#i redid the eyes like. 4 times and i still dont really like how they turned out

[mangogator]

i made a wahrk! i think it turned out pretty good for my first time using sculpey :}

saavedro for reference and a picture of his sad little face

[myokk]

HOLA! ❤️ First of all, dropping some kudos because I love you and your art so much (basically my blog can be your side blog too at this point!) ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Second, from the character ask, I'd like to know about 3,4 and 20 for both Eloise and Leo 😁

Hope you have a wonderful day/night!

HOLA MI ITALIANA FAVORITA💓​ I APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE FOR ALL OF THE YAPPING I'M ABOUT TO DO🤭​ will this get you to finally visit me🥺​

I'm going to answer these for Eloise SINCE I already did 3 for Leo & I have someone asking me about 4 for Leo as well🥺💓

3) What was the first thing you decided on, the character's name, appearance, personality or their role in the story?

This is a tricky answer…just bc my evil gremlin mc in the game has NOTHING to do with Eloise in my writing. I guess I would say her name? I was just thinking of what would be the most British sounding name I could think of when I started playing in December🙂‍↕️

But then my imagination took hold of me…I started thinking about Eloise’s backstory…and when I thought of how all of her family dynamics/how she grew up would influence her personality I started to be really dissatisfied with the game and the lack of choice we have while playing. SO I gave up on the game completely after the restricted section quest and started to use my free time to write my fic in January🥹🫶 but her backstory, personality, and role in my story are definitely the most interesting things about her to me!!

Bonus: my first ever drawings of her in January!!! Bad quality bc it’s an insta story screenshot😆💓 (I redid one for my fic🤭)

4) And reverse, which one of the four things did you struggle with the most?

Hmmmmm😭😭 I think her personality is what I struggled with the most and continue to struggle with as I write!!!! I always want her to feel like a *real* person with flaws, but ALSO convey to the reader why they should love her as much as I do. I think I’m successful bc I get comments/messages a lot from people telling me how much she resonates with them (and she’s some people’s favorite???😳💘) but I STILL CANT HELP BUT FEEL INSECURE ABOUT IT !!! It’s so hard sometimes keeping in mind how she is and how she thinks, and I never want her to be wishy-washy or doing things out of character for her. It’s a fun challenge but a challenge😭💓 (also her appearance changes like crazy in my art but whatever I’m learning😆)

20) bonus: share any additional thoughts, art, favorite scenes, anything you’ve been waiting for a chance to ramble about.

DES YOU REALLY WANTED ME TO YAP WHEN YOU SENT THIS MESSAGE😆😆😆😆😆

I really, REALLY want to yap about the foreshadowing and scenes I’m working towards in my fic BUT IVE ONLY TALKED TO LIKE ONE OR TWO PEOPLR ABOUT MY PLANS ( @choccy-milky & @kay9leo 🤭🤭) AND I DONT WANT TO SPOIL ANYTHING EVEN THOUGH I DONT HAVE MANY READERS😆😆😆😆😆😆😆 maybe in the future…

This is me redrawing the chess scene from my fic bc I’m really dissatisfied with how Seb looks in the original (he’s probably my LEAST FAVORITE TO DRAW BC IT’S IMPOSSIBLE !!!!!!!)

And ummmm….hmmm Eloise is DEFINITELY not a self-insert character to me, but I DID give her aspects of myself. Things like…we have the same birthday (January 31) and eye color (dark green), and I tend to overthink a lot and can be in my own head maybe too much, but I’m ALSO a lot more assertive and gremlin than she is😆😆😆😆 I love the fact that she’s so soft and sweet💓💓💓 & I just want to wrap her up in a big hug and never let go of her🥺🤲

(Imelda is my self-insert tbh…and this moment in my fic was ME😤:

At the sight of Imelda's worried face her throat contracted - Eloise found she couldn't speak - and she burst into tears again. They were rolling, hot and salty, down her cheeks and she hid her crumpled face back into the crooks of her arms. Imelda immediately wrapped her arms around Eloise, and she melted into her friend's embrace. Hands gently stroking her hair as she cried and cried and cried, murmurs whispered in soft Spanish to the top of her head.

She was overwhelmed, desolate, lonely.

I feel really bad for Eloise at this point in her story, but I also find it really interesting to keep poking her to see when she finally snaps and decides that she NEEDS to stand up for herself and what she wants. She hasn’t quite realized that she’s the only one who’s ultimately in charge of her life & I’m really really enjoying watching her become the person she’s meant to be🥹🫶🥹🫶

[march17]

@jarfulofglassanimals tagged me to this monster! :D

🌻  rules: once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag.

