#i should've been nicer abt it...

[bakerysnake]

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[electricfied-wolf]

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[dumbythembo]

Please, its 3 am and the amount I'm just hhhhhhhh ok, so a lot of people are saying Blitzø should've been nicer when he went off on Stolas. I disagree, I believe Blitzø had every right to be mad and upset just as Stolas did, both for very different reasons. Blitzø because he was humiliated, he was put on a very bad spot light and had no one to stick up for him. I understand that Stolas only wanted to help, but he was too late, if he'd of helped when he was needed then maybe Blitzø wouldnt have blown up at him. I get Stolas being embarrassed bc "omg I'm with an imp in public" or whatever tf royalty thinks abt but cmon shawty, do better.

No Blitzø couldn't have been nicer btw. Yall out there saying he shouldn't have been so mean, I disagree. Sometimes in order to get things across or make a point you have to be a little mean. And honestly I think he handled it much better than I would have

[fkinavocado]

No, I'm with you. It ticked me off too. It seems gratuitous tbh and unnecessary. Like on top of everything else, I'm a teacher of English, so it ticked me off also that they're already guarding themselves against reasonable criticism with the whole "we're pleasing, not perfect" thing. Plus, i live in the global south. Convert that money into local currency and any fan would need to sell a kidney to buy those mini bottles. But, 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️ I'm just here re-reading stories about family dysfunction and candy sellers and having a blast.

(Sorry. I don't want to start discourse on your blog)

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i found that whole "pleasing, not perfect" actually one of the nicer things abt it lol, i mean I didn't interpret it in that way, but, i too think- did the world really need another beauty company? i get why it's pricier, but this is someone with mass appeal and they should've been a bit more considerate about that. the reasonable compromise would have been to just do a collab with an already existing company maybe? but eh. yeah, not looking to generate discourse either so i'll leave it at that, but also, just to get this off my chest as well lol, it's the way his merch is so overpriced for the quality. it really irks me, honestly.

you teach english? oh, lord. hope you don't roll your eyes too far back when you read my stuff. i don't use english at all in my day to day life, so that's my excuse 😅

but yeah. i too am curating my experience in this fandom. i don't need to be on board with everything he does. wish him success in his new endeavour, but i'll definitely not be buying any since it's not very pleasing to me 😝

maybe harry's candy shop should be called Pleasing 🤣 i'm considering it. might as well lol

also, i'm jealous since i'm freezing my ass off. wanna trade places?

[shxxtingstarss]

therapy no. 23

today's session was a lot, and also kinda chaotic, I didn't really like how I talked today. The last week was a lot and pretty chaotic actually, so that was not very surprising. We analyzed my recent breakdowns / monday, which was just a whole day of breakdowns (agression, panic attacks, dissociation - derealisation especially, complete nervous breakdown, hours of crying on random park benches) and ended up talking about the 2-3 very current conflicts that are still ongoing inside of me - should I move out of our joint apartment to focus on myself + be less stressed etc or not? - wanting to fulfill all my bf's wishes etc and lived like that for years but now I realize I want to do stuff on my own, but while living here I can't properly fight the urge to just do everything to please him - but then I think again I have to just get my shit together and learn to do that here, maybe moving out would be running away from my problems? - and third, is it even right to think like that, to make it better/nicer for me, or shouldn't I just "endure" some stuff bc not everything in life is perfect / it would be 'wrong' to do stuff like that so that I feel better? Well, there are probably more intertwined intrapersonal conflicts going on here than I know, but it all kinda boils down to that idea that is engraved into me - me and my existence alone being a burden, me being "wrong" in everything I do or think or feel and thus me partly hating myself, me being kinda hard on myself quite often and me not being able to trust my feelings/thoughts. But also to the fact that I was looking for some kind of stability / support in the wrong places in the past, I was looking for it in romantic relationships and now that I see that it was very wrong to only look for it there and not also in friendships etc, I thought I should've looked for stability/support in/from myself, but that idea turned out to be wrong too. So, what Mr. Schneider (my 'Studiengangskoordinator' and person we can go to for when we need counseling abt our studies) said to me a few months ago couldn't have been more right - it's really bad that I have no stability in life, nowhere, not even a little bit. And now I have to find some kind of stability bc otherwise I feel like I'm really going full crazy soon. It's really hard (especially that friendship-building part) for me, but it definitely has to happen somehow. I probably have to be patient with myself for quite some time until I figure that stuff out. Well, at least atm I feel like there's a bit of hope for things to get better (whichs is probably why I'm not that suicidal anymore).

I feel really horrible by thinking about this again and was happy to forget about today's session as fast as I could, I had a nice walk with my fav doggo on earth (Nala) and was even able to kind of enjoy it, but forgetting doesn't really help me in the long run, so I tried to write down at least a bit of today's session. Sorry for the mess of a post (to future me and to anyone else reading this), hope I can feel a little less bad soon.

[uprisin]

theres so many plot holes in gof its kind of frustrating so ill vent in my tags