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lilacerull0 · 5 months ago
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reading l'amica geniale for me is like: *reads hundreds of elena focused pages in one sitting* *reads one lila focused page per day*
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shall-we-die · 4 days ago
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[A]ccident: Would they blame themselves if you died in an accident?
Yes, he’d most likely blame himself if you died in a accident.
He'll think of what he could’ve done to save you, he would constantly think of ways that he could have saved you but just failed to do so.
Sylus will be completely messed up and have a hard time coping with your death, he would go down a really dark path of depression  and self destruction.
Not tears, no words, no smoke or alcohol. But he’ll be ruined.
"So... it feels like this, kitten, huh?... it's how it feels when you lose your beloved one." His face looks indifferent, staring at your picture.
"Sorry... I've made you feel like this last time. It seems it's my turn now."
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[B]reak up: How would they break up with you?
Sylus is reluctant and absolutely hates to break up with you, he doesn’t want to end the relationship, he hates the thought of it.
"Where the hell you're going without me, miss hunter?"
He absolutely feels guilty when breaking up with you, like it physically pains him to do it.
But he'll do it if he found out being with you means he'll hurt you more.
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[C]rying: How would they make you cry?
Sylus will probably argue with you from time to time and that might result in you crying, he might be a bit too sarcastic or say something he doesn’t mean but ends up hurting you. (he’ll feel really guilty when you’re crying because of him.)
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[D]eath: How would they react to your death?
He’d probably be in denial in the beginning, he absolutely refuses to believe that you’re dead, thinking that you would somehow come back like a miracle.
"It's my turn to curse you, right? Then you'll back to me?"
once it fully kicks in that you’re gone and there’s no way for you to come back, he’d probably sink into an absolutely devastating depression and lose all motivation to do anything.
"Don't worry, I'll wait for you. You know how patient I am."
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[E]motion: What is one emotion they would try to hide the most and how would they do it?
Sylus usually tries to hide any kind of vulnerability, like the fact that he’s sad, in emotional pain, or anything like that.
he’ll always try to act tough and indifferent to everything, like the fact that he’s affected by anything?
anyone that sees him would think that he’s emotionless, a monster, scary and cold.
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[F]ight: Do you two ever fight? How big are the fights? What do you fight about? Etc.
Like all couples do, you'll fight too. From small bickering to bigger fights.
the fights could be about anything, little things like being jealously over someone, to bigger things, like you not liking his cruel behavior.
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[G]uilt: What is the biggest thing they feel guilty about?
He mostly feels guilty when he thinks you’re in danger because of him. And the fact that he can’t protect you from everything and that he’s the one that’s potentially putting your life in danger because of his work.
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[H]eartbreak: What would cause them pain in the relationship? How would they deal during a break-up?
Sylus hates it if he found out you were lying about something or if you weren’t being honest with him.
"I'm hurt, miss hunter. Don't you see me that reliable to tell me about this? Hmm?"
"Tell me. I'll listen to your excuses."
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[I]njured: How would they react if you are badly injured?
He'll not show it but will be absolutely terrified at the sight of you being badly injured.
He tries to keep his cool and not show how scared and worried he is when he sees you covered in blood.
He'll try to help you and get you patched up and get you checked out right away, he’d do anything to make sure you’re treated right and taken care of.
"Did you really think you have 9 lives just because I call you 'kitten'?" *hugging you tightly as he checks the wound on your arm.*
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[J]ealousy: What do they do if they are jealous?
Sylus is not a teenager, and won't getting annoyed because ridiculous things, but when someone really dares to flirt with you...
Sylus gets pissed. And when he gets pissed, that person will die that night like they were never born.
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[K]ill: Would they kill for revenge?
Sylus will definitely kill someone if it meant taking revenge for you, especially if they harm you somehow.
he doesn’t really care about anything or anyone else when you’re in danger, he only wants to protect you and will do anything to make sure your safety is prioritized.
Yes, he’d probably have few limits when it comes to harming other people for you and to protect you.
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[L]oss: What is their greatest loss?
One thing Sylus most definitely wouldn’t want to lose is you, he’d probably be absolutely devastated and wouldn’t know what to do if something ever happened to you.
he’d also consider his own sanity and his self control one of the most important things he doesn’t want to lose, because he knows that he might actually go insane without you.
(he’d also be incredibly unhappy if he suddenly lost his position or any of his connections, it’d probably feel crippling to lose any power that he holds.)
