#i should be studying for my stats midterm rn

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I PASSED ACCOUNTING LETS GO!!!!!

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they are so fucking sexy. who said that

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Man questioning ur whole life is a lot of work

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Check in September 24

Uni is once again kicking my ass. 3rd week back, 8 lectures in and I feel 5 weeks behind hahaha what else is new. I am completely out of my depth in 3/4 classes and it is completely my fault. I have felt in and out of my head and have off days where I don't accomplish anything and I just get further and further behind.

In fact I've been so spaced out I missed(completely forgot) about a physics quiz and math assignment. So there goes my buffer since the lowest mark gets dropped. Lectures need prereading to make any sense and prereading textbooks needs slides to guide which sections are most important and to simplify the dense text but the lecture slides arent always available and reading the textbooks makes me want to die.... why are they so complicated? I'll be returning to my real mvp prof Organic chem tutor and khan academy on youtube for stats and maths i think. All I know is that my processing speed is not fast enough to keep up with the class and I and consistently fucking up the iclicker questions which make me want to die.

But I don't want to die, not really. I feel better than I did the last two years that's for sure. Except I'm not at 100% yet. I feel so separate from everyone else. How do I bring myself to expend energy making small talk when I sometimes barely have enough to complete class? I find I don't even want to make friends. Why should I care what the latest tea you're obsessed with is? That's wrong, isn't it. I think I should probably, but I don't.

Honestly I'm just really messy rn. I gotta calendar a bunch of shit and midterms are in two weeks and I have a lot of practice problems I need to the do and questions I need to ask the profs and I am just very Tired. I could and probably will (to put off the work) spend a whole day just making a study plan and honestly I should've done that the first week back and I've been meaning to but I just haven't and I'm already suffering for it.

Trying really hard to romanticize my life and study like an aesthetic or ghibli movie but honestly studying is not romantic at all. It's a lot of cursing at my laptop and internally screaming and running through a lot of paper b/c I need to use paper b/c online notes aren't physical so they don't exist and I just never review them so its paper and a broken back baby. And by god I thought I would like uni over high school but now the teachers suck and you don't know anyone in your class and so so so much info has gotta stick in your brain all at once instead of periodic tests there's quizzes and assignments and tests and midterms all in different canvas tabs. I don't even enjoy the challenge b/c the pace is too fast to practice between lectures so I fall behind and there's no time to process it's just one concept after another and it's just to much and I guess I'm not cut out for academia which just leaves me as a shell of a person since I built my whole self worth on my academic achievement.

I think I have inattentive type ADHD, but I definitely can't handle jumping the hoops needed to get a diagnosis and figure out how to handle classes...

I should be mad but I'm just disappointed instead. anyways im gonna sleep b/c i need 10 hours to function but also get nothing done if i dont wake up at the crack of dawn so i should sleep bc i have a long weekend ahead of me and you know what I guess I'll post my study plan so at least im accountable to the void. Void, will you please be my study buddy/body double? thanks. goodnight world.

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was tagged by @andykangs ty!!!!!!!!!!☺️☺️☺️

rules: answer 30 questions and tag a few blogs you would like to get to know better.

nickname(s): nora the explorer: i gave it to myself before anyone else could lol

gender: female

sign: gemini

height: 5′6

time: 7:12 pm

fave band(s): the strokes, the 1975, foster the people, strfkr, the kooks, ccr

fave solo artist(s): florence & the machine, marina & the diamonds, grimes, regina spektor, the weeknd, khalid, idek i listen to so much random stuff on spotify nowadays

song stuck in my head: entropy by grimes cause I'm listening to it lol

last movie saw: black panther last month😄 i never have time for movies lately...

last show i watched: jessica jones lol i swear its a coincidence I'm not actually that into superheroes

when did i create my blog: this one in january but my main in 2011, i was 13 and in the owl city fandom 😂

what do i post: shit posts, anything that makes me laugh, but also lots of edits and fan art cause y'all are talented and deserve that validation!!!!!! 💖💖

last thing i googled: well first, i use ecosia cause it plants trees when u search! but it was “equally likely meaning” yeah stats got me fuked up I'm failed my midterm today after studying 2+ hours straight😭😭😭

do i have any other blogs: my main is @strawberrypatch its a vegan and cute aesthetic blog or it supposed to be idk its a mess like this one

do i get asks?: no lol once @andykangs said “thx for reading my fics” it was exhilarating tbh!! asks and dms are welcome here always👍

why did i chose my url: to honor my main man horatio who deserved better and should have been a li at least, also just the glorious garbage that was lovehacks that i will shamelessly love forever

following: 139?? thats from my main wow i need to follow more ppl..

followed by: 47 and i luv u all! 😘

average hours of sleep: dude i used to get 9 EVERY night until i started college and working 4am shifts so.. idk probably adds up to 7 with all the naps

lucky number: 21

instruments: piano!!

what am i wearing: my fleece pjs 😭 so confy after a sad day of math

dream job: tbh wildlife rehabilitation but u can't get paid for that so I'm going towards environmental law rn!

dream trip: Costa RICA!!!! honestly ive dreamt abt just moving there 

fave food: burrito 😛

nationality: american living in canada with irish ancestry !

fave song: rlly idk I've been listening to love by kendrick lamar and zacari a lot recently but its always changin!!

last book i read: I'm slowly reading lair of dreams by libba bray highly recommend this author and series its so much fun !!!

top three fictional universes i’d like to live in: if were keeping it choices themed id pick hero, lovehacks, and the royal romance SOLELY for the characters lol

I'm too shy to tag anyone!!!! but all my followers are welcome to hop on thx for reading if u did 😚

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Where are ppl finding k missing kings??? Gifs from it are appearing on my dash again but the google search results aren't changing. What is this???