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Kinktober Day 5:Â Nukklebust Productions Presents
Kinktober Day 5 Prompts: Kneeling ~ Triple penetration ~ Video (being recorded) Fandom: Original (Auchendale Archives) Tags: exophilia, m/f, slight f/f, orgy, triple penetration, kneeling, video recording, pornography, group sex, anal plug, sex toys, Pairing:GoblinM/HumanF, GoblinM/ElfF, HumanF/ElfF
[Authors Note: This is purely self indulgent smut that I have written for my own personal enjoyment and it is loosely based on a dream I had a few weeks ago. I was torn between putting this in Warcraft or not and I decided to put it in the Auchendale universe so I can use Ember since I kind of fell in love with her, which was unintentional since I made her on a whim. Vyzzie was borrowed from a friend with permission.]
The owners of The Scarlet Eclipse had some very firm rules on photography and video being taken in the club. The top rule was that in general it wasnt allowed. This was to help enforce privacy rules and ensure that the people who came to the club felt safe. The exception to the rule was, of course, pornography. The owners had a relationship with a few directors in the industry and allowed some of their rooms to be used for photo shoots and film shoots as long as nothing got out of hand and it was kept quiet. The location was never allowed to be revealed.Â
There were limitations of course, no large productions, and only so many rooms could be rented out for this purpose. The club still needed to cater to its own clientele of course, and it opened up the opportunity for people to explore their own exhibitionist and voyeuristic fetishes. Once it became known, it was an open secret around the club. Privacy was still respected, but the owners invested in a remodel that turned a couple of the rooms into permanent filming areas. They could be accessed through a special door and from the outside and the area could be locked down if needed.
When not in use by professionals, the owners allowed club members to book the rooms for a fee and they would get a copy of the finished product for their own personal enjoyment. Some allowed their amateur films to be released online, most kept them private. VIP members of the club were allowed to use these areas for free with enough prior notice. As it was, there was a waiting list, and sometimes it could take a few months to gain access to one of the rooms, especially if you needed a specific one.Â
The club owners had made it easy to check the availability of the rooms online, and there was a link to the waiting list. Anyone already on it could also check their place in the queue. Vyzzie had been checking every day for the last few weeks to see if his request had been bumped up in the queue. He had paid extra and used his friends VIP access to cut in line as much as he could. He was eager to do the scene and had been making preparations for almost two months now. The preparations had to be changed multiple times already as people had backed out and Vyz knew the longer it took the harder it would be to do.
Thankfully his friend had promised not to back out and had even suggested bringing someone along so she wasnât the only female in the scene. It meant they could do much more with what they had left and the plans for the scene had begun to change. It was shaping up to be one of his better ideas, he just had to make sure the people still on board stayed on board.Â
The idea had come about after a wild night with two chicks he didnât really know well. He ended up getting kind of close to one of them and she had expressed a desire to have another threesome but with two guys instead. He knew someone that would be interested and it had been fun, but then they got to thinking, why not invite more people, and the idea developed into something that Vyz was quite eager for, as was his new friend Ember.Â
Vyzzie had promised that he would only invite people she trusted, and Ember offered to bring her elf friend from the first time. It was shaping up to be quite a scene and once it was settled the negotiations began and everything was put in place with an understanding of what was expected of everyone. Simple color codes would be used instead of safe words so that everyone could be on the same page and no one got lost or confused.
When the day finally came Vyz could barely contain his excitement. He had gone over the details with Ember so many times that they both decided to share control of the situation. It also lead to copious amounts of sex between the two of them as every time they discussed it the conversation would inevitably arouse one or both of them. They had pretty much fucked on every surface in Vyzzieâs apartment, including his roommate's bed. That one he wasnât particularly proud of when it was discovered and he had to do a lot of apologizing to make up for it.Â
With Ember in tow and some luggage Vyz arrived at the club a few hours before the filming was going to start. This was pretty standard to give them time to set up, and get everyone ready. He was practically vibrating with excitement the goblin looking up at his human companion with mischievous violet eyes.Â
âOk, so itâs gonna be an hour before the others show up. I thought we could get everything set up and go over the negotiations one last time. Make sure nothin essential god missed.â Vyz opened the door to the main room and dropped off his bags before peeking into the equipment room off to the side. It housed all the recording equipment, back up servers, everything they needed but it was empty. âOk looks like the crew ainât here yet. Sâfine, gives us a bit more time.â
Ember moved around the room checking things out and setting her luggage near the back wall and out of the way. She could change later. For now the room needed some work. The bed would be plenty large enough for all of them, not much else in the room would make it into the shot, but it was still worth it to spruce up the room and make it look nice. Despite what they were going to be doing, Ember wanted it to have a soft feeling and she began digging through the chests full of props and accessories to see how they could alter the look and feel of the room.
âWhatcha got there dollface?â Vyz had slipped up behind Ember, placing a hand on her ass and peering into the chest she was digging through.Â
âI was hoping to find something to help the room look less plain and sterile. The bed is nice, its a good size. The furniture all matches and it looks ok. Has a bit of a hotel feel which might be on purpose, but I was kind of hoping for something a little different?â She looked at him and rolled her eyes when she felt him rubbing her ass. âYou are getting awfully friendly there Vyzzie.â
âYer my friend.â He quipped and pinched her. âDonât worry. I remember. No attachments. Doesnât mean I canât enjoy the benefits package.â Smirking he dug through the chest with a free hand, black claws catching on some fabric. âI trust your taste. I know we were only at your place once, but I liked it. Lots of lights, colors. Had that weird gothic rainbow vibe going. You got a unique style Em, that is for sure.â
âHow about we change the lamps, throw up some lights on the wall, drape some fabric around and soften the whole room up a bit. Considering what we are going to be doing, it will be a really interesting contrast I think.â Ember pulled some sheer fabric from the chest and began draping it on the headboard.
