#i refuse to give Sam a child named Dean jr

[artemis-73]

Suptober Day 11: Myth

Dean's always hated hospitals. The smell, the sterile walls, the somber atmosphere, the twisting, scraping dread in his gut. But more than hospitals, he hates the pediatrics wing. He hates the tableaus painted in the hallways. He hates the cartoons playing on the TV. He hates the tiny beds and the blankets with stars and moons on them.

He's standing at the window, staring out at the parking garage when the the doctor comes in. Sam and Jess greet him quietly, but Dean can't bring himself to look. He can tell by the warble in Sam's voice that it's not going to be good news. He can imagine the doctor's face set grimly with a sympathetic twist.

There's a murmured explanation that Dean doesn't try to parse, but he gets snippets. Things like "experimental treatments" and "numbers are still low."

Dean remembers his dad, stark raving mad after their mom died, becoming obsessed with a magical way to fix it. The fix changed day-to-day, depending on how much he'd been drinking. Some days, he was looking for a way to bring her back to life. Others, he wanted revenge on any one of the laundry list of people he blamed for her death: the firefighters, the paramedics, the man who installed their smoke detectors, the electrician who wired the house years before they bought it.

When he turns around and sees little Mary curled up in a mountain of blankets, sounds asleep with dark circles like bruises under her eyes, and half a dozen machines hooked up to her, he understands his old man better than he ever did when he was alive. He'd tear the whole world apart for his niece.

Sam and Jess are looking over the information packets the doctor left, talking about their options and what they could even begin to afford, what their insurance will bother covering.

"I'm gonna go for a drive," he says to the room.

They barely look up when he leaves.

It's late enough in the day that the parking garage is only about half full. The Impala sits alone in one of the corners. In the trunk, there's a box of their dad's things. Stuff Dean can't bear to throw out but doesn't want in his own house, worthless knick knacks and sentimental shit, but most importantly: a journal.

It's the ramblings of a paranoid, possibly schizophrenic man. Dean tried reading it once, right after John died, hoping for some closure. All he found was that his father was sicker than they ever dreamed. He'd imagined a world of demons and monsters to cope with the death of his wife. He'd abandoned his kids over and over again to chase something that would make a deal with him: his life for his wife's.

Dean flips to the last entry. It's from the day John died. It's a rambling whiskey-riddled mess that amounts to blubbering apologies about how he should've been a better father. When Dean first read it, he'd barely skimmed it. Now, he trudges through the lines of slanting writing, looking for any clue.

On the third page, he finds it: a passing mention of a deal he made a two years before. Dean flips back through the pages, skipping over the years until he finds the entry:

It worked. The black eyed bastard couldn't bring her back. He said she was in heaven. I only got two years out of the deal, but he agreed to clean up whoever was responsible.

From there, he reads backwards carefully, looking for what exactly John did. Only a couple pages further, he finds honest-to-god instructions, including an ingredient list, to summon a fucking demon at a crossroads. It says he'll get ten years to live in exchange for whatever he wants. He stands in the parking garage for a long time, looking down at John's clear, blocky writing.

There's a little tin jar that used to sit in John's kitchen. Dean thinks he remembers it even further back, in the kitchen of their family home. It was one of the few things John had salvaged after the fire. When he'd cleared out John's apartment, Dean hadn't even looked in it before throwing it in the box. Now, he pops it open and stares at what's inside: a layer of dirt, a tiny bone, and a singed photo of John.

He feels insane for even considering it. John was sick. Whatever delusion he lived through can't possibly help Dean or Mary.

But if it's not real, then it can't hurt either.

It takes longer than he expected to find a dirt crossroads. He's in the middle of nowhere, and the sun has completely set. It'd be creepy on a good day. Knowing he's trying to summon a demon, though? He's downright spooked.

He replaces John's photo with his driver's license--he doesn't have the patience to go home for a different picture--and digs in the packed dirt with his bare hands. It cakes deep under his fingernails and turns his hands dark. Once he's patted it smooth again, he stands back and waits.

For thirty seconds then a minute then two minutes.

The disappointment is a sucker punch. "So stupid," he mutters to himself.

"Dean Winchester," a gravelly voice says from behind him.

He spins around, heart hammering, to find a man lounging on the hood of the Impala. He's in a suit that doesn't seem to fit quite right, and his tie's crooked and flipped the wrong way. His eyes are piercingly pale. Dean can't tell the color in the moonlight, but he'd guess they're blue, not at all what he expected from a "black-eyed bastard."

But most importantly: he's sprawled on the hood of the Impala.

"Dude, not on my car," he whines.

The man--demon?--laughs. Honest to god, throws his head back and laughs up at the sky. Obligingly, he slides off the car and onto his own two feet. "My apologies."

"Wait," Dean says, finally catching up to what the guy had actually said, "how do you know my name?"

"Your father was quite a character." There's a bite to his words that raises Dean's hackles. "Very demanding, very ungrateful."

"Yeah, well, from where I'm standing, it looks like you shorted him eight years."

"He asked for too much."

"And you were more than happy to deliver."

Any trace of amusement is gone from the demon. He cocks his head and grinds his jaw, and Dean wonders if crossroad demons can kill the people who summon them to make deals.

Finally, the demon asks, "Is this some kind of belated revenge mission? I thought you'd be thanking me, frankly."

"Thanking you for killing my dad?" Dean huffs. Something about the guy presses all his buttons.

"I didn't kill anyone-- Well, that's not true. I didn't kill him. Besides, he wasn't exactly father of the year, now was he?"

Dean doesn't have a response to that, and it's clear the demon knows he's won this round. He smiles faintly then holds out a hand. "I'm Castiel."

Dean's not sure on the protocol with crossroads deals. He doesn't want to accidentally make a deal before he gets to the main event.

Castiel rolls his eyes. "It's just a handshake. Then we can start talking about why you actually summoned me."

Against his better judgement, Dean shakes his hand. It feels like a normal, human hand, which might actually be weirder. He yanks his hand away.

"My niece is sick. Leukemia. And she's getting sicker. Last round of treatments didn't do shit, and I--" He shies away from Castiel's intense, unwavering gaze. "Fix her. That's all I want."

Castiel clicks his tongue. "Simple enough. Ten years for your niece's clean bill of health." He almost sounds disappointed. "Did John mention how we seal deals?"

Dean hesitates, racking his brain. "Uh, no?"

Castiel's eyes flash black, which should knock Dean on his ass. Instead, weirdly, he thinks the look suits him.

"A kiss."

Now that almost lays him out. "Like on the mouth?"

Castiel's eyes flash back to their pale, human version, and he laughs again, this time a low chuckle, like he's hearing an old, familiar joke. "Yes, on the mouth."

"Couldn't just be a handshake," Dean grumbles, but he steps closer anyway. He's had his fair share of awkward, passionless kisses, and none of those ended with Mary getting to have a normal childhood.

Castiel wraps a hand around the nape of Dean's neck and holds him in place. Even though the touch is light, power radiates from it. With barely a thought, Castiel could snap his neck. Hell, he could probably do it without even touching him. (Demon's have psychic powers, right?)

Oh. His eyes are blue. The thought has barely come to him before those eyes flash black again, and he's being kissed. He expected a perfunctory peck. Instead, fire licks against his lips, flares across his skin. His fingers are in Castiel's hair, and his back's pressed against the Impala, and he's not sure when either of those things happened.

Castiel is a firm, hot pressure searing against his front, and Dean wants to pull him even closer. He wants to wrap himself in his warmth and never come back out.

Castiel is the one to pull away first. His hand holds Dean's jaw in place so that he can't chase after him. Dean gets the feeling that it's not the first time Castiel has tried to pull away to speak. His eyes are still black, and Dean's close enough to see himself in the reflection.

"Interesting," Castiel practically pants. He steps back and smooths his suit like it wasn't already a rumpled mess. "I'll be seeing you, Dean."

Between one blink and the next, he's gone. Dean sags against the Impala. I'll be seeing you, Dean. It didn't sound like he meant he'd see him in a decade when he came to collect on his debt. No, Dean had a feeling he'd be visited by Castiel much, much sooner.

"I'm fucked."

[stories-by-shanna-p]

Plot Bunny Adoptions

As some of you may know, I have an overabundance of plot bunnies! Plot bunnies are those story ideas I get (usually while writing another story) that stick around in my head.  Each time I come up with a new plot bunny, I write it down for later.  Which means they multiply quickly...

Unfortunately, my word doc with all these plot bunnies has become overcrowded.  I am unable to give all the love and care to these plot bunnies that they deserve, so I would like to offer them to caring writers who would give them a good home! 

Don’t worry, I have kept many plot bunnies to myself, but these others always seem to take a back burner, and that doesn’t seem fair!  So I am giving them up for adoption! 

Below the ‘keep reading’ line are many, many plot bunnies that I am putting up for adoption.  But before you adopt, some things to note:

Plot bunnies are available for the following fandoms: Supernatural, Star Wars, and Hobbit 

Once you adopt a plot bunny, it is yours.  You can change it to an insert reader, OC, ship, anything you like.  You can change characters that are the focus or even make it an AU.  It is yours, so you can groom it and play with it all you want! :D 

Plot bunnies can only be adopted to one home.  Once they are adopted, they are no longer available!  For this reason, if you want to adopt one of these adorable plot bunnies, you have to send me an ask with the plot bunny number you are interested in!  I will respond saying if that plot bunny is yours or if it has been adopted already.  

