#i should've been nicer abt it...
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#why am i expected to be thankful for something that is not helping#also what#i am still processing what happened and what i said and did#i just know the charts are fucking ugly and messy and i could never study from those#and it's not even a surprise my mom asked my aunt to bring them#because she's always doing that#doing something she thinks will help me before asking me#first of all i can never study from something someone else wrote or made#second of all why am i expected to be grateful when you're doing something i didn't ask for?#like i know it's a thing#and i know i'm supposed to do it so people don't feel bad#and i do when it's with people i don't know well cause they don't (can't?) really ever do anything that's v big and affects me in a big way#but bffr this isn't helping me#i should've been nicer abt it...#but also i wasn't thinking when i said whatever i said and i can't quite remember all of it#i just know the sight of a chart that messy being shown to me as smth i'm supposed to study from made me so fucking annoyed#if it was displayed anywhere in this house i'd avoid wherever it was just because it'd enrage me
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Gangle is not a nice person like- I'm not saying that she's a bad person... She just isn't good.
In the 4th episode we see what gangle is like when she isn't sad. Like... LOOK AT JAX AND RAGATHA.
I hate jax he's the most annoying asshole but I feel baddddd
Listen up pookie we saw jax masking his pain when gangle forced him to watch the training video. He literally went "no one else is gonna see this right?" HE WAS SCARED THAT OTHER PEOPLE WILL SEE HIM LIKE THAT. He literally pretended. He only showed his real emotions when no one was around.
After the training video jax literally became polite IT WAS THAT BAD IT MADE JAX ACT NICER. HE GOT TRAUMATIZED BY THE TRAINING.
Gangle is just a bad leader I TOLD Y'ALL THAT SHE'LL BE BAD AT LEADERSHIP SHSNGSBSB well actually i said that in a different thing but she's still pretty bad at it.
Now ragatha... When she got the stupid sauce in her eye what did she see? Gangle. Frikin gangle. Gangle had so much power in that adventure and she didn't use it for good. I get it... She's trying her best to make everything great but it's just too much. 110%??? Gurl be realistic-
Pomni was trying to talk to her NPC friend that forgot about her. She thought there was a chance that he remembered. And of course gangle had to appear and embarrassed her. Why did gangle care so much abt spudsys... It's not real... Why did she care so much about her fast food restaurant tycoon???
When ragatha said "you're kinda annoying when you have your happy mask" she's not wrong. NOW. I KNOW IT WAS PRETTY MEAN FOR HER TO SAY TO GANGLE WHEN GANGLE FINALLY FELT NORMAL. but yeah she's kinda annoying. In this episode. Maybe... She shouldn't get the chance to be a leader again...
Zooble didn't make gangle mad or anything. Which is so silly to think about. Gangle got mad at everyone in the adventure except for zooble. Well... Idk if the ragatha thing counts as making her mad... But... Yeah zooble survived. The adventure should've been called "survive the crazy spudsys manager" /j
I love gangle SO SO MUCH but she wasn't the nicest person in ep 4. Even though I feel bad about jax... Still kinda hate em. Lol
Also kinger got an A+???? Lmao??? How did he do that????
This is an opinion don't attack me ✨✨✨
Also stuff might be written wrong because yes <33333
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Swung back and saw more of your jotg AU, still very cool to say the least.
One thing I was curious about was this line:
Her and Marinette? Complicated. Don't ask either of them about it, they don't want to talk about it. Please don't ask.
I was wondering if it'd be OK to know XD
Given the Chlogami pic, it seems like maybe Chloe had a crush on Marinette. So maybe it didn't go down well and she lashed out?
