#i promise im safe but holidays are just hard yk

[emmaxmeyer]

I know i know, same shit different day. but I miss Crow. I miss talking to her all day. I miss hearing those damn weird safety videos she used to send to my husband because they had that in common. I miss just sending memes back and forth, sharing stuff that reminded us of our muses. and i miss the weird random stuff we'd plot. I miss hearing about her day, and her cats and her family. And how she was excited (and terrified) about being an aunt for the first time.

I miss watching her stream games for me, chatting with her while she played RDR2 for the 10000th time. *everything reminds me of her.*

I can't watch half the stuff i love because it all reminds me of my best friend.

this time last year we were doing an rp on discord about a verse I've now had to pack away because it would hurt too much to write in. so many verses I used to write like, my muses lost partners and siblings and friends.

everything hurts.