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[M]istake: What is the worst mistake they ever made with you?
The biggest mistake he made with you was not telling you about his feelings sooner, he knows that he just make you confused by not telling you how he feels.
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[N]ightmares: How often do they have them? What are they about? How do they deal with it?
Sylus does have nightmares from time to time, especially about failing you in some way or not being able to protect you.
He'll get up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat and will try his best not to wake you up in case you’re asleep.
He won't pant or scream, just sat up in bed... clutches his chest because he feels that his heart might explode at any moment.
After watching your peaceful sleepy face, he finally calm himself down as he hugs you tighter.
"You can't run away, kitten. Not as long as this heart of mine in beating."
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[O]utrage: How and why would they get mad at you?
Sylus doesn’t really get mad at you a lot, he definitely prefers being affectionate and playful with you.
the only time he’d get mad at you is when you do something really reckless or dangerous that could end up putting you in harm.
"You really like to fool around, don't you, miss hunter?"
he might also become annoyed if he thinks that you’re trying to do things alone and refusing to let him help you, he doesn’t really like it.
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[P]ast: What has happened in your relationship that changed the way you saw each other?
You’ve seen the worst side of him in the very first meeting, so you'll not see anything more worse than that.
However, sometimes fear comes back to you. When he reaches his hand towards you and you tremble, taking a step back.
And he'll be annoyed and ashamed because the behaviors he showd to you.
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[Q]uality: Quality? what is their most dangerous/toxic?
Sylus can get pretty toxic or overly possessive during heated arguments, especially when he feels like you’re slipping away from him or losing your feelings for him
(Don't get me wrong, he doesn't suffer from a lack of self-confidence, he simply can't stand you walking away from him. He knows that he will never let you go away anyway, but sometimes he just can't hide his anger and fear.)
Sylus might say stuff that he does’t really mean, things that he’ll end up regretting and apologizing for later.
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[R]ejection: How would they react to you rejecting their confession (or the other way around?)
"What do you mean, kitten?" if you rejected his confession, he’d be caught off guard and probably would just freeze for a couple of seconds.
But he’d probably try to act indifferent and shrug it off, he’d try to look like he doesn’t care and he’s not upset.
"It's fine, kitten."
On the inside, he’d be feeling a mixture of pain and sadness, trying to process the fact that you rejected his confession.
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[S]cars: Battle or self-inflicted?
He has many scars that surely are for battle. And surely he can treat them and they'll be okay. But sometimes... he just wants you to treat his scars, so after that, he won't let his scars get healed.
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[T]rust: Have they ever broken your trust?
Sylus feels guilty about not being completely honest, especially if you find out about his secrets from someone else or if he ever gets caught doing something shady.
"It was for your own good, miss hunter."
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[U]rge: How badly do they want to see you after you guys separated?
Sylus will miss you like hell, every second that you aren’t together, he’d be miserable.
he’d constantly think about you and probably be really grumpy or annoyed, just sitting around and staring out the window and thinking about you.
he’d probably be counting down the hours and minutes until he can see you again and be with you again.
He hides all these feelings behind a mask of indifference. While he asks Mephisto to stalk you.
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[V]icious: What do they do when they lash out on you?
When he does lash out at you, he definitely feels bad about it after, he’ll probably want to apologize right away or at least try to explain that he didn’t really mean what he said.
he’d probably try to calm down once he’s had a moment to himself, he’ll try to take his mind off the argument.
after he’s calmed down, he’ll probably try to talk to you again and try to resolve whatever disagreement you have or whatever the argument is about.
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[W]eak: What makes them feel weak how do they try to avoid it?
Sylus hates feeling vulnerable or weak, he always wants to appear strong and untouchable. he tries to avoid any kind of situation which might make him appear weak, he never lets anyone to see any of his emotional side unless it’s you.
he tries to always be in control of any kind of situation and be as strong as possible, being seen as weak is probably his biggest trigger and he’d do anything to avoid it.
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[X]-ray: What do they hate and show it most obviously?
He hates when people try to get in his business or ask too many question about him and his work, he can’t stand it when other people poke around in his personal life.
he also loathes when other people take you away from him, like when you pay more attention to other people than to him.
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[Y]earn: What is one thing that they want but can't have?
One thing he really wants is to be able to be completely open and vulnerable with you, to let you see the weaker, emotional side of him.
