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chrisrin · 1 year ago
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still workin' away on this project btw :)
it's been on a bit of a backlog for the past few months since i jumped on other things (my steven universe crossover arc(s)) but i'm keeping the promise i made to myself that i will absolutely finish it!
been making progress the past day or two and i'm happy about finally kicking back into animator mode.
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fang-wife · 4 years ago
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voyeur | m. izuku 
➳ tags ;; sub!izuku, dom!reader, watching hentai together?, reader is mean and nice </3, quirkless college au!izuku, corruption kink/religious guilt, unprotected sex/creampies, established relationship, afab reader
➳ wc ;; 2.1k
➳ a /n ;; @/sems-diarie made a post abt this a while ago n my brain wouldn’t let it be so. here we are </3 
➳ plot ;; izuku didn’t sneak you into your dorm to watch.. this with you. but he has a habit of letting you do what you like. 
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This is embarassing. 
He knows this is embarassing - more embarassing than he really cares to admit to. He should really know better by now then to let you do as you please. You’re always stringing him along with your schemes and plans and he loses sight of his morals. His standards. 
Then again, he doesn’t have any at this point. The point of him paying for this single dorm was so that he could have space to focus. It wasn’t to sneak you in when his R.A. wasnt looking. Even more then that, it wasn’t to do.. whatever this was. 
It’d be one thing if he was having sex. That’s a normal thing to do in college, to sneak your partner in and smash. But you’re you, and all you ever seem to have planned for him are hair-brained schemes. It’s what this feels like - when you sit on his twin size bed and pat the empty space next to you. The distrust in his expression makes you laugh.. He sighs and does what you’ve asked. 
“What’re you doing?” 
He sounds exasperated. You laugh - too pleasantly for him to be comfortable. You type something into the search bar. Green eyes widen, skin warm and blushing. 
“Wh-what’re you doing?” 
You laugh as you prop the computer on the bed. You grin at him, tucking yourself under his arm. The website mocks him, all black background and animated women with huge tits covering the screen edge to edge. 
“You know something, after you’re done using incognito mode - you’re supposed to switch out to regular search, you know,” you explain. Your hand rests on his thigh. Deku freezes. 
The sound of your voice has always been something of a vice. It gets a little raspy like this - sultry in a way that has him squirming. He doesn’t know what to do. He can feel the heat of your body. 
“Would you know my surprise when I borrow your phone to look up when the convience store closes,” you inch closer, press further “only to see..” 
He knows what you saw before you announce it. His skin feels like it’s on fire, tuning out whatever description you’ve been giving of what he chose to watch. 
Maybe it was the way he was raised - but he always had such a specific sort of guilt towards pornography. Always told himself he shouldn’t watch things like that, shouldn’t touch himself. Izuku had always been a good, well-behaved boy. Done the right thing even when it was hard. 
Meeting you had changed that, changed him. He found his body craving you when he couldn’t control it and he ended up here - watching porn and jerking off with his shirt in his mouth. It’s all come back to haunt him, really. 
“I’m not mad, y’know,” ― and your tone goes soft - it’s assuring enough that Izuku can whimper out an okay, but you’re not done ― “I’m just curious. Can’t we watch it together?,” 
“That’s ― !” 
You flutter your lashes him. 
“That’s?” 
He has a million words that he can say. That he should say. Bad, wrong, immoral. Words that belong at the end of the sentence to describe what he’s doing with you and what he’s considering. 
None of that comes out. 
“That’s.. too much” 
You grin at him. 
“Do you not want too?” 
“..I didn’t say that, it’s just -” 
Your hand squeezes his thigh until your stiletto's dig into them. Your mouth trails his jaw with hot, open mouth kisses until your turning his head to face you. A hand splayed on his face, tongue deep in his mouth. French kissing makes him pant - hands twitching eagerly to touch you. He watches, dazed - the spit trail of saliva that stretches between you two. 
He’s so easy, it’s cute. You press forward with a chaste kiss. 
“Show me what you were watching, Izuku,” 
His hand trembles as he leans forward. He remembers the title - doesn’t know if that’s good or bad. Within seconds, it shows up and he clicks. You lean forward too, observing the tags with a small smile on your face. 
“Milf, NTR, Gangbang,” 
“S-stop reading them!” 
You giggle. 
Without warning - you press play. Izuku finds himself frantic. Worried about the sound, the time, all of it - but you don’t seem to care. The AD comes on and you skip that too. It’s on. A familiar arousal blooms in his chest, the memory of what he’d seen appearing. You settle between his legs, your back pressed to his chest. You bring his hands around your waist.
“Let’s watch ~” 
Izuku face twists with displeasure. The plot nothing to ride home about - a lonely housewife goes out to a club and finds someone to take care of her needs. At first it’s just one stranger at the club - then two, then she’s surrounded and its too much. 
Izuku assumes you’re gonna find him disgusting, but when he looks at your face - you’re smiling, heart-beating in your chest. His eyes blow wide when you take his hand between your legs. You’re wet and you’re letting him touch you and he’s trying his hardest not to show how much he’s shaking. 
A little sigh of pleasure leaves your mouth when Izuku very carefully rubs your clit. It throbs under the pressure of big fingers - you hold his wrist and moan. He can hear the porn in the background but it doesn’t serve to distract him from you. 
“You want me to go n’ get fucked by a bunch of strangers, ‘zuku?” 
He shakes his head furiously. 
“Then you just like watching depraved shit, huh?” 
Unable to argue with you or with the the way his cock twitches and jumps in his jeans, he opts to whine. You can feel his it against your lower-back, the little wet-spot that presses to your thin tshirt. He’s too turned onto think properly - watching the way your body jerks and twitches. 
The woman on screen is stuffed to the brim with cock - it’s all over exaggerated he knows, but he thinks that’s why he likes it. Maybe he just likes the idea of fucking someone that stuffed fulled of cum, how it leaks and pours onto every surface and the way her cunt just seems to take it. And Izuku is such a good, well behaved boy - it’s never crossed his mind to think about doing it to you. 
And no, he doesn’t really want to see you get fucked by so many men but if there were more than one of him he’d be more than inclined to let you. His chest feels tight forgetting to breath. 
He thinks maybe you’re some kind of witch because you always seem to know what he wants before he does. The right way to push all of his buttons. 
“Oh, I see’ ― and he’s afraid of whatever words come out of your mouth next ― “you wanna fuck me full of your cum, Izuku? Wanna know how it feels raw?” 
He moans - loud and shameless and needy against your ear. A breathless laugh leaves your mouth because that’s exactly what he wants. He wants to fuck you full of cum, just picturing how good it might feel. 
You sit up on your knees and bend over a little - pulling short-shorts beneath the curve of your ass and thickest parts of your thigh. Your panties are drenched, clinging to your folds. He inhales sharply, frozen till as you lean forward - pulling them to one side. 
“Take your cock out ‘n fuck me then, baby” ― you challenge, dark and dangerous. Everything about you is so sinful and too tempting for him to ignore. His cock aches ― “Do your best”  
His body moves before he has a proper chance to feel shame. Whatever devils been whispering in his ear (read: you) has won whatever leftover dignity he has left. Without a proper word, his cock stands to attention. His hands are fidgety but they mange to settle on your waist. He guides you down on his dick, bottom lipped pulled between his teeth hard enough to draw blood. 
“Oh, fuck” 
He’s going to cum right away if he doesn’t take a breather. This is the first time he’s feeling you, and it feels so much better than he could understand. The lingering thoughts of the dangerous act silence by how tight and how wet and how willing your pussy is for him. The way your walls twitch - ache shamelessly around his cock. He’s fucking sliding in and out of you - it feels like a special privilege he’s done nothing to earn.
He’s shivering, over and over. When he looks down, he’s not all the way in. He’s not sure if he’s praying to god for the right reason - for forgiveness. All he can think about is how good it feels to be inside and how he absolutely doesn’t want to do anything else. 
“How’s it feel, Izuku?” 
He groans at the sound of your voice, the way you clench down on him and stretch so tightly around his shaft. He’s too wrapped up in the feeling of your cunt - like heaven and silk. 
“F-feels so, so good” 
Part of you thinks you should ride him, but another part of you is more interested in seeing how he fucks you. You snap the laptop closed and push it to the other side of the bed, before flipping around and laying on your back. His cock slips out and he snaps into reality - the way you have your legs in the air and your arms out. 
“I’ll let you fuck me as many times as you want today,” ― your legs reach and wrap around his waist, easily forcing his cock back inside ― “go on,” 
Izuku is a mess, really. His pants are only half-way pulled down and he’s wearing a nerdy graphic t-shirt. He’s borderline in hysterics over how good your pussy feels and can’t do anything other than thank you repeatedly and fuck you with an animalistic need. It’s clumsy like you’d expect, but he makes up for it with sheer enthusiasm. 
His cock is long and pretty - hits every spot you need it too. Izuku fucks you with shallow, sloppy thrusts - so needy and chasing his orgasm. Selfish and inexperienced. Every time he pushes forward, you can feel he’s throbbing. Aching to cum inside and unload. 
You reach a hand between the two of you to finish on your own time - planning on cumming before him. He doesn’t seem to care. 
“Ngh, ohh my god, feel’s’good” 
“Yeah? Gonna cum inside me, handsome? Makin’ such a pretty face for me” 
His stomach churns at the way you call him pretty. It sounds so sweet and adoring - but he knows that you’re a bully. He knows that about but fucks you with all his strength anyways - overly frustrated and fucked out of his mind by the feeling. Like a drug. He likes you so much he feels stupid over it. 
“Yeah, yeah ‘m gonna” 
Your own orgasm washes over you in a pleasant wave, squeezing his cock with force. He gasp and goes faster - all the thoughts washed away from his head. He needs to finish more than he needs anything. More than he needs to sleep for his 6am work-out and 8am class. More than he needs to be quiet because the walls of his dorm are paper thin. More than he needs to exercise self-control, he needs to cum so fuckin bad. 
“Look at me,” 
He follows your command, like always - and you look amused and fucked out just like he is. And Izuku has really never been this into anyone before so seeing you evokes feelings he can’t understand. 
“Oh, fuuck“ 
Briefly he understands that he really just came by looking at you, but nothing really makes sense to him. His eyes are heavy and he’s drooling onto your shoulder, spasming and clinging to your body with the most needy little whimpers. It’s so lewd, how he can feel his cum spurt out and coat your insides and his cock. It’s all so sinful but it feels so good, he can’t bring himself to care. 
“So,” ― you smile, full of mischief ― “if you want to be like that, we’ve got a few rounds to go” 
Izuku splutters at your comment and you laugh. He knows you’re not joking and he whines. You really are a bad influence on him. But with the way his cock is twitching to life again.. 
He might not be any better. 
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uwuwriting · 4 years ago
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Road trip w/ Kaminari, Shinsou and Bakugou
Request: Shinso, Kami, and Bakugou on a long trip/plane ride with their S/o? Happy holidays bb! - 🥐
I wish I could go on a trip. I need Christmas break to last longer, I’m not ready to go back to school and study for uni, I’m not emotionally capable. I hate it here.💖💖💖
masterlist II rules
warnings: fluff
Kaminari Denki
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-You have a mini fight about who gets to drive at first. 
-You don’t trust him because he is dumb and bisexual and he believes that you’ll fall asleep ont he wheel cuz you stayed up until like 2 am the previous day downloading music and making playlists for the journey. 
-He gets to drive the first shift and it goes relatively well.
-You get some extra sleep, he enjoys his time behind the wheel and boom you’re now at a gas station having brunch before hitting the road again.
-Karaoke driving. 
-I think that’s all I have to say about your road trip with this guy. 
-HE will ignore the playlists with the soft songs because he needs to vibe at first. 
-Kills it with the Shakira impressions like you start wondering what would happen if he suddenly decides to follow a music career like Jiro. 
-So many bathroom stops. 
-Does this man have a prostate problem because damn.
-He can’t go for more than an hour without stopping to pee. 
-The one time you ask to stop at a gas station for a bathroom break he suggests just stopping at the side of the road and you could pee there. 
- “I do it so you can too.” 
-Denki honey I don’t have a dick to wip out…...I need essentials. 
-May or may not have taken the wrong exit at some point and you took a thirty minute detour. 
-At least you got some nice photos out of it. 
-Speaking of photos. 
-Your camera roll will be filled with selfies, stupid videos of Kami hyping himself up at a red light. 
-Races with other cars at said red lights. 
-You fear for your life most of the time, grasping the door handle like your life depended on  it because in reality it kinda did. 
-You beg him to take over and drive for a little bit but he brushes you off. 
- “You seem tired baby, let me drive for a bit.” 
- “Nope I’m perfectly fine Y/N. Gonna get us to the hotel so fucking fast.” 
- “Denki no-”
-He calms down after a while, and he lets you put on your soft playlist so you could both just vibe. 
-His hand is resting on your thigh, giving it a few firm squeezes every now and then. 
-He likes drumming the beat of the song on your skin.
-You start random conversations about anything and everything and if you’re being honest you love these types of moments. 
-There are no villains to fight, no danger in the horizon *apart from his driving* and you get to enjoy the tranquility while enjoying the ride.
-Denki starts telling you about adopting a dog and you joke that he would be a horrible dog dad. 
- “Maybe cats are better for you babe.” 
-You are no longer heroes. 
-You are just a couple going on a road trip, away from all your troubles and worries just you and him. 
-You reach the hotel later than you expected though…..it was those damn bathroom breaks!!!
Shinsou Hitoshi
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-The trip is spontaneous. 
-You were both chillin in your apartment when he popped the question. 
- “Wanna go on a trip? I’m bored.” 
-You never expected him to pick a place this far away, you weren’t complaining though. 
-Road trips with him are immaculate. 
-He helps you pack your bags in no time, picking your favorite outfits out and placing them in your travel bags along with a bunch of snacks and a fluffy blanket. 
-You hit the road in less than an hour.
-It’s still dark out when you start your trip and Hitoshi insists you take a nap, get your beauty sleep while he drives. 
- “Don’t worry we won’t crash, I hope.”
-You do take a nap eventually but not for long and you wake up just in time to watch the sunrise with your boyfriend. 
-He will pull over and take pictures with the sunrise as your background. 
-He says he needs a new wallpaper on his phone and there’s an empty picture frame at his desk back at work. 
-He needs to fill them somehow. 
-Around noon he brings the fluffy blanket in the front seat, wrapping it around you so you can snuggle and possibly fall asleep again. 
-In reality he wants to take more pictures of  you with drool dripping down your chin for blackmail purposes but you will not yield !!!
-The trip is mainly filled with music and low humming coming from the both of you. 
-Though when a love song that reminds him of you comes on he will lean over and grip your thigh, giving it a soft squeeze, a blush blooming on his cheeks. 
-Makes many stops in spots that look great for photos or having an amazing view. 
-Definitely has prepared a picnic basket and before you know it you are munching down on some sandwiches he made while your feet are dangling over a small cliff you happened to come across. 
-Shares random facts about nature and animals with you. 