I will not be writing these plot bunnies after they are adopted, so they are completely yours.  Any that aren’t adopted will go back to my word doc and hopefully find a forever home with either myself or someone in the future! 

You are welcome to adopt more than one plot bunny at a time, if you can give them good homes! ^^

When you start writing the plot bunny, please tag me in it!!!  I would love to come visit and say hi every now and then! :D 

Adoptions will be open until July 1st.  

If you, or someone you know, has been looking for new ideas for stories or a challenge or such, please refer them to this plot bunny adoption.  I hope you will consider giving one of these little guys a good home!!! <3 <3 <3 

The plot bunnies below are organized by fandom.  For ease of browsing, if the original plot bunny idea has a main focal character, that character’s name will be bolded so you can find them quickly.  

Plot bunnies will have any random thoughts or details that I came up with at the time.  Feel free to use these or use your own.  It is completely your decision. ^^  I just copied them directly from my word doc! XD 

I hope you will find a bunny that suits you!!! 

Supernatural Fandom

·         Plot Bunny #2: (Metatron) God decides to bring back some angels that have died, Metatron, Raphael, Uriel, Zacharia, Gabriel, Balthazar, etc, but they have to prove they are worthy, so God decides…there first task is to be a guardian angel to a human, or in this case a hunter.  The Winchesters know a hunter, almost like a daughter to Bobby, who usually hunts on her own.  She will stop by the bunker every now and then, but then is usually alone, so when Chuck asks for recommendations, she is the first on their list…but that also means that her angel is Metatron.  Eager to prove his worth to his father, Metatron sticks by the female hunter like glue, watching her every move, which causes some tension.  Have a lot of spats, hilarious moments, awwww moments, and then perhaps feelings evolve? 

·         Plot Bunny #8: (Lucifer) Lucifer inspired by “Evermore”.  He had to convince her to leave for her own protection before the apocalypse.  

·         Plot Bunny #9: (Gabriel) While making his rounds as the trickster, Gabriel gets in a chat room and meets someone. They become quick friends and continue to chat for months.  One day, the girl asks to meet him, but of course, he refuses, even if he really likes her.  But then a friend of hers messages him, begging him to come, because she is dying, they say it will happen in the next 24 hours. He shows up and the friend meets him, happy that he came.  “You have been the only light in her life for these past months, now she can finally meet the man from the internet that she fell in love with.”   

·         Plot Bunny #10: (Gabriel) You are a student at the school that Gabriel is a janitor at.  You form a relationship with him, you being an acting/singing student. You find out (eventually) what he really is.  But at this point, you don’ care, because you have fallen hard for him.  One point, you dislocate your arm and he has to take you to the ER.  The meds make you loopy, and that is your first kiss with him.  “Wow, how messed up did those pills make you?”  Gabriel asked.  You responded with a smile.  “Enough that I have the courage to do this, but not so much that I won’t remember in the morning.”  You spend time at his place, eventually move in with him and his dog.  You are in acappella group, he goes to watch you compete. But what happens when your “father” Bobby Singer and your “brothers” Dean and Sam come hunting for him? 

·         Plot Bunny #14: (Castiel) Highschool AU. You are dating the popular senior, Dick Roman, when the Shirleys move into town.  You use to be friends with the Winchesters and others, but Dick pushed them out of your life to turn you into the cliché popular girl at school. When they move, you meet Castiel, who quickly develops a huge crush on you, but is really shy.  After many failed attempts to get your attention, Dick finds out about his crush and starts to bully Cas badly.  When you find out, you turn Dick in and go to check on Cas and his family.  It is then you find out what Dick did to push your old friends away.  In hopes to get you back, Dick makes a huge romantic declaration of love in the form of a proposal/promise ring in front of the whole school, but when you say no, it turns you into the biggest social outcast. Luckily, you have your friends back, and Castiel is happy to help you through.  After a year, you are now best friends with Cas, still unknowing about his feelings towards you.    

·         Plot Bunny #17: (Dean) You and Dean have been dating for a couple years now, while also hunting along side them. At least until you find out you are pregnant with Dean’s baby.  You tell him, and he freaks out and goes drinking.  When he gets home, you over hear him telling you that he is going to ‘fix his mistake’.  You misunderstand, he really means marry you and settle down, like he has been wanting to. Before you can find this out from Dean himself, you run away.  Four years later, Dean is still searching for you, but gets a call from Garth.  When he gets there, he finds out that you had a son, John Robert Winchester (JR/JB (John Bobby)).  You died when demons came after your son and sent him to Garth.  Garth has been trying to help Dean find her, so when this happens, he calls him.  Dean has to deal with the grief, while also bringing a little boy into his life. They stay at the bunker and Dean keeps hunting.  JR was raised on hunting stories and likes his bed time story to be readings from lore books.  He also likes looking at maps for where to go next!  OR you go to Bobby’s for some help where he tells you Dean has been searching for you (JR only 2/3).  Dean and Sam show up shortly after and chaos ensues? 

·         Plot Bunny #18: (Dean)  Dean and Sam run into Jesse, the boy who is half demon.  He takes them to a secluded place where others like him live and train.  It is led by a woman, who is very powerful, but also very kind and gracious.  When Jesse gets captured by demons, the woman works with Sam and Dean to free him. During that time, Dean and she develop feelings for each other.  The night they save Jesse, Dean admits to her that he is in love with her, and wants her to stay with him.  She loves him too, but, she leaves.  Because she knows the truth of her parentage, and the boys.  She leaves a note for Dean, explaining that she loves him, which is why she can’t stay, because if he knew the truth he would hate her, because she is Azazel’s child.  At first, Dean and Sam are angry about it, thinking that she tricked them.  But when words gets out that the demons have their hands on a powerful half-breed, Sam and Dean are back to the rescue.  

  Star Wars Fandom

·         Plot Bunny #21: (Hux) OC is resistance spy, but saves Hux’s life and they become friends, and almost lovers.  When the First Order is under attack by another force, she gets the resistance to bring in help and saves the day.  Eventual love

 Hobbit Fandom

·         Plot Bunny #22: (Kili and Fili) After reclaiming Erebor and the restoration is mostly done, the princes decide to put their skills to work by creating a memorial in the hall of kings for their father. When revealed, Dis is in tears, as is Thorin.  “He would be proud of you both.”  During, they talk of stories and what they remember about their father.    ·         Plot Bunny #27: (Thorin/Company) You are friends with Thorin, Dwalin, and all.  You are a bar maid in Ered Luin, they always bring liveliness to the place, and are very protective of you.     ·         Plot Bunny #35: (Bofur) In Ered Luin, Bofur meets a lass, a very shy one, that he wants to court.  But can the loud and cheerful miner court the quiet and shy seamstress?   ·         Plot Bunny #36: (Bofur) Bilbo notices after a while that all the little things Bofur whittles has a design or such that is always similar.  Bofur explains that it is his muse, how each piece has that as a dedication to her. She is a dwarf in the Blue Mountains that he fancies.  He is hoping that he can prove his worth to her father by being on the quest, and with his share, provide a good life. Jump to later with Bilbo spying Bofur in the market at his stall with a woman, holding her close and smiling.  He is happy he finally has his muse.  ·         Plot Bunny #37: (Bagginshield)  Bilbo tries to teach Thorin how to garden, and Thorin tries to teach Bilbo blacksmithing. ·         Plot Bunny #38: (Bagginshield) Upon his return, Bilbo throws a dinner for his family to explain his absence.  He assumed Thorin, the Dewarf King, would be fine…but Thorin is in over his head…then add Lobelia to the mix.  ·         Plot Bunny #39: (Bagginshield) AU: Bilbo is a school teacher (younger children) and Fili and Kili are his students.  When they get into mischief, the school calls Dis, but since she is busy at work, Bilbo gets to finally meet Uncle Thorin. 

[amwritingmeta]

13x10 Deconstruction: Wayward Sisters

How can I not stand up and jump and applaud this setup? How? There is no way I can’t so *stands and claps and leaps for dear life* because this was a brilliantly executed pilot and I sincerely do not think we could’ve asked for, hoped for or wanted more. I got emotional at the unity (and I got chills from Claire’s single-mindedness in the closing scene because yes!) (awesome places to go!) While editing this post, it got long. #surprise

Hope you’ll bear with me!

1. I Am The Fire

This song does things to me, but I’ll put that in a separate post. It’s perfect for each and every one of these ladies (and each and every one of the men as well) (but again) (saving that) and here we get the backstory that ties these women together: a history of violence that, really, none of them chose for themselves, but one which all of them is handling in their own way and as best they know how. Whether this history is external or internal or both, they all share common ground. Fuck yes.

It’s also telling to me how they put Kaia’s three screams to the words “I am the fire” repeated three times. Kaia is fucking awesome and I could spec for a day and a half about all the possibilities surrounding her. Buuuuut let’s press on!