He wants to be himself completely around you and not have to play the cold and tough part anymore.
He wants to be able to actually talk about his feelings and how much he loves and cares for you, without having to hide under a mask of indifference.
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[Z]ero: What do they do/say in your dying moments?
He’d probably be completely broken, the person who’s normally so cool and calculated just completely breaks down if you’re dying in front of him.
His eyes would probably go wide in pure shock, like he can’t believe it’s really happening. he’d immediately start trying to treat your wounds or at least slow down your death, desperate to keep you alive.
He wouldn’t really be thinking straight, his mind would probably be going a thousand miles an hour as he’s desperately trying to understand what’s happening and what he could do to save you.
Sylus probably be absolutely heartbroken, the reality of you being dying in front of him slowly sinking in while he just hopelessly holds you in his arms.
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atierrorian · 2 years ago
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Hey there! How r u?
Can I request Yandere Silver vs Yandere Sebek? You can choose any ending ;)
If you don't do rivals, then how about Yandere Silver with darling that is just like him (sleepy and can fall asleep at any moment) unless it's something about their hyperfixation. Then, they become very hyperactive (totally not self projecting 👀
If u do rivalries, then maybe it can also be in there, like- their ways of dealing with us and each other's at the same time hehe 👉👈
Can I be 🧍‍♂️ anon?
Of course, you can be 🧍‍♂️! I think I'll just do the Yandere Silver!
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•So to say the least, he is surprise there is someone like him.
•For one, he is the only one in the school that sleeps anywhere and everywhere.
•So having someone like him is such a breath of relief for him, well, he was pretty wary at the beginning but began to warm up to you.
• Both of you had some things in common and you two could relate to one another.
•Now here's the thing, it feeds him on his delusions that the two of you are meant to be, and what does that mean? It means its shit is about to get real and ugly.
•And the fact Lilia is there just makes it a lot more... worse, so say the least, Lilia can and will tell his son that it's alright for him to have these kinds of feelings for the ones you love yk?
•Heads up, it ain't okay for someone to actually do that and you don't kidnap people that you love, no no, we don't condone murder as well.
•Though Silver is gentle with you and always hugs you when both of you are asleep. More like when he is literally hugging you against your will and you want out already.
•Silver thought he wouldn't get anymore surprises, oh boy.
•When he learned that you are wide awake when it comes down to your hyper fixation, he will learn what it is.
•Your sleeping face is cute and he adores it, he just loves when he sees the smile on your face and wishes only him to see it and no one else.
•To say the least, you and Silver's relationship is, normal but for most part not normal.
• Let's be real here, it ain't normal for you to kidnap your partners or loved ones just to try and protect you because they think your "vulnerable"
•He knows you know how to protect yourself, he's just worried you'll hurt yourself in the process.
•So let him do everything, you both can go and hug and sleep and dream of all kinds of things! Just as long as you wouldn't get out of your chains that is...
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To have someone like yourself was quite, nice to say the least. You had someone to relate to and felt like you weren't being left out and you two could talk with so many things!
It's just.. Silver has been acting, strange.
You're worried about Silver since he looks more awake than he is and is always in his own mind that you even need several attempts to get his attention. Seriously, what happened?
Well, it started with you telling him that you are wide awake when it comes down to your hyper fixation on something, and after that, he acted more strange and gave you the things that you told him about.
It was nice at first, you were able to stay awake for most parts and thanked Silver for all of the gifts.
But now, it was kinda suffocating.
Not in a bad way! No! It just felt too much, to say the least, you felt bad whenever he gifted you with something and always telling you, "Oh, you don't need to worry about it [Name]"
And every single day, he would get you something and after that, would always ask if you guys could take a nap underneath a shade of a tree.
The last part is nice, it's the first part that is suffocating.
And every time you told him to stop because you felt bad now since you never got him anything else in return, he always refused and said that it was alright for him.
And is it just you, or has that bat been following you for the past few days now? The more you look at the bat, the more you feel like something besides the bat is watching you...
You felt uneasy and it kinda made it harder for you to sleep, but your sleeping habits were still there, so you decided to take some things off your mind and take a nap underneath a tree, where it was peaceful and you could sleep alone, not with Silver, just you this time.
It felt so nice to have some time for yourself and just sleep all by yourself, these past few months were always with Silver and you just wanted a day for yourself.