-Shinsou strikes me as a guy who watches a lot of documentaries and animal planet shows, so he has obtained random information and now he is explaining the mating cycle of penguins. 
-Would definitely prefer to sleep in the car and not rent a room. 
-He wants to stay outside looking at the stars for as long as possible and then snuggle up with you in the driver's seat, your head against his chest and his hand buried in your hair. 
-If you want to go to a hotel because you feel more comfortable, he won’t complain. 
-As long as he gets to cuddle you anything is fine in his book. 
-He puts on YOUR song while you are looking at the sky and invites you to dance with him. 
-Wraps his arms around your waist and slowly sways you back and forth, following the rhythm of the song as he looks into your eyes. 
-He loves capturing the moment so expect many photos to be taken and a bunch of videos of you two dancing. 
-He has his crackhead moments though so you can expect to be shoved into the water if you’re near a lake or at the beach. 
-He might draw a mustache on you while you sleep but don’t worry you get payback when he is asleep. 
Bakugou Katsuki 
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-Whines while you back everything. 
-And when I say whines I mean he grumbles under his breath about this stupid shirt that he can’t seem to fold correctly.
-Anyways once you hit the road he is more relaxed than usual. 
-He keeps this tight, aggressive persona out in public you sometimes forget that this man, this amazing partner is also a pro hero who is known for his rough edges. 
-Sure, his explosive behavior doesn’t disappear when he is with you but he is a lot tamer and calm around you.
-During the car ride he makes small talk with you, sharing random events from his patrols and stupid shit his “squad” have done while out in public. 
-When he comes home every night he is just so tired that many details slip his mind as he recounts his day to you, seeing him right now a genuine smile gracing his lips as his only focus is the road in front of him really warms your heart. 
-He becomes more affectionate. 
-Hand gripping yours while he drives or his palm on your thigh, rubbing your soft skin as he hums along with the music. 
-Even if he needs to switch gears he won’t let go.
-Surprisingly he is the type to put on an audio book after a while. 
-Usually it's after your wedding song is over or soon after that. 
-Your song is like a trigger and suddenly sophisticated Bakugou emerges asking you to pick an audiobook from his collection and put it on. 
-Gets really invested in the story and pauses it every five minutes so you can discuss it. 
- “She could have escaped through the window why the fuck did she let herself get caught?” 
- “No Katsu!!! She needs to make sure the prince is alive!!” 
- “That’s fucking dumb!” 
-Let’s you take candid pictures of him and won’t complain when you coo over how pretty he looks with the sun behind him. 
-Don’t worry he is plotting to fill his gallery of pics of you sleeping. 
-When you actually fall asleep he will turn the radio down and hum softly under his breath. 
-If it starts raining heavily he will pull over and wait for it to calm down a bit. 
-My personal headcanon is that Katsuki has a car with a skylight *if that’s what its called* so he brings the seats down and you lay there admiring the rain falling onto the glass. 
-He likes talking about more serious matters when you are like this. 
-From your future to what pet your future kids could have. 
-If you get cold while waiting for the rain to calm down, he has a blanket on the ready. 
-He places you on his chest and drapes the blanket over you, enjoying your warmth and the filling of your pulse under his fingertips. 
-Might get a little emotional if a slow song is playing. 
-He is just too overwhelmed by his emotions at times like these, when he can hold you and feel the pure love and adoration flow between the two of you like water. 
-I love you’s are exchanged and many kisses. 
-When he starts driving again he is so refreshed, it’s like a completely different person. 
-Gas station stops and bathroom breaks are a nightmare cuz he keeps hyping himself up in order to go into Bakugou public mode. 
-You just want your Katsuki, the cuddly Katsuki. 
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antialiasis · 3 years ago
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Worldbuilding June (Pokémon edition), Days 8-12
Whoops forgot to post these for a couple of days, too busy with a load of Things as always.
8. Who rules in your world?
TQftL never brings up government, but each region has its own human government, generally just standard representative democracies similar to what we have in the modern world. Ouen has an elected parliament and president. It's a fairly utopian world with little scarcity and politics play kind of a background role - they keep things running, they have some different parties, but there's low polarization and usually they work pretty smoothly together and have little conflict. The situation in other regions is similar - movement is very free and conflict between them is rare and minor in the grand scheme of things.
QftLverse Pokémon, once again, have their own societies and are not subject to human rule except in a limited way while they're with a trainer, as per the Agreement, an all-encompassing contract dictating how the relationship between humans and Pokémon should work. Different Pokémon species govern themselves differently, but their societies are generally based on smaller self-governing groups. The Scyther society has a single leader, who is meant to be the simply strongest in the swarm, and anyone can challenge them to a duel to the death to take their place at any time.
The Morphicverse is once again close to Earth, with different countries having different modes of government. The Poké-USA's politicical climate resembles the actual USA's political climate in ~2007, but if I ever wrote references to the current president I wouldn't make him an outright Bush expy or anything, beyond being from the conservative one of the two highly polarized parties.
9. What religions and myths/legends exist in your world?
The QftLverse's human society is basically post-religious. Legendary Pokémon are revered, but not worshipped - people don't pray to them, ascribe natural phenomena to them, expect them to watch over them personally, perform symbolic rituals associated with them, etc. That said, humans do have myths concerning them - not always accurate ones. The story describes the human myth behind one set of legendaries early on before the reality much later turns out to have been fairly different, for instance.
QftLverse Pokémon have their own myths, legends, religions and beliefs. The Scyther society explored in the spin-offs has a bit of a vague mythology going on explaining the sun, moon, stars and clouds, but it's not very important to them, more of a just-so story. Meanwhile, they live by a system of ethics known as the Code that they consider sacred and all-important, though it doesn't have a godly figure behind it as the source of it, only a philosophy. Other Pokémon might variously have straight-up religion (whether worshipping legendary Pokémon or something else), be entirely areligious, or something in between; most will have myths and legends in some form, though.
The Morphicverse has a form of Christianity, which is functionally a lot like ours; this also means they had a version of Judaism. Other specific religions don't come up, but they'd at the very least be as varied as real-world religions. Like in real life, there are many sects and variants, and as many individual interpretations of faiths as there are people. The villain cult in particular has fringe views that in no way resemble the mainstream. And like in real life, many people nominally believe but don't really practice their religion, and many are agnostic or atheist.
Legendary Pokémon in the Morphicverse are cryptids - there are myths and legends about them, and people think they're neat, write fiction and make movies about them all the time, but in the modern day, actually-for-real believing that they exist out there ranges from mildly eccentric to entirely unthinkable. Worship of legendary Pokémon exists, but in the way that modern neo-Paganism does. It's not remotely mainstream, generally seen as a weird hippie thing, and the notion of Arceus appearing in the flesh one day and declaring he created the universe is about as fantastical to most people as the notion of the Norse pantheon doing the same in our world.
10. What traditions are observed in your world?
QftLverse human traditions are mostly just secular holidays - commemorations of important days in the region's history, etc. It's tradition for most children to go out on a Pokémon journey the spring after they turn ten years old, and participate in a First-Timers' League in the autumn if they manage to stick it out for the whole journey and collect all the badges - there are kids who don't, but it's rare for them to not want to, and other kids may see them as no fun.
Every year in Green Town, there is a Pokémon Festival originally built around the legendary Pokémon Chaletwo's yearly brief visit to the outskirts of the city (which may or may not be ditched in the next revision); it hosts a number of Pokémon-themed events over several days. One of them is a starter Pokémon giveaway, where most kids go to get official starter Pokémon, who have specifically volunteered and been trained to work with beginning trainers - though many kids have had Pokémon as pets/partners since they were young and journey with them instead, or their parents otherwise get them a Pokémon who's up for a beginning trainer. (Many Pokémon kind of like the idea of journeying with a beginning trainer, in the way that many people like the idea of getting a kitten rather than an adult cat - just something special about having been with them from the start. Though getting a starter who's actually been trained to deal with kids is recommended over just finding any random enthusiastic Pokémon.)
Pokémon have all kinds of different traditions. The Scyther society as explored in the spin-offs has a number of traditions and rituals, including a sort of blood baptism of new hatchlings, the leader of the swarm teaching all the adolescent Scyther about the Code, and First Prey, where each of the adolescents is sent out to hunt prey on their own for the first time, with a male and female witness following, so they can prove their ability to kill and to feed themselves. Afterwards, they're expected to publicly offer a symbolic piece of the meat of their first prey to some members of the swarm, and doing so signals respect; you don't technically have to, but in practice everyone always offers it to the leader and not doing so would be taken as outright disrespect.
The Morphicverse is once again culturally similar to the real world and has mostly similar sorts of traditions. Pokémon training is less culturally ingrained there, but still a very common hobby for kids.
11. What are some ways people communicate with pokémon in your world, or pokémon with each other?
In the QftLverse, humans learn to understand Pokémon speech as a mandatory subject at school. Pokémon inherently understand human speech, but they speak anime-style, usually in syllables of their species' name (which is what the species are named after). They share one language, which is not based on exactly what the syllables are but the tone and the way they're combined, hence why it works regardless of the species.
In the current version of the fic, this is pure handwave worldbuilding: it's established that it happens at school at the beginning, and then we just move on to the story, where every human simply understands what Pokémon are saying at all times. In the next revision I'd give a bit more proper worldbuilding attention to it - let the language barrier be a little more present, humans vary in exactly how good they are at it (luckily it's already the main character's best subject at school), and otherwise treat it less like it's just an excuse to act like Pokémon speak English.
In the Morphicverse, Pokémon do communicate but they don't do complex communication - instead, it's closer to the sort of communication most animals do in the real world. They can express how they're feeling, draw attention to something interesting, sound the alarm about something scary, ask another Pokémon to follow, and can do this in a somewhat more efficient and intelligent way than most animals generally do. But one way or another, they don't communicate complicated abstract ideas, neither to humans nor to one another. Pokémon don't automatically understand human speech here, though they're very quick learners when it comes to commands, and they can pick up a fair amount just by being around humans, allowing them to get the gist of basic statements and requests without being explicitly taught them, though anything abstract would still be entirely lost on them. You could tell a Pokémon you've lived with for years "I lost my hat, can you help me find it" and they'll go look for your hat, but they'd be lost if you tried to ask them for anything much more complicated than that.
12. What is the gym circuit or adventuring organization like in your world?
In the QftLverse, gyms are meant to be taken on in a specific order and gym leaders are accordingly expected to keep their Pokémon below a certain level. To be officially sanctioned by the League, a gym needs to have a theme - usually a type, although Rick got away with a legendary theme because he gets away with everything because he is hypnotizing League officials with his Mewtwo super-clone I was twelve years old. Every year there's a First-Timers' League in the autumn in each region, where new trainers who have collected all eight badges of their region face off (except for the bit where I somehow made a guy who'd been training for years be part of it without thinking about it properly). There's also a global Old-Timers' League for more experienced trainers, which crowns a world champion; this doesn't involve badges and is just a tournament. Trainers are advised to stick to official routes, while Pokémon who want a trainer seek out the routes and others avoid them; going off-route has the potential to lead to run-ins with Pokémon who are more hostile to humans. It's not forbidden but it's drilled into kids' heads that you're not supposed to.
The Morphicverse's gym circuit is not too dissimilar to that, but gym leaders are expected to carry a variety of Pokémon teams to take on challengers of different skill levels, who can take on the gyms of their circuit in any order. Kid trainers are strictly meant to travel only along official routes, which are thoroughly monitored to be safe, and often take public trainer transportation; when they're eighteen they can get an adult trainer license with which they can take their Pokémon anywhere they like, at their own risk. Mostly kids do it as a hobby, and many young children dream of being professional trainers, but only a fraction are actually good enough to make money off it, so most either quit it after a few summers on realizing it's not for them (they might release their Pokémon or keep them as pets, depending on how high-maintenance they are), or continue to do it as a side hobby. There exist college-level training schools for those who really want to dedicate their lives to it, but by that point in time most people will have dropped their pro trainer dreams.
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vampwrrrmistresslist · 6 years ago
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No Such Thing
There is no such thing as gwishin.
All your life, you had seen things.  Things that people called gwishin.  You called them “echoes”. When people thought of gwishin, they thought of the sentient spirit, of someone who had died, who could behave autonomously.
This was not the case.
In reality, what people called “gwishin” were mere  imprints on time, created under the proper atmospheric conditions, along with strong enough emotion, replaying for however long the the conditions stayed optimal, given the strength of the emotion.  
Some “recordings” played a few times, and then were never seen again.  And then there were some, which still played, centuries later.      
But walk up to any of these “apparitions” and try to have a conversation, and you would come away unsatisfied.  They continued along their recorded track, never deviating.  They weren’t gwishin.  They were merely echoes a person left behind, simultaneously as tangible and as ephemeral as their scent, and just as paranormal.  
You didn’t like talking about these things, however.  A newly-minted grad student, entering university to attain your Ph.D in biochem, you were a scientist who believed in observable, replicable phenomena, not ghoulies, and ghaesties, and long-legged baesties.  
Fortunately, you had a full ride, but unfortunately, you couldn’t take advantage of the free room and board.  You had a horrid track record for roommates, and you had drawn the short end of the stick in the housing lottery, so by the time you went to choose a dorm, all of the singles had been taken.  Not about to possibly risk your degree trying to deal with another obnoxious, inconsiderate moron, you decided to live off campus.
Your freshman roommate had disliked you on sight.  The highlights of her depredations had included locking you out, mocking you constantly in front of her friends and boyfriend for not being as sexually advanced, and suddenly becoming as loud as possible–and desperately needing as much light as possible–any time you were trying to sleep.  
Your sophomore roommate had been from a desert clime, and had vociferously protested, constantly, about the humid heat of your summer.  You had no A/C in that particular dorm, and yet would constantly come home to a stuffy room, because she closed the windows, whenever you left, complaining “It’s so wet!  Even my paper is limp!”  On top of that, her alarm clock, which she had on snooze, was a police siren, so every morning gave you a heart attack as you awoke (repeatedly) to the sound of an impending police shootout.  Lastly, she never returned the raincoat you had let her borrow during one surprise spring shower.  Sticky fingered git.
Your junior roommate decided that classes weren’t for her, and stayed at the room any time she wasn’t out drinking at pojangmachas and host clubs. Of course, it wasn’t just her in the room.  Oh, no.  It was also her boyfriend, whom she loved.  Loudly.  And often.  Even while you were awake, with the lights on.  You could only assume that they thought you so engrossed in your homework, that you didn’t notice, or that the comforter they threw over their heads was some sort of soundproof barrier, but considering the fact that they were four feet away, both conjectures were thoroughly incorrect.  That, combined with the questionable substances in the shower and used condoms tossed in random places, made you begin to consider homicide.  
