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#i read a fic with short haired allura and i can’t stop thinking a bout it#I pictured her in my head and i said………..why didnt they give me that actually#short hair was made for her!!!!!!!!! she’d be so powerful!!!!!!!! imagine her in her paladin era (black lion we are rewriting history)#and she cuts her hair off bc it��s easier to manage in battle and some such#like… im ill#allura#vld#Voltron#my art#allura vld
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Spilling Like An Overflowing Sink
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Lance Alexander Rafael McClain is born in the middle of a summer storm, thunder cracking and rain slamming onto the roof of an old ramshackle house that had seen more than its fair share of children.
The miracle baby, that’s what the family had called Lance. The unexpected son to a mother of five daughters.
(In which family is always complicated, Lance’s life hasn’t been all sunshine and rainbows, and he and Keith are really emotionally constipated for each other.)
Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender
Relationships: Keith/Lance, significant platonic Lance & Hunk
Characters: Lance, Lance’s family, Hunk, Keith, Shiro, Pidge, Allura, Coran
Chapter 9: Liar
((Author’s Note:
Hello! New update here for SLAOS to kick off July before I get busy with my Klance Big Bang fic!
Before we begin, a few exciting things:
My lovely friend Logan has done some beautiful doodles of Mavis and Loraine, which you should absolutely check out here and here.
Also! Since I love having something to listen to while I read/work, there are now matching playlists for Loraine & Mavis for you to so check out if you so please! You can find the tumblr post for both playlists here (complete with coverart!), or go to them each directly-- Mavis: Spotify. Youtube. Loraine: Spotify. Youtube. ))
It takes four days before things to go to shit.
…Naturally.
Why on Earth would Lance have expected anything else, with such a foolish, hopeful, half-thought out idea?
It’s four days of awkward, stumbling missteps in trying to relearn himself, filled with scrambling changes of clothes every time he dares to look in the mirror and feels his stomach flop unsurely at seeing bright patterns and knock-off chiffon, pairing skirts with his loose, faded t-shirts in hopes of finding some suitable balance between memory and self-taught reality, and one rather memorable incident on the second day of this little mini-venture when Mavis had opened the bathroom door to find Lance in tears after he had accidentally jabbed himself in the eye with her half-stolen, half-borrowed mascara brush.
Even after making the decision to give this a try, it’s not as simple as throwing on a new set of clothes and calling it done. It’s hardly easy unlearn a year of practice keeping himself from these things, and it’s never really just been about clothes, regardless.
After all, Lance thinks, if this was just an odd addiction to what most people might call cross-dressing, then that might be easier to be rid of. But this… This is just himself. Lance. It’s an itch under his skin on hot, muggy mornings that he cannot escape and a distinct feeling of wrongness every time his shirts rub against his collarbone and long skirts sit too low on his thin, unshapely hips.
No matter what he does, even in this… experiment, it still feels like he’s running from himself, and it leaves him with an aching, wishful desire for the easy sense of self he’d known as a child, happy and unquestioning of what he wanted or how he wished to look or feel.
He’s not sure if this is all a result of his choices in the last year after losing Loraine, or if this was, perhaps, inevitable. Maybe he would have faced the same struggles had he persevered anyways as he got older.
Still, no doubt this would have been easier, with Loraine here.
…Then again, having Loraine would have meant no Mavis, and that in of itself is a can of worms and complicated feelings Lance isn’t quite ready to open yet.
Regardless, for those few strange, itchy, yet oddly content days, he presses on to figure out what he wants from this, what he wants from choice.
On the fifth day, he finds himself sprawled out on Mavis’s couch in the heat of the summer afternoon as the humidity clings to his skin, NASA t-shirt from his suitcase and skirt from Mavis’s purchases thrown on and the hair bow pinned haphazardly to his curls, tongue darting out idly to prod at the leftover sticky sweetness on his lips from an ill-advised foray into lip gloss, old stuff found in Mavis’s bathroom drawer that likely hadn’t been touched in years and was well past any advisable expiry date. He’s sitting in a position that would likely get him scolded for indecency at home— Shoulders resting on the cushions where he should be sitting and legs flung up in the air, knees hooked over the back of the couch and skirt pooling in his lap as his arm stretches past his head to flick through channels on the television with the remote clasped upside-down between loose fingers. Across from him, Mavis sits with her feet tucked up under the pillow Lance rests his head on, shirt abandoned in favor of just her sports bra and jean cut-off shorts, brow furrowed as she fiddles with a replacement string for her violin, loudly confident in her occasional bluster that she can do it herself rather than take it to the shop.
