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asobai · 7 months ago

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+ 006 / WANTED CONNECTIONS

* ♔ ◟ eris tully ( henry cavill ) is searching for their spouse ( romantic ). the character should be around the ages of 30+ and look similar to Hazal Filiz Küçükköse, janet montgomery, jenna coleman, keira knightley, ksenia michina, kylie bunbury, lily james, nathasa o'keeffe, sonoya mizuno, sibylla deen, teresa palmer, ayca aysin turan. what should be known prior is as stated ⸻ eris met his wife while travelling/fighting at the borders of the riverlands and in general. she would've been from either a great house or smaller house of either the north or the riverlands.they could've met 3-5 years ago and met up on occasions during his travelling/fighting. their love is very pure and since eris met her while he was fighting for the riverlands she saw him as a brute, a man with no restraints. however, their union wasn't accepted by his father therefor it didnt happen before eris had been ruling lord for three moons, so their marriage is very new. it's pure, it's honest and it's heartwrenching. her personality can be both fierce (prefered) and soft near him but no one else. they have a connection where betrayal isn't an option and they know each other on a completely different emotional level than most. the writer does require contact prior to application. ( @daimonas )

* ♔ ◟ maedalyn lannister ( imogen waterhouse ) is searching for their forbidden love interest ( romantic ). the character should be around the ages of 27-30 and look similar to utp (male preferred but not required). what should be known prior is as stated ⸻ maedalyn is comfortable getting whatever she wants. this is as a lannister but also as the youngest who can easily go unnoticed, or at least that's what she tells herself. however, she wasn't supposed to fall for someone who isn't of lannister caliber. so the lies began; she doesn't regret them for one second, but still the thought of her father finding out is a big fear for her. note: this is not a one-sided relationship but as it is forbidden there will be angst. more information while plotting! the writer does not require contact prior to application. ( @crimsonstorms )

* ♔ ◟ amyra allyrion ( cemre baysel ) is searching for their future betrothed ( romantic ). the character should be around the ages of 28-32 and look similar to utp (male). what should be known prior is as stated ⸻ shortly, after arriving in king's landing, an opportunistic betrothal is made. she doesn't want to like y/m. she goes along with it, despite her feelings constantly getting in the way, because it is what her father would want her to do. after the loss that her family has faced, she can't be another reason for disappointment. note: i was thinking something along the lines of a slow burn but of course it's not required and we can plot everything out! the writer does not require contact prior to application. ( @crimsonstorms )

* ♔ ◟ lyanna tully ( kristine froseth ) is searching for their heart's desire / love kept at arm's length ( romantic ). the character should be around the ages of 25 - 30 and look similar to any masc fc. what should be known prior is as stated ⸻ lyanna , as gentle as the morning breeze and as sweet as summer nectar , knows that her future is not her's to dictate . that her path will be chosen by her houses' lord but that does not stop her heart from aching for this man . they officially only met a few months ago but love quickly blossomed , though he is someone she can not have because her destiny is in the riverlord's hand, not her own . he would be just as infatuated with her as she is of him , i have more ideas for this but we can also build upon it with the characters as we plot. the writer does not require contact prior to application. ( @starsburns )

* ♔ ◟ alessa stark ( ruby cruz ) is searching for their betrothed ( to be decided / other ). the character should be around the ages of 23 - 35 and look similar to up to player. what should be known prior is as stated ⸻ alessa stark's engagement is a beacon of hope and strategy in a realm fraught with danger and intrigue. the betrothed should be a character of depth and strength, capable of standing beside alessa through the trials and triumphs that lie ahead. together, they will forge a path that honors the legacy of their houses and shapes the future of westeros. this engagement promises to be a dynamic and pivotal chapter in the ongoing saga of house stark, blending political intrigue, personal growth, and the enduring quest for peace and prosperity in the seven kingdoms. the writer does require contact prior to application. ( @cvhotics )

* ♔ ◟ sylva estermont ( medalion rahimi ) is searching for their aunt ( familial ). the character should be around the ages of 45+ and look similar to sarah shahi, nazanin boniadi, golshifteh farahani or utp ; if biological aunt please use iranian face claims , if adopted open to any poc. what should be known prior is as stated ⸻ firstly i have hc'd that sylva's mother was from dorne and if still available , preferably from house toland of ghost hill , however this is dependent on availability . this character was the youngest sister to lady teora ( be it biological or adopted ) and as such she wasn't expected to inherit the title . nevertheless , when teora forfeited her claim to marry lord alyn estermont , she became the heir – i am open to this having caused some dispute between the sisters for the sake of drama and angst . anyway , she would have become the ruling lady by the time news reached her regarding the fate of her sister and family , the sole survivor of the sickness , sylva arriving at her residence not long after . sylva is extremely grateful to her aunt and learned a great deal from her , so i imagine their relationship to be an overall positive one . all other aspects of her life are completely utp ! the writer does not require contact prior to application. ( @g0ldensaints )

#appless rp #got rp #asoiaf rp #hotd rp #period rp #connections #updating the house forms to the masterlist next !

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wintervsuns · 1 month ago

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brandon leaned back, his hand slipping from the arm of her chair as if he’d touched something he shouldn’t. and suddenly he saw it all unraveling before him; tangled with her in his chambers, the heights of passion that meant nothing, just an end goal. a fleeting ecstasy, and then what came afterward. he all but felt his own excitement ease, burn, die out. the fire crackled in the hearth, its warmth failing to thaw the cold knot tightening in his chest. ayca’s words lingered in the air, her teasing challenge like a siren’s song, but something inside him shifted. it wasn’t excitement anymore—it was guilt, creeping in like the shadow of a storm.

he exhaled slowly, the weight of the moment pressing down on him. for so many years he had been determined in not drowning any of his stresses or sorrows in the company of women; knowing all too well from men on the battlefield of the hole it never filled.

“aye,” he said, his voice low and gravelly, “ye’ve a way about ye, lady mallister. sharp as steel, and twice as deadly, i reckon. but not all fights need fightin’, aye? and not all games are worth the play.”

he glanced away, his gaze landing on the flickering firelight dancing across the stone walls. the whiskey in his veins dulled the edges of his grief, but it couldn’t erase it. no amount of drink or soft words ever could. and he knew, deep down, that what he was doing here—what he was almost doing—wasn’t the answer to the ache that sat heavy in his chest. “when things changed for me..” his voice caught, rough like gravel underfoot, and he paused, swallowing hard before continuing, “i told meself i’d not drown in it. not let it pull me under, aye? and i’ve kept to that, best i could. but this...” he gestured vaguely between them, the flicker of her smirk still pulling at the edges of his thoughts. it took every inch of self “this ain’t how i face what’s left of me life, lass.”

he leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees, his broad shoulders bowing under the weight of his own words. “yer clever, m'lady. beautiful. too beautiful, maybe. ye’ve a spark that could set a man aflame if he’s not careful.” his lips twisted into something between a smile and a grimace. “but a man burnin’ don’t leave much behind but ashes. and i’ve had me fill of ashes for this life, lass.” brandon straightened, his voice steadier now, more resolute. “ye’ll forgive me if i pull back, aye? this game—this chase—ain’t one for me." he pushed his chair back, the scrape of wood against stone cutting through the quiet tension that hung between them. his gaze softened, though his resolve did not waver.

