#i really loved her playthrough but i wasnt able to catch up in time to watch the final stream live

[applestruda]

May I suggest a cleo and/or gem?

Subnautica Gem with Rosie

(i may have forgotten i was taking requests and rendered this instead of just doodling)

[koukoupepia]

i posted this on twitter but i might as well post this here too, somewhat aimless rambling about the destiny trio in kh3 and how it did them dirty under the cut. beware, its kind of long. kh3 spoilers, obviously

this isn't my thoughts on kh3 as a whole, its more of a kairi/destiny trio rant. this isnt entirely coherent either. god ok im sorry for all the kh3 talk but i dont know how long its going to take me to stop being pissed about what happened with kairi when for a long time they were building her up to be a character who Does Stuff now. she gets her keyblade in kh2! it was revealed she's be joining the 7 guardians in the ddd secret ending! she's talking to yen sid with riku at the end of 0.2! and when we were let down i saw people saying "well, what did you expect? it's square." like its not common knowledge kh doesnt have the best writing but i dont thing its unrealistic to have expected better than THAT. a cardboard cutout who got fridged for manpain. like kairi wasnt always the best character, certainly wasnt very well treated, but i cant believe that fucking kh2 treated her better than kh3 did.

anyway i keep thinking about how it makes me sad that the destiny trio is really not a trio, but also that their relationship progression... doesnt make a lot of sense. when info came out about kh3 having a theme of relationships changing, i wondered if they were actually going to be leaning away from the romance angle (still too much to ask for, but god.) i wondered if sora and kairi were going to realize they weren't as close as they used to be, since they have spent SO much time apart with no contact. and sora and riku continue to be very tight, because every game since kh2 has woven them together like the tightest knit sweater. i like the idea that sora & kairi have puppy crushes on each other in the early games - -in kh1 theyre very sweet. i wouldve been happy with canon sokai if their friendship continued to be as sweet as that. it's kind of interesting how in kh2, when sora sees sally and jack dancing, he imagines himself and kairi dancing together, but it's his current self and a younger kairi, because it's how he last remembers her. at that point he still feels closest to kairi and his relationship with riku is strained.

kh2 changes the dynamic when sora and riku finally reunite and they make up in a very healthy way (catch me crying about the scene on the dark margin, ive never seen two characters mend their relationship in a way that made me cry that much.) sora leaves the islands again, but the scene where kairi regifts the charm she made him after he gives it back is important because it shows that they both have faith that they'll continue to be friends no matter how far apart they are, and they'll find each other again. by Days you see the utter dedication that riku has to sora, he basically treats living a waking nightmare with the single goal to make sure sora wakes up safely as atonement. sora doesnt know the extent of this but you, the audience, do. the series REALLY emphasizes their relationship and their closeness and their dedication to each other, how they support each other in the ways they need. re:coded has the journal decide that riku was the best form to take to protect information about sora's journey. ddd shows riku as the only one fit to dive into sora's heart to wake him up. (and as of kh3 we know that dives to the heart exist in a place where the line between sleep and death is very thin -- aka, riku really risked his whole ass life AGAIN for a CHANCE to wake sora up.) when riku is told he passed the mark of mastery, sora is too busy being happy for him to feel sad for himself.

the relationship between riku and kairi.... is very minimal. but i think it's interesting that in kh1 when maleficent manipulates riku's feelings of jealousy to draw him further into the darkness, he thinks "oh god i have to get kairi. sora can't abandon her, too." i like that in kh2, kairi is able to tell that it's him immediately and she refuses to let him walk away without reuniting him without sora. in kh3 they dont interact at all, its weird as hell. it's like they dont know each other and kairi is sora's friend only.

i was disappointed at the minimal interaction between riku and sora in kh3, and i know that it's partially because this is the first game where their individual goals and motivations dont revolve around each other somehow (sora's goals in this game are all over the place in a bad way but that's a different post) but i was really hoping for a good chat and/or heartfelt moment between them like almost every other game has, since their relationship is probably the backbone of the series. one of the things that irked me about how they treated kairi is that sora actually thinks about riku on multiple occasions throughout the game and wants to talk to him, and the part where he thinks about how riku thought he had to push him away to protect him re: elsa was an "oh shit they really did go there" moment for me. on the other hand sora did not think of or mention kairi even once before their first conversation -- they didnt even have him wonder how she was doing, or wish he could call her, or have anything remind him of her. between the end of kh2 and ddd he and kairi dont interact or contact each other once, because nomura only cares to stick kairi where she can be a romantic prize for sora and doesnt treat her like theyre actually friends.