2. Mr Werewolf

Claire is our protagonist, hands down, and what is rather thrilling about the way she’s introduced is how the scene immediately establishes how she views herself and her own identity. It’s done in a way that will resonate with the bookend conversation she’ll have with Jody, because here is Claire in attack mode and she is damn good. No, she’s aces at what she does, actually, and she saves the girl. Telling us what?

That Claire can survive in attack mode just as well as the people she learned from do. (that would be the Winchesters) She’s a hunter. She kills things for “a living”, or what you’d want to call it, and here at the start she sees absolutely no reason to question that this is how things are done, because doing things this way is working for her. It’s kept her alive this long. Making it up as she goes.

So when Mr. Werewolf overpowers her and tackles her to the floor, demanding to know who the hell she thinks she is, she gets the upper hand easily enough, has a blade handy and kills the threat, delivering this line -->

--> letting us know how she views herself.

And giving us an earful of her arrogance as well, to be honest. One that will also be addressed as the episode moves forward, and one that wholly informs the final few frames we’re given. (which are pretty damn kickass if you ask me)

When Claire enters that cabin, we’re made privy to a professional mercenary who checks that she has the right vic, but doesn’t ask if said vic is okay and doesn’t offer words of reassurance that the vic is safe now: she asks the vic’s name and then focuses on the kill. Fair enough, right? But, again, mercenary as fuck. 

This aspect isn’t a bad thing, though. It’s a coping mechanism we’ve come to know well through a certain Dean Winchester. Distancing yourself emotionally to get the job done. This really is how you survive in the life, so it’s understandable in a life and death situation to first eliminate the bad guy (though I do feel Sam’s thoughts would go to the vic, and whether they’re alive and okay, first - and the threat second)

What’s interesting from a character viewpoint is taking Claire’s backstory into consideration and what her mercenary stance might tell us, especially given how she presents herself in dialogue: as a killer. She’s gentle and calming with Amanda, there’s no lack of empathy here, but the next scene we’re given shows us Claire visually distancing herself from the reunion between mother and child.

She sees the girl home, making sure she’s safe, but she doesn’t engage with the moment and, to me, it underlines where she’s currently at mentally - distancing herself from those that would call her family, thinking she’s better off alone, but there’s a slight longing there, an air of melancholy, like she’s looking at something she doesn’t think she can have.

It’s a sign of what the past has done to her and the scars she carries on the inside, ones she doesn’t really show anyone. I’m intrigued to see how they choose to let them reveal themselves.

This is a girl who has stepped into the shoes of the killer because she refuses to remain a victim of circumstance. She lost her family to circumstance and choices she had absolutely no control over - no wonder she has a problem with authority and has grown a serious need for control and agency.

I must say I love that when Jody calls, Claire drives straight to Sioux Falls without hesitation. She’s loyal to a fault. Well, perhaps a few faults, as we’ll soon be made aware of. (stubbornness being the main one) 

3. The Prodigal Daughter Returns

So we get stuff in this sequence. We get a lot of great, awesome stuff in this sequence. Stuff like -->

Claire feels a little unsure about how she’ll be received and is relieved that Jody’s warm with her, Claire trying to act like she isn’t relieved with the comment of “When did we become huggers?” (hello Dean Winchester Jr.)

Claire and Alex have become sisters, no matter how little either of them may have wanted or expected it to begin with

And with Jody acting like a worried and over-protective parent (hello second Dean mirror), the found family foundation of Wayward Sisters is established right off the bat *crowd goes wild*

We learn that Alex has a job and is splitting her time between normal life - or whatever you want to call it - and helping Jody, which gives us an interesting angle moving forward because instead of there being “you’re in the life and never out of it” we have someone who is managing both and who looks at her role as still being equal because you can be useful in different ways *squealing with delight from this corner*

We also get the introduction between Claire and Patience and the subsequent reveal of Patience’s powers, powers that Claire brush off as unreliable at best, not really taking the pronounced threat seriously 

And Patience is revealed to still be on the fence, as well as still being in the dark about exactly how her powers work

Both the fact that Claire so easily dismisses Patience’s vision, as well as Patience herself not being entirely sure about the vision being accurate, are important plants for the fact that this particular vision isn’t actually about Claire at all - but about Kaia.

Moreover, Patience doesn’t know how to interpret her visions yet, she’s not in tune with them, which is a crucial thing to understand about her at this point in time - because it sets up where her arc is headed - and it’s beautifully done. 

We get a fantastic exchange between Jody and Claire here, where their mother/daughter relationship is highlighted and where Jody’s previous flaws are revealed - ones that will be stated in dialogue with Donna later: Jody can’t lose another child, her fear is governing her and because she’s held on too tight, she’s lost her hold on Claire completely. 

What’s lovely, though, is that this exchange happens right after we’ve gotten that visual of Claire reuniting a mother with her child.

We know what Claire longs for deep down and why that hug makes her give us that awkward line, something that’s reflected after they lose Kaia, where Claire needs her mother figure more than ever and Jody holds her and comforts her. Claire may tell herself she’s a lone wolf and that everyone’s better off if she is - especially her, but deep down what she wants is, of course, a family.

She just doesn’t know it yet, and I’d say she still doesn’t even know it by the end of this episode. But I’ll get to that.

There’s the slightest disconnect between Jody calling Claire with the line “They were on a hunting trip and I haven’t heard from them for a few days” when this, each time this sentence has been used on the show, has been a call to arms, and yet Jody is expecting Claire not to pick up those arms and join the fight because of the vision Patience had of Claire dying. 

Jody should know Claire well enough by now to understand that if the people she cares about - and owes her life to - are in trouble, Claire’s not going to sit this one out (Alex knows) but yes, alright, I suppose Jody hoped that Claire would see reason when someone who’s the real deal is telling her she’s in danger. And yes alright, once Claire sees that Patience truly is the real deal it does get to Claire and she takes a momentary step back... 

But Jody expecting Claire to have a fear of dying and this fear somehow stopping Claire from getting into the thick of it is a little off to me, given that Claire risks her life on what’s surely at least a weekly basis. Of course, Jody’s motivation for trying to talk Claire into sitting this one out is Jody’s own fear of Claire dying - which is what will be addressed during the course of the episode, so from a narrative viewpoint it makes sense: these are the emotional touchstones we’ll come back to throughout the episode between these two characters where Jody is trying to hold on too tight and Claire continuously makes her own choices, ultimately proving to Jody that she can let go.

So I suppose the disconnect can be forgiven. Perhaps Jody thought this call to arms was the only way to get Claire home, holding onto the hope that once told that hunting will get her killed Claire would finally ease up on this narrow focus of hers and see the bigger picture. (and I’m headcanoning) (let’s move on)

4. You Look Like Biker Barbie

I just wanted to headline no. 4 with one of my favourite lines of dialogue because bwahahaha ‘tis funny because ‘tis true. And hey I love Claire and her bouncy shampoo-commercial hair, okay? But damn, it must take her a long time to make it look like that in the morning, as well as doing her makeup like wow. Still all good! Just - wow.

We get exposition between Alex and Claire, revealing Alex’s motivations and the difference between them: Alex is there for Jody and Claire takes this comment personally, telling us more about the guilt that Claire feels about her absence than it shows any blame on Alex’s part towards Claire for staying away. (though Alex’s silence might as well be agreement) 

Here Alex is also differentiated from Jody in how Alex says she knew how Claire would react to being told about the vision, so perhaps Alex tried to tell Jody that it was pointless believing telling Claire she’s going to die was going to make any difference with regards to Claire’s attitude when it comes to “dive-bombing into every fight”, because Claire’s too pig-headed. (headcanon) (again) (but a reasonable one I should think) (because the rest of the narrative folds around Claire’s continuous dive-bombing strategy) (it’s so pretty)

Now we get Claire and Kaia meeting for the first time and...

...yeah. 

To me this is the equivalent of “Who are you?” as well as establishing an instant, unspoken connection between these two young women, right? Right. A bond, you might even call it. So the parallels with the love story they’ve been building for ten years are immediate, but I’m not going to go into the Destiel of it all here - I’ll save that for another post, because this post is about this Pilot, and  so I’d like to treat it as such. The fact that Kaia and Claire mirror Cas and Dean is a bright shiny hook for those of us who are in the know and recognise the telltale moments that the writers have chosen for us, but it is not so for the GA.

For the GA, this moment is about what I just stated above: it’s about an instant connection that will make the continued bonding between these two characters feel like something inevitable, due to this unquestionable and immediate curiosity with the other. The “Who are you?” moment is crucial for this. I wouldn’t label this love at first sight, I look at it more like knowing that this person could be important to you and understanding that you want them to be.

The “Who are you?” is about wanting to get to know each other better, and, of course, this moment also sets up for the moment of Kaia’s death because this instant connection not only makes Claire’s reaction believable, but deepens it for us as well.

