#i remember really stressing about posting that update thread and tagging you in it. cause i was like god what if they think i'm weird

[simplydnp]

HAPPY BORTHDAY BESTIEEEEEEE i am so lucky to have get to call you my friend you’re the most amazing person and i hope you have the most wonderful day

💞💞💞 a very special thank you to a very special bee!!

i'm so glad we get to be back here reveling in the insanity together

(never underestimate tagging a mutual in a thing cause maybe you'll become best friends going on 4? 5? years)

[veliseraptor]

2020 Fanfiction Round-Up

I do one of these every year! And have since I think 2016. Can’t break a tradition even if it’s been a clusterfuck of a time and filling this out was in some ways an exercise in remembering the ways I have failed myself as a writer this year. 

But oh well!

Total Year-Long Wordcount: I’ll post the final final number tonight after I finish the writing I want to do this afternoon (and plan to do this afternoon), but it’s currently 451,803 words written this year. Guessing I’m going to land somewhere around 453,000ish. (AO3 claims a higher number than that but that’s because it is counting the entirety of fics where I posted chapters this year.

This year I wrote and posted: I wrote a fair number more than I posted (there are five fics finished but for various reasons unposted on my hard drive) but based on Tumblr I posted 78 posts in my fic tag, which, not including chapter specific updates and three sentence meme answers (but including at least two Tumblr-only longer fics), probably comes out to about 60 or so “full length” fics that saw the light of day in 2020.

Overall Thoughts

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d predicted? 

Well, I wrote more than I did last year, which is sort of a surprise to me (all things considered) but also maybe not, because I was doing a lot less of most other things that could’ve been occupying my time, including two hours daily of commuting. 

But still less than I did in 2018. Which is fine.

What’s your own favorite story of the year? 

Lord, I don’t know. It depends on when you ask me. Lately I’ve been in a bit of a “I hate everything I’ve written ever” state of mind, so that makes it sort of hard to do any kind of...reasonable assessment. 

I know I’m proud of With Absolute Splendor but I have all these reservations about it and I can’t reread it for the most part because I always notice new things I wish I’d done differently. I feel pretty good about efforts in a common cause but something about it still makes me cringe, which I suspect has to do with my general self-consciousness. I have a hard time feeling unreservedly proud about...anything I wrote this year, really. 

I feel like the closest I get is maybe nor autumn falter which I am pretty pleased with and also which does hurt me a lot personally. Or I did end up overall pretty pleased with what came out of By Proxy.

But also the more I look at this question the more I start hating all my own work, so...guess this is kind of coming at a bad time.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

I mean, I started writing in my first non-English fandom in many years, and specifically one where I was trying to engage more with the cultural background of the setting (in a way I wasn’t with, say, Death Note, when I was writing Death Note fic). So that was a risk. And I learned that it’s very stressful and there’s so many ways to make mistakes and I am, in many ways, a coward. But also I think I’ve learned a fair amount thanks to a lot of very patient people on the internet, so...there’s that.

Otherwise...I mean, I got ambitious with a few projects this year (the Big Bang fic and With Absolute Splendor stand out), but I’m not sure how much I really tried new things. 

I feel like I had to fight myself a little on writing straight up bad sex for By Proxy - I planned on it being hot, and it really wasn’t. It was mostly just miserable. Which made for a better fic, but was a new experience for me as far as ‘I thought I was going to write porn and that isn’t what I wrote.’

From my past year of writing, what was….

My most popular story of this year: 

By far, With Absolute Splendor. In fact, it has now become my second most kudosed fic of all time, behind only fuckin Life in Reverse. So like. That’s a thing.

(It is still less than half as many as Life in Reverse, but for context Life in Reverse has been around for going on eight years.)

Most fun story to write: 

Most fics where I feel like “I’m having so much fun writing this!” also go through a “oh god I hate this it’s terrible” phase which makes this sort of hard to assess. But I did have overall a lot of fun writing Mutual Friends despite all my frustration with the canon-wrangling I had to do to make it work in my head. 

But also I feel like both Retributive Justice and Embedded were in different ways deeply iddy fics that were just fun to write. That actually goes for a lot of the Whumptober fics. That was a very self-indulgent month. Excited to do it again in February (hopefully, if I can write things in a timely manner at all).

Story with the single sexiest moment: 

I feel like the beauty of your repair might be my personal favorite smut I posted this year, but I think my personal favorite that I wrote is in the big bang fic nobody will see until January. 

I feel like most of the sexiest moments I’ve written this year are in the porn fics I’m going to start posting in January also. But just generally I feel like the beauty of your repair is the sexiest thing I wrote and posted.

Most “Holy crap, that’s wrong, even for you” story: 

I mean, I Come With Knives is definitely up there. It’s not that wrong or anything, but it got pretty intense in some ways I wasn’t expecting. Mostly in how much blood got involved, which was actually more than I’d had it involved in a sex thing before! Kind of surprises me that I haven’t previously done more with bloodplay stuff but. Well. First time for everything!

I don’t think this was a year that really had any “wow, what the fuck, Lise” things in it. Nothing on the level of last year’s winner. I’m almost disappointed in myself.

Abattoir was definitely the story that generated the weirdest conversation and creepiest search questions, though, so it does get points for that. 

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: 

I feel like the writing of everyone else is spring bound was a lot of...me thinking through my Jiang Cheng feelings and specifically my Jiang Cheng post-canon feelings. 

the martyr, the victim was pretty formative in shaping how I think about both Lan Xichen and Lan Wangji and their relationship with each other. It was the first fic I wrote that really dug into them in any way, I think, and definitely one that informed how I thought about writing Lan Xichen later.

Hardest story to write: 

I was thinking it was the one that I haven’t posted yet but I did technically finish, aka my Big Bang fic, the terrible threesome fic, the massive “I’m gonna keep everyone in the Yi City arc alive” AU that I started shortly after finishing The Untamed and finished in December. So I spent most of the year writing it.