Your senior roommate was actually the best, but was just a bit…different.  She was obsessed with knick knacks, placing them on every available horizontal surface, until you were afraid to breathe for fear of knocking over a skull candle, or plastic dinosaur, or ceramic cat.  She insisted on brushing her teeth in the kitchen sink (only at night, though–admittedly–she never smelled of morning breath), left (unfortunately identifiable) smears in the toilet after handling her business, never washed her hands after using the bathroom, and had a tendency of blowing up the bathroom (which was in your shared bedroom) while you were studying, and then leaving the bathroom door open, but closing your bedroom door after she left, thus leaving you in a miasma of fetid derriere air.  At least she was nice.  And killed the spiders. And took out the trash.  Really, it was kind of like living with a guy.  
So, you had decided to take the money allocated for your on-campus housing, and use it to find an apartment nearby.  After a few weeks of searching, you found a gem.  It was within walking distance of campus, in a charming older building that looked as if it had been around since the early 1900s.  The fully-furnished apartment was cozy–darling–and at $300 per month, (minus utilities, but plus free wifi!), you couldn’t say no.  
When you asked the elderly landlady why it was so inexpensive, a shadow passed her face, before it brightened back into its former sprightly expression.  “Oh, I have plenty of money, dear, I just enjoy having young people around.  You’re all so helpful, and pleasant, and I learn so much.  Besides, all of my children are out of the nest, and with my husband gone, I have no one to feed.  I’m used to cooking for a family of six, so it’s nice to have people who will take the odd batch of soup, or rice cakes off my hands.  
“Yes, but aren’t the other apartments $500?”  
She sighed.  “Well, dear,” she started carefully, “there has been talk of the apartment being rather…haunted.”
You snorted.  “Oh, is that all?  I’ll take it.”
***
You conscripted your oppa, Chanyeol, to help you move.  He didn’t agree with your living off campus, but he had to agree that this was a pretty safe-looking neighbourhood, with most of your neighbours being either elderly, or other university students.  Still, he never turned off big brother mode, and was bitterly complaining as he helped you put away your dishes and cutlery in the kitchen.
“I know that you haven’t had the best luck with roommates, but isn’t this a bit drastic?
“Isn’t this conversation a bit moot? I’ve already signed the contract, and paid for the year.”
“It’s never too late to find a roomma–”
You threw him a look.
“Ah!  Aaah…roooom-y wardrobe.  For all your clothes.  Aigoo, why do you have so many clothes?”  He wandered off toward your bedroom to start unpacking said clothes, and hanging them up in the closet.  
***
The next morning, he said his goodbyes, as you gave him a kiss, and the code to your door lock.  “Call me every night.  And be careful when you’re walking home in the dark.  Don’t stay up too late.  And remember to eat properly–you always skip meals–”
“Get out, you’re worse than Oemma!”
“It’s my job!”
You slowly closed the door on him, smiling.  “Goodbye, oppa!”
“And don’t bring home any strange boys!” he yelled through the door, his deep voice muffled.
You grinned as you leaned against the closed door.  As if you had the time for that.  “I said bye, oppa!”
“Ungrateful brat,” he muttered as he walked away.
Throwing open the door you stuck out your tongue at him.  “I love you, too,” you said, smiling happily, then closing the door before he could react.    
***
The next several days, before classes started, were blissful.  It rained almost every day, and you opened the windows to let in the sweet-smelling air, and cool breezes.  The patter of rain was a perfect background for you to catch up on your leisure reading, as you curled up on one of the overstuffed velvet armchairs.  You cooked elaborate, if small meals, baked constantly, and made friendly with the neighbours by giving away all of the treats that you couldn’t eat.
One morning you awoke, stretching deliciously as cool air wafted from the windows above and beside your bed, over your body.  You had never bothered with pajamas when you were alone, opting to sleep in your underwear, and any old comfortable shirt you could find.  
I need a cat, you thought to yourself.  Or two.  Or three.  Smiling to  yourself, you decided that would be your mission for the day.  Breakfast first, though.  
Wandering into the kitchen, after washing your face, you walked to the fridge to grab a packet of gim to have with your rice and stew.  Reaching up, you realized that your oppa had put it just out of reach.  “Why is he so uselessly tall?” you muttered to yourself as you stretched.  Chanyeol always teased you, for talking to yourself, saying that it was a sign that you were getting old, but it’s a habit that you had had your entire life.  
Suddenly, the packet slid toward your hand, moving at least six inches.  “Hm. House must be on the incline.  As expected, with such an old building.”  Trundling toward the rice cooker, you went about with your day.
***
True to your word, you walked to the animal shelter, and picked up a cat.  You decided to start with one, so that you could bond with it, before introducing any other cats.  The kittens had been cute, but something about this old queen had called to you.  She was a grey striped tuxedo cat–twenty years old, according to the shelter–with lambent peridot eyes.  She held herself elegantly, despite the fact that her fur was a bit thin in places, and not quite sleek–in the way of older cats.  As soon as you had looked at her, however, she had walked to the edge of her cage, and poked out her nose at you, not retreating until you nuzzled her back, and your heart was lost.  Her name was Bubba, and she owned you as soon as she laid eyes on you.  
On the way home, you picked up a heating pad, to add to the collection of feline accoutrements that you had already purchased, so that she would always have something warm on which she could rest her old bones.  
Upon her release from the rolling cat carrier, she trotted regally through your apartment, sniffing, and rubbing herself against everything.  Before you could become too distracted, you headed to the bathroom to set up her litter situation, and upon your return, she was sitting on the couch, stretching and purring, almost as if someone were stroking her back.  
“What a darling you are!” you cooed, drawing close to rub her.  As you reached out your hand, it brushed against…something.  Snatching it back, you blinked, but Bubba continued to purr and flirt, as if nothing were awry.  “Hm. That halmoni’s words must be getting to me,” you chuckled, turning to kitchen to set up her food and water dishes.  
***
Soon school began, and you were thrown into the thick of it.  Your program was actually one that combined a master’s and a Ph.D, and though you had more leisure time than you had in undergrad, the work, when you had it, was a lot more intense.  On top of classes, you were also a research assistant to the head of the chemistry department, as well as a teaching assistant to one of the biology professors.  You may have had a full ride, but they were going to get their money’s worth out of you.  
Many was the night that you dragged yourself home past midnight, exhausted, Excel formulas, statistics, and lesson plans swirling through your head in an endless maelstrom.  Despite how many times you could have sworn that you fell asleep on the couch, you always awoke in your bed, under the covers.  
Other, odd things also started to happen.  Nothing scary, just things that made you wonder if holding so much scholastic knowledge in your mind was making you forgetful in other areas of your life.  
There were the times that you were at school, and realized that you had forgotten to feed Bubba, only to come home at lunch to find her bowl full.  Or the fact that, whenever you lost something, if you started talking to yourself about it–”Now, where did I put my keys (phone, purse)?”– you’d find it within minutes, sometimes in a place that you were sure that you had already searched.  Furthermore, many was the time that you came home to what sounded like a man’s voice on the other side of the door, sometimes talking, sometimes singing in a shimmering, clear tenor, but when you opened the door, no one was there.  
“Hm,” you muttered the first time it happened.  “I guess sound travels really well in an old, unsound-proofed building.”  Now, you just ignored it, having explained it away satisfactorily, to yourself.  
You were a pragmatic sort, even despite being able to see what most of the world couldn’t, and could explain away all of the phenomena without losing a single drop of sleep.  Besides, it was  hard to be scared when the place gave you such a safe feeling.  And it wasn’t just the apartment.  Sometimes, that safe feeling followed you for most, and occasionally all, of the day.  You would be walking home from a late night grocery run, or deposit to the off-campus ATM which was, admittedly, not in the best neighbourhood, but you would feel as secure as if someone were there with you, watching over you until you were safely back home.  
One Friday night, you came home late from a celebratory night out at the local pojangmacha.  Singing softly to yourself, you almost didn’t notice the way that your door was cracked open.  Almost.  Before you could react, you felt something brush past, and the door opened even wider, causing you to retreat in surprise. After a moment with no further activity, however, you cautiously entered.  
Maybe if you had been sober, you would have been smarter, stayed outside, and called someone.  But you weren’t, so you went inside.  
Turning on the light, your eyes swept the living room.  Nothing out of place.  Tiptoeing to the kitchen, a quick glance told you that no one was in there, either.  Heading toward the bedroom, you opened the door to see that it was also clear.  Gathering your bravery, you quickly opened your closet, but nothing stared back at you, but your clothes.  The bathroom was similarly clear.  That just left…oh, crap, the hallway closet.  
Emerging from your bedroom, a glance around showed you that the living room, and kitchen were still clear.  Sidling toward the hall closet with trepidation, you steeled yourself, and ripped open the door to find–
Nothing.  At least nothing human-sized.  A fat, sassy moth escaped, and fluttered toward the ceiling, letting you know that it was time to stock up on mothballs, lest you wanted your woolen garments to have that chic, unsought-after moth-eaten look.  
Kicking off your shoes, you closed your front door, and hung up your jacket.  Peeling off your top as you headed toward your bedroom, you tossed it into the laundry basket, and sat down on your bed, thinking.  Something was still awry.  
Bubba!  Where was Bubba?!  You panicked–you had been gone all day, so if she had left, she could be anywhere.  You leapt up to redress and start the search, when something wrapped around your ankle and tugged roughly, sending you crashing to the floor, knocking the wind out of your lungs.  
You stared up at the ceiling, stars in your eyes, for you had hit your head on the side of your dresser on the way down.  A sharp, sick pain wrapped around your lungs as they struggled to take a breath, a hot miasma of agony slowly blooming inside, and you just lay there in silent torment, unthinking as your body’s autonomous systems worked to return you to homeostasis.  
This seemed to take forever, but in reality, the process only took a handful of seconds.  It was enough time, however, for a dark figure to come creeping from underneath your bed to climb over you, straddling your prone body.  
Before you could orient on his face, however, you were pulled backwards, your upper body lifting as your legs slid along the floor, until your back hit the wall.  The stranger was gaping at you in surprise, when his head snapped to the side, his body quickly following suit to collapse on the floor.  
He flailed, but within moments, it went from aimless flailing to purposeful struggling, as if he were fighting against an opponent that neither of you could see.  He curled into a ball to protect himself from what seemed to be invisible kicks and stomps to his abdomen, and head. Kicking out, he seemed to make contact with the invisible entity, as items suddenly swept off of your dresser, and a loud crash was heard, as if a muscular body had fallen to the floor.  
You watched all of this in a daze, still too out of it to feel anything other than detached curiousity.  
The stranger kicked again, and you heard a sickening thump, and a groan, before the stranger was flipped over, and bowed backwards. His eyes were on yours, his red face straining, veins popping, and eyes bugging out of his sockets as he reached for you.
With a start, you realized that he was suffocating.  Whatever it was, it was on his back, and it was choking him.  Finally coming to your senses, you crawled out of the room toward your purse to grab your phone, and call the police.  While you were on the call, the fight spilled into your living room.  
The stranger had grabbed your broomstick, and when he spun around, putting his body weight into the spin, it whapped into something that sounded solid, yet soft, and you heard a pained cry.  Suddenly, there was a roar of anger, and…and…
You looked up, your mouth falling open.  
“Ma’am?  Ma’am? Are you still there? Ma’am, can you hear me? Ma’am, please answer me.  The police are on their way, are you hurt?”
Your unfeeling fingers dropped the phone as you stared.
For in front of you…in front of you…
…was another man.  Another man who hadn’t been there a second ago.  A man who had appeared out of thin air.  He wasn’t tall, but his body was compact with lithe muscle, like a panther’s.  He had rich black hair, and thick, shining black brows which arched toward his hairline like raven’s wings, preparing for flight.  His small mouth was screwed up in fury, and his dark brown eyes burned with a cold rage as he stared down at the stranger who lay prone, at his feet.  
His legs were encased in ripped black jeans, and he wore a black tee with a large black coat of arms in relief on the chest, and a fitted black leather jacket with vertical zippers on the breast and moulded epaulets. Hearing the clatter of the phone, the man’s expression faltered, and he looked up to see you staring at him in unadulterated shock.  
He started toward you, when suddenly, you all heard sirens approaching in the distance.  The stranger started to scramble away, but the man standing delivered a swift kick to his temple, dazing the prone man, and then crouched over his body, grabbing his shirt, and holding him down.  
The stranger still struggled weakly, but the jean-clad man, though not too much taller than you, was clearly very strong.  Finally, you heard feet rushing up the stairs, and the man in the leather jacket looked up at you, and slowly brought a finger to his lips.
Then he disappeared.
Police officers rushed inside, taking in the scene, at a glance.  One crouched in front of you, putting a hand on your shoulder, and asking you a question.  You stared off into the distance, just past his shoulder, where the leather-clad man had vanished  
The officer kept trying to ask you something, but all you could hear was a soft rushing in your ears, like the tide.  Finally orienting on the officer, it clicked that he was asking you questions.  You opened your mouth to answer, but the light in the room was dimming at the edges, everything slowly darkening until there was only a pinpoint of light in front of your face.  Then, there was nothing.
***
You awoke at the hospital, with your oppa sitting beside you, though his head was resting on your bed, and one of his hands was entwined with yours.  You tried to call him, but your throat was so dry.  It was so hard to speak.  You swallowed, and tried again, but still, nothing came.  Giving up, you squeezed his hand.  
Chanyeol lifted his head, eyes immediately on yours.  “Oemma!” he called.  
Your oemma rushed into the room, wrapping her arms around you, pulling you up from the bed to cuddle you against her bosom.  A doctor followed close behind.  
You tapped weakly against her arm.  “Oemma!  Oemma!  I can’t–I can’t breathe!”
“Oh!  Oemma’s sorry!” she said, backing up, laying you back down on the bed.  
“It’s alright.  I’m oka–” you huffed as Chanyeol leaned down to squeeze you so tightly that your lungs almost completely deflated.  “Yah!  Oppa!” you weakly scolded.  “Get off of me, you’re squeezing too hard!”
“I’m sorry, I’m just so glad you’re–” his voice broke.  You looked at him properly.  He had dark circles under red-rimmed eyes that shone with unshed tears, and his jawline told you that he hadn’t shaved in days. He had three whole new hairs.  
The doctor came forward–her nameplate named her as Dr. Kim–took out a penlight and, after asking your permission, shone it in your eyes to assess your pupillary response.  Satisfied with what she found, she asked you a few questions–your name, the year the name of the president and of the country, and whether you remembered what happened.  When you answered her questions to her satisfaction, and indicated that your pain level was at a 3 out of 10, she nodded, and left, saying that she would send a nurse to have you discharged.
“Water?” you asked plaintively.  
“Yes!” your oemma said, reaching for the picture beside your bed, and filling the small, adjacent cup.  
You drank down the cool water in a few gulps, then another.  And another. Starting to feel better on your fourth cup, you slowed down, looking over it to see both your oemma, and your brother looking at you with hopeful, expectant looks, almost as if you were about to perform a magic trick.  “Where’s appa?” you queried, looking around.  
“Appa had just left on a flight for Shanghai, when I received the call about you,” your oemma explained.  Your father was an architect, and was often called out of the country to work.  “We haven’t told him, yet.  We wanted to wait until you were out of the woods, to keep from worrying him.  You know how he is.”