5. Dreamhunter

Kill us all, Bobo Berens, kill us all right now why don’t you? “Dreamhunter”? What absolute fuckery is this??? *let me kiss both your cheeks* *FACE cheeks people not butt cheeks* *goodness me* *I kiss ass but not when wishes have been signed sealed delivered already* *I have some pride thank you very much*

The scene that sets up Kaia and Claire’s friend-ship is fucking gorgeously written - as most stuff is that’s meant to bring us to the edge of the emotional seat and lean in and just go awwwwwwww yiss. Damn these people know what they’re doing. *heart eyes*

There’s established trust since Kaia has seen Claire actually step in and save her from one of those things that have haunted her dreams forever.

Then they give us a way for them to bond over the fact that they’re both covered in scars, which is just... it made me all emotional, not only because it’s beautifully acted and gives us Kaia and Claire both meeting someone who won’t look at their scars in disgust and turn away, but because:

a) well @margarittet pointed out how of course this is a callback to Gunner Lawless and Dean exchanging war wound stories, but that scene always makes me think of the most epic let’s-compare-scars-scene that I know of, which is from Lethal Weapon III and leads to steamy kiss age 

(and when I started writing this review on Friday I was going to say “make of that what you will”) (but since then there has been a Twitter cavalcade of innuendo that is so strong I’d almost go so far as to say they are telling us that if this series gets picked up, well, then Dreamhunter will be a ship that we should want sailing) (like they have launched it with this pilot) (and it may take YEARS for it to reach harbour ((and I hope it does because I love a good will-they-won’t-they)) but they’re not trying to be coy about it in any way) (balls out) (if you will)

b) it made me think of Monster Movie and Dean talking about how he was brought back from Hell (by Cas) without any scars at all (apart from the conspicuous handprint on his shoulder but of course Dean doesn’t mention that one for reasons) and this scene between these two women is just a lovely opposite and yet beautiful link to the love story these two are beginning to mirror in this scene

c) it’s such a strong visual plant of their similarities, their brokenness and their ability to survive by looking out for themselves. Even though neither of them is responsible for the other’s scars the way Cas was responsible for healing every single previous injury Dean had ever sustained, but leaving his own mark on him as one single visual link between them, the visual link between Kaia and Claire through their shared scarring works in the exact same way

6. No, Sam, it’s a lizard --

It’s amazing that the brothers are in less than ten minutes of this episode and they are, both of them, acting the part of the victims in this one. They also get their asses handed to them by dark!Kaia (serves them right after Dean pulled a gun on our Kaia and Sam went along with it), get tied to a tree each and are about to be served up as dinner to the growling glow-y eyed monster dude. But I’m getting ahead of myself. The lizard exchange keeps making me giggle. 

Look at his faaaaace! :D

I love these men!

7. Little Miss Perfect

Patience is the only character that feels half-baked to me (and not in the I-didn’t-smoke-enough way). I understand it’s par for the course with a character that is in the midst of indecision about where she wants to be, and I doubt she’s done choosing even if she’s sticking around for now, but she’s not as graspable to me yet as the others are. I feel I don’t know who she is, which makes it harder for me personally to relate to her. I want to get to know her!

Her bond with her blood family vs this found family who accepts her as she is, is most likely going to be a part of her journey, but, of course, I also think her being moulded into a fighter is part of it as well. She has a long ways to go when it comes to understanding, accepting and learning to control her powers, which is why the choice they’ve made with Kaia and the possible left turn her journey is taking makes me excited, because before dark!Kaia we had two young women struggling to understand and control their innate power - now we have Patience still in that place, while dark!Kaia appears to be fully in control. 

(but that’s just my impression) (I’m so excited by dark!Kaia and where they might take her!!) (but I digress)

Patience states that she’s not a fighter (not yet but we already know where this plant is headed) and Alex says something wonderful:

This is wonderful because this is a new attitude they’re bringing into Wayward, and it underlines endgame for the brothers. Not that the brothers won’t fight or be at the forefront of hunting/MoL - but that there are more than one way to fight the good fight. 

Alex embodies a healthy attitude towards what she can give and what she wants to give. She’s found a way to help that suits her, rather than fitting herself into a role that might as well have been forced on her. She’s made her choice and comes across as a fucking glorious representation of inner balance. Now, this inner balance might be rocked at some point and the horrors of her past might come flooding back - or she’s meant to be the steady anchor for the rest of the group, the level headed one (which will drive Claire up the wall so goodness all around)

I would love for the group to have a voice of reason. Even Jody lets her emotions get the better of her while Alex is able to take a step back. In many ways, she feels like a Sam-mirror to me. The logical brain of the operation, while she also has those possibly hidden internal reasons for distancing herself and seeking out the “normal”. 

There’s also the possibility for real friendship here, a likeness between the levelheaded Alex and the equally realistic Patience. Neither wants to dive headfirst into things, both have a rather solid ground beneath their feet and they haven’t been drifting the way Claire and Kaia have. 

Patience was raised in a loving, albeit controlling, home where she’s felt safe and Alex was part of a vampire nest that looked out for her because she mattered to their survival - it was far from a loving family environment, but she was appreciated and had purpose there, she had a place, right? 

Neither Claire nor Kaia have ever really had that and of course that’s left scars on both of them.

6. Believe Me Now?

Alex fails to convince Patience to stay and Patience leaves, but has another overwhelming and overpowering vision, which makes her go back to get the others out of the house. 

Claire, however, wants to stay and fight the oncoming attack.

Sidebar: I very much enjoy that there’s planted friction between these two. It’s something to play with as they move forward, and if these two never really see eye to eye on how things should be done, Claire having to submit to Patience and vice versa depending on the situation and which mentality is to be dissected (Patience default setting is flee - same as Kaia’s, while Claire’s is fight) it leaves the door open for character exploration and exposition.

But more than anything, this scene provides us with a beautiful shift for Patience, where she storms into the room frightened and switches into anger when Claire challenges the assessment that if they stay and fight, they’ll die. Patience tells Claire off and she’s in the right to do it.

And then we get another subtle piece of the dreamhunter foundation: even though Claire is ready to butt heads with Patience on whether they’ll actually die or whether they should just risk it on the off-chance that Patience’s visions are bogus (based in Claire’s stubbornness and all that) - Kaia steps in and makes Claire see reason.

And the fact that Kaia can do that is believable because of the establishing scenes between them. The connection is already a fact and here it’s deepened further because Claire’s default position is attack mode - she kills monsters, that’s who the hell she is - and yet one shared glance with Kaia makes Claire give up this position, submit to Patience’s order (for lack of a better word) and flee.

Like fucking hell. So damn pretty.

Also, we get a healthy dose of Claire’s arrogance. Maybe they’ll die, maybe they won’t - she puts the possibility of killing the monsters ahead of keeping those around her safe and this, I would say, comes entirely out of her need for control, which, as already stated, can be traced straight back to her childhood and her father’s choice to let an angel possess him. 

I think Claire has made peace with Cas, but I doubt she’s made proper peace with Jimmy. He left her for God and he didn’t even say goodbye. Anyway, stuff to play with in the series and headcanon all rolled into one!

When it comes to the power struggle between Claire and Patience in this scene, it makes me so happy! Not many situations give a writer a free pass with exposition as when two characters are arguing about something, because anger is a gateway to slip-ups and truths being revealed. *rubs hands together at the possibilities* *come on CW* 

Add to their clashing dispositions the fact that Patience was wearing Claire’s sweater and had moved into Claire’s room when the two first met - underscoring Claire’s belief that she’s replaceable and her deep insecurity and lack of any self-worth aside from killing monsters - and you have the kindling for amazing internal and external conflict.

7. Better Than the National Guard, Oh, Yes

Donna Donna Donna Donna Donna! Who doesn’t love Donna Hanscum? (well I do so love her) And in the following badass sequence we get a bit of Donna/Jody teamwork, which is lovely to witness, and I absolutely adore the abandoned shipyard. It’s the most gorgeous location ever and they utilise it so well!

Claire stays with the “innocents” to keep them safe, but also to sit this one out, as she tells Kaia in yet another heart-to-heart, and they have built this relationship so gorgeously on four scenes (not including the moment of Kaia’s death). Four scenes, guys. That’s how good these fuckers are at what they do.

Claire admits to Kaia that Patience’s vision scared her and goes into even deeper Dean-mirror mode when she talks about how she’s wanted to go out fighting, die while doing “something great” - but knowing that she’s going to die is different than just thinking it, and I wonder how much of this is possible foreshadowing for what’s headed our way for the rest of the season. A change in attitude feels imminent for Dean Winchester as is, and perhaps he’ll start to value living, now that he’s on the cusp of understanding that he deserves happiness and a future (with the man he loves). But that’s spec! (and hope)

(again, not that Dean Winchester won’t fight the good fight) (but perhaps he won’t expect to die - perhaps he’ll fight so that he can live)

Claire, in spite of her fear, is determined to save Sam and Dean because they saved her, and Kaia tells her she’ll go with her, of course echoing that epic scene from 7x23 (gifsets have been made) where Cas and Dean have this very exchange. (adding to the foreshadowing of this love story of ours being moved forward as we enter the second half of this season) (well to my mind anyway)

8. I Need to Save Sam and Dean

Claire and the Waywards go to the shipyard and save Jody and Donna (who are lying in a car in the same position as the brothers in Baby and it gave me feelings to see it) (because Jody and Donna are parental figures and so are Sam and Dean this season) (nice visual paralleling). Claire is all badass with her flamethrower and they discover that the rift is closing. Only instead of fighting it, Jody let’s Claire go, putting her faith in her abilities because it’s what Claire says she needs - she needs to save Sam and Dean - and hell if Claire didn’t just step in and save Jody’s ass. 