Sorry I forgot to answer this ask
uh short answer, no...
long answer, I hadn't figured it out yet- jklJKLFDKLJ THAT WAS ME BLUFFING THAT I HAD EVERYTHING FIGURED OUT i did not. I did that a lot with my teases. i still do tbh-
Chloe's redemption arc was the weakest developmental wise when I was posting and thinking of stuff for this au. Since I'm not planning on writing this anymore I'll just straight up say I was hoping to figure that out when I got around to writing it. "I'll GET TO IT when I GEt to it"
I never got to it
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but i won't leave you with that
I never had planned Chloe getting a crush on Marinette in the beginning tho ladybelle was a different story I liked the idea of Chloe having a massive crush on her
I had a VAGGUUEEE idea of some event happening between them before the fic would start that'd make both of them silently swear they'd NEVER SPEAK OF AGAIN. Something that would make Chloe a bit nicer ig? Just less bad than Lila was the goal so that Chloe could be feasibly redeemed
Cuz in this Lila and Chloe were gonna be marinette's main bullies and that would really affect her but i still wanted redeemed chloe and yeah I really tried to bend over backwards with how I could make that feasible
just some event that would cause Mari and Chloe a lot of complicated feelings toward each other maybe where they worked together on something and Chloe treated Marinette like a human being whilst dropping hints abt her home life or smthn. Made things pretty awkward and after this event they'd never get the chance to address it before 9th grade.
I had a very dramatic idea of Marinette changing to homeschool for the last few months of 8th grade after the bullying (mainly from lila) got too bad.
that might be a bit disappointing to hear but idk it just was both an area I felt the need to be a perfectionist in and had the least development for. Should've been my first sign this au wasn't making me happy but there you have it.
#if ur still interested in hearing abt what I had in mind before dropping the au and dont mind large amounts of text#feel free to send more about other characters and stuff I teased that i never got around to#it'll actually help stir my memory on what I haven't talked abt#that way its OUT THERE#and i can be unshackled!#If I could go back i'd definitely have posted all my ideas instead of just holding onto them like a hoarder#that way they would have been out there and free#no pressure from me myself and i to have the ideas release depend on writing the fic
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Please, its 3 am and the amount I'm just hhhhhhhh ok, so a lot of people are saying Blitzø should've been nicer when he went off on Stolas. I disagree, I believe Blitzø had every right to be mad and upset just as Stolas did, both for very different reasons. Blitzø because he was humiliated, he was put on a very bad spot light and had no one to stick up for him. I understand that Stolas only wanted to help, but he was too late, if he'd of helped when he was needed then maybe Blitzø wouldnt have blown up at him. I get Stolas being embarrassed bc "omg I'm with an imp in public" or whatever tf royalty thinks abt but cmon shawty, do better.
No Blitzø couldn't have been nicer btw. Yall out there saying he shouldn't have been so mean, I disagree. Sometimes in order to get things across or make a point you have to be a little mean. And honestly I think he handled it much better than I would have
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No, I'm with you. It ticked me off too. It seems gratuitous tbh and unnecessary. Like on top of everything else, I'm a teacher of English, so it ticked me off also that they're already guarding themselves against reasonable criticism with the whole "we're pleasing, not perfect" thing. Plus, i live in the global south. Convert that money into local currency and any fan would need to sell a kidney to buy those mini bottles. But, 🤷🏽♀️🤷🏽♀️ I'm just here re-reading stories about family dysfunction and candy sellers and having a blast.
(Sorry. I don't want to start discourse on your blog)
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i found that whole "pleasing, not perfect" actually one of the nicer things abt it lol, i mean I didn't interpret it in that way, but, i too think- did the world really need another beauty company? i get why it's pricier, but this is someone with mass appeal and they should've been a bit more considerate about that. the reasonable compromise would have been to just do a collab with an already existing company maybe? but eh. yeah, not looking to generate discourse either so i'll leave it at that, but also, just to get this off my chest as well lol, it's the way his merch is so overpriced for the quality. it really irks me, honestly.
you teach english? oh, lord. hope you don't roll your eyes too far back when you read my stuff. i don't use english at all in my day to day life, so that's my excuse 😅
but yeah. i too am curating my experience in this fandom. i don't need to be on board with everything he does. wish him success in his new endeavour, but i'll definitely not be buying any since it's not very pleasing to me 😝
maybe harry's candy shop should be called Pleasing 🤣 i'm considering it. might as well lol
also, i'm jealous since i'm freezing my ass off. wanna trade places?
