#i remember becasue it was in a dream

[ineffag-swag]

"dreams show you what you subconsciously want" shut up shut up SHUT UP SHUT UP

[wickjump]

I’m giving you a free card to rant about any character if you want to

I just like listening to people rant about characters or things they enjoy tbh, I find it interesting what they have to say

ok.. not a character but a ship because right now i have really bad brainrot for crepic, ive already done an essay long ramble about cross, and my essay long ramble about epic is in the works, so let’s go!!!!!!!!!

okay i genuinely really love them. more than most ships. hell i love their dynamic regardless of what it is—romantic, platonic, whatever. they’re something i genuinely care about a lot!!!!! they mean da world 2 me… do not be mean to them around me!!

(this is going off of cross’ canon and not epic’s, since they don’t overlap! epic is canon to cross, cross is not canon to epic. kind of an ink and dream situation)

i love the fact they’re so close. they’re besties. best buds. best friends. besties. a lot of characters have the ‘dating close’ but not ‘friends close’ aspect in their ships/dynamics (ie cream) but not crepic! they have both!!! they’re not friends to lovers they’re best friends and lovers. and it’s unique to them in a way, you can’t name two characters who are canonically best buds like they are. and it’s GREAT. they play video games and eat cookies and make no homo jokes three years into their relationship. and i really love that for them. the idea of a romantic relationship following this just feels that much more natural compared to other characters. oh god im tired soryr anyway

i also love the angst. ive been thinking about this for ages. cross doesn’t remember epic. epic remembers cross. it hurts especially if you like to think they were also dating prior to this. imagine waiting years to see your lover again only for them to just.. not remember you. at all. and obviously you don’t tell them you were dating because then there would be that weird “so should i date you again? is that what im supposed to do now?” pressure that you don’t want, you’ll bring it up later on when you’re more comfortable with each other again, but lo and behold he likes you again and you can’t help but tear up even though you’re not a genuinely emotive person because it’s so similar to how it was the first time and you missed this.

epic has reflexes. sometimes he itches to give cross a quick peck on the cheek because he’s used to that but they’re not dating obviously so he can’t. when they start dating again though he absolutely capitalizes on it. sometimes he wants to call cross a generally romantic nickname but doesn’t. bruh is fine anyway. he used it all the time back then too. no need for other names anymore.

sometimes cross acts like he used to and epic feels a pang of sadness and nostalgia. there’s something so sad about memory loss. it’s like you lost a lover but they’re still there. they just don’t remember you. you’re stuck alone with the memories that you both once shared. and it’s kind of miserable. they’re so “sometimes i wonder if she sees me through your eyes. what would she think of me now?” “well. i think you’re pretty great.” pls understand

i like to headcanon that cross didn’t age as much as epic either due to the nature of his au and xgaster and the overwrites. so cross looks exactly the same as the day epic lost him (httyd,,,, save me) and beh they’re cute. so cutie actually. cutie pies!!!!

they r so affectionate physically cause i said so. they cuddle on the couch and play video games but if anyone asks epic says no homo and cross nods even though his face is literally buried in epic’s neck. yeah uh huh. so straight of you guys. yep. cross gets embarrassed in public about it becasue that’s literally canon he’s so stupid I hate him so much I hope he dies /affectionate. in private though cross is all over that shit. daddy issues amiright

they’re so stupid too. people don’t know if they’re dating or friends because they’re just like that. cross, normally the most uptight pissy prick out there, seems to only unwind when epic’s around and he drags cross to do something fun or stupid (often both). cross just seems happiest. and epic, normally full of “yeah lmao i am so unbothered and chill and not harboring dark secrets and withering sanity as well as living off of 0 sleep total”, seems the most relaxed around cross. i like that.

also their dads hate each other and it’s hilarious. they also probably hate each others dads too given how they each abused them like what!!! stop abusing ur kids guys…! but xgaster and epic!gaster would be in-laws and that’s super funny to me. imagine hearing that. the son of the guy you hate most married your son (who you also beat as a kid). wtf

i love the idea that epic, after ages, opened up to past cross about his issues and now all that is gone. the comfort and understanding is gone. and epic misses it but he doesn’t know if he can open up like that again. god

they’re so bittersweet. but they’re also soulmates 2 me. cross found epic again in another life,, how great is that. memory loss cannot keep them apart!!!!! they are so close. in a do not separate box. they’re like color and killer or error and ink to me. in a little ‘these guys MUST be kept together’ kennel. bonded pairs.

hfhrhfjhhh. they love each other a lot but they’re really unserious about it. everyone is done with how obnoxious they get when they’re with each other. epic puts up with cross’ temper tantrums (love you but you got issues cross) and cross is the only one that seems to find the rubber chicken jokes funny a millionth time in a row even though by now they’re to everyone’s chagrin.

they’re so cool. and lovely. i think they should be boyfriends forever and ever and never die so they can always be in love. they mean a lot to me they’re like if me and my childhood bestie worked out

I LOVE CREPIC!!!! Thank u for the ask i used this as an excuse to rant about them. needed to get this out of my system. this isn’t even all I could talk about in terms of them it’s just. so long already

OK BAIII!!!

[brightlight-dazzlingeyes]

i found you | rúben dias

💘 synopsis: it's rúben's and isabella's first valentine's day together. warnings: fluff and gratuitous valentine-cute-themed smut becasue why not. (can be read as x reader cause i forgot to mention the oc name in the story) (this is a sequel to between the lines, but can be read as a standalone; since there's no actual smut in the original story, i figured i should give my oc a nice epilogue) (W.C. 1.5K)

Once upon a time, I was convinced that romantic love was nothing more than an annoying distraction. It was like a stubborn pebble in my shoe, constantly irritating me and diverting my focus from what truly mattered.