“ye’ll find yer match, i’ve no doubt. but that man... he ain’t sittin’ here tonight.”

ayca's lips curled into a smirk as she leaned back further in her chair, her eyes never leaving his as she studied the way he moved, the raw edge in his voice. the firelight cast shadows across his features, but it was the tension between them, palpable and thick, that seemed to make the room smaller. she let his words settle before responding, her voice still laced with challenge but a softer edge creeping into it.

"prey?" she echoed, her dark eyes narrowing, flicking briefly to where his hand grasped the arm of her chair, pulling her just a little closer. "perhaps it’s not so simple, my lord."

she took a slow sip from her goblet, letting the warmth of the whiskey settle in her chest as she tilted her head slightly. the pull in the air between them was undeniable, her lips softened at the edges, the challenge still present, but tinged with something else. a slow burn.

“you’re right, of course,” she continued, her voice low now, carrying a sharpness beneath it. “when you stop hunting, you’re left only with the waiting. but not all wolves are born to chase. some of us find the thrill in knowing when to let the chase come to us.” she leaned forward then, her eyes catching his in a moment of silent understanding, a quiet dare.

her hand slid across the arm of her chair, fingers brushing against his wrist before she pulled away, just enough to make him wonder. "but you, my lord, do seem to have a knack for bringing the chase to your feet." her tone held a playful lilt now, but there was something more in her gaze, something far less playful, and far more dangerous.

yet, he had said it so simply, so bluntly, that it almost disarmed her. the northern lord’s words echoed in her ears, each one sinking deeper into her mind, and despite the flicker of doubt that threatened to rise, something within her urged her to embrace the pull of the moment, and the deepening desire in the pit of her stomach.

with a small but telling smile, she finally spoke, her voice soft yet edged with a subtle challenge. “then tell me where to go, my lord,” she murmured, her words slow and deliberate. "following you is not part of the tale, but i'm rather good with direction, and discretion, as i imagine you are."

her gaze remained fixed on him, unflinching but with an undercurrent of something more. the room felt suddenly smaller, the space between them charged with anticipation, as if the next few moments would decide more than just the course of the evening.

#c: ayca #ayca 001 #this whole thread feels like an actual fever dream tbh hgfd #cacklin

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the-loststone · 3 years ago

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List of Turkish Dizis I watched in order of Greatest to Didn't Love It

Part 1 | Part 2

Halka

This one is kind of just amazing. I binged it very quickly and was so sad it ended because I could live in this world for a while. Cihangir, Kahn, and Mujde are my favorite trio. Honestly the bromance between Cihangir and Kahn was so cute and sweet and I love them as much as I Ioved the slowburn between Mujde and Cihangir. The cinematography, the acting, the script, everything about this show was amazing. What I loved most about this show was how smart the characters were. Cihangir, Kaan, Mujde were playing chess when in comparison, it's like every other tv show character was playing checkers. These characters were so smart, and funny, and they had the best dynamic between them. I really can't get enough of them. I think the trio (+ Adem) will go down as one of my favorites forever. The diamond scene is always a favorite. I really wish we got more scenes between them. Especially with Kaan shipping them because that was adorable, how he would quietly laugh at Cihangir crushing on Mujde. Another thing is how well they showed the bonding between characters. It is an excellent example of a show showing and not telling. It's believable that they became close and I don't need to be told. I saw moments between them. I saw the bond. I wasn't told about it.

Honestly, my only regret is that the ending was kind of unsatisfying, but I guess they left it open ended so that people could fill in the blanks themselves. Also the end villain was kind of ridiculous because there had already been another villain before him, but it was like they were trying to make this new guy even worse so they had to tie all the other villains' stuff to him, which kind of ruined the other villains characters. But other than that, and it is literally just those two things, this was an amazing series.

I love Hande and Serkan. I'd seen their other work before this one and I can say that this might be my favorite of theirs.

Bay Yanlis

Ozge and Can have the best chemistry ever. Honestly, watched this one before Halka and it was still on my mind while watching it. This is just a cute romantic comedy. You'll enjoy it more if you don't take anything too seriously. Everything is just happy and sweet and I love it. I massively crush on Can Yaman in this series. He is just so cute. And I love Ozgur and Ezgi together. They were just a playful, happy, and healthy couple that were just trying to figure out their feelings. Sadly it was canceled so it had a really rushed ending but even then, I really enjoyed it. Not only were the lead couple adorable, but the side couples were cute too. Rewatched it twice. Will rewatch again. It's down as one of my favorites. It's so light and fluffy. Highly recommend that you watch whenever you need something happy and fun in your life.

Ariza

What an underrated show!! I don't know what it is about mafia shows, but I just love them. So full of action and badassery! So the story revolves around a taxi driver who enters the mafia world in pursuit of revenge. When you think about it, it sounds weird but it makes sense when you watch it. The plot was very well done, almost no plot holes. There were some inconsistencies but they weren't big or major in a way that detracted from the main villain. The main villain stayed consistent throughout and our hero stayed on path.

The romance in the show was not the biggest draw towards the show, although it did play a major aspect in the plot. I love Ayca and she's a great actress, and I love Tolga and he's a great actor and separately their acting was amazing, and together their acting was great. Basically, my only problem was that I don't think they had the best chemistry. I've seen them have better chemistry with other costars. That's not to say I didn't believe their love story. I did. And it was very well played. It's just that, having seen their other works, I know when something is missing, and it was the chemistry. It was very platonic feeling. But maybe that's just me.

Anyway. Great show. Absolutely loved it. Stayed invested throughout.