âI like how you think. Let the room be soft, the actions hard.â Vyz helped change out the room decor to match her vision. It was getting close to when the others should start arriving. âHey, uh.. Emmy? You know if you arenât sure about this or need to change some stuff I will understand. You know that right?â
Ember laughed. âEmmy?â She stepped over to Vyz, running a hand through his dark blue hair. âYeah Vyz. I know. I wouldnât have agreed to this if I didnât trust you.â
âI will make sure your boundaries ainât crossed. I know ya got some hang ups and all that. Donât want there to be any pressure in the moment to do anything you ainât sure of. I know how it gets once a scene starts and ya get caught up in it. Donât want that ta happen here.â
Ember nodded. âThat is why I brought a precaution. I really donât like anal, and I wonât be able to relax if I worry that it might happen, even accidentally. So I brought a plug with me to help. If something is already there that I am comfortable with, then nothing else can go in and I can relax. I know it sounds counter intuitive and it took me a long time to get to a point where I can even use it, but it actually helps and functions in a way that lets me maintain control over it.â
âNot weird, makes a lot of sense actually. You control its size, when you use it, and it prevents anyone you are with from just having an âoopsâ moment or doin the whole âit's better to ask forgiveness than permissionâ nonsense. I hear ya, I support it. Need any help or just some privacy?âÂ
âI can go put it in myself, wont take me too long I prepared myself for it but didnât want to have it in all day. Give me a few minutes to get ready if you want to finish the room?â
âSure, no problem, I can get it done.â Vyz went back to putting the finishing touches on the room when the crew arrived.Â
They began setting up the cameras at the goblins' instruction and made sure all the equipment was well hidden so as to not ruin the scene. There would only be so many angles shot and the final product would time some time to edit and put together into something polished and finished, ready for release, but Vyz was fine with waiting.Â
He had initially thought to hire a scene director, someone to keep everyone on track, but instead chose to work through the scenario with everyone, set a basic structure, and then just let things happen naturally. He wanted it to be real, visceral, and that wouldn't happen if there was a script or strict direction to follow.Â
Ember came back into the room with nothing but a mask and some thigh high socks on. The masquerade mask was small, simple, and not too bulky. It would stay on easily, and leave her mouth and nose free. The thigh highs were a request from Vyz. The only other things she had on was special body make up that would hide her tattoos and dried down so it wouldnât smear. She had practiced with it before, going through an intense sex scene to see how well it held up to sweat and other body fluids along with friction. It held up well enough that she was confident in being filmed. She knew her tattoos were recognizable enough that she just wasnât willing to risk it since Vyz made it clear this wasnât going to stay private.
The muscular goblin let out a low whistle when he saw Ember. The thigh high socks were perfect. A soft looking material, black, and they hugged her thighs in a way that made it clear they wouldnât move. The mask was black with silver accents and it made her look elegant. âDamn, you sure do make a pretty picture there Em. So uh, when is Vela gonna arrive?â
âShe should have already been here. I told her she needed to get here early to get ready. I hope everything is ok. Let me text her real fast.â Heading back to her bags to grab her phone Ember didnât notice the door opening again.
The rest of the goblins arrived as a group. Vyz greeting his friends and acquaintances with a smile. âGlad ta see ya made it boys. Ember is in the back finishin up and we are just waitin on Velasara. I think you only met Ember thoughâ Vyz commented to his friend.Â
Coming back out Ember paused to see a room full of goblins standing around. All eyes were suddenly on her and never before had she felt more like prey. The moment passed quickly but it was hard to shake as a few sets of eyes lingered.Â
âHere lemme introduce you. Ember you already know Krazz from the party. Those two are Riznik and Viznik, twins if it wasnât obvious, and that is Zorblix.â Vyz finished the introductions.
âJust Blix.âÂ
Ember nodded and waved. âI would appreciate it if my name wasnât used during filming, if it is all the same.â
âSure thing, not a problem. Anyone else?â Vyz knew that both women would be in masks, but he wasnât sure about anyone else.â
âIâm good with not using names. We all wearing masks or just the girls?â Krazz rolled his shoulders and looked for a place to set down his bag. âI brought one with me just in case. No offence but I am not sure I want to be recognized.â
âWe can just avoid names entirely if it helps. I canât imagine there is gonna to be much talkinâ Vyz chimed in, his accent sounding much thicker in comparison to his friend.Â
âI donât really give a shit either way. Not my first rodeo, so it is all fine with me.â Blix moved off to the back of the room and began stripping.Â
There was a knock interrupting the conversation and the door slowly opened. âHello? I am sorry I am late.â Vela stepped in looking a bit frazzled. âSorry got caught up and it took me some time to get everything together. I hope I didnât put us too far behind?âÂ
âNah, yer good, we ainât even started.â Vyz waved the lithe elf over and gestured to the back. âGo get ready and we can do a final run through and just make sure everyone is on the same page before we begin.â Vyz moved back to the recording room and spoke to the staff there, making sure that they would be ready to go as soon as the group finished their preparations.Â
While Vyzzie was busy, the rest of the goblins stripped and got ready for the scene. The twins were engaged in a bout of rock paper scissors to decide who got which girl to start as they wanted some separation to start. Krazz slipped on his own mask, looking a bit like a corvid with the beak design. It was a little flashy for porn, but it went well with Ember's mask. He hoped that he would get a shot with the human at some point as he had been attracted to her since they met at a party Vyz had invited him to.Â
Blix was busy strapping on his harness and cock ring. Fully prepared for taking over should the others struggle with any part of the scene. Of all of them he had the most experience performing for the camera, he knew the best angles, how to position himself, and all the tricks needed to not blow his load too quickly. Considering how hot the girls were in this scene, those were some tricks he was going to have to utilize.Â
Velasara came back looking an almost striking opposite of Ember. Her thigh highs were white with ruffles, her mask had white feathers and delicate gold filigree. She was taller than Ember with a lithe and delicate frame and soft features. Comparatively her body was a bit more slender when compared to Ember's more generous curves. The contrast made the pair enticing to look upon and the goblins in the room struggled to remain professional.Â
Ember leaned up and tugged Vela down to whisper in a long ear. The tittering laugh from the elf filld the room as both women seemed quite amused about something. It made Vyz a little suspicious and he hoped that this wasnât going to be something he needed to worry about later.Â
âOk, so here is the scene. I figure it will be easier if we donât all start at first. I was thinking the girls could have a solo scene together or with one other person involved, then we can introduce some others, or if we are worried about time, then maybe we all just start? Opinions?â Vyz was looking around at the people gathered and realized how this looked. He hadnât meant to only invite goblins, that was how it worked out. With all the cancellations and rescheduling, this was the group he ended up with and looking at it objectively, this would probably end up in a fetish category when released, even if there wasnât a ton of kink involved.Â
âWell are you looking to build a plot or not? Like do we want to have dialog, a wisp of a story, or just get to the fucking already?â Ember asked as she leaned into Vela
âGood question, uh, any thoughts, I know we ainât got a ton of time. I booked us for the rest of the day, but gettin shots set up can eat into that, and we donât really have a script. I kinda wanted this ta feel natural, a bit more amateur and spontaneous.â Vyz admitted.