It’s a quiet, pleasant kind of companionable silence intermingled with the background noise of the TV ads and Mavis’s occasional swears as fine, long fingers poke and prod at delicate woodwork.
At least, until the sharp rap of knuckles on the front door jolts them both into awareness, attentions turned to it in half-awake confusion.
“Mavis?” A man’s voice rings out. “It’s me, are you home?”
Mavis blinks, looking to Lance for a moment, and then promptly trips over herself and falls to the floor with a squawk as she tries to scramble off the sofa. “Shit!”
“You okay?” The voice asks, concern drifting into the friendly words. “I’m gonna come in, alright?”
There’s the scraping of a key being inserted into the lock, and the door handle turns, sending Lance wiggling desperately in a similar failed maneuver to Mavis’s in an attempt to at least sit up properly. In some distant part of his mind, he wonders in what alternate universe Mavis, paranoid, private Mavis, would ever give some random guy who clearly wasn’t a relative a spare key, as Mavis waves her arms pointlessly from her upside-down position on the floor at the door, one knee still caught on the sofa, and screeches. “No, wait! Jeff—“
The door slams open all of three inches, before catching on the chain lock, and jolting to a sharp stop. Sighing, Mavis drops her arms, covering her face with one of them tiredly. “Chain lock, Jeff.”
“Whoops.” Half a man’s face hovers in view in the crack between the door and the wall, grinning abashedly. “Sorry, forgot.” Below him, another face, younger and with wider eyes, peers into the space as well as the man’s eyes slide over to Lance.
Lance’s heart catches in his throat as it finally registers with him what he is wearing, in plain view, to this man who is not Mavis and not safe, and he finds himself frozen, half-tempted to flee, but unable to find his feet.
“So…” The man drawls, thick New Jersey accent caught up in cigarette smoke roughness visible in his words. “Who’s the girl?”
“The what?” Mavis half mumbles, stumbling to her feet, grabbing her shirt where it lies on the coffee table and pulling it over her head as she staggers to the door and nudges it back enough to unhinge the chain lock, opening the door properly once it’s free.
“The kid?” The man says, sticking calloused hands into loose jean pockets and meandering into the room enough for Mavis to shut the door behind him, with his shadow hot on his heels, a boy around Lance’s age with dirty blonde hair that hangs in front of his eyes and a scattering of freckles on his forearms that stand out against his pale skin. “Wait, wait, don’t tell me…” He pauses, thinking. “…Your brother’s daughter? You mentioned you had family coming to visit, and you’re the youngest sibling, right? So…”
The guy’s gaze slides between Mavis and Lance, questioning, and with a lurch in his stomach, one part horror, one part elated relief, several things click into place for Lance all at once.
Most importantly, that this guy, amazingly, impossibly, thinks he’s a girl. Somehow.
A girl, not… Well.
Apparently a skirt, a hair bow, and a bit of old lip gloss did a lot more than Lance gave it credit for, especially given this was paired with his loose, boyish shirt that he knows for certain is one of Carlos’s old things, and his distinctly short hair.
“…What?” Mavis says, and then her eyes widen as she catches on, darting to Lance in a panicked question. “I mean, uh…” He stares back at her with something like frightened desperation as it fully registers their only options here are to roll with it or correct the man’s mistake and face the potential consequences, which is… unappealing. Making a split-decision in seconds, he silently begs her to play along.
He’s not ready to face it again. The judgmental looks, the uncomfortable questions. Not in this place that is supposed to be his secret haven. He knows nothing about these people, aside from the fact that they seem to know Mavis, and that alone is not enough to confirm they are safe for Lance.
“…Yeah.” Mavis finally finishes, trailing off unsurely and lapsing into momentary silence. “This is… My niece… Lance.” The man blinks, surprise flickering over his face, and Lance looks to his cousin with a strained, pleading expression, prompting a quick, aborted movement on her part that looks like something between a shrug and throwing up her hands, the meaning, as far as Lance can determine, best equated to a sentiment along the lines of ‘I panicked’.
Which… Fair enough.
“It’s… a nickname.” Lance offers unsurely, edging closer and wincing at how frail and borderline whispery his voice is. “Long story.”
“Alright then.” The man’s voice is bemused, but not unkind, and Lance unfurls, shoulders relaxing ever so slightly as he registers that, yes, this guy has accepted the ruse without question. “Lance it is. It’s nice to finally meet Mavis’s niece. She doesn’t talk ‘bout her family half as much as she should.”