With great ambitions driving me forward, I embraced the life of a workaholic sports journalist. I'd dreamed of this career for as long as I could remember, and I was determined to make it to the top. Nothing and no one could derail the carefully plotted course I had set for myself. Or so I thought.

But then, love snuck up on me when I least expected it, turning my world upside down. I found myself falling for someone who challenged my carefully constructed plans and made me question everything I thought I knew about myself. And as much as I tried to resist, I couldn't deny the magnetic pull drawing me closer to him.

As Valentine's Day approached, I reflected on how much had changed since that time when I thought love was nothing but a nuisance. Now, it is the very thing that brings color to my life. 

And as I prepared for a romantic dinner with the person who had stolen my heart, I felt nothing but gratefulness for the delightful chaos he had brought into my life.

We stepped into a cozy restaurant, the aroma of delicious food enveloped us, and I felt a flutter of excitement in my stomach. Valentine's Day dinner with Rúben – it is still surreal, like something out of a cheesy rom-com.

We plopped down at our table, and Rúben dove into the menu like it was a puzzle. Couldn't help but poke fun at him.

"Can't make up your mind, huh? Let me guess, torn between the steak and the seafood pasta." I teased, a smirk playing on my lips.

He glanced up, "Actually, I was thinking of going all in and ordering the entire dessert menu. You know, for research." He joked, his laughter contagious.

After dinner and a couple drinks, we decided to head back to Rúben's place. As we walked out of the restaurant, the crisp evening air hit us. We strolled side by side, our steps matching in rhythm, exchanging playful banter along the way. 

Eventually, we reached Rúben's apartment building, and he held the door open for me with a charming smile. I followed him inside. As we stepped into the elevator, the atmosphere shifted, a sense of excitement mingled with nerves. Our eyes met, and in that silent exchange, we both knew what was coming next.

The elevator ride felt like it lasted an eternity, the anticipation building with each passing floor. And when we finally reached Rúben's floor, the door to his apartment swung open, and we stepped inside. 

We stood there for a moment, taking in the scene before us, the air thick with anticipation. And as Rúben turned to face me, his eyes sparkling with desire, I knew that this was where I was meant to be.

"I'm so happy." He whispered, his voice barely above a breath.

"Yeah?" I replied, a smile spreading across my face. "Well, there are plenty of ways you can show me just how happy."

"I'll do my best." He answered, his eyes twinkling with excitement as he leaned in and planted a tender kiss on my forehead.

His touch sent a shiver down my spine, igniting a fire of desire within me. I nodded, unable to find the words to express the storm of emotions raging inside me. 

The atmosphere was charged with electricity, every glance and touch sending jolts of excitement through my veins. Rúben's eyes sparkled with desire as he guided me further into the room, his hand warm against mine. Our lips met in a passionate kiss, igniting a fire between us. We lost ourselves in each other's embrace. This was where I belonged – in Rúben's arms, surrounded by love and desire.

We surrendered to the intensity of our connection. Rúben's hands moved with purpose, exploring every inch of my body as if committing it to memory, each touch igniting a new wave of desire within me.

With practiced ease, he lifted me off my feet, his strong arms holding me close as he carried me towards the bedroom. I wrapped my arms around his neck, lost in the sensation of being so close to him, my heart racing with anticipation.

As he gently lowered me onto the bed, our eyes locked in a silent promise of passion and devotion.

His kisses became more intense, I could hear the rhythm of his breathing growing more rapid. His fingers curled around my hips, pulling me closer, pushing me further onto him. I whimpered as pleasure surged through me.

His hands continued their journey southward, tracing the curves of my body with skillful precision. The look in his eyes told me he was feeling the same wild need I was.

I arched my back, grinding my hips against him, letting him feel my desire. And the sensations only intensified as he teased my clit with his tongue, coaxing it into bloom. With every touch, with my body under his mercy, the room around me began to spin.

He parted my legs with his knee and buried his face between them, moaning as he kissed my inner thighs. In that moment I realized I could reach orgasm with just his lips caressing my most intimate flesh. I lost control. I cried out as ecstasy overwhelmed me.

Without warning, his mouth descended on mine again, seeking out the sweetness of my lips, inserting one finger inside of me. Then another one. I cried out in delight, pushing myself deeper onto his digits. His fingers worked relentlessly at their task. I let go of my inhibitions and gave myself over to his expert ministrations, gasping as wave after wave of pleasure coursed through me.

Finally, after several moments of total bliss, I collapsed under him, breathless and spent.

He pulled away and smiled, cupping my cheek tenderly, gazing deeply into my eyes. 

My eyes were heavy as I stared into his; dark pools that bore an intensity I'd never seen before. There was a strange expression on his face, a combination of curiosity and wonder. It didn't take me long to realize that he was looking at me with complete adoration.

Cuddling with him, I could feel just how hard he was, laying on top of me. I smiled, still feeling a bit shaky after such a harsh orgasm, and placed my hand on his member. He looked at me with wonder.

"Are you sure you're ready to go on?" He asked, concern evident in his voice.

"Mmm, not really." I admitted, rubbing the bulge tentatively.

"Maybe I should give you a rest first." He leaned forward and licked my earlobe playfully.

