#i really do just wanna roleplay ngl i miss those days

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Sometimes I hyper fixate on my oc's that I forget their not actually canon and only exist in my mind and the people I share them with.

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aaaaaaaaaa I'm so glad to see you reblogging again ;u; I do hope the pain stays more manageable, I've missed seeing you around!

Aldiirn's character has changed a teeny bit from when I started this, but this is still like, exactly when he sees a moment he can be in his element. I wanted to show him more confident than nervous tooting while still mirroring whoever he's interacting with. Trying to nudge Astarion his way because he has exactly the skills Aldiirn can make use of.

Actually since drawing those first parts, I've been replaying the game and doing more roleplay as Aldiirn in Act 1 instead of just chasing Astarion approval and apparently the two really do vibe well together. I've been using Party Limit Begone to bring along all the companions but still end up with just Aldiirn & Astarion for little heists all the time haha. I think like, Aldiirn is trusting and generous - from an Underdark perspective. He's still very cautious and closed-off about personal stuff because cutthroat attitudes are the norm underground. So Astarion is familiar in a way. Greeting with a knife to the throat? That was Aldiirn's bad for not keeping an eye out.

side note consistently getting Wyll disapproval has been really making me question Aldiirn's alignment…….

Aldiirn's sexuality and trauma… there's definitely big questions for how different he could be if he was raised outside lolth-sworn society. Would he have romantic attraction to women? Would he have less fear of sex in general? Who the fuck knows. But this is how he is and how he feels and it's valid. There's definitely some personal experiences for me in there.

And I do think of his softness as like… a bit of defence against advances. He's got a people-facing job, he needs to look good but doesn't want to look desirable but it all backfires anyway oops. But, looking cute and unassuming does make people underestimate him and who he might be working with.

I'm always so pleased when little details like the lighting get picked out ;u; I'm horrible with words (typing this response has taken me all day help) and tend to inuit art mood as I go… but sometimes things are as simple as "it's blue because it's nighttime now :)" heh. But it is genuinely fun to sling around a lot of heavy inks and choose when to heighten or lighten them for specific panels.

Part 4 -- You got it exactly right for Karlach's "are you gay?" line! Less "ewww you're gay" and more "oh shit sorry didn't realise you're a one-gender attraction kind of dude!" while also leaving out that being asexual is a possibility or even normal. In Karlach's defence, I think it's fair for her to not know asexuality is a thing, since she was thrown in the hells pretty young and didn't have the best education. But she's a sweetie and would never judge. You do you, mate!

NGL I love how Larian was so "whatever" with gender and relationships, with the companions all being pan and all sorts of F/F and M/M and M/F relationships being seen amongst NPCs, it's all just so casual. I wanna see more media like it! My ass is ace but just, shaking hands with pan folk like "gender doesn't matter."

Part 5 -- I've definitely been thinking about Astarion seeing the rest of the companions as competition. They're not on board with having a vampire around, so he's gotta beat them to bed the one guy who is. Like some kind of The Absolute Hottest game show. I think at some point he'd clue in that Aldiirn doesn't want anything to do with the women that way, Wyll gives him Weird Vibes, leaving Gale as the main competitor. Then Astarion being so genuinely confused when it gets through his skull that Aldiirn isn't into sex at all but still likes him! Someday I'll get to this in comics, they're still muddling around in potential underdark-act 2 scripts.

But right here, Aldiirn sees something's going on with Astarion and grabbing onto it to avoid the night's "fun" while Astarion sees his safety net disintegrating. and Aldiirn still just… genuinely does not want Astarion to go hungry…

The last page I almost didn't consider part of the scene, I just wanted to focus on Aldiirn himself. Have him be more relaxed and surrounded by pieces of home that will only grow more concerning as time goes by haha. He doesn't need to smile for that 5-star rating but he's so preoccupied with juggling everyone's needs that he doesn't tend to his own until he's done checking through the order log.

I'm glad you enjoyed this so much, and thank you so much for all your great commentary!! I've been gnawing at the bit to go right into more page comics scenes but I think I need a different pace to not burn myself out xD Have some more silly comics in between the heavy pages!

Stealing Hearts (Complete)

14 pages, all in one post! A bard and rogue make for a smooth heist team but have a rocky romantic start due to both being idiots who can't say no. I started this scene in December when thinking about how the Astarion romance would have kicked off for my demisexual tav, Aldiirn, and how a long rest queue surprise fit in.

Rest of the scene under the cut! The daytime pages have also been updated for a better texture so they're not dark like the OG posts.

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In what style did you start to write (First person, third person, *-style or novel-style?)

What caused you to start writing? What was your key point?

Do you regret starting writing?

Is there anything you would have changed when you started writing now that you have more experience?

In what style did you start to write (First person, third person, *-style or novel-style?)

            i started in fanfiction . . . and it had been like self-insert fanfiction  ,  i’m ngl  .  god  ,  i’m cringing at the recall  .  it had been a lot of FIRST PERSON before . . . then when i officially started roleplaying online in forums  ,  it went to third person  .  i certainly had a penchant for NOVEL-STYLE writing back in the day  .  i miss those days  .  i loved writing so much that it looked like a chapter in a novel  .