But then I was like - no, I’m going to have to go with we live until we die even though it’s technically been ‘in progress’ for five years and really kicked into gear in 2019 and I just finished it and posted it this year, because that fic was like. The culmination of a big arc in an enormous verse dealing with a whole lot of balls in the air and trying to tie up a whole lot of threads. It was ambitious and the stakes were high and it was full of plot and action which are not two of my strengths...frankly I’m still amazed I pulled the damn thing off.

Biggest Disappointment: 

I think it is better if I refrain from going too in depth on this because it would just end up as me listing a bunch of my perceived failings. But I think off the top of my head I’m frustrated by the fact that I still haven’t really managed to write a XueXiao smut fic that quite hits the spot for me, myself. I’ve written two and for various reasons I don’t really like either of them. 

Biggest Surprise: 

The fact that my Jiang Cheng fic took off the way it did. Legitimately did not see that coming! At all! I mean, I’m delighted by it but it wasn’t what I saw happening as far as “niche I’d find in this fandom” or “thing I’d write that people would really enjoy reading.”

Particularly with By Proxy. That fic got a lot more attention than I would’ve expected. 

Most Unintentionally Telling Story: 

I feel like every fic I write with Xue Yang in it tells you something about me and most of those things are things that make me, on some level, deeply self-conscious, but I try not to think about that too much.  

I feel like the most telling story is maybe we all drift sometimes because I literally wrote it out of a depressive episode about a bad brain day but that wasn’t unintentional.

Favorite Opening Line(s):

1. So it turned out that if you touched the tendons of a dead person’s wrist and channeled a little bit of spiritual energy just right, it made the fingers twitch and curl like they were still alive. (Abattoir)

2. Here’s the thing: your Daozhang is glorious when he kills. (tear out all your tenderness)

3. Turned out that a sect leader’s head came off like anyone else’s. (Unnatural Selection)

4. The first hint that anything had gone awry was the letter from Lan Wangji (His Excellency Hanguang-jun, pardon me) that simply said have you heard from Wei Ying? (some good mistakes)

5. What Jiang Cheng wanted to do, more than anything, was to go home and take a nap. (everyone else is spring bound)

Favorite Line(s) from Anywhere:

I usually keep this to 10 but because I’ve been in such a :| place about my own writing I indulged myself this once.

1. Sometimes it felt like all he had done since descending the mountain was shatter his own dreams and accumulate regrets. (nor autumn falter)

**

2. It felt like she was holding all the components of a bomb in her hands, half assembled. If she moved the right way they would stay just that: components. But if she moved the wrong way… (til my judgment day)

**

3. He should have killed him. Should have been the one to strike that blow, in revenge for Jin Zixuan and their sister and everyone else dead for Wei Wuxian’s pride. Maybe then there would not be this gnawing, aching thing embedded in his chest; this itching, unfinished feeling. Maybe then he would not feel torn in two, sometimes like he should have reached out with his other hand and sometimes like he should have struck truer and sometimes both, in the same moment. (Interstitial)

**

4. He owed Wei Wuxian more than he could ever give back in this lifetime. Forgiving him felt like betraying his sister’s memory. Not forgiving him felt like trying to walk with a thorn in his foot. He was just - stuck, caught like a demon in a spiritual net.

Jiang Cheng thought of the way Wei Wuxian looked at Lan Wangji, with warmth and trust and love, and the aching, sick jealousy he had no right to feel returned. He felt a little like a child watching someone pick up a toy he’d abandoned and suddenly realizing that he wanted it back. (everyone else is spring bound)

**

5. You close your eyes and think about how he looked back in that town, Shuanghua slicing clean through a man’s neck, opening it to the spine, and think dizzily that he could open you like that and it’d be good, as long as it lasted. (tear out all your tenderness)

**

6. When Wangji loved, he loved with his whole being, without reserve. And now he had been placed between the rock of his convictions and the hard place of his devotion to Wei Wuxian. (the martyr, the victim)

**

7. He spent a week turning the idea over in his head. Studying it like a corpse he was going to dissect, poking at it, cutting it open and examining its insides. (dead reckoning)

**

8. When the world hurt you, that was the only thing to do, after all. Hurt it back, harder, worse. Spill rivers of blood for every drop it squeezed from you.

And when the end came, never go quietly. (the blood in your mouth)

**

9. I would stand with you through the end of the world, said Loki’s voice in his head, and Steve’s heart wasn’t in his chest anymore, was somewhere off on another planet where Loki was lying dead in a ruined city. (we live until we die)

**

10. Was it always going to be like this? Stumbling into traps, tripping over familiar skeletons, slicing himself open on the edges of old hurts. Was there really such a thing as leaving the past behind? He still felt stuck in it, unable to move, and every time he thought he might be finally dragging himself free something pulled him back. (With Absolute Splendor)

**

11. His chest was full of poison. His throat was full of grief. And he was still a little drunk.

Jiang Cheng went to his room, sat down on his bed, put his face in his hands, and cried until he couldn’t breathe. (By Proxy)

Top 5 Scenes from Anywhere You Would Choose to Have Illustrated:

I think the scene from nor autumn falter of Xiao Xingchen just crying his heart out over Xue Yang’s dead body would be up there.

The Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian hug from the end of With Absolute Splendor.

Okay, just gonna say it: Xue Yang and Jin Guangyao having sex by the table with Nie Mingjue’s headless corpse on it. So sue me.

The scene in the blood in your mouth where Song Lan has stabbed Xue Yang and Xiao Xingchen is following the line of Fuxue to the latter. I have a very clear visual of it in my head and if I could art I’d art it.

Xue Yang with the hallucinatory Xiao Xingchen from liberate spirits, liberate souls.

Fic-writing goals for 2021:

Finish Walking Far From Home.

Maybe I’ll finish some of these MCU WIPs? I’d kind of like to, on an abstract level if nothing else.

Become a more well-adjusted human being about the relationship between my productivity and my self-worth.