"Oh, but I've been dreaming about this all day." I breathed into his ear.

He whispered back, "Well, who am I to deny you your dreams?"

His words sent a shiver down my spine, turning my knees weak. I reached up to pull him closer, craving the feel of his skin against mine. Then, before I knew what was happening, he grabbed my wrists and pinned them above my head.

It was like he possessed me. With just one swift motion, he pushed me backwards, then pressed himself firmly against me. He let out a low moan as he lifted my leg higher, curling me around his waist, penetrating me with one forceful thrust. The sensation was incredible. He reached behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist, holding me tight.

As he slowly moved in and out of me, I heard the same soft sound of pleasure escape from both of us. I found myself getting lost in his deep brown eyes, forgetting where I was and everything else around me. My head fell back against his shoulder as he moved ever so slightly faster. It wasn't long before I came again.

But instead of slowing down or stopping, he picked up speed even more.

My heart raced as I surrendered to the whirlwind of sensations coursing through me. With each powerful thrust, I felt myself edging closer to the brink of losing my mind, my body trembling with ecstasy.

He whispered my name like a prayer, his breath hot against my ear as he drove me to the edge and beyond. I clung to him desperately, my nails digging into his skin as I rode the waves of pleasure crashing over me.

And then, in a crescendo of bliss, we reached the pinnacle together, our cries of release mingling in the air. 

We lay entwined in each other's arms, spent and breathless. In that moment, there was no past, no future, only the intense connection between us, binding us together. With him by my side, I was ready to face whatever challenges life threw our way, knowing that our love would always be our guiding light.

[therealslimshakespeare]

Poor guy. I think he has nightmares of what he hears tho

Ok hear me out.

It breaks my heart to think of Rosie learning about what Ida went through on the train because it’s truly so horrific. And I 100% agree he’d have nightmares of that. BUT. Do you remember how you wondered how Rosie would help Ida overcome the trauma of what she was forced to watch. Imagine Rosie having a nightmare about that. But not like. For Lu. But from Ida’s POV. Like FOR IDA. And her trauma related to it. Because I feel like Ida is absolutely 100% the type to think that she wasn’t a victim in that because Lu was the one that the violence was actually physically against. But like she was. And recognizing that is the first step in processing it and overcoming it. And I feel like if Rosie were to tell her she’d maybe realize how awful it was. To her and to have them do that to her. Like for her to hear that what she went through was so horrid FOR HER, not just for Lu, that Rosie is having a nightmare about it. Idk.

This both broke my heart and opened my third eye. 😱😫😤🤯🥺

Becasue I’ve been mulling this over a great deal, as yall have had to hear me scream about, and there’s so many layers to it but this is a fascinating angle to take with it and seems very like him? In real life he had a photographic memory and I know that doesn’t mean he can see scenes he did not see- however, it means the details of a relayed story is at his disposal for recall -voluntary or no- at any time, and introducing that aspect into dream life is genius.

[thesylverlining]

I had a DREAM about Chapter One Sherlock and Jon on a very big fancy (...Titanic-esque) cruise liner, and of course there had been One or Several Murders and something about secret codes, but it was very actiony and fast paced and you could JUMP, i remember going nuts about that, and you could play as Jon too

Watson was there of course and Sherlock was actually trying to tell him about Jon (who I guess just Was Fine, regardless of Chapter One endings lol, becasue of course he is) except

And here's the good part

Sherlock kept getting flustered and tongue-tied and couldn't spit it out, so Watson of course (and NOT ENTIRELY WRONGLY) thought Sherlock was trying to Confess Feelings, so he'd be all "aH, A-ARE YOU CERTAIN we should speak about it heRE?" which made Sherlock think *OH GOD HE KNOWS, he knows the Mental Illness and Darkness in me* (Jon: hey! not nice!) except played for MOSTLY laughs with just a LITTLE tragedy

And it was this Shakespearean Misunderstanding and I was just ROLLING in it and. fuck.if this makes me write more fic for them...

[lilislegacy]

(This gets a little rant-y sorry!)

I just saw the post that somebody said about Annabeth and Percy dropping out of college and I totally see that.

Something that I see a lot, especially in fanfiction, is people forgetting that these 2 are neurodivergent and severely traumatized.

College is really hard. In general, for a neurotypical person, it would be difficult.

I'm writing this from an autistic, dyslexic, adhd, ptsd point of view. College is really fucking hard.

I've seen fics where people will talk about how they'll be taking 4-5 classes per semester. That's not really possible for them.

I have been taking one class a semester, and it is excruciating.

Granted, I do not go to New rome University, which is mainly demigods. So it might be tailored differently to how most demigods learn, but still, college is really difficult.

I could definitely see them trying college but taking it at a substantially lower pace than normal.

Like the original ask said, they might just drop out because it would be too much of a mental load.

Especially because of how soon the turnaround is from their severe trauma (tartarus) and them going to college. Even if they tried their best, they wouldn't do well. (This is also me speaking from experience. When I was going through stuff in high school, it made my gpa drop like a brick.)

I'm just tired of people acting like the only symptoms of their trauma is bad dreams and that their only symptoms of their adhd and dyslexia are "oh squirrel!" And not being able to read.