âEh, speaking as the one with experience here. Neither are going to work. It is too late to try and fudge a script and just jumpin in is going to get someone injured. I say let the girls warm each other up, that should also warm the rest of us up and get the mood set. I can tell first timers when I see em and there are some nervous faces in this group.â Blix walked up to Vyz and gestured to the setting. âPlus, with a setting like this, it just screams lesbian porno. So why not start that way? Then we transition into the spit roasting, the group sex, multiple penetration shots, all of that.â He shrugged and his eyes widened. âOh, condoms? We doing condoms or creampies?â
âCreampiesâ Vyz interjected. âThat is why this took so long. Everyone had to test clean and have alternative forms of birth control. We can switch to condoms if anyone is still uncomfortable with sloppy seconds or had some questionable interactions since getting tested.â
âOk so it seems like we are ready. Vela, after you.â Ember gestured to the bed and smiled as her elvish friend climbed up on the bed. Ember followed staying on her hands and knees while Vela got situated.Â
âWhat the fuck is that?â Blix blurted out and both girls fell into hysterical laughter.Â
It took several moments for them to calm down enough for Ember to speak. âI have some hangups where anal sex is involved. I felt the only way I would be able to relax is to ensure that it couldnât happen, even accidentally. Thus, an anal plug.â
âOk, yeah, I get it, makes perfect sense. What I meant, was why is it flashing like a rave?â
Ember fell over laughing again and just shook her head, it took her a bit to compose herself. âLook, it is a thing with me. I never do anything even halfway normal. You see my hair. My house look like a goth and a unicorn got into a fight. I like bright shiny things and honestly with the lights on it shouldnât even be that noticeable or a distraction. I set it to slow strobe and match the lights hanging on the wall above the bed.â
âOk, alright. One more question. Where did you get it and how much?â Blix was laughing and shrugging at the stares he was getting. âWhat? I wanna add one to my collection ok?â
âLet's talk after. I can give you all the details.â Ember slid up next to Vela and gave her friend a gentle kiss.Â
Both women were clearly nervous to start and Vyz knew that the first several minutes of footage probably wouldnât be used. Watching them slowly explore each other was a different kind of arousing entirely, and it was difficult not to get caught up in the moment and just be content with watching. The slide of their bodies together, the soft moans, the way the colors of their limited clothing contrasted, it was a truly beautiful sight. One that Vyz was loathe to interrupt, but knew he would have to if they were going to get to the point of the scene.Â
The others held back waiting for Vyz to give the signal, It was hard not to be entranced, watching the women together. Especially once it was clear that they forgot where they were and were simply focused on the pleasure. Vyz held off a bit longer, watching with a slow smile as the women rocked slowly together at first, then sped up. The sound of their shared orgasm rang through the room snapping the goblins out of the spell they had been under.Â
Ember lay next to Vela, her breathing slowing to normal as they nuzzled and kissed each other. Hands still exploring as they enjoyed the afterglow of their shared pleasure. Ember would have to remember this, maybe invite Vela over sometime to just see how things might work out between them. Up until this moment Ember was certain her elvish friend was straight, maybe that was not the case now and it was something worth exploring, only later.Â
The bed shifted slightly as Vyz hopped up on the bed, crawling over to Ember and nipping her shoulder and neck. Pulling her gently and slowly to another part of the bed. The only way this would work was with a bit more space between the woman. Krazz was next on the bed, slipping up next to Vela and stroking over her sides and hip, his hands slipping up to her breast, fingertips teasing over her nipple.Â
Riz and Blix joined Krazz by the elf, all of their touches light. Wanting to start slow, ease into it. Viz, was the last to join, slipping up next to Ember and Vyz, nuzzling at the humanâs ample chest. Everything was slow to start, no one wanting to be the first to break the soft moment that had somehow been created. Vyz was the first to lose his battle with desire and pushed Ember onto her stomach, slipping a pillow under her hips and angling her face away from him.Â
It was simply impossible to resist her, the scent of her, the sight of her, Vyzzie buried his face against her nether lips and pushed his tongue in, tasting her depths. Lips crooked up in a half smile at the sound of her moans suddenly being muffled. He didnât have to look to know what had just happened and he was excited at how much Ember seemed to be enjoying it. Cutting his oral exploration short, Vyzzie lifted up and angled himself behind her, pushing his hard cock against her slick opening. She was so wet, so much wetter than he had expected and found it was far easier to slide in that usual.Â
While the flashing light was a bit of a distraction, Vyz found it easier and easier to ignore the deeper he slid into Ember until he was balls deep and groaning. His claws dug into her skin as his control slipped for just a moment and he had to pause before thrusting. His ears twitched at the sounds coming from the other end of the bed and he risked a glance over at the elf. The sight was almost enough for him to lose it right there and he had to snap his gaze back down to Ember.Â
Vela was up on her knees, Riding Riz, with Blix behind her, and Krazz standing with a firm grip on her head as he thrust into her mouth. Blix was still gently preparing her with some lube and a finger while he encouraged Riz with a quiet voice to keep a slow pace and to gently stimulate her clit. Blix knew that increasing the elfs pleasure was going to keep her relaxed and make penetration much easier. The extra lube helped as well and he wanted to make sure that she was fully ready before even attempting penetration. His experience was why he was the one handling preparing her and subsequently the one to be granted the pleasure of having her that way.Â
Viz was careful, his hands resting on Emberâs head more than holding it as he thrust into her mouth. He was originally going to let her set the pace, and at first he did, but found that it just felt too good and he could not resist the urge to move his hips. He was focused, entirely on her and how it felt to be so far in her mouth and pushing into her throat. The feeling was unlike any other he had experienced, as this was his first time really trying anything with a human. He had a preference for orcish women, but now he wasnât so sure that would be the case going forward. There was something softer, sweeter, more delicate about a human and he was eager to have his turn with the elf as well.Â
Emberâs eyes rolled back in her head as Vyz snapped his hips forward hitting that spot so deep that only he ever seemed to hit just right. The feel of someone both in her throat and fucking her was becoming overwhelming. It was everything she had wanted from this experience and a little more. She could tell Viz was going easy on her, and she tried to encourage him when he began thrusting into her mouth. Closing her eyes she swallowed around him, letting her throat constrict around the head of his cock making him moan. It clearly worked to erode at his control as his hips snapped forward suddenly. She opened her eyes and looked up at him, his expression was one of slight concern. She just nodded, hoping he understood.Â
It was pure heaven when Viz finally took the hint that she could handle it and threaded his fingers tighter in her hair, getting a good grip and tugging as he pushed his cock deeper into her throat. She was no longer giving him a blowjob, he was fucking her face, and her moans got louder and louder as she drew closer to release. The feel of her friend fucking her so hard and deep, his balls slapping against her clit as his sharp claws left little pinpricks of pain in her hips increased the sense of euphoria washing over her. Ember slipped into a more relaxed state, letting her body go slightly limp so that she could more easily be penetrated by both goblins. Soon her nose was pressed into the dark curls above Vizâs shaft as she felt his cock swell in her throat. A loud sharp moan from above her and the sudden heat in her throat let her know the goblin had reached climax.