[evesbeve]

Hey there, you said your ask box was open for Justin Min's whole thing? I guess I just slept through the whole thing, honestly - could you just go over a gist of everything that happened? I get that it seems like a PR team didn't know how to use twitter (which, mood) and f-ed things up for him, but what were they "cleaning up" in the first place, who's Anna what did they do that warranted such a bizarre thread from the PR team, etc...? 😳

Hey! Okay so this is going to be a lot, so buckle up.

Right off the bat, I just want to say that Justin isn’t cancelled. The situation has been mostly resolved right now (more on that later).

So around a week ago, Justin Min started deleting his replies to fans. Depending on whether you’re on Twitter or not, you might know that Justin is one of the most interactive people of the cast. He knows a lot of fans by name, he has inside jokes with us, and he just interacts a lot with his fanbase. So you can imagine why him suddenly starting to delete his replies was a bit upsetting. There was nothing we could do about it though.

And suddenly, two days ago, Justin deactivated his account out of nowhere, which caused all kinds of drama to go down.

People started pointing the finger at specific accounts saying it was their fault that Justin deactivated (don’t even get me started on that logic; why a grown-ass adult deactivate because of a few teenagers is above me, it literally made no sense), even sending death threats. Others suspected that he got suspended because Twitter’s algorithm saw all these tweets get deleted and was like “welp, bot time.” Long story short, lots of misinformation was going around.

And then out of the blue, Justin’s account was reactivated, and he made a thread directed at Anna.

Now, who is Anna? Anna is a stan on twitter, whose @ I won’t be sharing for privacy, but here’s how they’re relevant in this:

Remember when I mentioned the inside jokes? Well, one of them was between a fan called Matt and Justin. Matt kept commenting on Justin’s tweets asking him to say trans rights. On the one year anniversary of Matt asking Justin to say trans rights, Justin finally said it. Then, Matt made a poll asking other stans what he should have Justin say next, and lesbian rights won.

Around a month ago, Matt replied to one of Justin’s tweets, and Justin responded with something along the lines of “haha, i know this is just an attempt to get me to say lesbian rights,” referencing the inside joke. People started commenting that the way he phrased it was a bit :/ so then he replied to his own tweet with something like “well, i’ll delete this before i get cancelled,” and that’s when things spiraled.

[id: Justin Min’s tweet #1: i see that you are trying to butter me up to say lesbian rights, nice try, matt. nice try.

Justin Min’s tweet #2: oh, here we go. this is an inside joke between myself and matt, if you’ve been a part o fthis fandom for more than a few weeks. but alas, i will have to delete this now before i’m cancelled by the end of the day. keep loving, everyone.]

Lesbians get spoken over and looked down upon not only by straight people, but also the LGBT community. So when Justin tweeted that, lesbians were like “this sounds as if you care more about your own self image rather than our community.” Then, non-lesbians got involved and started either a) calling Justin lesbophobic (which lesbians never did) or b) blindly defending Justin and saying he did nothing wrong.

(Side note: I am not a lesbian, and I’m not trying to speak over lesbians in this situation. But I did talk about this to some of my friends who are lesbians, and they told me that what Justin did wasn’t as big of a deal as Twitter made it out to be. These are their words, not mine. All I know is that it was definitely not bad-intentioned, just a huge misunderstanding.)

Anyway, Anna made a thread explaining to Justin why him defending himself came out as harmful towards the lesbian community, and then Justin apologised and that was it.

Which brings us back to yesterday (26/9/2020).

Everyone is freaking out, posting misinformation, panicking. I don’t exactly,,, know how, but the #justinminisoverparty hashtag started being used for actual hate towards Justin for deactivating, and some people (including Anna, though I think their tweet was in the context of a joke? please take this with a grain of salt though. update: it was in the context of a joke) mentioned that Justin is a lesbophobe.

A few hours later, Justin reactivated his account, tagged Anna, and said this (though it was actually his PR team, more on that later):

[id: Justin’s Tweet: @ [redacted] quickly jumping back on here from my twt break because i’m receiving messages that you’re continuing to spread misinformation, so i want to clarify.]

[id: Justin’s Tweets: 1. all of my interactions with you were deleted because of the need to set clear boundaries due to the fact that your incessant messages and replies from multiple accounts over the last several months were veering into stalking/harassment.

2. for someone who appears to pride themselves on reminding their friends/followers on a daily basis to be careful of the language they use on this app, you seem to be fine with flippantly labeling someone as homophobic/lesbophobic as if they’re cute little adjectives to give to someone, not realizing that such labels have real-life consequences.]

[id: Justin’s Tweets: 3. also noting here than in your original thread, you stated that you neither considered me nor my words to actually be lesbophobic, so a bit confused as to why your story has suddenly changed.

4. i realize you’re young, so i’m genuinely hoping you use this opportunity to learn and grow andbe a little more mindful the next time you decide to tweet.]

The next twenty minutes were pure chaos. Justin deactivated again, everyone started freaking out because that was very out of character for him. People were cancelling him because this could have easily been resolved in DMs, or tweeted without the mention of Anna (a minor) from a mainstream Twitter account.

And then, Justin Min DMed another fan on Instagram (her name is Em) about the situation.

Who is Em? For starters, I’d like to say that I personally know Em and that she’s one of my best friends. I’ve known her for more than a year now, and I can personally vouch for her. Everything that she posted is 100% true (if you want the thread where she posts proof of the DMs, please send me a different ask because I’m scared tumblr will not post this in the tag if I include it here).

The reason Justin DMed her out of all people is because he also kinda knows her? As I mentioned, Justin interacts with us on Twitter a lot, and Em is the one person he’s responded to the most, so he knows who she is. (He’s tagged her more times than other cast members, at least before all his tweets were deleted by his PR team.)

Anyway, this is what Em tweeted:

[id: Em’s tweets: please read this !!!

justin dmed me on instagram and basically the gist of it is that he hired a pr team and they tweeted the thread at anna without knowing everyone could see it. all of the tweets being deleted/ him deactivating was also them.]