As you felt your eyes closing, you didn't hear nor notice footsteps coming closer and closer, you were too sleepy to hear them, and as you went snoozed into dreamland, the mysterious person picked you up and carried you somewhere else.
Somewhere far more isolated and where you can be kept safe.
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Ah! I am so sorry if this isn't your expectation! I was honestly in a rush while making this and I was getting sleepy and sleepier so please forgive me! And this fanfic has been on my draft for a long time so I apologize for that as well! But I hope you do enjoy this!
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offorestsongs · 7 months ago
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OC INTRODUCTION ❣ LYSANDER (ver. 2.0)
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BASIC INFORMATION
full name 🌼 Lysander [last name redacted] nicknames 🌼 Prefect (other students), Lys (friends), Lyssie (Cater), Krill (Floyd), Monsieur Fleur (Rook) species 🌼 just the most normal human guy imaginable height 🌼 162 cm age 🌼 19 y/o birthday 🌼 [redacted] gender 🌼 trans male (he/him) sexuality 🌼 gay man hometown 🌼 normal human world (the UK specifically) dorm 🌼 Ramshackle class 🌼 1-A club 🌼 Sewing Club favorite subject 🌼 potionology dominant hand 🌼 left talent 🌼cooking, home renovations hobby 🌼 gardening, embroidery favorite food 🌼 mushroom soup least favorite food 🌼black coffee pet peeve 🌼people being in the kitchen when he's cooking
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PERSONALITY
Usually standing on the sidelines and not speaking much unless spoken to, Lysander tends to get overlooked by others. If not, others may think him to be anti-social and unapproachable; his usual grave expression certainly doesn't help his case. However, it cannot be further from the truth.
Lysander is a kind-hearted person who deeply cares for others and is always willing to put their well-being above his own, often to a unhealthy degree. He hates being lonely and desperately wants to have friends, but his quite isolated upbringing didn't give him much of a chance to learn how to properly socialize with others. While he's not exactly shy, it's hard for him to make the first step. He's never quite sure how to approach other people or maintain relationships with them. The fact that he's not exactly a great conversationalist doesn't help him - he feels like he's never learned how to properly talk to people and so he second guesses his every word, worried that he had once again missed an important social cue, which he's prone to doing. In turn, he considers talking quite tiring and definitely prefers listening to others.
Famously bad at saying "no" to people, even when he knows he will regret the decision later; he's just too afraid that refusing to help others will make people hate him and he can't stand seeing his friends inconvenienced. Feels responsible for other people's problems, which probably stems from the fact that he was forced to care for his entire house ever since he was very young. Not that suddenly having to deal with a bunch of traumatised teenagers helps with that.
Really sensitive and emotional, a hopeless romantic at heart, and also, unfortunately, really prone to stress. In crisis situations, his usual response is freeze.
Not used to having much free time, he's always busing himself with something. If it's not cleaning Ramshackle then it's tending to his garden or helping his classmates with their homework or working shifts at the Mostro Lounge. No matter what it is, he simply cannot sit still. He's highly independent and while he does everything to help others, he hates getting help from anyone and tries to do everything by himself. Refusing help is about the only time he will firmly stand his ground and say no.
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BACKSTORY
He would love to know as well! The past comes to him in flashes, often triggered by sensations related to the memory. What he had remembered so far doesn't particuraly make him want to go back.
He remembers living in a big, old house, not that different from Ramshackle. He remembers his bedroom, spending long, empty days there, looking out the window. He doesn't remember anything about his parents, just his grandma. She's a looming, dreaded presence in all of Lysander's memories. Any potential siblings or relatives - he doesn't remember anything about them either. Maybe he never had any.
But most imporatntly - he remembers the deep, overwhelming sense of loneliness that seemed to follow his every step.
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RELATIONSHIPS
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Grim: “He's a bit horrible sometimes, but he's my kitty! Ace says I enable him too much and maybe that's true, but honestly I don't know what I would do without him.”
Riddle: “Poor boy. He was quite horrible to me in the beginning, but…I don't really blame him. There's something about him that makes me almost relate to him, you know? I try to meet up with him for tea when I can. He's a quite good companion once you get to know him.”
Ace: “Honestly, I never thought I'd be friends with somebody like him. Not in a bad way! But he's just so bold and brazen, I wish I could be more like him… He won't stop calling me an old man though…”
Deuce: “He's just such a darling! I can see he's always trying his best, so I try to help him out with his studying when I can.”