“Right then.” Mavis coughs into a fist, eyes flickering unsurely to Lance once more, as if she can’t quite believe this is happening either. “Lance, meet Jeff and his son, Tommy. Jeff and I um… work together, and Tommy helps out sometimes around school.” She turns back to the newly christened Jeff, sticking her hands into her back pockets in a nervous gesture that is purely Mavis, and goes to work doing what she does best— Deflecting. “You’re supposed to call me before you just come over, jackass.”
Jeff grins unashamedly, holding up his hands in an easy gesture of surrender. “I needed to go over some numbers with you for next month’s stock, and I was in the neighborhood.” Mavis raises an eyebrow, distinctly not amused, and Jeff waves the plastic bag in his left hand carefully. “I brought takeout, your favorite Chinese place.”
Something gives in Mavis’s expression, and she looks to Lance. “I don’t know if now is the best time, Jeff…”
“Come on,” Jeff waves his hand dismissively, and for the first time Lance finds his mannerisms rubbing him the wrong way. People listen to Mavis, that’s just part of the way she works, and to see someone so casually ignore her unsubtle suggestions is… unusual. Different. “You love Chinese. It’ll just be for a bit, promise.”
Hesitantly, Lance reaches out, catching Mavis’s fingers at her side, and she glances at him again, clearly sensing his discomfort. “…Leave the food on the kitchen counter. We can talk in my room, give us some quiet.”
“Great.” Jeff says jovially, sliding a hand around Mavis’s waist that makes Lance’s skin itch uncomfortably, and leading her away without a backwards glance. “Tommy, keep Ms. Lance company, yeah? Talk about your video game things or something.”
“Yeah, sure…” The boy mutters quietly, sounding as if he’d really rather not, and then Mavis is gone into the other room, quickly flashing Lance a reassuring smile as the door shuts behind her that he does his best to mirror.
After a couple long seconds, it properly registers that he is alone with Tommy, and he turns back to the other boy, the other boy who thinks he is a girl and who’s father apparently is close enough to Mavis to touch her like that, and prays that he doesn’t fuck this up too badly.
His only reassurance is that Tommy looks just as unsure and uncomfortable as he does.
“So…” The boy drawls, soft and questioning. “You’re… Mavis’s niece.”
“Um. Yeah.” Almost unconsciously, Lance crosses his arms, shifting his weight from one leg to the other. “And your dad and Mavis… They… Work together?” His voice lingers on the last words, dubiousness easily soaking through. He may not know an exceeding amount about the adult world just yet, but he doesn’t think randomly showing up to someone’s apartment that they apparently have a key to with lunch is standard coworker behavior in the slightest.
At least, no one’s ever shown up to their house with lunch for any of his sisters or mother claiming to know them from work.
“A-Ah, yeah!” Tommy brightens considerably, nodding and shoulders relaxing slightly. “She works at Dad’s bar! She helps with my music theory homework for band class when I’m there after school sometimes, she’s really nice.”
“Yeah…” Despite himself, Lance feels a smile slip onto his face. “She is.”
“’M sorry about my dad, for the record.” Tommy offers. “I know he can be a bit… much. He just… really likes Mavis. He tries to find excuses to talk to her and stuff.”
“It’s alright.” Lance offers hesitantly, not completely sure if it is all right at all but trusting the other in his honesty in regards to the situation.
Tommy grins unsurely, bright and cheerful, and idly Lance catches a similar, fainter pattern of freckles along his cheeks to match the ones on his arms, scrawling around the length of his face and catching on the edges of his nose. “Yeah— Sorry, I don’t think that was a very good introduction before, with me hiding being my dad like that.” He sticks a hand out, thin fingers smudged with dirt and ratty friendship bracelets crowding his wrist. “Tommy Buchanan.”
Lance smiles, and takes the proffered hand, his darker skin tone contrasting sharply against Tommy’s. “Lance McClain.”
It’s only then that he once again considers the oddness of his name compared to this ruse— So easy Tommy’s presence is, at least, compared to his father, that it previously slipped his mind once more that this is… Happening.
Lord help him, whatever this is. Perhaps he would have been better off never touching those clothes Mavis had bought, had he known such complications would arise so quickly.
“Um—“ He shifts awkwardly, and Tommy shrugs amicably, retracting his hand as Lance lets go.
“Don’t worry. I know a girl named Dylan and another named Billie… And a guy who insists people call him Sugar. Lance isn’t the oddest nickname I’ve heard, especially not for a girl.” Tommy smiles, young and unassuming and all the things his father appears to be without the undercurrent of wrongness Lance in his potential paranoia feels. “I think it suits you.”