Rope after rope of cum was pumped into her throat as Viz pulled out, some of his seed coating her mouth and lips, some hitting the mask as he fell back panting, clearly worried that he was choking her. With her airway free Ember could be better heard as she also reached climax almost the same time as Vyz did inside of her. The combined pleasure of dual penetration and stimulation was more than enough to send Ember over the edge hard. Vyz hunched over her back as he found his own release.Â
Vela was on edge as well with Krazz thrusting more firmly into her mouth while Blix had slowly pushed inside of her. The feeling over all her holes being filled was one she had never thought she would enjoy and was now worried she would become addicted to. Somehow Riz and Blix found a Rhythm that kept almost constant stimulation within her, an almost overwhelming sensation as she was filled beyond anything she had ever experienced before. Surprisingly Vela was the first to reach release, easily, as Riz had continued stimulating her clit while she rode him. Since they were not closed to finished, the goblins did not stop and continued to fuck the elf right through her first orgasm.Â
Blix helped Riz by taking over the clitoral stimulation so the other goblin could get a better grip on the elf to thrust deeper and faster up into her. Krazz kept his movements slow, despite wanting to just let go. He wanted to keep an eye on her to ensure that she remained ok, and he wanted to draw this out as much as possible. Vela was well on her way towards a second orgasm when Riz thrust up hard into her with a loud cry, his body shaking slightly as he emptied his seed inside of her. He could tell that Blix would probably be next and helped by reaching up and teasing Velaâs nipples to see if he could send the elf over the edge again.
Vela came almost at the same time as Blix who had snarled as he finally came, almost biting her and stopping himself at the last minute as he just pressed his forehead against her back and rode out his own pleasure while pumping his cum deep inside of her. The contractions of her body milking him for every drop he had as his grip on her remained tight. Krazz was the last to release, finally letting himself go and speeding up, pushing almost his full length into her throat with a loud cry. He almost fell over from the intense pleasure as he had unintentionally edged himself for the last bit of it.Â
Carefully the goblins pulled out of their partners and all that could be heard was the sound of light panting and breathing normalizing. Vyz was the first one to speak. âOk swap? Who wants to swap.â
Krazz raised his hand. âI call your position.â The others laughed at how quickly he responded.Â
Blix shook his head. âI am good where I am if there are no complaints?âÂ
âNah, Iâm good, Iâll swap.â Riz offered. âUnless you want to stay with Ember Vyz?â
âThat would put you and your brother on the same girl, that ok?â
âI donât care, as long as our balls donât touch it ainât gay right?â Viz offered as a joke, he new that gay wasnât the problem in that scenario, but it wouldnât be the first time they had shared.
Ember lost it a little bit at that and then so did Vela. The boys had to wait for the giggling to die down before new positions could be achieved. Krazz rolled Ember onto her side, moving the pillow.Â
âThis ok?â He asked before positioning her leg up on his shoulder.Â
Ember nodded and tilted her head up at Vyzzie. She had expected him to take a turn with Vela, and maybe he would, the night was young and there was no reason that they wouldnât swap positions a few more times, especially with some of the ideas Vyz had shared with her during planning. He was smiling at her, stroking her hair away from her mask and carefully wiping the cum from it. Ember realized, from the look in his eyes that they might need to have a conversation later. It was clear an attachment might be forming and she just wasnât ready for another relationship. Something she hoped wouldnât ruin the friendship they already had. Glancing down she could see the eager look in Krazzâs eyes as he gazed down at her, positioning himself against her cum soaked folds. Ok, strike that, maybe a conversation with Vyz could happen after she got him and Krazz alone sometime and had them fuck her absolutely senseless. She had a feeling this was going to be a bit of a wild ride and while she still could she glanced over to see Vela being re positioned, clear glee on her friends face, even with the mask there was no missing that expression.Â
The night was filled with the sounds of moans as the group quickly forgot the cameras and worked on trying as many different positions and combinations as they could before eventually collapsing in and exhausted heap and snuggling up together before the staff gently reminded them that closing time was less than an hour away.Â
Overall, the experience had been one that wouldnât be easily forgotten and new friends had been made from the most unlikely of scenarios. They all agreed that this was something they would like to try again, maybe with a script and more elaborate costumes, but that was a conversation for a later date when everyone was clean and well rested.
#exophilia#goblin boyfriend#goblin x human#goblin x elf#human x elf#Auchendale Archives#Kinktober 2020
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How to enter a fandom - RPC
Hey guys, time for a friendly PSA from yours truely~
So Iâve been in and out of a lot of fandoms, made friends, enemies, frenemies, grave mistakes and happy accidents. I also see a lot of people come in other fandoms. Most of yall do great but I see some people carry in this weird sort of self deprecating attitude that can immediately turn rpers away from them, which results in; more of that self deprecation. So Im here to hopefully help out with the best ways to enter a fandom or an rpc, make your presence known and make lots of wonderful friends.
Now the first, and most important thing, and I notice a ton of people struggle with it is:
General attitude.Â
Let me give two examples of some first time posts.
âHey! Iâm new to the fandom. I know my bio and my theme sucks but would anyone like to rp? Maybe?â
VS.