Below is the image Em attached to the tweet:

[id: Justin’s DM to Em: hey. this is justin. i’m just hearing about what’s happening on twitter right now. for context, i was asked to work with a team of people to “clean up” my twitter in the past few weeks. they’ve taken the liberty of deleting a bunch of my responses and posts in order to safeguard me (whatever that means) as well as deactivating my account to comb through other things.i believe they accidentally sent anna a message and mistakenly believed the function for her to comment only would mean that she would be the only one to see it as well. needless to say, i’m no longer working with this team and want to personally apologize to her. do you know any way i can get into contact with her?]

And then, in a follow-up tweet:

[id: Em’s text at Justin: sorry for dming you again. is there any other way i can help? i just feel really bad about this whole thing and i know how quickly this stuff can spread if it’s not taken care of

Justin’s text: i mean, i guess you can share the information i’ve given you? it’ll take a bit of time for me to take back ownership on everything as i sever ties with that team, so maybe the sooner the better people know.

Em’s text: okay ! is it okay if i tweet a screenshot

Justin’s text: sure.]

Then Justin’s account got reactivated an hour ago (almost 24hs after Em’s tweets), and he tweeted this:

[id: Justin’s tweet: hi. it’s me. thank you for all your messages. this has been an incredibly tough week for me on multiple fronts. some things you might already be aware of; many other things you don’t know about.asking for a bit of privacy as i take sometime to unplug. hoping to be back soon.]

And that’s all, I think? There’s lots we don’t know about what happened yet, so please please please try not to spread misinformation. This is a stressful situation for us on Twitter, and especially for Justin, and misinformation going around is the last thing we need right now.

tl;dr: Justin Min hired a PR Team that started deleting all of his tweets and deactivated his account. Misinformation started spreading, people started cancelling Justin for no reason. The PR Team decided to respond to Anna, made the response public, deactivated again. Justin DMed Em and explained the situation, and an hour ago, he reactivated and said he’s taking a small break to sort things out.

If anyone has any other questions/clarifications, my askbox is open! Hope this shed some light on the situation <3

UPDATE 28/9/2020: Justin has DMed and apologised to Anna for the situation, and Anna has accepted the apology. Anna posted all of it on their account, but again, if you want a link, send me an ask!

[unmaskedagain]

I Forgot (Queen Of Mean Au)

     Hey Everyone, This is another Queen of Mean update.  This was in reponse to ask. I listen to Taylor swift I Forgot That You Existed. I thought it was different than what I had been previous going for so I thought I’d give it a try. If anyone wants to do a continuation of the Queen Mari Au they can. Just tag. 

  Marinette could still recall all the days and nights she spent thinking about her friends’ betrayal. Stressing and crying over just how quickly they turned on her, wronged her, and made her out to be the villain. Despite everything.

           In some of their cases, despite years of friendship. Kids who had grown up with her, who Marinette thought she knew as well as anyone ever could, who she thought knew her as well as anyone ever could. But Marinette was wrong. She was horribly, horribly wrong. And wronged. So badly wronged.

           They had thrown away her friendship. Taunted her and bullied her, while claiming that she was the bully. The people that were supposed to be her friends damned her until Marinette was nothing more than a crying, miserable, mess. Cutting words had hurt more than a thousand akuma attacks. The entire situation had left Marinette friendless, alone, and a shadow of her former self.

           No matter how hard Marinette had tried in the beginning, she couldn’t stop thinking about them, of how much it hurt. She had drowned so much in her feelings that every time she thought about it she was still surprised she hadn’t been Akumatized. She talked about Alya and Adrien and Nino more than she had when they were actually still friends; constantly on her mind. Especially after Marinette had returned from lunch to see her precious sketch book in pieces at her desk; the other students throwing vicious smirks at her. (“Should’ve been more careful,” Alix hissed at Marinette, ignoring the tears building in the bluebell eyes.) Marinette kept wondering what she could have possibly done to deserve this.

And the harder Marinette fought to not to think about them, the worst it got. Though actively plotting their downfalls, probably hadn’t helped the situation. But it did make her feel a bit better. Even more so, when the plans when into effect.

She could still remember Alya’s face when Aurore had unleashed her new website: Miraculous Nation; a tell-all news site for everything related to Paris’ favorite heroes. Its first release? An exclusive interview with the entire new team miraculous (with a little TV magic, and miraculous magic, to edit Aurore and Icefox into the same interview.) Marinette had used her connection with Nadja to get help to rent an empty studio big enough to do the interview in a professional way. Nadja, of course, wanted producer credits. The interview answered all the big questions:

Aurore relaxed in her seat like she wasn’t doing the biggest interview of her career. “So I guess, we should start with the questions that’s been on everyone’s mind thank to a certain nasty little blog. What’s with the replacements? What happen to Rena Rouge? Chat Noir? The turtle guy? Why the change?”

           Ladybug: Rena proved she couldn’t be trusted outside the mask. The fox is the master of not just illusion but truth. She fell quickly to someone else’s illusions and willful blinded herself from the truth hurting an innocent in the process. She is no hero.

           Chat Noir: The Old Alley Chat proved too immature for the mantle. He is the balance of Ladybug, and he was unable to show that.

           Queen Bee: Who’s care about the turtle?

           Aurore’s blue eyes narrowed, “Ladybug; Rumors have persisted for years that you and the old Chat Noir, I’ll call him Alley Chat for simplicity’s sake, have been in a relationship or at least dating. Did a bad breakup have anything to do with the replacement?

           If Ladybug hadn’t been prepped and or written the questions herself, she would’ve bit the head of the journalist who dared imply anything of the sort. “I would like to state this as clear as possible,” Ladybug looked directly into the camera. “Chat Noir, correction Alley Chat, and I have never and will never be romantically involved. These lies have been instigated by the paparazzo that is the Ladyblog. If they had bothered before releasing any of the information, I would’ve corrected them.

           Queen Bee: What can you expect when its only Journalist doesn’t know how to fact check? I’ve said for years that Ladybug could do better than that Mangy chat.