“Oh.” Lance feels heat scrawl across his face and shuffles back, bringing his hands in front of him and twisting his fingers together nervously. It’s… strange. It’s not that he’s never been complimented on his name before, but the idea of someone now appreciating it in a way that is wrapped up with the idea of him being not-a-boy is odd. He’s so used to forcing himself to associate what it means to be Lance with being what he needs to be— Not his memories of being Lancie Loo-Loo, the child that never feared these associations of name and meaning at all.
And no, someone thinking Lance and associating it with girl isn’t quite right either, but it’s something different, at least, and that is… enough. Maybe. Maybe.
“Thank you.” He says softly, and Tommy brightens.
Perhaps, he thinks, this is not so bad after all.
“…Do you want to watch TV with me?” He offers. “Mavis and I were watching this old music competition she likes.”
Tommy nods enthusiastically, hands shoved into his pockets and previous nervousness all but disposed with, and Lance feels himself breathe a sigh of relief.
Later, much later, long after the Chinese food resting in its plastic bag in a sorry heap on the counter has undoubtedly gone cold, Jeff and Mavis reappear from her room. Jeff collects Tommy as he leaves, the food still untouched where it sits as he loudly laughs and talks his way out, hand on Mavis’s back all the way to the door, and Tommy shyly waves Lance goodbye, chasing after his father down the hall without bothering to close those last couple steps of space between them.
They migrate back to the kitchen on an unspoken agreement in awkward silence, Mavis spooning out the now sticky, clinging-together mixes of rice and meat and vegetables into chipped bowls and shoving them into the microwave to reheat while Lance perches on one of the too-tall bar stools, legs kicking idly and meeting only air.
After their food is placed in front of them, Mavis sits down next to him, fork twirling in her hands as she pointedly looks down at the bench and not at Lance. “So that was… a thing. That happened.”
Lance blinks, and automatically fills his spoon and shoves it into his mouth. “…Yeah.”
“Jeff thinks you’re a girl.”
“They think I’m a girl.”
Mavis’s head thunks dully against the kitchen counter as she drops it, arm outstretched to snag the glass of some dark, auburn liquid Lance can safely assume isn’t meant to be shared with him that she’d poured while reheating their food, and then once again brings her head up enough to down the liquid in one fell swoop. “Is this good or bad?”
“I don’t know.” Lance says honestly, bones thrumming with the knowledge of exactly what just has occurred, and it’s the truth. He really doesn’t know— On the one hand, there’s the strange, bubbling elation at the idea of being something else for once. Maybe not what is right, whatever that is, but… Something. On the other, though, there is a kind of precarious inevitability to this sort of thing that promises doom. He is not prepared for this sort of situation, for the upkeep and forward planning needed to maintain... this.
If his mother or Marcie were here, they would promise him that this is his life, and he doesn’t have to keep secrets or, vise-versa, tell anyone anything he doesn’t want to, especially things that are none of their business. If Karen or Igraine were here, they’d call him an idiot for getting himself into such a mess, and then they’d smack Mavis upside the head for letting it happen.
If Loraine were here…
He doesn’t know.
If Loraine were here, it is very likely he wouldn’t be here altogether, either.
Lance trusts Mavis though. He knows this much, whatever that means for this rather odd little situation. “I really… don’t know.”
Distantly, he wonders if he should be panicking over this.
…Probably should, in all honesty.
He isn’t. At least not currently, though he can’t speak as to whether some kind of panic will set in later— He got good at compartmentalizing these things almost subconsciously, after Loraine. Right now he just feels… numb. Lost.
This is not overwhelmingly positive in any way, and this is not awfully bad. It’s certainly not easy, definitely, but it is what it is, and now the only question that remains is what to do with it.
“Mm.” Mavis hums, staring down at her empty glass and swishing the ice resting in its base gently as if it might offer her the secrets of the universe, or at least of their current predicament. “You’re damn lucky you inherited whatever same genes that Lucas got for a pretty androgynous appearance, honestly. And that your voice hasn’t dropped yet.”
Lance pales, and Mavis blinks, eyes widening as she rethinks her words, turning to him with a faintly panicked expression. “Hey, not saying that it will happen! You might get a fairly ranged or high-pitched voice, lots of people do! Look at me, I sound like a forty-year-old man often enough and I’m trying to pass myself off as a singer half the time!”
Lance snorts, breaking into unexpected giggles. “No, you don’t. You sound like Mavis.”
Mavis pauses, and then relaxes, a small, fond smile slipping onto her face. “…Sorry.”
“It’s alright.” Lance says, awkwardly poking his spoon around the remnants of his lunch. “I’m not that worried about that sort of thing with um, with Jeff and Tommy, anyways. Like…” He frowns. “Yeah, it’s surprising, and it makes me a little nervous, not gonna lie, but this isn’t my real life, really. What they think I am or am not, it doesn’t matter that much. I’d just never really considered the fact that those… changes will happen one day.”
