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alwaysbethewest · 2 years ago

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May 2022

The path is built on sand A thousand years' worth Firm and narrow directing your feet Keep going forward And there is no chance of getting lost

Flowers line both sides Pale pink bell-shaped and Fat thistles budding and So many small orange poppies Cups eagerly open to collect the fog dew

All peaceful quiet except The ocean surf below Gently crashing waves And the funny bark of elephant seals Lazing on the beach

To your right the hill crests You scramble up it Anticipating Breathless The beauty still catches you by surprise

Blue ocean and White surf and Tan beach and Grey sky Everything vast and timeless

Limitless Like the breath in your lungs

Your mind is empty But in the best way Revelatory You don't need to get high when You have this

Quail on fence posts Deer roaming where they will Cows in the road You drive past slowly And stop to stare Locking eyes with a badger For the first time in your life

This was a wrong turn But it doesn't feel wrong Knowing you would have missed The quail and the cows and the hawk and The badger with its mouse dinner caught in its teeth

If every path takes you somewhere Maybe there is no getting lost

#poetry #i never posted this because i was embarrassed by its earnestness #and because i'm not a poet #but i am so tired of my own fear of vulnerability and that my art isn't 'good enough' as if that is a real thing #i saw a tweet today that said in essence 'you are not in competition with yourself'#and it hit me hard because i have been on this kick recently #of comparing my older work with my newer work #which probably can be helpful and healthy but #not in the way i was doing it #picking apart what is better what is more popular what people respond to #anyway the point is #especially as we head into a new year #i really want to stop harping on fic stats and perfectionism and competition with myself #(much less with anyone else lol but i actually have made some strides there i think)#because all of those things stand in the way of authenticity and vulnerability and #i guess just sharing the truth of your soul and your self #which is probably ultimately the only important thing #those pieces of yourself that you share with the universe #regardless of who sees them or takes them in #regardless of the size of the audience #surely are all equal because they are all you?#so here is this #what a silly thing to hold back

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