You nodded.  If your brother was overprotective, then your father was ten times, so.  “What happened?” you asked, your voice considerably stronger.  
“From what the police could determine, some man broke into your apartment a few nights ago, and you beat the crap out of him!” Chanyeol answered, reaching up to ruffle your hair, but stopping just short of touching your head.  
Seeing his reticence, you reached up to feel a bandage on the back of your head, and another against your temple.  
“You have a moderate concussion, and some bruised ribs, but other than that, you’re fine,” your oemma said in answer to your unspoken question.  “I talked to your landlady.  She’s going to install a coded lock on the front door of the building, so that something like this won’t happen again.”
“What happened to the guy?” you asked.
“Turns out that he had been breaking into girl’s apartments all over the city.  Hadn’t you heard about it?”
“No?” you answered honestly.  “I’ve been too busy studying to pay any attention to the news.”
“You need to be more aware of your surroundings!” Chanyeol scolded.  
“Not now, Chanyeollah,” your oemma gently remonstrated, leaning forward to stroke your forehead.  “He’s in custody, and he’s going to be going to jail for a very long time.  You caught him!  My baby’s a hero!”  Your face dropped and your oemma, misinterpreting your expression said, “Don’t you waste another second thinking about him!  Do you need oemma to help you get dressed?”
“No, I think I can manage,” you responded.  By the time you had finished dressing yourself, your oemma had filled out your discharge papers and taken charge of your medications, and you were cleared to leave, albeit, embarrassingly enough, in a wheelchair, which Chanyeol gleefully pushed for you.
You were ordered to lie down when they reached your apartment.  A new, heavier-duty lock had been installed on your door, the code for which, your oemma already had from the landlady.  You emailed your professors, telling them that you would be out for the upcoming week, took some pain medication, and fell asleep.
When you awoke, Chanyeol and your oemma had straightened your apartment, but the real joy is the surprise that your oppa had for you.
“That halmoni found this,” he said, opening your bedroom door.  
“Bubba!” you cried, reaching out to embrace your cat.  “How did she find her?”
“Funny story, that.  She said that she heard a knock on the door, and when she opened it, there was your cat.  Someone must have decided to drop her off at the landlady’s door, figuring that she would know to whom the cat belonged.”
“Mm, someone,” you echoed.  “What’s that smell?” you asked.  
“What do you think?” Chanyeol said archly.  “Oemma has been ordering me back and forth to at least four different stores for the ingredients that she needs to make…everything.”
You grinned, eyes twinkling.  “Had I known that all I had to do to get homemade food delivered was be viciously attacked, I would have done it a lot sooner.  What’s it looking like?”
“Your fridge is literally stuffed, from top to bottom with side dishes, soups, and stews.  I’m jealous.  I’m about to break into my own apartment, and beat myself up.”
Smiling, you laid back against your pillows.  
“Here, let me clean your wounds,” he said, grabbing your kit from the hospital, removing your gauze, and going to work.  When he was done, and had replaced the bandages, he took you by the hand.  “My sweet little dongsaeng,” he started, looking at you affectionately, lightly brushing your hand across his dimpled cheek.  “Little aegiya…what really happened?”
You looked up at him in surprise.  “What do you mean?”
“I’ve known you for your entire life, and you’ve shown no propensity for turning into a superhero.  I saw the guy, and I know my little sister. You’re the softest, gentlest person I know.  That guy looked like he had been through a meat grinder.  What happened?”
“You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.”
“Do it anyway.”
Taking a breath, you thought about it for a moment.  Your oppa had always been on your side, even when you were children.  When your friend’s older brothers were busy being mean to them, or avoiding them, he had always been your best friend, your protector.  Once, when a teacher thought that you had stolen a laptop, he spent the evening tearing the school upside down until he found it, in the teacher’s lounge, in a closet. You had been in detention the entire time, so no one could say that you had snuck it back in there.  He confronted your accuser, upbraiding her in front of everyone who gathered to figure out why the tall, booming voiced boy was yelling at a teacher.
Chanyeol had almost been suspended.  Being a superlative student, however, who had heretofore not been in any trouble, he got off with only a month of detention.  Yes, your brother had always been your defender, even sometimes against your parents, even going so far as to take the blame for things that you had accidentally done, such as breaking an expensive vase while running, or knocking over a gallon of paint on the newly finished hardwood floors.  
Chanyeol also knew about what you had always seen, growing up, and had never questioned what you saw.  Your oppa knew you better than he knew his own mind, and he knew that you weren’t a liar.
“Oppa,” you whispered tremulously, “it was gwishin.”
He looked worried, briefly glancing at the bandage on your temple, before indicating that you should continue.  
So, you did.  You told him the entire story, from the mysterious touches, to the odd coincidences, the incidences of things moving, the sounds, the way you always found what was lost, and always awoke in your bed, no matter where you fell asleep in the apartment.
He listened to it all, without saying a word.  When you were finished, he asked hesitantly, “Is he…here, now?”
“I don’t know,” you replied.  “I can’t see him.”
Chanyeol nodded.  “Well, then…let’s get you something to eat.  Come on,” he said, helping you out of bed.  “Do you need a piggyback ride?”
You slapped him on the arm, as you sat on the edge of the bed.  “Don’t be ridiculous.  I’m not an invalid.”
“Yes, well…better safe, than sorry!” he boomed, turning, and hoisting you up on his back.
“Yah, idiot!  You’re going to break your back!  I’m not twelve anymore!”
“You’re not much bigger than a twelve year old,” he teased, causing you to grab him by the ears, using them like reins.
“Go forth!” you giggled, pressing your thighs against his sides like a jockey.
He neighed, pawed the ground, and trotted out of your room.
Your oemma rolled her eyes when she saw you.  “Will you two ever grow up?”
“No–” you started.
“–never!” he finished.  
They stayed for the next couple of days, with your oemma sleeping with you, and your oppa crumpled on your loveseat, a fact over which he bitterly complained, asking why you hadn’t considered him when buying the furniture.  
When you reminded him that the apartment came already furnished, he complained about the fact that you had rented a place with such small furniture.  “It’s like you never even thought of me when you were picking out a place for yourself!”
Your oemma soon had to leave, so that she could go back to work, but since Chanyeol was also still in school, having decided to go into the military before he entered university, his schedule was considerably less rigid.  
Almost before the door had closed on your oemma, your oppa was spinning to you.  “Okay.  Call him.”
You wanted to play dumb, but you knew exactly what he was talking about.  “He’s not a dog!  Besides, I don’t know his name.”
“Just try.”
“Why?”
“We need to get to the bottom of this.”
“Why?”
“Because I’m your oppa, and I say so.”
“That’s not a real reason.”
“Don’t make me do it.”
“You wouldn’t.”
“You don’t think I would?”
“Oppa!” you whined.
Chanyeol pulled out his phone, and navigated to your appa’s number.  “I wonder how long you’ll be living here once Aboeji knows that you were attacked…”
“Okay!  Put down the phone, and walk away!” you yelled, arms in front of you like you were trying to talk down a madman.
He put the phone on your coffee table, and took a step back.  “I can get to it before you can, so don’t even think about it.  Just do it.”
“Fine,” you sighed.  “Although, if he is here, then he just witnessed this little exchange, and he might be offended that you want him to materialize like a trick pony.”
“I’m not offended.”
You shrieked, and leapt across the room into Chanyeol’s arms.  He was trying to be brave, but you could feel him shaking.  Looking up, you saw that all the blood had drained from his face.  While he had believed the stories you had told him your entire life, there was a huge difference between being told, and seeing with one’s own eyes. You could feel his heart pounding behind your back, and his breathing was shallow as it rasped past your ear.  “You can see him, too?” you asked incredulously.
Chanyeol just nodded weakly, not taking his eyes off the other man.
Realizing that it would probably be best if you took the lead, you tried to take a step forward, only to quickly be snatched back into your brother’s arms.  
“I won’t hurt her,” the man said, looking apologetic.  
“What about me?” Chanyeol squeaked.  
The man laughed.  “I’m not going to hurt anybody!”
Looking up at Chanyeol and nodding, you once more started forward, gently wresting your arm from his clutches.  Cautiously, you approached the man, until you were close enough to reach out and touch him, but far enough away that you could run behind your brother, if need be.  Your big, tall, strong brother, who currently looked as if he were on the verge of passing out.  “What’s your name?” you queried, proud that your voice sounded steadier than your quivering insides.  
“You can call me Xiumin.  I’m…still surprised that you can see me, though.”  He cocked his head pensively, and said, almost to himself,  “No one else has been able to see me…”
“Ah, yes.  Well, ah, Xiumin-sshi, ah…why…are you here?”
“I live here,” he responded simply.
“Mm, yes.  Live?”
“Well, figuratively speaking.  I lived here.  I guess.  I think.”
“You guess? You think?”
He shifted uncomfortably.  “Well, I assume so.  To be honest, I don’t remember.  All I know is that I woke up one day, and I was here.  I don’t even remember my real name.”
“Ohhh,” you said sympathetically.  “Well…ah…have you…been here…the entire time?”
Xiumin looked down apologetically, nodding.  
“So…you’re the haunting?”
He nodded again.  
“So…all of those things that I thought were odd little coincidences, and–”
“Those were all…me…”
“Oh.  I see.  Well…thank you for saving my life.”
Brightening, Xiumin looked back up at you.  “I had to! I wasn’t going to let some pervert do something weird to you!  I may be dead, but I’m still a gentleman!”
“Heh.  Heheh.  Heheheheheh,” you laughed nervously.  “You might be dead, but you’re still…heheheheheheheheheh…”
“Alright?” Chanyeol asked warily.  
“I’m fine,” you gasped, taking a deep breath to steady your nerves.
“I don’t mean to make you nervous.  I’m sorry,” Xiumin said softly.  
“So, how long have you been watching my sister?!” Chanyeol queried aggressively.
“Oppa!” you gasped, shocked.  
Xiumin’s face turned red.  “Yah, I’m not a weird guy!  I just leave when she’s in the bathroom, or changing!”
You blushed, but he had brought up a good point.  “You can leave?”
Xiumin turned his attention back to you.  “Yes.  I can go wherever I like, but the further I go, the weaker I feel, and if I ever pass out, I wake up back here.”
“How far is too far?” you asked.
He considered.  “About…10 kilometres?”
“You’ve gone that far?”
Shrugging, Xiumin nodded.  “I don’t have anything else better to do.  You’re the first people who have been able see me.  I can touch things, move small things, but it’s tiring.  The only time it’s not hard is if…” he hesitated.
“If what?” you pressed.
“If I feel really strongly about something.  Like that night.  I was only able to do what I did because I was so angry.”
“Well, I’m grateful,” you nodded.  “Thank you, again.”
“Well, I don’t like it!” Chanyeol muttered.  “But, still…thank you…for saving my annoying little sister’s life.  I guess.”  
Without looking, you leaned back, and punched your oppa in the stomach.  
He dramatically keeled over onto his knees, and you rolled your eyes.  
“So…what happens now?” you inquired.
What happens now, indeed?
***
After the conversation was over, and after much protesting, you eventually convinced Chanyeol to return home. Once he was gone, you sat on the couch.  “Xiumin-sshi?” you called.
He appeared beside you on the couch.  “Hey,” he said shyly.
“Hey,” you answered.  “So…we have to live together…”
Xiumin rubbed the back of his neck, embarrassment colouring his entire aspect.  “I’m sorry.”
“Well, there’s nothing that can be done for it, so there’s no need to be sorry.  I have to say, so far, you’ve been the best roommate I’ve ever had.”
He stared at you, shocked.  “Really?!”
“Really-really.”  You proceeded to tell him about your track record, causing him to guffaw when you started telling him anecdotes about some of your prior roommates’ more ridiculous antics.  
“So, I come home after a hard day of class, and I’m tired, right?  So, I walk in the door, and there she is, lying on her bed, and sobbing into the phone, “Just let me love you, oppa!  Just let me love you!  All you need is love!”
“I tell you, I didn’t even turn around, I just backed up, closed the door, and went to sleep over my friend’s dorm.  A day may have come when I would have wanted to be witness to the dramatic meltdown that was her life, but it was not that day!”
Xiumin laughed, and you looked away. His smile was so bright and warm.  If he had been alive, your heart would flutter.  It was just too bad.
“So…is there anything that I can do to make your life easier?” you asked.
He pondered.  “If you left your laptop on when you aren’t using it, that would be nice.  I miss my dramas.”
You laughed.  “Do you want me to buy a TV?”
He shook his head.  “I couldn’t ask you to do that!”
“Why not?!” You gestured between the two of you.  Then, indicating him, “Saved my life, remember?  I owe you.  The least I can do is buy a TV, so that you can watch your romances.  I mean, it won’t be a huge expensive TV, but it will work.  Deal?”
Xiumin nodded decisively.  “Deal.”
A/N:  This is chapter 1 of a finished miniseries, the rest of which can be found on my mistresslist. If you want to follow me, then please do so at my main blog @vampwrrr, as I always update there, first.
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operationrainfall · 5 years ago
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Title My Friend Pedro Developer Deadtoast Publisher Devolver Digital Release Date June 20th, 2019 Genre Bullet Ballet Platform Steam, Nintendo Switch Age Rating T for Teen – Blood, Violence, Language Official Website
I’ve been looking forward to My Friend Pedro since I demoed it last year at PAX West. It’s not often you see a concept so wacky nor a control scheme so ambitious. In many ways, this is the closest we’ll probably get to a true Deadpool videogame, and that’s something developer Deadtoast seems to be very aware of. They play with reality as you progress, as well as poke fun at gamers and the industry at large. The simple question then is this: was My Friend Pedro worth the wait? Or was this banana not quite ripe yet?
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You start by waking up in an industrial facility next to a talking banana named Pedro. Don’t expect how that’s possible to get explained, cause this isn’t that sort of game. Since you’re understandably confused, Pedro explains why you’re there and what your goal is. Turns out there’s a butcher that isn’t very particular about the meat he uses, and your goal is to put him down permanently. As the game continues, other events transpire that require your skillful execution of other bad people. Thankfully, despite your amnesia, you still have incredible muscle memory. Whoever you are, you’re a killing machine, and you quickly find a pair of pistols to prove how adept you are. Over the course of the game you’ll find many other weapons, such as a pair of uzis, an assault rifle and even a sniper rifle, but your pistols are the only weapons with infinite ammo. Everything else you’ll need to find more ammo for by taking out goons. Additionally, you will find healing kits as you progress, though thankfully you have a healing factor, and will recover health so long as you aren’t taking damage. You have three bars of health, so if you are cautious, you can stay at full health for a very long time. But if you’re not so careful, the game has plenty of helpful checkpoints where you can respawn after you’re slagged.