The website was endorsed by Ladybug and all the heroes... Offered helpful information about how to deal with Akumas, group counseling, first aid instruction videos, etc. It had active threads for fans to post their work. Marinette as herself gave instruction videos for making your own cosplay outfits or just outfits styled after the heroes. Sometimes the heroes would post short quick video about the fan works; their favorite and which made them laugh. There was even a virtual reality video where you could see an akuma fight through Ladybug’s eyes. Marin

Suffice to say the website had gained popularity quickly.

Again, it didn’t help her stop thinking about her friends.

However, one night with Marinette, Kagami, Chloe, and Aurore doing a gigantic slumber party at Chloe and then had a blast laughing and gossiping and giving each other makeovers. It was during this night that something magical happen, Marinette forgot they existed.

She actually forgot Alya, Adrien, Lila, and the rest of the her classmates and all the problems they had caused existed.

Marinette used to think that all the heartache would kill her, but it didn’t. It was so… Nice. Peace. Amazing. Perfect.

She forgot they existed and everything was just… great. It wasn’t love. Or hate. Just indifference.

Marinette’s reputation at school had started deteriorating as soon as Lila came to class. To the point where some went out of the way to actively try to trip her and laugh when she hit the ground

It was insane because… Marinette would’ve never done that to anyone. Not even Lila. For friends, she would’ve defended them, had their back, and stuck around. If anyone had tried to do what they did to her to any of them, she would fought for them. Marinette would’ve fought all of Paris if she had to.

If Nino would’ve been made a social pariah, Marinette would’ve gladly been right there with him. She would’ve showed up to every one of his shows, right in the front. Even if nobody else came. She’d have done the same for Alix, Kim, Alya, Max, Nathanial, Mylene, Rose; EVERYONE.

Then they showed who they really who.

And Marinette had broke, and became a villain so much worse than the one they had painted her as. Granted, she wasn’t a bully.

Still revenge didn’t make her feel better. At least not for long. Because for a while, in the middle, when she was every plan was in motion and her name was starting to appear in lights, Marinette would still think about them; still nurse a wounded heart. After all, Marinette had become the Queen of Mean because she originally wanted them to hurt as badly as she did. To know what it was like to have a perfectly good heart broken.

Nothing had helped until that slumber party. And then Ice cream with Felix. Ice Skating with Luka. Hiking with Marc. Dancing with Aurore. Fencing with Kagami. Mani-pedis with Chloe. Nights out with all of them. Every instance made her forget her old friend existed. To the point where she wonders why she ever thought losing them would kill her. It was nice and perfect. For just while to not feel anything but indifference to people who’ve proven themselves unworthy of her affections.

Marinette forgot that that her old friends sent her a clear message that they didn’t want her around anymore, didn’t want to be friends anymore. Marinette was forced to learn some hard lessons and truths about being too trusting, too loving.

But with her new friends, with her love, she kind of forgot what those lessons were. She’d laugh and all past pain would be blur.

Still, it was only in those moments with her friends and family that she forgot. But Marinette knew, vowed that one day those moments would extend to days, weeks, months, and then years.

Marinette would move on to bigger and better things, and their names and faces would blur from her memory. Until she would have to force herself to think back and try so very hard to remember because her kids probably wanted to know what she was like when she was little like them. And she’d bring out old family pictures and school photos; and they ask about the strangers in them. And Marinette would struggle to remember their names and maybe even fleetingly wonder what’ve been up to. Who’d they became? And maybe even feel a slight sorry in her heart as she tells her kids all sorts of stories her school days. Her friends, her crushes, her loves, her dreams; everything.

Remember her grade school friends. The nights she spent laughing and giggling with a vivacious glasses wearing redhead who’d swore to always have Marinette’s back, over far-too handsome, ball of sunshine, green-eyed boy she swore she was going to marry someday. And then, she’d tell her children

She’d take one last look at those photos; the one with the entire class in them. And feel nothing but indifference. Not love. Not hate. No sense of longing. Just nothing.

And briefly realize she probably got a few of their names wrong. But Marinette will just shrug the thought away.

After all,

Queens can’t remember the names of every peasant.

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Fun new meme here ! write 3-5 things a new rp partner (or those who want to be) should know about you and tag 3-5 people! it should be related to rp and not to other interests.

tagged by: @ivory-paragon tagging:   New followers of mine and those who lurk at me and/or wanna do shit.

I did one of these awhile ago, but fuck if I know what I tagged it as. That’ll be sorted out soon. In the meantime, since Rufus tagged me in this, I’ll go ahead and fill it out again.

1. Ladies. Gentlemen. Everyone in between and outta this world. One thing that I cannot stress enough: Please do not be intimidated by me. I cannot begin to express to you all how many times I have been told this. I promise you I am 100% a Shiba Marshmallow. Yeah, I write some pretty dark and sadistic shit sometimes. But that’s the character, that’s not me. I am more than willing to write with all of you. Just gotta not be so scared of me, okay? Worst that I’ll do is make an awkward joke or spam my dogekek or something. Or my various sweat emojis. Man, gotta love discord.

2. Been actively roleplaying since I was 12. Me doing the math suggests its been 16 years since I started, but I am notoriously bad at math. What’s that one bird meme? “The risk I took was calculated, but man am I bad at math.” That’s me. That’s it. That’s my whole existence. I’ll admit that I verse hopped a lot, be that because of the people I was friends with at the time or just because I wasn’t “feeling it”, who knows. Regardless of that, however, couple things attached to that.

a) I am a novella roleplayer at heart; boy to I love me some details and shit like that. But that’s what I’ve developed into. I am, however, flexible enough to match a comfortable length of my partner’s choosing. Don’t gotta match my outrageous length. Just as long as you’re doin’ your best, that’s all that matters.

b) Or maybe there’s just that one. There used to be more, but then my head was like, “Oh, you think you can be professional for a minute? WRONG!” And I don’t remember what the second point was. :SadDogeKek:

3. Please please please please please please please please please please please please I cannot stress this enough either. It has happened a couple other times and its made me sad. I realize that I happen to reply rather quickly to things that people send me, asks, threads, whatever. Please. P l e a s e. Just because I respond quicker to someone else than I do you doesn’t mean anything against you. Ideas come and ideas go. There’s a flow to all of this and its just one of those things that if I don’t have it in that moment, I can’t do it. Your moment will come and when it does, you too can have quick rapid replies from me, too.