(Sorry for ranting. This is just kind of a sore subject for me. Especially recently, I have had to deal with some ableism from my professor, and I'm looking into transferring to a different college because of it)

thanks for the ask @invadericee!

i totally see where you’re coming from. college is really really hard on its own. being dyslexic, adhd, and traumatized does not help.

however, i really do not believe that they would drop out. the biggest reason being they are both so determined to get though it. and when those two are determined, nothing is stopping them.

you also have to remember that new rome university doesn’t just accommodate for kids like them. the university is made specially for people like them. most everyone there has adhd. most everyone there has dyslexia. and many of them have ptsd. and likely, the teachers and staff are demigods. so they are the same way, and therefore know how to teach in a way that actually works for them. also, new rome university is a very very small college, so the students would get a lot of one-on-one time with professors and counselors, etc. so i don’t believe their learning disabilities will hurt them very much there, because the entire system is built around them having those learning disabilties. you know?

but i completely agree with you that i don’t like how people downplay their trauma a lot. and rick riordan himself is the biggest suspect of this. in chalice of the gods, percy and annabeth are mainly just happy to be alive and having a good time, and percy only makes one passing remark about his mental state not being great. and i get why rick didn’t dive into it - he wanted the book to just be happy and silly and enjoyable. but still, i wish he would show how they’re coping a little bit more. in the bits i’ve seen of TSATS, sally mentions how percy and annabeth have horrible nightmares, which probably means percy wakes up screaming in the middle of the night. but like you said, ptsd isnt just nightmares. and adhd and dyslexia aren’t just cute little issues either. now, i will say, i don’t think their adhd is the same kind you and i have. theirs is more hyperactivity than anything. and while most people with adhd struggle with not being able to focus on one thing, i think with them it’s more that they are constantly focused on a million things (becasue that keeps them alive.) i don’t know why it matters, but i just felt like giving my thoughts on that lol.

i don’t even know what my point is anymore. basically i don’t think college will be as hard for them as you think, but i agree with you on everything else 😂

[familyofpaladins]

ABBY Whats your absolute fave BNHA fics of all fucking time

HARD QUESTION

Okay, I havent really read any bnha in like 2 years, and i hadnt bookmarked any (because at the time I was reading I just didnt utilize the bookmark function. I'm working on fixing that lol) so here is an incomplete list off the top if my head in no particular order

Pretty much anything by @anonymoustwit . Especially the Hero Sense au. Certain people, regardless of quirks, can sense when people are in or going to be in danger. (Deku, bakugo, all might, and todoroki ((and others)) developed this ability. It's not the main focus of all the fics in the series, but it's often there in the background) They're excellent Bakugo fics.

Synapse by WynterTwylight. Space au. But also cyberspace. Deku and Bakugo are drift compatible (but it's not a Pacific rim au). Honestly it's been long enough I dont remember a lot of details but I know it's good

What we lost to the fire. Au where Hisashi is endeavour's brother and little izuku has to live with the todoroki's , meanwhile the bakugos are trying to adopt him (and everyone else is searching for Hisashi who killed inko)

I CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME FIND THIS FIC. EDIT: THANKS TO @granny-griffin FOR FINDING THE FIC . With(out) you - Villains break into one of class A's practical classes to kidnap izuku. They run away though when allmight shows up. But izuku got paralyzed from one of the villains quirks, but all might thinks he's dead for a little bit

Momo and bakugo switch quirks (not the actual title becasue the title is really long but that's the gist of the fic lol)

Nightmare house (fanfiction.net) the first mha fic I ever read. Izuku and a few other members of class 1a take shelter in a cabin after helping to capture some villains, but find out that the house isnt so safe and amy end up killing them.

A letter to me. Time travel fic where villains go after the young versions of deku and bakugo so class 1a steps in to save them

(I think theres another time travel fic I like. But I cant remember enough details to look for it)

Once forgotten, twice removed. Izuku gets transported to an alternate related where he works for AFO and wants him to kill all might. Alternate universe shenanigans

[Edit] HECK I FORGOT ONE

If all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene. Class 1a gets aizawa to run their hero agency. He goes to hero con to support them (half a social media fic)

[alastair-1205]

If I can't get people to ask about my WIPs (/lh lmao), I'll post about them anyway because I cannot keep this to myself anymore.

I started writing something about Jay having amnesia like 2 months ago- AKA before we had much info about what he's been up to- because my brain was like "hey what if Nadakahn was the reason for his memory loss and made him do fucked up shit becasue he remembers Skybound and really likes watching Jay suffer?" and then it went "Hey what would happen if he started to remember some stuff while still captive?" And that's where I've been for the past few months.

Anyway here's a snippet of him remembering something in a dream.

[notknickers]

aww thank you. I'm still learning to draw scars. I defo need to make time for more studies. (we both gotta buckle down)

oh man. fanart, if done well and a lot can get me to do almost anything. seeing fanart of Ghost back in November 2022 is what got me into this fandom in the first place.