“Growing up happens to the best of us, Lance.” Mavis grins wryly. “We all just have to live with it, there’s not many alternatives.”
There’s a pause, soft but peaceful, as they both poke unsurely at their food, and then Mavis breaks into giggles, growing in volume and hysteria quickly. “God, what are we doing?”
Despite himself, Lance finds the infectious laughter catch him, leaving him burying his mirth in wide, tight-lipped smiles against his palms. “No idea.”
Mavis cackles at that, hunching over and sending her bar stool rocking unsteadily, and it only sends Lance into further giggles, grinning over his fingers as he peers down at her doubled-over form, her shoulders shaking from surprised, relief-stricken nerves.
It’s all a mess, but at least it’s their mess— To own, to claim, to do with as they please.
And that? That is good.
Eventually, after the food is finished and the dishes washed and left on the drying rack, they find themselves curled back up on the couch as the evening heat falls to mildly warm and humid night air that clings to their skin like a second pair of pajamas. The two of them sit in the middle with Lance slumped into Mavis’s side, her arm thrown over his shoulders and his fingers tangled in the edge of her large sleep shirt as she flicks through channels, looking for a late-night rerun of a movie or a cartoon.
There is a steeping quiet, made up of uncertainty and a million questions they both have about all this, and all the things they cannot understand about each other, even after Mavis finds an old anime being shown and leaves it with the volume on low.
Lance lets himself be the first to break their waiting, speaking into the night where the daylight may not have his unsure thoughts. “So… Jeff.”
Mavis freezes ever so slightly, eyes trained on the television. “Jeff.” She says. “Jeff is… a friend.”
“You said he was a coworker.”
“He is!” Mavis blinks, and then shrugs. “Well, I mean, technically it’s more like he’s my boss—“
“You’re sleeping with your boss?!” Lance screeches, surprise getting the better of him, and Mavis cringes.
“I’m not sleeping with anyone. And how do you even know what that means?! You’re like… barely twelve.”
“Mavis I grew up in a house with eight teenagers.” Lance deadpans. “I know what sex is, thank you very much!”
Mavis turns red, sputtering, and he sighs. “Geez, what is he like, ten years older than you?“
“Only eight, and it’s really— It’s really not like that, okay?” She says sharply, cutting him off, frame still tense and awkward, and Lance relents, burying back against her side and resting his head against her chest.
It’s a different sound than Loraine’s heartbeat, just ever so slightly in its feeling in a way he cannot explain, but it’s still calming, regardless. Mavis is not Loraine, but that does not inherently make her lesser. It just makes it… Well, different.
Loving Loraine, attaching himself to her as his anchor in the world, that was easy, natural. Mavis is… This is a foundation, a trust they have chosen to build, rather than one that was innately there from the beginning. They do not automatically know each other the same way Lance and Loraine did, but they have chosen to, and in a way that is maybe even more powerful.
Maybe.
It is difficult, he thinks, to define his relationship with others without using Loraine as a reference point, and he neither wants to live his life seeing everything as lesser than Loraine in some way, nor as ever coming to see the bond he shared with his sister as somehow less important, because of what it held in inexplicable connections over fostered faith and work.
“So what is it like, then?” He asks instead to quiet the rabbit-heartbeat thoughts of his mind, and Mavis hums, unsure and considering.
“I dunno kid, alright? It’s just… Jeff is kind to me, and the attention is nice, I guess. He’s apparently been really lonely since his wife, Tommy’s mom, left a few years ago, and I think he just likes having someone to talk to.” She shrugs, shifting Lance’s weight ever so slightly. “He says he needs me around, and it’s… It’s flattering. He owns the bar I work at, and when I started helping him with more managerial duties, my paycheck like… doubled. I was really struggling to make rent at the time so he inadvertently helped me out a lot there.”
Lance crinkles his nose. “Still. Giving him a key, though? You used to lock your bedroom door at home just to stop people from getting in. Including your brothers. Whom you shared the room with.”
Mavis makes an unhappy noise of half-hearted denial at that, twisting her hands together in a way he knows means she’s fibbing. “It just sort of ended up that way. I started doing all this extra work around the place and helping him with the books and suddenly there was just a lot of off-hours talks and him showing up with lunch and stuff and then it was just… easier, for him to have a key. I got used to it, I guess. He means well, and I don’t dislike the company. And it’s free food and stuff and… My job too, y’know.”
“It doesn’t sound like it makes you happy, though.” Lance says, because no matter what his dwellings on the knowing of Loraine versus the knowing of anyone else, he understands enough about Mavis to discern this, at least.