Yargi

I'm still watching season 2 of this show but I wanted to start the review now because it's in my head. I'll talk about season 1 since that's the season I completed. I love this show. I took a break from turkish dramas for a bit and came back with this show and it was a great reintroduction. I love the actors, the drama, the cinematography, the music, and the characters. The leads, Ceylin and Ilgaz, played together in Ask 101 (which I only saw s1 of and wasn't too into but I remember thinking they were cute). They have amazing chemistry together. I didn't think their relationship was rushed (or portrayed in a way that was rushed). They had believable and heartbreaking obstacles in their way (familly, death, etc) and I rooted for them throughout. The side characters didn't feel like fillers. I love Pars and Eren so much, I thought their characters had fantastic depth and served to lighten and add tension in scenes and they did it wonderfully. The plot is focused around the murder of Ceylin's family and finding out who murdered who and what happened. There is a lot of betrayal and drama and it's simply fantastic. There are a few plot holes here and there but it's easily ignored. The show does a good job of bringing back important points, or even minor points. I strongly recommend this show. I don't want to say too much to spoil it so I won't, although I will say that if you're anything like me, throughout this show you'll probably be screaming "Chinar! why are you always doing things?!"

I will also say that my favorite part of this show is that it makes sure that characters are held accountable for their actions. They have to live with the consequences. And that is not often found in dramas so the fact that there is a show about accountability is amazing!

Elimi Birakma

This one was an experience. I watched it as I was going through an insomnia-tic period, and it kept me company during the nights that I couldn't sleep. And during the day when I was too dead to work. I honestly really loved this. Especially the first season. The leads had great chemistry and I enjoyed the drama that the side characters provided. Albeit, the beginning had me wanting to punch the Cenk in the face a lot, I appreciated that we got to see his growth, especially going into season 2, and what effect Azra had on him.

Season 1 did a good job of keeping up with plot points and bringing back relevant aspects. There was a theme that everything will eventually be revealed, and lying is useless. That theme is kind of dropped in season 2. I mean there are several plot points that are just abandoned (and cast that just disappear / conveniently die so I'm going to attribute it with problems in the cast during shooting). I was particularly annoyed that they completely wrote off Melis in season 2 even though she played an important role in season 1. Even if the actress couldn't come back, they could at least mention her, I mean she is their sister and they don't even mention her later on. But I digress.

Great show, very much enjoyed it. Really loved the acting and the characters. Noticeable lack of PDA (kissing is a big no in this dizi) but easily overlooked because of the tension and chemistry between the actors.

Sen Cal Kapimi

My introduction into Turkish dizis. I'd seen this on my dash about 20 times and always thought, "hmm... the girl is super pretty, and it looks kind of good, maybe i'll watch it..." and then I never did. Then right as I'm about to go in for my second term of 1L, I decide to binge watch all 52 episodes in 4-5 days. Talk about regrets... I had not realized before starting that Turkish TV shows were 2.5 hours long EACH EPISODE!! That was a shock. But I binged and loved this show. Honestly Serkan and Eda were so cute, the chemistry between Kerem and Hande was amazing. That said, I really loved S2 (even though a lot of people didn't) but I can't really watch S1 anymore. I think looking back on it right now, I think the plot was a little scattered in S1. I get that they had like a bunch of arcs and stuff, but once this guy got amnesia I was like ... lol. That said, I've noticed this does happen to a lot of a shows. The whole, amnesia plot, the guy goes to prison plot, the girl breaks up with the guy because she's being blackmailed plot. It's a lot. I think I would have preferred that if they were going to do all of it, they make it over a longer period of time (like they show time lapses of years going by, instead of all of it supposedly happening in the span of, like, a year and a half.)

That said, I couldn't have picked a better show to get me into Turkish dramas. Really something special. The characters were amazing, the side characters included, and they advanced the lead couple. The disputes between Eda and Serkan actually had real context to them that stemmed from their character flaws/traits, and I really appreciated that.

Uç Kurus

This one is still on going while I'm writing this review, but I just finished episode 24 (instead of studying for finals, fml) and I think this show is amazing. It's a mafia/gang show that just has all the notes of bromance, betrayal, romance, fighting, action, and I love it. The enemies to lovers trope is on high here, with the star crossed lovers.

The show starts with a smaller case (if you consider tracking down a serial killer small) to a larger case (a mafia boss that is the source of childhood trauma that irreparably damaged a family). There is so much about family in this show; it goes into what can be forgiven and what can't be. The complexities of addiction are touched on, as well as prejudice and discrimination.

Saying all this and how much I love this show, I actually do think it doesn't have to go on much longer. I don't know how long they are planning to air the show/how many episodes they intend, but I don't think it needs to be over 28 episodes in all honesty. But we'll see.

Great show, I highly recommend.

Kalp Atisi

I initially was hesitant to watch this because it's a remake of a Kdrama that I loved (Doctors) and I didn't want to do the whole thing where you watch the same show twenty times in twenty different languages. But I was wrong. While this might start out as a Doctors remake (and they basically do everything the same in the first couple episodes) it is incredibly different. This show had it's own character, and it was extremely well done. I was wondering how they were going to extend the plot because Doctors is only 1/8 the length of the show, but they decided to incorporate every doctor show into one show. They used so much of Grey's Anatomy and they had some Chicago Med and I'm sure other shows were incorporated as well. But they just used the major points. So I got to watch some great episodes without having to suffer the boring ones. I think I saw every shooting scene from every show in this one show. I'm not saying that in a bad way either, it was extremely entertaining.

The main characters had good chemistry. I loved both of them so much. They kind of did a role reversal where the male character was the one that was patient and loving and supportive all the time, while the female character was more of the loose canon, and it worked so well. These characters were so well matched and suited for each other. It was honestly a great show.

Yeni Hayat

A more serious drama. Unfortunately it was also canceled after 9 episodes so it didn't get as fleshed out as the writer probably wanted it to be. You could tell that they had plans for it that they just weren't able to deliver because it was canceled. The topic is a serious one -- about domestic abuse. The lead couple, Adem and Yasemin, are both in different relationships. They have an epic slowburn romance that is so sweet to watch. I generally don't like watching shows that have characters cheating on other people, but this was actually really great. They don't really do anything together (besides one kiss in the beginning when neither had feelings for each other besides basic attraction) but they begin to feel something through their friendship. Also their partners are super toxic. Yasemin's husband is abusive (and I kind of hate that for the sake of tying up loose ends to finish the show they had to ease up on making him the villain because for me, he was definitely the main villain) and *SPOILER* Adem's wife is crazy (which was actually a nice twist because initially we thought she wasn't going to be and we sort of rooted for her and her husband, but then she got super obsessive and jealous -- i mean with good reason but her husband wasn't doing anything at that point, and we find out if anything she was the bigger problem since she cheated on him and kept massive secrets from him and that her actions were the root of all her paranoia).

Anyway, I loved this for the chemistry between the main actors. Again, Serkan was in this drama and I might mark him down as one of my favorite male actors. Whenever he smiles, I turn to mush.