🌻 LAST…

1. Drink: chai latte

2. Phone Call: brother, it was his birthday

3. Text Message: does whatsapp count? my groupchat with some friends

4. Song You Listened To: Everything Black, by Unlike Pluto

5. Time You Cried: yesterday, I was watching Rogue One again

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER…

6. Dated Someone Twice: no, over is over

7. Been Cheated On: yes

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: yes

9. Lost someone special: yes

10. Been depressed: yes

11.Gotten drunk and thrown up: yes

🌻 LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS…

12. dark green

13. dark red

14. dark purple (wow, why so dark hahaha)

🌻 IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15. Made new friends: yes

16. Fallen out of love: yes

17. Laughed until you cried: yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes

19. Met someone who changed you: many!

20. Found out who your true friends are: yes

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes

🌻 GENERAL…

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them

23. Do you have any pets: not where i live now, dorm doesnt allow it. I have a dog in Mexico, I had to leave her when I left my boyfriend, and I have a cat at my dads house, tho I dont go there anymore since he threw me out

24. Do you want to change your name: no

25. What did you do for your last birthday: oh boy! My last birthday was a week ago and it was amazing! I had lectures till 2 and then we went to eat vietnamese food, it was amazing how many people showed up and i felt so loved i cried! then we went for cocktails and dancing, i came home 24hours after i woke up that day xD

26. What time did you wake up today: 7 but i went back to sleep until 10

27. What were doing at midnight last night: saying good night to ppl

28. Name something you cannot wait for: this bachelor thesis to write itself

29. When was the last time you saw your mother: christmas, but Ill see her again in april

30. What is one thing that you could change about your life: my life is pretty neat at the moment, even the bad experiences in the past are part of that. I wouldnt be who i am without it being like it is, so .... nothing?

31. What are you listening to right now: nothing right now, which is a first

32. Have you ever talked to someone named Tom: my uncles name is Thomas, does that count? if not, then no

33. Something that gets on your nerves: people who are arrogant and mean, just because they can

34. Most visited website: tumblr....

35. Elementary: first one was nice, lots of friends, second one noone would ever talk to me

36. Secondary: went to the good one after my teachers told my mom i was too stupid for it, she send me in anyways. I redid a year and met my first friends there who, during uni, promptly left me

37. College: studying right now, met a whole lot of crazy people, never met so many genuine and odd and kind people at once

38. Hair colour: brown

39. Long or short hair: short

40. Do you have a crush on someone: oh boy, when do i not? (actually, currently I dont, which is unusual)

41. What do you like about yourself: i know im emotionally very strong and im kind, ive once been told that i am so authentically and unappologetically me that it gives people the courage to be that too, and i find that an amazing trade to have

42. Piercings: yes, a septum and a total of 6 earrings

43. Blood type: A+

44. Nicknames: Jo and Hanna

45. Relationship Status: single

46. Zodiac sign: pisces

47. Pronouns: she/her or they/them

48. fav Tv show: Brooklyn 99 is my favorite right now, an all time loved one is scrubs

49. tattoos: yes, my starsign as a constelation on my left ribcage, i also want the great dipper on my shoulder and a jellyfish and a fish somewhere

50. right or left handed: left

🌻 FIRST…

51. surgery: nosejob, had some issues there since i was 5 and only with 18 was I allowed to get it fixed

52. piercing: earrings, i guess? if not, then the septum which was last year (i freaked the guy out bc i kept staring him straight in the eyes as he rammed the metal rod through my nose, he said that never happened before, bc they usually look away. little did he know i was daydreaming)

53. best friend: her name was Lotte, and she only talked to me when she was alone

54. Sport: bicycle i guess? I went to school with it. If not, Judo

55. Vacation: if i remember correctly, Rekyavik, by ferrie, apparently i was about 2

56. Pair of trainers: they were red, i had a matching red track suit, my mom still has the shoes

🌻 RIGHT NOW…

57. Eating: had a sandwich half an hour ago

58. Drinking: water and chai latte

59. i’m about to: watch assassins creed

60. listening to: nothing rn

61. waiting for: nothing really, going to work this evening, so maybe that?

62. want: cucumber water

63. get married: nah

64. career: i work at an irish pub here, we have about 1000 different kinds of whiskys and such. its just part time tho.

🌻 WHICH IS BETTER…

65. hugs or kisses: depends on the person

66. lips or eyes: both

67. shorter or taller: doesn’t matter

68. older or younger: doesn’t matter

69. romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous

70. nice arms or nice stomach: doesn’t matter

71. sensitive or loud: sensitive

72. hook up or relationship: hook up i guess, i really dont want a relationship rn

73. troublemaker or hesitant: both can be fun

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER…

74. kissed a stranger: yes

75. drank hard liquor: yes

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: yes

77. turned someone down: yes

78. sex on first date: it wasnt a date

79. broken someone’s heart: yes

80. had your own heart broken: yes (it breaks so easy)

81. been arrested: no

82. cried when someone died: yes

83. fallen for a friend: after we stopped being friends, i realized that yes

🌻 DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84. yourself: sometimes

85. miracles: not really, but sometimes its just funny coincidence

86. love at first sight: no

87. santa claus: lol

88. kiss on the first date: thats up to the person, really

89. angels: no

🌻 OTHER…

90. current best friend’s name: I have quite a bit, but one of them is here so @dmacor

91. eye colour: brown-green

92. favourite movie: oh man, idk