I'm a bit picky with headcanons but yh. im fully aware a lot of them are just watered down to be vessals for our kinks and affection. At the end of the day. they'er our silly made up blurbos U///U but yh theirs defo gaps in these guys's personalities that we can fill in (which is what we're doing now lol from the short bios we're given)

fanart (nsfw) and audio of these blurbos together. I'm waiting on my lounge chair right now to be presented to me.

hey man. Rivals to lovers makes sense. I'm stumped with who would make the first move though. becasue like you said, both of them aren't the most affectionate of people and don't trust too quickly; at least on the battlefield. like they could respect each other on the battlefield and stuff. but to get them vunerable to love hmmmmm. might need to bend like a pretzal for either of them to act on their feelings even in the most subtle ways… unless we have one of them a lil more unhinged in this department. claps hands* What if Konig is the more unhinged one and Ghost just doesn't know how to handle his feelings or Konig, like, does anyone really wanna make the over 6 foot tall batterying ram upset. Anything can happen in delulu land

my fanart is literally made up shit if you were dating Ghost ooc XD

love that the whole fandom are in on the joke of eldritch/ocotpuss/cathulu Konig since the chibi drawings of him look like a cute octopuss and the bio updating and saying His hood hides something more hideous. I'll check out your fic….(hehe heat cycles)

btw. sorry for the late reply. fell asleep after work (¯﹃¯) also I'm bad with writing hehe

hey, don't worry. life outside the machine takes precedence! plus, sleep is gooood, rest to your brain while increasing your chances of dreaming of your blorbos! it's a win-win, but thanks for replying.

now i must absolutely write that eldritch!könig/civilian!ghost fic! i have so many ideas that i left xeno!könig and his tentacles aside for a while, but after i've dealt with the five different colonel!könig/recruit!dommy mummy!reader and colonel!könig/tmale!base medic, perhaps i'll have some time to figure it out!

oh! don't even say it! today i was all excited about a fanart idea i had while at work, then i was confronted with the reality of actually drawing it... what an ice cold shower!!!

i'll get back to it as soon as i get over the trauma! but good luck with your studies, you're already ahead!

pretty pixel vessels!!! i am also very nitpicky. in fact, i've noticed, the more concrete an idea i develop of könig, the less open i am to changing interpretation (even though i still like reading others'!)

the only thing i am glad about entering the fandom when i did is that i initially conceinved this blog as a magnus archives fanblog. if it started as a könig simp blog, i would probably have called myself something like... königsheftyballs or something and i'm so grateful that didn't happen. im' much happier as a jaredhopworthsknickers!

and yes, smutty ghost fanart was my gateway drug.

(i don't know if i remembered linking you the fic in question that sold me over the ghostsoap ship, but it was this one.)

for the audio, it's easy. here's the link and happy listening! (very nsfw, very explicit). it's one hundred percent out of my headcanons: no, könig the forty-plus-year-old colonel is not simon 'ghost' riley who got his mask at a hot topic or halloween costume shop's little bitch.

time to pull ranks on that one!

(still, enjoyable listening and great voice acting, though!)

true, but them being affiliated with opposing factions opens up interesting scenarios: could either be captured by the other? could that mean the the captured is assigned to the capturer for intel extraction or other expedient? could it be that each finds out that the other is way less sadistic and more compassionate and simply human and matter-of-fact than they initially thought, which changes the mutual way they see each other, while still being wary, because of their curcumstantial enmity?

commonalities? they are both masked, they both have something to hide, something that hurts to this day, the need to create someone who can endure interfacing themselves with the world and its demands while their tender cores still reel and recover, but that they can put aside, when they're alone, to catch breath and regain their whole selves or, the opposite, feel incapable to abandon even when no one is around, as they have become too fragmented.

just throwing ideas around, but there is so much to dig up.

their similarities might draw them to one another: could they have finally found someone who gets it? could they afford to be a little vulnerable, to show a little bit of their soft bellies and hope not to be stabbed from side to side?

but, being enemies who work for different factions with different goals surely would stand in the way: if trusting and opening up is harrowing and dreadful, doing so with an enemy operator can be outright fatal... so much at stake, but what if this were the only chance they have at genuine human connection? a friendship? comfort in wach other's bodies? darethey hope for more? are they delusional? is the imprisonment getting to them?

re: your ooc fanart: and that's brilliant all the same! my latest fanart was nothing but an excuse to put könig in a skimpy little outfit and parade him around! if you like ooc ghost dating your insert, do more of it!!!!!!

i always laugh when someone comes along, thinking themselves smart by pointing out that "well, akshually ghost and könig would never date in canon", because you're in the wrong place, luv. go play the game, write/draw your canon-compliant stuff or only interact with fic and fanartists who are as attached to canon as you, but stop yucking in everyone's yum. it's called fandom, not candom.

i will go on a perilous mission to find all the ghost/könig artists i can and report back, sir! yes, sir!

(by which i mean, i will write you in the inbox or leave the links in the dms, so you'll find them when you have time. no hurry!)

n_n

[vesicapiscean]

i forgot to do this becasue i was away fromh ome and then i was busy. but i remembered. tagged by @mauswife and @godspeedyoublackcoffee <3 thanks ladies

Last song: do it without you - jacques greene. homework music

Last show: i watched one episode of hey arnold when i took a break from reading lol. but i just finished rewatching parks and rec!

Currently reading: ummmm American government 2e by Glen Krutz. lmao. for school. but in my free time im reading Stiff: the curious life of cadavers by Mary Roach

Current obsession: space, wormholes, black holes, singularity, the way everything is small and scaled up and large and scaled down, dreams, dream realms, dream reality, alternate reality, lucid dreaming, mind palaces, shifting dimensions, parallel dimensions, tulpamancy, tibetian meditation practices, jungian meditation practices, religious psychosis, spiritual psychosis, forced hallucinations, forced schizophrenia, subliminal messaging, brain washing, declassified CIA documents about astral projection, psychotropics, naturally occurring DMT, animal - human connections, world - human connections, self - self connections, just to name a few.