âHey! Iâm new to the fandom. My bio and rules are located here, though theyâre still under construction Iâm really eager to develop them with interactions!â
Now I know the first one is tempting for a lot of reasons. You might not even feel like its all that bad, but up next to the second one it actually sounds a little...depressing, monotone, dry. Even though they start the same, one ends with me feeling like: this person really doesnât put effort into things, they dont even really want to be here. All my threads with them are going to be lazily written or probably written with half baked enthusiasm.
The second person is happy to be here, eager to interact, admits that since theyâre a new blog not everything is perfect. Yet, they donât talk down on themselves or make it seem like anyone who talks to them will only be taking pity on them.
This is actually a big problem I see in the rpc. Making people take pity on you for interactions and the rule with that is simple:
donât make people feel like they have to take pity on you.Â
Itâs a knee jerk reaction, I know. Weâre all awkward humans on the internet who want to play up our faults. Who wants to say âMy stuff is SO awesome! Itâs the bestâ???Â
Well. You do. Youâre new to a fandom. People already have established relationships, character arks, possibly with another version of the muse youre playing. Backstories so detailed itâll make your head spin. You are literally selling yourself to these other rpers. Donât sell them âA vacuum cleaner that sucks. No, not sucks up the dirt, it just sucks. Like me, Im trash and dont even have a working vacuumâ No one wants to buy a vacuum cleaner that sucks.
Hate to break it to you, but when you say you suck, or your stuff sucks; people are gunna believe you. Or theyâre just gunna pity you. And thats not great either.Â
Heck you might think; why not? So long as they rp with me, whats wrong with that?Â
Well... lots of things but mostly; pity isnât a good feeling. Nobody wants to feel guilted into rping with you. Imagine seeing someone on your dash constantly posting about how no one likes them, their character or interacting with them. How they wanna die because they never get asks, no one likes their starters. (Sound extreme? Iâve seen it.) It makes you feel bad right? It makes you wanna like them but like- where do you even start??? They donât even like them?? What common ground do you have?? âHey, I see you hate yourself... uh... I hate you too?â Not great. Actually bad. You donât know how to approach this person without becoming an emotional crutch, and you know theyâll latch on to you and suck every positive emotion out of your body so how do you win?
So lesson one is; People donât want to be forced to feel so bad that they rp with you, they want to feel inspired to. Inspire some dudes! (or non-dude identifying people)
Presentation!
This is everything. Present yourself. You donât need flashy icons or a cool promo- let me tell you, Iâve made some shitty promos in my life. See Here
That was my promo for a long as time. Until it was THIS that a friend made for me (A friend that I made. Through how awesome I presented myself. Thanks Vee, if you see this I still love you)
I canât stress enough how important attitude is because Iâve had both a shitty attitude and a great one in the RPC and let me tell you, nothing kills a blog faster than a shitty attitude. Wanna make a self deprecating posts about that meme that you got 0 asks for? NUH UH. Think again. PITY = BAD, SHORT LASTING FRIENDSHIPS. INSPIRED = SUPER AWESOME HAPPY FUN TIMES FOREVER.
Yo, present yourself in a way that makes people wanna approach you. Get them interested, say something wacky or edgy or if your character is self deprecating then self deprecate through them but DO IT IN A FUN WAY. The people who care about icons and fancy promos usually arenât worth lasting friendships either. Sometimes they literally spend more time formatting than writings something worth while for you. (some of you really balance it and just love formatting but u know im not talking about u Im talking about those that literally wont talk to us that dont)
So present yourself well and be genuine.
--- WAIT WAIT WAIT- be genuine?? What if my genuine self is self deprecating and negative?Â
[JOHNNY TEST NOISE]Â
HELL NO shut the what up I know youâre not, I know thatâs a reflex to cover up how insecure you are, I know you hate how pathetic and small you feel so you point out all the things wrong with you before someone else can. Thatâs not you, and you are capable of more than that.
Dude. (and non-dude identifying peeps) Iâm gunna say it again. Iâm gunna say it a million times; one day it will sink in. Everybody feels that way.Â
What?? Octo ur so cool and confident tho
You know how you never noticed?? CANT SEE MY HANDS SHAKE THROUGH THE COMPUTER.
DONT KNOW HOW LONG I HESITATED BEFORE SENDING THAT ASK MEME TO YA.
The internet is a playground because you can trick people into believing whatever you want about yourself. YEP even good things!!! You donât have to wear your flaws on your sleeve, and you certainly donât have to wear them like a full body cast that prevents you from doing anything fun in your life.
Take the cast off, take a risk. You literally have nothing to lose. Especially if no one interacts with you as is anyways.
Be mindful
This is more of a trick I use to make myself feel better. I donât follow a lot of people so my dash is pretty slow. Itâs fairly easy to tell when people are and arenât active/online so I literally have to trick myself sometimes but;
If you reblog a meme and get nothing, step back and ask yourself; am I sure anyone even saw it? and are the people who did maybe to shy to send anything? Or maybe nothing in that meme applies to their character.
As a mute character I am VERY restricted to what memes I reply to. As a character who speaks VERY LITTLE I am VERY restricted to what dialogues I can send at all. This means Iâm required to edit memes a little (this is allowed by most meme creators btw) or I need a very good relationship with a character in order to say/sign that many words at them.
And worse case scenario, queue it and reblog it again/later. Its no biggie, some memes donât make it.
Self reflect
Check out people on the dash. Do they have interactions? What are they like? Is their character more welcoming? Maybe youâre character is more intimidating. You might need to actually seek out interaction.
Tumblr has this huge enigma where everyone wants asks but no one wants to send them. Curious anons come from someone, magic anons come from your peers, followers, friends. Some of them are pretty obvious. Want asks? Send them. We really need to get the ball rolling with this because its honestly a problem. Show some initiative and reach out. It actually feels pretty good seeing someone react to your outrageous anon. And its a lot of stress relief if you play an otherwise very serious character to get to branch out and be silly.
So you send asks, you like starter calls- why isnât it working?
Well, a stranger knocks on your door and tries to get to know you. Its a little awkward- it can work sure in some cases. But in most youâll probably close the door and phone the police.
The RPC isnât as strange as that but whatâs easier? Talking to a muse youâve never met from a blog youâve never seen before? Or writing a thread with your best bud, throwing in inside jokes and references to your favourite shows- teasing each other about that one embarrassing thing that happened to your muse- yeah. Yeah you get it.
