#i purposefully didnt' include much on either minho or thominho's relationship in this fic - bc it's gally's pov and gally very much lives

[its-tea-time-darling]

For the asks! Lead the Way and question 2: what scene did you put down first?

(I also want to ask when/why you decided on the concept you did but I didn’t see that question so here it is on its own spin-off) ☺️

thanks so much for the ask crest! this replies to some stuff you said/observed/wondered about before the reveals so i couldn't reply, so we'll certainly be able to jump start more thourough conversation about this fic from the novel i wrote here. i look forward to it!

<3

(oh, and tagging clod bc maybe you wanna see how your gift came to be @un-ah )

2 Lead the way - what scene did you put down first?

disclaimer: this turned into a 1:1 linear narration of how this fic came to be

the wedding scene. gally exchanging a short greeting with thomas, him about to get married to minho. it ended with a glance exchanged between gally and thomas where we can gather that thomas knows how gally feels, and he is sorry to hurt him, and sorry he can't give him what he wants. (the wedding prompt clod gave specified 'unrequited', so in this first version gally's love was not requited.)

here a link to the song clod included in the unrequited!wedding prompt, i listened to that on repeat for days: TAEYANG - WEDDING DRESS

then, because i'm a simp with a little heart that cannot take too much pain, i realized i couldn't actually write that and still feel some kind of good about myself or the story.

then came the next version (that i still wrote the day the prompts were sent, 17th of october (i remember that date bc the day after is my birthday)). it was 2.5 k words long and did contain the wedding scene but with the ski-lodge flashback scene to show the missed chances gally and thomas had had, and it ended with a glance exchanged between gally and thomas where we can see that 1) thomas knows how gally feels, and 2) thomas is sad about how it ended (or rather: never started) as well, but it's the path he's chosen now. whump whump gally hahha.

but then. the problem was that the fic wasn't unrequited anymore, or not fully, which was what clod's wish said. it's also around that time that i wrote the confession scene i think (because i. couldn't end a thomally fic without them ending up together.)

which then lead me to the problem that i now wasn't fulfilling clod's prompt in any way anymore. which lead me back to the prompts. and there was my salvation: wish 1 'break-up au, it doesn't matter if they get back together again or not'. HA! now i just needed to break them up before i could put them together again!

and yk i love angst, and dyfunctional behaviours and guilt ridden!gally, and thomas losing control, substance abuse etcetc. that's when the whole depression storyline came to me (yes, the idea might just have started with the smut scene what of it), and i was thrilled and exhilarated bc now the whole story and narrative was adding up both in a way that i was thrilled to write and was enjoying SO. INCREDIBLY. MUCH. - and that actually fit with clod's wishes.

so i wasn't able to give clod an actual sad ending, but i could give her an incredibly messy story of them just hurting and hurting each other over and over again.

plus, on the bright side: the ending *does* have thomally finally confessing their feelings, but 1) they will definitely have to put in A Lot of work to make things work between them and 2) the ending's terrible for minho, so it was kind of a not-shiny-perfectly-happy-happy ending!

/proud.

(I also want to ask when/why you decided on the concept you did but I didn’t see that question so here it is on its own spin-off) ☺️

the way i only read this second part of the question now and am pleased to see that i actually did answer this in incredibly depth in the above text - diversity win! :D

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thanks again so much for sending the ask crest!