There’s also the recurring “need” theme this season, but I’ll comment on that in just a moment.

And we get the fourth moment between Kaia and Claire, where Claire promises to protect her and they walk - hand-in-hand - through the rift and into Monster World.

9. My Hero -->

I love the fact that Claire really does get to be Dean’s hero, after what’s gone down between them in the past (Claire trying to have him killed and whatnot), and I love how salty Dean is that she manages it, too. That “My hero” is not a little sarcastic because here he is, tied to a tree like a sacrificial virgin, saved by a girl half his age. It’s also wonderful that he’s saved by a woman because of his ongoing need to embrace his feminine side (not to be confused with Dean embracing femininity thank you) (just him finding inner balance)

Of course now we also get dark!Kaia (which felt fairly obvious but also so breathtaking once the reveal happened that I clasped my hands over my heart in a quiet yassssss) and we get our Kaia dying. Is she dead? There are a few ways I can see them taking this, but again, I won’t spec here. It’s just such a shame on all that beautiful character build if our Kaia won’t make a reappearance, but it’s also possible that Claire needed our Kaia in order for her to believe there could be good in dark!Kaia... 

The transformative powers of love. That sort of angle, you know? 

But, idk, dark!Kaia could be dark af and have a plan to take over our world - who knows? I just know that they have named this ship for us. The showrunner has named it and the two actors are plugging it so it stands to reason that it’s not been clown completely out of the water, yes? Yes!

Jody, Donna, Alex and Patience take care of “the things” still in attack mode - Patience making her first kill after Donna’s encouraging “You got this”, which is another wonderful character building moment, but one that I’m sure Patience will continue to struggle with: is she a killer or is she a helper in other ways? Or both? We shall hopefully see!

And then, my ladies and my gents, we get yet another mirror moment (which has been seen in beautiful gifsets already, of course, because DAMN) -->

Can they get more blatant about the fact that we’re supposed to see a pattern here, when they give us ten years worth of love story condensed into one episode? I think not, my peeps. Good things up ahead or I shall eat that hat I’ve yet to buy. (it will be purchased don’t you worry) (and ingested) (piece by piece) (if we do not get a focusing of the love story the way it’s foreshadowed through these two women) 

10. A Whole New World of Bad

(it’s a whole new world of everything this season my dear Dean)

So, crisis supposedly averted, the brothers talk to Jody about Claire. Sam saying she seems pretty “shut down” and Jody agreeing that Claire is going to “need a lot of time”. Now, I’m fairly certain that we can look at this new ship of ours in many different ways and we all would love certain things for it or from it, but here’s what I hope, if the series does get picked up: that they take it slow. That’s what makes a love story epic. Slow burn and lots of build makes it unforgettable.

Why is it I think that again? 

Hmh. *whispers quiet thank yous to Bob Singer*

So you could look at this pilot as setting up Claire and Kaia falling in love within a few days and Claire being literally devastated that she’s lost someone she felt an affinity for. Or you could look at it as Claire being ripped apart with guilt that she failed to keep her promise and protect her new friend, who was always so frightened of going into the bad place before that she drugged herself up for years to try and stay out of there. Claire as a Dean mirror is pretty complete if this is her mentality, right?

I love the foundation for possible love here, but it all depends on where they take dark!Kaia this season, because I’m fairly certain she’ll make a reappearance. I think Dabb even said something to that effect, but don’t quote me because I don’t have the source. (anyone have it - send it over please!)

They keep calling the creatures “things” and we have an episode coming up called The Thing, which is, as mentioned, the reference to be made for the appearance of this adversary, so, safe to say, I’m intrigued! 

10. Bookends

I love the setup for this episode. It gives us an arc for Claire that is all about how she’s separated herself from her family because she thought it was better that way - to keep Jody from having to worry. But Jody worrying was always the reason Claire wasn’t allowed to hunt while with her, so the real reason Claire left and stayed away was because she wanted to be able to make her own decisions and risk her life as she’s seen fit.

Jody: Claire, if I put the breaks on you it’s because you can’t go dive-bombing into every fight— Claire: Yes, I can. That is how you save people. Sitting back and making the perfect plan, losing time - that’s how people end up dead. Jody: And if you end up dead? Claire: I won't. Jody: Claire, you can’t just run away from this. Claire: Watch me.

This above exchange is the first proper exchange we have between Claire and Jody and, of course, it sets everything up perfectly (because it’s the setup). Claire puts others before herself, but she’s also falsely safe in her arrogance, an arrogance that is all about what? Performing. 

Why has she dressed herself up as a killer? To escape, right? To get away from all the pain in her past, to take control. And this is underlined by Jody calling Claire out on her running away, Claire not lashing out or denying it, but embracing the statement, not allowing it to control her either. Because she’s in control, or so she truly believes. 

But then the entire episode unfolds and we land here -->

Claire: You were right. Jody: No, this isn’t on you. Not all of it. I told you to go-- Claire: No. I didn’t even think. I just raced in, no plan. I said I’d protect her. I get it now. Why you are the way you are with me. Because of this feeling. Jody: You don’t have to do this alone. When you’re ready, if you want, we’re all here for you.

So we get to witness character progression here, on Claire’s part and Jody’s: Jody trusts Claire and let’s her go to save the brothers, while Claire realises that rushing headfirst into a situation might not always be the best way to tackle it.

This lesson made my heart sing, not only because it’s beautifully structured and executed, but because this is what I wish - what we all wish - more than anything for TFW, right? For them to start to communicate, stay together and work as a team, which means talking things through and plotting things out - making things up as they go in all honour, but seriously, guys. And, honestly, they will be fucking unstoppable once they get all their ducks in a row. If this episode holds foreshadowing for the love story, then why not TFW as well? The thought makes me happy as all hell!

Claire relating to the worry Jody feels is a gorgeous way to tie this moment entirely to Kaia. Be it guilt or the bond between them or whatever the motivation for Claire’s change in attitude is, it’s still lovely. And short lived. Because then we get -->

11. My Family, My Army

So here Claire becomes a John/Sam/Dean mirror and, in essence, an honorary Winchester because she is setting herself on a mission of revenge. 

It would seem - given this mirror - that the Kaia/Claire affair was budding love, and it’s a solid concept, especially since our Kaia seems to be dead and what Claire now has to deal with is dark!Kaia, but what interests me is Claire’s attitude in this montage, her voice over telling us what she’s writing in her journal (yup another John tie-in of course) and it’s rather awesomely chilling:

Claire: I came back to Sioux Falls to save Sam and Dean Winchester, and I did. No - we did. We saved Sam and Dean. All of these amazing women. My family. They don’t know it yet, they think I’m staying because I’m broken, but I’m staying because I need them. My family - my army. The thing that killed Kaia is still out there, and I don’t care if I have to tear another hole in the universe: we’re going to find it, and I’m going to kill it. 

So, Claire calls dark!Kaia “the thing” as well. Yes, as mentioned already - intrigued. Not sure if I’m right, but dark!Kaia could clearly control Big Daddy Monster, right? I mean, she called it in for supper. She also seems to be in touch with her powers because she opens that rift and jumps through it. Omfg I NEED TO KNOW MORE! Safe to say, it’s possible she can also control the creatures. Anyway, this is all spec and we might not see her in SPN again at all! I’m just crossing fingers that we do, because of Jack as well!

(Jack needs to be bound for Wayward or I swear!!) 

Okay, I was making a point about what interests me in this piece of dialogue above, and it’s all to do with Claire’s attitude, which again is wholly mercenary. She does not care if she has to tear another hole in the universe, she’s going to lead her army into that hole and they will avenge Kaia.

Like oh dear good Lord this is such an amazing place to leave off, because Claire needs some serious baking, you know? She is cookie dough. Maybe she’s even half the ingredients still on the counter and she needs people to ADD stuff, because, oh, Claire, honey, no. (but YES) (I LOVE IT) 

Because if this sequence of scenes opens with Claire strapping on the Winchester boots, she doesn’t even flinch as she marches in them straight into Castiel territory. *the brain delights and crackles* She needs her family because she’s realised that they are stronger together, together they will find a better way, but she is wholly selfish about it --> they think I’m staying because I’m broken --> to her mind, she’s not. 

What we get is Claire ready to use the people closest to her as a means to an end, and I wonder if she’ll keep this attitude to herself and quietly take leadership, or if they’d angle it differently. Personally I would love it! Because in reality - she is so fucking broken! THERE ARE SO MANY AMAZING THINGS THAT CAN BE DONE TO HER JOURNEY!!! (broken characters are the best) (*sadism*)

And with that I believe I’ll round this deconstruction off and say thank you for bearing with me and I hope you enjoyed the episode as much as I did. Man, these ladies deserve to shine! I hope they get to!! Come on, CW!!