If you have history or at least an idea what someone is like, you will want to interact with them more. I donât know if youâre some mean... meanie pants whos gunna smack my muse because he offered you a cookie. And maybe you are, but if I donât know you, or know that your muse is deeply traumatized by cookies, I might take that as you saying âEw no get away I never wanna rp with youâ.
It sounds harsh, but I KNOW it happens. It STILL happens to me, even with people Iâm friends with. Even if someone has multiple blogs and I get on fine with one muse, if the other hates me I might get uneasy about sending in asks cause I feel like Iâm directly bothering the mun (who I love on this blog but WHAT IF THEY START HATING ME THERE TOO???)
Separation is tricky. We all get jealous or feel neglected when our partners focus on another thread/ship or send mean angsty replies which is why its important to check yourself remind yourself you have value, mun =/= muse and that itâs all in good fun.
Have Rules
UGH no!!! Not rules I hate rules, I dont want to restrict anyone!
Listen. I get it. I was a rule-less blog for a long time. But you know what? You need them. Not just for you, but for the people who wanna interact. I still feel the need to ask people who have rules what they are and arenât comfortable with. You might not realize it but shit can go down in rps especially in certain fandoms. Even if its just the basics. Write them. They matter.
Unless youâre fine with someone literally controlling your character, or a blog you dont even follow who RPs David Letterman tags you in a smutty thread where your muse and him are married and heâs heavily pregnant with 4 narwal babyâs I- I think you can see where Iâm going.
If its just the basics, thats fine, everyone loves seeing that. No god modding, not forced shipping, ect- great. Less for me to remember. Add to it if you need to. Everyone experiences rp different. Make your experience a comfortable one.
(And stay tf away from me Preggo-letterman)
Step away.
If youâre feeling negative, just step away. Do not make a big post about it alerting everyone who follows you because they might not all respond well. If you have close friends in then fandom you can go to, talk to them, vent a little, or just remove yourself and get those feelings out. But remember that no one here is equipped to be your therapist, and we cant all be expected to take the burden from you. It is up to you to regulate your emotions. Use coping skills but please donât make the fandom or your blog a toxic place to be.
You donât feel good, and no one reading your posts feels good, and building friendships on not feeling good is just... completely not good.
Im not saying you must be sunshine and rainbows all the time, but feeling bad feels bad and even though rping is just a hobby and a past time you are still reaching into other peoples lives. Leave a good impact, try to be someone you would want to meet in the rpc. Make it a better place.
Tips and Tricks
If you leave with nothing else, please take these:
Send Messages.Â
IM people, send them asks, get to know them before RPing.
Be kind.
Be generous.
Be enthusiastic.
Be happy.
#PSA!!!#Im so so so SO sorry its so long#I tried really hard to make it entertaining#anyways I just get a lot of people asking me how to enter the RPC and...#I wish I had heard this shit when I started lmao#rp#tumblr rp#roleplay
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moominland chronicles fßnfzehn: felice vs the german health care system
Hello you,Â
Itâs 4am on Friday morning, Iâm lying in bed with one of my 3 flowered ikea lamps burning away, holding my cuddly pig tight to my chest whilst I tap out this blog on my iphone, balanced on a pillow.
I cant sleep.
Iâm going to get a taxi to hospital in 5 hours.
Before we start all that please administer any of the below music to yourself as an accompaniment, Iâve been dipping my toes into the clear water of pop shoals this week, I might be the last person to have listened to blond (an article in vice insisted upon me lining it up on my google play - still no cd player, I know):
Frank ocean
Nikes (song, always a fan of a big opener on an album)
https://vimeo.com/179791907?ref=em-share
Blond (album, yes you've probably heard it already)
https://www.discogs.com/Frank-Ocean-Blond/master/1046042
I'm also late on the train for Mitski Iâm sure, but the words, restrain in her voice and divergent harmonies (discordant, is that better?) are searing through me, might listen again in the hospital tomorrow.
Though perhaps as she grows older she wont long for that kiss quite as much as she does now, because prince charming will never save her really (though she does acknowledge that from time to time on this album)
Mitski
A horse named cold air (song)
https://youtu.be/ce3m-o1pZqY
Be the cowboy (Album)
https://mitski.bandcamp.com/album/be-the-cowboy
And just this one song, which kind of speaks frankly from my heart a little, or at least I sympathise with, though in a fuller sense my situation is very different and itâs only my little brain that identifies with the lyrics.
SZA: the weekend
https://youtu.be/PALMMqZLAQk
So then.. youre suited and booted musically, lets press on shall we? After all I mentioned hospital, it would be cruel just to taper off now.
Heres my small brain again:
Fuck the fucking german health system, fuck all those uptight bigoted cunts that put the phone down on me this week, fuck my insurance for charging me since july and slyly adding it to my bill, fuck the man at the tk queue yesterday who aggressively shouted at me for talking on the phone with my sister, about my illness, at the first opportunity that day after a very strange experience with the gynaecologist.
Ok,Â
Iâm breathing, my small brain is retracting, lets continue a bit less aggressively now.
Health health health, weâre jumping back on the theme from last week, because sometimes illness doesn't go away, and as this blog is my warts and all document of the weird happenings of my life, I am going to be very very open about whats happening to me this week.
So Iâm bleeding, like all pre menopausal women do who dont take contraception that inhibits it, thats what was happening in Paris, thats what has been happening for 3 weeks.
Iâve been bleeding for 3 weeks, yes.
I had really bad period pains last time round, which is unusual for me these days, I took buscopan plus, i soldiered on, then it stopped for a week, then it returned, light some days, heavier seemingly at the weekends. I pigheadedly pushed through physically exhausting weeks of cleaning, travelling, working, Iâm a freelance cleaner, I don't get sick pay or holiday pay, I have to work or I can't pay rent.
I wrote a blog about it last weekend. But that was just before the blood clots starting coming, when the first one fell out it plopped in the toilet, I was so shocked I fished it out and curiously studied it (warts and all, Iâm sick of skirting the weirdness in my life: its there: get used to it). I thought it was a dead baby, it was monstrous and displayed a horrid kind of plasticity as it eerily shifted round the jar in my hand I was gently coercing. It was an alien, more like rosemary's baby than my cherub cheeked nephew.
That was MONDAY.
I thought, ok the babies fallen out, now itâll surely stop.
