#i should also reblog nathan's caledon au

[pavlovianpanic]

josh generally gets along with people at caledon, i think? like amanda, they're chill, she's his bartender, he flirts, she laughs, and they agree it's cool between them. nothing crazy. moses is chill, they get along, though moses doesn't ... really get a lot of josh's jokes. because josh's jokes also make no sense half the time. but they're buds. he gets along with the students, and keeps it classy. he loved maya okada. he fairs well with his cousin, but there's a huge family dynamic there of rivalry, misunderstanding, and josh ... not knowing he's been in two places at once his whole life. he jokes with diamond that they actually are related (their names, of course), and overall? has a pretty good rep on campus. i can't see him being too much of anything other than maybe a goof sometimes, he's very young in the industry, he's got this psych degree he's ready to use, and is also struggling himself to keep it all together. seeing safi is comfort. seeing josh for safi? difficult. because ... well, josh knew maya ... and he didn't say anything, which he regrets. he was younger then, and followed safi's leads on this, and it all came down to family for him, which complicated his feelings for maya. he did confront lucas, but they only argued, and josh tried to support maya, but he was sort of "half there, half not" because he had to leave so much. she died when he was in california. he flew back for the funeral. safi didn't talk to him. he didn't blame her. he still feels bad, and he dreams about maya, sometimes thinks he sees her, and then it starts spiraling again.