[winchesterprincessbride]

Friday Top Ten-Week 12-Demons, Demons, Everywhere!

Demons are more often than not the bad guys on Supernatural.  And there had been a lot of them. Red-eyed ones, yellow-eyed ones, and the standard black-eyed ones. And let’s not forget the Princes of hell and the Knights of hell. Here is my top ten list of my favorite demons from Supernatural. *Contains Spoilers BIGTIME*

10.

Guy

He may have only been in one episode, but it’s one of my favorites! “Season 7-Time for a wedding!” Guy is the Crossroads Demon that gives Becky Rosen (LOVE Becky, BTW) the love potion she uses to drug Sam. Played by the marvelous Leslie Odom, Jr.  I kinda hope Crowley didn’t follow through with “making an example of him.”

9.

Ruby 1.0

I liked Ruby 2.0 a lot too, but Ruby 1.0 was more of a wild card, and you didn’t really know what her end game was. Since she wasn’t involved with Sam yet, it was really interesting to watch her motives play out.  And Katie Cassidy was great in this role.

8.

Lilith

Sam killing Lilith was the 66th seal, and Lucifer was freed from in cage. Watching her in the body of the two little girls, coldly killing everyone in the police station that Sam and Dean had worked so hard to save, and then in the other girl, snapping her grandfather’s neck. It was downright creepy.

7.

Alastair

Hell’s master torturer, and the one who tortured Dean on the rack while he was in Hell.  For the 40 years, he was there (4 months earth time) every day he would ask Dean if he wanted to trade his place for another soul. For 30 years Dean refused until he couldn’t take the pain anymore and began torturing souls himself.  “And the righteous man shall shed blood in hell, thus breaking the first seal.” I could not stand the actors voice, I have to admit. It always sounded like he needed a good cough.

6.

Abaddon

Knight of Hell, and single-handedly responsible for the extinction of the American chapter of the Men of Letters.  The boys cross paths with her when she comes after their grandfather Henry Winchester in her search for the key of the order of letters. She decides Crowley is doing a crappy job running Hell and she can do better, and the battle begins.

5.

Dagon

A Prince of Hell, Dagon is instructed by Lucifer to protect Kelly Kline while she is pregnant with Lucifer’s Nephilim child.  She saves Kelly from two angels and at first, pretends to be kind, but later when Kelly tries to escape she treats Kelly like a prisoner and her vessel is snarky and completely lacks a filter. She is burned up by Castiel under the influence of Jack’s power.

4.

Azazel

A Prince of Hell, and the one who started it all. He is the guy who killed Mary Winchester and fed Sam his blood.  John Winchester became obsessed with hunting him down and avenging his wife.  Sam finds out later he is one of Azazel’s special “children” and that he has big plans for him.  John sells his soul to him to save Dean’s life in season 2.

3.

Cain

Cain was the firstborn of Adam and Eve and the brother of Abel.  Cain became a demon to save his brother’s soul from Lucifer.  Sam and Dean are direct descendants of Cain and Abel.  Cain was the worst demon in Hell until he retired for love.  He came out of retirement to fight Abaddon’s forces, and fell back under the Mark of Cain’s influence, slaughtering his direct descendants, until he was killed by Dean, or was he?

2

Meg

The snark, the one-liners, the sizzling-hot chemistry with a certain blue-eyed angel.  Meg caused a lot of trouble for the Winchesters when Lucifer was around. But once Luci was back in his cage and Crowley took over, our favorite bad girl became “kinda good” which in her words “sucked.” When she tells Sam “Go save my unicorn” and then Crowley kills her, I was really bummed. I miss Meg.

1

Crowley

Was there ever any doubt? Mark Sheppard delivered his snark in that velvety rasp that I just loved! Not to mention the endless variety of nicknames for the boys: Lumbering piles of flannel, denim-wrapped nightmares, just to name a few. Crowley was a bad guy who even when he became “good”, you could never quite trust him. I loved his interactions with Rowena too.  When he sacrificed himself to try and trap Lucifer in the alt-verse, I literally screamed out loud. RIP, my King.

And there you have it, peeps! Catch you next Friday for a new list!

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[holylulusworld]

Give a little bit of your heart to me

Summary: Dean wanted a bit of your heart; you gave him it all only to feel it breaking.

Pairing: Mobster!Dean x Reader, Mobster!John x Reader (platonic)

Character: Ellen Harvelle, Ruby, Sam Winchester

Warning: arranged marriage, angst, mentions of divorce, pregnant reader, comforting, remorse, fluff, misunderstandings

‘Give a little bit, give a little bit of your heart to me,’ back then you smiled at Dean’s words, knowing he got forced into this marriage too. Your father and John Winchester wanted to form a strong bond between the two mightiest empires, so you and John’s eldest had to marry.

You had not seen Dean for a lifetime, but you still remembered the funny, cocky, and green-eyed boy with so many freckles you could never count them.

A tiny piece of your heart always beat for him, so it was easy for you to give Dean not only a little bit of your heart but the whole damn beating thing. Now it is a broken mess, a bleeding pulp that will never heal.

“I’ll pack as fast as possible, John,” your voice broken, defeated you place the golden band, and your engagement ring into his hand. “I know it was an arranged marriage, but I thought after five years I know your son.”

“Y/N,” murmuring your name John watches you subconsciously rub your belly. “Do you have to tell me anything, doll?”

“Your son is a lying son of bitch who just left me,” you huff, walking toward the house you shared with Dean. 

“I will go and tell my father the arrangement is over, John. You will have to clarify the details as daddy will get mad,” you flinch at the thought of facing your father. “You don’t want to see him mad, John.”

“Doll, wait,” sighing John grasps your wrist. “I know about the baby and can’t let you leave. It’s my grandchild, my heir.” Your stomach tightens looking up at John. “Your life, it never was yours in the first place, Y/N. I’ll give you all you need, but you have to stay and raise your child as a Winchester.”

“I can’t,” voice cracking you blink the tears away. “I should leave before Dean returns.”

You would run away, hide somewhere but honestly, you have got nowhere to go. Not with John Winchester wanting your child and your father insisting on a bond with Dean.

“This is my house, my manor, not Dean’s. You will move into my part of the house and Dean will shut his mouth. When he comes back, I will set him straight,” John slings his arm around your shoulders, not missing the hopelessness in your eyes when you agree to follow him.

“It’s not as if I got anywhere to go, John. At least you will get what you always wanted, an heir for your empire,” you whisper bitterly, missing John’s pained expression when tears roll down your cheeks. “As you said, my life never was mine.”

“You said I can divorce her after five years! I want to be free again, Sir,” Dean yells. “I was the perfect husband and partner. I played my part, now play yours,” his words make your legs wobble and fresh tears run down your cheeks.

Dean lied. This whole time he made you believe he loves you too. Façade. Charade. A foul play, that is what you are to him. He made a deal and now he wants out.

“John, let him out,” your voice meek, thin, and all the fight gone from your eyes you rub your arms nervously. “If he wants out, let him out.”

“See, she doesn’t want to stay married either,” Dean wants to touch your arm to thank you for your words, but you flinch away, jerking your arm out of his grip.

“Don’t touch me,” your voice cracks now but you fight the tears. “You want to be free, be free. Lucky you, Dean. I never had a chance and are stuck here as…,” you run away before you tell Dean about the baby, his baby.

“What’s wrong with her?” John shakes his head at his son’s behavior. “Father, why did Y/N look as if she’s hurt? I thought she didn’t want this marriage.”

“You really are a blind, my son. I suggest you’ll leave her alone and turn your attention toward the girl you want to leave Y/N for,” walking away John leaves his son alone with his thoughts.

“I thought she wanted to divorce too, Sir. Wait, hey, wait up,” Dean jogs after his father grasping for John’s wrist. “Talk to me.”

“I want you to take care of Crowley, Dean. You’ll be out of town for a month or two and can rethink your decision,” John sighs deeply. “If you still want to divorce Y/N I will not stop you. I’ll take care of the mess you left, as always.”

Dean did not say goodbye before he left to deal with Crowley. To be honest, it would have been too hard to see rejection, maybe even triumph in his eyes.

“He’ll be back in a month or two, Y/N. Enough time for him to come to his mind and realize what he’s about to lose,” you nod, what else can you do when the most powerful and dangerous mobster tells you his opinion.

“I will go to my room, goodnight John,” watching you leave John hates he has to force you to stay but with your father insisting on not breaking the bond he’s got no other choice than to protect his heir, the future of his empire.

Three weeks passed without a word from Dean, not that you believed he would at least call to tell you he’s alright. While you lie on the bed in the room John offered to you, the door opens once again.

Over the last weeks, John took care of you, watched over you like a mother hen, not that you would ever dare to call the mobster like that.

“You need to eat something, doll. Ellen made chicken, peas, carrots, and mashed potatoes.”

“I am not hungry, or rather the moment I eat anything I have to run to the bathroom. Breakfast ended up in the toilette, just like the apple I ate,” you do not turn around, not wanting John to stay longer than needed.

“Listen, I know this is a fucked-up situation, but you’ll get up, have a shower, and come to join me in my living room. We can watch one of those movies Dean hates so much,” John sits onto your bed, gently patting your hand. “Mary, she had problems with Dean too. I made her fennel tea.”

