#i say i don’t like thinking abt mortality when i want to get a memento mori tattoo LOL

[unrealityshift]

Omg, I read your anon calling Kaoru and old man and I was like "aren't all of them in their thirties? I'm in my thirties, it's not that old!" But Kaoru is turning fucking FIFTY!?!? In two fucking months!?!! He was thirty two when I was fifteen and had just started listening to them! I forgot that time has been moving forward for them too! Omg, even Shinya! He's twelve years older than me. I won't even be forty by the time all five of them are fifty. 😩😩😩 I've been thirsting over old Japanese men for more than (literally) half my life. I love these old men with all my heart but it's likely I will out live them, like, I think I was six when they formed and heard them first when I was ten but didn't really start actively listening to them until I was fifteen but there will at time in the future when they won't exist anymore. Obviously when I was under ten/fifteen I didn't notice their absence in my life but I will at some point in the future and I'm not ok about.

Sorry for ranting, I'm having an existential crisis right now. I want my old men to live forever 😭

hahaha, yeah!!! i mean fifty isn’t that old either but i suppose it’s all relative and also it’s just kinda funny to call them old men (esp when they act like old men stereotypes lol). i try to not think abt mortality much bc then the despair starts to creep up but!!! i’m learning to enjoy what they provide now and in the future and what they have done for me and others like me.

got a little sentimental there but!! it’s crazy to see them growing old (alongside us) but on the plus side, they just seem to be getting more and more gorgeous and talented/honing their craft so. id say the payoff is worth it!!!

and a side note, it’s crazy to me to think that when around when deg was putting out withering to death that some of them were the same age then that i am now like. AUGH