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therapy no. 23
today's session was a lot, and also kinda chaotic, I didn't really like how I talked today. The last week was a lot and pretty chaotic actually, so that was not very surprising. We analyzed my recent breakdowns / monday, which was just a whole day of breakdowns (agression, panic attacks, dissociation - derealisation especially, complete nervous breakdown, hours of crying on random park benches) and ended up talking about the 2-3 very current conflicts that are still ongoing inside of me - should I move out of our joint apartment to focus on myself + be less stressed etc or not? - wanting to fulfill all my bf's wishes etc and lived like that for years but now I realize I want to do stuff on my own, but while living here I can't properly fight the urge to just do everything to please him - but then I think again I have to just get my shit together and learn to do that here, maybe moving out would be running away from my problems? - and third, is it even right to think like that, to make it better/nicer for me, or shouldn't I just "endure" some stuff bc not everything in life is perfect / it would be 'wrong' to do stuff like that so that I feel better? Well, there are probably more intertwined intrapersonal conflicts going on here than I know, but it all kinda boils down to that idea that is engraved into me - me and my existence alone being a burden, me being "wrong" in everything I do or think or feel and thus me partly hating myself, me being kinda hard on myself quite often and me not being able to trust my feelings/thoughts. But also to the fact that I was looking for some kind of stability / support in the wrong places in the past, I was looking for it in romantic relationships and now that I see that it was very wrong to only look for it there and not also in friendships etc, I thought I should've looked for stability/support in/from myself, but that idea turned out to be wrong too. So, what Mr. Schneider (my 'Studiengangskoordinator' and person we can go to for when we need counseling abt our studies) said to me a few months ago couldn't have been more right - it's really bad that I have no stability in life, nowhere, not even a little bit. And now I have to find some kind of stability bc otherwise I feel like I'm really going full crazy soon. It's really hard (especially that friendship-building part) for me, but it definitely has to happen somehow. I probably have to be patient with myself for quite some time until I figure that stuff out. Well, at least atm I feel like there's a bit of hope for things to get better (whichs is probably why I'm not that suicidal anymore).
I feel really horrible by thinking about this again and was happy to forget about today's session as fast as I could, I had a nice walk with my fav doggo on earth (Nala) and was even able to kind of enjoy it, but forgetting doesn't really help me in the long run, so I tried to write down at least a bit of today's session. Sorry for the mess of a post (to future me and to anyone else reading this), hope I can feel a little less bad soon.
#therapy#therapy is hard#mental illness#actually borderline#actually traumatized#actuallymentallyill#actually bpd#borderline personality disorder#mental health#stability#help#borderline#being borderline
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theres so many plot holes in gof its kind of frustrating so ill vent in my tags
#like ok first major one is the fact dumbledore didnt have the fucking cup screened or at least screen the maze for ANY sort of tinkerin#also dumbledore clearly has no care for government so .. like veritaserum couldve been used at so many points even at the beginning but like#i get it i GUESS.#another plot hole is the fact that rat boy wormtail is able to actually use the killing curse#LIKE we know the curses affects are inherently affected by the will and strength of the user and wormtail is literally a pussy bitch#so AT MOST it should've taken out cedric for like half an hour or something he wouldnt have been able to die cause worm tail has 0 convictio#conviction#and ok...ron getting jealous/mad at harry fair but to the degree it was taken? unlikely#ron is literally not that petty to take out that anger on harry ALSO?? they're literally best friends and so i think ron is big enough to#undesrtand that maybe just maybe harry is telling the truth GOD#also rowling couldnt...ron have just spelled his clothes to become nicer? but i digress#only other thing that bothers me is the weird set up for cho & harry even tho like..cho has literally no interest in harry movie wise#i cant rmr abt the book but i also doubt shes interested in him i mean fuck her friends are literallyLAUGHING about him staring at her#ok so im done w that#DSFJKHJD
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