@foryourhealth @dr-lychee @sleepyalienz @deeplytroubledchild @densewoods @2192395 @beintheforest @secretsinthefloor @sisyphusshrugged @sliversoakley4 @nthfunct @intercal

i cant think of anyone else. do it or dont! but ily all thanks for reading and participating

[nikidavid]

1. ‘I choose violence’ and its not because ivans camry was laced in audial trap. Its not because I used in the passenger side and wonder if all he could see was my black eyes and brown body because unlike them, my body was born to forget. i literally remember nothing. my skin is covered in scars of tales I am waiting to hear myself. I trace his hands and feel where the fire pit seared his 5 year old skin to the bone, where he rubbed ice and salt to impress a bitch, where I dug my nails so deep when he made me laugh

2. when I was little I could feel my anger in my neck. I would grab the back of it and hold it till it passed. ama thought I was choking myself our but I really just wanted to breathe. Something bad happened to me last year and I couldn’t feel it in my neck now that I remember noting, the milk is always over boiled and the paysam is always too sweet.

3. 4 - U - city girl', nothing was worse than being 15 and outside. at 10pm we would kiss the mirror then proceed to stick on lashes that felt like insects and nails our mothers would break in the morning. it was the era of window breaking and gin stealing. my bestfriend was 16 and she looked nothing like me. she worked at the club on chapel and every night we would theorise our ideas of womanhood and act them out as best as we could. we were 15 and eating hsp at 4 am waiting for someones boyfriend to drive us home. i think bad things used to happen when i would rub my thighs together. i would do this in the back of every car while my body was slowly forgetting what it felt like to be missed by everyone i had loved.

4. i was everyones daughter and no ones child. i would smear crusty fair and lovely on my face till i was porcelin. this made me so happy becasue now i was finally the same colour as aunty. in my dreams i was made of feathers and jaggery. i was sweet and light and they would all love me. if i was like this i could forget my body and my body could forget me. i am so far away when my apa calls me by any name other than the one i was given.

5. ‘love no thotties’, i think i am in love with my body. henery kissinger was the only face my i saw when i was falling down the well. id look up under starlight and kiss my teeth. my body was for sale in the dark and i would mutter my best pitch under my breath. i knew the stove was still warm if i was hungry, i knew i could fall back into amas hands if i forget how to hold myself.

6. ama used to hold my hand to school then she swapped it for a mans. she also used to cook my food but now i find it disguting. raw, everything is now raw. i lived with my ammama when i was 5 so when i told her i missed her food, i thought i was going to die. last time i dared be this honest with a woman i knew it was becasue i was being cruel. when she made me a dosa i giggled while i chewed because i was only 5 and she wasnt. she’s all the heavy feelings that i want to feel but i try not to because if i do i am consumed and when i am consumed my body is nothing.

[the-void-8-my-soul]

World building for Spare AU RP I'm doing

Sooo as is obvious Star Sanses don't exist in this AU.

I'm having the main 4 gods Error, Ink , Dream, Nightmare all be assholes. Doesn't matter what they do who they are they suck as people

Ink is a demented creator. Driven mad by the "voices" aka us. He doesn't remember that these people in the AU's he creates to suffer or to kill are you know.. people with feelings... He is incredibly jaded and has a very.. toxic relationship with Error the only other entiy of his caliber to give him the time of day.

Error is a vain son of a bitch. He does not care who you are if you out shine him you die. He is increadbly self centured and only belives in the whole "Destroy all AU's" thing becasue only the original can stand to rival him in beauty and ohh how perfect the nothingness is. Blah Blah Blah. He tells Ink that he is destroying because there is no room in the multiverse for so many Au's he is parcially lying. He knows 1 Swap. who actually broke through the insanity of the "Voices" (us-crators) and now hates (and want's dead) all other Variants of his. frieand. Look.. Swap tried... we will meet his ass later.. NO Blueberror because I.. it doesn't fit in this AU rn... yet.. may change

Dream Cannon ink mixed with shattered dream personality. wise. He is manipulative and kinda mean. He has not consept of pain or.. negativity or anything. all should be happy all the time. repress or remove all else. He knows this is not feasible for poor mortals. but his magic can help! (It causes either heighten loopy happiness or forced mania) either way it. sucks for the resipiant who will have less control over themselves. He, like his brother has mind control type powers.

Nightmare... hehe... well.. he.. he's spoilers...

Also all of this is subject to change. If it's written in a RP probably won't but everything else is up for grabs.

Also Reaper and Life are also in this AU.. they will actually feature strongly later on.. BTW I am so fucking exited for this RP I'm doing with @cascadesans (who is a wonderful artist and friend) to meet Nightmare. >:)

I am playing around with the different views of his character. Either way it'll be a doozy!

[malachitemischief101]

A more organized / Less angry version of this.