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The combat is the main draw of the game, other than the zany premise, and it asks a lot of you. I played on the lowest difficulty and still found it very challenging. That was mostly because of how many actions are mapped to the left Joy-Con. Not only does that joystick control your movement, pressing it activates your Focus mode, where you can momentarily slow down time. Also, the L button controls your dodge and the ZL allows you to split your aim and shoot in two directions at once. Meanwhile, ZR fires your bullets and the right joystick lets you aim your guns. If you think that sounds like a bit much to keep straight, you’d be right, especially when you factor in you can also kick enemies with X and will have sections where you’re riding a skateboard or a motorcycle. My Friend Pedro is an utter delight when you reach that zen moment and everything is working, but don’t expect that to last forever; this is a truly challenging game that expects you to do your absolute best.
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In fact, the game does score you at the end of each level. I got a couple of coveted S scores, but many more Bs and Cs. To get an S, you have to get through a stage pretty much without dying once and keep your combo going by continuously murdering everything in sight and avoiding most damage. While that is possible, it’s also quite rare, or it was for me. Thankfully, I found that by being stubborn and persisting I could beat every level. But if you’re one of those hardcore gamers that has to get a perfect score for every stage, be ready to spend a long time replaying each one.
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Despite my complaints, I did enjoy the combat. I felt like I was cast in some John Woo movie, flipping around, surprising foes and dodging goons armed to the teeth. For most of the game, I stuck with my trusty pistols, since I love infinite ammo, but the later parts required me to equip my heavy artillery. Mostly this was because the foes in those sections have body armor and rapid-firing guns, so you’ll be mincemeat if you stand there trading bullets with slow firing pistols. And while you can use your Focus to slow down time, it doesn’t make you bulletproof in the slightest. Your only way of avoiding bullets is using L to dodge, which makes you do a fancy spin. It also changes where your guns are aiming, so it’s a bit of a trade off. My favorite portions in the game were when I was swinging from a zip line spraying lead, or using metal signs and frying pans to deflect bullets in crazy directions. You’ll also occasionally be able to use explosives found around the levels to great effect, but only if you can shoot them before you get discovered. Oh and quick pro tip: if you need to reload and are surrounded, use the kick attack. It’s just as fatal as your bullets, just a bit slower. The only real downsides are that the range is shitty and kicking doesn’t seem to contribute to your combo meter.
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Besides the combat, there are also puzzle and platforming sections in the game. Oddly, these were perhaps my favorite parts, though that’s likely because I’ve played far too many platformers in my life. It was just nice to bounce around and wall jump without worrying about bullets coming my way. It was fun rolling through narrow ducts and shooting switches to trigger them from afar. I also really liked a few sections late in the game that are pure platforming terror, with lasers chasing you and proximity mines flinging themselves at your head. Frankly, I felt these sections were more intuitive and clear-cut than the combat-oriented ones, which is a bit of a shame, especially given how much the game is focused on the over-the-top combat.
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It wouldn’t be an over-the-top game without over-the-top bosses, and thankfully My Friend Pedro delivers on that front. Each and every boss is totally different, and blisteringly difficult. The first boss you fight while riding a motorcycle. Another memorable one chases you in a helicopter as you run screaming. There’s even one fight where it’s just you versus another incredibly nimble and dangerous armed gunman. I really thought all the boss fights brought a lot to the game, and my only real complaint is that there weren’t more of them. Having said that, the final boss fight in the game redeemed the game in many ways, and was an utter joy.
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Visually, My Friend Pedro is attractive and runs at a fast clip. I never encountered any slowdown, other than when I was using Focus to literally slow things down. While I do wish there was a bit more variety for the backgrounds and even enemy types, what was on display was well animated. Get ready to see a lot of human goons, robots and various deathtraps. There’s also some good use of unconventional colors like yellows, grays and reds. The one section that completely impressed me visually is when you go to Pedro’s World for a few very strange levels, which have colorful pastels and background pieces that would be right at home in a Runner game. Musically, the best I can say is that it’s inoffensive. I just really didn’t notice the music much while I was playing, and can’t even recall any standout songs. There were lots of great sound effects though, especially the weird whistle that plays at the end of each level.
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Though I mostly enjoyed my time with My Friend Pedro, there are a couple of problems that I need to mention. One was what I already mentioned about the complexity of the controls. While it’s true you can remap them, I’m not sure that would help much given the sheer amount of things you need to do. More problematic was that many times when I would use ZL to split aim, my Focus would abruptly end, and time would speed back up. This happened on multiple occasions, and each time my Focus meter wasn’t depleted. As a result, I mostly stopped using split aim, and just got more aggressive to compensate for it. Another issue was that in the skateboard sections, it was way too easy to flip off the damned thing, and very difficult to flip it back upright. Lastly, I just felt there were some sections that needed better signposting. I got stuck a handful of times as I played the various puzzle sections, and often had to die and restart to figure out what I was doing wrong. Other than these issues, the game was enjoyable.
Who is that masked man?
Overall though, I did rather enjoy My Friend Pedro. It’s far from perfect, but there’s lots of ingenuity and ambition on display here from the folks at Deadtoast. Though the plot was a bit psychotic and hard to parse at times, the humor kept me invested. For $19.99 I got about 10 hours of gameplay out of it, and had a good time. If nothing else, this is another worthy game that Devolver Digital has in their stable. Now I just hope we get a sequel that smooths over the issues I mentioned and explains the ending of the game…
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barbarabarry91 · 4 years ago
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izastar · 6 years ago
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Mental Health Month
Hello there bright beautiful stars! I hope you’re having a very good day and remember to take good care of yourself. If not, take a deep breath for 4, hold it for 4 and exhale for 4. Unclench your fists and jaw, drop your shoulders, and lay back!
It’s the month for Mental Health and my stars do I have a master list for you. I am currently a second, onto my third year, college student.  Before college my self care was pretty much everyday because of the low intensity of high school. Now.. I admit I do some pretty down spiraling things and have had my share of breakdowns. BUT NOW I’m not saying it’s gone, I still have my days. I just wanted to share a couple of things that have given me a more healthy way of dealing with the stress, homesickness, sadness, etc. I am a very passionate person on advocating for self-care, mental health and well-being. So here’s a couple of things that have definitely lifted my spirits and how many little things can make a difference.  
Apps: As a generation based on technology, figured it could be useful!
Aloe Bud
Aloe Bud is an all-in-one, self-care pocket companion. It gently brings awareness to self-care activities, using encouraging push notifications, rather than guilt or shame. Helpful reminders from yourself, to yourself; saved within Aloe Bud so you can keep doing you. I kid you not, I am so busy and forget that I never to remember to eat on time but this app helps me track that along with taking my birth control on time too!
Eternal Sunshine
Daily inspiration, meditation exercise and inspiration podcast. This app is the cutest, most wonderful app I have current. The quotes I post from time to time are from this app. Every quote, mantra, affirmation is beautiful. It brightens up my day every day. ALSO! Some of these quotes, and stuff have actually inspired some of my work and I hope it can too for you poets, writers, artists, etc.
Flo
This is for my lovely stars that have to deal with periods!! This is a period tracker and ovulation calendar. It’s has pregnancy and post pregnancy mode where you can track your baby’s development and learn the essentials of being a parent with special visuals and articles!! They also have daily insights, timely reminders and a community. I just love this because I never track her & I actually like to read the articles they have and the insights they do based on my symptoms etc.
Oak
Oak helps you decompress by transforming meditation practices from experiments into habits. They support you from your first session to your 500th, with mindful, loving-kindness, and sleep meditations as well as unguided sessions and breathing exercises. Individualize your meditations by duration, and customize with silence or calming background sounds. Oak tracks your progress and encourages you to continue building a healthy meditation practice. They include meditation, breathing, sleep, meditation timer, and progress tracking. Truth be told I have a hard time sleeping so I use this app for breathing exercise before going to bed and it helps a tremendous amount.
Simple Habit 
Another meditation app!! Simple Habit is the best meditation app for busy people. Meditate for just 5 minutes/day to reduce stress, improve focus, sleep better, relax faster, breathe easier, and more. I use this app for when I really don’t have anything BUT 5 mins and I actually really enjoy the meditation.
#SelfCare
This app is just where you can interact with things within the room, e.g. plants, the cat, clothes on the floor, anything in the room. If for those who are staying home for the day, your space, our shelter. It’s really cute I saw. I love the colors and the art and the activities.
Books: They can always be useful, whether for coloring, writing in a journal, or reading!
Creative Haven Spring Scenes Coloring Book 
An effective and fun-filled way to relax and reduce stress. This version specifically is beautiful. I love Spring and I love flower and anything and everything nature and green so this is a LOVELY purchase! 
The have other themes too;  Summer Scenes, Celtic Mandalas, Sea Life, etc.
How to Be a Wildflower: A Field Guide
A fresh perspective, an outdoor exploration, a new adventure about to begin—How to Be a Wildflower is the book to celebrate these and other wide-open occasions. Encouraging self-discovery through encounters with nature, beloved artist Katie Daisy brings her beautiful paintings and lettering to this collection of things to do and make, quotes, meditations, natural history, and more. OKAY SO I JUST BOUGHT THIS BUT IT’S SO CUTE :(
Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur
Milk and Honey is a collection of poetry and prose about survival. About the experience of violence, abuse, love, loss, and femininity. Okay listen I’m sure many are tired of these books but I truly love this book. I love the collection of poems. I love how some make you cry, some give you hope and other inspire you. For me seeing how others grow, glow, sometimes fall, but come up is beautiful.
The Sun and Her Flowers by Rupi Kaur
This is Rupi Kaur’s second collection of poetry book. This one is vibrant, transcendent journey about growth and healing. Again I know most are tired of these or feel as if they are overrated but I just love the little pictures/doodles and how some are long and short yet so meaningful.
The Wildflower's Workbook: A Journal for Self-Discovery in Nature
Brimming with gorgeous artwork from New York Times bestselling author and artist Katie Daisy, this fresh-as-a-daisy guided journal features thoughtful prompts to encourage engagement with the natural world. From bird-spotting advice to camping checklists, each exercise is executed in the artist's lovely signature style. AGAIN this is so pretty and I just bought it but I KNOW I’m gonna love it so much.
Hobbies To Pick Up: Here mare some that I picked up or am in the process, it’s fun to learn something new and you never know how good you could be at something!
Baking/Cooking
I’m not the best baker but I always feel so warm and fuzzy when other people bake for me. Don’t you love that happiness you give to others? Doesn’t that make you happy? This might be a little hard to start off with if you’re scared of burning something down or ruining food. But don’t fret my little stars, failure is only a part of success and who knows even a funny story to tell!!
Creative writing
Short stories, prompts, even just a sentence or two could really make a difference! I do a lot of creative writing, give yourself even ten minutes just to write whatever you’d like, it’s a nice feeling
Drawing/doodling/sketching
Listen I’m not one who strays from stick figures but every ONCE in a while I like to sketch something that I just can’t find online for my stories or prompts, etc. Practice makes perfect and give yourself patience.
Dancing 
Who says people with 2 left feet can’t dance?? I don’t have 2 left feet and not to toot my horn but I have good rhythm.. but STILL don’t let comments like those discourage you. Dancing can be something fun.
Exercising/hiking/biking  
Believe it or not exercising can be a hobby and it can be fun! Spice it up and sign up for a class! Enjoy the great outdoors! Nature to me is the best stress relief!
Gardening
I currently own 18 plants in my dorm room... it’s a LITTLE bad. I breath so much better with them in my room and they are so cute to look at and take care of! Start off with something small like succulents or bamboo!
Journaling
I promise it will make you feel better if you’re someone who likes to do things like this. You can make so many lists like for gratitude, places you want to travel, people who are currently crushing on etc!!! You can make it as you go and this is something you can truly personalize for you!
Painting
Watercolor is the prettiest thing I have ever seen in my life. Of course you can use other types of paint and paint on what whatever you liked like some pants you want to spice up or a canvas or even your wall!     
Poetry
It doesn’t have to an acrostic poem or one that rhymes, just whatever comes to you! you’ll be surprised at how good you could be!
Photography 
Even if it’s just with your iPhone camera on portrait mode along with VSCO, trust me you might find it interesting messing with filters and how you can make it look more sunny or more spooky to fit what you’d like!
Pick up an instrument 
I brought a UKULELE! It’s fun and cute and it makes me very happy! I also own a violin but that’s a little harder.. but it’s lovely. Learning to play a new instrument takes patience but in the end it’s worth it when you’re able to produce a sound so beautiful and lovely.
Reading 
Even if it’s a fic from ao3 or wattpad, reading something is better than nothing! I read a lot and have many books and series I need to finish. If you’d like a recommendation don’t hesitate to reach out!
Singing
You ever had a song come on shuffle and you just HAVE to sing? Doesn’t it feel good? Why not make it a regular thing? My shower is my STAGE!
Video games
I love animal crossing it’s so cute and it’s my life. I also have nintendogs & a bunch of Legend of Zelda, Pokemon, & Mario games. It’s a nice break away from reality and some of the plots are cute!
Volunteering  
Giving back is the best type of stress relief and it makes me so happy to see I can help others. Make it a hobby/habit of yours, maybe you’ll find something you’re really passionate about. I try to volunteering once a week and even if I’m exhausted it still makes me feel better doing something so small yet meaningful.
Daily Reminders: just daily activities good for your mental health and well-being
Eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner
Of course with snacks included!
Drink water, juice, lemonade, a venti strawberry acai from starbucks
anything drink that’s your favorite!
Sleep at a reasonable time
Listen as a college student.. I don’t follow this but I TRY to the best of my ability and that’s what matters!
Skin care routine!
Listen a face mask feels so good, yes it may burn here and there but your skin looks soft and cute and is thanking you for giving the time in your day to do something nice.
Some of my favorites are Shea Moisture Raw Butter Hydrating Mud Mask, ANY of the Freeman Mask, Laneige Water Sleeping Mask, Fresh Lotus Youth Preserve Rescue Mask
Thoughts to Remember: just things I think you should know and remember and at my worst days and bad breakdowns I tell myself
Remember that: things out of your control are NOT your fault. 
I know we are so quick to place blame on ourselves and get so upset when what we planned out doesn’t follow the script. But listen to me when I say this, if it is out of your control it is NOT your fault and you had NO part in that. 
The aim of life is not perfection, but happiness 
Try not to dwell on the bad for long, instead use that time to do something else that makes you happy
The little things matter
Even if you skipped all your classes or decided to cancel plans and not leave your bed, I’m happy that you woke up
Try not to be so harsh on yourself 
It’s hard I know it is. When someone goes bad in my day I spend time blaming myself and telling myself I deserve it but truth be told it was totally out of my control.
Uncertainty is an aspect of life we must accept
It’s okay not to know. This gives us an opportunity to dream & write our own stories
You are important!
Your hard work and effort does NOT go unnoticed and I am so proud of you.
Your feelings are valid
In any situation, context, etc. YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. Don’t be harsh on yourself and say you’re overreacting, or you’re being dramatic. Be genuine in how you feel because you’re feelings are valid.
Your mental health is important
Don’t let others comments tell you otherwise, if you need to remove yourself from a situation for your mental health, DO IT!