Azize

This show was a lot. In very little time. First of all Hande is amazing. I love her always and forever. Her character, Azize/Melek was so well played. I really wish we got more of this so I could see more of her. Unfortunately, it was cancelled after 6 episodes. But from the first episode I was on the edge of my seat. The characters were well done. The plot was great. I only had to suspend my disbelief a couple of times to get through it but I'll attribute the inconsistencies with them rushing the ending because they were cancelled. It's really a show with great characters and star crossed love. Plus it's a mafia show and those are always fun to watch (I love recommendations if anyone has any).

Sol Yanim

This was one of those shows where I was actually genuinely interested in the plots of all the characters. They were all complex and entertaining. The show didn't revolve mainly around the lead couple, but instead was about the family dynamics, and how the lead couple tried to navigate through it while also trying to support each other. Serra and Selim were two very interesting characters who were struggling with childhood traumas. Serra was one of my favorite characters because she remained cool and professional in face of people who were being rude and hostile. She stayed honest to her truth even when it was uncomfortable for her. I love how she never invited anyone into her life that she didn't want there, and she never let anyone push her around. Selim was had a lot of justified anger but his moments with Serra were so soft, and I love how he always tried to be better for himself after being inspired by her. It was a great show about what a new influence can bring to your life.

The side characters were also great and had compelling story lines. Onur is by far the best imo. I think the only disappointing thing is that it ended at 12 episodes so they lost a lot of story lines they were developing. One of the rare cases where I think a show could go on for a bit longer, but this would have been better wrapped up with another episode at least. If only to finish the Erkan story line. Great show otherwise.

Ada Masali

This was a really good show about a city girl moving to an island. The relationship between the leads was very intense (sometimes a bit too much) and kept me hooked. The characters were more mature than characters in a lot of dramas, and they were actually smart. The issues in their relationship revolved around family and trust and those are very believable issues to separate a couple, which I appreciated.

I loved the island. It was honestly very beautiful. I wish there were more scenes about the leads around the island. However, I also wish there could have been more scenes about the city life as well. Because the message kind of became that the city life sucked in comparison which I thought was a bit dismissive. And really confusing/contradictory with the ending. I think one of my favorite things about the show was the leads relationship, but I was a bit sad that towards the end, they almost became side characters in their own story, because it became really polluted by the side characters story lines.

There were a lot of story lines that they could have expanded on but didn't which I thought were lost opportunities (the fathers' story lines, the sea story line, how the family finally accepted them). Most of those story lines were touched on but really quickly resolved, and I just wish they gave more time to those stories instead of the side characters.

Otherwise a great story. Really beautiful.

Wolf

I came for Serkan and I stayed for Serkan. But in all honesty this was actually a good show. It had great acting, cinematography, action scenes. Very moving show about the events preceding the coup in 2016. I am very sad that can't find anywhere to watch the movie with english subtitles though, so I will remain unsatisfied until I find it. I would put it lower in my ranks though, not because it wasn't great, but because I wasn't very entertained compared to other shows. I love action, but this was a bit one note for me sometimes. But I feel like it deserves to be higher, so I'll leave it here for now.

Zemheri

A nice little palate cleanser to get me to stop obsessing over Halka (side note: still not really over how good it was). It was a great story about a pair of lovers torn apart because of a psychopath. The chemistry between the leads was insane and the actors did an excellent job. It was nice and short so it only had one main story arc which was nice. Very enjoyable watch.

Her Yerde Sen

This was really cute. The characters were much more mature than others I've seen and they were fun to watch. They didn't do overly cringy things. Basically the premise is that two people are sold the same house and refuse to be the one to move out, and so they are stuck living together. Of course it also turns out the guy is the girl's boss. And all the shenanigans that ensue basically start there.

The side characters were really sweet in this. There is a side couple that I loved watching. All the couples friends were really awesome and had great story lines.

My one criticism is the ending. I might have put this show on the same level as SCK, but the ending really didn't do it for me. It's a short show already, so you would hope they would stick the landing. But at the last minute they decided to redeem a character, and did a really shoddy job of it. And there were a bunch of plot holes. But whatever. They rushed the ending, and that's basically my complaint. Otherwise, a great show.

Menajerimi Ara

Great show. Honestly. But only until episode 36. It suffered the same problem that many shows suffer, it went on for too long. And I'm not saying that in the way that they couldn't have done more episodes and more seasons, but in the sense that, after episode 36 the storyline flopped hard. Some consistency would have been nice.

I liked the actors, I liked their start and their development. I loved the cameos from other famous stars. They all played fantastically. Nevertheless, I can't help but be a disappointed by the end. But anyway. Good show. Based off the French show "Appelle mon agent" or Call my Agent, which I thought was good.

Meryem

This was good. I liked it a lot. The lead actors had good chemistry. I think my biggest complaint is just that it went on too long. I don't want to give too much away, but it's basically about this guy framing his girlfriend for negligent homicide and all the things that happen after. This guy is the biggest asshole ever and he's a creep besides, but he's also smarter than every other character which kind of pisses me off because except for like two unlucky instances, he's always winning in this show. And it gets very annoying to watch. I mean I liked the dilemma that was going on, how this girl was dealing with being gaslit by her abusive boyfriend and starting to see the light and all that. It was very interesting to watch how this horrible guy was able to get all these girls sucked into his orbit, because it's actually kind of believable. As the audience, we of course know how much of a shit he is, but it's these characters fall into his personality and it was very interesting to see how they have to fight their way out of it. But then it starts to get very annoying with how the other characters do these annoying things like, don't tell the police, or just agree that they'll kill someone for money, and I'm just here like... what. Why would you agree to that. That wasn't in the resume, you don't have to agree just for money.

Another thing that's annoying that is a reoccurring trope in dramas (in general, not just Turkish dizis) is that some characters just don't get held accountable for stuff that they do. Either it's not brought up or it's just forgiven.

The romance here is pretty nice too. It's a slowburn (and then a pretty fast burn once they get together) between the girl who was framed of negligent homicide and the guy who's girlfriend was killed. So obviously they are a little star crossed but interestingly that isn't touched upon a whole lot. I would have thought it would be more compelling if they just dropped the arc of trying to catch the real killer for the thousandth time and instead made it about how their relationship is trying to survive the trauma of her abusive relationship and the shadow of his deceased girlfriend. Unfortunately, it was a missed opportunity.

Honestly though, it was a good show. I got tired of it though by the twentieth jail break from the villain. So if it was shorter, I think it would be doing itself a lot of favors.

Erkenci Kus

Demet/Sanem and Can are cute in this, but honestly wasn't really my type. I got super bored in a lot of places and I didn't end up finishing it. Can, as much as I love him, was doing all these weird hand/arm gestures and he held his phone in a really weird way (which was definitely a directorial choice and I just don't understand why). There was a lot of cringe. The Demet's character, Sanem, was cute in some places but it could turn into an overload of cringe really quickly. I have enough cringe in my life doing my own cringy things, I don't need to watch someone else's. The beginning was good, but it became super drawn out and I just got really bored. Also the fights and arguments between the lead actors just weren't very compelling to me. Weirdly, while it can be compared to SCK, this one just wasn't very entertaining to me. I guess I didn't really get why their characters made the choices they made in some places. Basically, it could have been a much better show if they just cut it down.