I am not trying to target anyone, be rude to creatores, LOA blogs or anyone who's learning. It makes no sense when somone says things such as "For manifesting, you need to be in the state wish fulfilled", "If you only do 6k affirmations, it isn't enough, you need to create the neuronal pathway with 10k affirmations!", "SATS are the only way, neville said this!" or "Simply learn to accept the void blah it'll solve everything." They're wrong, all these assumptions are just limiting beliefs, and wrong (unless you wholeheartadly believe in them, in which, that's your own limiting belief. 'Law of assumption' it is called that because it's literal. Law of ASSUMPTION. Whatever you assume, believe in conciously and subconciously, will be shown in the 3d, reflected, it is a law, unbrekable. The law of assumption is different for everybody, because of their own previous assumptions. Because of the enviorment they grew in and what they've been reading, watching, accepting or rejecting. I'll use my own recent success story. I wanted to lose 2kg. I affirmed last night and looped a wl subliminal for about half an hour, today, I woke up having lost ~1.7kg and it's THAT easy. Why? becasue I've always seen weight as something easy to lose or gain (even before LOA) it made no sense to me that something in our own body would be hard to change. But that's just MY assumption, some other person who has been told all their life by the media and who they are around that 'Losing weight is hard' it may take them a week or a month to lose that. Because that's their ASSUMPTION. The idea is for manifesting to be comfortable and natural. Choose a method, stick to it, be consistent, and enjoy your results / dream life. Don't let other's limiting beliefs change your opinion or method, It's YOUR journey, not theirs, not mine. If for you affirming is the method? go ahead and do a 5m sesh rn! If you like states, accept that you're in your desired reality, if you prefer the void, remember it's within you, if you like sats, go with your day and have a good night when you do. But remmeber it is always up to YOU, no method is 'right' or 'wrong' until you choose it is, and no method 'works' or 'fails' until you choose it does.

Byeee much love!! asks are open! ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨♡୧⋆ ˚｡⋆

I am NOT trying to be rude, or hate on anyone. but it's plain fucking stupid whenever somone goes like "You HAVE to be in state wish fulfilled to get your desire" "affirmations are the ONLY way, you need to use exactly 10k" or "SATS / Void are the only correct way" ... no, No, NO! You can do anything, wanna do states, and non dualism and that shit? go ahead! choose it's done and move on. Wanna do affirmations? robotic or normal affirming! aff tapes! just persist! wanna do sats/void? Keep trying and congrats on entering!! hope you like your dream life NO WAY is the "Only way" and whoever says that (spec this because i read it A LOT) "States are the only way, you have to be in wihs fullfilled and not anything else" does NOT know what they're doing in LOA, anything works if you want it to, choose -> persist -> enjoy your desire. CHOOSE A DESIRE -> PERSIST IN IT, SUBS, AFFS, STATES, -> ENJOY HAVING MANIFESTED A DESIRE. That's it, I love you<3

Kay, since this is SOMEHOW still blowing up ??? 😭 [Holy fuck its been a month.] If anyone has questions my asks r open!! 🫶

[chonnysinferno]

i am So bored so i guess i will expose myself as “not a cjshipper but not NOT a cjshipper tbh” anyway i will send you more music

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuYLhuXt4HrRFeV7wSFL-1LRMtj5353pq&si=xH73KXa9wHS_C4Yu KIJETESUMIKYOKU MY BELOVED

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuYLhuXt4HrRIt7XTnyygXomDqlW3xPFK&si=GUDQMCzy0apcWb5d ryuupekosi also my beloved!!!!!!

what was i saying oh right GO LISTEN TO JAN USAWI’S MUSIC RN AND GO TO BANDCAMP AND LISTEN TO ALL OF TOKI GAMING RIGHT NOW AND ALSO 8 (LUKA TU WAN)

https://youtu.be/-ILcH66zGcY this also

i can’t think of anything else i’ve been listening to lately besides maybe jreg and that would give you another thing to put on your dni, centricide fans /this is a JOKE

random song that i usually don’t listen to things in the type of: https://youtu.be/6xr_nVyNMMY

frums is based and other such good qualities: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_mu9g_dVsgBz6d8vuWCsyPai59U8XeD8BM&si=buAGe2-pHnKEKm-E

while we r here go listen to dead but dreaming and sisyphus by vivivivivi (5 vi’s)

strobe light: https://youtu.be/7sKs7INaEoA?si=OTjLWaQx5CHtJ3Ws

finally, kulupu jan tenpo: https://youtu.be/fWHZz7ZCXqw?si=43agffZaBd0QvuSr

(i sent you the playlists to all of the songs in kijetesumikyoku n ryuupekosi but they r medleys by jan Misali so, also jan Misali’s other covers and stuff are good and i like their video essays)

(i was about to say like “i could send you ilo tenpo pi sin ala aka time machine reprise in toki pona” but i might as well just do it so: https://youtu.be/gl3W8-IwETc)

(i would send you anachronism but i have looked into myself and found the answer that that would be unnecessary self promotion so letter which has no negative or positive connotations + have a good day + i can send you a post with resources on toki pona + don’t die and other such)

on the cj shipper thing i do not really care to be honest if youre not weird about it / mention it and such its just a personal ick and i dont associate oyu with cj shipping anyways so i wouldnt have known i thought it was you as i dont rememrb anyone else who was associated with toki pona i wasnt going to reac h out to you tho becasue i dont rememebr your user + uhuhuhuuhuhuhuh yea! i cannot interact with other users without lookign like a freak i have negative feelings about you from something but i do not remember what! so i think that is probably in the past anyways onto the music tthese are not usually my genre of music but they are calming adn soothing and i like that the miku one is more up my alley because i am a vocaloid fan but on the side of faster paced music mostly because i cannot listen to slower music without getting bored the music is still good though and there is a lot of it and i will try to listen to it all in the span of a few months. or days ull never know i think this was obvious by the fact i enjoy artists like chonny jash , will wood , and other thingfs in that category (although i understand that their music has variety i enjoy songs like uhhh TME TSE THA rather than say NMTK and SaaST or. CCCC over CiD,, hm ill just link some things under the keep reading as a sample of music taste to not make this post any longer thjan it already is 😭😭😭 *) (edit : nvm theres not even a keep reading itll just be there ig) i think i have listened to vivivivivi's & lamp's music before!!!! i have enjoyed both so far but vivivivivi's more somehwat because of the pixel esque style of music (whihc might not be true for all of the songs they produxce but i am not a huge fan i am a norma;l enjoyer. somewhat) lamp i know is swomewhat in the calming / slow music section ^_^ alos not a huge fan because ive only listened to like one or two songs sooo i do not know toki pona which i think makes up a lotof this post / ask so it would bne great if oyu did send me a post about toki pona 👍 overall summary : music not my usual taste, does not mean they are bad, they are awesome anywasys, will try to listen to all of it when i can also self promotion is okay gimme em have a good day also and also do not die because that would be horrible o7 edit 2 : nvm we jammin edit 3 : you shouldve shared the vocaloid related ones with me first i wouldve been so hooked these are so good