4. This one seems important. Straight up, right now. I Do Not Roleplay For The Sole Intent Of Romance/Shipping. In the early days, just starting out? Yeah, sure. I didn’t know any better. Did anyone else? Probably not. Teenagers, hormones. All that shit. I’m older now, I’ve made better choices in that department. I want you to write a story with me. Go on adventures, get blown up, get kidnapped/ambushed, do mundane boring shit, watch me bounce a bullet off some random metal for a couple hits before it nails the target. Build a foundation with me, put each brick down. Occasionally cause some mischief. If something happens along the way, neat. If nothing happens, awesome. 

There is more to roleplay than just dicking each other down and shit. Cuz damn. 

ALSO, NOT TO STEAL THIS FROM RUFUS OR ANYTHING, BUT I TOTALLY STOLE THIS NEXT BIT FROM RUFUS BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS A REALLY GREAT IDEA TO DO. You know, after I wrote all that other stuff and was like, “Okay, where go from here?” Cuz I’m a dumbass. And I don’t want to just take what he wrote, but I’ll paraphrase it to hell and back at least. (But then I won’t because I can just TAG IT IN MINE so there’s that)

In case no one has clicked on it, a brief “Hey, just to make sure I covered my bases” explanation is here along with the current relationship list. I updated it before posting it here. Basically, the bits I’m stealing from Rufus’s post is the single ship thing. And the established thread interactions thing. Shits just gotta make sense, man. That’s all I’m saying.

I’m not saying no. I just want other things to happen before I consider it, okay?

5. AS YOU CAN CLEARLY SEE, I AM LONG WINDED AS FUCK. Honestly didn’t mean to be, but hey. A lot needed to be said and I had to say it. I only really have four things it would seem. #5 is just going to be used as some sort of final word, send off thing. Which is fine. It still pertains to roleplay related things.

So, so far you should have learned that I’m not intimidating despite whatever this clearly looks like. Please talk to me, plot with me, write with me. Send me random memes, random asks, tag me in shit. And really, that’s the only point I’m going to really drive home. Because it makes me sad knowing I’m losing out on potential partners and things because I’m seen as scary when I’m really not.

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Ayo, it’s ya girl Stella and this is NOT a brand spanking new Lupin role play blog. This blog was established on 9/2019 well at least around that time.. All I remember is making this blog last year! lol So I will keep it that date until I am made aware of the exact date! In this tab you will find a set of Rules and Guidelines! I would really appreciate that you abide by them. If you have any questions or concerns please feel free to message me. I am a very friendly person and I assure you I don’t bite.  

 I do not own Lupin or anything from the series Code; Realize.

The actions of Lupin made on this blog are made by me and have no associations with the original creators. Also, please do not compare me to other Lupin’s out there. I am already insecure about my writing, and if someone were to compare me to another, it would only cause my insecurities to grow.

 All banners are made by me.

 The icons I use on this blog are made by me, and I would appreciate it if you would not steal them. Thanks.

 My best friend commissioned my theme, promo, banner, and dash icon. Eternalworks did them. 

 There is no password. Apparently, that’s a thing now?? I find it unnecessary and give you my trust that you read through this. Plus, I don’t feel the need to push people out of their comfort zones, and I like to let people come to me when they want to.

 Common courtesy

 This is a big one for me, and I really don’t need to explain it. This is something that everyone should have.

Threads

I can write one sentence up to a novel, it really depends on how things are going between our two characters. But I tend to write a lot more if both I and the mun established a plot amongst each other.

YOU DO NOT HAVE TO MATCH MY LENGTH! Some times I get inspiration and allow my muse to take me away. So please do NOT feel like you have to match mine. As long as you give me something to work with and progress the thread it’s fine! I swear! So please do not stress yourself out.

I have the right to drop threads and starters / unwritten starters if I am struggling to find inspiration. Please do not take it personally, if I am unable to draw out a muse I don’t want to force it out causing me to stress. If that were to happen I would just feel obligated to RP instead of doing this for fun… Same goes for you as well! If you are having trouble writing with Lupin don’t be shy to tell me! I won’t take it personally. If anything we can try to figure something out! I just want both of us to be comfortable with one another.

 Drama & Callouts

 I will Not participate in any form of drama Point. Period. Blank. I will allow people to come and vent to me, but don’t expect me to talk shit back. What I can offer is a friend who is willing to listen and give you advice and the tools to move on from the situation.

If you try to involve me in any type of drama, I will unfollow and block you. I am on here for fun.

 I will not reblog any call outposts on this blog, but I will read them, and if I see hard proof evidence on why that particular individual is being called out, I will support and block their blog(s).

 Following

 I will only follow back role play blogs that I am interested in roleplaying with. If you’re a personal blog, I am sorry, I just don’t want my dash to be cluttered with random posts. Also I don’t do follow for follow. I will go into everyone’s blogs and check them out. Though trust me, I usually end up following back every RP blog <3  

 Unfollowing & Blocking

 I will unfollow if you

Break any of my rules

 You don’t cut your posts

 Tag your posts properly.

 Cause drama

Steal 

 Don’t follow back

 I will block you if

 You cause drama

Steal

 Or if I followed someone and they don’t follow me back. And the reason being is I WILL  forget about them, and if their blog pops up again, I might accidentally follow them once more, not remembering that they had not followed back. I don’t want to seem like a creeper trying to get someone to follow back, so blocking them will help me from appearing like I’m desperate to get them to follow me.

 I am highly private

 And by that, I mean, I will only interact with my mutuals.