You would laugh about John acting like a nurse, but you know he means well, tries to make the best out of a bad situation. “Okay, I’ll be there after a shower.”

“If you need anything else, tell me or Ellen so,” you nod, glancing at John who places your wedding band and engagement ring onto the nightstand. “I am sure, when Dean comes back he’ll apologize, Y/N.”

You nod silently, knowing John is wrong about Dean. Your husband does not give a shit on you, to be honest…

“Better,” while you sip on the fennel tea John insisted to make you nod, faking it did make you feel better. “Just relax and watch, uh-erm,” glancing at the movie John rubs his scruffy chin. “What are we watching?”

“I don’t know,” mumbling the words you look at the huge TV, not following the story at all. “I just zapped around and ended up watching that movie. She looked pretty in her wedding dress, though.”

“Y/N, you need to stop acting as if you are a prisoner or worse. I know you believe I want you to stay because of the baby inside your belly, and I want you to but,” John wraps one arm around your shoulders, letting you rest your head against his shoulder, “I want to keep you safe.”

“Dad would get mad when he gets to know I made Dean leave. He would believe I manipulated our marriage to get out or something similar, John. My family is not used to give comfort. They are all hard, calculated, and power-hungry,” you glance at your belly, slowly rubbing it. 

“You’re showing,” John covers your hand, squeezing it tightly. “Just a little but I see the difference.”

“You mean I got fat,” giggling you blink the tears away. “There is no reason for Dean to like me, you know. I guess, he had to imagine someone else to get intimate with me. I am such a fool…”

“Doll, get down here and join us for dinner,” John grumbles when you refuse to come down to eat with Sam, Ruby, Ellen, and John.

“No! Nothing fits any longer, John. I look like a wale!” You yell back. “I will not go downstairs wearing a too-tight dress or crap!”

“Jesus, Y/N. You are three months pregnant, not a wale. Come downstairs or I’ll send Sam to drag you down or Ruby,” Ruby glares at John, pointing her knife at the mobster. 

“I am not a threat,” she grunts, watching you slowly pat down the stairs. “There she is! A pretty mama!”

“A wale,” grumbling you walk toward the table in a too-tight shirt and shorts which do not cover your belly. You baby bump peeks out of the shirt and John smirks, holding back a chuckle as you glare at him.

“You look beautiful, doll. Now sit, eat and we can talk about baby names,” John pulls your chair, smirking as you wiggle on the seat to get comfortable.

“How about Dexter,” Ruby smirks watching you narrow your eyes.

“Samuel?” Sam tries and you toss a napkin at the tall mobster who grins at you.

“John Winchester Jr.,” John exclaims, and you groan, hiding your face in the palms of your hands. “J. Jr.,” he tries again, and you shake your head silently.

“John Henry Winchester,” not giving in John tries to convince you but you stay adamant. “It’s a great name for your baby.”

“Not for a girl, John!” You grunt and everyone cheers at the table as you finally told them the gender. “You son of a bitch!” Head snapping upward you purse your lips when John gives you a grin. 

“That’s my line, sweetheart,” Dean snickers, waltzing into the room. If it’s possible for him to look even better after three months he does look better. His hair longer, chin scruffy and his eyes sparkling he looks around the room. “What? No welcome back?”

“Welcome back, son. How were the deal, Mexico, and the weather?” John clears his throat when you silently get up to leave the room. “Y/N, you didn’t eat anything. Stay.”

“I lost my appetite, John. I’ll sleep a bit or whatever,” voice trembling you rush out of the room, not caring John calls your name repeatedly.

“Did I just kill the mood,” Dean blinks a few times, glancing at his family. “What did I do?”

“Uh-let’s start with you leaving your wife. You not calling for over three months or the fact you want to divorce her,” Ruby deadpans. “Maybe her current state makes her even more vulnerable.”

“Current state? Is she sick?” Dean gasps, glancing at the untouched food. “Why did she ran upstairs? Our bedroom is opposite.”

“She lives in John’s guest wing as you wanted her to leave, dude,” Sam grits out. “What did you believe would happen? That Y/N would wait for you to kick her out.”

“I just,” sighing Dean drops his bags before he walks toward the stairs. “I got to talk to her. I mean, she’s my wife, right?”

John rolls his eyes, close to saying something he will regret. “Not for much longer. You are back, you still want to divorce her so I can marry her,” John lies, a dirty grin on his lips. “I’d like to have a younger wife.”

“You, what?” Choking on his words Dean balls his hands into fists. “You said I shall think about divorce, not that you would ram your teeth into my wife!”

“Ex-wife, Dean. If you want out of this marriage, I will not stop you but,” John smirks devilish, “someone has to take care of Y/N and her needs.”

“If you touched my wife I’ll castrate you,” Dean threatens, bumping his chest against John’s. “I thought she wants out of the marriage. I never said I will let you touch my girl, you vulture. Go and get a random girl. This one is mine.”

Dean storms off, still cursing when the door slams shut behind him with a loud bang. “I should’ve said something sooner,” John snickers. “I woke the alpha. Imagine what he’ll do hearing she’s having his baby.”

“You’re the devil, John Winchester,” Ellen laughs at Ruby’s words, nodding eagerly. “I like your style, sometimes.”

“Son of a bitch, Y/N! Did he touch you? Did my fath…,” Dean’s eyes widen, his jaw goes slack, and you can see the color drain from his face when you step into the bedroom, showing off your baby bump. “Y/N,…sweetheart?”

“What brought you here, Dean? Do I have to sign the papers,” you sigh, sitting onto the bed, not meeting Dean’s gaze. “I think John prepared everything. We only have to sign the papers and you can go to that girl you want.”

“There is no girl, Y/N,” mumbling the words Dean kneels in front of the bed, not taking his eyes from your swollen belly. “Why didn’t you tell me?” He looks up at you, searching your face.

“You wanted out of this marriage. It thought you wouldn’t care or worse,” you huff, grabbing the blanket to cover your body. “Doesn’t matter anymore. I am trapped to stay here. John’s order. You can go and party or whatever you planned to do without me dragging you down.”

“Sweetheart,” his hand trembles when he moves it under the blanket to touch your bump. “My baby is inside your belly. I never thought I’ll be a father one day.”

“Dean, you are free to go and leave this to me,” not wanting to see him pity you, you scramble away, crawling toward the pillow to sleep the hurting off. “Leave me alone and got to that girl.”

“I told you, there is no other girl, Y/N,” Dean sounds angry when he kicks his shoes off, crawling onto the bed to lie next to you. He’s burying his face into your neck, inhaling your scent. “You smell like vanilla and lilac. I’ve missed your scent, your soft skin, your lips on mine.”

“Sure,” you grunt, angrily clenching your fists. “That’s the reason you did not call and gave a shit on me for three months, Dean.”

“Y/N, I was kinda undercover to find out what’s Crowley planning. I could not call my wife or crap. I had to be as invisible as possible,” he’s moving closer to wrap his arms around your waist. “I swear, I wanted freedom for you, nothing else.”

“You wanted my heart, and I gave it to you only to get hurt,” Dean listens to your words, hating he made you feel that way. “I never wanted to hurt you, Y/N. Let me make it right.”

“How? By pretending you love me too,” you huff, turning in his embrace to slap his face. “I am done listening to your lies.”

“Love? You love me,” Dean scoots closer to cup your face, ignoring your angry look. “Fuck me,” his lips press against yours and you must use all your strength to break free.

“What the fuck Dean!”

“My wife loves me,” he smirks, glancing at your belly, “and I knocked her up. Now back to my father touching you.”

“Gosh, John would never touch me, not that this is any of your business, Winchester.” You glare at Dean when he tries to touch your belly. 

“I am sorry, Y/N. I promise to be the husband you deserve if you give me the chance to. I know asking for divorce without talking to you was stupid, but I thought you want out,” Dean pecks your lips, rubbing your belly slowly. “I heard you talking to Ruby and wanted to let you go.”

“I don’t understand, Dean. I never said I want out of our marriage. I said I want to get out of this house,” you groan, frustrated.

“Exactly!”

“I didn’t want to live with your father, brother, and their girlfriends. I wanted a place of our own, Dean.” Dean starts laughing, even throws his head back.

“I guess next time I should listen closely,” he is rubbing your belly, smiling as you cover his hand with yours. “I don’t want out of this marriage, Y/N.”

“Is that a lie again or can I have a little bit of your heart too?” Dean pecks your lips, gently stroking your cheek. “Sweetheart, you can have the whole damn thing…”

Part 2

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[holylulusworld]

Demons lie

Summary: Demons lie and sometimes lies have consequences.

Pairing: Demon!Dean x Omega!Reader (flashbacks), Alpha!Dean x Omega!Reader

Characters: Sam Winchester

Warnings: angst, language, pining, abandonment, rejected omega, sickness, eating disorder due to sickness, A/B/O, nonconsensual claiming, comforting, fluff

It was like you never knew him, the alpha pressing you against the wall, not caring you whimper at the pain he causes. He whispered dirty things into your ear, but you tried to ignore his intentions.

