#i read premie babies kept in incubators are more like to develop withdrawn personalities like this
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it’s crazy that i’m 25 and not sexually active at all and haven’t been for years I LOVE IT SO MUCH😐
#everything that is easy for everyone else is super hard for me like you just don’t get it ok#i think because i was born premature and kept in an incubator for the first few weeks of my life i now have a strong anxious aversion#of other people and it’s difficult for me to form close relationships and i’m very withdrawn and shy and isolated#i read premie babies kept in incubators are more like to develop withdrawn personalities like this#this is just another one of my personal theories i clung to instead of idk maybe changing and growing?#but it’s so fucking hard like i’m a grown ass man and so out of touch#i feel like there’s always been this glass wall separating me from everyone else and maybe it will always be like that#maybe it’s just not possible for me to have close intimate relationships or to have myself and my sexuality figured out#everything just feels constantly disorganized#sometimes i’m like man maybe i’m just a straight up faggot but then i’m like… i don’t think so.. but idk what i want like ever#and i’m almost 30 and everyone has so much experience and life under their belt and i still struggle to talk to people i’ve worked with for#over a year like FUCK this is why i used to abuse drugs and alcohol cuz NOTHING EVER MAKES SENSE#or maybe i do know and just don’t want to face or accept the truth? so i dice it up in digestible pieces but i ignore the whole#idek know what i’m saying fr i’m just in my mind
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