On sunday the bear got in touch, he'd been trying to phone, he was annoyed he couldn't get in contact, he was horny. I told him I was still bleeding, he insisted I go to the doctors, in his very forthright way, he sent me money to go even: because i was clueless about my insurance at that point. I knew iâd been getting letters I couldn't read from tk (die teckniker, german health insurance provider) Â for months, since I stopped working at the hostel, but Iâd just carefully ignored them.
I didn't have the money to pay for health insurance.
I botched my first attempt to see a gynaecologist, I made an appointment online but the transfer the bear made was not in my bank so he asked me to phone them and check payment methods. When I did the receptionist point blank refused to speak English to me, my quandary was simply, âDo I need cash today?â But she was haughty and unsympathetic, another colleague took the phone, who even through garbled understanding felt kinder but it soon transpired that my appointment was for November 1st not October 1st.
âIm very ill i dont think I can wait that long.â
I phoned Meoclinic to be told by a woman with razors in her voice who suddenly became sickeningly sweet after sheâd told me it was âŹ400 just to see someone. I felt like the pleasure she was deriving from me tripping over my words and despairingly saying that was to much money for me, was enough for her to take home and masturbate over later, in her silky agent provocateur corset, on silk sheets, with a flute of champagne on the bedside table.
I gave up for the day and decided that tomorrow Iâd go to the doctors I went to for my sti test a few months ago, they were very nice. They spoke english, they had open appointments the next day at 18h.
TUESDAY
More clots started coming, big, gloopy, just pouring out of me, they were announced by a tirade of blood, I was soaking through organic pads at an alarming rate.
So that wasn't the baby on Monday then.
I went to clean first, I cant afford to not clean for reasons stated above, at an office where the woman who employs me talks to me through gritted teeth as if our every interaction is painful to her.
Lowly pauper girl, know your place.
Anyway due to logistical issues she had probably not envisaged, I didn't do the whole job and left early. I walked out on to the money lined streets of Uhlandstrasse, Cara Delevineâs svelte androgynous eyes staring out at me from various glass paned monoliths, and sat on a moth eaten bench, very upset from the shift, feeling utterly worthless, responsible and at fault, bleeding.
Then I had a cigarette, collected myself and went to tk: Round 1.
I waited, gushing out blood, in line for 25 minutes to see the receptionist, then a further 10/15 to see the sales girl. I dont have to pay them straight away but when november comes I will have to pay them 720+⏠, plus from then on 180⏠a month, from an average wage of 800âŹ.
In retrospect I was probably fully within my right to protest starting the contract from July 1st, but I was so grateful for someone health related to be talking to me in English and perhaps it will stand in my favour now the hospital bills will be tallying up.
I left with no card or proof of insurance.
I went home, lay down, then showered, laced my trainers and went back into the world depleted, to Mehringdam to see the emergency doctors, it was raining heavily outside.
They were different this time, I had no proof of insurance but I had the bears money so I was paying cash, I waited dutifully and wrote in my diary.
It was a different female doctor, a more boxy and less vital woman than the previous medic Iâd met at the same clinic. About halfway into my bloody tale of woe she stopped me panic stricken.
âYou know this is a doctors surgery, you have to go to a gynaecologist.â
âOk, so you cant help me.â - i start putting my coat back on.
A pause.
âCan you at least refer me to one? Iâve had a hard time trying to find a gynaecologist, I can't really speak German, people have been very rude to me so far, I came back here because I remember people were kind and tried to help me, even though I wasn't sure it was the right place.â
We go out to reception where I stand in front of 2 receptionists who speak in German and totally ignore me, the doctor hands me some measly bits of paper with contact details printed on them and hurries away. Shaken from my bloody tale of woe I imagine she just sits in her office for 10 minutes alone obsessively sterilising her hands and shuddering.
I continue to look at the 2 women in front of me who carry on as if I am invisible for a further 5 minutes, I tell them Iâm going to the toilet and then coming back, they brush me off. More blood pours out of me. I return and finally they allow me to pay them, I plod back out into the rain and miserably wait for a bus, head home via the shops and climb back into bed.
WEDNESDAY
Is a national holiday, so I can't sort anything, my client offers me the day off, I take it. I make 9 drawings for my project, bounce the rough edit of the album Iâm working on, pull myself to the dance studio Iâve started to rent to practise my live show. Have a long overdue singsong, though I can't really dance i can still sing.
Sunday edit: Iâve since missed 2 bookings at the studio because of this infernal bleeding, hope I can go back soon, it was utterly riveting to finally find a place I could sing as loudly as I wanted.
It's a glorious day even though blood still rains, Iâm not cleaning, Iâm doing what i really want to do.
THURSDAY
I need to be at my clients early, but I go via the apotheke on the way, there a pharmacist advises me on the best way to take iron and vitamin supplements, sells me ibuprofen and alerts me to the gynaecologist upstairs, but sheâs only open till 13h, my job is supposed to finish at that time.
I hum and haa as I hobble to my clients and when I get there decide to finish the job early and see if I can get an appointment.
On the way into the building there's a system of doors, I enter alongside an elderly gentleman with a walking stick and we have quite the time not understanding each other, me holding doors for him, him very jovially propping them open with his stick. I have no idea whatâs being said but something tender and wonderful is occurring between us that puts a lightness back in my step.
This reception is slick and clean, the receptionist is neat and elegant. But the doctor isnât there. They wouldnât accept my tk insurance anyway, theyâre going on holiday till November.
Ok,
I leave and just flop down on the street outside, Iâm supposed to be doing a double clean today but I have a 2 hour window before my next job, which is only a 15 minute walk away. Iâm getting closer to seeing someone. Still crouched down on the street, still bleeding, I dig out the contacts handed to me, one is for a doctors Iâve called before. I call 2 numbers from the 4 sheets I have, both go through to hard voiced women who utterly refuse to attempt to speak English to me and relish the goodbyes they bestow before they coldly put the phone down. To the second one I say in English:
âIâm really sick, but if I donât speak German I am just going to continue to be sick, is that what youâre telling me?â
I found a list on google, theres a male gynaecologist just up the road, a man rummaging in my lady bits is a bit disconcerting but truly Iâm beyond pride now.
This reception is more modest, I place my cleaning bucket on the floor and then just start with
âIâm losing a lot of blood, can you please help me.â
Heâs in.
These receptionists are gorgeous humans, they speak to me in broken English, theyâre shocked Iâve been bleeding for 3 weeks, yes he will see me, please take a seat.