Trey: “He’s a sweetheart! And he knows so much about baking! I didn’t have much time to indulge in making sweets before but he’s always willing to share some advice as long as I help him out in the kitchen, which is so nice.”
Cater: “Cater was actually one of the first friends I’ve made here. Don’t get me wrong, I love Ace and Deuce, but it’s nice to have somebody closer in age to converse with. And it can be confusing when I’m new at school while everyone seems to already know everyone, but he always knows all the rumors so I don’t feel lost with him.”
Leona: “He’s a bit scary but I know he has a good heart deep down. Not good enough to let me pet his ears though…”
Ruggie: “Sometimes I feel bad for him. It seems that life hasn’t been kind to him, and he’s always working so hard! Sometimes I cook too much so I can give the leftovers to him - it’s the best I can do.”
Jack: “He’s always so serious but he’s such a sweet boy. Sometimes I go to Spelldrive matches just to cheer him on, though I’m still not quite sure if I even understand how the sport works.”
Azul: “I know some people don’t trust him but he was always nice to me! When he saw that I’m struggling with money, he offered me a job, which I think is awfully nice of him. He pays me fairly and I think that’s all that matters.”
Jade: “He’s actually quite nice! He knows a lot about different flora and he’s always willing to talk about it, too. We don’t really spend much time together but I love listening to him when I can.”
Floyd: “I- I don’t want to be mean, but there’s just something about him that makes a shiver run down my spine. I prefer to not be alone with him if I can.”
Kalim: “What a darling! He’s always so sweet and nice to me, it’s a delight to be around him. I just wish he’d stop offering he’d share some of his family riches with me… I’m running out of ways to refuse, which is quite awkward.”
Jamil: “We’re not really close but I do respect him a great deal. I wish I could help him and Kalim somehow, but I guess some things are outside even my capabilities.”
Vil: “He’s really intimidating, I used to be a bit afraid of him. But he’s actually really sweet once you get to know him! He has helped me a lot with many things and I’ll forever be grateful to him. I think he’s one of my best friends, though I’m not sure if he thinks the same about me…”
Rook: “Oh- I- Well- Um. Yes. He’s quite nice, isn’t he? And he’s pretty… uh, a pretty good friend! Yes! We’ve been spending a lot of time together recently and- I don’t think I’ve ever felt the way I feel around him. Quite mortifying.”
Epel: “Ah, I do understand him a lot. I too often struggle with not feeling like I’m a man enough, as stupid as it is. I wish I could offer him some guidance, but I’m not really qualified for that.”
Idia: “I’m not really sure how I feel about him. We don’t really spend much time together and truth be told, I usually have no idea what he’s talking about. Cater said that’s because I touch too much grass, whatever that means.”
Ortho: “The sweetest boy! He’s always such a joy to be around, sometimes I wish I could steal him from Idia… Don’t tell him that!”
Malleus: “I know well how it is to not have any friends, so I’m always happy to offer him company. We seem to understand each other and he never expects me to talk a lot which is awfully sweet of him.”
Lilia: “He’s a bit eccentric and a bit intimidating, but I don’t mind him. In fact, I’ve often come to him for advice. He seems to know a lot about life for a student.”
Silver: “Like Malleus, he simply lets me sit in comfortable silence with him, which I really appreciate. I really hope we can be closer friends someday.” Sebek: “His dedication to Malleus is really admirable, but I do think this boy needs more friends. Not me, apparently. I don’t think he likes me much, even though I never get in his way.”