Dolunay

Honestly, this might be better than EK, but I put it after because of cinematography and styles (fashion taste in EK is so much better). While it might not be fair, since EK came out later and had the benefit of better technology, I don't really care. That said, Dolunay actually had a better plot, I believed the characters conflicts and I just enjoyed it. It was a more serious drama. I watched it right after watching Bay Yanlis because I wanted more Can and Ozge. That said, very different vibes from the two shows. Also we can definitely see improvement in both their acting in BY.

Can's character, Ferit, was honestly my favorite. He was just so cool and patient that I admired him so much, especially for having to put up with as much shit as he did. I mean people were constantly fucking with him and his relationships. He wasn't a saint, but I mean his patience was on a whole other level and I very much admired that.

I wasn't that into the romance in this one. I basically rooted for the pair to get together out of spite for the other characters who were trying to get between them. But again, there were moments where I really liked the relationship. And I liked how well Ferit handled the problems in their relationship.

PS: there was a character, Alya, who I rooted for. She was a boss, honestly. Sadly, she left the show about midway through so I was very disappointed.

Bir Peri Masali

It was a show that I watched and did not hate. Skipped through most of it. It had some great scenes and the overall plot wasn't bad. The main characters were flawed and that's what made them interesting to watch. Chemistry between the actors wasn't the best. Alina's acting was the best part of the show, otherwise I wouldn't care too much about it. It was good enough to pass the time. Good cinematography.

Carpisma

Watching this was exhausting. I was really only into it because of Melisa and Alperen and I stuck with it as long as I have for them. But I couldn't anymore. Every character in this show is so dumb. I honestly hated watching it at that moment. I had to quit otherwise I would take a break from turkish dizi's entirely (which honestly might not be a bad thing since I've binged so much recently but I'm depressed and exhausted so whatever).

My reasons for not liking this was just that there was so much yelling and skipping over trauma and overreacting but under-reacting and I'm just... ugh.

It did great action scenes though. I will give it that. Much better choreography than other shows. And it did have a good plot. But also, an unbelievable one. SPOILER For example, what woman would spend time with the man that kidnapped her child, killed her husband and has been threatening the man she loves just because she wants to help find the man she loves mother who abandoned the guy when he was a baby. Like, you brought your child to see that man again. I can't. No. and the other guy is upset but gets over it in a minute. I'm just... no. I would never ever forgive that. (I didn't explain this well but please understand that its ridiculous).

I just got too exhausted with it. If you're into something heavy and complex then this would be a good show for you. But I'm not right now. I might come back to it later. But as it is, I abandoned it at episode 13, so... I really only stayed as long as I did for Melisa and Alp. And even their story couldn't keep me entertained (at least up to where I was).

Cherry Season

What can I say about this... I watched this one after Dolunay, again hoping for something good with Ozge and Serkan in it... unfortunately, I was left unsatisfied. I had seen it after watching Yeni Hayat, and after something as good as that, I could not get into something as stupid as Cherry Season. There were a lot of problems here. I am not laying any of them on the actor's feet, although admittedly, they definitely had improved later on which I am thankful for. I just was not a fan I guess. Which is annoying because it had a pretty good premise and plot initially, and it could have been really good. Unfortunately, it felt super stiff, and I mean everyone felt stiff. But like with other shows that run too long, it just got lost. They did dumb things to keep the lead couple separate for dumb reasons and I was just annoyed.

Also, there was this one scene that I really liked where Serkan is running after Ozge on a train, and I love that scene. I love that scene! I just hate that it happened. Because I wasn't done being mad at one of the characters for the stupid thing they did and I was frustrated. It was frustrating.

The side characters became annoying very quickly, and though I did enjoy watching them plot and do nefarious shit, it was still a bit much sometimes. And they got redemption arcs that I couldn't understand. I noticed this theme in Turkish dramas where they don't really hold people accountable for the shit they do and that frustrates me.

Basically, it was rushed while still at the same time, not going anywhere.

Glass Ceilings / Cam Tavanlar

Good actors with no chemistry and stiff acting. Where the plot is good, the dialogue is lacking. Where the cinematography is beautiful, the acting is stale. Where the actors are expressive (with their face and eyes), the movements are stiff. It was a good story and with better execution I would put it higher on my list. Great story about a woman being discriminated against in the work place. Properly shows the frustration and helplessness that is felt when women get looked over for their work but when the same work is done by a man, the tone changes. Good story, I'm sorry I couldn't put it higher on my list.

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lustfvls · 5 years ago

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❛ ayca aysin turan, cis female, she/her ❜ was that roxelana “roxie” demir i just saw walking through the club? the 26 year old has a reputation for being lionhearted + fastidious, which i guess is why they’ve been an escort here since november 12, 2019. their paperwork lists that they are heteroflexible and into orgasm control/denial + impact play.

@iridescence-intros

roxelana is a first generation american who was raised in islandia, new york. although she was the youngest child of four, and separated from her siblings by at least six years, she never felt isolated. the family was close. roxie’s father was a driven man who ran a tech company; his millions ensured that his wife and children had everything they needed and desired. but with that, came his stark protection of his children. roxie lived her life in a veritable ivory tower.   

she, like her siblings, was homeschooled and insulated from the outside world. when she had playtime with others, it was only because her father allowed it, and kept a firm watch on all involved. this led to roxie’s intense curiosity about the world, and eventually… an inherent curiosity about sex.

  at sixteen, she kissed one of her playmates for the first time, and it escalated from there. they fell “in love,” or about as deep of a love as one could get given their tender age, and swore to run away together. It was innocent, pure, and well-intentioned.   

when roxie turned eighteen and left for college (she and her sweetheart were accepted to nyu), she finally found the freedom to do whatever she wished. her first night out of the house, roxie and her sweetheart spent all night in a hotel, in one another’s arms, limbs tangled, bed sheets wrecked. when school actually started, they made time for one another, meeting up in corners of new york city, around the urban campus, sneaking kisses where they could.   

everything seemed utterly idyllic. until one day, when roxie and her beau were in his dorm room, and his parents came for a surprise visit. roxie, knowing how overprotective her father was, was terrified. and rightfully so. the young man’s parents were furious and told roxie that she would have nothing to do with their son… that her father’s real enterprise was criminal, running drugs, selling illegal weapons, and managing girls.   

roxie didn’t believe them… but when she and her sweetheart were alone… he confirmed what she innately knew was already true. she felt betrayed. so roxie decided to get a job doing what her father would despise.   

