#i rewatched réquiem for a dream again because i hate myself apparently

[chiraliums]

you ever think about- “i’m somebody now, harry. everybody likes me. soon, millions of people will see me and they'll all like me. i’ll tell them about you and your father, how good he was to us. remember? it’s a reason to get up in the morning. it’s a reason to lose weight, to fit in the red dress. it’s a reason to smile. it makes tomorrow all right. what have I got harry, hm? why should i even make the bed, or wash the dishes? i do them, but why should i? i’m alone. your father's gone, you're gone. i got no one to care for. what have I got, harry? i’m lonely. i’m old. [you got friends, ma.] ah, it's not the same. they don't need me. i like the way i feel. i like thinking about the red dress and the television and you and your father. now when i get the sun, i smile.”