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TRIVIA
the only other time he will say no to people is when they try to help him with cooking; he has a very particular way of doing things in the kitchen and hates when other mess up what he considers his most sacred space
a big animal lover, especially when it comes to cats - he'll try to pet every stray cat he sees on his way. and like a proper Disney princess, animals seem to be especially drawn to him
he's very afraid of losing his memories again - because of that, he started keeping a journal where he writes down the important details of his new life. he carries it with him everywhere
he's autistic, though he was never officially diagnosed. his grandma was more the "vaccines cause autism" type than "take the child in your care to see a specialist"
almost always feels cold, which is why he's usually bundled in thick sweaters
doesn't like throwing things away, which means that Ramshackle is always full of usueless but sentimental trinkets
he's nearsighted. his eyesight is actually pretty bad - anything past the distance of his outstreched hand is a blurr to him
feels very insecure about his height and so he always wears shoes with heels
his hair magically magically turned pink after getting isekaied
tends to call people "darling" and "sweetheart" a lot
posesses a wide array of very random skills, mostly having to do with doing things around the house. he can also do some simple lockpicking - he has no idea how or why he had learned that
since none of the clubs interested him, he decided to take a leaf out of Malleus' book and start his own. despite being named the Sewing Club, all sorts of textile/fiber crafts are considered an acceptable activity. he does his best to encourage other students to join
he's very interested in historical fashion
some people say that there's something about him that gives off almost an uncanny valley sort of vibe, especially his tendency to look at people with wide, unblinking eyes. he seems to be completely unaware of the effect he has on others
he suffers from insomnia; he falls asleep easier when he's around somebody else, especially when it's somebody he already feels comfortable with
since he doesn't remember his birthday, he started celebrating the day he came to Twisted Wonderland as his birthday
while he's not very academically gifted, he spends a lot of time studying, as he feels like he has a responsibility to keep up good grades since he's already in NRC as a special case
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darling · 4 months ago
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Guys, I don't usually address personal issues here, but I feel like I should.*
I had almost daily contact with a 62-year-old penpal for years and I opened up about many topics and I had a great deal of respect for her and we were always friendly.
I opened up about personal issues and even some of the harsh and unfair dynamics I've experienced with men online and how I projected that and it was frustrating and I made it clear how important closure is in my life.
And she always seemed understanding and supportive and even shared the sentiment and always supported me and showed concern for me personally.
But recently she blocked me out of the blue, didn't even write a goodbye note.
And I know this is an online platform, but for me I don't discriminate against a relationship simply because it's not tangible.
She locked her blog and never gave me closure and that caused me a lot of confusion, self-awareness, sadness and disappointment.
She was always in my notes, liking almost everything I posted and showing concern for my absence and then this same person simply blocks me and dismisses me.
She knowing everything I've been through and going through, and how things resonate with me, me being sensitive, doing this after almost half a decade of contact is frustrating and disappointing to say the least.
And if that's really all she really is, a person who reduces others to nothing and in such an indifferent way, she's worse than ANY man I've ever dealt with in the past.
It's been weeks and I've always avoided 'burdening' our interactions with my issues and I refuse to believe that I deserve this, so whoever is reading this, don't be that person.
The place to speak has been taken away from me, I write about this because I wasn't given any options and I'm an intense person and they can't judge me for dealing with a situation that was imposed upon me the way I want.
Value your interpersonal relationships and people who care about you and address what bothers you and provide closure when appropriate, because life is not black and white and having emotional responsibility with people you deal with and create bonds with is a crucial act of reciprocity, respect and one of the pillars of maturity. Be a reference for treatment for yourself, Thank you. (❣)
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1solone · 6 months ago
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Appealing Or Not Appealing
What is the true definition of being beautiful ?
That is the question that is always left unanswered,
Having our own bias or opinions isn’t unusual
It’s the obnoxious mannerisms by people standards,
Vainly walk around believing they are irrefutable , Stereotypes have a type ,unless they are hammered,
But I refuse to modify my appearance for approval , Self entitlement ,demanding people expect to be pampered,
Having a image is everything if they to be Reputable.
I don’t paint everyone with the same brush
I’m just a colourful character full of charisma,
So if some egotistical muppet is repulsed and feels disgust , That won’t bother me , I want to create a world free from stigma
Anyway don’t need to make up, anything to make a women blush, Not if I know how to deal this problematic enigma
If I’m not appealing or considered handsome as such, I wouldn’t have women want me to invite them to dinner .
Real beauty is skin deep, because on the outside, You May look gorgeous but on the inside you could be ugly ,
When morally a person who has no pride ,
Tries to demine a person that is lovely ,
Is A self absorbed individual can not provide,
Even though it might sound like I’m bitter, old and grumpy,
My style of life choices us not for anyone else to decide, I couldn't care less if they want to say I’m careless and judge me
Yet then again we all are hypocrites that contradict I’m not surprised
Masculinity equals biceps fantasied by lustful women Letting their imagination run wild repeatedly ,
While players would only objectify any chance they are given, By trying to unnoticebly pull a fast one discreetly,
If they ain’t easily impressed and are willing to an opinion, Or their thoughts on a pretty boy whose completely,
In love with themselves so much they want to taste the fruit that’s forbidden.