I hope this post helps you on your journey of either self-discovery, healing, adventure, etc. I hope you all remember to take care of yourselves and how much you matter. Life gets hard, and I understand that not everyone has the same background and culture growing up but I do hope regardless of that you are able to take care of your mental health and your overall well-being.
If you need anything from me, I’m always open for a chat. If that makes you nervous then you can also send me an ask!
with lots of love and stars,
stargirl
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IT’S DAISY JOHNSON’S last reading on the last day of her American tour. A dark, snowy night in Minnesota, people arrive cocooned in outerwear with frost-nipped noses, and stand around in little puddles of melted snow. They’re here to see the author of Everything Under, a Man Booker shortlisted retelling of the Oedipus myth that stays with the reader well after the final page. Widely celebrated as the youngest Booker Prize nominee, Johnson deflects questions about her early career success, instead promoting the work of other writers, and speaking about the significance of telling women’s stories in new ways.
The book has an almost mystic, magical quality. In true mythic mode, the novel’s characters crusade for their own safety by evading memories, recovering memories, avoiding monsters, becoming monsters, recording language, and making up new languages to tell the stories that resist expression. During Johnson’s reading, the room seems to echo her words on the page. During a passage describing a mysterious monster, for instance — the “Bonak is here” — a latecomer charges up the center aisle to take a seat up front. Or when she reads the line about “old words sneaking back in,” a radio blasts a few lines of an old song from the other room. A week after the reading, I corresponded with Johnson a bit more about this uncanny way her words jump off the page and the challenges of contemporary mythmaking.
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AMY E. ELKINS: Everything Under is a world-building novel. Characters emerge as carefully crafted studies in how people present themselves to the world, and you devote pages to developing what those worlds look like — barns, kitchens, and canals become vivid settings for the unfolding dramas. In that way, your work is very visual, and I wonder if parts of your creative practice live off the page. I’m curious about how writers engage with the other arts: do you craft, dance, or paint? Are there visual artists who have inspired your aesthetic approach to myth and storytelling?
DAISY JOHNSON: This is a really interesting question. I think I am a visual person, the landscapes and places I am writing about are almost always based on somewhere I have been in reality, even if that place has changed a little in the writing. My process of editing is quite physical, printing out the pages and moving them around the floor, trying to see the right order. I think about the structure of literature quite physically, whether a book is a series of intersecting circles, or a straight line, or a straight line broken up with circles or other lines.
I used to enjoy painting and drawing but, as the thing that was my hobby has become my job, I’ve done less of it. I hope one day I will return to it. I love artists such as Anselm Kiefer and Jackson Pollock whose enormous work changes so much depending on your position to it. Francesca Woodman’s photos are something I think about a lot, the way the people in them intersect or are subsumed by their landscape.
Francesca Woodman! Now that you mention it, I can see how your work on the page seems to be in almost direct conversation with her photographs, which are so haunting and so personal but also deeply tied to much larger expressions about what it means to be a woman in the world, or even to just be a body in space.
In Blind Spot, Teju Cole describes the parallel experience of walking through a city and taking a series of photographs. He writes, “As some elements slip out of view, new ones become visible.” Was there anything that surprised you about the reception of Everything Under? Unexpected things your readers saw or didn’t see?
That’s so true about Woodman. So many of the women in her images seem to be dissolving or somehow becoming swallowed by their surroundings, it is a battle to occupy space. Another artist I love is Tom de Freston, whose enormous paintings often do something similar, the landscape and background volatile, sometimes seeming to encroach or endanger the inhabitants of the paintings. His most recent paintings seem, often, to be of domestic scenes, which is something I’m interested in (and we can see in Woodman too) and how we inhabit these spaces that are supposed to be safe (the home, the family) but are often anything but.
There is so much that readers have seen in Everything Under that I didn’t see. It is one of the most surprising and most enjoyable things about having a book published. Once the book is out of your hands, it does not belong to you as the writer anymore. Every reader has a different experience of it. I even like hearing about the times readers didn’t enjoy it because they found it confusing or for another reason, it changes the way you view your own work, which I think is very important. I do not write in isolation, I write for the people who will read the work. Everyone has an opinion about the dog in the book! Someone once asked me if the dog was eaten at the end. I had never considered this, but I thought that was perfect. Of course, it should seem like the dog was, possibly, eaten!
Poor Otto! I like the moments when he provides comic relief, always digging up the garden in a moment of crisis. In the novel, the narrator Gretel realizes she needs to search for her mother on the edges of society, and you could argue the book explores subcultures, especially in the context of sexuality and space. At one point, Gretel says, “I remembered how you used to say that we were outside everything.” Much of the novel centers on people living in boats or on the banks of canals. How did you research the Oxford boat community, and what is the most interesting thing you learned about this culture?
I struggled with where to set Everything Under. It felt a very pivotal thing to get right. My partner and I spent some time driving a canal boat around the river that surrounds Oxford, and I was taken with this landscape and with the people who populated it. I think the most interesting thing I learned about it was how isolated from the normal structures we take for granted these people are. They inhabit their own system of rules and structures and would never, for example, ring the police.
That’s so interesting, and I’m impressed! Did this watery space, combined with the nonnormative social structures you observed in the canals, influence the way you approached gender fluidity in the novel? I’m thinking in particular of the two transgender characters.
Certainly the book is about people on the fringes of society, whether physically or socially or bodily. It is about characters who are often sidelined and because of that, I think, they are good watchers, great narrators and observers.
The first reason that I wanted to write about transgender characters was because of the place gender change has in myth. There is a character I was thinking of in particular called Tiresias, a prophet who was born a man but lived for seven years as a woman. I knew I wanted to magpie this part of myth away. Another aspect of gender change I was interested in was the Shakespearean sort where characters change gender out of fear or necessity.
Many people have drawn comparisons between writing about water and writing about gender fluidity. This is not something I have done purposefully, but water comes into everything I write and often some sort of fluidity is not far behind: people change gender or shape, language is movable, death is not the end.
My first encounter with your work was reading “Starver,” a short story about a woman who turns into an eel in your short story collection, Fen. I read it sitting in a kayak, fairly convinced that fiction and real life had compressed and that an eel might appear at any minute beside the boat. No eels appeared that afternoon (just an inquisitive muskrat!), but I’m curious about the role of place, ecology, and metaphor in your work. Do particular concerns about the environment make their way into your writing?
I love that you read “Starver” in a kayak. I think it should only be read that way! Fen came, I think, from a place of anger. A lot of this anger was about the position of women in the world and in literature, the type of women who are written or not written about. But some of it certainly came from fears about the things we are doing to our world. I wanted a lot of Fen to be an answering back from otherwise silenced characters, and some of these characters were the animals that inhabit the fens and the landscape itself. I think a part of Fen was almost a thought experiment, an imagining about what would happen if the landscape and the animals could answer back, an almost apocalyptic uprising.
Most of my writing is set in the countryside, and I think it is because here it is clearest that the intersection between the world and the people is an uncomfortable one, an unequal one, a battle.
It’s a striking idea, that we might think of short story collections as a series of thought experiments (or a thought experiment that unfolds through a series of stories). Like you, I don’t think short stories get the attention they deserve. What is the most interesting story you’ve read lately?
This is not the way it is for all writers of short story but certainly for me the stories in a collection are linked, and come from wanting to explore a particular idea or see a thought to its conclusion. Each story folds out from the other like a fan or like a Russian doll, but they should also be able to stand on their own. I think this is why I love short story collections, because they can be read from start to end and that will give the reader one perspective, or they can be dipped in and out of just as easily.
I’ve been dipping in and out of Samanta Schweblin’s collection Mouthful of Birds recently, which is great. I’m reading it this way because each story has such an enormous punch to it that it doesn’t feel right to read it in one sitting. They are unapologetically weird. I’ve just finished one about butterflies that made me squirm, in a good way.
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Amy E. Elkins is a scholar, writer, and artist who teaches at Macalester College. She specializes in visual art and literature, modernism, and feminist approaches to the archive.
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THE FOLLOWING CONVERSATION between Viet Thanh Nguyen, whose novel The Sympathizer (2015) won the Pulitzer Prize for Fiction in 2016, and Arundhati Roy, whose latest novel is The Ministry of Utmost Happiness (2017), took place at the New York Public Library on May 3, 2018. To listen to the conversation, click here.
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ARUNDHATI ROY: Thank you. I feel I must clarify this hooker that won the Booker business. What happened was that, at the time when I was writing about the big dams being built on the Narmada River, I criticized a Supreme Court judgment, and I was hauled up for criminal contempt of court, so I was facing a jail sentence. The judges kept throwing this essay that I’d written, called “The Greater Common Good,” from one lordship to the next, and they would refer to me as “that woman,” which is when I started calling myself the hooker that won the Booker. Eventually they suggested that I must apologize, or go to jail. And when I refused to apologize, they said, “But she’s not behaving like a reasonable man.” A “reasonable man” is a legal concept. That was sort of the genesis of this. I’m going to treat you badly, and read a part from toward the end of the book. The reason for this is that I’ve actually done quite a lot of readings, and now I want to read different parts, you know? This is … I mean, you saw the film. This part is set in Kashmir, and the chapter is called “The Untimely Death of Miss Jebeen the First.” [Reads an excerpt from The Ministry of Utmost Happiness.]
VIET THANH NGUYEN: Thank you. Well it is a thrill and an honor to be here on stage with you. I’m one of your eight million fans. That’s the last book sales figure I saw for The God of Small Things (1997). I’ve been following you since that book came out, for the last 20 years, and I’m also a fiction writer but also a nonfiction writer.
I know that. Yes. And a beautiful fiction writer.
Thank you so much. I need to write this down so I can put it on the next book jacket.
Yes.
I do fiction and nonfiction, so I’m fascinated by your movement back and forth between fiction and nonfiction, and I also hope that I could become a writer who engages in politics as much as you do. I told you off-stage we were going to start with that but I didn’t know you were going to read this passage. I actually want to start with the passage and some of the things that were raised in the film you showed. That passage that you read was so beautiful but also obviously so sad at the same time. There’s a lot of death happening, there’s the Indian occupation of Kashmir, there’s the Kashmiri revolution against that, there is S. Murugesan, the Untouchable soldier, whose fate then becomes symbolic of so many of the different things that are happening to the people of India and Kashmir, different kinds of backgrounds — and I’m just wondering, I’m recalling a quote from The New Yorker review of The Ministry of Utmost Happiness, where the reviewer compares you to Gabriel García Márquez and Salman Rushdie and says that you all use magical realism in order to depict the horror but not make it so tedious. Do you agree with that assessment of your writing?
No. I just can’t understand why people think I do magical realism. I don’t know where it comes from. I asked someone once, and they said, “You have a person who builds a guest house in a graveyard.” I said, “Do you want to see photographs?” I mean, people live in graveyards in India. Graveyards are obviously now ghettos — only Muslims bury their dead, and Christians, but Hindus don’t, and so graveyards are now … The Hindu right ridicules them, contests why they should be given this space, they should be forced to cremate their dead. I spend a lot of time, actually, in graveyards where people live. In fact, the cover of the book is a picture of a grave of an unknown person in the dargah of Nizamuddin Auliya. And for years and years, there have been two women who sleep on either side of this grave. I don’t know, perhaps the realism that we experience is magical for people who don’t experience it? But to turn that into a genre of literature is to deny our reality in some ways.
I think García Márquez said something of the same sort. He said this is the only mode we can use to depict what’s actually happening here. The fact you were focusing on graveyards in this passage reminds me of something else you said, where you were talking about how part of the novel is about graveyards that have paradises in them, because the guest house that’s built in this particular graveyard is called the Paradise Guest House, and some paradises have graveyards in them, and Kashmir Valley is one of these paradises. That summarizes or expresses one way in which I think your novel is weaving back and forth between these extremes of the paradise and the graveyard. Your calling as a novelist is to draw our attention to these graveyards, to all of the horrible historical events.
You know the other thing is perhaps there too, there’s a difference in perception. In the West, people think of graveyards as the place where the dead are interred, whereas in the graveyard in Delhi where Anjum, one of the main characters, begins to enclose the graves of her relatives, she turns it into the Jannat Guest House — Jannat in Urdu means paradise. And then in Kashmir, which is often referred to as Jannat, as paradise, because it’s so beautiful, it’s a holiday resort — and as I read it’s being covered by graveyards. There too, the dead — in fact, Musa, one of the characters, writes this letter to his daughter saying, in Kashmir, actually the dead are alive and the living are only dead people pretending. So there’s a constant sense in which the graveyard is not necessarily a place for the dead and the borders between the living and the dead are pretty porous in this book. They just move around like guests at a party in different rooms, they come and go. There’s a kind of communion that goes on between humans and animals, between the dead and the living and so on. A place that is so — in a way, your book, it’s about the horror of war and the aftermath of war, and the horror in this book is that it’s supposed to be peace. It’s supposed to be democracy. It’s supposed to be the way everything is all right, and all this is covered over. Even just the physical space there is so contested. There are places where there are people running tea shops in graveyards and cleaning the graves, serving the coffee, whatever. Every space and every person is so layered.
One of the things you said at the end of the film clip is a line from the end of the novel about becoming everything. There is a way in the novel in which you are trying to connect all these different aspects of life and politics in India, not just humans, not just people of different castes and backgrounds, or different political beliefs but also humans and the dead, humans and animals, humans and the environment, all of that. It’s part of what makes The Ministry of Utmost Happiness a really powerful novel, because there’s huge ambition in there to connect all these different things, and many writers don’t want to do that.
I think you have to make the effort to not connect them. The truth is you don’t have to connect them, they are connected. I think increasingly that’s the way people are trained, whether it’s academics or journalists, to mark off their field of expertise and then act as if that is something that functions on its own, whereas it’s not. Whether it’s caste, whether it’s gender, these are not subjects, this is in the air, this is what we breathe night and day. It’s extraordinary to me that many intellectuals, academics, writers have managed to, for example, just act as though caste doesn’t exist in India, whereas it’s the motor that runs society. But being able to silo these things and then endow chairs and have special sections about this and that, it’s a form of depoliticization, which is dishonest, really.
I hold an endowed chair. But I totally agree with you.
Sorry! I didn’t mean all endowed chairs are terrible. I’m just saying to separate these things into NGO headings or ways in which things are funded and therefore you just stop — like if you specialize in environment you are not supposed to know anything about caste or whatever it is. Whereas novels, the power of novels is that they do connect.
I totally agree, I think everything is connected, right? And I think it is partly a willful act for people not to see that, but it’s also what dominant society, dominant ideology encourages, whether in India or in the United States, where I think many people don’t want to see the connection between many different kinds of problems. And I identified with you as a writer because you are someone who has said that not seeing is not an option for you. I’m curious as to when that realization happened. Was it gradual or was there a sudden moment when you felt that you did see these connections that other people weren’t seeing?