at first, roxie worked in strip clubs, cutting ties with her family (while still knowing that they were aware of her career choice). she was good at what she did. eventually, she transitioned into escorting, though her siblings (the few with whom she kept in touch) informed her that her parents were gutted. she was of age, however; how much damage could they truly do?   

considering her family’s history with organized crime… roxie figured… a lot. she knew that she needed to be sequestered from the “free-for-all” of the open market. roxie put herself through college with the money she gained from her own enterprise, graduating with a bachelor of arts in philosophy (and she can talk your ear off about the topic).   

as a progression, roxie worked for small escort services, knowing she could always lean on her career if needed, but last year, she was recruited by Iridescence. one of her clients informed her that there was a club, an actual club, that catered to the needs of clients… and roxie would be a perfect fit. so she began work there, and her life has never been the same.   

when roxie first met antonio perez, she was cautious, if not reluctant. with her family’s business, she was more than aware of the other gangsters of new york, and was terrified of becoming a bargaining chip. but the sex was too good, he was too enigmatic, she couldn’t help the draw. so roxie frequently spends time with tony, and loves every moment of it

her heteroflexibility comes because she enjoys threesomes and group sex. she has never dated a woman or fucked a woman on her own, but would be open to it, if the right one came long.

OTHER CONNECTIONS: suggestions include:

clients from before she came to iridescence

people who were involved in organized crime who may recognize her or her lineage

a few close friends at the club

a few people at the club that she can’t stand the sight of (reasons pending)

lovers (she’ll sneak around like you wouldn’t believe… sex is too good)

perhaps her former “boss,” before she joined iridescence

girls she worked with before coming to iridescence

college friends

i’m also open to anything else, so please feel free to come to me so we can brain storm if you have ideas!

#iri.intro #about: roxie

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seethxng-bloomxng · 5 years ago

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introducing - cassandra wilkes

･ﾟﾟ･｡ ( ayca aysin turan, cis female, she/her ) — 𝒉𝒐𝒈𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒎𝒆 CASSANDRA WILKES, the TENTH year SLYTHERIN student ! i hear that the TWENTY year old is known to be DIRECT and SOCIABLE and also very IRRESPONSIBLE and VAIN. however, if you ask me, the fact that they are a PUREBLOOD and leaning towards the side of the NEUTRAL is a lot more telling.

key facts -

- cassandra myrrhine ophelia wilkes. twenty. pureblood (unknown). adopted daughter of baltsaros and demetria. sister of logan wilkes.

- baltsaros and demetria hailed from two prominent greek pureblood families. when they realized that they could not have children of their own, they began the process of adopting - and soon after, cassandra came into their lives.

- it wasn’t the plan for cassandra to get a sibling, but when tragedy struck their dear friends, vasilia soon joined the family. the wilkes daughters became sisters in every way - cassandra truly does not remember a time without vasilia by her side.

- has been going by cass for as long as she can remember - not cassie. just cass.

- your resident party girl - knows how to have a good time and isn’t afraid to do it.

- disappointment to her parents, but actually makes decent marks. could make better if she ‘just applied herself!’ as her father frequently shouts.

- she doesn’t fully understand why she’s slytherin, because she doesn’t tend to think of herself as ambitious, but the hat saw something buried in her that cass has yet to recognize - when she figures out what she wants, she goes for it whole heartedly, and without apology.

- cass was the first person that logan told, she’s known for what feels like forever that vasilia was never vasilia. she’s fiercely protective over logan, even if she knows her younger sibling can handle their own battles well enough.

- not entirely knowing what she wants out of her future, cass stuck with subjects that came the easiest to her after seventh year. as such, she is currently taking ancient runes, defense against the dark arts, potions, care of magical creatures, and charms. it’s an odd mix for sure, and professor slughorn frequently asks what her actual plans are, to which she shrugs and changes the subject. she’ll figure all that out when she needs to.

- not one for organized school functions, cass is not currently in any clubs. she much prefers planning her own events, and her parties are widely attended by students of all houses.

- as far as the war, cass could best be described as apathetic. she tries to stay as uninvolved as possible, and hasn’t let anyone know where her true thoughts even lie.

musings -

- probably one of the biggest extroverts you’ll meet. cass cannot stand being alone.

- definitely not a morning person. 100% a night owl. rolls into her morning classes barely awake.

- can be extremely short tempered if you piss her off.

#raise a little something more than heaven | cassandra.#musings | c.#intro | c.#fd.intro

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nasirofmanderlys · 2 months ago

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✯

the mood shifted, becoming quieter, as nasir turned his attention to the matter that had been weighing on him. his fingers gripped the wine cup tighter, the mirth fading from his voice. "you’re right, of course. he’s safe, cared for, but there’s a part of me that worries—about what he’ll think when he’s older. what will he make of all this? of me?" nasir’s gaze met tion’s, and his voice dropped even lower.

"there’s so much i could have done; even if it ruined my name. i kept thinking of my sisters, my mother...and still, i can’t help but think he deserves more than what i gave him. the idea of having more children of my own someday, and pretending as though they do not have a brother...it doesn't sit right with me." he leaned back in his chair again, eyes distant. "but you speak the truth. there's no more to do." his gaze hardened a little, as if determined to put the thought behind him.

the mention of ayca mallister made his brow raise slightly, a slight laugh coming from him at the prospect of it. she was only a person he saw briefly in passing at old way events, where she was usually accompanied by her sister and other women. still, there was much they heard of ayca mallister and her argumentative nature: or at least, the point of her arguments. "well you dodged an arrow there." nasir's voice was uncharacteristically blunt, as it commonly was when he said the first thing that came to mind. he caught himself and pulled a slight face, letting out an exhale.

nasir manderly chuckled, the sound rich and deep, as his eyes twinkled with a mischievous glint. "i watched it all, brother. every moment of it. and you were most certainly struggling," he taunted, leaning back in his chair, fingers tracing the edge of his wine cup with absent precision. "as for rescuing you, well, i thought you’d manage just fine without my help." he shook his head as the conversation turned to his previous joke, his grin widening. "and send her my way? not likely," nasir said with a wink, shaking his head in mock horror.

"you think i’d survive that? no, no, i’m better off avoiding her traps altogether. let’s leave the valyrian interrogation to you, my friend. i have far less patience for the fire and fury."

as his mind lingered on the targaryen princess and her antics, nasir’s gaze wandered to the bustling hall beyond. "you're a picky man, that's why you're not wed." he could feel the weight of the questions swirling in the air, his mind beginning to drift to more pressing matters. "you know what i really have to ask you about?" he leaned forward a little, his voice lowering. "matilda tyrell. third in line for the reach throne, and with a dowry to make even the most steadfast lord second-guess their commitments." he raised an eyebrow, a playful edge to his tone.