Am I not appealing, do I need a big beard and lots of tattoos ? Am I not muscly enough ? personally I don’t care ,
I don’t want a bimbo, they have no personality just bad attitudes So like a repetitive game of solitaire,
we don’t choose the cards we’ve been dealt with despite psychological aptitudes,
Myself I’ve got plenty of spark, my finance she got the flair.…‿ℒℴνℯ⁀❣🌹
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white-poppie · 3 years ago
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Katsuki Bakugou x reader
Parallel Lines
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Character: Katsuki Bakugou x G! n reader Source: Anime-My Hero Academia Genre: PURE UNADULTERATED ANGST Warnings: Toxic relationship, yelling, explosions, burns. Writer: @white-poppie​ I made this banner so kindly do not reuse it ❣
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*Poppie Note*
This may be triggering to some readers. I do not condone this behaviour; if you feel that things such as the ones in this fic are happening to you, please seek help.
This is perhaps the most realistic Bakugou ff you will find. I do not have anything against Bakugou, he is just behaving like this for the sake of this fic.
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The temperamental and egoistic Number 2 Pro Hero:Katsuki Bakugou. His personal life was a mystery to many, and he refused to open up about it in any manner, considering the fact that it may endanger you. 
Let me reframe that. 
The temperamental , but caring, number 2 Pro Hero: Katsuki Bakugou. His personal life was full of ups and downs, but one thing was clear, he cared deeply about you, even if  he didn’t show it, but his attitude often made you doubt.
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Heavy steps echoed in your house as the door closed with such a loud sound that it made you flinch. THUMP THUMP THUMP
Even with your eyes closed you knew that he was now removing his gauntlets. You waited until he changed.
“Suki’ dinner is ready.” he just groaned a muffled okay as his face was buried in the pillow.
“Did you have dinner outside? Its okay you can have some ice cream-”
“God dammit Y/N please keep quiet for a while,” he growled.
You sighed and sat down next to him, you had to be extremely patient to deal with the blonde. 
You ran a hand through his spikey, blonde hair, “bad day?”
He clicked his tongue in annoyance and got up, as if remembering some work he had to do.
“No Katsuki, you just got home, this not healthy at this rate you will get sick!”
“Y/N, I have some work to do, leave me alone.”
“Get back here Suki!”
“No shut up Y/n!” He grabbed your hand forcefully, “Why do you have to be so controlling. ‘Suki this’, ‘Suki that’ JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!”
“Katsuki, please leave me hand...” you were shaking at this point, and barely any words came out of your throat. He had started heating his hand unconsciously, you could feel the heat burn your skin, but you were too shocked to say anything.
“No! you listen! I am a pro hero, there are people who need me more than you need me. I am the number 2 hero, if only you were not this controlling, I could have been the the number one hero instead of that shitty nerd.”
“Katsuki...” your body wrecked with sobs. It was so painful, but it wasn’t apparent what hurt more, your now almost only-bone forearm or his words
“You are so damn annoying! Sometimes I regret even dating you!”
“KATSUKI!” your free hand slammed on his face. Pain slowly bloomed on his cheek as he came back to his senses.
You were covering with fear as your other hand held your arm. The skin around it had third degree burns. Since the nerve endings were almost damaged you couldn’t feel the pain, but you were scared nonetheless.You lifted your red eyed to meet his. The betrayed look on your face ate him with guilt.He was crying. Katsuki-Bakugou-was-crying. He had done what he was most scared of. He had hurt you! With his own hands.
“I am sorry...” he crouched down to your level. He was scared even to touch you. What if he hurt you again? 
You threw your head back at the wall, the pain made dark spots dance on your line of vision. He noticed your eyes almost fluttering close.
“No...no..no! Y/N Please stay awake!” You were awake, but barely. You flashed him a painful smile. The last thing you remembered was Katsuki running to an ER, with your limp body.
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Pheww! That was intense! Hope you guys liked it! It took a lot of time and hopefully, the result is worth the effort. Please like and reblog it if you find it nice. The story is written by me and please do not plagiarize my work. If you find anyone copying this, please inform me ASAP. This took a lot of effort. If this fic inspired you in any way, please don't forget to tag me!! If you want to request any kind of prompt/fic please feel free to do so.  PART 2 is here!!: https://white-poppie.tumblr.com/post/665001650532106240/parallel-lines-pt-2
Love~♥ @white-poppie
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