“It doesn’t make me unhappy, and that’s enough when it comes to me dealing with people.” Mavis says firmly. “He’s… It’s complicated.”
“I guess.”
“I promise you it’s fine.” She says with all the certainty that comes with being someone like Mavis. “I’m not going to start shacking up with psychos or something, don’t worry.”
Lance grins against her sleeve, shaking his head ever so slightly. “If you say so.”
That night is when the panic does come, fleeting but certain as it leaves him breathless and stumbling from sleep, dreams of hands yanking back his hair and cutting and of whispered voices from long-left classrooms chasing after him. It’s a wordless hum of anxiety of what happens if they know, what happens if they find out, that leaves him rolling and scrambling his way off the pullout mattress and up into Mavis’s bed, clinging to her shakily as she whines sleepily and shifts over enough to make room for him, patting his head absently as she passes out again.
He falls asleep to the soothing sounds of her breathing and the distant honks of the cars in the night traffic outside, and in the morning she makes him frozen waffles that are still soggy after being toasted and promises him that if he wants it so, Jeff and Tommy will never set foot in this apartment again while he is here.
And it’s the truth, for a couple days— Before Jeff calls to invite himself over for lunch with a fifteen minute warning Mavis cannot seem to deny him, and Lance throws on a frilly shirt and shorts without thinking.
That second time, he doesn’t bring Tommy, and Lance sits fidgeting uncomfortably in the corner.
The third time, he does, and Tommy teaches Lance poker with the card set he brought stuffed in his shorts pocket with a hopeful, hesitant expression.
Despite everything, the Buchanans suddenly seem to become a part of the regular schedule, after that.
Perhaps it’s not surprising, in a way. This may be Lance’s escape from his reality, but this is Mavis’s actual life at the end of the day, and apparently Jeff and Tommy, for better or for worse, are part of it.
And so he gets used to Jeff showing up every few days to eat or to talk or to drag Mavis out to go somewhere with him, and to dodging inside the bedroom every time he hears a knock at the door and he’s not appropriately dressed, per se, just in case.
It becomes a part of the new normal disconcertingly quickly, if he’s being honest.
He likes Tommy’s company, at least. It’s odd, hanging around someone the same age as him— He’s used to befriending people who are technically older, no matter how infinitesimal that one year gap between himself and Hunk might feel, and knowing Tommy’s only a few months older is odd.
Not bad, but… Definitely odd.
Still, it’s nice, to have someone to hang out with when Jeff inserts himself into Mavis’s daily schedule with charming smiles and reassuring words, and Tommy holds a kind of quiet peacefulness different from Hunk or Yuu’s that Lance can appreciate. The afternoons he spends playing snap or go fish with him and helping him braid more messy friendship bracelets for his wrists and ankles are… Good.
It’s undeniably strange when Tommy braids him ones in bright pinks and yellows and tells him that they’re nice colors for a girl like him, but that’s not bad either. It’s a strange half-ruse he adjusts to. Not quite a lie, not quite truth.
He thinks of home, sometimes, when he works, and he sets aside three bracelets, lavender and yellow and dark red, for Ritzie and Hunk and Yuu.
An obnoxiously neon pink one gets made for Mavis, to match the bright nail polish she puts on her toes every few days with consistency, and she ties it to her ankle and doesn’t take it off.
Lance ends up with six, all from Tommy in varying colors, scattered up his arms, and he admires them as he desperately tries to ignore the anxious curling in his gut when Tommy rambles happily about his father.
Jeff makes Mavis happy, or so she says, and that’s what’s important.
Outside of that, it’s nice. Mavis cooks oversized bowls of spaghetti or makes toasted tomato and cheese sandwiches on the nights she doesn’t give up and order takeout or pizza, and the two of them eat dinner sometimes on the couch with old anime reruns on the television. She takes him sight-seeing around her schedule and to the theater she works as a stagehand at on the slow days, introducing him to her coworkers there, all of whom Lance likes infinitely more than Jeff, if he’s being honest. He dresses in his clothing from home on those occasions, until his second visit when he spots what he had at least previously assumed was a man in tights and heels milling about the stage and a then assumed woman wearing a binder and wifebeater.
“It’s off-Broadway theater in New York, Lance.” Mavis tells him airily. “Almost everyone’s either queer, not-cis, or liberal as all fuck.”
After that, he hesitantly dresses as he pleases for each particular day on those occasions, and Mavis takes him for ice cream from the corner dairy afterwards like clockwork.