Heâs a big warm man with no sexual energy, I tell him everything, I feel so grateful just to be able to see him that Iâm bowing as I say thank you. I get sent to a little room, remove my trousers and knickers, get let into another room, climb on the chair, he inserts the spy camera dildo (ultrasound) device inside me, then on the screen we look at a ball like thing inside my womb.
Hes glowing when he tells me its probably a very early pregnancy, heâs so excited, though itâll most likely be a miscarriage, but he paints a future where my little fetus determinedly survives the bloodletting and in 9 months time arrives in my life.
I cover everything in blood, which freaks him out. Â
âYouâre really bleeding a lot.â
He gives me the ultrasound photo, then after some confusion I go to the nurses and deposit a urine sample on the counter of another room.
âThank you so much for seeing me.â
âOf course: you have been bleeding for 3 weeks.â
As I wait in the reception for the test results a new future, inconceivable before this point, rolls out before me, where I have the baby and take the government stipend to look after it as a single mother, I thought I didnât want kids but something seems so precious about this vision. Itâll just be me and my little ball of love, together in some warm cosy flat in Prenzlauer Berg, surrounded by all the other Berlin mothers.
The test is negative, a jolt of dismay passes through me, the vision is shattered, I have to go to the hospital he says. They give me the bill, without proof of insurance I pay in cash, thanking the bear silently. He also tells me to go to my insurance and get a letter, because the hospital will really cost a lot.
So I go home, breathe and collect myself, go back out. Spend over an hour wandering around looking for a photo kiosk for my insurance card (not blind> Iâm using google maps to try locate one), finally I find it nestled into a dark part of the s bahn station, it costs double what the machine costs but I just eat the charge, earlier Iâd spend 30 minutes wandering around the crossroads outside Leopaldplatz: the fotofix on the map was apparently invisible, I need a picture. I then wait for another 30 minutes to have my photo taken.
When I get to the u bahn where tk is there is a fotofix booth right there, to my left as I walk out of the station, I really hold myself back from screaming and kicking over all the chairs arranged outside the cafe before me. I finally manage to call my sister and it's a glorious funny loving chat, cut short by the aforementioned man in the tk queue.
I tell him in english which he insists he doesn't understand, that I am having the day from hell and that was the first time Iâve managed to speak to that person, he abuses me again in German but then stands very far away from me, the shame weaving around him, I curse him, but its a little thing, just that I hope he gets eaten by spider babies.
Donât take yourself too seriously.
I retrieve my letter from the receptionist, the same sales woman I spoke to on Tuesday who doesnât recognise me at all.
Itâs getting late in the day, I call back my sister and head to Charite Campus Mitte, as I get there it dawns on me this is where I was an extra on an art video shoot around 3 weeks ago.
There is no discernable entrance, it seems mostly deserted. I travel up in a lift towards the gynakolgie department, but when I exit the skybent box that is my vehicle there is no clear signage towards it, just a door to an emergency exit staircase, wind billowing behind it, with a note in fluoro yellow fixed on its metallic facade and a bridge / corridor leading to empty waiting rooms.
I give up, decide Iâll go to the address given to me by the doctors tomorrow. Iâll go home and sleep now.
Home, I eat then I crash, I get into bed at 19h, Iâm still here its now 6am and Iâll try sleep a bit more before I get a taxi at 9am.
Iâm scared
Itâs like some sick version of the night before christmas, black humour and absurdity have been welcome companions but armour fades in bed, so writing this in the knowledge I will share it with the online community has been the only thing I can do to douse the fear.
Iâll probably have to beg receptionists later but I just hope I get to someone who can start to mend me, because the blood is still coming, for the first time since it started it stained my sheets last night but Iâve wiped them down a little.
Sunday edit: the sheets are now in the wash.
Saturday edit: they did see me, Iâm having an operation on monday at 9:30, the saga continues because I have to rush back to the gynaecologists first on monday to get a note so I can be operated on : as by the time I got out of hospital on friday the gynaecologists surgery was closed and nothing is open on the weekends.
And on the anaesthetists form where it asked me who would be collecting me or looking after me for 24 hours after the procedure I stubbornly wrote noone. Though my mentor will be around as I swallowed my pride and asked her.
And, of course, I just expect more bullshit: that was my dads very astute advice:
âExpect more bullshit Felice.â
So then, yes I should speak German, yes I should of sorted my insurance, yes Iâve been irresponsible.
Saturday edit: Iâve been utterly irresponsible and disrespectful to the country I live in, I MUST learn German and make more of an effort to learn their culture, right now Iâm truly an idiot abroad.
I might cancel all my jobs next week as well if Iâm really sick, I might not be able to go to Krakow and watch Eartheater,
Saturday edit: All my jobs are cancelled, one of the days next week is my birthday, which Iâd scheduled a double clean on so perhaps itâs not all bad.
But Iâm not going to see Eartheater, if youâve heard irisiri though ( LISTEN TO IT, I IMPLORE YOU, MORE THAN ONCE, on the first listen itâs quite harsh: https://alexdrewchin.bandcamp.com/releases) then youâll immediately understand that not going to her show because Iâm having my uterus forcibly wedged open and something cut out of it, is utterly appropriate, itâs like missing formula one because you got hit by a ferrari.
I hope Iâll be better by turin.
Saturday edit: very much.
I will still finish this project whatever happens.
Saturday edit: Now I have a week off it should help.
But Iâm not 100% sure how I will make ends meet this month.
Saturday edit: Perhaps the polyp they cut out of me on monday is really an alien and I get paid hush money not to leak the story to the press.
I really miss the nhs, its a big soft Pugsy bear I just want to hug and hold and thank for everything itâs done for me over the years.
The german health system is an amalgamation of all these callous female receptionists, ignoring you and filing their niles whilst you just bleed out in front of them.
But still, Iâm stubborn, its a test and i will overcome it whatever it is. I am not leaving berlin, I am standing taller, stronger and more powerful than before. Iâve experienced completely new angles and feelings this week, itâs been abhorrent but kind of sickly enjoyable as well. Life is always entertaining as it energetically throws its bounty of strangeness, cruelty and beauty (etc) at you.
Itâs all good fun, even the dark days.
Iâm going to try get a bit of shut eye now, might move my alarm back a little see if I can get 2 hours before i wake up to get a taxi.
Take care everyone, if you made it to the end then I guess thank you for reading as well, itâs a long fraught one this week eh?
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