down on your lower lip and looking into his beautiful dark chocolate eyes.

He was surprised by your request.

“What? Here?” He asked.

“Please?” You begged, batting your eyelashes at him.

Billy picked up your empty wine glass.

“Alright, my love. I’ll be right back; you just keep on relaxing.” He said with a wink.

You watched him walk out of the bathroom with your empty wine glass with a slightly wicked smile on your face. You loved to watch him walk away from you; it gave you a great view of his ass in his suit pants.

Billy returned holding a glass of bourbon, your refilled glass of wine and a book tucked under his arm.

He pulled up a chair and placed it behind the tub as you turned to face him, your arms rested on the lip of the bathtub as he began to read.

“His stories were what frightened people worst of all…By his own account he must have lived his life among some of the wickedest men that God ever allowed upon the sea, and the language in which he told these stories shocked our plain country people almost as much as the crimes that he described.” Chapter 1, page 5

With a warm smile stretched across your lips, the bath water continued to warm your body as Billy read one of your favorites to you, Treasure Island. He delivered every line with absolute perfection. The tone of his voice was like velvet, soothing you like a warm blanket. You watched him intently as the sentences escaped his lips hypnotizing you with every syllable of every word.

Every book sounded amazing when he read it. The phone book would probably sound beautiful if Billy read it aloud and you would never get enough of that smooth, sexy voice of his.

“My father was always saying the inn would be ruined, for people would soon cease coming there to be tyrannized over and put down, and send shivering to their beds; but I really believe his presence did us good. People were frightened at the time, but on looking back they rather liked it; it was a fine excitement in a quiet country life, and there was even a party of the younger men who pretended to admire him, calling a ‘true-sea-dog’ and a ‘real old salt’ and such like names, and saying there was the sort of man that made England terrible at sea.” Chapter 1, page 5

He continued to read to you until the bath water started to cool down.

“Water must be gettin’ cool, sweet girl. You ready to get out?” Billy asked, placing a bookmark in the book where he left off.

He leaned in closer to you; his tie was gone and his crisp white dress shirt was unbuttoned a few buttons. You could still faintly pick up the scent of his cologne on his shirt and smell the bourbon on his lips.

Billy ghosted his lips over yours before kissing you; the bourbon on his lips tasted earthy with a touch of gentle spice and a hint of vanilla and honey. His tongue parted your lips as it tangled with yours.

“I just have to rinse off in the shower, handsome. You wanna join me?” You asked.

Billy cupped your cheeks and pressed his lips to yours again.

“Just try and stop me, baby.” He said.

The clean water that came out from the showerhead was like a perfect rain. It hit you with enough force to wash away the remnants of the bubble bath and the lavender bath salt but still gentle enough to soothe your now glowing skin.

Billy crept up behind you, the bristles of his beard brushed against your bare shoulder and his arms wrapped tightly around your waist. It had been hours since he had touched you like this; reaching back with one hand, you grabbed a handful of Billy’s hair as he peppered light kisses along the side of your neck.

“I love you.” Billy whispered in your ear.

“And I love you, baby.” You replied back. “Thank you for reading to me.”

“You know I’d do anything for you, my love.” He said.

You did know that. There wasn’t anything that Billy wouldn’t do for you if you asked him to and even if you didn’t ask him to.

He would love you forever and you would do the same for him.

He deserved that.

The tension that had gripped you tightly throughout the day was all being rinsed away. There wasn’t anything in that perfect moment between you and Billy that caused any kind of stress or anxiety; he made you forget all about your bad day…one lovely word at a time.

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He Comforts You - Ike 💙

Ike Eveland x GN!Reader

✦ — Written by Mod I ✨. Beta Read and Edited by Mod S 👿.

✧ — Comfort & Care Masterlist | 💙 You comfort him

✦ — Contains: Established Relationship, fluff, & comfort

✧ — Word count: 446 | Ao3

Snippets of time showing how you and your partner care for each other.

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If you could only choose one word to describe how you were feeling after your day at work, it would be 'done'. Not only had your boss called out today, but they had also left you with the amount of work that would normally need three people to complete. Which meant you had to stay long after your shift had already ended. And you wouldn't even be paid more for it. You'd quit in a heartbeat if you could afford it.

You were all but stumbling as you entered your home. The door shutting behind you with a little more force than intended as you leaned your weight back against it. You don’t even have the energy to lean down to properly remove your shoes; toeing them off and leaving them haphazardly in front of the door. However, you don’t get even two steps further into the house before Ike emerges from the hallway. His expression softens at the sight of you, giving you a sincere smile. “Welcome home, darling.” You return his smile, albeit yours being a tired one.

He’s by your side in no time, taking your hand in his. The novelist starts leading you down the hallway and before you can even ask where you're going; he pushes the bathroom door open. The soothing smell of eucalyptus and spearmint fill the room thanks to the candles he’d lit beforehand; giving the room a soft glow. The tub was filled, and you eyed it longingly, no doubt that the water was still warm. Your attention is drawn back to your loving boyfriend as a hand lightly rests on the small of your back, the warmth radiating through your clothes “Come on darling, let's get you in, shall we?” His hand glides up to help slip off your jacket. “I have the kettle on if you want a cup of tea while you soak.”

“Ike you didn’t have to do all this–”

He silences you with a gentle peck to your lips, “You’ve had such a rough day hun, just let me treat you.” He helps remove the rest of your clothes before helping you into the tub. As you sink further into the warm water, you can’t help but release a sigh of contentment. He chuckles affectionately, kneeling beside the tub so he can brush aside a few stray strands of hair before placing a kiss on your forehead. “I’ll be back with your tea in a moment. Take as long in the tub as you need.”

Just before he leaves the room, you call out to him. He pauses with a questioning hum. “Thank you, Ike. I seriously appreciate it.”

“Of course, my dear.”

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