In my case, the thing is I have a very peculiar background for an Indian. India is a society that from the outside, or from the hippie side, everybody looks at as anarchic, Bollywood, yoga, Gandhi, vegetarian, whatever. But in truth, it’s a very, very policed society. It’s a society that lives in the fine grid of caste and ethnicity and religion and all that. Like most of the people in this book, I don’t fit into that grid. My mother married outside the community then got divorced, and was not from a big city, so we grew up, my brother and I, in this little village in which The God of Small Things is set. It was made clear to me, especially to me as a girl, that no one was going to marry me, I didn’t belong there, blah, blah, blah — not asking me whether I wanted to marry them, which I didn’t, but anyway. So I grew up sort of on the edge, watching all this and trying to understand it at a time when I was very, very young. Watching my mother for example, who is like someone who escaped from the set of a Fellini film. At times she was very, very harsh to me and my brother, but because there was so much harshness directed at her for the choices she had made … And so, as a very young person, you’re struggling to understand things in adult ways, and of course you misunderstand things too. This began for me very early.
I think there was a moment where you were also talking about after you had graduated from college, I think, and then you had gone off to Goa with a boyfriend at the time, and you were poor, and that as a poor student and postgraduate, you really felt identification with people who were living in poverty. This had been something you had never left behind, never forgotten.
No. I was 16 when I stopped going home. I used to work and put myself through architecture school and then by the time I finished, in fifth year, I knew I wasn’t going to be an architect building houses for rich people. I became very interested in city planning, and at some point I gave up all of that. I used to earn a living selling cake on the beach, then I got fed up with that, came back, and I lived, even while I was in college, in a sort of squat within the walls of an old monument. To be in a city like Delhi when you’re 17, 18, on your own and you see how the most vulnerable survive and that becomes your basic premise of trying to understand anything. I used to live close to the dargah of Nizamuddin Auliya, which is where Tilottama, one of the characters, lives. Every morning I used to have tea with all the beggars and derelicts and we all used to gossip about things. I used to cycle to work and every day, and they would be like, “So, you survived today.” The traffic was so bad! One of the greatest crises in India today is the fact people don’t know how to talk to each other. I’m not talking about language. I’m saying that when you see the World Economic Forum, the prime minister or the rich businessmen, you look at them and you know they don’t even know how to go to a village. They don’t know how to enter a house. The language doesn’t exist anymore for the powerful to speak to the vulnerable. When you listen to judges in court, you know they don’t understand how — if you go to a village in the forests of central India and you steal all the chicken and you shoot holes in the vessels, it sounds like a joke in New York, right? But there, it means you can just die of thirst because you can’t go four miles and collect water and bring it back. You don’t have shops to buy another vessel, but in the Supreme Court listening to the case of the mining companies versus these people, that’s a joke. Because they have forgotten what vulnerability means.
So this capacity for empathy, for great empathy for a wide range of people and a wide range of characters certainly marks your work, whether it’s fiction or nonfiction. Something else you brought up in what you just said was your willingness to actually go out and talk to people. I’m speaking as someone who hates talking to people. I like sitting in a room writing. But you are someone who, besides doing that, also likes to go out and engage with people. It seems like one kind of writer is the writer who writes alone, and another kind of writer is a writer who writes in solidarity. I think that word has come up often in interviews I’ve read of your work, that you see yourself as being not just an isolated voice by someone whose fiction and nonfiction is not supposed to represent other people, not supposed to be the voice for the voiceless for example, but is working in concert with social and political movements. I don’t know if there’s a question here, I just want to point it out, that you’re a different kind of writer for doing that.
Well, it’s actually — I sometimes tell people I’m a social cripple. I can be here and talk to people but I find it very hard to go and have dinner with seven people or something. More than talk to people, I think what I like to do is to listen to people, because people forget how to listen. There’s something very beautiful about just listening. The Ministry of Utmost Happiness is not a book that’s written in solidarity with anybody or any movement or anything like that. It is, to me, the fundamental desire of a writer to understand the terrain in which they write. I need to know it intimately, and for that I need to listen. So when I’m in Delhi, for example, nobody ever invites me for anything because they know I won’t go. No marriage, no dinner, no this, no that. No. But these journeys into the forest, the journey spending weeks with the Maoists, the footage that you saw of those women comrades — if the camera had panned a little more, I was there with them. Sometimes you come across the most unexpected things. There was a moment when all of us went to the river to bathe, so there were these armed guerrillas, there was me, there were women farmers, all bathing in the same river, and you think what a moment that is. Or late at night when everyone’s asleep, one of the comrades is busy on his solar-powered computer, so I asked him, “What are you doing?” So he said, “I’m writing a clarification.” Then he laughed and he said, “We could publish several volumes of clarifications.” So I said, “What is the funniest clarification you’ve ever had to make?” So he said, in Hindi, he said, [speaks Hindi], which means, “No, brother, we did not hammer the cows to death.” It was because one of the election promises by the man who was standing for chief minister. He said that if he won the election he would give every indigenous person’s family a cow. So when he won the election he was distributing these aged cows to people, so there were these cow contractors who were taking these old cows, who would bloody die on the way, and they decided the best way to get out of this tedious thing was to just say the Maoists killed them. So these guys from the forest are saying, “No, we didn’t kill them.” So the thing is, how do you understand the bizarreness of this place that I live in, all these languages, all this? It’s only through delightful listening. When people talk about free speech, some of us often say, “Free speech and fearless listening.”
Delightful listening. You delightfully listened to a whole panoply of characters in your book. That panoply of characters includes not just the revolutionaries and the freedom fighters and the downtrodden and so on, but also people who are not necessarily so nice. People like Garson Hobart and Major Amrik Singh. I don’t know if you want to tell the audience about these characters, but is it delightful to listen to people like that? Because I assume you have to all the time.
Oh, it’s fascinating. I mean Garson Hobart is a character, he’s called Garson Hobart because he plays that in Norman, a college play that they’re doing which never gets performed. His actual name is Biplab Dasgupta and he��s very much part of the Nehruian sort of upper-caste secular, fallen now, Indian state. And he’s a brilliant guy. So for me, writing Garson Hobart was like coming close to schizophrenia because he’s the enemy that you don’t want to have. He’s a brilliant guy, there’s no question of it, not easy meat. It was a game, in a way. He’s funny, he’s self-deprecating, and he has the expansive ability to wait that the state always has, to allow people to let off steam. It’s wonderful the way he’ll tell us about how Kashmir is managed, for example, that he says we deliberately took the decision that every time someone is killed, when these hundreds of thousands of people come out, let them come out, pull the army back, let them let off steam, and then they’ll all go home. The other thing he talks about is how, when the insurrection began and it didn’t have any leadership, how do you know who to watch? You fund newspapers against yourself and then the voices will emerge, then the resistance will have a face, then you’ll know whom to get. So he’s a pretty brilliant guy. Amrik Singh too. Amrik Singh is a captain, a major in the Indian Army, who then eventually has to flee, and guess where he comes? To the United States. He’s also a creation of the system. He’s not just a crazed killer, he’s someone who’s given the latitude to do that work. He plays, and then when they are few up of him they farm him off.
You’ve talked about how, in order to write your characters, you have to love all of your characters, which would include these two men who are scary, each in their own different ways. Major Amrik Singh because he tortures and kills a lot of people, and Garson Hobart because he seems to represent the security apparatus, the guy who’s not going to get his hands dirty but who’s observing everything from afar. Was it hard to love these characters?
Well, love is a complicated thing. When I say love them, it doesn’t mean love them like a lover, but love them because you lavish attention as a writer on them. That is the form of love a writer gives a character. So yes, it was very important for me. It would be silly, right, if we just loved the lovely ones. What would that mean?
Well, I wrote an essay for The New York Times a few months ago, where I said I have to find empathy even for Donald Trump. It was very hard for me to do, it still remains hard for me to do.
But maybe it would be too boring to have him in a novel, right?
You can’t beat the reality show that is the Trump presidency. But these two characters, I want to keep talking about them because I think they’re very interesting.
I like that.
They meet conclusions that are —
Could I read a little paragraph of Garson Hobart so that you know who he is? I’m sure I can find it quickly. Oh yeah. So this is Garson Hobart. He’s the only character who’s in the first person. He insisted on being in the first person. His suzerainty over me as a citizen. So he’s talking about the time when he was a student in 1984, and he says that, for a few days after the assassination of Mrs. Gandhi, mobs led by her supporters and acolytes killed thousands of Sikhs in Delhi.
Homes, shops, taxi stands with Sikh drivers, whole localities where Sikhs lived were burned to the ground. Plumes of black smoke climbed into the sky from the fires all over the city. From my window seat in a bus on a bright, beautiful day, I saw a mob lynch an old Sikh gentleman. They pulled off his turban, tore out his beard and necklaced him South Africa–style with a burning tire while people stood around baying their encouragement. I hurried home and waited for the shock of what I had witnessed to hit me. Oddly, it never did. The only shock I felt was shock at my own equanimity. I was disgusted by the stupidity, the futility of it all, but somehow, I was not shocked. It could be that my familiarity with the gory history of the city I had grown up in had something to do with it. It was as though the Apparition whose presence we in India are all constantly and acutely aware of had suddenly surfaced, snarling, from the deep, and had behaved exactly as we expected it to. Once its appetite was sated it sank back into its subterranean lair and normality closed over it. Maddened killers retracted their fangs and returned to their daily chores — as clerks, tailors, plumbers, carpenters, shopkeepers — life went on as before. Normality in our part of the world is a bit like a boiled egg: its humdrum surface conceals at its heart a yolk of egregious violence. It is our constant anxiety about that violence, our memory of its past labors and our dread of its future manifestations, that lays down the rules for how a people as complex and as diverse as we are continue to coexist — continue to live together, tolerate each other and, from time to time, murder one another. As long as the center holds, as long as the yolk doesn’t run, we’ll be fine. In moments of crisis it helps to take the long view.
So this is even before he’s become a bureaucrat.
So part of the plot of the novel was that Garson Hobart’s Tilo and Musa, who becomes one of the Kashmiri freedom fighters, all went to college together. There’s a moment toward the conclusion of the novel when Musa and Garson Hobart actually meet, decades after their college years, and obviously they’re now on opposing sides of this political divide. Musa makes a prediction. He says, “What India is doing to Kashmir is going to lead to the self destruction of India.” And this thought stays with Garson Hobart. I’m wondering, is Musa deluded? Is that actually what you think will happen? The internal contradictions of India will lead to its own destruction?
In some ways, it’s already happening. India is a country, which from the day it became independent from British rule, August 1947, there has not been a single day when the Indian Army has not been deployed within its own borders against quote unquote its own people. Whether it’s Assam, Nagaland, Mizoram, or Kashmir, or Punjab, or Gujarat, Hyderabad. It’s constantly at war. Again, if you look at who those people are, it’s always indigenous people, Christians, Muslims, Sikhs, Dalits. There’s this very militarized upper-caste state at war. But now, what Musa is talking about is the fact that there are two conflicts this book has in it. One is the conflict in Kashmir and the other is the conflict in central India, which you saw, the battle against these big mining companies. The forests are full of paramilitary, and what has happened is very interesting. In Kashmir, which is on the border, the army for now close to 30 years is gradually becoming an administrative force, like the police. Corrupt, bloated, and in Bastar, the police are becoming like the army. Gunships, helicopters, grenades, bombing, burning villages, all that. So gradually every institution is becoming completely corroded, completely communalized, and this is what Musa is talking about, the fact that for the first time in the history of India, four judges of the Supreme Court came out and did a press conference saying that democracy is in danger. The four people you saw being flogged in the film, they were flogged two years ago. It led to a huge amount of unrest, and the people who flogged them have recently been released and they flogged them again.
They flogged the same men again?
Same men. One of the men committed suicide because he was so humiliated. The other three. The killers who were convicted and sentenced to death for the mass murder of Muslims in Gujarat are all being released now, in time for the next elections. So you see, history books are being rewritten. Everything is slowly imploding in ways that come from being able to absorb this kind of violence while continuing to maintain the hypocrisy of democracy. There are other places where there is more violence, but they don’t pretend.
I couldn’t help, when I was reading The Ministry of Utmost Happiness, reading the part about the self-destruction and then hearing you talk right now, thinking, it could describe the United States in some ways, in terms of the erosions of democracy, for example, and the incapacity of the majority to see the things this country is doing, both internally within its own borders and externally, which is even more invisible to so many people in this country.
So going back to that idea of seeing and not seeing, there’s a lot of willful not seeing in this country as well.
I don’t spend much time here, but I can see some parallels, but at the same time I’d be wary of making direct comparisons, because in a way what is happening in India right now is something that was set in motion at the turn of the 19th and 20th century, you know? Now, from the 1920s, there’s been this organization called the RSS, to which Modi belongs. It’s an organization inspired by Mussolini and Hitler, openly. Modi and many of his ministers belong. It is the most powerful organization in India today. It has hundreds of thousands of volunteers. It is not the political party that makes decisions — it is this organization. It has compromised all these big institutions of democracy. What I see here is elite institutions unable to deal with a lunatic in the White House. You don’t have the protocols to take him out of that place. But all these elite intuitions are angry with him, whereas in India, the elite institutions are with this program at the moment. You’re seeing a situation where 150 million Muslims are being ghettoized, their economic base has been eroded. You’re seeing a very militaristic police society, you have laws like the Armed Forces Special Powers Act or the Unlawful Activities Prevention Act, where there are thousands of people in jail. I have never been so anxious about what’s going on there. We have elections coming up in a year and you can see that the government is trying to polarize, trying to create a situation where none of us really know how to respond, because whatever you do it deepens the polarization. Whatever you say, it deepens the polarization. If a man has been hacked to death and that video has been put up on YouTube, people are collecting money for the legal defense of the murderer. The little girl who was raped in Jammu. She was raped, she was held in a temple, she was bludgeoned to death, but it wasn’t just these five men who did it. There are thousands of people, including women, who are marching in support of that. That is the thing that one can’t wrap one’s head around. The rot that is setting in. You had to have lockdown in states because people are going to protest because the men who are convicted of rape are being supported by their followers. How do you think about that?
You’ve been confronting these political issues in India since at least 1998, when The End of Imagination came out, and you were dealing with India’s nuclearization. It’s been 20 years where you’ve been actively political as a writer, as an intellectual, as an activist. I’m just wondering if it’s exhausting. I think about something that Pankaj Mishra wrote in the Guardian. He was saying, well, people in the West expect writers from these so called Third World countries — I don’t know if India can even be called that, but non-Western countries, to be political. We look at other countries and we see these terrible things happening, and the West expects writers to be political, but Mishra points out, and I think he’s right, that in places like the United States and England, writers have the luxury of not being political. That’s a whole separate issue, but do you feel that this is something that you have to confront, this demand to be explicitly political, and is it exhausting?
No, not at all.
That’s good to hear.
