#i realised i’d accidentally brought my blanket from the van back to the party with me and then the bathroom door wouldn’t lock and

[groupwest]

i audibly sniffle when i’m upset (a mannerism learned from emotional neglect as a child) and still to this day the only person who ever rly noticed the extent of that action was my first boyfriend (he is so autistic) it took him no time to realise that every time i made that specific noise i was upset and wanted someone to notice that.. even when i’d do it subconsciously he would ask me if i was alright. no member of my family no lovers after him have ever caught on to it at all. anyway i think everyone should be way more autistic.