"she’s already engaged to wylliam swann, but come now, we both know that can be dropped."

there was mischief in nasir's tone, the sort of familiar teasing that can only have been born of two who new each other as well as they did. tion took the jests in good nature, shaking his head a little as he laughed. "yes, she had me cornered, and you, as i understand, just watched it all unfold, without coming to my rescue? so much for northern honour." he tutted, even as his smirk deepened on his face. "next time, i'll send her your way. see how you fare against the valyrian inquisition."

nasir's next words prompted a little more thought. in that moment, tion's mind had slipped to another friend, another targaryen, one lost to him long ago. the prince daeron was a man tion had greatly admired, one he would have gladly called his king. what would daeron have thought of his niece, of viserra? the thought made his mouth twitch, caught between his smirk and a sigh. he'd heard the adage enough times, that targaryens were either mad or great, and could not help but wander if daeron had been the very last of the great dragons. if he were here, would he have tempered the insanity of his nephew and niece, or watched while they played their games? it was a question without an answer, one that it would only be a waste to dwell upon.

"and leave all this behind to play the life of a prince consort?" he swept his hand through the room, but his gesture was meant for that beyond its walls. all he had worked for, poured his blood and sweat into making a success. it would take a rare woman to convince him to leave it behind. "you know that my last attempt to find a wife was a disaster. ayca mallister turned me down flat. no, you'll be wedded before i will. that is a guarantee."

his mirth faded, softening as talk turned once again to zakariya. "he won't be a boy forever," he agreed. "and when the questions come, i'll give him what truths i can, and protect him from the ones that could ruin him. and you." his gaze fixed on nasir, steady and stable. tion's words were a promise uttered, an oath that no matter what would come, the secret would be kept, even from the child himself.

was the distance for the best? tion wasn't sure if he knew the answer to that. he wasn't sure there would be any distance that would keep a boy from wanting to know his father, or a father from knowing his son, but those were not the words he thought nasir wanted to hear. "then let it be a balm for you. that you have done the best that you could. and if he thinks less of you for it, in time... that may just have to be the price you pay for the rest of it." he would tell nasir no lies, would not assure him that there was no possibility zakirya would not be angry. "no hard choice is ever without consequence."

#c: tion #tion 001 #they are such dummies #i saw his starter and thought hehehe

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collective-f-sd · 4 years ago

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This is Ayca! Here is my Object of Intrigue. Going back to our initial artifact studies and one of my material intersections, I decided to make an interactive bird wing created from found materials found in the area as well as some of my own. I used primarily cardboard, (found) branches, and thumbtacks to create my intersections, as a symbol of the bird I saw in the area of my material study. By moving the wing around, one can both have a tactile experience as well as visually see the movement of a wing’s joints. By placing my item back in the location where I had seen the bird, I found it became both a symbol, and an item open for taking (like branches I collected in the area).

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gianninaxyounan · 5 years ago

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( AYCA AYSIN TURAN + FEMALE ) — Have you seen GIANNINA YOUNAN ? This TWENTY-SEVEN year old is a BALLERINA who resides in BROOKLYN. She has been living in NYC for TWELVE YEARS, and is known to be HEADSTRONG and AMBITIOUS, but can also be SELF-DESTRUCTIVE and INDULGENT, if you cross them. People tend to associate them with STIFF TUTUS and BANG ENERGY DRINKS. ( Reese, 26, she/her, EST )

Filled Connections:

· Samantha Carlson – Roommate/Fellow Dancer · Johanna Banks – Current hook-up/potential for more

GIGI WAS BORN IN ATLANTA, GA, TO DIVORCED PARENTS. Gigi’s parents divorced when her mother was pregnant with her. Divorced parents is all she ever knew. Her father, a successful real estate agent, saw her sparingly, every other weekend, if he could find time. Her mother, a wedding dress designer with a successful shop in Atlanta, raised her as practically a single mother.

GIGI HAD A DECENT RELATIONSHIP WITH HER FATHER UNTIL SHE WAS FOURTEEN. When Gigi told her father she wanted to forgo high school and college and become a professional ballerina, he was livid. He insisted that she go to university and study a real profession. He told her dance was going to get her nowhere, and that she’d be better off, and more desirable, if she was educated with a steady job, that ballet was a temporary profession. Gigi promptly moved to NYC with her moher and has barely spoken to her father since.

GIGI IS A PROFESSIONAL BALLERINA. Gigi and her mother moved to NYC when she was fifteen to attend the Joffrey Ballet School. She went on to earn her BFA from the Joffrey Ballet School shortly after her twenty-first birthday, just before being accepted into the New York City Ballet. She earned her first principal role last winter in The Nutcracker. She currently dances as Lady Capulet in Romeo and Juliet.

GIGI IS BISEXUAL. Gigi has known from a young age that she liked both men and women. She never had a preference growing up, and doesn’t really have a preference now.

GIGI HATES RELATIONSHIPS. Gigi has been in one serious relationship her entire life. They dated for five years, and were engaged to be married. On their wedding day, October 19, 2019, her fiance left without explanation, leaving Gigi to explain to both families that there would be no wedding. Since then, she has sworn off relationships, rebounding with countless men and women, establishing a very strict 2-week rule.

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

Current Hook-Ups – Gigi sticks to a strict 2-week rule. She won’t “date” or hook up with somebody for more than 2 weeks at a time. She very well could circle back around and reconnect with them again, but only for another 2 weeks.

Current Hook-Up (with potential): Gigi is 100% against relationships since being left at the alter 3 months prior. However, she’s been hooking up with this person, and though she’s approaching the 2-week mark to cut it off, she’s finding herself wanting to spend more time with them, break her own rule. And it terrifies her. [ @madcofrainbows ]

Ex-Fiance: This is the woman who left Gigi at the altar. No note, no explanation, nothing. Just didn’t show up to the wedding venue. She hasn’t seen or heard from her in three months, and she’s about to turn Gigi’s world upside down when she returns. (pls give me angst, I thrive on it).

#codintro

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trappedwaitress · 6 years ago

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[ ayca aysin turan, twenty six, cisfemale, she/her ] ━ hey, I just saw [ zehra demir ] walking down the streets of crownsville. they’ve lived in town for [ all her life ], and you can catch them around town working as a [ waitress ]. I hear they’re known to be [ industrious & motherly ] and [ childish & naive ]. if asked, they would say their aesthetic would be [ doll shoes, wheelchair, walks in the park, small scratches on her arms, porch sitting, sunsets in crownsville ].

QUICK BACKGROUND

Zehra had big dreams in life. She wanted to go to college and get a law degree and maybe someday work in the White House. Had. Past tense.