 Interactions

 Okay, I followed you for a reason, and that’s because WOW I am interested in you and how you portray your character(s). So please feel to send me any memes that I reblog. Or you can send me a random IC ask or reply to any open threads.  Heck, you can even tag me in random posts or starters! I highly encourage it!! I really, really want to interact with you! 

Formatting

When doing my replies I tend to make my font small, but if it’s straining to your eyes feel free to let me know! I will make note of it and make sure to leave it normal size for your comfort.

ASKS / MEMES

The anonymous feature is a privilege, so do not abuse it and ruin it for others. I know sometimes people can be shy sending asks so they use anon. But if I noticed someone is trying to harass me or send me hate I will disable it. So do not ruin it for others.

Speaking of anon hate, please do not send. 10/10 I will no respond to it. I will read it and once I start to realize it’s anon hate I will stop and delete it. Enough said. I will NOT engage with anon hate.

I do NOT care if you reblog a meme from me, as long as you sent me something. If you do not send me something please reblog from the source. If the source is no longer there go ahead and reblog it from me.

Tagging & Trigger warnings

Please take note that due to the contents of Code;Realize there will be mention of blood, gore, mutilation, and death. They will be tagged properly in this format TW | Blood, TW | Gore, TW | Mutilation, TW | Death.

I always go to my mutuals pages and make sure to go through their rules and see what triggers they have. But PLEASE realize that I am human and I may accidentally miss something! So do NOT  hesitate to jump in either my ask or insta and give me a friendly reminder.

As for my triggers please tag any mentions of infant deaths, dead babies, and miscarriages. 

ALSO, I WILL UNFOLLOW AND HARD BLOCK YOU IF I SEE YOU MAKING INSITIVE JOKES ABOUT THOSE SUBJECTS! EITHER IT BEING IN CHARACTER OR OCC. I DO NOT TAKE IT VERY LIGHTLY. I have many close people in my life who have gone through the heartache of losing their children, and pregnancies and it angers me to my core when I see people making light of the subject. I stood by their sides as they cried and cursed at the world, and I even held those precious angels in my hands. So call me sensitive or whatever the fuck you want. But I will not stand to see that shit on my dashboard.

Issues

If I have done something to rub you the wrong way, or have done something to make you uncomfortable, I can not stress this enough but PLEASE tell me. I want you to be comfortable with seeing me on your dashboard. I also most likely will NOT know what I did wrong and I would love to talk about it with you. Also that way it won’t happen again. Like I said this is supposed to be fun, and I want to make sure YOU’RE comfortable.

Shipping

This is a multiship blog, every thread is it’s own verse so if Lupin is in a relationship with someone it stays in that thread’s world and it will not leak on to other threads with different people.

He will not be shipped with underage people. If they are younger he will take on the role of a brotherly figure. 

I also will NOT ship him when I am rp'ing him in his young verse. Example his Three houses verse where I rp him as 17 years old. Even if I am portraying him as a 17 year old I will NOT ship him with any of the students. 

More to be added 

Last updated 12/04/2020

[masteredshadows]

it’s not munday but I’m FREE I’M FREE I’M FREE so a long ooc post under the cut that you have no obligation to read but is just me fulfilling a need to babble to what appears to be a willing audience + update on writing and my intentions with threads (the first bit so you can read that then disappear)

tl;dr: my rushed artwork + inevitably broken promises to write

#long post warning / !!! if you’re on mobile and read mores are still fucking up I just saw a post that said you can block tags on mobile through settings > filtering or something like that now so yeah! do it! 

first! writing wise -- I’m not making promises to write tonight or even tomorrow or even sunday but I will be able to return to writing soon! and I really want to and now that I’ll be brute forcing myself onto a sleep schedule that isn’t stay-up-for-twenty-four-to-forty-hours-then-collapse-for-twelve I won’t be exhausted anymore and hopefully my writing will be up to a reasonable standard

I also have time and a desperate desire to read which should help with quality

my tentative plan is work through my asks first then anything saved in my drafts (minus headcanons and drabbles because I have several in there) then work through my thread tracker then creep through my activity + put a call out for anything missed

-- call out for anything missed starts now! if you have something you’d like me to reply to I’d like to think I have them all either in my thread tracker or drafts but there’s no harm whatsoever in reminding me now --

and I’ll intersperse drabbles in between as well as do stuff for other blogs under the same general order-schedule

I’d also like to lowkey plug @voidivus bc I want to open him up at one point but don’t feel like writing with people I don’t know lmfao

secondly! discord

I uninstalled it some time ago because of a sudden resurgence of depression but that was largely caused by assignments and now that that stress is free I’ll reinstall it soon tm

not yet

I don’t want to yet

but I’m tentatively saying monday, maybe, unless I really desperately get the urge sooner

that’s all dependent on moods though

thirdly! art art art! art!

I’m not necessarily happy with it but I don’t hate it

it being the two assignments I submitted for my course that I have yet to upload here (the first was that purple and orange girl from a while back)

i’m slapping them in this post bc why not

the above is a piece of environment concept art 

there are things I would change still if given the time but they would mostly require reworking it from the ground art so, as it stands, I’m content with it

I learned a lot from working on it and think I might try to do another environment piece over break in order to try to apply what I learned

I still need to push my value ranges further and my colours as well, alongside making heavier use of photobashing, but, yeah

then a comic which ... I’m definitely gonna find the time to eventually bring up to a standard I’m content with

stylisation is not my strong suit and I really need to study anatomy + I did the lighting for this entire thing in probably twenty, thirty minutes total at the very most

but hey! comic that’ll be super difficult to read when it’s forced into such a small format of a post

transcript:

Hi! Welcome to Maria’s general supply, How can I help you? (which i’m now realising I fuCKED up lmao too late to change it that’s what I get for pulling three all nighters in a week)

Uh-- Thanks. You sell, well, everything, right? I need... Food. Something filling, but small.

Bread. Bread would be good.

Coming right up!

--Also some cold medicine.

No problem.

