#i shoudlve taken a gummy and just calmed down honestly

[soullessjack]

sometimes i just get really really sad about Jack because it’s like he’s genuinely very sweet and kind and loving and all he wants is to be loved and accepted and appreciated back And to be a good person who’s worth that love at all.

but then he also has this underlying brutality and anger and ruthlessness and just straight up violence and he hates it so much and he tries to be as nice and helpful as possible to shove the violence down to somehow Fix whatever’s broken and dark inside him, or at least hide it from everyone else because he still just wants to be loved in spite of that darkness. Like he fixates so heavily on being a Protector and being Selfless and trying to make himself deserving of peoples trust and love because he doesn’t believe he, The Son of Lucifer and a born-forever-monster, deserves love or trust as a basic given , and he tries to be this other person who’s always So Nice And Polite and So Helpful that everybody has to like him, everybody has to appreciate him! He loves to be wanted and needed!!!

Sorry it’s almost 4am and TikTok slideshows r getting to me but it’s like wooowww okay heres this whole guy who’s so full of genuine love but so full of destruction that he just doesn’t know what to do with????. Like a big scary wolf that’s trying its hardest to be small and gentle and meek like a lamb so the other sheep will love it???? Actually no what he does with his brutality and destruction is he makes it a weapon to Protect his loved ones like some kind of justification or redemption for having it in the first place. Look, the darkness inside of me is actually valuable!! Look sheep family i have killed another wolf that wanted to hurt you I have protected you my sharp fangs and jaws and animosity can be something Good!!!!

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