then the actual first scene they have together is so damn jarring. this was 24 hours into my playthrough of a game that took me ~30 hours to complete. theyre on their usual spot on the paopu tree, kairi points out that riku is by himself, which is not ooc for riku, but when they have her use that moment to pull out a paopu fruit and go "heysoraiwannabetogetherforeversoletssharethese" my reaction was "where did this come from suddenly and why is it happening so fast." theres NO buildup to this scene whatsoever. and then sora's attitude completely changes after that in a really weird way, like kairi is suddenly the Thing That Matters Most when he's never ever acted like one friend meant more to him than another. nomura if you revisited your damn games you'd know sora loves everyone intensely and indiscriminately. when everyone fucking "dies" in front of sora and he's following a light that he calls riku's name to and it turns out to be! surprise! it's kairi for some reason! when i think about it, it hurts a little but i don't know why. i like that she did actually find a way to protect him, but i dont like that it had to be this weird deus ex machina that has no explanation (is this part of kairi's unexplained powers? is this just a plot device?? who knows.)

dont FUCKING get me started on xemnas kidnapping kairi in front of sora and xehanort killing her in front of him in a scene that reduced my enjoyment of the game by a solid 25% because it's BULLSHIT and FRIDGING WOMEN FOR MANPAIN IS SO ORIGINAL AND NOT CHOCK-FULL O' MISOGYNY.

sora saying kairi's the reason for his whole journey is blatantly not true (ATTENTION NOMURA REVISIT YOUR FUCKING WRITING) so he should go look for her alone while riku is standing right fucking there and riku just. lets him go??? like kairi's not his friend too??? what the fuck??? the last scene where it pans up the paopu tree to kairi and sora holding hands and sora fades away while everyone else, including riku, is just having a good time???? what the fuck???? you know sora /would/ drop everything to go save a friend but i dont like that suddenly he acts like kairi outweighs every other person in his life simply because theres some romantic interest there. with someone he was never written to have an actual relationship with. in a game about friendship. and like, shipping aside, sora and riku have one of the most SOLID friendships ive seen in any media and riku just gets ejected out of his own damn trio because of a hamfisted romance AAAAA

in conclusion: Not My Destiny Trio

[tumblunni]

Man i love channels like pitopito minecraft and grandma shirley's skyrim! They really break all the cliche "rules" i thougjt i'd have to adopt to be a successful lets player. It makes me feel more confisent that people really do love just fun adventures of you loving a game! Being 100% positive and cute and not necessarily very funny or super competitive. And also grandma shirley is awesome with how she does roleplaying on her lets plays, like 90% of her channel is just starting yet another new game on skyrim and writing an epic story of her newest character! Man ive never seen a roleplaying lp channel before AT ALL and man i get really invested like that in all my games so i was worried i should try and tone it down to be a good lper or whatever. Now im even more hype to draw a dumb khsona or hack a sprite of my oc into a pokemon game! And especially cool to know that channels devoted to really obsessing over one game can still be successful! Like i just LOVE that kind of stuff!! Its the same feeling as listening to your best friend explain a horror game or a series of sci fi novels with a grumpy dad, and you just get absorbed in how much it means to them and youre able to appreciate it even if when you played/read/watched the thing it wasnt really your cup of tea. I think its a great talent to be able to pass on your hype through your mastery of words and powerful charisma! (And cool fan art!) Man i dunno if im talented enough to make roleplay games or 100 Million Pokemon Deep Talk Time as interesting as these guys do for skyrim and minecraft. Like man i DONT EVEN LIKE THAT ENTIRE GENRE OF GAME!! Now i really wanna biy skyrim even tho i know i'll suck at it!!! I could suck at it wile roleplaying my d&d characters!!!!

Man do you guys know any other games that are good for roleplaying a character? I know i can technically do it for any game but i mean games that have a lot of content for multiple playthroughs or ability to make a lot of choices or ability to actually customize your charrie. I played dragon age inquisition already in my free time tho so i dunno if itd be as much fun for a lets play when its not my first reactions. Also lol i kinda totalky hated the main plot and was generally like "shut up and let me go, why isnt this a pure sandbox??" THE ONLY TIME I'LL CARE ABOUT DEFEATING THESE DRAGONS IS WHEN ITS PART OF A ROMANCE SIDEQUEST (iron bull is best boye)

Man i hope someday i stumbke upon my ideal one of those games i could play forever and never get bored. Maybe if someday we get a monster catching sandbox...? Its why im so hype for Re:Legend, even though its less sandbox and more harvest moon with also monsters. But still thats fuckin awesome!!! The demo's been so fab and cute~

Man im blabbering god im in such a Viddy Games Mood today

Also i played the demo of the persona dancing game and holy shit you need like eight eyes and fourteen hands to do this thing! Why all the buttons on the directional pad except one?? Why the notes on every corner of the screen at once?? Why taking your hand off the buttons and having to tilt the analog stick every five seconds?? Why is the colourscheme for everything orangey yellow and the notes are the same colour dammit?? I CAN BARELY EVEN SEE! ...but its fun and cute tho. Damn why so many fun and cute things lately!!! My heart is full of joyed

...do you guys like my videos, guys? Man im just feeling really insecure i feel like i get Too Hype and Too Sentimental and its embarassing or cringey. Thats why awesome channels like this are really inspiring!!!!