That’ll cost--

 Y’know, I have a funny story about that whole ‘paying’ thing.

I’m not going to.

(WOW so EDGY 

again. im saving the PSDs and fixing this up at one point when I have the time)

HELP!

GET HIM!

I don’t see him...

He couldn’t have just disappeared.

I’m pretty sure he actually disappeared.

That is very impossible.

I mean, do you see any shady thieves?

(panels can’t be seen -- he climbs out of the garbage bin)

What am I supposed to tell the precinct? 

You’ll figure something out.

It’s me.

Big bro! (totally not stolen from p4 hahaha what)

Hey, little guy! (wow woW BAD) I got you some meds, and hopefully enough food to tide you over until I can get some more.

You can sleep. I’ve got your back. 

I’ll always be there for you.

Always.

there’s a lot I’d change about the comic

for one, it’d be a lot better in full colour than black and white or at the very least shading that takes into account the uh... I can’t remember the proper term but the base values of the materials, skin, etc, rather than just lighting

that said I only started polishing this at around 11 pm yesterday, so for about twelve hours of very on and off work, I think it’s alright (I had the general layout of the panels decided before, but the vast majority of the polishing happened last night)

the biggest lesson not learned is time management, but that’s an issue that plagued me all throughout IB but that I’m working to try to fix

nonetheless, this needs better values, more accurate anatomy, more consistency, and probably colours

and more natural dialogue and a better font.

you can also visually see how early I started working on each page last night/this morning and which pages were most polished before I started lmao

but it’s my first comic, and I’m not necessarily upset by it, I’d just like to take the time to bring it up to a polished state which I can be proud of.

regardless! that’s all where I’ve been

you’ll get your regularly scheduled edgelord soon, though probably with a few personality and portrayal and maybe a soft reset first

I’ll debate on that still

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Big Old Temporary Ask Redirect Compendium

I’ll delete this in a bit (the usual 2 months), but I’m getting some already answered or mostly answered asks I’d like to direct around. You guys and your anon, gosh. As a reminder if you use Google you can search any topic + RPedia, and get a post by me if I’ve made one. Seriously, I’m the first hit for anything if you stick my name on it. I literally just googled the posts for these questions actually because fuck you my archive/masterpost is a mess but I don’t have time for new content let alone working on tagging and listing 224 posts.

Anonymous asked: Well hello!! Im new to rp so this may sound really stupid (witch i apologize for that >///<) to you but i was wondering I made a side blog for rping is this good? Or would it be better to make another blog on it own for rp?

Don’t worry! I got a post for that.

Anonymous asked:  I don't know if other people feel this way, but for me tumblr rp just isn't fun anymore? I used to really love getting involved in groups and making friends and I don't know if I'm getting old or what (I'm 21) but it's not the same. I read a post just now that was dated from 3 years ago about other places to rp but I was wondering if you had any advice on where is like, a /fun/ place to rp? I like serious threads, I just also miss the more wacky one liner type interactions and crazy plots, too.

It might be 3 years old, but I do keep it updated with the places I know about! Promise. Anyways, look, you’re gonna find that kind of RP anywhere, but you’re also going to find jerks, it’s inevitable and it makes RP less fun. But it sounds like you need some faster RP, Tumblr doesn’t do it for me either (although with messaging I might...). Try chat based sites instead of forum based. Gaiaonline, RPH, and F-list are all full of one-lining and serious RP. They’ll also have those jerks though. That’s the internet, I’m afraid, but that’s why we block people who try and make us feel shitty about what we’re trying to RP. I mean technically even Deviantart has an RP section, and it’s all 13 year olds, so you’d be As A God amongst them and they’ll all be derping around with Wolf/Arranged Marriage/Mutant Escape RPs still without a care in the world happy and blissful. The way RP should be, so don’t any of you dare look down on them for having happiness for something you don’t anymore.

Anonymous asked:  Hi! So sorry if this has been asked, I looked around your navigation page but couldn't find it (to be fair, I have a bad habit of looking over things by accident) but how do you let someone know you want to RP with them (on Tumblr)? Send them a private message? Just follow them? Because I don't want to bother/pressure them with the former, but I'm worried that I might get overlooked with the latter. Thank you! <3

No worries! It just... literally depends on the player in question, and usually players have it listed. When in doubt, do one (follow), then the other if nothing happens (send a message saying: ‘Hi! Not to bother you, but I’m open to RP with you if you’d ever like to!’). If they’re that stressed by a hello, they may wanna put it on their blog somewhere, ‘cause that’s how RPers do. If you don’t want to do what other RPers do, you have to make a note of it somewhere or suffer how common social interaction works (he says, with his own page saying NO ONE PM ME, I’M DELICATE).

Anonymous asked: What should you do if you've just found out that the person you've roleplayed smut with lied about being of age?

My Underage Smut post deals with this already (in short: stop fucking smutting with them, and leave because it’s a violation of your safety so they clearly can’t respect you), and I do not answer these questions anymore because it flooded my blog with underage smut mentions, and fuck that. Like seriously. Ew.

Anonymous asked: So I was wondering if you have any advise on how to explain to a rp partner their characters are mary sues,or well...just badly made in general? Im all for letting people be creative,and usually I can let a few things go but this time its really bad. I don't want to hurt feelings,at least not if I can soften the blow. Any advice?

I GOT YOU. I have a Mary Sue post, and you can link them pointedly. I even have little letters on them (right at the start and later on) explaining why they suck so bad, and how to get better.

Remember! Like the posts I link to, not this post, it’s going bye bye soon! Besides these I have like, 480+ questions in my backlog that I want to answer, and 47 drafts I’m writing and researching in the ol’ draft folder. I love you kids, it just takes a while to sit down and write these. I have bad focus issues. It happens. But I’ll get around to just about all of them if I have my say. Even.... if it takes a couple more years. Plus a few more years for the asks I’ll get after. Frick. Just follow me or something if you wanna see my slow decline into writing hell. I think that’s how you use Tumblr. (I’m teasing.)