* i do not have a playlist for these so bear withj me

most / all of everything is a lot also SELF-iSH i prefer those over uhhh icimi (in case i make it) and TNA (the normal album) i m not sure what else to put here. throws these at you (you dont have to listen to these btw)

[notknickers]

are you named after anyone? a tv character from the fifities

when was the last time you cried? honestly, can't remember

do you have kids? i'm not a shepherd and i do not raise goats, no

what sports do you play/have played? this, that, never for too long

do you use sarcasm? what a great question! thank you so much for asking!!!/s

what's the first thing you notice about people? their smell?

what's your eye colour? it's a secret

scary movies or happy endings? incomprehensible films with even more mind-boggling endings

any talents? i can turn your clean house into an unliveable pigsty in under three seconds or your pizza is free

where were you born? between my mother's legs and the gloved hands of an obsetrician, i reckon

what are you hobbies? fanfic, fanart, clowning about, reading stuff...

do you have any pets? yes. they live in little funerary urns above the telly

how tall are you? tall enough for this ride

favourite school subject? philosphy, litterature

dream job? same as above, except i can go without the dicking, as i prefer to keep professional and personal life separate

tagging: @dovesofcedar, @eyerotyourbrain, @dysphoria-things, @oh-shit-i-spilled-my-genderfluid, @spaceoperajay

thanks for the tag, @completely-real-and-normal-human

edit: had to remove the reblogs, becasue they were making my blog hard to navigate. sorry.

15 Questions 15 Mutuals

@kaiarchives tagged me in this game that I haven't had the pleasure of seeing before, so that's exciting. The rules are: Answer the 15 questions and tag 15 of your mutuals.

1. Are you named after anyone?

No.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Last Sunday. I don't think it was for any particular reason, I just had a headache and was feeling down.

3. Do you have kids?

No.

4. What sports do you play/have played?

I played a bit of a football as a kid and a bit of volleyball for school. I also did range shooting in my tween years.

5. Do you use sarcasm?

Quite a lot. I've been trying to cut back and be a bit more genuine, but my habit for being sarcastic and my generally low moods have given me a bit of Resting Bitch Voice, so people don't always pick up on it.

6. What's the first thing you notice about people?

Facial shape I think. Before I learn someone's name I generally remember them by the shape of their jaw and cheeks.

7. What's your eye color?

Blue, but it's a kinda greyish blue.

8. Scary movies or Happy endings

I like scary movies with happy endings. Give me protagonists who face down with the worst of humanity or the nasties of the world and come out alive and swinging, if not a bit traumatized.

9. Any talents?

I'm told I have a way with words. In general I don't believe in talent in the "innate skill" way though.

10. Where were you born?

Oslo, Norway.

11. What are your hobbies?

Writing, reading, movies, video games (mostly strategy and roguelikes,) I used to sing in a choir and I kind of want to get back into that.

12. Do you have any pets?

No. Haven't really had the opportunity to, but I'd like to get a dog someday.

13. How tall are you?

178 cm, so... what, 5'10?

14. Favorite subject in school

Language and it's not close at all. Social Sciences as a second place I suppose.

15. Dream Job?

Author. Give me a way to live from writing and I'll churn out books at a brazen clip. It might drive me crazy, but it'll be worth it.

As for the tags: @frostedlemonwriter @shay-puppitty @longwuzhere @indigostudies @an-elegant-void @mjjune @marlenadutch @fire-but-ashes-too @meerawrites @sparrowrising @silverslipstream @floweryprosegarden @the-secondborn-of-seven @chishiio @a-had-matter

[his-pretty-kittybaby]

I had 2 scary ass dreams!

the first one from what i remember was about like idk it was weird and probably happend because i was watching a movie called urban legend and that was a childhood me my sister and cousins used to watch all the time! lol i remeber my mom even bought me a sweater that looked like the killers sweater and my cousins would be like "the killer!! you're the killer!!" lol well i didnt finish the movie becasue of the kids but i remember in my dream it was like kind of realistic because someone got stabbed with a machete in the stomach, that's the main thing i member from that dream

the second one i remember too well, i for some stupid reason, I took back the kids dad and then i remember looking in his closet and finding a lot of woman's underwear and they were used in his dirty clothes and then i asked him whos they were and he said a name and i member there was a little bat in his room (like mine) and i took the bat and i started beating him with it....i beat him everywhere on his body till except his head (because i guess in my dreams, i'm still kind of nice, even after all the shit he put me through) and i beat him till the bat flew out of my hands, then he got up and got the bat and i woke up before anything else ...well i woke up crying so that was sad but also i really realize how much i hate him now and why the fuck would i ever allow a person like that in my life and my heart and my vagina???