Just before her highschool graduation, her mother had a stroke. It paralyzed half her body and needed to be taken care of. Which Zehra would be happy to do if she wasn’t given a full ride scholarship to Harvard Law.

But in the end, she couldn’t leave her mother alone to fend for herself so she turned down the scholarship.

Over the past years she’s been bitter about it -- with good reason (so she says).

Her mother isn’t the best patient and would hit Zehra with her cane if she did something her mother didn’t like.

So now she’s a waitress (anyone who has a business that could use a waitress message me!) and in her spare time she takes care of her mother.

So far, that’s it.

WANTED CONNECTIONS

Close Friends - People she have been friends with since forever. Since she was born and raised in Crownsville, she would have a few of these.

Co-workers - Aside from being a waitress, Zehra does odd jobs here and there to make ends meet. So your character could be one of her many current and former co-workers over the years.

Ex - This should be around Z’s age, 24-30, and there could be plenty of reasons why they broke up. (Zehra probably did the breaking up, but if you’d like your character to have dumped her then be my guest!)

FWB - She has so many stressors in her life that she needs a friend to take away the stress.

Thank you for reading! Give this a heart if you wanna plot with Zehra!

#crownsvilleintro #abuse tw

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lucreziasredwyne · 2 months ago

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∞

lucrezia’s lips curved into a small, fond smile as she leaned forward, her hands resting delicately on her knees. the soft scent of lavender and orange blossom wafted from the gardens around them, mingling with the sweetness of honeyed baklava. the arbor’s sun-dappled courtyard shimmered with a golden warmth, yet her heart felt heavy for her friend.

“habibti,” she began, her voice soft but steady, her hand resting upon her heart as though she were speaking nothing but the whole truth under the subjection of an oath. an absentminded movement of genuine earnestness. "do not be excusing yourself for talking. you haven't a clue how much i have needed this!" she reached forward to rub her friend's forearm, a genuine sense of relief in her words. "you can come as many times as you need. truly. you are welcome here." she reassured, dropping her hand.

“you’ve always been more than the roles you’ve worn. more than the titles or the expectations. you were always the one who saw the world not as it was but as it should be. even now, i see that spark in you, even if you can’t.” back when orange sunsets and red squirrels were what made her the happiest; back when three months of a year were the highlight of it all, when she would live for the hope of it all.

"i remember hearing you argue with the boys like it was yesterday. do you not remember the day you told tirius rowan to stop talking over us?" she asked, a slight twinkle in her hazel hues; back when it were ayca who did most of the arguing for them both. she had appreciated it then, wished to be like her then. it was only in the years that passed did lucrezia redwyne take some solace and comfort in who she was as a person.

her gaze drifted to the fountain, its rhythmic cascade soothing yet melancholic, a mirror to the conversation between them. she moved to “you’re right, the war stole so much from us,” she admitted, her voice faltering for a moment. “it took our innocence, our delusions. it left us questioning who we are, years later. i’ve felt it too, more than i care to admit. i'll admit to you tenfold, if it tells you that you are not wrong for thinking such things." she uttered, slipping the sandals from her soles and dipping her feet into the fountain.

what comes next, ayca asked. there was a strand of lucrezia's curled hair as she let out a small sigh, almost a huff. as though she were trying to think of some sort of philosophical response; it did not take long before a smile stretched across her lips. "you know...i think we just live, ayca." she responded, her tone and her voice juxtaposing the somberness of the conversation."for those who aren't, and for the will of those we will never be able to understand until we ask them in the next life, inshallah." it was in small moments like this that such short answers alluded to the influence a partner had on her, the ability to just sometimes accept things were the way they were.

"you don’t have to figure it all out right now. maybe what comes next isn’t about finding some grand purpose but rediscovering the small pieces of yourself—the ones that make you laugh, the ones that make you feel alive.” she paused, the sounds of her gold jewelry against her wrist softly ringing out alongside the sounds of a fountain. "have you been doing your painting recently? why do you not try to see if your work can be spread, network with other artists. i have connections within the reach should you wish, gael hightower works extensively on it. even the king."

the lady of seagard turned her gaze from the fountain to lucrezia, her lips curving into a soft, almost hesitant smile. the weight of the question hung in the air between them, a gentle nudge that she couldn’t ignore. she let out a breath she hadn’t realized she’d been holding, her hand instinctively brushing against the cool stone of the bench beside her, grounding herself.

“i’m not sure i know the answer myself,” she admitted, her voice carrying the quiet honesty she rarely allowed. “when I suggested coming back with you, i told myself it was to see you, the boys, to spend time in a place that’s always felt like a second home. and, of course, that’s true.” she paused, her fingers trailing the edge of the goblet she’d set aside. “but maybe… maybe it’s more than that.”

her eyes flickered back to the fountain, the water’s rhythm almost hypnotic. “the arbor has always been a sanctuary. a place where life felt simple, safe, even magical. perhaps i thought that coming here, i could feel some of that again. that i could… i don’t know, find a piece of myself I seem to have lost somewhere along the way.” her smile faltered slightly, her voice growing quieter. “the war took so much from us, lu. more than i think either of us realized at the time.”

her chestnut tresses framed her face as she turned toward her friend, her gaze steady but distant, as though looking at something only she could see. “i’ve been so many things, lu. a daughter, a wife, a lady of my house. and now… now i’m not sure what i am anymore.” her fingers fidgeted with the edge of her cloak, a rare display of restlessness from someone usually so composed. “after the war, after losing him…” she swallowed hard, the words sticking in her throat, but she pressed on. “i keep wondering who i’m supposed to be now. what comes next. and the truth is, i don’t know.”

she shook her head slightly, the movement dispelling some of the heaviness. “maybe that’s why i came back. to feel like myself again, even for just a little while. to be reminded of the parts of me that aren’t tied to loss or duty. the parts that laugh and tease and throw grapes at our friends.” she tilted her head, now studying the other's face with a small, mischievous smile creeping back onto her lips. “though, to be fair,” she began, her tone turning playful, “if i were going to dump my existential crisis on anyone, it would always be you."

ayca leaned back slightly, crossing her arms with a feigned air of seriousness. “but if i really wanted to make it up to you, maybe i should help out around here. what do you think—me, stomping grapes in the vineyards? or would you prefer i chase your boys around until they’ve exhausted their infinite energy? i’m not above bribing them with baklava to behave, you know. does little callum have teeth yet?"

her laugh bubbled up, warm and light, breaking the tension she’d inadvertently created. she reached for another piece of baklava, holding it up like a peace offering. “forgive me, lu. i promise I’ll balance all this brooding with enough antics to keep you entertained.”

#c: ayca #ayca 002 #my girlies

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