It’s not exhausting, it’s exhilarating. It’s important to be in the world and it’s not as if I do it as a duty. When I want to withdraw, I do, as I did the last few years when I was writing this. It’s not all about current affairs. It’s about deepening your understanding. To me, it would be exhausting to keep quiet and to sit. It would be exhausting and it would be terribly boring. I was just speaking to some young students who asked me how they deal with the trolling and hatred that many of us have to deal with. I said, “Imagine if they liked me. How horrible would that be?” You’ve got to be up for it. I’m up for it. One is not trying to be cute. It’s exhilarating because, for instance, when I write the political essays, they are immediately translated into so many Indian languages. I remember when I wrote Walking with the Comrades, I finished copyediting it at midnight in the Office of Outlook, and I came to speak in San Francisco, and while I was speaking, people had already made it into a book and were distributing it at the back, saying, “With permission of the author.” I was like, really? It belongs to everybody. People ask me how do you get feedback for your work. I said, I just stand at the traffic lights. It’s the way it should be. An author and people, and it’s like a direct shot into the veins. There’s no arbiter in the middle. You’re not sitting around waiting for good reviews or awards or whatever it is. Those don’t matter that much.
I think someone called you a writer-activist in one of your interviews. I don’t know what it was, but you said no. You object to this term writer-activist because it seems to imply that a writer should not be an activist, and you’re identifying yourself as one of these writers whose —
I said that I wondered where this word activist came from. Like, who started it? Because there was a time when that’s what writers did. They engaged with society, they argued, they fought, they were political. This word activist is a slightly strange word, don’t you think? I said it’s like calling me a sofa bed or something. It suggests writers should be in some nursery playing with their stuffed toys while the real world goes to work.
You said there was a time in the past when writers on the average were more engaged than they are now, whether it’s India or the West.
I wonder what it is about, but yeah, sure, maybe at the time when our concerns were whether or not we would be beheaded we were more serious than when the concerns are whether or not we’ll be on the best-seller list, or you live between literary festivals and best-seller lists, or something like that. Where the market has begun to play a part in genres of writing, you’re quickly wanting to say what is this book about, can you tell me in three sentences, which shelf should I put it in, and so on. I had this very funny experience at a book fair in India, where The Algebra of Infinite Justice was in the maths section. An Ordinary Person’s Guide to Empire was in the travel section. Listening to Grasshoppers in the entomology section. The God of Small Things was in the religious section.
Maybe, on that note, if you want to take a question? Can’t beat that answer. Do you want to take questions from the audience now?
Sure. Of course.
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Viet Thanh Nguyen’s novel The Sympathizer is a New York Times best seller and won the Pulitzer Prize for Fiction. His short story collection, The Refugees, is out from Grove Press.
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RIP Wii U: Nintendo’s glorious, quirky failure
Nintendo has ceased production of Wii U less than five years after its launch. What went wrong, and what will be its legacy?
In late January it was announced that Nintendo had ceased production of the Wii U console. The follow-up machine to the hugely successful Wii had sold fewer than 15m units worldwide since its launch in 2012. PlayStation 4 sold more in a year. Wii sold more than 100m in its lifetime.
What happened? How did Nintendo, one of the oldest and most respected companies in the video game industry, get it so wrong? And did anything good come out of the Wii U era? How will the machine be remembered, if at all?
Certainly, some believe the console was cursed from the start right from the first announcement at the 2011 E3 video game conference in Los Angeles. Before that, Nintendo had made vague references to Project Cafe, a new piece of hardware deep in development at the companys famed R&D labs, but the nature of the device was unclear. The E3 presentation was supposed to be the big reveal.
Then, there it was at the Nintendo press conference, in front of the whole games industry. Wii U. Reggie-Fils-Aim, head of Nintendo America, gave an obtuse introduction and showed the unique GamePad controller, with its built-in display. After this, came a showreel of gaming moments, then nothing. The crowd whooped, but when the lights went down, a few expressed confusion: was the Wii U GamePad an extension to the original Wii? Was it an entirely new console? That evening, in an interview with the Evening Standard, the late Nintendo president Satoru Iwata stated: Because we put so much emphasis on the controller, there appeared to be some misunderstanding.
The PS4 and Xbox One, high-powered machines arrived and changed the gaming landscape. Composite: Xbox One S v PS 4 Pro v PS4 Slim v Project Scorpio
A masterpiece of understatement. In some ways, that misunderstanding never went away. Even when it became clear that Wii U was a whole new console, with a unique motion-sensitive screen pad, consumers were nonplussed. There had been rumours that, with its custom AMD 7 series graphics chipset and IBM multicore central processor, the machine would be more powerful than the PlayStation 3 and Xbox 360 especially as it was arriving years after those machines debuted. But before the launch, developers were already whispering to news sources that this was not the case driving the second-screen would eat up the graphics processing power and the CPU wasnt that special. It was all academic anyway: barely a year later, PlayStation 4 and Xbox One arrived to completely change the technological landscape.
But Nintendo wasnt competing with PlayStation and Xbox, and never really had. Instead, it needed to convert the tens of millions of Wii owners whod rarely bought consoles before; whod been seduced by the Wii Remote controller and the immediate, social experience it promised. Those people were now quietly migrating to other platforms: smartphones, tablets, set-top boxes … Thats who the Wii U was aimed at.
In the months following E3, it was at least picking up interest from the development community. I had done work on the N64, Gameboy, GameCube and Wii and I still maintain they were my favourite systems to work on, so when the WiiU was announced it had me excited, says Byron Atkinson-Jones of Xiotex Studios I wanted to see how far we could go in game design terms with the two screen setup. Were we going to get new game paradigms like we did with the Wii and its controllers?
However, even before the launch, the games media was complaining about a lack of compelling first-party content. The machine would arrive with only two major Nintendo titles, the mini-game collection Nintendo Land, and New Super Mario Bros U, a decent side-scrolling platformer, but by no means a major Mario title with with little involvement from Miyamoto. There were intriguing moments: Nintendo Land has the clever asymmetrical multiplayer action of Luigis Ghost Mansion and the boisterous arena-battler Animal Crossing: Sweet Day. But there was also nothing as immediately compelling as Wii Sports or Wii Play nothing that completely crystallised the idea of the GamePad.
Veteran developer Rhodri Broadbent once worked for Q-Games in Japan, and met Shigeru Miyamoto while making Star Fox Command. He felt there should still have been a role for the Wii Remote in the new era. The fact that Wii U did not come bundled with a Wii Remote was really disappointing to me, he says. I felt that the identity of the Wii Remote was worth continuing, and that combining the jump to HD visuals with the jump to HD motion control of the Wii Remote Plus would have been a smart play. In terms of marketing, the Wii Remote was iconic from the get-go, whereas the GamePad sadly didnt really get to find its identity in either software, nor marketing. There were some truly excellent, best-in-class games released for Wii U, but very few of them gave life or character to the GamePad.
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The GamePad, as a unique selling point, was also a unique curse, an albatross around the neck of the whole project. Designers struggled over its multifaceted nature: should they support it as a standalone screen, a second-screen for the TV, or as a device to allow asymmetrical multiplayer experiences (the player with the GamePad is able to have a different experiences to others using Wii Remotes). It was a tough business proposition too. Games publishers like to be able to transition their projects freely between different machines most modern game engines are platform agnostic making this process easier. But Wii Us controller demanded a different approach, so including the console on multiplatform projects was complicated and expensive even if they were just going to use the GamePad as a mini-map, which many did.
Of the third-party games available at launch, most were quick conversions of familiar PlayStation and Xbox titles: Call of Duty, Batman, Fifa… few of these exploited the GamePad feature-set in truly innovative ways. The best was perhaps ZombiU, a fascinating survival horror title with a neat permadeath mechanic, set in a post-apocalyptic London that made inspired use of the GamePad as both an environment scanner and a cellphone. With its tense, gory action, it also brilliantly subverted expectations of a Nintendo launch title. But it wasnt enough.
The problem is, mainstream game development is all about confidence. Console manufacturers have to be certain that third-party publishers will support the device; third-party publishers have to be sure that consumers will buy it, and draw confidence from first-party titles; and consumers wont commit until they know there will be great titles from both first- and third-party studios. Its a vicious circle of reliance, and it often all depends on that launch week. Nintendo just didnt come up with the goods to inspire consumers, and because of this, the likes of Activision, Electronic Arts and Ubisoft were all backing off right from the outset.
Meanwhile, Nintendo was trying to make things easier for independent developers, noticing the huge influx of excellent indie titles on the Xbox 360 and PlayStation 3. After the success of the 3DS eShop in attracting experimental games, the company set out to improve its digital store for the home console experience. However, its legacy was not good. On the Wii, support for smaller studios was patchy: the submissions process was, according to some studios, extremely lengthy, and there were sales thresholds that made it risky to commit to offbeat projects. Even after these problems had been addressed, Wii U had no support for the important multi-platform games engine Unity until much later in the consoles lifespan, strangling its potential with the indie community.
[The Wii U dev kit] was clunky and far more difficult to setup than its predecessors, says Atkinson-Jones. I remember opening the box it came in and there was a warning saying it was very easy to brick the machine so getting it setup was a terrifying prospect. Id love to say I got further than this but the reality is that even though Nintendo had signed So Hungry to appear on WiiU, Unity would not actually be ready for another year its because of this my other game Blast Em! came about and thankfully that game has kept my studio running. Once you got past all the problems of setup and getting a working build of Unity, it was just that much harder than doing any kind of cross platform work – the big difference being the two displays of course.
Nintendos Wii and revolutionary remote. Photograph: Andrew Parsons/PA
So the Wii U had a lot to contend with: a poorly conceived debut, a unique selling point that was difficult to describe, and a hesitant development community unwilling to commit resources to a quirky machine. But it did provide moments of genuine brilliance. The defining first-party titles Super Mario 3D World, Mario Kart 8, Super Smash Bros, Splatoon and Pikmin 3 may not have been top tier Nintendo originals (theres no Miyamoto Mario, no new Zelda), but they were excellent games, filled with interesting ideas and classic moments of design genius.
Pikmin 3 is one of the greatest games I have ever played on any system, says Broadbent. Its mission mode is so tightly balanced, with so many tricks and techniques to optimise battles, find new routes and shave seconds off your time that I can and often did replay the same mission for entire days without noticing that the my weekend had disappeared. Im a big fan of the oft-overlooked, but to my mind never bettered, New Super Mario Bros U, especially the challenge modes. And keeping with Mario, Super Mario Makers musical, whimsical user interface is a masterclass in hiding complexity and infusing character into menus the way the sound effects harmonise with the background music as you place objects on the screen is endlessly charming to me.
There were beautiful third-party games too, sparsely spread out though the machines lifespan perhaps, but certainly there. Cult Japanese studio PlatinumGames, best known for its demanding brawlers, was an unexpected hero producing two masterpieces for the machine: the extravagant Bayonetta 2, and the kookie super hero puzzler, Wonderful 101. Warner Bros brought us the excellent Armored edition of Batman Arkham City, but also the ludicrously overlooked Lego City Undercover, a hilarious Grand Theft Auto pastiche, which is now rightfully being remade for current consoles.
More importantly however, there were indie developers who truly embraced the idiosyncracies of the system and its development environment. We enjoy letting the quirks of specific hardware inspire new ideas and features here, so from a design point of view, Wii U was a lot of fun, says Broadbent. Gyros, a camera, a touch screen there was a lot there to use. For Scram Kitty, I had the idea of making the titular cat appear as a sort of sports commentator on the TV while the player focused on the GamePad action, and although in the end that element didnt turn out to be an essential feature of the game, it was a great source of personality for the game, and one which kept throwing up new ideas throughout development.
Highlights included DrinkBox Studios crazed platformer Guacamelee!: Super Turbo Championship Edition, the lovely retro platformer Shantae and the Pirates Curse, and the intriguing puzzler Art of Balance. Most were multiplatform, but lots used the Wii U capabilities in interesting ways. A key example was the engrossing Affordable Space Adventures from Danish developer KnapNok Games. In this interstellar puzzle game, the GamePad was used to monitor and interact with your crafts primary systems, including engines, anti-gravity controls and scanner, providing a great Star Trek bridge experience.
There were also thoughtful conversions of iOS titles, including Dakko Dakkos translation of the spooky narrative adventure Year Walk. We took a much more all-in approach to the machines feature set, combining the gyros, touch screen, separate displays, and even subtly altering the audio between the gamepad and the TV, to create very satisfying controls and puzzles, says Broadbent. The end result feels uniquely suited to Wii U.
Its also worth remembering Nintendos unique attempts to create friendly online communities around the Wii U. The Miiverse is a family-friendly social network in which players can chat about what theyre playing, draw and share pictures, and seek gaming advice, all within a safe, charming environment populated with customised Mii characters. It was a much more warm, human approach to networked play than Xbox Live or PlayStation Network and, as Jennifer Schneidereit, co-creator of luscious historical adventure Tengami discovered, it allowed unique relationships between developers and players:
It was possible to post to Tengamis Miiverse from within the game, to show level progress or ask other players for help, she says. As a developer I was able to interact with people in Tengamis Miiverse and help with puzzles, answer their questions and listen to their feedback. Because Miiverse posts are not only textual, players can also hand draw and incorporate stamps, it was a real delight to watch players using our stamps to create artwork of their own.
Wii U had a difficult start, with a difficult idea in a difficult era. The E3 presentation blurred what the machine actually was, and the GamePad was never an easy proposition to market unlike the Wii Remote that people could see was fun, just from the adverts. Meanwhile, with Xbox and PlayStation continuing their graphics arms race, and competition coming in from smartphones and tablets, the gaming audience seemed to be stratifying into two groups: the sorts of players who bought consoles and high-end PCs, and the sorts whod quite as happily play Candy Crush Saga for free on their phones. The idea of a console as the central focus of a party or family event, which had peaked between 2005 and 2010 with both the Wii and the rise of music games like Guitar Hero, had drifted out of favour.
Nintendos Shigeru Miyamoto. Photograph: Evan Agostini/Invision/AP
Now here comes the Nintendo Switch, a regeneration of the Wii U concept where the GamePad effectively becomes the console, with its own built-in controllers. If anything, it is a more flagrant attempt to seduce casual players away from their phones, while tapping into the family living-room appeal of the original Wii. Broadbent sees Switch as a reconnection with that machine: Im very happy that the joy-cons have so many little tricks in them, and encouraged to see games like ARMS push forward higher-fidelity motion controls right out the gate. But Im mostly happy that Switchs identity as a home console thats not tied to your TV is being communicated so clearly.
Communication, it seems, is key. The Wii did its own communicating: you just watched people playing Tennis or Bowling and you knew it was fun. Nothing Nintendo has done with its hardware since then has been quite so alluring. But to write off Wii U as a creative failure would be a gross disservice. The GamePad actualised a lot of vague entertainment industry hype about the second screen, and lots of games truly illustrated the magic of the concept. And lets not forget that Wii U also saw Nintendos entry into the toys to life market with its Amiibo characters little figurines that could be placed on the screen to interact with games. They sold over 40m of those.
In years to come, people will pick up the console second-hand, with a few games Super Mario 3D World, Bayonetta 2, Mario Kart 8 and theyll realise what it was that Nintendo had in mind, theyll understand the appeal of the hardware. Much too late, of course.
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