What caused you to start writing? What was your key point?

            i used to read a lot . . . and i got paid allowance per book i read . . . but that evolved to being paid PER story i wrote  .  they weren’t good stories  ,  but they were stories  .  that’s how i kinda got into writing  .  i used to do it pen and paper . . . discovered FF.net  ,  then suddenly  ,  i’m writing fanfiction  .  discovered roleplaying  ,  and bam  !!  went from crunchyroll forums to twitter to skype to here  .

Do you regret starting writing?

            yeah . . . there are times i regretted having started this hobby  .  don’t get me wrong  .  i love writing  .  it’s a GOOD way for me to just escape from reality  .  but i think i regret less about writing  ,  but more being introduced into roleplay  .  but it’s like a love-hate relationship with roleplay  ,  because i like it but i also hate it  .  but also because i’m just not that creative in being able to write fanfiction  ,  or heck . . . write a solid story  (  i struggled with the hadriosia lore  ,  i’ll be honest  )  .

Is there anything you would have changed when you started writing now that you have more experience?

            not really  .  in terms of general writing  ,  certainly improving my grammar and stuff because god  ,  am i redundant lol  .  also learning new words and stuff because that’s cool shit  ,  bro  .             in terms roleplay . . . actually instead of CHANGING what i want in the past . . . i actually wish i was more like my 2015 - 2017 self . . . i wanna GO BACK with the same writing style i have now  .  i was certainly more confident and outspoken back then  ;  and then something happened and here i am  .  uh . . . not so confident  ,  easily shaken  ,  ready to yeet things out the window  .

questions for the mun  /  accepting  /  @adevilskiss

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🌸 🌹🌻🍀

🌸 = my roleplay petpeeve

Ok, so imma do three bc im an angry person (also none of this is directed at anyone in particular, just the vague ‘you’) and thats why it got put under the cut bc its basically me being pissy and rambling rifp:

When you say you’re oc friendly but don’t rp with A N Y ocs nor make any effort to do so even when people write a starter. This is typically canon characters too so like. Dude. If you didn’t want to RP with ocs, don’t make it seem like you’re open to it cuz you aren’t. 

Excessive formatting and box themes. Also themes without a reblog button, but that’s not often anymore. Also just caring more about aesthetics than actual rping? It makes people come off as hella shallow and then they don’t even do v much rping so why do you have it? And then their blogs are a pain in the ass to navigate cuz they’re so hard to see and their replies are annoying af to even try to /read/. 

Rp cliques! Or those things you have to like, apply and fill out a form for?? I don’t understand those cuz like. You shouldn’t have to form a group to get people to rp with you and then only do it selectively? And jfc, stop clogging up the tags!! I don’t care about your apps or w/e tf they are!! I just wanna find some more people to follow!!

PEOPLE WHO ONLY REPLY TO THE FOUR ODD PARAGRAPHS I WROTE WITH FUCKING TWO SENTENCES. I think I’ve ranted on this a couple times and I know that in my rules it says “Don’t worry about matching my length” but GODDAMN ARE YOU PUTTING ANY EFFORT IN AT A L L. I don’t even have anything to work with or any character development either!!! So what tf am I trying to write with you for?? You’re wasting my time.

🌹 = my opinion on your characterI have… conflicting emotions okay. On one hand, I love Cand cuz he’s relatable. On the other, literal garbage fire. He’s horribly complex and sometimes I wanna punch him. Usually I wanna punch him. But he’s super intriguing!! I wanna know more about him!! And I love that he’s really unexpected. Tbh he kinda reminds me of Jay sometimes, if you don’t mind me saying? They have some similar personality traits and I’m kinda curious to see what happens with them. I think they could be chaos buddies, if we get past the first meeting and Jay doesn’t piss him off too much?

🌻 = a character I wish to write withUhhh no one really? I just tend to wanna rp with people I follow and I’m p happy with where I am rn. I try not to be too impulsive when it comes to rp partners cuz I don’t want to try and write with someone who I don’t click with cuz then its not fun for me and probably not fun for them either. I think it would be kinda cool to rp in other fandoms, though? Maybe like some Wasteland placed threads cuz I miss MMFR. Or even original world (like. Original world to the muns) threads cuz I like those. Def would wanna do a star wars au with someone bc I fucking love star wars. And maybe some lowkey horror ones? Idk maybe just indie ocs with people my age or just with more people who I click with u know?

🍀 = a ship I wish to writeHhhhhh I’m not really partial to shipping? It’s not something I’m actively looking for with my muses just cuz it’s not a super big priority. And ships are weird ngl. Esp with Jay cuz she’s aro so it’s just like. Friendship with people all day every day. I do love familial relationships though. There’s a lot of explore with it esp since her and families (lmao) get kinda rocky. Either way, platonic ships are still hella great and it would be rly fun to see the shit that happens.