He listens in the spare evenings as Mavis practices the instrument of the day, most often the tiny upright piano jammed in the corner of the living room or her violin, and calls out song requests based off whatever show or movie was just on TV.
Mavis, blessed by her ability to play by ear, normally nails them.
Once his three and a half weeks are up, Lance packs away the clothes he didn’t bring with him in the first place into Mavis’s closet, pockets the random junk she bought him, and leaves with photos for Marcie, a book for Evie, Tommy’s number programmed into his phone with a promise to text, and thirty-six missed calls from Hunk.
And then he, reluctantly, unsurely, clinging to Mavis’s sweater in the airport as he hugs her goodbye and wonders how long it might be until he sees her again, goes back home.
Home to Veradera.
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[voltron]: it’s quiet out here
Title: it’s quiet out here
Read it on [AO3] Words: 1678
Summary: In which Allura is pleasantly surprised to see Keith's calmer side.
(A little, short speculative fic about what Keith/Allura might’ve been up to when they were stuck in the pod during The Ark of Taujeer.)
Probably going to make a series out of this called Peas in a Pod :@) stay tuned~
Also: special thanks to my gorgeous friend @quarrely for reading it over :D
Calm. Still. Peaceful.
The serene state of the world outside their pod is the exact opposite of the chaotic panic currently residing inside of her. Allura’s not sure how long they’ve been flying, but now that the adrenaline from their impulsive decision has faded away, peace is about the farthest thing from her mind. What if the team wakes up thinking they deserted them? What if there’s an attack on the castle? Or worse, what if Zarkon finds the castle despite their efforts and they are unable to make it back in time to form Voltron? What if—
She stops herself and takes a deep breath. They’re away from the castle for completely valid reasons, she reminds herself. The rest of the team should be safer without them.
Wondering whether Keith is feeling just as concerned as she is, she glances over at him to try and gauge his emotional state of being—they’re in this together after all. Much to her confusion though, aside from “extremely focused,” she can’t get a closer reading. His face remains stoic and impassive, seemingly unaffected by any bouts of self-doubt or second guesses. It’s really quite impressive.
She wonders how he can stay so quiet this entire time.
“Do you think this is far enough?” Allura asks, starting to feel antsy and uncomfortable with the silence. Straightening up in her seat, she checks the dashboard to see how many doboshes have passed since they left.
Keith shrugs. “I’m just driving.”
“Okay,” she says before falling silent again. Folding her arms, she sits back and allows a few more doboshes to tick by. Debris flies by in the window display before them; her heart feels just as cluttered. Although she knows they’re doing this for the benefit of the team, the inevitable shock and anger when the rest of them wake up still nibbles at the pit of her stomach. Crossing her legs, she leans against the wall and concentrates hard on preventing her fingers from nervously drumming. It’s a terrible habit and she doesn’t want Keith to notice or worry.
“What's wrong?” he asks after one quick side glance at her.
“What do you mean?” she replies a little too quickly. As Keith continues to fly, he spares her one more look before returning his gaze to the road ahead.
“I dunno,” he says. “You seem tense.”
As Allura studies him now with a curious expression, it suddenly dawns on her that she’s never spent more than five minutes alone with Keith before. She knows the boy is smart, of course, but she hadn’t expected him to be quite so observant.
“I’m just… having some doubts,” she finally answers. “I suppose we are doing the right thing, leaving the castle, aren't we?”
“You were all ready to leave when you found me,” he says, keeping his eyes facing forward. “You should’ve stayed if you had doubts.”
“No, you misunderstand me,” she says, shaking her head. “I wanted to leave. I just… my mind tends to second guess itself from time to time, even as I’m in the midst of action. Mostly, I'm just worried what the others might think or feel about it. What if something happens to them?”
“The whole point is to test if Zarkon will find them or us first, isn't it?” Keith reasons. “So it doesn’t matter what they think. If something happens, we’ll figure it out.”
“I suppose,” Allura mutters. “I just hope they won’t be too angry when they find out.”
“It’s gonna be fine,” he assures, casting her a small smile. “They’ll live. Well. Shiro is going to kill us—that is for damn sure.”
Allura snorts. She stops at the sight of Keith’s surprised face and clears her throat. “Sorry. I—I just imagined it. His face, I mean.”
Keith blinks and continues to stare at her before his face cracks into a smirk.
“‘What were you guys thinking?’” he scolds in an accurate imitation of Shiro’s voice. “‘We’re supposed to be a team!’”
“Bless him,” Allura laughs, feeling the tightness in her chest beginning to unravel. She lets out an amused gasp at her next thought: “Oh, and Lance. He’s probably going to be so jealous.”
“Oh man, I hadn't even thought of that,” Keith grins. “He’s going to have a field day.”