The demon your friend became tried to terrify you with his words and his hands around your throat.

“You know, Dean never tried anything as he was afraid to get you killed,” the demon purred against your lips, forcing his tongue down your throat.

“D��,” you fought, clawed at his shoulders but his lips and teeth wandered to your neck. He inhaled your scent deeply, smirking when you started to whine against him. “Please, let me go. This isn’t you Dean.”

“Alpha, that’s how you will address me from now on, omega. You’re mine, always belonged to me. Be good,” he purred against your throat, his teeth only inches from your mating gland.

“Dean doesn’t want me, please. He’s with that girl, Cassie. They are a pair, he wants to claim her,” you sniffled silently, feeling his teeth nibble at your neck. “He’s only afraid to get her killed.”

“He’s not afraid, sweetheart,” the demon smirked, lapping at your skin. “Dean wants you, that’s the truth. I think, you need confirmation, something to make you see how much he wants you…”

Moments later Castiel dragged Dean off your body, healed your twisted ankle, not missing the panic in your eyes when Sam entered the room. “Cas, please…don’t…”

The angel nodded, letting you run out of the room to hide in your bedroom, crying silently.

This is how you ended up in Dean’s room, begging him to talk to you…

“Dean, can we talk?“ You can see the guilt in Dean’s eyes when he forces himself to look up as you step inside his room. He’s seated on the floor, glancing at the mark he touched not moments ago. “The demon, he said a few things and…”

“Demons lie, Y/N,” Dean mumbles, not remembering everything he said to you. “Whatever he told you, it was not me. I promise, nothing of it was true.”

“He said you wanted me, not Cassie. That you didn’t claim her as you…” you swallow thickly when Dean shakes his head, looking anywhere but into your eyes. “Demons lie, I get it.”

“Demons lie, sweetheart,” the pet name is a punch to your guts. Moments ago, you believed Dean would finally admit he feels the same and will be there for you like an alpha should. “I’m sorry if he scared you.”

“It’s fine, Dean. I just wanted to talk things out,” the alpha nods, searching for your eyes but this time it’s you who looks away.

“Did he say anything else? Do I need to apologize?” you would like to snort at his words. The demon whispered he loves you and your heart fluttered. How can you tell Dean so if the demon lied?

“Just nonsense about how he hates Sam and my food or crap. Don’t worry, Dean,” you try to keep a straight face, but your eyes would give your lie away. “I will have a rest, sleep a bit.”

“O…okay,” Dean watches you walk out of the room. Your postures changed. When you entered his room, you showed of confidence but now, your shoulders are slumped your head hangs low and he can hear a deep sigh leave your lips when you close the door.

“Y/N it’s two days, did you eat?” Sam calls from outside your room. “You can’t be too tired to eat anything, kiddo.”

“I’m fine, Sam. I ate a sandwich, an apple, and one of those odd energy bars you bought. Stop worrying about me,” your voice cracks when you hide underneath your blanket, but you can’t tell Sam you barely made it out of your bed over the last two days.

“I’ll check on you later, Y/N. You better leave your room for dinner,” you know Sam means well but you can’t find it in you to leave your bed or room.

Something doesn’t feel right, and you wonder if you will ever feel the same again...

“It’s five days now, Dean. I don’t know why she’s not leaving her room,” Sam watches his brother's eyes drift toward the empty chair at the library you used to occupy. “I think she didn’t eat anything lately.”

“Maybe she needs to get over that I attacked her and said stupid things. I don’t remember everything, only pieces of the demon’s words,” Dean mumbles, not daring to tell Sam what you ask him days ago.

“That’s no reason to not eat, Dean. If she doesn’t come out for dinner, I’ll send Castiel in to check on her.”

“Y/N open the door and let me check on you,” Sam rams his shoulder into your door, growling as he failed to pick your lock. “Kiddo, I know something is off but it’s eight days. You only sneak out to use the restrooms and to drink water. I need to know you’re still alive.”

“I’m so tired, Sammy,” your voice sounds weak and miles away whilst you struggle to open your eyes. “I don’t know why. Everything feels so…heavy…”

“Damnit, Y/N,” using all his strength Sam repeatedly rams his body into your door but the lock won’t budge. “Hang on, Y/N. I’ll get something to open that door.”

“What’s wrong, Sam?” Dean watches his brother despair when he hears a low whimper leave your lips. “Shit, let me open that door,” Dean rams his foot against the lock, hearing the door gives in. “Almost there, sweetheart,” another kick, and another hits the door until it finally flings open.

“Y/N, fuck,” Sam’s eyes fill with tears watching you snuggle into your pillow, too weak to lift your head. Food is splattered all over the floor, just like empty water bottles and dirty clothes.

“Sammy, let me,” Dean eyes land on something letting his stomach churn. “I think Y/N need to talk, okay. Can you make her something to eat? A soup would be great or drive to town and buy chicken soup at the dinner.”

“I’ll be right back,” worriedly watching his brother close the door behind him Sam wipes his eyes. “Please help her…”

Dean feels like someone is squeezing his heart when you ignore his presence. Nothing seems to pick your interest, everything is just grey to you since Dean said the demon lied.

“Sweetheart,” Dean whispers, kicking his shoes off. He’s stripping down to his boxers to crawl onto your bed. He’s reaching out for you to wrap his arms around your weakened body. “I’m so sorry.”

“You shouldn’t be here,” voice thin you close your eyes, drifting into sleep again. “The demon lied…” Flashbacks hit Dean when he looks at the mark on your neck.

He’s pressing you against the wall, telling you he will prove to you how much he wants you. His teeth sink into your neck right when Castiel tries to drag him off you. The demon resists sinking his teeth deeper into your flesh to leave a permanent mark.

“I never wanted it to be like this. God, I didn’t feel our bond, Y/N,” Dean mumbles, pressing soft kisses to the mark the demon left. “I think the mark suppresses the bond. I don’t know…”

“He bit me,” your eyes flutter open when Dean gently turns you in his embrace to hold you close to his chest. Your head rests against his heart when you finally open your eyes. “The demon wanted to hurt me.”

“No,” Dean whispers, pecking your hair, “he wanted to have what I desired. The demon, he took what I wanted for so long, Y/N. I was afraid to lose you, so I lied about having Cassie in my life. We only met once a year ago, but it didn’t work out.”

“You lied,” sniffling you try to touch Dean’s face, but your hand slips away. “He didn’t lie?”

“Sweetheart, I’m so sorry,” Sam’s features darken hearing Dean confessing he tried to push you away to keep you safe. “I didn’t remember I bit you that day. I swear if I would’ve known I marked you…”

“I got soup and water, some energy bars too,” whilst you lie on his chest, unmoving Dean holds out his hand.

“Give me one of the bars, I’ll feed her, Sammy. Maybe you can make some tea and I’ll bring her to my room when she’s a bit better,” his younger brother eyes Dean angrily before he hands him one of the energy bars.

“This is your fault, Dean. You and your fucking good intentions…”

“Another one, sweetheart. Come one, baby, you can eat one more spoon of this fantastic chicken soup I made,” you scrunch up your nose, shaking your head. “I don’t want to use my alpha voice young lady.”

You stick your tongue out, refusing to eat the soup Dean made. “It tastes odd,” you whine, pressing your lips into a thin line.”

“He put the medicine inside,” Sam snickers watching his brother fight with you over soup. “You refused to take the pills.”

“This is,” you glare at Dean who uses the moment you open your mouth to shove one last spoon with soup into your mouth.

“There we go, omega,” grinning proudly Dean hands the empty soup bowl to Sam. “Now we are going to check on your temperature and sleep a bit. The doctor said you’ll feel better soon.”

“I hate pills and I’m not a child,” you whine whilst Dean drags the blanket off your body, eying you shamelessly. “This is unnecessary.”

“You are with my child, Y/N, nothing is unnecessary if it comes to Dean jr.,” you narrow your eyes snatching the blanket out of Dean’s hands. “Four years and you are still untamable. The demon should’ve bitten your ass not your neck.”

“You insensitive rude alpha…” you sniffle looking at Sam for help. “Tell him that was rude, Sammy. He can’t say things like that to me…” sobs leave your lips until you start crying.

“Sweetheart, no, don’t cry again,” Dean whines. “Please, don't cry. I didn’t mean it that way. I’m glad I marked you, okay. Look, Impala is kicking his daddy.”

“We are not going to name our son Impala, Dean. I told you so months ago,” poking your finger into Dean’s chest you lick your lips when he gives you a cocky grin. “No, we won’t.”

“Dean jr. it is then,” he smirks now, pecking your lips. “Imagine, you call my name and two Dean’s come running into the kitchen to get a slice of pie,” Dean swoons while you groan.

“I hate you,” Dean hums, resting his head on top of your belly. “I mean it, alpha. You’re so…”

“Back then the demon made me the greatest gift. If not for him I would’ve chickened out until you found a better alpha, now you are all mine, round and grumpy only for me…”

“I still hate you, Winchester but you can stay to rub my back…” Sam watches you fight over names for your pup whilst he leans against the door frame. “Maybe I like you a little.”

“I like you a little too, sweetheart…”

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