#i shoukd keep reading war and peace also

[zagreus-eats-your-bread]

i need to read every single iris wildthyme book and story ever right fucking now. btw

[aldokraasuniverse]

The men I used to be

I am not the  men I used to be

Anymore

I had a good job

And made lots of many in the past

Today I live on odsp cheques

I don’t have much money

I am always running out off it

Today I live on bagels and apples

It is not much for breakfast

Because I even get hungry after eating that

I am not the men I used to be anymore

Today I suffer from depression and diabetes

My diabetes is under control

My depression is also under control

I am not he men I used to be

I gave up fighting

Because it didn’t do me any good

I am not he men I used to be

Today I have a lot more friends than yesterday

Today I get along with people very well

I don’t sleep very much anymore

I know I should sleep more often

I have no television to watch

I don’t care for it anymore

Because there is only violence on tv

And I find it disturbing

I used to read books a lot

My eye sight is no good anymore

I need glasses now to read

I feel tired during the day

And I sleep during the day

I don ‘t eat too much anymore

I reduced the amount of food I eat

And I am much skinner now

I feel full after eating a smaller meal

I am not the men I used to be

Always complaining about things

 Like there is never enough sun during the winter months

Because it is always cloudy

I find it so depressing

And the days are shorter during the winter

And it gets darker early

That is something that I hate

The squirrels are already preparing for the winter

I see them when I walk outside

They eat their nuts

They also like to eat the flower bulbs

I have feelings

My feelings change all the time

I want to give a good appearance

When I dress

So people can see that I can look good

I hate to say good bye to summer

Even though I love it so much

Summer can be very hot and humid

I feel sad when winter comes

There is not much to do in the winter for me

If I had the money I would move to another country

Where is warmer in a heart beat

But I am afraid I don’t have that

I am just dreaming

My passport expired already

Not the men I used to be

Before I used to live in total isolation

Now I have friends

And  I know that my friends will always take care for me

Not the men I used to be

I had not written my will yet

If I die can you please take care of my will

I no I need to write it because anything could happened to me at any time

You know I not young

Even though I still have a life to live every single day

Friends you know I need to pay my debts to God

I already owed God a lot of money

To be honest I am always running out of money

And I am always broke

There are things I am wanting to do but the money is the problem

The men I used to be

Living in America

A country that is free from wars

A country that have so many refuge

Because we welcome them here

And they are a part of this country called America

And in America we are united as one

 Not the men I used to be

Today I keep praying for the refuges

Everyday

The refuges want a better life

That is why they choose north America

In their countries are having war

They  train the kids to be soldiers

So many people die in the war

The people that are wounded are in the hospitals

Some are children, some are adults

I keep praying for them to get better every day

They spend so much money on wars

They let people starve because there is not enough food

Kids and adults die of mal nutrition

Some soldiers have to bury the dead in the war

In the grave yard

I am against wars

In north America we have freedom

Some soldiers never make back home

They die very young

They die so we can have our freedom

Not the men I used to be

I write poetry in my computer when I feel like

I am so sad to see that winter is coming

I won’t be doing much during the winter

Because it will be too cold for me to walk outside

The trees are changing colors already

They are changing from green to golden

I hate the winter because there is not much sun

And it is always dark

In North America we have clean water to drink

In other countries there are no clean water to drink

The water have to be boiled before drunked

I don’t see any birds any more

Where do the birds go?

They flew south for the winter

And they will return back home in the spring

In the spring  I will leave my windows open

So I can here the singing of the birds

Not the men I used to be

Sleeping in the double bed

Sleeping through the night hours

I stay up late writing poems on my computer

I know I shoukd have been sleeping like a log

But I don’t do it anymore

I sometimes sleep during the day because I feel tired

Not the men I used to be

Some times I used to blame others for my problems

I always had problem making friends

And In the past I was always alone

And today I have some friends

I find that I am easy going

I try to get along with everybody

Not the men I used to be

I am a Christian

And I pray more often to people

Not the men I used to be

I lived in a fancy home before

I were fancy clothes

But today I were plain clothes

Because  today in life I don’t have the money to buy fancy clothes

And I no longer a rich men

Not the men I used to be

I make too many promises to myself

But I never keep them

Because I brake them

Sometimes I feel that I am my worst enemy

Not the men I used to be

I never loved myself enough

But it is the other people that loved me

And I am happy with that

Not he men I used to be

I was always sad

But Now I am smiling more often

Not the men I used to be

In the past I didn’t fit anywhere in the society

Today I fit in the society

Not the men I used to be

In the past I had cried so much

Because I was in pain

But I didn’t know how to express it

Not the men I used to be

In the past when there was a problem

I tried to say there was no problem

Not the men I used to be

I never smoked in my life

I can’t stand the smell of cigarettes

Not the men I used to be

I never had any patience for anybody else

Not the men I used to be

I never gave peace a chance

The men I used to be

I never changed my life around

And I still live it sometimes in stress

The men that I am

I sometimes forget that I need to speak up

When there is a problem

I have to find a  solution to  the  problen