“But Hunk will understand,” she says without a doubt. “He’ll know we had to do what we had to do.”
“Pidge will, too,” he says confidently. “She'll explain it to them scientifically. Probably with big words that Lance will be too impatient to decipher.”
“Probably,” she agrees before they break off snickering again. When the laughter dies down, a comfortable silence settles in as she catches her breath. And although Keith’s eyes are back on the glass pane before them, focused and sharp, she notices his smile hasn’t quite left his face. With a deep exhale, her mind drifts over to the last remaining member they haven’t mentioned yet.
“Coran isn't going to be too happy with me though,” Allura sighs.
“Oh, yeah?” Keith says. “Why do you say that?”
“I don’t know,” she says, leaning against the wall again. “Ever since we woke up and discovered we’re the last Alteans left, he’s been more… on edge about the idea of me being in danger. He tries to hide it, but I can tell. You saw how he was after I made so many wormholes in a row.”
“Well, to be fair,” he points out. “You are in danger more often now than ever before. It makes sense. Especially when you add that to the fact that… that you’re the only family you two have left.”
Allura feels the pod begin to slow down and she glances up at Keith. His eyes are still fixed on the path ahead but they seem to have lost their focus somehow. Trying to pick apart what may have caused this, she repeats the last thing he said in her mind. The words “only family,” and “left” echo back in her ears. She knows Keith is an orphan, but she doesn’t know much beyond that. It had been so easy when she approached Pidge to try and coax her into confiding her secrets, but Keith is different. Sensing his tension, she decides it’s not the right time to probe. Instead, she searches for something more comforting to say.
“Well, at least Coran and I aren’t alone anymore. We have you paladins now, too.”
He doesn’t look at her. Her lips tighten—it was worth a try.
Feeling discouraged, she tries to cast about for something different to lighten the mood. Perhaps she ought to ask him when he met Shiro, or to have him tell her a random fun Earth fact she wouldn’t have known otherwise. But right as she’s about to start off with a new topic, Keith opens his mouth and speaks first.
“It’s beautiful out here.”
She follows his gaze and looks upwards at the skies.
No matter how many times she’s seen this wide starry expanse, Allura’s breath still hitches in her throat. Swept away by the demands and concerns of their current struggles, she’s forgotten up until now how untouched and boundless the world really is. As their pod comes to a stop amidst the quiet backdrop of endless black space, she sits back and marvels at its wonder, allowing the stillness to fully consume her.
“It is beautiful,” she breathes. In spite of all the chaos that’s been happening in their lives, she’s reminded that the infinite cosmos has existed for eons. Out here, it feels impossible that there’s a war going on, not when these millions of stars have probably been around longer than Zarkon’s whole empire.
“Back on Earth, I’d always known the universe was much bigger than what we could see with our naked eye,” he says, and Allura can see the multitude of stars reflected in his wide-eyed stare. “But now, especially after what the Olkari have taught us, when I look at how vast the whole galaxy really is and realize there’s still so much I don’t know, still so much I’ve yet to explore… I don’t know. Somehow, I’m even more convinced that we really are all connected.”
Yeah—except for the Galrans, she thinks, but she can’t bring herself to say it now and ruin the mood. Not when Keith’s gazing up at the constellations with the kind of curiosity and reverence found in the face of a young awe-struck child. It’s the first time Keith has ever let down his guard in front of her like this and it feels sacred, something she wants to keep untainted. And when she stares back up at the skies alongside with him, she too feels the same transporting effect, finding herself back in a time when she once looked up at the stars with her father.
She was sitting in his arms in the middle of the juniberry fields as he stroked her hair, telling her stories of legends and great kings of old. We are all connected, he had told her then—though that was before Zarkon betrayed him. She doesn’t know if she can fully believe that anymore. After what the Galra did to their planet, how could they ever find such a harmonious balance in the world again?
But even as the burning rage begins to flare up in her heart, when Allura looks back at Keith out of the corner of her eye, she can’t help but simply let the anger dissolve. Not wanting to destroy the rare bit of serenity they’ve both managed to obtain, she pushes the thought away, for Keith’s sake.
Instead, she lets the memory of her father’s voice calm her mind in the form of a gentle whisper. Because despite the chaos and war that had been dominating their lives, as she sits here with Keith in the cramped space of their pod looking out into the night, Allura is grateful to have a friend to share in this small moment of peace.
#voltron legendary defender#voltron#kallura#keith#allura#justine writes#they are pod baes#peas in a pod#ngl wanting to write allura as someone with very teenager behaviors#was a huge motivator for this fic#justinewrites#!mine
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